All language subtitles for Highway to Heaven S04E08 All the Colors of the Heart_Subtitles01.ENG

[theme music]

Well, everything looks good.

Just wish you were a
little younger though.

So do I, Doc, but
will it affect things?

Well, I just don't want you
to get your hopes up too high.

Whoa, whoa, it's
much too late for that,

because what we have here
is a major occurrence.

Now, hold on.

Me.

Sight?

Oh, brother.

For the first time, me seeing.

Oh.

Calm down, will you, Frank?

OK, Doc.

What are the odds?

Well, it's hard to say.

It's a combined process
of a laser procedure

on the optic nerve
plus a retinal implant,

both procedures are new.

I don't know what I'm
asking about odds for anyway.

I've been blind all my life.

I've got nothing to lose.

Let's go for it.

The angle of sight has
diminished considerably.

I noticed.

It's progressing a lot
faster than I anticipated.

Look, I did some
reading up on retinitis.

Scott, please.

No wait.

It said with absolute rest,
atropine, avoidance of light--

Scott, what you
have is retinitis

pigmentosa, an entirely
different form of retinitis.

I don't care what you call it.

Just tell me how you're
going to cure it.

I can't.

It's degenerative.

There's no cure at
the present time.

You're full of
crap, you know that?

I mean, what the hell
am I paying you for?

You can't even help me out.

I'm sorry, but we can't
bury our heads in the sand.

You are going blind.

I think you should start
planning for the future.

What future?

I tell you, this whole
thing doesn't make any sense.

You sure we're not
on an assignment?

Mark, I told you no.

All right, then tell me this.

Why would Caz write to me?

He's your friend.

What did he say in the letter?

Nothing.

Just that he needed some help.

I haven't heard
from Caz Laughton

in I don't know how long.

Yeah, I do know how long.

I haven't heard from you
since he quit the force.

Mark.

You know, he quit before me?

Just walked in one day
and handed in his papers,

said he wanted to do something
different with his life.

- Yeah, Mark.
- Why now?

Why all of a sudden--

Mark, the turn.

Right here, the turn.

Oh, yeah, right, OK.

I'm not going to like this.

How come?

Summer camp.

- So.
- Kids.

Rich kids.

I can't believe
Caz Laughton would

have anything to do with a
camp for spoiled rich kids.

Excuse me?

Yes, sir?

Where would we
find Caz Laughton?

Just follow this
road down to the beach.

He's at the climbing area.

Thank you.

You bet.

Climbing area?

Let's go see what
rich kids climb.

OK, that's not
too tight, is it?

It's all right?

This snap is a very
important snap.

All we need is loose ends.

Are you ready to go up, Leda?

Hm-hmm.

Harry, Leda is ready to go up.

I want you to take
her up the West face.

Hey, Caz.

Mark.

You made it.

Boy, am I glad to see you.

Look out!

Watch out.

Hey, that wasn't too bright.

Watch where you're going.

I certainly wish I could.

Wait a minute.

You're--

I know, please, don't
tell me I'm blind.

You rappelled down that
cliff, and you can't see?

It's the only way I'd rappel
down a sheer face like that.

Wouldn't take a chance
if I was sighted.

It's much too scary.

Am I done for the day, Caz?

Yes, you are Frank.

Brian, give Frank a
hand with his gear.

All right, now
what's going on here?

What do you mean
what's going on?

Didn't I explain in the letter?

This is a camp for
the junior blind.

The guy who almost
landed on your head

started it and I run it.

You didn't say
anything in your letter

except it was very important.

Well, it is important.

My cook quit.

Your cook quit?

Yeah.

Your cook quit.

Mark, it's hard to explain,
but when Willy, Willy's

the name of my cook,
when he up and quit me,

there was no one in
the world I could think

of to replace him but you.

Why me?

I'm not a cook.

I know it doesn't
make any sense,

but that's what happened, Mark.

It was like I was
getting a message.

Get a hold of Mark Gordon.

Strange, isn't it?

Oh, yeah, it's very strange.

Very strange.

Caz, I offer you my heartfelt
apology for scaring you.

