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♪- It was so clean
when I got back.

♪ I felt like you hadn't
been home once all weekend.

♪- I'm Theo. I'm a doctor here.

I'm Theo. I'm a doctor here.

Hey Theo Doctor Here,
I'm Siobhan, patient here.

Siobhan Carlyle,
14-year-old lupus patient,

she's waiting on an experimental
bone marrow transplant.

I found a way
to get you to Ottawa.

Just have a good time
up there, okay?

- I'm going to Turkey.
- What's gonna happen

while you're gone?
- Rotating attendings to cover

and then you figure out
all the rest.

- You're dropping out.
- No! No, I-I don't...

I don't know!
- So, that's going well.

Our FX board approval
says anything that develops

during the course of our study
has to be included.

I don't like being
backed into a corner.

What if I just... I don't
know how to feel anymore.

I want us rethinking
our entire approach

to patient interaction.
I'm sorry, Bashir, but for you,

that means not training
as a surgeon.

I'm serious, Saleh, say yes!

Amira wants to sing
at my wedding.

You should be lucky to get
this kind of entertainment.

What are you? Her manager?

- Good workout?
- Hey.

Amira and I made plans
to walk her to school.

So I brought Timbits.

Thank you. Good thing
I worked up an appetite.

I told Saleh I'd perform
at his wedding.

The Worst Pies in London.

If he moves it to Turkey,

we'll be citizens
and can travel.

We can't do that!

Yeah, you can't sing
about cutting up people

and putting them into pies
at a wedding, Amira.

Oh, come on!
It's a crowd-pleaser.

And it's my school
audition song.

Oh, yeah, Amira thinks
that if she keeps saying

"audition" it will actually
happen. Here, I'll take that.

You see my life?

- Yeah. Okay, say bye!
- We'll work on him together.

What, you're leaving?

Now, after all this time?

But the border
with your work,

it will be dangerous.
You need to think this through.

I am. We are.

Like you did, Bashir.

The only reason
I'm where I am

is because a truck crashed
and I saved a man's life.

Okay, right place, right time.
I was lucky, Saleh.

Do you hear yourself? Lucky?

You've just always been lucky?

Tell me you don't
actually believe that.

Bashir...

That's not why
I told you.

You know why I have to leave.

Tell Amira I'll,
uh, meet her outside.

Wait, you can wait
in the house.

No, I'm good.

I'm gonna spare you the lecture
on her school,

but if she asks...

- I'll tell her you tried.
- Thanks.

Hey, Rania.

Amira told Saleh
that we're becoming citizens?

Yeah?

That's why he doesn't
want me sending money,

because it would
violate sanctions.

I know it's hard,
being here while he's there.

But he wouldn't want you hiding
your good news, Bashir.

Which is why I, uh...

I should tell you.

I'm seeing someone new.

Yeah!
- Rania, that's great!

I'm seeing someone too, so...

Wow.

I'm happy for you.

And you're allowed to be happy
for yourself too.

How many patients
do they have you balancing

at once in cardiology?

As many as I can carry.
Actually, could you--

- Yeah.
- Thank you.

So uh, this thing with Bash,

how are you managing to fit him
into your usual metric

of giving 200 percent?

By downgrading
to a 75-75 split?

You? As if.

Shut up.

- Theo?
- Siobhan?

What happened to your face?

Uh, I see they're letting you
charter your own flights now.

For business, not pleasure.

Theo, my foster mom, Gloria.
Gloria, this is--

- The famous Dr. Hunter.
- Oh. Hello.

I'm guessing you're not here

just to visit me.
- Transplant surgery.

I thought you already had
a bone marrow transplant.

- She did. It went well, but--
- My kidney didn't get the memo.

Nine lives currently
down to one.

And we have a kidney
here for you?

Uh, my colleague, Dr. Leblanc.

On its way, so we'd
better motor. Nice meeting you.

I'll see you before
the surgery.

How are you, Theo?

John's memorial go okay?
I was still home recovering.

It was rough.

Glad you're on your feet.

His widow was hoping
to meet you.

Maybe give her a call?

John's the pilot
who died in the crash?

Are you gonna reach out?
- You think I should?

I mean, you're the last one
who saw him alive

and she's gonna want closure.

You know, you've always known
how to take care

of people like that.

Yeah except lately,
my radar's been a little off,

I just wouldn't wanna make her
uncomfortable.

I'm sure that's not
true with you.

