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The core drives the legs.
The legs drive the bike.

Keep the core tight,
the shoulders still, OK?

Ruth, how you doing?

Super-good. Yeah? Yes.

Good, good, good.

OK. Move dial

one more turn to the right.
Right, now turn bike, point?

Two to the right, let's go.
nine, eight,

get to the top, come on.
six, five, four,

everything. Come on, Ruth.
Put it in.

Come on. You're with me?

Come on. Make it, make it.
Five seconds,

come on. Over there.

Yes. Everything you've got.
Come on, come on, come on, come on.

four, three, two. Oh, my God.

Everything, everything, come on. OK,

two to the left, rest,
rest, rest, rest.

There are times when I have,

when I have not come

to this class if I've read that
there's a substitute on who's...

..not him. There was one week.
No, not having him.

There was one week I came and it did
say on the thing, Miguel,

and I got here and it was Iona,
a woman.

Oh, no.

That's no good to me. I don't want

that on a Sunday morning, babes.
Wrong. That's not what I'm looking.

Listen, I'm not being funny,

you were literally dangling your
fanny in his face.

You were, you were.

Well, you know. I saw you.
Well,

d'you know what? I was,
to be honest with you,

I, I, I did think he was
slightly flirting.

He was. I wasn't imagining that?

No, he was,
he kept saying, "Push it, push it.

"Push it, Ruth, push it."

And you were doing your
riding skills,

showing him your best riding
skills. Oh.

I would, I just want him to,

maybe he could do like
an entire class

for us naked, just naked,
just so we can just,

just so we can observe. Oh, naked.
Just observe,

we don't need to touch.
I don't need to do anything.

You just wanna see what's under
there, don't you?

I just wanna see exactly
what's under there.

I just want to see what's
under there.

SIGHS

Hi.

Freya?

Freya.

Freya.

SHUTTER CLICKS

Freya?

You here, darl...? Oh, you are here.

Hi, I was calling you
and calling you.

Didn't you hear me, sweetheart?
Are you all right?

Bloody boiling in here.

Have you been out at all today?

Sweetheart?

Should go and get some fresh air.

You look nice, are you going out?

What's the matter?

Nothing.
CLEARS THROAT

OK. Erm,

all right darling, well,
I'm gonna put some...

..I'm just gonna make like a salad
and chicken,

or something like that,
if you want anything...

Erm...

Nothing else I can put in
the wash?

OK. Well, I think you should just
get dressed

and go out for a,

just go for a walk around
the block, or something.

Put your phone down

and get some fresh air,
or something.

Mum, can you just leave me alone?

All right, erm, just erm,

let me know if you need anything,
OK?

OK.

SIGHS

PHONE ALERT

PHONE ALERT

CREAK

SIGHS

DOOR SHUTS

FOOTSTEPS ON STAIRS

DOOR CLOSES

Dinner will be soon, love.

FOOTSTEPS ON STAIRS

DOOR SHUTS

Hi! Hi, darling.

Hi,
I'm doing great actually,

yeah, aww, how lovely,
it is to hear from you.

How are you getting on?

Oh, no, ho, ho, ho! Oh, no!

Oh, my God, that's funny, I know.

I was a flippin' student, myself...

Part of the whole...

Part of,
it's part of the culture. Erm...

Yeah, oh, Mum, I, I,
I was really annoyed the other day.

I really wanted to take a photo,
or, like, a video for you.

But I mean, I was in the sea so I
kind of couldn't.

But I saw a pod of dolphins.
How crazy is that?

Oh, my God. That's amazing.

I was gonna Facetime you
and show you but obviously I was...

Aw, aw well, please do next time.

If ever that happens

and you're not standing on
a surf board. Erm...

Yeah, I'll, I'll try. Also,

I was thinking maybe I'd come
up and,

see you and,
Chippy at home before I go.

I'd love that, darling.
That'd be amazing.

Er, OK, I'll call you.
Wait, how's erm,

how's, how's Chippy?
Is she, is she around?

She... Hang on a sec.

Yeah, she's, she's fine.

She's just erm... Er,
Chippy's being Chippy.

So she's,

I'm guessing she's still pretending
to hate you.

No, I think she's actually hating
me, to be honest.

No, Mum, that's not Chippy.
She doesn't.

She might seem like she does,

but it's not, you know,
Chippy never...

No, I know.

Chippy's Chippy,
Chippy does these things.

I know.
To be honest with you,

I'd really like it if you would
phone her, darling.

And ask her, genuinely,
if she's all right.

Because I think there could be
truly something.

