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We're requesting that all relatives

send us blood samples
for potential DNA profiling.

Have you found Melissa?

No, sir, we have not.

We won't stop looking for her.

Sweeney's been granted bail.

He'll kill me, I know it.

Get in that house. Delia squeals

I've got some news about sweeney.

He's out of the country.

At least now it's safe for
us to start thinking about

getting you discharged.

Would you like to meet again?

Coffee? Or a meal?

You look cold, like.

Do you wanna come
in, have a cup of tea?

- Just for a few minutes then.
- Sound. What's your name?

Paula.

'We think he might have killed a woman.'

and the lawyers are saying

we don't have enough to charge him.

We wanna build a case against him

for his attack on you in December 1994.

And you'll be called to give evidence.

No.

After all that monster did to you.

Why don't you wanna
be part of something

that will put him away?

I solemnly declare and affirm...

- This is my lost fingertip...
- Miss balmer.

And this is the scar made by the knife

that pierced through my right breast

- and my right lung!
- Miss balmer!

You carry on like this,
you'll destroy this case

and sweeney will be back on the street.

He's laughing at you, Delia.

Would you like some water?

No, I want wine.

She sighs

miss balmer, in your own time,

please tell the court about
the events of the night

of Thursday the 22nd
of December 1994.

You mean the night he killed me?

If that's how you prefer to put it, yes.

It was about 6:30pm. I'd
cycled home from work.

There was no-one on the street.

I arrived home.

I leant my bike up against
the railings, as I always did,

I went to unlock my front door.

I went to pick up my
bike. As I was carrying it in,

I heard him call my name.

I looked over my right shoulder

and he was coming up the steps.

Who do you mean by "he", miss balmer?

Him - John sweeney.

Even though it has been
seven years since the attack,

I am still affected by my injuries.

Some days I feel like

there's a metal clamp crushing my chest.

And if I am touched even
softly on my right breast,

I get a horrible feeling
like an electric shock.

Both my arms hurt. I can't grip properly.

I have difficulty lifting
anything of any weight.

And on cold days, the metal
in my left arm feels like ice.

I don't like looking at my injuries.

I have scars all over my body.

I don't like trying on clothes in shops

because I feel like
everybody is looking at them.

And I... especially hate
how my little finger looks.

I used to be proud of my hands, but now,

when I look at my little
finger, it makes me feel sick.

Thank you, miss balmer.

Could you please tell the court,

what have been the long-term effects

of the attack on your mental health?

Well, I have been diagnosed with PTSD

post-traumatic stress
disorder. I feel anxious.

I get angry with people.
I have nightmares.

And I have... I have been to see

psychiatrists and therapists.

Most of them have said
I need anti-depressants,

which I have refused

because I will not put
chemicals into my body.

Drugs trick you into
thinking everything is all right

when it is not.

And do you know, I have
lost what little confidence I had.

I feel as though.

I am in... a black hole.

And I am... scared.

To wake up in the
morning and face a new day

because I feel I have lost my future.

You had the option to give your evidence

from behind a screen, so
that the defendant would not

be able to see you, but
you chose not to do that.

Why was that, miss balmer?

Was it because you
wanted to see mr sweeney?

No. Why should I hide from
him? I'm not scared of him.

You invited mr sweeney
to live in your home.

You were intimate with
him for almost four years.

Can you tell me why?

Cos I'm soft and stupid and
I couldn't see through him.

Did you love, mr sweeney, miss balmer?

No, I did not.

I have never loved anyone.

You told bar stock road
police that mr sweeney

had tied you to a bed
and repeatedly raped you.

That's correct, isn't it?

Yes.

And yet, after your ordeal,

when the police offered to install you

in refuge accommodation
in king's cross, you refused.

Because king's cross
is full of drug addicts

and prostitutes.

Or was it because you still
had feelings for mr sweeney?

No.

Did you hope that he
might return to your flat,

so that you could resume

your consensually
sado-masochistic relationship?

