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♪ I don't wanna be anything ♪

♪ Other than what I've been trying to be lately ♪

♪ All I have to do is think of me ♪

♪ And I have peace of mind ♪

♪ I don't wanna be anything ♪

♪ Other than what I've been trying to be lately ♪

♪ All I have to do is think of me ♪

♪ And I have peace of mind ♪

♪ I'm tired of looking 'round rooms ♪

♪ Wondering what I gotta do ♪

♪ Or who I'm supposed to be ♪

♪ I don't wanna be anything ♪

♪ Other than me ♪♪

Get dressed.

Dude, it's 6:00 a.m. What are you doing?

We're going running.

No, I-I'm going to bed.

I'll just keep knocking.

Playoffs are next week. Gotta get you ready, man.

Pant's up, workout, studying game tape, whatever it takes.

Why?

'Cause I wanna win, and I need your help.

Besides..

...you stood up to my dad the other day.

I owe you.

So, listen..

...there's something that's been bothering me.

The thing Dan said..

...about asking my mom what kind of parent he was.

Any idea what he meant?

Probably just more of his mind games, man.

That's the way he is.

'Are you decent?'

'Clothing wise.'

Hey, you're back online.

Oh, damn. I got dressed in front of that webcam.

Don't tell me that.

'I thought you said that thing was evil anyway.'

Yeah, well, that was before I saw you pulling

your duffel bag out of the closet.

Were you gonna tell me that you were leaving?

I'm just going down to the keys.

Boat leaves Saturday morning. I'll be back in six days.

Okay, five nights to party.

And no time to talk, so...here it comes.

Um, are you comfortable with me seeing Lucas' mom?

If it's too weird for you--

No, it's not that.

I like Karen.

Oh, is something going on with you and Lucas?

Not really.

It's cool.

What if it was too weird for me, you dating Karen?

Um, you'd just have to get used to it.

You do your thing.

Shut that thing off.

♪ Caught a flash of absolute perfection.. ♪♪

Hey, mom, the other night I saw Dan, and he said something.

Oh, what now?

Uh, he-he-he said to ask you what really happened back then.

Any idea what he meant?

Who knows? It's Dan.

Yeah, but I don't know.

He was talking about what kind of father he was.

Was he just messin' with me?

Lucas, you know that I always have your best interests in mind

since day one.

You believe that, right?

Yeah.

Well, um..

...after you were born, Dan asked to be in your life.

Are you tellin' me that he never showed up?

That he didn't want anything to do with us?

He didn't show up at first

but when he moved back to town with Debbie

he told me that he'd like to help raise you

and he asked for joint custody.

I said no.

Why?

I didn't trust him.

And Dan was ready to sue until his lawyer told him that

since he had left me and gotten another girl pregnant

his chances weren't good.

You know what Dan is like. I had to make a decision.

I had to do what was best for you.

And I knew that someday we would be having this conversation

but that was a risk I had to take.

I gotta go to school.

Lucas.

Hey, Peyton.

Come on, can I talk to you?

That depends.

Are you telling lies or things that aren't true?

Okay, I deserve that, but about the other night--

Whatever, Luke.

Explain it to your friend Nicki.

So...now that Lucas has outslutted the both of us

are we back to hose over bros?

Okay, she's talkin' to me.

Does that mean she's shoppin' with me?

I was thinkin' maybe we could spend a little

trial make-up time at the mall.

Yeah, there maybe hope for you yet.

Gather round here. Come on.

Let's move.

Alright, listen up.

Next week, you boys are gonna be winnin'

your first playoff game.

I, however, am gonna be flat on my back in the hospital.

What's goin' on, coach?

Oh, just a little eye surgery.

I've got a paranoid doc

who says I can't put it off any longer.

And since it's important to me

to actually see you guys win the state

I've gotta miss the first game.

Who's gonna coach us?

Coach McCallum, most likely.

And if you use this as an excuse to slack off

I can promise you there'll be hell to pay.

Now, hit the showers.

You need anything, coach?

Yeah, my youth back.

So, is McCallum any good?

No, JV sucks.

This one is gonna be up to you and me.

♪ I'll find you there.. ♪♪

'Kieth.'

Hi.

Just ordered some pizza.