Yeah, funny man, Frank.

Shake hands with an old
buddy of mine, Mark Gordon.

- Mark, how are you?
- How are you?

This is Frank Riley.

Mark's going to be our new cook.

Well, wait a minute.

I haven't said I was going--

What is your name again?

Jonathan Smith,
how are you doing?

Hey, wait a minute
I remember you.

You're the one they call--

I know.

I know, the blind jock.

Right, you did all
that stuff in college.

You wrestled, shot put, discus.

Youthful enthusiasm,
all gone now.

You're still
skiing and running

some marathons, aren't you?

Don't play golf with him.

He walks off with your wallet.

You taking up
mountain climbing now?

Well, that's just
until I have my triumph

with the Cincinnati Reds.

Oh, good joke.

No, no, no joke.

I am just about to get my
sight in the very near future.

I figure Pete Rose
can always use

a hard throwing right hander.

All right, Frank, until Pete
calls you, how about giving me

a hand back here?

Look, I got it started.

It's up to you now, Caz.

Anyway, you've got
a lot of councilors,

and I'm not much of a teacher.

It's a very special case.

They're all
special cases, Caz.

He's sighted now, but I
don't know for how long.

No, I'm sorry.

It's not a good idea.

Brian, get me out
of here, would you?

Come on, I'll show
you where we're bunking.

Wait a minute, Caz.

I told you we're not staying.

You mind if I have a crack
at this special case of yours?

I've done some work with
people with disabilities.

- Sounds good to me.
- Jonathon.

I mean, as long as
Mark's going to be a cook,

I figure I might
as well pitch in.

Jonathan.

[laughing]

[knocking]

Scott?

[knocking]

Scott, come on, I
know you're in there.

I've been calling for
the last two hours.

Didn't all that
ringing bother you?

Are you going to let me come
in or are we going to have

this argument in the hallway?

You going away?

Camp.

The one Dr.
Lowell recommended?

Yeah.

But I thought you said--

I changed my mind.

Good.

I'm glad.

I think.

What's that supposed to mean?

Are you really
going there to learn

or are you just running away?

I'm not running away.

Yes, you are.

Ever since this thing
has gotten worse,

you've been cutting
yourself off.

You quit your job.

Yeah, well, I've had
a lot on my mind lately.

I know.

Why won't you let
me share some of it?

I'm going blind.

Just how do you
want to share that?

What are you going to do,
trade me one of your eyes

so that we can both go
blind only in one eye?

If I could, I would.

Scotty, whether or not
you have your sight

is not what's important to me.

That's because it's
not happening to you.

Look, I got to finish packing.

Goodbye, Bets.

Scott, I want you to
know that I think it's

a very wise thing you're doing.

Yeah, whatever.

My daughter's blind.

RP, like you.

I only wished I'd
had the sense to do

the same thing you're doing
while she still had her sight.

Scott?

All right, I'm going to
turn you over to Jonathan.

He'll show you around, OK?

If there's any questions, that's
what we're here for to help.

See you later, Jonathon.

You bet.

Follow me.

Watch your step on this bridge.

Takes a little getting used to.

Most of the activities
around here are voluntary.

Caz figures if you pick out
what you want to work on you'll

do better at it.

We've got stables down
over there on your left.

I don't ride.

I don't like horses.

We've got a ball game starting
over in the park pretty soon.

No, thanks.

How about swimming pool.

Not much into water anymore.

Well, let me put it
another way, what is it

you'd like to see?

Next week.

Next year.

I'd like to see the
rest of my life.

You ever been blind?

Huh?

No.

Right.

So how are you going
to teach me how to be?

There you go.

See you at the ball field.

See you over at the ball field.

OK.

Bye.

Those are either
the best behaved kids

in the entire world
or the hungriest.

I mean, not one complaint.

Mark, has it ever
occurred to you that maybe,

maybe the food was good?

No, it hasn't.

I'm a lousy cook, and I know it.

Well, let me tell you
something, lousy or not,

we have an old tradition here
at the camp that the cook always

umpires the bowling pin
basketball game on Tuesday

and today is Tuesday.