No! That is not what...

My... Why do you
have to twist everything

and make me out to be a liar?

It is unnecessary and it is dishonest!

Why is the law allowed
to treat people like this?!

You see, cos I just want to be left alone.

Well done, Delia, well done.

'I wasn't there.'

I was 200 miles away, in skelmersdale.

Delia balmer's lying because
she's got a grudge against me.

What about miss balmer's
neighbour, Joshua Wilson?

He identified you as a
person he saw attacking her.

Yeah... he's mistaken.

In march last year, after your arrest,

police searched your flat.

- At cicely Crescent...
- Yes.

And discovered an
artist's portfolio containing

201 of your drawings.

Two of those drawings
are of particular relevance

to your attempted
murder of Delia balmer...

Well, I didn't attempt
to murder Delia balmer.

Will the jury please
turn to picture exhibit,

page five, in the bundle?

This drawing shows a boot
about to crush a cockroach.

Did you do this drawing, mr sweeney?

- Yeah.
- Do you remember

if it was before the
attack on Delia balmer

on the 22nd of December 1994, or after?

I've just told you, I
didn't attack Delia balmer

so it's impossible to say
if it was before or after.

In the bottom right-hand
corner are the words,

"a cornered cockroach."

Is this your handwriting, mr sweeney?

- Yes, I think it is.
- Yes.

The cockroach has a woman's head.

Who is this woman, mr sweeney?

Delia... Delia balmer.

Picture exhibit, page six.

This is an enlarged
detail of the same drawing,

angled to make it easier to read.

What you are looking
at, ladies and gentlemen,

is the front section of the boot.

As can be seen, there are
words clearly visible on it.

Mr sweeney, would you
please read what is written?

Mr sweeney?

"May you never die until I kill you."

"May you never die until I kill you."

What point were you making

by writing those words on the boot?

No point. Just black humour.

Moving on.

Page seven in the bundle.

This drawing shows a
section of a man's body.

The man is wearing jeans and a belt.

Tucked inside the belt is an axe,

with blood clearly visible on the blade.

Blood is dripping from the
blade onto a bloody scalp

fringed with blonde hair.

Did you do this drawing, mr sweeney?

- Yes.
- Do you remember when you drew it? - No.

I'd like to draw the jury's
attention to the two patches

of white tipp-ex correction
fluid on the blade of the axe.

Using ultra-Violet light,
scientists were able

to discover words written
beneath the tipp-ex.

Please turn to picture exhibit, page eight.

Under the first patch of
tipp-ex is a date of birth

"13th of October 1956".

Under the second patch,
the words "made in liver pool".

Where were you born, mr sweeney?

I was born in kirkdale, you know that.

- An area of liver pool?
- Yes.

Yes. And what is your date of birth?

The 13th of October 1956.

So, the words you tipp-exed
over refer to yourself?

I didn't write that! I didn't

I didn't put tipp-ex on
that. I didn't write that!

Yet in the opinion of
the handwriting expert

that we consulted, it is your writing.

Let us turn back now to page seven.

As can be seen, there is a further patch

of tipp-ex at the bottom of the page.

Ultra-Violet light revealed more writing.

Please turn to page nine in the bundle.

"December '94."

The very month and year

Delia balmer was subjected
to a near-fatal attack.

I didn't attack miss balmer.

I didn't write this,

and I certainly didn't put tipp-ex on it.

You do admit doing this drawing?

- Yes.
- Of a man with a bloody axe.

The very weapon used in
the attack on Delia balmer.

An extraordinary coincidence,

would you not agree, mr sweeney?

Well, that's what
coincidences are, isn't it?

Extraordinary.

Ladies and gentlemen of the jury,

in a moment, you'll go out
and consider your verdicts.

The only verdict that
I can accept are ones

in which you are all agreed.

My lord, the jury have been in retirement

for nine hours and forty minutes.