Oh, my chart! Thank you. Sorry.

I need help!

I could use a little help!

If you could, uh, hold these.

Excuse me, are you alright?

So I can figure out
what hurts.

Is someone with you?

Ari. Arianna.

Now she's gone.

Take these.

I told security
to stand down.

Okay. Um...

Can you go find a gown or a...
- Blanket.

- Yeah.
- Yeah.

Hi, I'm Bashir, I'm a doctor.

Uh, can you tell me your name
and maybe why you're here?

Well, I...

I think I was wondering
if it's okay

that my heart
is beating so fast? And um...

why it hurts my stomach?

Well, I'd have
to listen to be sure.

Well, then listen.

Okay. Deep breath.

Ari would love this book.
Can we keep it?

Uh, may I?

I am a bit frosty.

Her pupils are dilated.

Is there something
in her system?

- Let's do a tox screen.
- Yeah.

Um, what's Ari's last name?

We can get someone to page--
- It's the same as mine.

Actually...

I have her phone
in here somewhere.

Um, maybe you can tell me

what you've taken that's making
you feel this good?

Maybe I could.

Oh.

Battery's dead.

Maybe you could
resuscitate it.

So you said you passed out?

Yeah. On my way
to the bathroom at two AM.

Which also makes no sense

because I had my last tea
at eight PM.

And them bam, the thing
in my chest shook me awake.

You're sure it wasn't just
the fluttering

from your Long QT syndrome
we talked about last time?

Uh, more like an earthquake.

If I wanted one of those,
I'd live on the west coast.

Oh so we move directly to crazy
lady imagining things.

No, no, of course not.
It's just...

Part of the ICD study
is data feedback and we didn't--

The system shows no indication
it went off.

Or that you had any change
in your rhythm at all.

Then your system doesn't work.
I know what I felt.

Okay well, we'll run a few
labs and confirm what happened.

You do that.

Long QT can cause fainting.

But almost always with
an accompanying arrhythmia

which would've been logged.
- You think she's lying?

I believe she felt something.
Do an echo.

But don't let her suck you in.

Lily's been my patient for years
and she's a malingerer.

I'll also run diagnostics
on her ICD

to make sure it's still working.

Yes, let's log it as
a potential glitch either way.

I thought we shared
a preference for texting?

It's harder to say
no to a face.

What's the ask?

I went to pay tuition
with the cheque you gave me.

But financial services says
I need a fancy bank draft.

Even if I knew what that was,
she says I can't do it online.

So you're saying that YouTube
doesn't teach you

how to do that? That's weird.

Ha. Since you're
Dad's executor,

you need to do it.

But I was hoping you could
show me how.

Why is it that
every time you call,

you have some kind of jam
I need to pull you out of?

Why is it no matter what I do,
you're disappointed in me?

It is my fault they use
ancient technology?

Might as well ask for an IOU
on a stone tablet.

Shay. When do you need it by?

Today or I lose courses.

I can meet you at the bank
whenever's good.

No, it's just easier
if I do it myself.

At least tell me something
I can do in return.

Make us dinner? I saw a video
about deep-frying chickpeas.

No, the last thing I need
is my kitchen on fire.

I gotta go.

- Isn't Novak back from Turkey?
- Next week.

Which means a random surgeon
correcting me at every turn.

You're half-right.

Dr. Singh, are you
covering today?

Don't look so excited.

Okay well I, uh, will page you
if there's any action.

I cleared my schedule.

Thought I'd go take a look
and make sure

we're properly set up.

Dr. Singh.
I'll walk with you.

You weren't at the staff
meeting this morning.

I thought that was tomorrow.

Last minute a change.

The e-mails sometime go to spam.

Gave everyone a chance to talk
about me behind my back?

Uh, general consensus is,

they don't know
what to make of you.

Thank you for covering
in Trauma OR today.

There's been some uh,
growing pains...

- Ha!
- And I'd like to get another

surgeon's take.

Someone less opaque
than Mark Novak, you mean?

That. Plus, I understand
that you've been a critic

of the incentive
from the start.

Your sources are correct.

Good. Then you won't pull
any punches with your feedback.

Hello?

Make any sense of that
teenaged brain

you've living with?

I think I'm starting to get
what you're balancing.

Oh, that wasn't about Amira.

Oh. So it's just me then.

No. I'm sorry, it's just...
remember my friend Saleh?

Yeah, the white helmet guy
from Syria. Is he okay?