- You just made that up.
- No, I didn't.

I swear I didn't.

Come on, I don't know anything
about bowling pin basketball.

I tell you what, I'll explain
the rules to you as we walk.

They're very
simple, very simple.

Hey, don't worry about
it, I'll be along to help.

Hey, Jonathan, if you're
headed for the ball game,

mind if I tag along?

I'd like the company.

Did I hear you correctly,
you're going to get your sight?

Did you ever.

That's got to be
a great feeling.

Jonathan, it's all
I can think about.

I know I shouldn't get my
hopes up, but you know,

it's every blind person's dream.

All the things I've
done, things they said

a blind person shouldn't
or couldn't do,

I did because I was trying
to show the world that, I

don't know, it didn't matter.

But down deep, I
always knew it did.

I can't blame you for that.

You know, I'll tell
you something else.

I always thought of
myself as kind of a fraud.

You?

You've got to be killed?

No, seriously.

I can even give you an example.

The slopes are
filled with people

who ski and a lot of them have
handicaps, one kind or another,

but because I'm blind,
it's a big deal.

Same with my running or my golf.

You know, it's kind of a scam.

Well, this camp you
started is no scam.

Oh, no, no, no, no, but
it's no big deal either.

I mean, a lot of people start
camps, but because I'm blind,

that's a big deal.

Frank, I got to tell
you, I think you're selling

yourself a little short.

Hey, I've done all right
for a blind guy, so what?

You think you're going to
feel a little bit differently

when you're sighted?

I don't know.

At least, I'll find out if I
can cut it in the sighted world

without allowances being made.

That means a lot
to you, doesn't it?

Jonathan, when
I was a little boy

I used to hear the other kids
playing baseball in the park

next door.

They were having so
much fun, but all I

had was a stick and a rock.

Throw up the rock and
hit it with a stick.

Why didn't you use a ball?

It's easy to tell
you've never been blind.

If I hit a ball,
I'd have to spend

a lot of time going to get it.

Lose a rock, no big deal.

That's pretty smart.

You know, people think I'm
crazy when I tell them that I

am going to try out for
the Cincinnati Reds,

but I know I can pitch.

I can hit the strike zone blind.

Imagine how good I'm going
to be if I could see?

And the arm, as good as new,
got a lot of mileage left on it.

That's what sight is going
to give me, baseball.

And I'll see a rainbow
and a sunset and flowers.

I'm going to find out if they
are as lovely as they smell.

Give me the ball.

Give me the ball.

Here we go.

All right, here we go.

You're not playing?

No.

What about helping
me umpire first base?

No way.

Oh, well, you should
have asked me, Jonathon.

Then when somebody in the
stands yells the umpire's blind,

they'll be right.

That's very cute, Frank.

I'll see you later.

OK.

All right, play ball.

Hi, I'm Frank Riley.

Scott Lee.

Oh, yeah, you're the guy.

The guy who what?

The guy who's going blind.

Yeah, that's right.

Why do you think I'm here?

That's what I was wondering.

I mean, why did you come
here anyway if you're

not going to participate?

You wouldn't understand.

OK.

All right, a little
hustle out there.

Let's play ball.

Well, kiddo, here's
where I got to leave you.

Why?

Why?

Because I got to go
to work, that's why.

I'll come with you.

No, that's not a good idea.

How come?

Well, for one thing,
you know, you're a camper.

You're supposed to camp.

Besides, a kitchen is
a very dangerous place.

There's hot stuff
all over the place.

- I won't get in the way.
- No.

No.
No.

No.
Excuse me, miss?

Jennifer.

Could you escort Jerry to
wherever he supposed to be.

Sure, I'll take care of him.

Come on, Jerry.

See you later.

Well, what'd you
think of Scott?

You sat me down there
on purpose, didn't you?

I didn't think you'd notice.

I told you, don't try to
pull a fast one on a blind guy.

Just can't seem to
get through to him.

Jonathan, what do
you know about RP?

Just what I've read.

Field of vision gradually
narrows, tunnel vision, then

one day there's nothing left.