Mr foreman, have you reached a verdict

on which you are all agreed?

We have.

Is that in relation to all four counts?

Yes.

On count one of the indictment,

the attempted murder of Delia balmer,

do you find the defendant,
John Patrick sweeney,

guilty or not guilty?

- Guilty.
- You fucking idiot!

You're all fucking idiots!

Well, Christine says his sentencing

will be in three weeks.

The whole world is laughing at me.

No-one's laughing at you.

No-one with a shred of decency

could look at this and
make a judgment about you.

The only person this vile
drawing says anything about

is him.

It's my face, David.

It's not your face.

This is your face.

Drink is poured

you're starting early.

To John Patrick sweeney

spending the rest of his life behind bars.

To the damn police
releasing a box of cockroaches

in his fucking cell.

Buzzer

four life sentences. One
for the attempted murder.

One each for the firearms of fences.

Four life sentences! Fantastic!

Yeah. We couldn't have
done it without you, Delia.

Will you join us for a
glass of champagne, Chris?

Any excuse.

Come on, Delia. Come on.

So, he'll spend the rest of his life in jail?

Er, well... Actually, the...

The judge ruled that
he'll be eligible for parole

in nine years.

What was that?

Four life sentences.

And he's up for parole in nine years?

That's insane!

Honestly, none of us can
make head or tail of it. It's...

It's th-the same old
fucking shit is what it is!

- I'm sorry.
- No.

No, I'm sorry, David.

It's not your fault. You're
not the bloody judge.

Well, this'll probably be my last visit.

Yeah, the rules are very clear

on flo exit strategies.

Unless Delia actually
requests to see me,

which I don't see happening,

I'll be out of her hair now.

I wonder what my
exit strategy should be.

Seriously?

No! No... No, Delia and I...

We're in this for the long haul.

We've found the teeth that
match each other's wounds.

We're fine, we're fine.

Adios, amiga.

Door opens.

"Sir John Stevens, police
commissioner." What's this?

The police and the
courts shouldn't be allowed

to get away with treating
victims like they treated me.

Come on, Delia, now.

Stop? It's over, sweetheart.

Let... let's go out.

I don't wanna go out. My chest hurts

and it's very, very cold.

All right, well, then, let's...

Let's get a takeaway. What
do you want? Indian, Chinese?

David, we can't afford takeaways,

not now that you're
taking so much time off.

For Christ's sake, Delia!

We're not fucking paupers, for...

Let me look.

David blunkett?!

Yes, sir John damn Stevens
got some flunky to reply,

so I'm going over his head.

"The letter I received
from the metropolitan police"

"was an insult."

"I did not want to assist
the law, I was forced to."

"Them thanking me for testifying"

"totally misses the point."

"You might as well torture
someone then thank them"

"for letting you torture them."

"I do not accept their thanks."

"The police can stick
their thanks up their a..."

Yeah. That'll work.

Do you wanna go out later?

Of course.

Quiet chatter.

I wish I'd known you before.

Before what?

Well, sweeney.

The police, the trial.

That's a stupid thing to say, David,

there's no point wishing for
something that never was.

When the defence barrister asked

if you still loved sweeney,

you said... you'd never
really loved anyone.

Is that really true?

You know that about me, David,

I don't go in for any of
that mushy stuff, so...

It's love, Delia. It's not mushy stuff, for...

He scoffs.

So, now you're not giving me any wine

cos you're feeling sorry for yourself.

I'm paying for it.

Glass smashes gasps
now look what you've done!

- Keep your voice down.
- I will not

keep my fucking voice down, David!

Do you know why I
made a spectacle of myself

in the old Bailey?

You think I care about
making a spectacle of myself

in a Greek fucking restaurant?!

Sorry... sorry.

Low chatter

whoa! Everything all right?

Where are you off to in such a hurry?

Home. Out of my way.

Hold on a moment. Have
you been drinking, madam?