Have you asked her if she's
all right?

No, I can't, I can't, I just,
everything I say... You haven't?

It seems to quite piss her off.
And erm...

Right, OK.

And it's, you know,
it's a bit. It's a bit tricky.

Is she eating well, or is, is...?
Oh, I don't know. That's the whole
thing.

There's a whole Ritz cracker ritual
I've noticed.

But I'm sure it's just a phase and
everything, but I just,

I just don't want her
to get stuck in

a rut about whatever it is.

So I wonder if you could just ring
her and just...

Yeah, I'll try and give Chippy
a call.

Yeah. Anyway, Mum, I've gotta, I've
gotta go erm... All right,
sweetheart. OK,

well, I love you so much.
And thank you for ringing.

And, oh, OK, oops, I gotta go.

OK, love you, baby.
He's gonna give you a ring.

OK, love you, Mum.
OK, Freya's here,

she just popped in.
Just say hi, hi, hi.

Hi, Chip, hiya. He's,
he's gonna give you a buzz.

All right, darling,
love you. OK, love you darling,

bye. Bye. Bye, bye, bye, bye, bye.

Oh, erm... D'you want some soup?

Oh, what's the matter?

Well, Billy's having
and absolutely lovely time.

And he was asking after you.
Erm, and...

All his flatmates are vegan, which
doesn't work very well

for him. Erm...

And erm...
Yeah, he's really,

really good, really good,
really happy, erm...

He said he saw some dolphins.

Oh, sweetheart, come on.
Please, this is so silly.

Is there anything I can...?
OK, no, don't?

I'm gonna give you
a little bowl of this,

it's really nice
and you should have some.

UNDER BREATH: Oh, for fuck's sake.

BANGS BOWL

CLICKS HOB

Why are you standing under
a tree secretly smoking?

I'm not actually secretly smoking,

I'm just not smoking in the house.

And it's sunny, so I'm standing in
the shade.

No?

It's gross.

Thank you, thank you.

Welcome. It stinks.

Yeah, all right darling, OK.

I can do some things that I
want to do,

sometimes, and it's OK. It's OK,

you don't need to turn that into
another reason

to be pissed off with me.
No, I'm not,

but by that same definition, am
I not allowed

to do my own thing as well?

Yes, you can do whatever you
want, sweetheart.

You, you are not judged,
you are not criticised.

Well, I am though, am I not?
You're not judged, babe.

I am, though. Just,
I'm not... No, but I am judged.

No-one's commenting, no-one.
No, I am judged,

because I just heard you on
the phone to Billy,

talking about my strange little
Ritz cracker ritual.

So, beg my pardon if I'm
a little bit hurt

and upset by

the fact that you just have been
talking about me,

to my own brother. That feels,

that feels very divisive
and manipulative.

I'm sorry.

You should learn how to really
whisper. OK.

Or go to the end of the garden
and have that conversation.

I was whispering, actually. All
right, yep, no you're right, you're
right. I. FREYA.

You don't need to get upset. If I
want to wear...

You don't need to get upset.
I was talking to your brother and

I was sharing with him my concerns
about how you are

and I just thought that maybe it
would be more helpful

for him to speak to you.

Rather than me trying to speak

to you, when you obviously don't
want to speak to me at

the moment.
I am sorry if I got that wrong.

I'm sorry if I misjudged it.

And I really am sorry that you
overheard me talking about the
cracker thing,

because I didn't mean that
to seem so.

I, I, it's not, it doesn't matter
about the crackers.

You can, you know,
make a bloody tower of the things.

I don't give a shit, sweetheart.

Oh, f... Don't act so fucking
flippant about it.

OK, I'm not being...

Oh, fucking hell.

TAPS RUN UPSTAIRS

TAPS STILL RUN

Oh... Oh.

TAPS STILL RUN

Oh, for fuck sake.

Stop.

Stop...

Stop it, darling. Stop.

Come on, that's enough.

Stop.

Sweetheart. Stop.

I have to brush my teeth.
Stop.

Stop.

I have to brush my teeth, Mum.
Turn the tap off.

Come on.
I still have to do my teeth, Mum.

You don't have to brush your teeth,
come on.

Shh, shh, shh, shh, shh, shh.

It's all right. I'm sorry.

Oh.

I think you just need now,

just have a lovely night's sleep,
OK?

Good night's sleep.
I'm sure you're feeling a bit...

RUTH SIGHS

Just a bit overwhelmed
and maybe a bit premenstrual.

You know how we get,
us girls, don't we?

Yeah, all right, come on.

Sort yourself out.

