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EPISODE 35

You said before

that everyone has to pay a price to get what they want.

Have you forgotten?

Why...

don't you see this tough time

as the price you have to pay

to help others?

You're right.

You must be suffering

by helping me.

I'm not suffering at all.

You are too kind.

You are even trying to comfort me.

I can still remember

how angry you looked

when you were trying to help me.

I'm willing to do anything

to help you get revenge.

Do you still remember Rui Fan and Wei En's

expressions when they saw you in the restaurant?

Of course!

But...

What?

Rui Fan is suffering now.

He seems helpless.

He seems to have been driven into a corner.

Mr. Lan.

I wonder if there are

any job openings at your company.

Can you help him get a job?

He's actually very talented.

What about his character?

I apologize.

I can't be his guarantor.

What is it?

Do you still have feelings for him?

No. No feelings at all.

I just pity him.

Really?

Why would I lie?

I don't mind anyway

as long as you don't lie to yourself.

I don't understand you women at all.

He was so cruel to you,

but you still have hopes for him.

Why would you help him find a job?

Are you dreaming that he will come back to you?

Or do you just love

being rejected?

What's wrong with you?

What a fool. You never learn.

Why did you say that?

Did I offend you?

What's wrong with you?

What are you mad about?

All right. I apologize.

Forget it!

I'm sorry.

You're not being sincere.

Ms. Xie An Zhen, I apologize.

I shouldn't have said that.

Is that all?

Ms. Xie An Zhen, I apologize!

Louder, Sir!

Ms. Xie An Zhen, I apologize!

Our marketing director

has no creativity at all.

Xie An Zhen, are you laughing at me?

You just love embarrassing me, don't you?

Are you happy now?

Listen carefully. I'll never sing or dance like that again.

There will be no next time.

An Zhen must have cleared my credit card debts.

Why did she do that?

When did you start smoking?

I didn't know at all.

It's just for fun.

I don't like it.

I really hate people smoking.

I apologize.

I have disappointed you, too.

How?

You know how.

I still can't find a suitable job.

I see.

So only Mr. Wen is a man.

Wen Rui Fan isn't?

I'm not Xie An Zhen.

I won't comfort you tenderly

and cry with you.

But listen carefully.

I need a man who's stronger than me,

not a low-spirited man

who expects me to encourage him.

Ask yourself.

Look at yourself.

Do you deserve my love

and my respect?

But I give you all my love!

Love?

If your so-called love

means sinking together,

then I apologize,

but I don't want your love.

TAI GU CARS

-Hello, Mr. Lan. -Hello.

-Hello, Mr. Lan! -Hello.

Enjoying coffee?

Do you want some?

No, thanks.

-Do your best this month. -Okay.

Did he just smile at us? What got to him?

Right? Why has he become so nice?

You used to love his cool style.

Now it's gone.

So you don't like him anymore?

Not really.

He was cool,

but now...

he's handsome!

Wake up!

-Hello, Mr. Lan. -Hello.

What's the matter?

Why

does every man I love

keep disappointing me?

I really have

no answer to that.

But,

have you ever considered

that perhaps you're the problem?

Wei En,

go to the doctor.

I can recommend--

Don't bother.

I'm not sick!

It won't hurt to have someone hear you out.

If you only shut others out and suffer alone,

you won't get your answer!

Lan Tien Wei.

you've always told me

that I'm sick or that I have a problem.

Why are you still saying that?

You're the one who needs help!

You schemed with An Zhen to bully me.

Are you happy now? Huh?

Are you insane?

My goodness! What a big rat!

Why is there a rat in here?

It's so dirty in here! My goodness!

So dirty!

This rat has a tail as big as a vixen's!

As big as a vixen's!

Leave! Leave now.

Leave.

What filth.

How dare you come here?

Filth.

What?

Who are you staring at?

My eyes are bigger than yours.

Please excuse me.

I never expected to meet Wei En again,

especially not in this way.

How dramatic.

The joys and sorrows of real life

are actually much more dramatic than fiction.

I have to agree.

Wei En seems to be

in so much pain.

Hey.

Ask her to come see me.

If she feels strange,

I can introduce her to another doctor.

The problem is she doesn't want to see a doctor.

She doesn't think there's anything wrong with herself mentally.

Then why did she pay you a visit?

She wanted to ask

why every man she's ever loved

has eventually disappointed her.

I do want to help her.

I don't want her to suffer.

But the problem is I really don't know how

to help her.

-Tien Wei. -Yes?

I think you've changed somehow.