Yes! I don't

I don't know what business it is of yours!

Are you American?

No, I'm not fucking... American.

I was not drunk and disorderly!

I was walking home. I have
not done anything wrong.

What's your name?

Delia balmer.

I used to live in lavinia
gardens. I'm in your computer.

The 22nd of December 1994. My

I was attacked with an axe. I nearly died.

There was a trial at
the old Bailey last year.

How do you spell balmer?

She sighs b-a-l-m-e-r.

Distant shouts.

Delia balmer?

And she's been here all night?

Yeah.

Did you not even check
her on the system?

She doesn't have a record.

Not as an offender. As a victim.

I'm sorry about the night you had, Delia.

You're free to go. I'll
have a car run you home.

I'm not getting in a fucking police car.

Delia! Thank Christ!

Where have you been?
I've been worried sick!

I've been wandering
the streets half the night,

looking for you.

Yeah, well, I was arrested, so...

What?! What happened?

I don't wanna talk about
it. I just wanna sleep.

Do you want me to come in with you?

It's not working between us, David.

We're holding on to
something that's gone.

Well, do you wanna talk about that, or...?

Is there any point? Cos I'll only get angry.

Right, bye, then, David.

Stupid, stupid, stupid! Stupid bitch.

Sobs.

Sirens blare.

Yes.

Ok, bye.

Hi, er, sorry to interrupt.

I'm on, er, Lincoln ward

and, I'm a qualified
therapeutic masseuse.

And I was just wondering
if that might be something

that'd be useful here, or...?

Absolutely, but I'm afraid
we don't have the budget.

All right.

I can work for free.

She knocks

hi. My name's Delia.

Sister said you'd like a cranial massage?

Indistinct conversation.

You know, whenever I used to get

a shampoo at the hairdresser's,

I'd always ask for the extra conditioner

just to make it last longer.

You are good, Delia.

Yeah, my lecturer at
college said I was the best

in the class.

All the other students
said I pressed too hard.

They were obviously idiots.

So, is there a mr Delia at home?

Nope.

What, you, so petite and cute?

She chuckles some lucky fella's

- missing out.
- Delia, it's after 11.

Go away, Tessa. Delia's my handmaiden.

Isn't that right, Delia?

They chuckle.

- Nabil!
- Delia!

Mum, this is the lady
with the magic fingers.

Thanks for looking after him.

- You're leaving us?
- Yeah. For a bit.

I've hit a good patch, so...

Mum is gonna pamper me at home.

You take care of yourself, Delia.

Yeah.

Thanks for making this shit bearable.

Nabil coughs come on,
you, let's get you home.

Let's do it... Thanks so much.

Phone rings Barnes green
serious crime command,

di Steve Smith speaking.

Hi. This is detective Astrid
de vries, Amsterdam cid.

Scotland yard gave me your number.

I understand that your
department investigated

the unsolved murder of
a woman, Paula fields.

Most of the team have
moved on, but yes,

the Paula fields
investigation was based here.

How can I help?

I've got some news on the
prime suspect in that case.

John sweeney.

'We've identified the remains
of a former girlfriend of his.

'A young American
woman, Melissa halstead.'

a few weeks ago, a cold
case team in Rotterdam

found a tissue sample in storage

of an unidentified female body,

found in a bag in a canal
in Rotterdam in 1990.

We just got a DNA match with blood

supplied by Melissa's
family back in 1995.

It's her... 100 percent.

'Melissa halstead's
remains have been lying

'in Rotterdam's municipal
cemetery since 1990.'

I was present at the exhumation.

The condition of the body
might be of interest to you.

Her head, hands, and
feet had been removed.

The same as Paula fields.

Ok, ok.

We need to figure out
how to work together on this.

John sweeney has
served almost six years

of his nine-year sentence.

Add to that the months
he was on remand,

and the reality is he
could be out in two years.

That's at least how long an investigation

of this magnitude will take.