Blow your nose. Blow your nosey.

Blow your nosey. Stop.

SNIFFS

FREYA BRUSHES TEETH

STILL BRUSHES

RUTH SNIFFLES

I can drive you in if you
want, darling.

I think you're really gonna be
late now.

Are you up?

Sweetheart?

It's nearly half past, darling.

Hi, you're gonna be late, love.

D'you want some eggs?

I heard your phone going until

the early hours of
the morning, darling.

It's not the best idea,

beginning of a school
week, sweetheart.

Who on Earth is possible messaging
you at that time of night anyway?

Look, I'll give you a lift in

and then you shouldn't be too late.

Come on sit down, darling,
have some egg.

I'll just grab some plates.
Mind out.

I'm not sure if you should be

wearing quite such
a revealing skirt,

to school, ha, ha.

I'm not sure you should be
wearing such

a horrible wine-coloured dress
with such a low neckline.

Why have you got
the pink dots on your eyes?

Because it's part of
the style that I try out on my face.

Why have you got those earrings in?
Why do you have that mascara on.

Why do you have no contour on?
Why are you standing like that.

Don't criticise me for wearing
a skirt.

I'm not criticising you,
I wasn't criticising you actually.

You were. I wasn't, darling. Yes,
you were. I wasn't criticising you.

OK, well, if you weren't, then what
were you doing, then?

I don't remember dressing as
a slut when I went to school.

Don't call me a slut!

All right. I'm 17. I'm sorry.

I'm allowed to experiment with
whatever. I don't, I'm sorry.

I'm sorry. I'm sorry that I'm not
like Billy.

I don't want it to be
like this. And I'm not perfect

Please stop. Stop doing what?
Just stop, I'm just...

You are driving me to do this. What
am I fucking doing? Asking me
endless fucking questions.

What am I doing?
I'm not doing bloody anything.

You are, though. I'm not.
Believe it or not, you are.
Look, I told...

You shout slut, "It's a bit of a
sluttish outfit." Stop.

"Oh, it's a bit of a sluttish."
Let's not keep going on about...

How about this? I'm sorry.
Fucking bitch. Fuck off!

Freya. Come back here right now.

Freya. Stop it.

Sweetheart,
I can see your knickers.

Hi, Janice.

WHISPERS: I'm not a fucking slut,
I'm not a fucking slut.

I'm really, really sorry, OK? Freya,

can you look at me, please, darling?
I am really sorry.

I shouldn't have said any
of what I said. I'm so sorry.

Look, you also can't talk
to me like that, you know?

I am your mum, darling
and I do care about you

and I know I'm getting some things
wrong. I don't know why.

I don't know what it is that
I've done to upset you,

or offend you, or something.

Don't know what it is that I've done
to make you hate me

so much.
But I care about you deeply.

And I want to make sure that you're
all right.

And I am really sorry. You know,

we were both a little bit in
the wrong there.

You know,
both of us a bit below the belt.

Perhaps shouldn't have said those
kinds of things

to each other that way.

But can we please just forget it,
forget it, forget it?

Please can we, sweetheart?
Come on, get in the car.

Get in the car and I'll,
I'll drive you to school,

yeah? Please, darling. Come on now.

Stop all this. Freya,
don't walk away, please.

Freya, darling, Frey...
Freya, Freya, don't walk off!

Don't walk off. Don't walk off.

Freya. Don't walk away from me when
I'm talking to you.

That is incredibly annoying.

I'm just trying to talk to
you. Please, will you get in the
car?

Fuck!

I just want you to be...

..happy. I just
want to smash your phone into

a thousand pieces and shit on it
and flush it down the fucking loo.

RINGTONE

All right, Mum.

Hi, darling. Hi, are you OK?

Yeah, yeah, yeah, I'm fine.
I'm just working.

Erm, are you...?
Are you all right?

Yes, I'm fi... Actually no,

I'm not all right
and I'm not erm, I'm not all right.

I'm really sorry, I just.

Ah-hem,
have you got a minute to chat?

Err, yeah, yeah, yeah, sure, yeah.

Your sister called me a bitch.
She left the house.

She called you a bitch?

Yes. She left the house,
she slammed the door.

I just went to find her, found her,

she wouldn't even respond to me.
Didn't even talk to me.

And erm...

I'm just trying my best.
I'm trying my best.

I'm trying my fucking best

and I just don't know what else
to do. I'm so sorry.

It's OK. Don't cry, Mum.

You're gonna make me cry if you
start crying.

I don't like it when you cry,
come on. It's OK.