Yeah, I'm trying to send him
money but Canada

has sanctions that can
make it frustrating.

So no e-transfers?

The point of these rules
is to stop funds

from getting to the Regime
or opposition forces,

but they cast a wide net
so personal transfers

are blocked too.
- Money in a birthday card?

It's a good way
to get it stolen.

They open our mail.
- Oh.

There are couriers
who can help get cash overseas

through random networks.

- Is that dangerous?
- Not for everyone.

Plenty of us still
use them to help our families

back home but now, if it got
connected it back to me...

You're still applying
to be a citizen.

Yeah, you gotta be careful.

What if I did it?

June, uh--

I have to go out anyways.
Plus, Singh is in Trauma OR

and he's just making a whole
long list of grievances.

I have no idea what
I've gotten myself...

...into. Sorry, I know
that's a sore spot.

Just uh, let me know
how to do the money thing.

- Okay. Thank you.
- Yeah.

Hello?

How did you
get this phone?

I'm sorry, it belongs
to someone named Ari, I'm just--

Who are you?

I'm a doctor at York
Memorial Hospital.

Oh god. Is it Krista?
Is she okay?

She called from this number
last night then didn't answer.

I've been scared
to try hospitals--

I'm sorry, I can't divulge
any patient information.

Is she alive?

Yes.

Thank you. What department?

Emergency. Ask for Dr. Hamed.

I think her name's Krista.

Blood came back.
Full of ketamine.

That explains her high BP
and heart rate...

Things people put
in their body these days...

I mean, some guy came in
last week after licking

a poisonous toad. So...

Well, let me know if anybody
comes looking for her.

Yep.

Meet at the place by the thing
in an hour?

Claire, could you find Lily
a bed

until all her bloods are in?
She had a rough night.

It's bedlam down here.
Can you get her in upstairs?

Oh, no go.
Her boss kicked me out,

but Dr. Leblanc
is a renegade.

Yeah, Dr. Fisher
doesn't think she suffered

from a cardiac event.
- Even though I did.

Which is why I want to run
a wider set of labs

and need a spot
for her while we wait.

It's really a madhouse today.

Um, the best I can do
is hallway gurney.

That's perfect! It's great.
Stay here,

we'll get you settled.

I promise it won't be long.

Okay, and when the new labs
come in,

are we looping in Dr. Fisher?

She doesn't really think
they're necessary

so just me for now?
- Yep.

What happened?

The transplant kidney has
a bacterial infection.

My guess is someone put
their lunch in the wrong cooler.

I'm so sorry, guys.

Um... another one
could come up.

They said I could hold out
a few more weeks on dialysis...

Definitely not enough time
to finish my memoir--

I'll be right back.

Please tell me you're not
gonna run off to cry

in the hallway too.

For better or worse,
I am comfortably numb, so...

Apparently not.

How else can I be of use to you?

By discussing anything

but kidneys or my lack thereof?

Well, you're writing a memoir?

I'm thinking of calling it
Shades of Beige...

in honour of hideous
hospital walls. Thoughts?

Could use some work.

I'm scared, Theo.

I know.

But we'll think
of a better title.

Right behind you, Bash.

Matt Ellis, 34!

A truck hit his motorcycle.

Skull fracture, collapsed lung,

abdo shredded.
We had to pack and seal.

He was a block away
from our house! Please help him!

Our surgeons have it, ma'am.
What do you need, Dr. Curtis?

Uh, O-neg blood
and I'll take him straight

to trauma OR. Page Singh.

June's got this, Dr. Hamed.

What's going
to happen to him?

Let our surgeons
do their jobs.

They'll take care of him.

Right pupil's blown.
Page Neurosurg,

interventional radiology.

Chest tube's in.
Dammit, his liver's exposed.

I'm gonna need suction.
- I've got blood.

New porter took it
to Trauma Bay instead.

Claire, prep to transfuse.

Theo since you're here, intubate?

Got it.

Massive abdominal hemorrhage.

I'm guessing from more
than one spot.

- He's bleeding out.
- Get a clamp in there.

- I've got it, Kelly.
- Claire, there is no point.

I can't see anything.
I'm suctioning and sponging

as fast as I can.

I've got a difficult
airway here.

So much blood.

I'm in...

but he's hypovolemic. I don't
think we're gonna be able

to transfuse fast enough.

Pressure's tanking.

Dr. Curtis what do you need?

June!

June!

