Would you like to inspect the original subtitles? These are the user uploaded subtitles that are being translated:
1
00:01:13,198 --> 00:01:16,201
The big question is,
how aggressive do you want to be?
2
00:01:16,285 --> 00:01:18,912
Very aggressive.
We don't want to lose any more time.
3
00:01:18,996 --> 00:01:21,790
You've been trying for... Two years?
4
00:01:22,165 --> 00:01:23,166
And four months.
5
00:01:23,959 --> 00:01:27,379
| have the app monitoring ovulation,
6
00:01:28,130 --> 00:01:29,506
taking temperature and mucus levels,
7
00:01:29,590 --> 00:01:32,426
we've been planning
and pacing intercourse.
8
00:01:32,593 --> 00:01:34,177
It's been very romantic.
9
00:01:35,596 --> 00:01:37,598
So we're looking at |Ul or IVF.
10
00:01:37,889 --> 00:01:40,517
Ul Is the least invasive.
And outpatient.
11
00:01:40,601 --> 00:01:41,685
91
12
00:01:42,561 --> 00:01:44,646
Didn't you read the thing?
| told you to read the thing.
13
00:01:44,730 --> 00:01:46,106
Intrauterine insemination.
14
00:01:46,189 --> 00:01:47,983
LG S e IRl o
directly into the uterus.
15
00:01:48,066 --> 00:01:50,402
-And yes, it's outpatient.
-Let's start there.
16
00:01:50,777 --> 00:01:52,654
You're 39, Steven?
17
00:01:52,946 --> 00:01:55,991
Okay, we'll test your sperm for count
and motility percentage.
18
00:01:56,074 --> 00:01:58,952
And how far away are we
from your period, Leigh?
19
00:01:59,036 --> 00:02:01,330
It's unpredictable.
A week, maybe 10 days.
20
00:02:01,663 --> 00:02:03,498
Your cycle's unpredictable?
21
00:02:04,583 --> 00:02:05,667
Is that a problem?
22
00:02:06,293 --> 00:02:07,794
Possibly, possibly not.
23
00:02:07,878 --> 00:02:10,005
That and your age are all factors.
24
00:02:10,088 --> 00:02:12,883
Over 35, the situation
becomes more difficult.
25
00:02:13,383 --> 00:02:15,010
But very often, it's manageable.
26
00:02:15,177 --> 00:02:17,512
But it might be likely that,
based on your test results,
27
00:02:17,596 --> 00:02:19,014
we go straight to in vitro.
28
00:02:19,514 --> 00:02:20,766
Will Insurance help with that?
29
00:02:20,849 --> 00:02:22,768
Most companies won't cover IVF,
30
00:02:22,851 --> 00:02:26,146
but very often, the genetic testing
for the man will be covered.
31
00:02:26,229 --> 00:02:28,148
That sounds fair.
32
00:02:28,273 --> 00:02:30,984
All right, so, Steven,
when can we schedule your tests?
33
00:02:31,068 --> 00:02:32,235
Which tests?
34
00:02:33,278 --> 00:02:35,614
A blood panel
for chromosomal diagnosis,
35
00:02:35,697 --> 00:02:36,823
a sample of your semen.
36
00:02:36,907 --> 00:02:38,492
When did you last ejaculate?
37
00:02:39,326 --> 00:02:40,452
A week.
38
00:02:40,786 --> 00:02:41,787
Maybe less.
39
00:02:42,037 --> 00:02:43,121
No, it's two weeks.
40
00:02:43,455 --> 00:02:44,498
When...
41
00:02:47,250 --> 00:02:49,211
We'll need to reschedule it
for another time.
42
00:02:49,711 --> 00:02:51,254
We need within
three to five days after.
43
00:02:55,926 --> 00:02:57,886
Homework, honey.
44
00:03:02,849 --> 00:03:03,975
We gotta talk.
45
00:03:05,686 --> 00:03:06,687
About what?
46
00:03:08,188 --> 00:03:09,189
Steve?
47
00:03:11,650 --> 00:03:12,651
V=
48
00:03:13,610 --> 00:03:14,611
Steve.
49
00:03:15,946 --> 00:03:17,114
V=
50
00:03:20,742 --> 00:03:22,285
NlTegy"2
51
00:03:24,496 --> 00:03:26,665
-I'll just put it there.
- can fix this.
52
00:03:26,748 --> 00:03:30,127
No, | don't want to cancel it,
| just wanted a usage alert.
53
00:03:30,794 --> 00:03:33,004
So you'll text me next time it's used?
54
00:03:34,506 --> 00:03:35,590
Okay. Thanks.
55
00:03:36,800 --> 00:03:38,301
He hasn't used the credit card yet.
56
00:03:38,385 --> 00:03:40,262
They're going to send me
an alert when he does.
57
00:03:40,345 --> 00:03:42,013
We can get a location from that.
58
00:03:42,597 --> 00:03:44,349
God, | hope he
59
00:03:44,766 --> 00:03:47,936
just tries an ATM
and doesn't trade the card for dope.
60
00:03:48,270 --> 00:03:49,271
Does he have your PIN?
61
00:03:49,730 --> 00:03:50,731
Are you kidding?
62
00:03:50,856 --> 00:03:52,232
Why would he try an ATM?
63
00:03:52,524 --> 00:03:55,193
I'm sorry, Steve.
Do you have a better suggestion?
64
00:03:55,444 --> 00:03:59,072
He took the card to use the card,
and now we'll know if he does.
65
00:04:02,075 --> 00:04:03,952
He didn't have to break the house.
66
00:04:04,035 --> 00:04:05,954
No, | don't think he did.
67
00:04:06,246 --> 00:04:07,289
Me neither.
68
00:04:07,414 --> 00:04:09,499
Someone ask you
what you think, Theodora?
69
00:04:10,167 --> 00:04:11,168
Sorry.
70
00:04:11,585 --> 00:04:13,420
If it wasn't Luke, who was it?
71
00:04:13,503 --> 00:04:14,963
Maybe one of your kids.
72
00:04:15,213 --> 00:04:17,924
Yeah, that makes sense.
It was probably my kids.
73
00:04:18,175 --> 00:04:21,136
Or maybe it was the guy
who just stole a car
74
00:04:21,219 --> 00:04:22,387
to put a needle in his arm.