- Interested? - Sure.

Hey, listen, uh, I wanted to ask you something about Dan.

About how he wanted to share custody.

Oh, is he, uh, spreading that lie again?

Keith, uh, mom told me it was true.

What do you mean, how he called her from college?

No, after that.

Dan wanted joint custody. I thought you knew that.

No, I didn't know that.

Well, do you think things would have been different

if mom would've given him a chance?

You mean, like the chance he had with Nathan?

Yeah, but what was he like back then anyway?

What are you thinking?

I mean..

...it's easy to see a guy that never cared.

I mean, It's easier to hate him that way, right?

Well, maybe that's why your mom kept it from you.

Hmm, yeah..

I know he's a bad guy

but maybe he just made some poor choices

and it got out of control.

I mean, I've been doing that myself.

Luke, you're not Dan, okay?

The man's whole life is poor choices.

Yeah, but that's just it.

And maybe this is the one that changed him.

You are totally saving my life. Thank you.

I've got to get a cable modem.

Oh, it's cool. I gotta run to practice anyway.

Then I'm going to pick up an extra shift at the mall

try to pay for this cable modem.

And after that, I'm working out with Lucas.

Well, who are you, and what have you done with my real boyfriend?

Well, you said you wanted me to cut the guy some slack.

Sure it's not also 'cause it's a way to stick it to Dan?

- No, that's not what it is. - Okay.

I'm gonna stick it to my dad by erasing him

from the record books, alright?

Okay.

I gotta go.

- I'll see you. - Okay.

'English class, here I come.'

Dan Scott.

They haven't even cut me open yet

and you already smelled the blood.

What's this I hear about you not coaching the playoffs?

First game of the playoffs.

And the last, if they lose.

Oh, well, the team's ready.

McCallum will do fine.

McCallum?

You gotta be kidding me.

JV's won what, five games all season?

Well, actually four. That other one was a forfeit.

Exactly my point. Better let me do it.

I'm old, Danny, but I'm not senile.

Come on, Whitey, you know I know this team as well as you do.

Every game, every player.

You ought to. You're daddy to half of 'em.

Okay, look, I know you don't care much for me

but you do care a lot about this team.

I care enough about 'em to protect them from you.

Over my dead body, Danny.

Well, if that's the way you want it.

Oh, uh, by the way..

...I'm gonna be just fine.

Thanks for askin'.

Dude, my legs are dead.

Come on, one more game, man.

Let's see what you got.

Nice shot, Haley.

Ha ha.

Ugh.

So, did Dan talk about me when you were little?

Uh, well, when I was younger

I used to hear my parents argue about you.

I knew you were out there.

I hated the fact, so I hated you.

I just thought what my dad wanted me to think.

It sounds stupid, but it made sense at the time.

You know, he wanted joint custody of me.

That's what he was talking about at the jail.

Wow.

I didn't see that comin'.

The one decent thing the guy does, and he buries it, huh?

So, you think if Dan would've gotten his way

you and I might have grown up together?

What would that have gotten us?

Well, we could have teamed up against him.

Or we could have killed each other.

Trust me, man, you didn't miss out on anything.

Okay, "Until the latter part of his life

"Darwin was a naturalist and the author of the book

"The Origin of Species," which was published in.."

Origin..

Keith, hey.

Lucas came to see me last night.

He had a lot of questions about what you told him.

'About Dan.'

And he wasn't the only one.

You have a right to be upset.

'You're damn straight I have a right to be upset.'

You wanna explain to me

how you could keep that from me all these years?

I have a right to know that Dan wanted custody.

What would you have done differently?

Would you have loved Lucas any less?

Of course not

but I might have had a different opinion of my brother.

Oh, come on, Keith, your opinion of Dan

is based on more than just his behavior towards Lucas.

Look, back then, he told me that

he approached you about joint custody, okay?

And I called him a liar.

And now I find out the person lying was you.

I was trying to protect Lucas!

I was trying to give him the best life possible!

I was a kid, Keith.

And I was scared.

I was scared that I was gonna lose you, too.

I mean, you and Dan are brothers.

There was always that chance.

What, that I'd take his side over yours?

Well, yeah.

God, Karen, I thought you knew me better than that.

