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Good morning, early bird.

Didn't think you'd be up. I got a good one for you this morning.

Cornflakes. A little bit of yogurt.

All right?

I'll be right back.

- My patient! - Watch me.

- He's my patient! He needs me! - You're hurting him. Not anymore.

You can't do this to me, Jane.

- Watch me. - He's my patient.

- Not anymore. - He needs me.

He's my patient.

You're hurting him, Eli.

How do you not see that?

Here you go. Need anything else?

Still with this farmhouse?

I just need you to find out where it is, if it even still exists.

But I searched for it before. I told you I couldn't find it.

Yeah, but now, now we have this.

Now we know that it was there, like 40-something years ago

when this thing was taken.

You, me, and Lynn, did we ever make a day trip to this farmhouse,

and maybe I forgot?

Not that I'm aware of.

'Cause I can't shake the feeling that I've been there before.

I think maybe you should go home and get some rest.

No. There's no time for that, Cleo.

This could be what Noah means by "home."

I know I don't remember going there, but I remember being there.

You know, Lynn actually said something similar.

This could be the key to helping him get better.

Hold up. You said Dr. Wilkinson removed you from Noah's case.

She mentioned this place? When?

She mentioned it toward the end. Feeling like she had been there.

And St. Benedict's suspended your privileges pending further review.

She said she felt a very intense sense of déjà vu.

Like somehow she had been there before.

- So you can't go near Noah, right? - I know that.

Aren't you worried about losing your license?

I don't care about that!

I said maybe it was her fernweh.

A faraway place that calls you.

Cleo, I need you to do this for me, please.

Just find out where it is. That's all I ask.

Let me worry about the rest.

Maybe it's your fernweh too.

Good morning, Noah. How are you?

Eli.

I'm sorry, Noah, but Dr. Adler's not coming in today.

He's taking me home.

I know Dr. Adler means a lot to you, but he's not gonna be your doctor anymore.

The good news is, we found some new doctors

who are going to take excellent care of you, I promise.

- We have cookies today, right? - Chocolate chip.

Great. Let's get Noah some.

And...

please bring me a .5 of Valium.

- Dr. Adler. - You gotta stop that transfer.

You shouldn't be here.

Listen to me. That facility in Ithaca, they can't help Noah.

But you can?

That seizure was caused by getting closer to his trauma.

No. It was a result of getting closer to you.

Do you really want Noah to spend the rest of his life as a ward of the state?

Do you have any idea what happens to those kids?

They're medicated, pacified, locked in, institutionalized.

That's not treatment. That's maintenance. Do you really want that for Noah?

Of course not.

But what am I supposed to do?

No one over there is helping him, and you're surely not helping him.

Ever since he's met you, he's only gotten worse.

There's a reason he has that birthmark.

Please, you need to leave now.

There's a reason why he found me.

We're connected.

We're connected.

Noah.

Try to tell me what you're feeling.

Noah.

Noah.

Noah.

What's happening for you right now?

Noah?

Oh, my God.

Oh, my God.

Come in. Oh, my God.

Oh, my God. Sit.

Here.

What the hell was that?

I don't know.

It's the hospital.

Hello?

What?

But is he okay?

Okay, I'm leaving right now, okay?

- Tell him I'll be right there. - What happened to Noah?

They said he slammed his face into a window just now.

He's okay, but his nose is bleeding pretty badly.

You see?

- Hello? - I found it.

- Found what? - That service station,

the one in the picture. It was in Sullivan County,

so if the farmhouse is still there, it should be nearby.

Dr. Adler?

I'm not sure I quite understand what the plan is.

You're just gonna drive there, and then what?

I need to know if it's still there, then I don't know.

I'll just wing it.

You know what?

I think I better drive.

Sweetie. What happened?

Talk to me.

What?

I can't understand what you're saying.

What?

How could someone lose their mind so quickly?

What?

I said, how could someone lose their mind so quickly?

What?

What is it? I can't understand what you're saying.

That guy Benjamin.

The day he was at the farmhouse

was the same day he died of an overdose in your ER, right?

And he was brought to you in some sort of psychotic state, right?

Yes, he was.

I think the farmhouse was the source

of some kind of overwhelming trauma for him.

Are you cold?

It's okay. Okay.

Why would he go back?

Because trauma is a vortex.

It sucks us in and holds us trapped.

It's almost as if we belong to it.

I'm here.

What? Noah.

Noah.

Noah!

Noah!

Oh, my God. Noah!

I need a doctor in here! Hello?

This is it.

Yeah. Dr. Adler, I think you need to see a doctor.

Done.

- I'm okay. - Hilarious.

Except for the fact that I think your hand might be seriously infected.

He's cyanotic.

- Two of haloperidol. - Yes, Doctor.

- Okay, buddy. Hang on. - What's happening to him?

You're gonna feel better in a second. Breathe.

- Breathe. Breathe. - What's happening? What's going on?

I'm not sure.

But the medicine is gonna help. It's gonna calm him down.

Running some labs, which should give us some more answers.

Okay. Hang in there, buddy, okay?

Eli!

What are you doing? You're gonna get yourself killed!

It's there. It's still there.

You're okay.

I--

I don't wanna die.

Oh, no, sweetie.

I'm not gonna let anything happen to you, okay?

You are not going to die.

But...

I already did.

Dr. Adler?

Listen, I don't think we should go in there.

This place looks condemned.

Eli.

Wait. You're leaving?

Cleo?

Hello?

Lynn.

Wait. You're leaving?

I'll be back.

Jump! Jump! Jump!

I can't swim!

I'm afraid of the water.

Hey!

Hey!

I can't swim. I'm afraid of the water.

Hey!

Hey!

Come on. We have to find our friend.

Sir.

Where did you get this?

Lynn?

What have you done? Why did you do it?

How could you do it? What did you do? Why did you do it?

No.

Help me.

No.

What did you do?

- What did you do? - What have you done?

Help.

Help.

What did you do?

Help me.

Eli?

Eli. Hi.

You're awake. You're okay.

The EMTs are here. They're gonna take you to the ambulance.

I'm sorry, Eli.

I'm so sorry. I'm sorry.

Dr. Adler, you're gonna be fine.

You're okay now, Dr. Adler. You're safe.

They know you here.

Your hand required surgical intervention,

from the infection and damage.

You ripped your hand open with a pen.

You thought something was in it.

We're gonna take good care of you, okay?

I shouldn't have taken you there.

She was there.

- What? Who? - Lynn.

She was at the farmhouse, waiting for me.

It's gonna be okay now, Dr. Adler.

You've had a lot going on.

You've been under a lot of pressure, and I think you just overdid it.

No.

- No. - I've been waiting for you.

- What have you done? - No.

- No. - How could you do this?

- What did you do? - No. Stop. Stop it.

- Stop what? - Stop it. Stop.

- Eli, what have you done? - Stop!

Stop it!

I killed her.

What?

Lynn.

I killed my wife.