75
00:04:22,471 --> 00:04:24,264
I'm worried about
a lot more than that.
76
00:04:24,347 --> 00:04:25,474
What do you mean?
77
00:04:25,557 --> 00:04:29,227
| mean, that suicides
can cluster in families,
78
00:04:29,561 --> 00:04:30,729
especially twins.
79
00:04:31,646 --> 00:04:33,190
If they lose a twin,
80
00:04:33,565 --> 00:04:34,816
the odds go up.
81
00:04:35,567 --> 00:04:38,987
He may not be planning to come home.
82
00:04:40,322 --> 00:04:43,366
-Where would he go?
-He could be anywhere.
83
00:04:44,701 --> 00:04:48,121
He was picked up off Mass Ave
a few times when he was living here.
84
00:04:48,705 --> 00:04:50,040
Methadone Mile.
85
00:04:50,874 --> 00:04:53,251
-What's that?
-Mass Ave, south of downtown.
86
00:04:53,335 --> 00:04:55,962
It's basically
an open-air drug market.
87
00:04:56,505 --> 00:04:57,506
| remember it.
88
00:04:58,298 --> 00:05:00,634
-I'll go look for him.
-It's a waste of gas.
89
00:05:00,717 --> 00:05:02,803
-He could be anywhere.
-Yeah, I'll go with you.
90
00:05:02,886 --> 00:05:05,055
-1 got this.
-Just wait a bit.
91
00:05:05,138 --> 00:05:07,224
-We'll see if he's using the card.
-Call me if he does.
92
00:05:07,307 --> 00:05:08,975
What are you gonna do?
Drive in circles?
93
00:05:09,059 --> 00:05:12,187
-Hope he's standing on some corner?
-Maybe, | don't know.
94
00:05:12,771 --> 00:05:14,940
We're really not gonna
tell them what we saw?
95
00:05:19,778 --> 00:05:20,779
Damn it, Luke.
96
00:05:29,371 --> 00:05:30,413
We going or what?
97
00:05:31,873 --> 00:05:32,874
| just want to help.
98
00:05:35,293 --> 00:05:36,628
| just want to help.
99
00:05:38,255 --> 00:05:39,840
Look, bud, | know you do,
100
00:05:40,340 --> 00:05:43,426
but I'm gonna start using some
really strong chemicals down here,
101
00:05:43,510 --> 00:05:44,803
and it just isn't safe.
102
00:05:45,387 --> 00:05:46,847
| can help with something else, then.
103
00:05:46,930 --> 00:05:48,348
Look, pal,
104
00:05:49,683 --> 00:05:51,518
I've already hired
all the help | can afford
105
00:05:51,601 --> 00:05:53,812
just to get everything else
finished by the end of summer.
106
00:05:56,565 --> 00:05:58,900
| could use your help
with something, though.
107
00:05:58,984 --> 00:06:00,068
-Yeah?
-Yeah.
108
00:06:01,069 --> 00:06:04,781
See, your mom's gonna
go to your Aunt Janet's in a few days
109
00:06:05,323 --> 00:06:06,324
and stay a bit.
110
00:06:06,658 --> 00:06:07,701
Maybe a week.
111
00:06:08,493 --> 00:06:09,494
How come?
112
00:06:10,579 --> 00:06:13,832
Well, you know, she's been cooped up
in this house all summer, and...
113
00:06:14,624 --> 00:06:16,585
Anyway, | know it's not
the most exciting thing,
114
00:06:16,668 --> 00:06:19,004
but | could really use your help
115
00:06:19,087 --> 00:06:21,631
watching your brother
and your sisters while she's away.
116
00:06:22,507 --> 00:06:23,508
Yeah.
117
00:06:23,633 --> 00:06:24,634
Yeah, | got you.
118
00:06:25,051 --> 00:06:26,052
Okay.
119
00:06:56,875 --> 00:06:57,876
Mom?
120
00:06:57,959 --> 00:07:00,003
What do you mean, sweetheart?
121
00:07:00,587 --> 00:07:02,505
Of course you're safe with me.
122
00:07:03,340 --> 00:07:04,424
Mom.
123
00:07:06,635 --> 00:07:07,636
Are you okay?
124
00:07:09,512 --> 00:07:10,513
Where...
125
00:07:10,639 --> 00:07:11,806
Where are the twins?
126
00:07:12,140 --> 00:07:13,141
Downstairs.
127
00:07:16,144 --> 00:07:17,145
@oo V15 T}
128
00:07:17,479 --> 00:07:19,898
-Are you sure...
-I'm fine, sweetie. I'm fine.
129
00:07:46,508 --> 00:07:47,509
Okay, thanks.
130
00:07:49,010 --> 00:07:51,262
Well, he's not at Holy Family.
131
00:07:51,388 --> 00:07:53,932
Well, he's probably
not gonna instantly OD.
132
00:07:54,099 --> 00:07:57,143
You're gonna call every hospital
in Boston? That the plan?
133
00:07:57,227 --> 00:08:00,522
What, you're gonna just drive around,
hope we spot him in a city of 700,0007?
134
00:08:00,605 --> 00:08:03,942
I'm not looking for him.
I'm looking for a beat-up green Jeep
135
00:08:04,025 --> 00:08:06,653
with not one, but two,
Ani DiFranco bumper stickers,
136
00:08:06,736 --> 00:08:08,780
and I'm looking for it
where | know he used to score.
137
00:08:09,572 --> 00:08:10,824
Gotta do something.
138
00:08:11,574 --> 00:08:12,575
Yeah, we do.
139
00:08:18,665 --> 00:08:19,749
What's going on?
140
00:08:19,958 --> 00:08:22,168
What's going on with you and Leigh?
141
00:08:22,252 --> 00:08:23,294
What do you mean?
142
00:08:23,878 --> 00:08:24,879
Well, | mean...
143
00:08:25,880 --> 00:08:29,259
-How's your marriage?
-You're kidding, right?
144
00:08:29,342 --> 00:08:30,468
You're not living at home,
145
00:08:30,552 --> 00:08:32,345
and | couldn't help but notice
at the funeral...
146
00:08:32,429 --> 00:08:35,348
-You aren't seriously doing this.
-Well, yeah, | am. |I...
147
00:08:35,432 --> 00:08:37,809
Jesus Christ, Dad, you're out of line.