It's one of the
cruelest kinds of diseases

because you literally
watch yourself go blind.

It make a fellow pretty bitter.

How about giving
me a hand with him?

No.
No.

Uh-uhn.
Not me.

I'm the wrong person.

You're uncomfortable working
with blind people, aren't you?

I am now.

Why?

How can I tell him to accept
his blindness when I'm just

about to get my sight back?

How can I do that and
not think of myself

as the worst kind of hypocrite?

I don't know.

Maybe you ought to find out.

Oh, not bad.

Not bad.

Mind if I try a couple?

Be my guest.

Can I have the ball?

You can bounce it to me.

The ball.

Thank you.

Now if you would, just
stand under the basket.

OK.

OK, and if you can,
just count for me.

Count?

Like in school.

1, 2, 3, 4.

Hey, that's pretty good.

Just a trick.

Yeah?

How's your rebounding?

Oh, terrible.

Listen, they tell me
you're a beach person.

You a lifeguard?

Surfer.

It's got to be one
of the best ways to go.

Not one of the best, the best.

What's it like?

I can't describe it.

Try me, please?

Well, you spend a
lot of time waiting,

then you see the one you
want, see it building,

know it's good.

You get a good push off.

You know, sliding down the
face, picking up speed.

Sometimes, if the pipes form
just right, you can duck inside

and the water closes
off all the sound.

It's just you and the wave.

And you look up--

I don't do that anymore.

It sounds absolutely great.

I wish I could learn.

Yeah, well, it's a little
tough if you can't see.

I don't think it's
so easy if you can.

Listen, I've got an idea.

I like to go jogging
in the mornings,

you know, on the
beach, and I always

feel bad when I have to ask
a counselor to come with me.

Why don't you come
along tomorrow?

I don't know.

You'd be doing me a favor.

Yeah, well.

All right.

Try this.

How about if you and I play an
old fashioned game of horse.

I win, you come jogging.

You're on.

Oh, the ball, please, sir?

Thank you.

Still under the basket?

I am now.

Whoa.

Magic Johnson.

Oh, that's H. Hey, listen,
close your eyes for a second.

What for?

Oh, I just want to find out if
you're as sharp a beach person

as you say you are.

Forget it.

I don't want to play
blind man's bluff.

Hey, can we cool
it here a second?

It's getting to my calves.

I agree with you, this
walking in the sand is tough.

Yeah.

Look, Scott, all
I was trying to do

was show you that as awful
as blindness is, it really

isn't the end of the world.

Maybe not for you.

I don't think for you either.

Look, for an old guy,
give it a try, huh?

OK, let's just get it
over with, all right?

All right.

Let's start with, tell me
about what you can hear.

Ocean there, road
there, I hear cars.

We done.

Oh, come on, Scott, what else?

[seagull cry]

Birds.

Where?

Everywhere.

No.

No, wait.

Back there.

No.

They're moving over--
they're moving.

What kind?

Gulls.

And?

What do you mean and?

I don't know.

I never paid much
attention before.

That is right.

I can hear pipers and
terns and even some sparrows.

Wait.

I hear a plane.

What kind?

Very funny.

Just checking.

All right, now the good stuff.

Tell me about the waves.

What do you want to know?

What kind?

Are you kidding me?

I mean, I spent all those
hours out there for nothing?

Even dozen.

A dozen?

I can only count 11.

That's not bad
for a non surfer.

Where is the wind coming from?

Over there.

How do you know?

I feel it on my face.

Very nice.

What do you smell?

Salt water, sand, hamburgers.

Yes, that's Charlie's.

It's about a quarter of
a mile down the beach.

It's a bastion of
culinary delight.

Let's get jogging.

You got any cash?

I knew there was
a catch to this.

Let's jog, you're buying.

Here we go.

All right, come on.

Something wrong?

Well, you going to tell me what
it is or do I have to guess?

I'm scared.

Now, look, I'm going to
be right there with you.

I won't let you fall.

I'm not scared of falling.

Then what are you afraid of?

The horse.

Oh, well, that's
because he's a stranger.

See?

Come on, I'll introduce you.