There is too much blood,
we're not keeping up.

I see that. Make a plan
to deal with it, or I will.

Alright, abdo's the priority.
I'm gonna use a VAC, Claire.

On the backup cart.

You don't know
what negative pressure

will do to the liver.
- Well, Dr. Novak taught me

how to pack properly, so unless
you have a better idea?

Extra hands!

Pack thoroughly.

- Pressure's ticking up.
- That's a good sign.

Just about ready for the patch.

One twenty-five milli
continuous.

So, is that always
like this in here?

Only on days that end in Y.

We should get an ETA
on Neurosurg.

There's no point in moving
heaven and earth

if there's no brain function.

You think he's gonna
pull through?

Krista, I was panicking!
You said you're with friends

then stay out all night
in some k-hole?!

That's not at all
what it was!

It's therapeutic.
- Oh, come...

Controlled dosage
by a psychiatrist

and it's completely legal.

When I left the clinic,
I was fine.

I... I've never rebounded
like this before.

And how are you feeling now?

Just tired and embarrassed.

I thought I... I called you?

Yeah, in the middle
of the night,

from her phone, which apparently
you kept active?

And then I have to come
back here,

to the place they brought her--
- She has a name, Tavi!

And you're allowed
to think about her.

Our daughter Arianna
died two years ago.

She was 17.

I'm very sorry for your loss.

Anyway, I think that's why
I came here.

To feel connected to her again.

Hmm.

I thought you came in
because of your symptoms.

Symptoms? What symptoms?

A racing heart,
which makes sense

considering your
high blood pressure.

And stomach pain?

Yeah, uh...

Now that I'm officially
back in my body,

I do feel that.

The symptoms started
a few days ago.

Lie back for me, please.
If they're administering

controlled substances,
they should be checking vitals.

They do! Always!
I was fine when--

When you took a bunch
of ketamine?!

Okay, I hear you're angry,
Tavi, but it helps me!

It breaks down barriers.

And Ari even talks to me.
- Okay--

No, she does! And she says
we're allowed to move on.

She wants us to move on!
- I don't wanna hear that crap!

Um, you have a pulse here.

Isn't that a good thing?

Not when it's in your abdomen.

We can run some tests
to see what's causing it.

Okay.

The fiction
that we are somehow

at our best after a 12 hours
on the floor.

So... all my years of pulling
12-to-16 was what?

Wasted effort?

Still four weeks on,
one week off, right?

'Cause I live for that week.

This way you wouldn't have to.

Around the corner, Mags.
You can't miss her!

You settled in.

I like to be comfortable.

Do we know what happened
last night?

All your labs
came back normal.

So maybe you were
just lightheaded.

You're on team

"it's all in her head"?

Thought you were a renegade.

Lily, is there a reason
you don't want to go home?

Living alone with
a heart condition

means choosing between
locking the deadbolt

and the paramedics being able
to get to me in time.

No, I'm not asking for pity.

I like my life.

But all I have
is how I feel

and I won't be made invisible.

Well... I mean, if we
were going to look wider

than Long QT, any family
history of stroke

or high blood pressure?
- I went through all that

with your boss's previous lackey
when I signed up

for this study last year.
- Well, the only other thing

I can do is collect your tropes.
They'd give us a definitive

answer on a coronary event.

Can I be there when you tell
Dr. Fisher I was right?

If we find something.

Her insistence
on the infallibility of a device

over a human being?

Must be a pretty lucrative
hunk of metal.

What, does she get
some kind of cut?

It's a fire hazard.

Before you say anything,

I know I lost control.
It was just for a second.

A second is all it takes.

If the chaos is getting to you--
- Yeah, you know...

there's a woman out there
who's going to find out

that her husband is hanging on
by a thread,

so it is not just the chaos.

It's everything,
and it's all on me,

so that's why
I wanted you covering.

So, did I bite off
more than I can chew?

You had structure and a clear
path, and you left it.

I can't answer for you, June.
You chose this.

June Curtis? I've been easing
her into being friends

for the past two years
and you reap the dividends?

That's so annoying!
- She insisted.

But she can still be traced
back to you though, right?

I mean, if anyone
followed the money,

wouldn't she still be
breaking the rule?

Saleh's like my brother, Mags.
I have to help.

Even though
he told you not to?

Anyway, we were talking
about your conflict of interest.

Oh, so we're just done
with you now? Okay.

I mean, I don't know how

it didn't occur to me
that Fisher

stands to profit from the ICD.