Yeah.
Things like this happen.

Yeah.

BACKGROUND CHATTER

Hi, darling, it's Mum.

Erm, I hope you're having
a lovely day.

Let's have a chat and,
just clear the air.

Would be lovely
to see how your day's going.

Erm, I'm gonna be on my lunch break
in about an hour

and a half, so maybe you might have
a minute then

to give me a ring?

Erm... OK, love you. Bye...Bye.

Hi, darling, it's just Mum,

calling to see if you're having
a nice day.

Erm and, yeah, that's it really.

Just let me know what time you'll be
back and,

yeah, I love you very much.
OK, speak to you later.

Love you, bye.

RINGTONE

PHONE CONNECTS

Hi...

Hi.

Oh, hi darling, you're
there. Are you all right?

DISCONNECTS

Hi, erm,

I'm here to see
Mr Kingsley Pallant.

OK. If you just go straight up the,

stairs in front of you,
on the first floor.

It's just to the left, room 140.
OK, thanks.

Hi. Hello, Ruth, hi. Hello. Come in.
Come in.

Thank you. I'm Simon... Simon,
hi. Hi,

we met briefly at a parents'
evening, erm... Oh, that's right,
yes, we did.

..last October. That's right.
Erm... OK.

We're just doing her grade reviews
at the moment

and it's not good.
It's not, not like last term's.

We've seen quite a huge decline

and even some of her assignments not
being completed or,

or, or handed in.

OK.

I am really sorry to just spring
this on you, but I... No, it's fine.

..I felt, I felt -
she just seems very different.

What worries me is that there seems
to be,

it is so marked

a contrast from how she was when she
first came here.

And I've tried to talk to her about
it, erm, in tutor time, erm...

And what,
what does she say about that, then?

She's, she's,
she's not guarded she just says,

"I'm fine, there's,

"there's nothing,
there's nothing to worry about."

There's obviously something weighing
on her that she needs help

and support with. Now I,

I completely accept that young
people have their rebellions,

they, they like

to try different personas, all that
kind of stuff.

But I, I would really think,

I really think it would be worth her
while if she saw

a counsellor and I...

No, no, we don't, that's, I don't...

She doesn't need to see,

I, I, it's not that,
it's not that bad.

How are you, how are you getting on
with her at home?

Fine.

I mean, fine,
you know? Erm...

..yeah. So nothing,

nothing has happened between you
two that's...?

Nn-nnn. No...No, not that I can...

Not that I can think of.

Yeah, I'll mention, I'll mention it
and then I'll, I'll, I'll ring.

I know this sounds really personal

and I do apologise for asking it,
but are you all right?

Yeah. Ruth...?

I'm very, I'm fine,
thank you, I, I'm gonna go.

I've got to do dinner and stuff,
thank you.

I really appreciate your time.
I'm very grateful.

Well, we're here and if you could
have that conversation

with her about seeing
a counsellor, that would be...

I will do my best. I will do my
best.

PHONE ALERT

PHONE ALERT

Freya, come downstairs, please!

UNSCREWS BOTTLE

POURS

So, is there anything you want to,

tell me about how everything's going
at the moment?

From your point of view.

Not really.

Well, I think you need to have
a proper conversation

with me about how you're actually
feeling at school.

Whether things are being handed in
on time?

Because I have just had
a meeting with.

Simon Kingsley Pallant.

Apparently, you're not being
very truthful.

In fact, you're being a bit
secretive, I think, about

schoolwork, all of a sudden.

And if you're struggling,
sweetheart, you need to tell me.

So that...
I can't help you unless you tell me.

You care about doing well.

I don't really care right now.

I don't really
want to be in school any more.

I remember that feeling, myself.

Yeah, but you went
to school years ago, so...

We're not talking about me, please.
OK, we're not talking about me.

Don't get all uppity at me.
I am just...

You asked me to talk
and I'm trying to talk.

OK. I want to try and help.

What's going on, darling,
please? Come on.

I just don't really
want to be doing school stuff.

OK, let's move on from that.
You're doing school stuff,

it's something you have to do.
What's, what's going on?

I don't know what's going on.

Well, what's wrong with you?
There's something that's wrong.

I don't know what's wrong.

Look, that Simon guy thinks that you
need to see

a school counsellor.

That feels a bit embarrassing,
to me.

I'm sorry, I shouldn't actually be
saying these things out loud... So,

it's embarrassing, no... you
shouldn't.

I know, you're right,
I shouldn't, I shouldn't.
So it's embarra... it's embarrassing

for you that I clearly am not
very engaged,

apparently.