I haven't.

You have.

You just said something you've never said before.

"I want to help her."

Your mantra used to be,

"I can't stand them.

Those weak people always asking for help. It's so annoying!"

Indeed.

But your mantra was,

"Tien Wei,

don't be so coldhearted.

Sometimes,

people just need some help."

But you never listened to me.

So why did you suddenly say,

"I want to help her"?

Are you trying to say

I still have feelings for Wei En?

Do you?

Do you still have feelings for her?

Of course not. Come on.

I just want to help her. That's all.

And that's odd.

I want to know why you want to help her.

Get out of my way!

You should be analyzing Wei En, not me!

But do you have any idea how to help her?

Actually, I've come across many cases like hers before.

I still think it's better for her to come and see me in person.

That's impossible, unless you want me to kidnap her.

Impossible?

Nothing is impossible in this world.

AUTO SHOP

Wei En?

I'm meeting a friend.

Oh. Someone is offering you a job?

That's great.

All right. We'll catch up later.

Mr. Wen, your car is in very good condition.

Let's talk about a price in the office.

-Are you Dr. Xi? -Yes.

Are you Wei En?

Please have a seat.

Ms. Zhang told me

you're hiring a secretary?

Wei En, I'm Tien Wei's mom.

Lan Tien Wei asked you to come?

He wants me to stop bothering him, right?

Of course not.

So you yourself want to warn me

to stop bothering your son?

Wei En, surely not!

Why is your first thought

always about people not liking you?

Wei En.

I myself want to talk with you.

But I know you certainly wouldn't have come by yourself,

so I've come to you.

I know you're a psychologist.

I don't want to talk with you.

No, thanks.

Hey, Wei En!

But don't you want to find out

if Tien Wei ever loved you?

What kind of music do you like?

You probably won't like

my music preferences.

Try me.

Evanescence.

Oh?

You like gothic metal?

Amy Lee has a creative flair.

Too bad Tien Wei has never liked rock music, since he was young.

He always yelled at me,

"Turn it off! It's noisy!

I thought my dad came back to life."

Our favorite music

usually reflects our inner self.

Gothic style

is full of depressed, misanthropic, and desolate sentiments.

But at the same time, it likes to decorate itself

with delicate and gorgeous beauty.

Is that your inner self?

So does the music you're playing reflect

your inner self?

I'm an exception.

I have many patients who are depressed

and misanthropic, yet craving love.

Just like gothic music.

I try to access their inner selves through music.

Depressed and misanthropic yet craving love?

That's contradictory.

No, not at all.

They crave love so much

that they can't be satisfied no matter how much love they receive.

So they're depressed and misanthropic.

It's not because they don't care,

but because they care too much.

Mrs. Lan,

we're not here to talk about music, are we?

Right. Okay.

You want to know if Tien Wei ever loved you.

So?

Before I give you the answer,

you have to answer my question.

Mrs. Lan.

You're really annoying!

Wei En.

What do you think love is?

I don't know.

I don't think I've ever been loved.

Then, have you ever loved?

Of course I have!

When I loved Tien Wei,

I never even glanced at anyone else.

He was the only person in my eyes

and in my heart.

It's supposed to be natural

for two people who love each other

to want to stick together all the time.

I should have been the only one in Tien Wei's eyes, too.

Because I was the only person who should have been important to him.

But Tien Wei didn't love me at all.

Do you also think

your current boyfriend, Wen Rui Fan,

doesn't love you?

I used to have high hopes for him.

We went through so much

to be together.

But now,

I don't think he loves me anymore.

And I'm so disappointed in him

that now

I also don't feel like loving him anymore.

Do you think your parents love you?

Ever since I was a kid,

they let me rove between two families

which did not belong to me.

Is that love?

Have you ever considered why you fell in love

with Tien Wei and Rui Fan?

It just happened.

Do I need a reason?

Wei En,

our feelings are driven by our subconsciousness,

and that's beyond our control.

So the same goes for your feelings.

Do you understand?

No, I don't.

Tien Wei and Rui Fan have something in common.

Tien Wei is very independent and rational,

but he's also a little selfish.

It's rather difficult for people to receive love and care from him.

But Rui Fan is different from him.

He gave me so much love and care.

But Rui Fan had a wife.

You couldn't have him.

So that's what Rui Fan

and Tien Wei have in common?

Yes.

You can't own either of them completely.

Just like your parents,

you couldn't own them completely.

Since you were young you've always craved love,

and this has become a trauma.

Although you've grown up,

your trauma has never healed.