I was just leaving you a note to call me.

I thought you had to invite vampires in.

I'm all talked out with you.

Well, that may well be but I'm still gonna

need your playbook, stats, team roster.

But don't you worry, I got my own whistle.

What the hell are you talking about?

Looks like I'll be coaching that playoff game after all.

The hell you will!

I told you my decision was final!

So is the athletic committee's, and I believe they trump you.

We had a little session this afternoon.

You really should get yourself a cell phone, Whitey.

Oh.

Just what I was looking for.

'Don't you worry, Whitey.'

The team's in good hands.

'So, I hope you don't mind that I had to bring Jenny along.'

Jake kind of asked me last minute.

Well, It's never too early to learn to accessorize, right?

Wanna go look at CDs?

Why, so I can listen to you complain

as I check out all the new releases?

Well, we could go try on lingerie

and you could listen to me whine about how fat I am.

Okay, you're not fat.

I know. I just like to hear it.

You know, I've really missed this whole girlfriend thing.

Of course you have.

'Well, well, well.'

As a babysitter, apparently, you suck.

- Nicki, what are you doing? - Protecting my baby.

While you two barbies were getting ready to make out

anybody could have taken her.

Put her down.

Right, I take orders from you.

- Where are you going? - Shopping with my daughter.

I don't think so.

Yeah, I see you stopping me.

Nicki.

- Go get security, okay? - Okay.

I'm sorry. Nicki.

Nicki. Where is my phone?

Damn it! Where is my phone?

Nicki!

Hi, can I-can I use this?

- Sure. - Thank you.

Karen, hey, it's Peyton. Is Jake there?

No, he can't call me back. Um...w-where is he?

'Hey, miss!'

'Peyton, where is she?'

I lost her in the store. Tell me this isn't happening.

Police are on their way, miss. Security's been notified.

If she's still here, we'll find her.

What if she's already gone? What are we gonna do?

It's okay. Come here.

Hey, Hales.

Check it out.

An entire afternoon together, and nobody threw a punch.

You okay?

Can I talk to Nathan alone, please?

Yeah, sure. Catch you guys later.

What's up?

Um..

...I was just doing some research on the internet

and I found what my boyfriend's been studying.

Uh, this is.. Well, I just..

I stumbled on this so, it's no big deal.

What about the half a dozen other sites

that you stumbled upon and bookmarked?

It's hard enough with me that I have to compete

with the girls at school that just give it away.

Now I've gotta be a porn star?

Haley, look, you're overreacting.

No, I really don't think that I am.

- This hurts me, Nathan. - Why?

Haley, these girls aren't real, and..

Plus, I'm a guy. Guys look at this stuff.

Well, don't be "a guy", Nathan. Be a man.

You know, I'm not a prude, and I think you know that

but...the thought that this is what I'm gonna be compared to--

So, that's what this is?

You're worried I'm gonna compare you to them--

Yes, I'm afraid. That's part of it.

Nathan, it's hard enough for me to even think about

being naked in front of you.

And the thought that this is the standard

I'm gonna be held to.

Forget it.

Haley.

Peyton, have they found her?

Not yet. God, Jake, I-I am so, so sorry! Okay?

We only looked away for, like, two seconds.

Look, you cannot do that!

You just need to calm down, sir.

We have officers combing the mall.

Oh, calm down, take it easy? What do you think--

'Hey.'

What's going on?

What the hell are you doin', Nicki?

I took Jenny shopping, and then we rode on the carousel.

What? What's the big deal?

You stole her out of her stroller!

No, I didn't, I picked her up

because you two weren't watching her

and then I told you I was taking her shopping.

Besides she's my daughter, not yours.

- Is that true? - Well, yes, but--

Which one of you has custody?

Okay, look, she took off as soon as--

As long as this isn't a custody matter

I'd advise you kids to keep your family stuff at home, okay?

You can call off the dogs.

You are unbelievable. You know that?

Hey, if you'd let me see her once in a while--

That's not gonna happen, not after this!

You think I'm such a bad mother?

You've made some pretty bad decisions

when it's concerned Jenny.

I'm not sure I can trust you with her.

- Nick-- - I'm gona get custody, Jake.

'She's better off with me.'