148
00:08:38,018 --> 00:08:41,354
We might be in the car for a while,
and so | thought to myself,
149
00:08:41,438 --> 00:08:43,940
"I'm going to ask my son about
his life." What's wrong with that?
150
00:08:44,024 --> 00:08:45,400
Doesn't work that way, Dad.
151
00:08:48,695 --> 00:08:50,905
Your mom and | were married 15 years.
152
00:08:53,533 --> 00:08:55,368
Together five before that.
153
00:08:58,079 --> 00:09:00,707
She used to say
she was the kite and | was the line.
154
00:09:00,874 --> 00:09:03,960
She was a... Creature of the clouds
155
00:09:04,044 --> 00:09:07,130
and | was a creature of the earth.
156
00:09:08,465 --> 00:09:11,384
And she'd say that,
without me, she'd become untethered
157
00:09:11,468 --> 00:09:13,428
and she would float away
up into the...
158
00:09:14,345 --> 00:09:16,806
And then, without her,
| would just, you know,
159
00:09:16,890 --> 00:09:19,184
crash, just drop right down
to the ground,
160
00:09:19,267 --> 00:09:20,643
and, you know.
161
00:09:20,894 --> 00:09:24,022
But... Together...
162
00:09:31,696 --> 00:09:32,947
You know, we separated.
163
00:09:33,573 --> 00:09:35,492
You didn't know that, probably.
164
00:09:36,743 --> 00:09:39,245
Briefly, we separated.
You were one year old.
165
00:09:39,996 --> 00:09:41,581
Stupidest thing | ever did.
166
00:09:41,664 --> 00:09:44,250
You know, | made some stupid
proclamation, and that was it.
167
00:09:44,334 --> 00:09:45,335
Two weeks.
168
00:09:46,669 --> 00:09:50,173
Two weeks. | don't even know how
we got there. | just know we fought.
169
00:09:50,256 --> 00:09:51,508
| don't know what we fought about,
170
00:09:51,591 --> 00:09:54,135
but | finally
came to my senses, and...
171
00:09:56,137 --> 00:09:57,555
| thought, "What the hell,
172
00:09:57,639 --> 00:09:59,849
"you stupid asshole.
What are you, insane?"
173
00:09:59,974 --> 00:10:02,435
S0, you know, | came back
and knocked on the door,
174
00:10:02,519 --> 00:10:04,729
she answered it,
she put her arms around me,
175
00:10:04,854 --> 00:10:07,357
she kissed me,
she forgave me with her eyes, and...
176
00:10:08,650 --> 00:10:09,651
She handed you to me.
177
00:10:09,776 --> 00:10:12,695
| had you in one arm
and her in the other, and that was it.
178
00:10:17,075 --> 00:10:18,076
\We were back at it.
179
00:10:19,994 --> 00:10:21,830
And Shirley came along, and...
180
00:10:23,081 --> 00:10:24,958
From that moment on,
we were on the same team.
181
00:10:25,041 --> 00:10:26,918
You know, we still fought sometimes,
182
00:10:27,669 --> 00:10:28,670
but it was. ..
183
00:10:28,962 --> 00:10:32,090
It was different. We fought with love.
She taught me that.
184
00:10:32,590 --> 00:10:33,716
You fight with love.
185
00:10:34,050 --> 00:10:35,135
Yeah, when you're...
186
00:10:37,512 --> 00:10:40,306
You're on the same team even when
you're in the middle of a fight.
187
00:10:40,765 --> 00:10:41,766
During the fight,
188
00:10:42,392 --> 00:10:43,935
you're forgiven.
189
00:10:44,144 --> 00:10:46,521
There's no fear.
There's no danger. You're safe.
190
00:10:47,981 --> 00:10:50,775
| hope, really,
you get to experience that sometime.
191
00:10:51,025 --> 00:10:52,026
It's a. ..
192
00:10:52,485 --> 00:10:53,862
It's a beautiful way to be.
193
00:10:57,240 --> 00:10:59,117
You know, look, we weren't perfect...
194
00:11:01,286 --> 00:11:02,871
But we were always kind.
195
00:11:03,496 --> 00:11:05,957
And we loved each other hard.
196
00:11:07,834 --> 00:11:11,004
And | love her today just as much
as | did in the beginning.
197
00:11:14,632 --> 00:11:15,800
The kite and the line.
198
00:11:20,221 --> 00:11:23,016
So whatever you need to fix
between you and Leigh...
199
00:11:25,226 --> 00:11:26,978
| really hope you do.
200
00:11:30,565 --> 00:11:31,566
And...
201
00:11:33,401 --> 00:11:35,862
That's all I...
That's all | really wanted to say.
202
00:11:39,282 --> 00:11:41,492
Candy, candy, candy, candy!
203
00:11:41,743 --> 00:11:43,244
Sure you won't come with us?
204
00:11:43,328 --> 00:11:44,329
You guys have fun.
205
00:11:44,537 --> 00:11:46,331
Come on, Mom, candy!
206
00:11:46,414 --> 00:11:48,833
We'll bring her back some.
Mom's had a very hard day.
207
00:11:49,083 --> 00:11:50,501
Would you stop that?
208
00:11:51,169 --> 00:11:53,504
I'm still disappointed
you're not going as Captain Lame.
209
00:11:53,630 --> 00:11:55,506
| swear to God, Dad.
210
00:11:55,590 --> 00:11:57,050
Candy, candy, candy!
211
00:11:57,717 --> 00:11:58,718
Hey.
212
00:11:59,677 --> 00:12:00,887
Can we talk when | get back?
213
00:12:01,971 --> 00:12:04,098
How? You'll be back at the hotel.
214
00:12:05,391 --> 00:12:06,392
Okay.
215
00:12:07,602 --> 00:12:08,603
Okay, Shirl.
216
00:12:10,396 --> 00:12:11,397
Stop.
217
00:12:11,898 --> 00:12:13,566
SN Neo}
-Turn off the porch light.
218
00:12:13,900 --> 00:12:15,652
| can't handle
trick-or-treaters tonight.
219
00:12:18,655 --> 00:12:19,656
| love you.
220
00:12:21,074 --> 00:12:22,242
You guys have fun.
221
00:12:53,064 --> 00:12:54,148
What the hell?
222
00:13:07,036 --> 00:13:08,538
Sorry, no candy here.