And don't really like
the schoolwork at the moment.

No, that's not what I said.
School is...

Don't twist what I said.
I'm not twisting what you said.

I didn't say that it's embarrassing

for me that you don't like school.

That is not what I said.

I said it feels
a little bit embarrassing that

I am being told what's really going
on with you by

a teacher,
who I barely fucking know.

And that
that teacher thinks you

need to go and see
the bloody counsellor.

Oh, fucking hell.

You can't get frustrated right now.

OK, I'm frustrated with
the situation, not you, all right?

Oh, fuck this.

I hate this situation just as much
as you do.

I really do,

but I just don't know what
to tell you.

Come and sit down, sweetheart.

I don't really want to sit down.
Please come and sit down.

I don't really want to sit down.

Come and sit down at the table.
No, I don't really want to.

Sit down! I'm...

Sit fucking down, right now!
I'm, no,

I've had enough of this.
Sit down, young lady.

All this fucking dramatic nonsense.

"I don't know what's wrong." You do
know what's wrong,

bloody well tell me, now.

I don't know what's wrong.
I don't like being in the dark.

I don't like feeling powerless.

I don't like feeling like I'm doing
the wrong thing.

And I don't like being told by
a fucking school teacher,

who I barely bloody know that my
kid is

going to school dressed like a slut

and that her grades are slipping.
You know,

here's the thing,

I don't actually give
a shit about whether you get C's,

D's, B's, fucking A's, whatever.
I actually don't care.

But what I do care is that
I know it matters to you.

It matters to you

and I care that you will end up
feeling bitterly disappointed

in yourself.

Oh, my God.

I don't need to be shouted at
like that.

No, you're absolutely right,
you're absolutely right.

I don't know what is wrong
and I don't know what to tell you.

I can't give you any answers
because I have no answers.

So don't yell at me.

Look, to me it seems like you don't
like yourself very much at

the moment.
I don't.

OK. What, why? You are beautiful.

I just don't like myself.
You are a beautiful, strong...

I just don't feel like
I like myself right now.

You've got an incredible,
cracking figure.

You've got, you're so athletic.

I don't want to talk... Oh...
You've got incredible skin.
You're a vibrant,

gorgeous, gorgeous girl.
What's happened? Nothing.

I don't know, I...
Oh, fuck me.

WHISPERS: Oh, my God.

I'm gonna go to bed.
See you tomorrow morning.

SHE SNIFFLES

PHONE ALERT

RUTH SIGHS

Hi.

Erm...

Here you go.

Erm...

..can I sit down?

Oh, thank you.

Erm...

..I think I need to tell you that
I'm really struggling.

Darling, I'm finding this really
extremely hard.

I'm sorry to put that on you when

I know that you're going through
a lot of stuff too.

But I'm finding this
really difficult.

And I feel really lonely at times.

And that's not who I am, either.

It's not what I'm used to.
I feel sad.

Don't always like myself, either.

That happens to grown-ups as well.

And so it's really hard for me

to be experiencing this time
with you that is so upsetting.

It's occupying my mind all the,
all the time.

I'm not really sleeping very well.

I'm not enjoying anything.

I don't look forward to anything.

I don't look forward
to anything at all.

Nothing, nothing.

I just feel bad, all the time.

I feel bad, I feel guilty,
I feel like I'm a nag.

I feel like I'm not that fun mum
that I used to be.

I feel like I'm...losing you.

And in the process
of that, I'm losing something

of myself.
It's really hard to let go of that.

I don't wanna let go of being a mum.
I don't want to have to do that.

And I don't think I should.

SHE SIGHS

So that's where I'm at.

I...feel very...

..lost...

..with where I wanted to be,

or what I was expecting this year
to be like.

It's not like that.

And I'm really scared because I,

I feel like I'm just not in touch
with myself any more.

SNIFFLING: And I don't know where
that's gone.

I'm really frightened that
I can't get it back.

SHEETS RUSTLE

Oh, fuck.

PHONE ALERT

ALERT

ALERT

FREYA SOBS

SNIFFLES

ALERT

Freya, it's 1:30, darling.

Nearly,
nearly 1:30 in the morning.

ALERT

KNOCKS DOOR

Sweetheart,
I think you've left your phone on.

Please go to sleep now.

KNOCKS

It's a school night, darling,
come on.

ALERT

Come on, Freya.

Switch off now, darling, OK?

Right, night, love you,
night-night.

ALERT

Shh, shh, shh, shh, shh.

WHISPERS: Come on. Come on, come on.