I'll see you soon, bunny.

Yes, yes.

'Jake.'

Haven't worn out your welcome yet?

No. In fact, Karen made me her partner.

I hope you mean, in the business.

You said you had something for me.

Yeah, um..

You left this on the bedroom floor the other night.

What makes you think I didn't leave it there as payment?

Excuse me, Deb.

May I have a word with you?

Is it just sport?

This need to agitate Lucas any chance you get?

Why on earth would you tell him that you wanted custody?

I'm not the devil, Karen.

I'm tired of being blamed for everything.

Not everything, just your due.

You suggest to me that I abort my child

and then one day, you grow this tiny sliver of conscience

that has long since disappeared, and you expect a medal for that?

No, I expect you to be held as accountable as I have to be.

You're the one who kept the truth from him.

This is not about accountability.

You don't regret missing out on Lucas' life.

You hate the fact that I beat you.

And you're punishing him because some lawyer told you years ago

that you could never win this one, and that is pathetic, Dan.

So do me a favor, just stay away from him.

I can't do that. I'm his coach.

What are you talking about?

Whitey's having surgery. I volunteered to step in and help.

You just can't let this one go, can you?

Well, it beats lying about it.

Oh, listen to me, Dan

if you use this coaching job to hurt my son

I don't care who on that school board

you sold cars to, I'll bury you.

You shouldn't baby the kid, Karen.

The boy needs to learn to fight his own battles.

Hey, is that why Nathan left you?

Peyton?

'Hello.'

- Oh, hey. - 'Hi.'

Sorry, I didn't hear you.

That's okay. You alright?

Not really.

I screwed up pretty bad with uh, with Jenny yesterday.

Sorry.

Is she okay?

Yeah. Yeah, she's fine.

It just potentially could have been so bad.

I'm an idiot.

- What's going on? - Oh, nothing.

I was gonna dump my problems on you

but you've got enough to worry about.

No, it's cool. What's up?

Okay, um..

I was over at Nathan's, and I was on his computer

and I came across all this creepy porn.

How creepy?

Like she-male midgets?

No, like, um, like Pamela Anderson wannabes.

And...I'm right to be bothered by this, right?

I mean, you would be bothered by this

if you guys were still together.

Well, not really but our relationship

was nothing like yours.

- Because you were having sex? - No.

Because I was never in love with Nathan the way you are.

You know, he said he's totally cool with waitin'

until I'm ready but if he's filling up

with cybersex in the meantime

I'm not gonna measure up to that.

Haley, well, you don't have to compete with anything.

You've got something they don't.

You got his heart, dude.

♪ Inspiring shining.. ♪

I heard it only took my dad 15 minutes

to BS the athletic committee.

You're so screwed, man.

Alright. Only if we let him get to us.

Ugh.

Oh, so..

...are you gonna tell me what happened with Haley?

I called her last night, and she wouldn't pick up.

Let's just say, um, she found out

I was looking at some websites

that don't exactly make me boyfriend of the year.

Alright. Not that it's any of your business, but, um..

Haley and I, we're not..

'I mean, she's not.. You know?'

So...I'm just trying not to pressure her, that's all.

Yeah, sure. One, two, three.

Ugh.

Porn freak.

Shut up, dude.

Just stay away from the sites with farm animals, alright?

- Oh, man! - I got you. There you go.

What are you talking about?

'God.'

So, she really got mad at you for porn?

Yeah. She found it. It was right there.

Most fathers would be touched by that scene.

But I'm guessing it's your worst nightmare...coach.

♪ But you can't keep running away ♪

♪ From what you're trying to find ♪♪

'Come in.'

Luke, can I talk to you?

I owe you an apology.

I shouldn't have lied to you about Dan.

No, you shouldn't have.

And I understand if you're upset.

I don't think you do.

I just can't turn it off.

You know, all these years, I was sure I should hate him

'because he didn't want me.'

I guess I'm mad at you..

...for making me question that now

and I'm not sure I should hate him.

I'm not even sure I know him.

Do you want to?

You loved him once, mom.

Was there ever something there?

Was he ever a good person?

Once upon a time...he was.

'But he hasn't been that person for a long time.'

Hold your position!

Where's Jagielski?