223
00:13:16,254 --> 00:13:17,714
Goddamn light's off.
224
00:13:39,402 --> 00:13:41,195
I'm gonna call the hospitals again.
225
00:13:41,279 --> 00:13:43,698
-Maybe he just forgot his ID.
-And ask them what?
226
00:13:43,781 --> 00:13:45,575
If they've seen a junkie
in a funeral suit?
227
00:13:45,658 --> 00:13:47,952
He's 90 days clean
and he's your brother.
228
00:13:48,036 --> 00:13:49,245
He's a good man, Steve.
229
00:13:49,329 --> 00:13:50,955
They're not mutually exclusive.
230
00:13:51,039 --> 00:13:53,416
He's my brother, but he's a junkie.
231
00:13:56,085 --> 00:13:58,004
We're not gonna find him like this.
232
00:13:58,171 --> 00:13:59,714
-You didn't have to come.
-Yeah, | did.
233
00:13:59,797 --> 00:14:01,966
-No, you really didn't.
-Yeah, | did, Steve.
234
00:14:04,385 --> 00:14:06,179
He's my son. You know? My...
235
00:14:06,512 --> 00:14:09,349
| don't know what I'd do
if | lost him, any of you.
236
00:14:12,435 --> 00:14:13,770
Yeah, | had to come.
237
00:14:15,104 --> 00:14:16,939
| can't... | can't lose...
238
00:14:18,191 --> 00:14:20,151
| can't lose anyone else.
239
00:14:22,236 --> 00:14:24,322
One day, when you have children,
you'll understand.
240
00:14:24,405 --> 00:14:26,324
I'm never having children.
241
00:14:27,658 --> 00:14:29,744
Well, that's... That's a shame.
242
00:14:30,828 --> 00:14:33,289
'‘Cause you kids
are the best thing in my life.
243
00:14:33,498 --> 00:14:35,041
You mean Aunt Janet's life?
244
00:14:35,416 --> 00:14:37,251
She's the one
who raised your kids, didn't she?
245
00:14:37,335 --> 00:14:39,420
-You don't know what it was like.
-You never told me.
246
00:14:39,504 --> 00:14:41,172
Everything | did,
NelloRioNeo le1QY/eIIN
247
00:14:41,255 --> 00:14:43,049
To protect us, | know, yeah.
248
00:14:43,132 --> 00:14:44,592
Just like you protected Mom.
249
00:14:46,761 --> 00:14:47,762
Here we go.
250
00:14:47,887 --> 00:14:49,430
| saw the police reports.
251
00:14:52,141 --> 00:14:54,143
Her skull cracked like a melon...
252
00:14:54,227 --> 00:14:55,812
All right, Steve,
why don't you just...
253
00:14:55,895 --> 00:14:58,648
There was blood
all over the library carpet.
254
00:14:58,940 --> 00:15:01,359
There were bruises on her upper arms
255
00:15:01,442 --> 00:15:03,861
because someone
grabbed her pretty hard.
256
00:15:03,945 --> 00:15:04,946
Okay, Steve...
257
00:15:05,029 --> 00:15:08,699
And a contusion on the back of her
head from being shoved into a wall?
258
00:15:10,034 --> 00:15:12,245
Her ankle was twisted,
so she was limping,
259
00:15:12,328 --> 00:15:14,664
she was bruised to hell,
depressed out of her mind,
260
00:15:14,747 --> 00:15:17,875
unmedicated, untreated, and abandoned.
261
00:15:17,959 --> 00:15:19,460
It wasn't like that.
262
00:15:19,544 --> 00:15:21,671
| did my best. You have no idea...
263
00:15:21,754 --> 00:15:23,965
You threw us in a carr,
you left her there alone,
264
00:15:24,048 --> 00:15:26,592
and she threw herself
off the goddamn staircase,
265
00:15:26,676 --> 00:15:27,718
and that was your best?
266
00:15:27,802 --> 00:15:30,388
All right, well, she should not have
been left alone in the house...
267
00:15:30,471 --> 00:15:33,182
Fuck the house.
It wasn't the house. She was sick.
268
00:15:33,766 --> 00:15:36,310
She was sick in her mind,
and the one person,
269
00:15:36,394 --> 00:15:38,771
the one person
that was supposed to take care of her
270
00:15:38,855 --> 00:15:41,732
didn't do a goddamn
thing to get her help.
271
00:15:47,572 --> 00:15:48,573
| miss her.
272
00:15:51,325 --> 00:15:52,577
| miss my mom.
273
00:15:56,622 --> 00:15:57,790
| miss her t0o0.
274
00:16:01,669 --> 00:16:04,088
It's certainly beautiful.
Where did you find it?
275
00:16:05,089 --> 00:16:06,090
The game room.
276
00:16:06,799 --> 00:16:08,342
-The what room?
-Upstairs.
277
00:16:08,426 --> 00:16:11,179
You know, | think a little paint,
maybe fix those doors,
278
00:16:11,262 --> 00:16:13,764
-and she might really love it.
-I'm sure she wiill.
279
00:16:14,682 --> 00:16:16,809
S0 do you know
where the paint and stuff is?
280
00:16:16,976 --> 00:16:20,021
-Why don't you ask your father?
-1 did. He's busy.
281
00:16:20,146 --> 00:16:22,982
He said if it wasn't tagged for sale,
| could do whatever | wanted.
282
00:16:23,065 --> 00:16:24,567
And it's not tagged for sale.
283
00:16:25,485 --> 00:16:27,737
Well, | do know where some paint is.
284
00:16:32,366 --> 00:16:33,618
| thought so.
285
00:16:34,285 --> 00:16:36,120
This must have been Poppy's.
286
00:16:36,621 --> 00:16:37,622
Poppy?
287
00:16:38,873 --> 00:16:39,916
Poppy Hill.
288
00:16:41,167 --> 00:16:42,585
She was William's wife.
289
00:16:43,544 --> 00:16:44,754
She was insane.
290
00:16:45,254 --> 00:16:47,048
Yeah, she looks kind of wild.
291
00:16:47,507 --> 00:16:48,799
No, | mean clinically.
292
00:16:49,300 --> 00:16:50,301
So was he.
293
00:16:51,385 --> 00:16:54,347
William's parents sent him
to an institution when he was a kid.