WHISPERS: Switch that fucking thing
off.

Come on, darling,
we've really got to just get on now,

come on.

We've just gotta crack on with
the day.

And just. Just, just,
move on. Freya, please.

Freya? Sweetheart, please.

Come on. I've got to go to work.

Freya, come on, please, come on.

Please don't make me leave you like
this, darling.

Please. Freya,

you've got to get up
and go in darling.

Just do a half day,
or something.

I'll come and pick you up at
lunch.

I tell you what.
I'll set an alarm on your clock.

I'll set an alarm for nine

and then you won't miss your
second lesson,

all right?

And I can always call the school

and just let them know that you're
not feeling too well, OK?

Come on, sweetheart,
this isn't fair on me.

Oh, fuck.

All right,

your alarm's gonna go off at nine

and I'll call you when I get
to work, OK? Love you.

RUTH CLEARS THROAT

PHONE VIBRATES

I just...
I just want to go back

to how everything was before
all this.

We'll be all right,
we'll be all right,

we'll figure it out.
It'll be OK, darling.

It's just a phase,
it's just - these things happen,

don't they? Anyway,
look, I love you very much.

I really do. Please just call me,
no, pick up when I phone you.

MESSAGE: We'll be all right, we'll
be all right, we'll figure it out.

It'll be OK, darling. It's just a
phase, it's just - these things
happen,

don't they? Anyway,
look, I love you very much.

I really do. Please just call me,
no, pick up when I phone you.

SENSORS BEEP

RINGTONE

AUTOMATED: Welcome to the O2...

Ruth?

Ruth, are you OK?

Oh, fuck off!

What's happened?

Hi, darling, can you just,
please, can you ring me?

I just feel a bit worried about you

and I just really want to talk

to you and just make sure
you're OK.

Can you phone me back?

Sorry.
That's OK, what's happened?

What is it? I don't... What is it?

What's happened?

RUTH SOBS

Fight everything this time. five,
four,

three, two, one.

Two to the right. Let's go, let's
go, let's go. Get to the top of the
hill!

Ruth, come on, push it.
Move your legs,

move your legs.
Come on everybody, four...

MUFFLED: ..three, two, one. Great
stuff. Two to the left.

Darling?

Oh, sweetheart.

Have you been sleeping all day,
darling?

Yeah?

You been sleeping all day?

Are you OK? Are you all right?

Oh, beautiful girl.
Come on, it's ever so hot in here.

Have a bit of... Blankets off you.

Come on, sweetheart.
Get some air. What you doing?

What have you got...

..are you hiding something?
What have you got?

What have you done? What is it?

What is it?

FREYA SOBS

What is it? What, what is,
what, what have you done?

What is it?
Oh, my God.

Oh, God. Oh, God...

My baby,
baby, baby.

PHONE RINGS

DOOR OPENS

Freya Eldwick.

Sorry I'm running late today.
Do come in.

Take a seat. Thank you.

So, I've not met you both before.
My name's Doctor Suzy.

And erm,
how can I help you this afternoon?

Erm, do you want to tell
the doctor, darling,

or do you want me to tell her?
You can tell her. OK.

Erm... So, Freya's hurt herself.

OK. It's OK.

And erm...
When did this happen, Freya?

Today.

OK. How did you do it?

Some nail scissors.

OK, can I have a look, is that OK?

Yeah. Thank you.

Can I have a look underneath?

OK, oh...

You managed to stop the bleeding OK?
Yeah.

How do you feel showing that
to me now?

Erm, embarrassed.

OK. Would you find it easier if
it was just you

and me, Freya?

We can talk together

and maybe Mum could wait in
the waiting room, yeah?

Yes, please.

Is that OK with you, Mum?

Erm...

Erm...

..yeah.

OK, I'll call you back in,
I'll come and get you.

But what if I...? Don't I need to
know what's happening?

Well, Freya's of

an age now where it might be more
comfortable to talk

to me on a one-to-one basis.
So, my duty.

I'm her, I'm her mum, though.

Sure, and I can see that
you're upset,

but Freya can speak
to me on her own.

I'll wait out there.

OK, thank you.

Is that more comfortable, Freya?

Has Mum been part of the problem?

What's been going on?

I just feel really...

..out of control.

OK, OK.

Erm, I don't know why,

I don't know why I cut myself,
and I'm really scared.

OK, how long has this been going
on for?

Erm, a while.

OK, one month, six months?

Has it been building up over
the last couple of weeks?

What sort of,
what's been the background?

It's been about, maybe a month.

OK.

And I started to not be able
to remember things.