That doesn't mean she doesn't
care about her patients.

She's your cardiologist.

Yeah, and she always wants me
to do less!

And I walked away
from a career in Emerg

I'd been building forever
because it didn't feel right.

What if cardiology is wrong too?

Um... Kind of spiralling here.
- Yeah, I'm thinking.

Can I think
for one second? Please.

Okay, you know your patient
who's spread out in the hallway?

You do that too... morally.

That's what you came up with?
My morals take too much space?

What? Do you think I'm naive
because I want to be happy?

No, I think you burn things
down when they don't match

your impossible standards.
- And I think you're risking

your citizenship to help Saleh
for the same reason

you won't fight for Trauma OR,
you think you don't

deserve things.

Same time tomorrow?

Dr. Hunter, I've been
paging you.

That chart you
requested came back.

Thank you.

Hey!

Any updates on Matt?

Still too much swelling
on the brain to see

if there's any executive
function. Why?

I have a kid who lost a kidney
and Matt's a partial match.

- You screened without consent?
- No.

Surgeons prescreened
for transfusions.

I just looked.
- Okay. Well,

Matt's still alive.
And his very worried wife

doesn't really need you
floating this right now.

I know, it's just he's not
a registered donor.

All it would take is
the transplant nurse to go in

and ask if she'd be willing
to put him on the list.

There are really good reasons
why we don't do that,

like not wanting patients
thinking that we make less

of an effort with organ donors.
- I know you'll do everything

you can to save Matt.
- Yeah, and if I'm unsuccessful,

then we can ask.

It won't be enough time
to organize by then!

A kid's life is at stake here!

Look, I know I'm skirting
the line,

but as supervising doctor,
if I want us to look into this,

we look into this!
- Seniority or not, doctor,

you are way over the line!

And I shouldn't have
to explain that to you, Theo.

They said that the ketamine's
mostly out of my system

but that my blood pressure's
still high.

That's because in the part
of your aorta that runs

through your abdomen,
those walls have weakened.

It's an abdominal
aortic aneurysm.

Ketamine raises
blood pressure. I looked it up.

Did it cause this?
- Not necessarily,

but it may have
exacerbated the aneurysm.

Aren't aneurysms deadly?

They can be if they rupture.

But many of them remain stable
for years with regular imaging.

Some patients have opted
for a surgical intervention.

It's a more definitive solution
but not without its own risks.

What kind of risks?

Heart attack, kidney damage, clots.

Well, I...

I'd vote for surgery.

Why go straight
to the riskiest option?

We should wait and see.
- Why pretend it's not there

when I can face it right now?

He said they'd monitor it,

you could be okay
for a long time!

Tavi...

- Fine. Do what you want.
- Don't! Don't disappear!

Stay here and fight with me!

If I do this now, I can move on!

Live my life!

Why won't you stop
punishing yourself

and learn to want that too?

It's not true
I never think of her.

Her body on that gurney...

it's burned in my mind.

And I will not survive
if it happens to you too.

Sorry, I need some air.

Um, I can read you the options
again if you like.

Yes, please.

ds)

How much time
does she have left?

On the... on the machine.

Two more hours. I've arranged
for transport home.

She wouldn't want to...

To go out surrounded
by hospital beige?

Yeah she's uh,
she's mentioned that.

Have you ever fostered before?

A few times. I've never
really bought into the whole

biological imperative, you know?

You always love them.
But I told myself

I could keep up the barrier,

and that I was good
at saying goodbye, but...

Not like this.

Can you delay transport?

Have you found another kidney?

It's just... a lead, it's...

Don't get your hopes up.

Ah! I'm, uh...

If this works, we're gonna need
a giant cardboard cutout of you

with a cape
for the living room.

You guys need to get out more
or find a...

Just don't tell Siobhan, okay?
This could still be nothing.

- Okay.
- Okay?

Okay.

- The favour has to go.
- Yeah, I know,

I'm on my way to tell her
her tropes are negative.

So, we were just
talking about you.

We'll be right back.

There is nothing medically
wrong with that woman.

Yeah, I know, Dr. Devi,
but she was scared to go home

and I needed to make sure
she was okay

because I tend to kind of want--
- Fear is its own sickness.

The one that our system
sucks at making room for.

Okay, but we already have
a four-hour backlog of patients

with physical symptoms.

Has anyone been updating her?

Because that can add
to her anxiety.