294
00:16:54,430 --> 00:16:57,433
They called it private school,
but it wasn't a school, though.
295
00:16:57,517 --> 00:17:00,645
It was just a place where rich parents
hid their embarrassments.
296
00:17:02,188 --> 00:17:04,398
They met in the mental institution.
297
00:17:04,774 --> 00:17:06,526
They fell in love in an asylum.
298
00:17:06,901 --> 00:17:08,277
She was insane.
299
00:17:09,779 --> 00:17:10,780
Did you know her?
300
00:17:12,156 --> 00:17:13,199
V=13
301
00:17:13,866 --> 00:17:16,536
She was just as crazy, just older.
302
00:17:17,828 --> 00:17:21,749
She was a beautiful
young woman in her time, though.
303
00:17:23,084 --> 00:17:24,335
No doubt about that.
304
00:17:33,177 --> 00:17:35,846
If you really want
this to be a surprise for your mom,
305
00:17:36,597 --> 00:17:38,766
I'd suggest you don't
work on it in your room.
306
00:18:37,116 --> 00:18:39,910
Just take the fucking candy and go.
307
00:19:01,474 --> 00:19:02,558
You're very clever.
308
00:19:03,601 --> 00:19:05,227
How about you try another house?
309
00:19:05,311 --> 00:19:06,937
I'm not in the fucking mood!
310
00:19:38,302 --> 00:19:40,096
What the fuck do you want?
311
00:19:44,767 --> 00:19:46,519
| was just coming to apologize.
312
00:19:48,396 --> 00:19:49,647
Who were you yelling at?
313
00:19:51,565 --> 00:19:52,942
Some fucking kids are...
314
00:19:54,402 --> 00:19:55,403
Just forget it.
315
00:20:02,910 --> 00:20:04,245
-Wait.
-Not now.
316
00:20:04,370 --> 00:20:05,913
-I can explain.
e lollel@iaF\4d
317
00:20:06,163 --> 00:20:07,206
Shouldn't you be packing?
318
00:20:07,289 --> 00:20:08,666
| know what it looked like last night.
319
00:20:08,749 --> 00:20:10,126
You were making out with my husband.
320
00:20:10,209 --> 00:20:12,044
No. No, there was no actual...
321
00:20:12,128 --> 00:20:15,297
Okay, so from what | can remember,
which isn't a lot actually,
322
00:20:15,464 --> 00:20:16,465
he pushed me away.
323
00:20:16,549 --> 00:20:19,009
-Is that supposed to make this better?
-lt wasn't even him.
324
00:20:19,093 --> 00:20:22,012
It wasn't... | didn't see him.
It wasn't about him.
325
00:20:22,096 --> 00:20:24,223
It's about you getting out
of my guest house
326
00:20:24,306 --> 00:20:25,558
and off my fucking property.
327
00:20:25,641 --> 00:20:27,017
If you would just let me talk.
328
00:20:27,101 --> 00:20:28,811
| don't care what you have to say.
329
00:20:28,894 --> 00:20:31,188
Don't you understand? Get out!
330
00:20:31,272 --> 00:20:32,732
You are impossible. Do you know that?
331
00:20:32,815 --> 00:20:34,191
I'm sorry, have | offended you?
332
00:20:34,275 --> 00:20:36,986
You are always throwing it in my face
that | live in your guest house.
333
00:20:37,111 --> 00:20:38,112
Won't happen again.
334
00:20:38,404 --> 00:20:39,947
| choose to live there, Shirley.
335
00:20:40,030 --> 00:20:42,950
-With you, for you.
-| can't thank you enough.
336
00:20:43,033 --> 00:20:44,201
You ice people out.
337
00:20:44,285 --> 00:20:45,286
You always have.
338
00:20:45,369 --> 00:20:46,454
| ice people out?
339
00:20:46,620 --> 00:20:47,997
Have you met yourself?
340
00:20:48,080 --> 00:20:50,708
And so | chose to live there
to help try and keep you warm.
341
00:20:50,791 --> 00:20:52,460
You fucking suck at apologies.
342
00:20:52,543 --> 00:20:56,046
| don't have to live in your guest
house. I'm not some bohemian weirdo.
343
00:20:56,130 --> 00:20:57,214
I'm an adult.
344
00:20:57,339 --> 00:20:58,841
| am a fucking doctor.
345
00:20:58,924 --> 00:21:00,384
You're a fucking slut.
346
00:21:02,011 --> 00:21:03,220
| just need you to know
347
00:21:03,721 --> 00:21:05,848
that it wasn't Kevin's fault
and he didn't do anything...
348
00:21:05,931 --> 00:21:08,225
Don't you fucking dare
defend my husband.
349
00:21:08,309 --> 00:21:10,936
All of us, all of us
are just always helping you
350
00:21:11,020 --> 00:21:13,814
keep up this idea in your head
that you're perfect Shirley,
351
00:21:13,898 --> 00:21:15,858
and we're just a bunch
of fuck-ups fucking up.
352
00:21:15,941 --> 00:21:17,193
Perfect Shirley's
perfect fucking life...
353
00:21:17,276 --> 00:21:18,277
Outl!
354
00:21:19,820 --> 00:21:22,072
You do not just get to shut me
out of your...
355
00:21:26,911 --> 00:21:28,621
Did you just punch me in the boob?
356
00:21:30,498 --> 00:21:31,499
Yeah.
357
00:21:32,416 --> 00:21:33,417
Yeah!
358
00:21:34,168 --> 00:21:36,212
If you kiss my husband,
that's what you get.
359
00:21:36,295 --> 00:21:38,380
You get punched in the fucking boob.
360
00:21:38,881 --> 00:21:39,882
And you get evicted
361
00:21:40,007 --> 00:21:41,759
from my fucking house.
362
00:22:51,370 --> 00:22:52,371
Shirl?
363
00:22:52,997 --> 00:22:54,039
What's up?
364
00:22:54,874 --> 00:22:55,958
L5
365
00:22:58,252 --> 00:22:59,253
Sorry, they...
366
00:23:00,880 --> 00:23:01,922
They got a hit.
367
00:23:03,257 --> 00:23:05,759
He used the card at a gas station.
368
00:23:06,844 --> 00:23:08,637
202, just east of Amherst.
369
00:23:09,930 --> 00:23:10,931
Amherst?