OK.

Which is weird because I normally am
really good.

And have you been,
do you go to college?

Are you, have you been going to
college OK? Yeah...Yeah.

Are you managing
to concentrate in your lessons?

I, I mean, it, I thought,
I think that I am,

but then I can't remember.

I can't,
I can't remember what we did.

OK, and how much have you discussed
this with your mum?

Hi, thanks for waiting. Could you
come down with me, please?

Yep. Thanks. Yep.

Right, come on in
and take a seat. Erm,

I've had a good chat
with Freya today and erm,

I'm beginning to understand what's
going on.

And I think the safest thing
to do is refer her on

to CAMHS for some counselling.

I don't know what that is.

OK, so CAMHS is the

Child and Adolescent Mental
Health Services.

It's a part of the NHS that offers
counselling services

for children and teenagers.

In the meantime, Freya's got

a sheet of counselling services if
she feels like she wants

to contact them. And erm,

you and I will see each other

regularly until CAMHS take on
your care.

Mmm.

So obviously this has been
a bit of a shock

for you as well.

Do you see anybody at
the practice at all?

Me? Yes. No, no.

Do you feel that you need any help,
or support?

No, no, no. No.

I mean, I'm a strong, normal person.

Erm, so that, that,
that's, well that's,

that's great, isn't it, darling?
Sounds good, doesn't it?

If you need any support,
or any questions,

just contact me through
the main switchboard

and we can have a conversation.

But obviously I can't divulge
anything that we've discussed today

with Freya.

All right, thank you.

Thank you. Bye-bye, Freya.

Bye.

Er, would you like me to run you
a bath, or something darling?

Maybe...

..maybe you should just go and have
a little sleep?

Let me know if you need anything,
OK?

DOOR KNOCKS

Oh, my God. Oh, my God. What are you
doing here?

You didn't message, or anything? I
thought I'd come and surprise you.

You didn't message us, darling. I
know, I didn't think I needed to.

How did you get from the...? How did
you get from station? I got a taxi.
I got a taxi from the station.

Oh, darling, I could have come
and... No, it was fine. I wanted to
come and surprise you.

How you doing? I could have come and
picked you up.

That's OK. Oh, wow.
You all right? Yeah, ahhh.

You sure
you're all right? Yeah, yeah, yeah.

Right, I'm gonna make some toast.
OK. I'm really hungry.

Erm, yeah, come, let's go in. God,
bloody hell what have you got in

this bag, it weighs a tonne. No
don't take, don't take my bag up.

I'll take, I'll take my bag up to my
room in a minute. All right,

darling. Let me put the erm, kettle
on.

Is Freya in? Erm Freya? Erm...

Yeah, is, is she, is she out?

No, she's here.

OK.

Erm, darling.

What's happ... Mum, what's happened?

Freya's not very well, sweetheart.

She doesn't have, like, a cancer,
or anything like that.

It's nothing like that.

Oh, thank God.

She's erm...

She's...
she's very depressed at the moment.

And that means that she is not

behaving quite like herself at all.

And erm, she's, she's quite lost.
She's quite lost and, and...

She hurt herself
with some scissors,

darling. And she's cut her arms.

And she... I'm sorry, sweetie,
I'm sorry, darling.

Come on, come on, angel.
Look at me, look at me, darling.

Look at me all right?
Listen. I'm sorry,

I'm sorry, darling.
I'm sorry, it's all my fault.

No, it isn't, Mum.
No it is my fault. I've tried.

No, it's not. No, it's not.

I've really tried to be,
"Good Mummy."

You are.

Just go and give her a nice cuddle.

OK. Go and give her a nice cuddle
and just... OK.

Just tell her that you love her
and that...

Can you tell her that...?

Tell her that she's
a beautiful girl.

Tell her that she's beautiful

and tell her that you love her.

Tell her that everybody loves her.

And that she doesn't
need to be anything that she isn't.

She can just be herself
and we'll just love her the same.

I'll tell her the right thing.

Yeah, just be, nice, kind, you.

Yeah... Yeah, OK.

KNOCKS DOOR

Freya?

Hey, Freya. Hi

Could you pass the erm, pepper?
Mm.

And erm, and what about sports.

Have you been keeping up all

of your? Is there,
do they have a gym, or...?

They have, they do have a gym.
They do have a gym.

Which I've been to a couple of
times,

but...I never go on my own,

that's the thing.
I can't do solo gym.

No.

It's just not my thing.

No.

Know what I mean?

Well done for coming
downstairs, darling.

Would you like me
to make you something different?