All right, now,
this is Old Dutchy.

Funny name.

Well, not for Old Dutch.

Hey, Dutch, this
is my friend Jerry.

Here, give me your hand.

Feel that?

That's his neck.

Now right here, right
there, that's his mane.

You feel it?

Right there, that's his ear.

He kind of likes to be
scratched right around there.

[neighing]

Don't be afraid.

He's just saying thank you.

All right, you
ready to ride him?

No.

Come on now, do you
think the Old Bear

is going to let you get hurt?

OK.

That a boy.

Here you go.

All right, hold right on
that right under there.

You OK?

OK, as long as I'm with you.

All right, pal, let's go.

Don't look down.

Trying to be funny, Caz?

I was talking to Scott.

Move a little to your
right so he can climb up.

That's pretty tough.

You think this is tough, wait
till we get to the next part.

You guys take a breath.

I'm going to go
to the next stop.

Nice place to watch a sunset.

I'll bet.

I like this.

Climbing?

Yeah, but that's not what
this camp is all about.

I heard that you've been messing
up with the basic classes.

You know, like Braille and
learning to use a cane.

I'll get to them.

Hm-hmm.

Climbing, running along
the surf down there,

that builds a lot of
confidence, but you've

got to get down to
the practical stuff,

learning how to pour milk
without making a mess,

learning how to use
a cane to go to work.

I said I'd get to it.

Hm-hmm.

The time, my friend, is right
now before you lose your sight.

All right.

Just don't make it any
harder than it is already.

I'm not trying to
make it any harder.

I just want you to be ready
to go on with your life.

You married?

Me.

Naw, much too young.

You don't look too young.

Thanks a lot.

You married?

No.

You thinking about it?

Not anymore.

Because of the blindness?

I'd say that's a
pretty good reason.

I think it's a
very stupid one.

All right, break's over.

Let's move it.

Hey, Jonathan, you
seen Frank around?

He went to town with Mark.

When will he be
back, you know?

I'm not sure.

It all depends how long
he's with the doctor.

Doctor?

What's going on?

Well, you know, the one
who's operating on his eyes.

He never told me.

Yeah, I thought you knew.

A good chance Frank
will get his sight back.

I'm sorry to be
so long, Frank,

but this final test
results took a while.

Oh, that's OK, Doc.

So what's the good word?

The word's not so good.

We knew going in it was a
long shot, but as we said,

we thought it was
worth the chance.

You won't do the operation?

It would be an
exercise in futility.

I guess I--

I guess I figured that.

I'm not going to put
you through the pain

and the expense of
something that I know

has 100% chance of failure.

Frank, I'm really sorry
it didn't work out.

Oh, so am I, Doc.

So am I, but, you know, like
they say, them's the breaks.

Frank?

Frank?

Yes?

We're back.

Oh, thanks.

Thanks for the ride.

Frank, remember what you
said on the way to the doctor.

If this thing doesn't work out,
it's not the end of the world.

No, but it is
the end of a dream.

Maybe they're the same thing.

[knocking]

Jonathan?

What's up, Caz?

I can't find Scott.

Didn't he come to dinner?

No.

The way I cook, I
don't blame him.

Well, he knows the rules
about staying out after dark.

I'm worried about him.

Oh, come on, we'll
help you look for him.

[knocking]

Who is it?

It's Jonathon, I'm
looking for Scott.

He's not here.

Have you seen him
since you got back?

No.

Mark told me
about what happened.

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry too.

Scott heard about
the operation today,

it seemed to upset
him quite a bit.

He doesn't know it's off?

No.

No, he's been
missing since then.

You happen to think of where
he might be, let me know, OK?

Oh, Scott, you dummy.

OK, here we go.

Here we go, people.

Here's some more flashlights.

Jack and Arnie, I want you
guys to check the beach.

The rest of us will
sweep the whole camp.

If you see him,
holler real loud, OK?

Let's go.

Let's hit it.

Be sure you check the
beach area real good.

He might be down there.

Jerry, what are
you doing out here?

Waiting for you.

What for?

Go look for Scott.