Sometimes coach lets him miss practice because of his baby.

Sounds like Whitey.

There'll be no more special treatment

for anyone, understood?

Now, this ball control offense Whitey is running is out.

From now on, it's run and gun.

Players make plays.

Well, we're undefeated, and we're going to playoffs.

By the way, you're benched. Anyone else?

♪ ...ground under my feet ♪

Good.

♪ ...nothing in between ♪

Isn't this bad for your shoulder?

Probably.

Alright, free throws.

Make ten in a row. Miss one, grab a weight plate

and run and start over.

Let's go.

Bend you knees, Nathan.

- I just made it, didn't I? - Hey!

Whitey let you mouth off like that?

'Bend your knees.'

♪ Because I'm out ♪

♪ I know that I am someone ♪

Grab a weight plate. Next.

Go join your new pal.

Next.

Sprints, not trots!

♪ Yeah let me in ♪

♪ Because I'm out ♪♪

Lucas, keep moving!

'Let's go, let's go!'

I'm still a little weak from the accident.

You're a little weak, alright.

Oh, dad.

Coach. Now, get a mop and clean that up.

'Let's go! Quit slacking! Let's go!'

What happened to you?

First practice with Dan.

That brutal, huh?

Uh-huh.

Especially for Nathan.

Poor guy.

You're concerned about Nathan?

Well, yeah.

I saw firsthand today how horrible it is with him and Dan.

- Yeah. - And he needs you, Hales.

You know, maybe you should cut him a break

on this whole internet thing.

He told you about that?

Yeah, I know, that's weird, right?

Well, we're talking more now, and..

Like, at least he's not cheating on you.

He's lookin' at plastic bimbos.

Hey, it could be worse.

Look, did you ever think that maybe

all this is just helping him, so he can give you space?

So that he doesn't have to hassle you about sex?

He shouldn't need help giving me space.

He should be better than that, especially if he loves me.

And I cannot believe that you're defending him.

Who's protecting my heart in this, Luke?

Hey, okay, okay, okay, I didn't say it was okay.

Alright?

I'm just sayin', after what I saw in the gym today..

Man, the guy just needs a little support.

Jake, I feel so horrible.

You have every right to be mad at me.

I'm mad at Nicki, okay. You, I'm just..

I'm just disappointed in.

It was two seconds.

Yeah, a lot happened in those two seconds.

Just got off the phone with the legal aid attorney

and she said that Jenny's fair game.

And if it goes to court

that the judge usually decides with the birth mother.

Even if you can prove what a horrible person she is?

You saw how she played that cop in the mall.

She's gonna do the same thing to a judge in court.

What if she wins, Peyton?

I mean, I-I could lose Jenny.

I'm so sorry.

I gotta get out of here.

Where would you go?

I have a cousin in Savannah, maybe.

Won't that just make things worse?

If Nicki comes after Jenny, this lawyer said

it could end up costing me a fortune to fight her.

And my parents, they're already struggling as it is.

This would wipe them out. I can't..

I can't do that to them.

And the only thing I know for sure is if I stay here..

...I'm screwed.

♪ ...tasting of tin ♪♪

Oh, where did I put that picture of Darwin?

Hey.

You, um, said they weren't real people.

Haley, what are you doing?

I'm a real person.

I have feelings. I have problems.

I feel so vulnerable and self conscious and-and..

I'm just like every other person.

- I know that. - Well..

What happened to sex just being magical

and being this amazing expression

of how much you love someone?

These-these cybergirls, they're just..

They're like triple-jointed and waxed

and-and always turned on, and it's just a lie.

I understand that. It's just a fantasy.

♪ Until you learn the meaning of trust ♪

Is Peyton a fantasy, too?

♪ Until you learn the meaning of life ♪

♪ Until you learn to live of night and day ♪

♪ You are never going to be alright ♪

You know, it would be nice if a guy could have a little privacy

in his own apartment.

I can't be Peyton for you.

I can't be those girls. I just..

- I won't. - I don't want you to be.

Are you sure about that? Because..

♪ You are never going to be alright ♪

♪ And so take my hand ♪

I gave you my heart.

That's all that I can give to you.

And if that's not enough for you

then I'm not enough for you.