370
00:23:12,266 --> 00:23:13,976
Can you text me the address?
371
00:23:17,229 --> 00:23:18,606
-Shirl?
-Yeah.
372
00:23:18,898 --> 00:23:20,900
I'm here. Sorry.
373
00:23:21,901 --> 00:23:24,028
Yeah, I'll text you the address.
374
00:23:25,112 --> 00:23:27,823
-Amherst is on the way...
-Yeah, | know where it is.
375
00:23:27,907 --> 00:23:30,242
You guys are gonna stay there.
We're gonna go to Amherst.
376
00:23:30,326 --> 00:23:33,662
I'm saying, if he's stopping
in Amherst, he's heading...
377
00:23:33,746 --> 00:23:35,831
Shirley, listen to me,
you're gonna stay put.
378
00:23:35,915 --> 00:23:37,750
-You hear me?
-Tell them what happened.
379
00:23:38,792 --> 00:23:40,336
Tell them what just happened.
380
00:23:41,879 --> 00:23:43,005
I'll text you.
381
00:23:44,840 --> 00:23:47,426
Some fucking kids
playing a prank is what happened.
382
00:23:47,509 --> 00:23:48,510
You know it wasn't.
383
00:23:49,178 --> 00:23:50,179
You know that.
384
00:23:51,513 --> 00:23:54,725
That's not the only thing like that
that's happened here tonight.
385
00:23:58,979 --> 00:24:01,440
| think Luke is going to the house.
386
00:24:02,399 --> 00:24:04,360
Of course he is.
387
00:24:04,443 --> 00:24:06,403
The goddamn house.
388
00:24:06,987 --> 00:24:10,115
It was a good enough spot for Nell,
it's a good enough spot for Luke.
389
00:24:10,199 --> 00:24:11,283
He always wanted to do
390
00:24:11,367 --> 00:24:12,576
what she did his whole life.
391
00:24:12,660 --> 00:24:13,911
You think you know.
392
00:24:13,994 --> 00:24:15,913
And you just don't,
you don't understand.
393
00:24:15,996 --> 00:24:17,831
Last time | saw Mom,
394
00:24:18,582 --> 00:24:19,875
the look in her eye,
395
00:24:20,292 --> 00:24:21,377
I've seen that look.
396
00:24:21,794 --> 00:24:23,212
In Nell over the years,
397
00:24:23,295 --> 00:24:24,922
and Luke, from the start,
398
00:24:25,005 --> 00:24:26,090
from when he'd sit there
399
00:24:26,173 --> 00:24:27,424
drawing crazy ghouls
400
00:24:27,508 --> 00:24:28,509
INn his tree house.
401
00:24:28,592 --> 00:24:31,011
And, hell, I've seen that look
in the mirror.
402
00:24:33,347 --> 00:24:34,723
Our family has a disease
403
00:24:34,807 --> 00:24:35,849
that's never been treated,
404
00:24:35,933 --> 00:24:38,477
because it was easier
to listen to your crazy stories
405
00:24:38,560 --> 00:24:39,603
about an evil house.
406
00:24:42,106 --> 00:24:43,399
You think you saw it in the mirror?
407
00:24:43,482 --> 00:24:45,192
That's why you think
you'll never have kids?
408
00:24:45,275 --> 00:24:46,819
| know I'm never having children.
409
00:24:46,902 --> 00:24:47,945
Because you think that
410
00:24:48,028 --> 00:24:50,072
they'll just have the same
imaginary sickness?
411
00:24:50,155 --> 00:24:52,199
They would. We all do.
412
00:24:52,282 --> 00:24:54,660
Nell was delusional, depressed.
413
00:24:54,743 --> 00:24:57,663
Luke's an addict,
Shirley is a control freak,
414
00:24:57,746 --> 00:25:00,624
and Theo's basically
a clenched fist with hair.
415
00:25:01,458 --> 00:25:04,253
The whole fucking family is
on the brink of a breakdown
416
00:25:04,336 --> 00:25:05,921
and seeing things that aren't there,
417
00:25:06,005 --> 00:25:07,506
hearing things that aren't there,
418
00:25:07,589 --> 00:25:10,050
and that shit happened
after the house.
419
00:25:10,134 --> 00:25:11,301
It's not the house.
420
00:25:11,385 --> 00:25:14,013
There's something wrong
with our goddamn brains.
421
00:25:14,388 --> 00:25:16,140
So yeah, I'm never having children.
422
00:25:17,599 --> 00:25:18,642
| made sure.
423
00:25:22,354 --> 00:25:23,355
A vasectomy.
424
00:25:25,733 --> 00:25:26,734
Right out of college.
425
00:25:28,193 --> 00:25:31,280
And it was the right call, believe me,
because if | ever doubted it,
426
00:25:31,363 --> 00:25:34,450
some of the bullshit
I've been hallucinating this week...
427
00:25:37,036 --> 00:25:38,037
You really did?
428
00:25:39,079 --> 00:25:40,080
Yeah.
429
00:25:42,499 --> 00:25:43,792
Before you met Leigh?
430
00:25:47,963 --> 00:25:48,964
Boy.
431
00:25:50,799 --> 00:25:51,800
You didn't tell her?
432
00:25:53,594 --> 00:25:54,678
You didn't tell her.
433
00:25:59,475 --> 00:26:01,018
She wanted kids, | knew that.
434
00:26:02,019 --> 00:26:05,272
And | kept thinking, "I'll tell her
later, now's not the time."
435
00:26:07,232 --> 00:26:10,152
But then we were engaged,
and then we were married,
436
00:26:10,235 --> 00:26:13,447
and then we were trying,
and she was upset it wasn't working.
437
00:26:16,825 --> 00:26:18,118
| couldn't say,
438
00:26:18,702 --> 00:26:20,537
"l can't. My genes...
439
00:26:21,371 --> 00:26:24,041
"My genes are rotten, Leigh."
440
00:26:24,124 --> 00:26:25,876
Sol.. |..
441
00:26:28,629 --> 00:26:29,880
| didn't tell her.
442
00:26:31,215 --> 00:26:34,510
And | thought | was being kind,
| really thought that.
443
00:26:36,095 --> 00:26:38,847
See, we're all fucking crazy.
444
00:26:40,390 --> 00:26:41,642
The crazy Crains.