And we're not helped
by the fact that neither us

nor the Dutch have a
shred of forensic evidence

linking sweeney to the murders

of Melissa halstead or Paula fields.

On, er, Melissa halstead,

her dismembered remains were
found in a canal in Rotterdam

on may the 3rd 1990.

But only recently
identified, 19 years later.

On Paula fields,

her dismembered remains
were found in regent's canal

on the 19th of February 2001.

We can connect
sweeney to the two women,

various recorded eye-witness accounts.

But no connection with their murders.

However, what are the
chances of two women

having relationships with the same man,

both ending up murdered,

dismembered, heads, hands,
feet removed, put in bags,

and dumped in canals?

Then there's this woman... Delia balmer.

The survivor.

The girlfriend who came
between Melissa and Paula.

The woman whose attempted murder

sweeney is currently doing time for.

On the 31st of may 1994,

Delia balmer made a
statement to bar stock road police

in which she said sweeney
told her he murdered Melissa.

That evidence has never
been put before a jury.

Delia balmer?

What John sweeney
told you in 1994 was true,

except for one detail.

He disposed of Melissa's
body in a canal in Rotterdam,

not Amsterdam.

I never said the canal was in Amsterdam.

Just that he said he
killed her in Amsterdam.

Why are you here?

We're re-opening the
investigation into the murders

of Melissa halstead and Paula fields.

We intend to charge John
sweeney with both of fences.

But, er, it's a given he'll plead not guilty.

No shit

we know the trial in 2001
was very difficult for you...

She scoffs

but if we can get the
case to court, we'd greatly

appreciate it if you'd
consent to give evidence.

It... it would be much easier this time.

You'd just have to talk
about what he told you

- he did to Melissa, that's all.
- No! No!

No, no!

Sobs

we think it's a bad idea to
put Delia balmer on the stand.

Bad for us, but very bad for her.

You told her sweeney's
coming up for parole?

- Yeah.
- I thought she'd relish

the opportunity to testify against him.

But it's not about that for her.

She thought her ordeal was over.

She just wants to be done with all this.

She's that terrified of
being cross-examined again.

We want to suggest a compromise.

The Dutch have requested a
videotaped statement of Delia

talking about sweeney's
Melissa confession.

If she agrees to it, perhaps
we could apply to the judge

to let the video statement

serve as her evidence in the trial.

That way the jury get to see her,

but she avoids the ordeal
of being cross-examined live.

Live is what we need.

Our case against sweeney
is still only circumstantial.

The jury needs to see
Delia balmer, in real time,

telling them what sweeney told her

he did to Melissa halstead.

Knock on door sorry,
boss. You've gotta see this.

Merseyside police conducted a search

on sweeney's family home.

They found this lot in the
original police evidence bags.

It was restored to the family in 2001,

after he was convicted,

but no-one thought to hang on to it

because the case wasn't about Melissa.

Look at this.

- A scratch card?
- Turn it over, boss.

We've confirmed that's
sweeney's handwriting.

"Poor old Melissa,
chopped her up in bits,"

"food to feed the fish,
Amsterdam was the pits."

And that's not all.

He's even dated them.

"Amsterdam. Easter, 1990."

Still think we need Delia
in court to win this thing?

Videotape her statement.
I'll talk to the judge.

See if we can keep her out of court.

Delia, please tell us what
John sweeney told you

during the spring bank holiday of 1994.

No.

I wanna talk about
Saturday the 29th of June

2002, when I was wrongfully arrested

by bar stock road police

for being drunk and disorderly!

A policeman twice my
size put handcuffs on me

and then shoved me into a police Van.

I spent the whole
fucking night in a... dirty,

smelly police cell!

Now, I wrote to the
station's superintendent.

And when he wrote back to me,

he didn't even fucking apologise!

He said what had happened to me

was "an unfortunate incident"
and he tried to shut me up

with a cheque for £42.50

for the dry-cleaning of my suede coat

that they fucking ruined!