Why the fuck did you

need to say that?
She was doing fine.

You didn't need to throw in,

"Shall I make you
something different?" And,
"Well done for coming downstairs."

Oh.

Do you see how that
would be annoying?

Yeah, I do, I do.

That's just not right.

When she's doing something well,
don't thank her for doing it well.

Yeah, I'll just go
and see if she's all right.

She was doing fine.

Yeah, OK.

Sorry about that, babe.

I didn't mean to upset you at all.

Look, I think you'll feel
a bit better if eat something,

just a little bit.
Just a little bit, yeah?

All right.

Have a minute to yourself
and then, then come down, OK?

All right.

SHE EXHALES

GASPS QUIETLY

Fuck.

Fuck me.

GASPS

Oh...Oh. Oh...

Oh, my God.

What the fuck has she done?

Fuck.

FLUSHES TOILET

Billy, Billy, Billy,
Billy, Billy, I've got her phone.

What are you doing?

I've got her phone, don't. No. Come
on, stop it, stop it, stop it, stop
it, stop it.

Mum, you can't. I would be angry if
you took my phone. But Billy, look,
this is...

No, Mum, you have to give it back.
Look at these terrible things people
are saying about her.

What, what is this?
What the fuck is this?

What are these awful pictures?
pictures?

So fucking...

Mum.

Where's my phone? Sit down,
sweetheart. Sit down, sit down.

Where's my phone? Mum. Just give...
Where's my phone Mum? Give her, her

phone back. Darling. Sweetheart. You
have to give me back my phone.
Freya, calm down.

No, you have to give me back
my phone.

Freya, Freya. Mum.

Why did you take it? Freya, listen
to me. Why did you take if from the

bathroom. Darling. It's mine. Listen
to Mummy. Darling.

You need to listen to Mummy now, OK?

I don't think that you should have
that phone. No, no, no, no, no.

Sweetheart, it's making... You have
to give it back to me. It's mine.

Darling, enough, enough.

Mum, just give her,
her phone back. Stop.

Enough. This is what's making you
ill. It's what's making you ill.

Me and Billy,

me and Billy are gonna help you.
Aren't we, darling?

You have to give me back my phone.
You have to give me back my phone.

Sweetheart. All right, darling.

It's my phone. It's my phone. OK,
all right sweetheart. I'll give it
back, I'll give it back.

Give it back, it's my phone. Oh, my
God, oh, my God. Billy, get the
phone,

OK, sweetheart,
stop, stop,

Stop, stop, stop.
Just stop. Stop.
Give me back my phone, it's mine.

Give it to Mummy,
give it to Mummy, give it to Mummy.
It's my phone. It's mine.

FREYA WAILS

DOOR KNOCKS

Hi. Morning.
Did you sleep all right?

Yeah, I slept great.

I, I'm off, I have to go.
I have to get the 8:30 train.

I'll take you, come on.

Oh, thanks, Mum.

You just stay here,
OK? Stay in bed.

Mm-hm.

I'll just grab my shoes, darling.

I just wanted to say bye.

Oh, hey.

I love you. I love you too.

You gonna be all right?

Mm-hm.

You're strong.

I'll, I'll call you, yeah?

Yeah.

Love you, Chip.

I'm only gonna be 15 minutes, OK?
Yeah.

And I'll come straight back,
all right?

OK.

Why don't you go
and get back into bed, OK, darling?

Mm-hmm. All right. Love you. OK.

SHE SIGHS

Oh.

BREATHES HEAVILY

Oh.

SHE PANTS

PANTS

Thanks, Mum.

HE SIGHS

It's gonna be good.
It's gonna be all right.

SHE PANTS

DROPS PHONE IN SINK

Don't worry about anything, OK?

You're a good mum.

Thank you, darling. I'll get my
train. All right. OK, love you.

I'll phone you later, OK?
Yeah, call me.

I love you, darling.

Love you. Bye.

PULSING SCORE BEGINS

SHE PANTS

HYPERVENTILATES

SHE GASPS

SHE PANTS

PULSING SCORE INTENSIFIES

PULSING SCORE BUILDS

Darling?

It's all right.

It's all right, sweetheart.

Come on, come on.

It's all right, darling, come on.

Come on.

All right, come on, come on, sit
down.

Sit down, sit down.

FREYA SIGHS

FREYA HYPERVENTILATES

It's all right. Oh, my God.

FREYA SOBS

Oh, it's all right, sweetie.

OK, OK.

Come on.

It's OK.

It's OK.

Shh.

It's all right.

I promise.

I promise.

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