Well, she's not even
an Emerg patient.

I'll talk to her.
And um, maybe we can move her

to the waiting room until
she's ready to go?

Great.

Hey. Your courier called.

He asked a lot of questions.
- Like what?

Like where I work,
how I know Saleh,

what the money's for...
I didn't say anything about you

but are you sure
you wanna do this?

Hey! Hey!
Something's wrong with Krista!

She started wailing
in pain then passed out!

- Wanna catch me up?
- Low-grade triple A.

Pressure's 60 systolic.

She's not low-grade anymore,
she's full of fluid.

- Maybe it's dissected?
- Whoa does that mean ruptured?

You said that was unlikely!
- Okay, we need to act now.

We need to stop the bleeding.

- Is she gonna be okay?
- Move aside, Tavi.

We've been packing all month.

I took a job in Denver,
and Matt dropped everything else

just to come.
Just to support me.

Now it's my turn to be there.

To get him healthy.

There are resources here
to help you, Jenny.

But I came to ask...

Matt isn't a registered
organ donor.

Oh my god, did you come
to tell me that he died?!

No. No. Um...

But if he did,

if you, on his behalf,
would like to donate an organ

to a patient in need,
we can bypass the list.

Are you trying to harvest
one of Matt's organs?

He is still alive!
- And his surgeons are doing

everything they can
to keep it that way.

But if you thought he had
a chance, you...

wouldn't be asking me this, right?

I am not on Matt's team, okay?

I can't tell you
what's going to happen.

All I know is that
there is a young girl

who is clinging to life
right now, just like Matt.

No! No!

No! It is my turn to be there,

and Matt is gonna live
no matter what you say!

Continue MTP.

Call the blood bank.
- I'm gonna need suction.

Ah, good thing
this happened here.

Eight times out of ten
a rupture will kill you

before you get to the hospital.

She's in hemorrhagic shock.

Go higher, June.

We need superphilia control.

He's not wrong.

Thanks for the sign-off,
Dr. Hamed.

I'm gonna compress the aorta
and stop the bleed.

In a more orderly
fashion this time?

Crossed clamp.
I'm gonna need retraction.

Dr. Hamed can retract.

You've lost interest?

As per Dr. Devi,
I'm not meant to assist

on trauma surgeries.
- As per Dr. Curtis,

we need help and I agree, so...

Up to you. In or out?

Retracting.

That's it.

Yeah.

Need me to hire
movers for that woman?

Oh, Lily? No, that's okay,
I'll take care of it.

Um, what you said about
fear being a sickness,

I completely agree.

Also I read all your academic
papers, so...

Always nice to meet a fan.

...is something a person
who publishes

medical research papers
says, never.

Can I ask some advice?

I mean, I'm not
your supervising doctor,

but... shoot.

Is it a conflict of interest

if a physician stands
to personally gain

financially from her research?

Yes.

That happens all the time.

But I do think it's wrong.

My advice, however,
is ask to yourself

why you're not asking
the physician the question.

We heard from Neuro
on Matt Ellis.

Cognitive function are negative.
Nothing more they can do.

I'm sorry to hear that.

If your patient still needs
a kidney,

I'm about to inform the wife.

Don't tell us the girl
didn't make it?

Uh, no, um...

Jenny already said no.

You spoke to her after
I asked you not to?

- Dr. Hunter!
- I know!

It was a stupid mistake.

One Siobhan's gonna pay for.

Look, just...
Where are the donor forms?

- June.
- Well, I doubt she's gonna

change her mind,
but I'll ask again.

Hey. Not for you,
for your patient.

- Right. Thank you.
- Yeah.

Tell me what else you need.

To make Trauma OR work for you.

Okay. But earlier you said
that I made the wrong choice.

You did. But I still
want you to succeed, June.

And this shouldn't be
all on you.

Plus I look bad if you fail.

Personally, I think
you should start

with your surgical
cart workflow, but think about

what else you need.

Hey, I can ask someone
from janitorial to do this.

Oh, so a patient waits
another 20 minutes

when it takes me five?

You've heard I'm looking
to change nursing shift hours?

Mm-hmm.

I was hoping I could
count on you

to sell it to your team.
- Mm...

Then why don't you tell me
what's behind it?

To improve overall
patient experience,

we're revamping waiting times
and communication.

I'm aware that a lot of that
burden will fall on nurses.

And, uh...

you think shorter shifts
will make up for that?