I thought you might
need company since it's

getting on toward nighttime.

And I'm not afraid of the
dark, so I can be a big help.

I just like being with you.

You know what, I like
being with you, too.

Get away.

Who's that, Scott?

You heard me.

Get away.

Oh.

You scared me to death.

I thought I was the
only one up here.

What are you doing here anyway?

Watching the sunset.

I heard you'll be doing it soon.

Oh, you heard that, did you?

Yeah.

All that time, you were
telling me how it's

going to be OK going blind.

You were just waiting to see.

And you think that's bad.

Well, you're coming out of
a dark room, I'm going in.

Kind of makes you a
hypocrite, doesn't it?

Would it help you if you found
out I was going to stay blind?

Would that make you feel better?

Yeah, it would.

It would.

Well, you got your
wish, because they

can't do the operation.

I'm sorry.

I didn't really mean it.

All my life--

all my life, I wanted
to see color, you know?

I've smelled flowers, I've
tasted grass, blades of grass,

but I always wondered
what green was.

But all I'll ever see is black.

Maybe that's a blessing.

You don't know
what you've missed.

Oh, I think I do.

Today, when I drove into town,
I thought for the first time

I'd find out what a sunset
was really, really like.

It was a good one.

One of the kind
that has everything.

The whole horizon was really
red like a fire engine,

then it dropped off
to orange and yellow,

and there was a band up there
that was absolutely white

and then the palest bluegreen.

There was a bunch
of low lying clouds

that had that bright red on
the bottom and the bluest black

on top.

It was the prettiest
sunset I've ever--

I'll ever see again.

The tunnel vision is
almost closed down now.

I kept running into
things all day.

I guess that's one of
the reasons I climbed

up here, to see my last sunset.

I think--

I think you came up
here to jump, Scott.

What makes you think that?

Oh, I don't.

I guess because we're
supposed to hear everything.

I told you that blind
people, we hear everything.

Anyway, you're
sort of a classic.

The trouble with you, Scott,
is that you think that you're

the only one in the
world that hurts,

but everybody at
this camp is in pain.

They hate the darkness,
but they either

let that hatred turn them
into lumps or they fight back.

Yeah, well, that's
easy for you to say.

But you've always
had it all together.

You're a fighter.

Well, hooray.

But I'm not, OK?

So just leave me alone.

I can't do that.

Yeah, well, you
don't have any choice.

Scotty, you've
got to understand,

if you jump, if you jump,
that's the end of everything.

And blindness isn't?

No.

No, it's not.

Yeah.

Yeah, you say that.

You say that because
you've never known anything

but darkness.

You don't know anything else.

But I do.

I mean, for the rest of
my life, I'm going to have

to remember what I've lost.

Oh, yeah.

I'll know what I've lost.

I know.

I know.

I can't handle that.

But you will remember,
you will remember.

You see, you've got
memories to hold on to.

I don't want to
hold on to them.

Why can't you see that?

It hurts, and I can't
take the pain anymore.

Let me go.

No.

Why?

Because.

Why won't you let me jump?

Because I can't.

I can't.

I can't.

You think I always
had it all together?

You think-- that's
what you think?

I came up here today just like
you, to jump just like you,

and I can't.

All those so-called
accomplishments,

all those things, I was
apologizing for being blind.

I was apologizing for being
blind and that's stupid.

It's stupid because
I'm damn good.

We are going to make it.

I am not, I'm not going to
let you turn into a lump.

Mark, you know, you
don't have to leave.

We can always use
another cook around here.

Forget it, Caz.

You don't know how
lucky you are that Willy

decided to come back.

Yeah, how about that?

Willy shows up, begs
for his job back.

Weird, isn't it?

Yeah, weird.

Jerry wanted to
say goodbye to you.

I'll be right back.

OK.

Well, kiddo, I--

I got to be going.

Take care of Uncle Dutchy?

Yeah.

Brush him plenty?

Yes.

Feed him.

Uh-huh,

Will you ride him?

Of course.

Kiddo, you take care
of yourself, you hear me?

OK.

There.

I love you, too, kiddo.

I love you, too.

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