♪ What do you know about me ♪

♪ How can you possibly see ♪

♪ Without walking in my.. ♪♪

Are you serious about getting out?

Yeah.

I'm sure gonna miss you.

Um, I've got a way for you to leave

but you've gotta go in the morning.

Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa.

Slow down.

What are you talking about?

My dad's transport is leaving for the keys.

Did you ask your cousin about staying with him?

Yeah, but he's in Savannah.

'Well my dad docks near there and a couple'

other places on the way.

Look, if you take your car, Nicki can follow you

'but this way..'

I don't want you to go, Jake.

But if you think it's the best thing for Jenny..

I was thinking about how crushed my parents would be if I left.

But Nicki..

'I mean, she's been so bad to my world already.'

'And not just to me, but to you and to Lucas and Brooke.'

If I stay, she'll win custody, Peyton.

'I can't have that.'

Well, the boat leaves in the morning.

And your dad's cool with this?

I'll just tell him you're visiting relatives.

He's a father, too, Jake.

He'd do anything for his daughter, just like you.

What do you think, Jenny?

I'll be there in the morning either way.

Package for Deborah Scott.

I'm Deb.

'Thanks.'

Thank you.

Is it bad news?

Our divorce papers.

Once they're signed and filed, it'll all be over.

It's what you wanted, isn't it?

Yeah, I'm-I'm just surprised.

I never expected to feel sad.

♪ I'm looking for inspiration ♪

♪ And I think I found it in your heart ♪

♪ It's the kind of thing you get when you're not looking ♪

♪ It's the kind of thing you had from the start ♪

♪ Put me on a ship that is sinking ♪

♪ On a voyage to an untamed.. ♪

Hey.

I was kinda hoping you wouldn't show.

Jenny, you be good, okay?

Take care of your dad.

- Peyton-- - Look, don't say anything.

You guys just be safe.

♪ Don't take your love away from me ♪

♪ Don't take your love away from me ♪

♪ Please don't take your love away ♪

♪ From me ♪♪

'Hey.'

'You okay?'

I've got some stuff goin' on.

I know.

Look, I-I just wanted to apologize...again..

...for not being a better person lately.

I'm trying, Peyton.

And I don't know what else to say.

It's not about what you say, Luke. It's about what you do.

You don't like the person you've become

then do something about it.

'Cause no one's gonna do it for you.

I know.

That's why I came by.

I'm gonna be making a few changes.

And I just wanted to see you before I do.

I'll be seeing you, Peyton.

Hi.

Hi.

I didn't want this.

What's that?

This. You're moving away.

You're upset with me.

Well, neither of us wanted it, but, uh..

...somehow here we are.

Did I trap you?

D-did I lead you on and trick you into loving Lucas?

No, and you didn't trick me into loving you either.

That's what happened.

And the fact that I lied about Dan's intentions

does that change all of that?

Well, it colors it differently, yeah.

How?

Because no matter what I said back then

Dan would have still been the same

reprehensible human being he's become.

And you still would have been there for Lucas and me.

And what for?

So I could end up pushing 40

still living in a bachelor apartment?

Don't you see, Karen?

You got what you needed, and so did Lucas.

But what about me?

I never said this before..

...but I will now.

I stood by you, and I stood by Lucas.

And I'm glad I did that but..

...I just.. I can't help but think..

"Why?" you know?

What do I get out of it?

You get a boy who loves you.

'I'm sorry to interrupt, but we need to talk.'

- 'Okay, what's up?' - 'Look.'

I know you did your best, mom.

'If you hadn't kept Dan away'

Keith and I probably wouldn't have been so close.

And I would have hated to miss that.

So I understand now

why you had to keep that secret to yourself.

You just needed to..

...find yourself on your own, right?

Yes.

Well, that's what I want, too.

'To start over.'

And that's what you did when you shut Dan out.

And that's what you're doin' by leaving town.

What do you mean, start over?

I mean, get away.

Away from Dan.

Away from this place.

And away from all the mistakes I've been makin'.

♪ Please don't take your love from me ♪

♪ Please don't take.. ♪

I wanna go with Keith, mom.

♪ Hmm-mm hmm-mm ♪♪

I wanna leave Tree Hill.