I know. Change is anarchic.

But I'm willing to be unpopular
if it improves things long term.

I think this will, Claire.

Well, doctors make decisions

and the nurses eat
the consequences.

That's always the way it's been.

Tavi.

Hi. How is she?

So we clamped the bleed
but Krista needs another surgery

to repair her artery.

This is my fault.

I said no to surgery before.

This is not your fault. Okay?

We would've had to deal with
this before we started anyway.

Krista's right, you know.

I haven't let myself move on.

Even the little things
we used to do as a couple...

Watching dumb TV,
going for walks, I...

I can't.

She believes she can beat it
one day, you know, the grief.

She talks about moving on
like there's a finish line.

If she works hard enough...

Arianna's.

Krista's called it
a thousand times.

Leaving messages, uh...

"Hey, I baked your favourite
cookies today."

"I read this book,
you would've loved it."

Things about her day.

I found the text message
Ari sent me that night.

"See you tomorrow, old man."

I forgot she used
to call me that.

It used to make me laugh,
but when I read now, I...

It hurts.

It's torture.

Even letting the good
memories in, I...

Krista's still here and she...
she needs to me try.

You should go be with her.

Today's trauma log
for your review.

Thanks again for stepping in.
If you've got any feedback...

Novak isn't your problem.
You are.

You've got big ideas
and that's why they hired you.

But... if you also want allies,

I've got a suggestion.

I want to hear it.

Hey.

Go straight there,

if you lose this, I can't
get another until Monday.

- What's this?
- That fancy pressed sushi

you like. You don't want
me to cook, so...

Hey, you were right.
I should've brought you with me

and showed you how to do it,
but I...

Whoa! It's supposed
to be a cheque!

No, no, that's not for you.
This is for you.

You're not moonlighting
as some backdoor

Craigslist doctor, are you?

Thanks for the sushi!

Uh...

I have the cash...

Ms. Tang is out of a-fib,
and we can probably discharge

Mr. Londra in the morning.

Good. Mr. Coel in four?

Dilated cardiomyopathy?

He fills an age gap
we're light on.

Do an intake and see
if he's interested in the study.

Also, you should know
that I kept Lily Jameson

in Emerg until all her tests
came back negative.

I understand you wanted
her discharged but did you know

that her father had a fatal
coronary embolism

when she was 15?

Lily came back from school
and found him.

- She told you that?
- It was in her intake form.

extended patient history.

Anyway, she needed to stay
long enough to feel safe, so...

Well, I'm glad she's okay.
Thanks for letting me know.

She looks so happy here.

You'll have to do two rounds
of plasmapheresis

because it's a half-match.

They'll clean your blood
so your antigens

don't do Battle Royale
against the donor's.

It's okay to be optimistic,
Siobhan.

This kind of transplant
has good odds.

Odds someone else
had to die to give me.

That's true.

But you didn't cause
that to happen.

But I was happy.

When you told me.
Doesn't that make me

some kind of monster?

It makes you human.

We are wired for survival.

You get to be happy
this is happening. You hear me?

What about next week?

Or next year?
How will I feel about it then?

I don't know.

But you're gonna be around
to figure it all out.

Don't tell Gloria I cried.

'Cause I'd hate to have
to write you out of my memoir.

I swear on hospital beige.

If you're gonna tell me
to leave, we've done that dance.

No, I'm not.

But there's a decent chance
that someone might.

Let them try.

I was 50-50 on whether
you'd order and camp out.

I'm trying to take some advice
and moderate.

Just a little.

Why do I still feel like you
gave her your cell phone number?

- 'Cause I'm still me.
- I did the thing.

With the money.

And you're still you too.

Everything okay?

I think so. It's easier
than doing a bank draft.

But the woman didn't give me
a receipt so how do I know

if it went through?
- You just hope for the best

and wait.
Thank you so much, June.

I really owe you one.
- No, we're even, okay?

You clamping that bleed
in Trauma OR

was the only sane part
of my day,

but you should know, though...

There were some
consequences to that.

Hi. I'm sorry to interrupt

but um, I heard Dr. Singh

wants me training
as a trauma surgeon?

To support Dr. Curtis.

As long as you're willing
to start from the bottom. Again.

He also said that
he was the one

who pulled you
into Trauma OR today?

I could tell you I was
in the right place

at the right time,
but I did choose to stay.

Well, I still think you should
focus on other skills.

But if you want this...
it's up to you.

Yes!

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