445
00:26:43,602 --> 00:26:45,646
This sickness
already killed two of us,
446
00:26:45,729 --> 00:26:47,189
might kill a third tonight.
447
00:26:47,606 --> 00:26:48,607
1NV
448
00:26:49,608 --> 00:26:50,692
Almost half.
449
00:26:52,903 --> 00:26:54,238
It'd be almost half of us.
450
00:26:57,908 --> 00:27:00,869
So, you want to tell me more
about the kite and the line?
451
00:27:03,163 --> 00:27:04,164
Or just...
452
00:27:05,165 --> 00:27:07,292
Just tell me
what a shitty husband | was.
453
00:27:07,960 --> 00:27:08,961
Go ahead.
454
00:27:12,005 --> 00:27:13,090
I'm so sorry.
455
00:27:14,341 --> 00:27:15,342
I'm just...
456
00:27:18,804 --> 00:27:20,055
I'm just so sorry, son.
457
00:27:21,974 --> 00:27:23,016
You did this?
458
00:27:23,433 --> 00:27:25,853
| mean, this is beautiful.
You did this by yourself?
459
00:27:26,311 --> 00:27:27,938
Thought it might cheer you up.
460
00:27:28,397 --> 00:27:29,731
Dad said you've been...
461
00:27:30,691 --> 00:27:32,568
What? What did he say?
462
00:27:32,693 --> 00:27:34,236
I'm... | just...
463
00:27:34,319 --> 00:27:36,405
| know you're taking
a little vacation.
464
00:27:36,488 --> 00:27:38,031
| wanted to cheer you up.
465
00:27:40,075 --> 00:27:41,076
Sweetie.
466
00:27:42,703 --> 00:27:44,496
How long are you gonna be gone?
467
00:27:44,621 --> 00:27:45,831
Not long.
468
00:27:46,123 --> 00:27:47,166
Not long, honey.
469
00:27:47,791 --> 00:27:49,293
| just need a little time away.
470
00:27:49,376 --> 00:27:50,752
It's nothing more than that, okay?
471
00:27:51,295 --> 00:27:52,296
Okay.
472
00:27:53,881 --> 00:27:55,048
This is perfect.
473
00:27:56,800 --> 00:27:59,136
Thank you. Thank you! | love it.
474
00:28:06,018 --> 00:28:07,019
Mom?
475
00:28:18,155 --> 00:28:19,281
I'm so sorry.
476
00:28:20,282 --> 00:28:23,076
This is an older picture.
He would have been wearing a suit.
477
00:28:23,160 --> 00:28:25,621
-About an hour ago. Did he come In?
-Yeah, | think so.
478
00:28:25,704 --> 00:28:26,705
Yeah?
479
00:28:26,788 --> 00:28:28,916
Did he say anything weird
or do anything...
480
00:28:28,999 --> 00:28:30,250
He filled up his Jeep.
481
00:28:30,626 --> 00:28:32,085
-Green Jeep?
-That's right.
482
00:28:32,169 --> 00:28:34,838
And then he filled up
some cans, like, five cans.
483
00:28:35,589 --> 00:28:37,132
Five cans, you say?
484
00:28:49,519 --> 00:28:50,812
-Was it him?
-Yeah.
485
00:28:51,980 --> 00:28:53,315
What are you doing?
486
00:28:53,398 --> 00:28:55,359
-I'm driving.
-No, no, no, this...
487
00:28:55,442 --> 00:28:56,568
This is my rental.
488
00:29:02,866 --> 00:29:04,576
Jesus, Dad, slow down.
489
00:29:04,660 --> 00:29:05,911
He bought five cans of gasoline.
490
00:29:05,994 --> 00:29:07,162
He's not going there to kill himself,
491
00:29:07,246 --> 00:29:09,373
-he's going to burn the house down.
-That's a relief.
492
00:29:09,456 --> 00:29:11,750
He's in more danger now
than he's ever been,
493
00:29:11,833 --> 00:29:14,211
and if he tries to burn it,
it will defend itself.
494
00:29:14,294 --> 00:29:15,879
You really didn't hear a word | said.
495
00:29:15,963 --> 00:29:17,339
| did. Now you're gonna listen to me.
496
00:29:18,715 --> 00:29:20,217
There's a lot you don't know.
497
00:29:21,343 --> 00:29:24,638
| thought | could keep you kids safe
if you didn't know, but for 20 years
498
00:29:24,721 --> 00:29:27,307
I've been holding the door closed,
'cause | knew there were monsters
499
00:29:27,391 --> 00:29:29,059
on the other side,
do you understand me?
500
00:29:29,142 --> 00:29:30,394
Not even a little.
501
00:29:30,477 --> 00:29:33,855
Our family is like
an unfinished meal to that house,
502
00:29:33,939 --> 00:29:36,483
and your brother is walking
right back into...
503
00:29:37,985 --> 00:29:42,322
That house is the most dangerous place
in the world for all of us,
504
00:29:43,198 --> 00:29:44,741
but especially for you.
505
00:29:45,200 --> 00:29:46,535
S el 1=Xs
-Yeah, you.
506
00:29:47,077 --> 00:29:48,078
What? Why?
507
00:29:48,203 --> 00:29:49,871
Because | read your book,
508
00:29:49,955 --> 00:29:53,667
and you are the last person that
should ever step foot in that house
509
00:29:53,750 --> 00:29:56,253
because of what you wrote
and how you wrote it.
510
00:29:56,586 --> 00:29:59,006
You think you know what you saw?
511
00:29:59,256 --> 00:30:02,259
-You think you know what you wrote?
-What?
512
00:30:03,176 --> 00:30:04,678
| Know you saw a ghost.
513
00:30:05,470 --> 00:30:07,347
Yeah, chapter 19.
514
00:30:07,472 --> 00:30:08,473
Yeah.
515
00:30:08,682 --> 00:30:11,435
That little story about the vanity
you painted for your mother.
516
00:30:11,518 --> 00:30:13,937
That's a story about
a schizophrenic woman
517
00:30:14,021 --> 00:30:15,939
having a manic episode
in front of a mirror.
518
00:30:16,023 --> 00:30:17,607
You don't understand what you wrote...
519
00:30:17,691 --> 00:30:20,402
No, | saw Mom smash that glass
520
00:30:20,485 --> 00:30:22,029
-for no reason.
-Before that.