So your feelings

keep repeating your childhood experience.

You keep craving, but you're insatiable.

I don't believe it.

Wei En,

I believe you have many admirers.

Why are you not interested in them?

You're not interested in a man

who you can own completely.

You need a man

who you can't own,

just like Rui Fan and Tien Wei.

Because they allow you to repeat

your past failure.

Nonsense.

No one likes to repeat their past failure.

Wei En.

You must let your childhood trauma heal.

Or else you'll keep repeating your past experience.

You'll be drowned by your endless craving.

Do you understand?

What kind of doctor are you?

You keep provoking my wounds.

You're such a cruel doctor!

I never gave you permission to analyze me!

I just couldn't bear to see you go on hurting yourself.

So I wish to help you

to better understand yourself.

You want to know if Tien Wei ever loved you.

That doesn't matter.

What matters is whether you've ever loved yourself.

Tien Wei loved you.

I believe Rui Fan loves you, too.

But you don't love yourself.

Your subconsciousness tells you that you can't be loved,

so you can't feel their love for you.

Wei En.

As long as you acknowledge your own feelings

and your own problem,

there's a good chance this problem will go away.

I feel sorry for you.

I don't want you to be tortured and controlled

by these feelings anymore.

I hope you can love happily and joyfully,

and be loved happily in return.

Tien Wei and I both want you to be happy.

This isn't my home anymore.

Mr. Lan, aren't you lucky?

It's only your first time here, yet you get to taste

An Zhen's delicious dishes.

Hey, listen.

I just learned to make this dish.

-Try it while it's still warm. -Great!

Wait!

Hey, we have to play rock-paper-scissors first.

The loser washes the dishes later.

It shouldn't be An Zhen every time.

How can you be so mean?

Come on! Rock-paper-scissors!

-Me too? -Sure.

Of course!

Hey, you're the marketing director of our company,

and we respect you.

But step out of that door

and you're just Mr. Lan.

I'm not afraid of you!

That's right, Mr. Lan.

Rock-paper-scissors...

Rui Fan, have you had dinner?

He's eaten! Sit down.

Mr. Lan, help yourself.

Hi.

Hi.

Have you had dinner? Want to join us?

I just ate.

Come upstairs with me.

I have something to give you.

Excuse me for a while. You all help yourselves.

It's getting cold.

Eat up.

Honey, why must you?

Blood is thicker than water. Have some pity for him.

I'm also sad to see my own brother

in that condition.

I just can't forgive him completely yet!

Well then...

Rock-paper-scissors?

Shut up!

You'll wash the dishes!

What? You won't?

Come on.

What's the matter?

$25,000

What is this?

I know you cleared my debts.

Here's the money.

Where did you get the money?

I sold the car.

You sold Mi Bao?

How could you?

Do you have no feelings at all?

Mi Bao wasn't just a car.

It was with us for such a long time.

Certainly we have to have feelings for it!

I'm sure he neither said goodbye

nor thanked it!

How could he just sell it?

What's so funny?

I'm just wondering

which weirdo named the car.

Me!

Xie An Zhen,

whenever I believe you can't be any weirder,

you always give me a surprise!

You're the weird one!

What's the matter? You can't live without Mi Bao?

You wouldn't understand!

What are you doing here?

Hush!

-Come here! -What's going on?

Honey.

I'm eavesdropping on An Zhen and Lan Tien Wei.

They're flirting, you know?

So?

What if Lan Tien Wei really conquers An Zhen?

That would be great!

No way!

Why not?

But too bad An Zhen will never fall for it.

I know her too well.

My turn now! Get out of the way.

Wei En.

You must let your childhood trauma heal.

Or else you'll keep repeating your past experience.

You'll be drowned by your endless craving.

Do you understand?

Hello?

Wei En.

It's late. Why aren't you home yet?

Home?

Do I have a home?

What are you talking about?

Don't worry. I'm fine.

I just want to be alone for now

and clear my head.

Bye.

Hello? Wei En?

Ai Lin.

You said the top should stand out.

How about this?

Put that down.

My goodness.

That doesn't suit you.

Really?

This one is gorgeous.

Isn't this too red?

No. It'll stand out on TV.

I see.

It's pretty indeed.

What will you do

without me?

-Xie An Zhen. -Yes?

I'm getting married.

-Really? -Yes.

That man must be someone extraordinary.

He's very ordinary.

A little over 40 years old,

an American born Chinese,

teaching at a high school in the States.

He's a bit plump

and going bald.

But he treats me well.