We didn't know she was intoxicated

until she let rip for the cameras.

It's not a problem, though, is it, boss?

Not now we've got the photos

and the scratch card and everything.

There's been a development.

Sweeney knows that we don't intend

to put Delia on the stand.

He's instructed his counsel
to go back to the judge

and insist that she
be compelled to testify.

Given the seriousness of
the charges against him,

the judge has granted his request.

Yeah, well, I knew the
creep wasn't finished with me.

I knew he'd find some
way of stamping out

what little life I have left.

But it's not the end of the road.

We've got one card up our sleeve.

We can apply for a medical exemption.

We'd get you to see
a forensic psychiatrist,

with your permission, obviously,

and see if we can get you declared unfit

to give evidence.

That's my only way out of this?

Seeing a shrink who'll
say how nuts I am?

Well, yes, but I

I wouldn't have put it
that way myself, but yes.

Well, what choice do I have?

I can't leave the country
cos my passport's expired.

So, I'm trapped... yet again.

Delia, medical exemptions
aren't easy to get.

So, if the psychiatrist thinks

you're even slightly intoxicated,

that'll go into report to the judge

and it'll be game over.

You mustn't drink any
alcohol before the session.

No, I'll have to have a drink,

otherwise I'll be a mess.

But a sober mess, and
that'll count in your favour.

Bell rings.

Shit.

Come on, Delia...

Rings bell.

I bought two bottles of wine

and a bottle of Brandy last night

and I didn't touch a drop.

So now... I feel dreadful.

Are you clear about the purpose

of this session, Delia?

Yep.

You're gonna decide
whether or not I'm mentally fit

to give evidence in court.

Indistinct discussion behind door.

When I was lying on the steps,

thinking I was about to die.

I thought of my mum and dad.

And my brother, Stewart.

They were alive then, mum and dad.

They died a couple of years ago,

within a year of each other.

And I thought of them each...

Her voice shakes

and how they... How
they were so far away...

I... I thought about how I
would never see them again

and how they would never see me.

Her voice shakes.

And I... I.

I clung... clung to that
memory of their faces,

because I wanted my last
thoughts to be only of them.

Can I go now?

Of course you can.

But.

There's still 30 minutes
left on the clock, Delia.

Paid for by the met.

If there's anything you want to talk about,

anything at all, now
might be a good time.

I just want to go home.

The only thing holding
her together is her anger.

If her fear becomes
greater than her anger,

which is very close to where she is now,

I think there's a real possibility

she might try to take her own life.

Dr howes will tell the judge
that under no circumstances

should you be compelled to testify.

It's over.

"It was like he was letting out something"

"that he'd been keeping deep inside."

"He told me that he killed
Melissa in Amsterdam,"

"and that he sat with
her body for three days."

"He didn't say how he killed her."

"He said he had cut her
up and put her in a bag"

"and threw her in a canal."

'Yeah, two life sentences.

'No parole this time.

'It's what they call here
a whole life tariff, so...

'You know, he'll spend
the rest of his life in jail.'

'it's about goddamn time.

'How do you feel, Delia?'

I dunno.

Not much of anything.

You know, they, er, told me that...

He refused to leave his cell

when they read out the verdict.

'He must've been real mad.'

'good riddance, I say.

'You won, Delia. He tried to kill you

'and he couldn't because
you were too strong.'

I... I don't know if, er,

strength has much to do with it, stew.

'Yes, it did. You were always
the strong one in our family.'

- you think that?
- I know it.

You remember when we
first moved to Detroit in '64,

and there was that tornado and...

And the neighbour's house
moved off its foundations?

Yeah. What about it?

Dad was scared and
he wanted us all to go

into the basement.

'You wanted to stay
upstairs and watch the storm.'

yeah. I remember.

I enjoyed it.

'Yeah... you did.

'We were all scared. But not you.'

Sighs.

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