521
00:30:22,112 --> 00:30:25,991
Go to the beginning, that little bit,
about the vanity and why you did it.
522
00:30:26,074 --> 00:30:28,285
You found the vanity in the game room.
523
00:30:28,368 --> 00:30:30,579
And you walked by
the man repairing the clock,
524
00:30:30,662 --> 00:30:32,956
and then you saw your mother
looking into the twins' room,
525
00:30:33,040 --> 00:30:34,291
staring at their empty beds.
526
00:30:34,374 --> 00:30:37,044
Textbook dissociative episode.
She was not well.
527
00:30:37,127 --> 00:30:38,420
No, no, not her.
528
00:30:38,503 --> 00:30:40,297
The man repairing the clock.
529
00:30:41,590 --> 00:30:42,591
\What about him?
530
00:30:43,258 --> 00:30:45,510
Do you know what witness marks are?
531
00:30:46,803 --> 00:30:47,846
They're scars.
532
00:30:48,555 --> 00:30:52,434
Little marks inside the clock,
scrapes, lines, divots,
533
00:30:52,517 --> 00:30:54,269
from tools, gears,
534
00:30:54,644 --> 00:30:56,563
pieces removed from the clock.
535
00:30:56,646 --> 00:30:59,858
They're basically evidence of repairs
that have been done to the clock
536
00:30:59,941 --> 00:31:01,234
and what the clock was.
537
00:31:01,943 --> 00:31:05,614
And with antique clocks,
you almost never have a repair record,
538
00:31:05,697 --> 00:31:08,200
S0 you have to learn
how to read the witness marks,
539
00:31:08,283 --> 00:31:10,285
S0 you can understand
what was done to the machine
540
00:31:10,369 --> 00:31:13,038
and how it is meant to function.
541
00:31:13,121 --> 00:31:15,582
Witness marks tell
the story of the piece,
542
00:31:15,832 --> 00:31:17,459
If you know how to read them.
543
00:31:17,542 --> 00:31:19,127
What are you trying to say?
544
00:31:19,419 --> 00:31:21,797
| had that clock evaluated
by a professional
545
00:31:21,880 --> 00:31:23,715
before we even moved into the house.
546
00:31:24,091 --> 00:31:28,053
| just wanted to know its history,
QI TRIERZIY
547
00:31:28,637 --> 00:31:30,806
That clock hadn't been touched
since the '60s.
548
00:31:31,264 --> 00:31:33,975
You hired a slew of workers
toward the end...
549
00:31:34,059 --> 00:31:35,852
Not for that clock, | didn't.
550
00:31:38,021 --> 00:31:40,023
No, and if | had,
it would have taken a specialist.
551
00:31:40,107 --> 00:31:42,567
There's only a handful in the world
who know how to do it right,
552
00:31:42,651 --> 00:31:43,652
and they take it off-site.
553
00:31:44,194 --> 00:31:46,446
No. No one touched that clock.
There was no man there,
554
00:31:46,530 --> 00:31:50,158
and certainly not one in old overalls
with a handlebar mustache.
555
00:31:50,242 --> 00:31:52,077
That man wasn't there.
556
00:31:53,286 --> 00:31:54,454
You probably just forgot.
557
00:31:54,538 --> 00:31:57,040
You know, you think you're writing
about your crazy mom,
558
00:31:57,124 --> 00:31:59,751
your crazy brother
making scary faces in the tree house.
559
00:31:59,835 --> 00:32:02,462
You see the marks,
but you don't know how to read them.
560
00:32:03,422 --> 00:32:06,174
| never built you kids a tree house.
561
00:32:07,175 --> 00:32:08,927
What? Luke was in there all the time.
562
00:32:09,010 --> 00:32:10,303
| used to go fetch him for dinner...
563
00:32:10,387 --> 00:32:12,097
We were there flipping a house.
564
00:32:12,180 --> 00:32:14,474
We were gonna be there
maybe eight weeks.
565
00:32:14,558 --> 00:32:16,184
How would | even have the time
566
00:32:16,268 --> 00:32:18,103
to build you kids
a goddamn tree house?
567
00:32:18,186 --> 00:32:20,939
-Maybe it was already there.
-There was no tree house.
568
00:32:23,066 --> 00:32:24,734
Now, when we get there,
you can have a look,
569
00:32:24,818 --> 00:32:25,902
but | have to tell you something.
570
00:32:25,986 --> 00:32:27,654
Your mother, she was not sick.
571
00:32:28,280 --> 00:32:30,740
She wasn't crazy,
and neither was your sister,
572
00:32:30,824 --> 00:32:32,951
neither is your brother,
neither are you.
573
00:32:33,034 --> 00:32:34,786
Whatever you saw this week,
574
00:32:34,870 --> 00:32:37,789
and I'm very sorry you have to
be taking all this in right now,
575
00:32:37,914 --> 00:32:38,915
but you have to.
576
00:32:38,999 --> 00:32:40,292
Do you understand me? You have to,
577
00:32:40,375 --> 00:32:43,336
because your brother's
life depends on it.
578
00:32:44,045 --> 00:32:47,382
That house is the most dangerous place
in the world for all of us,
579
00:32:47,674 --> 00:32:50,385
=lalo U1 SR 0Y
| told your sisters to stay put.
580
00:32:52,429 --> 00:32:53,805
You really think they will?
581
00:32:59,352 --> 00:33:00,479
Do you think he's...
582
00:33:02,314 --> 00:33:03,315
You know...
583
00:33:04,858 --> 00:33:07,110
Going there like Nell went there?
584
00:33:07,527 --> 00:33:08,904
Like going to kill himself?
585
00:33:10,238 --> 00:33:11,239
| don't know.
586
00:33:14,868 --> 00:33:15,952
| guess | don't.
587
00:33:18,205 --> 00:33:20,081
I'm not perfect, you know.
588
00:33:21,583 --> 00:33:22,584
| know.
589
00:33:23,668 --> 00:33:24,669
I'm really not.
590
00:33:26,004 --> 00:33:27,589
S0 go ahead, tell me.
591
00:33:29,174 --> 00:33:30,175
Try again.
592
00:33:33,386 --> 00:33:35,222
Dad and | were in your office,
593
00:33:35,305 --> 00:33:38,183
and the forever house
was on the floor,
594
00:33:38,767 --> 00:33:40,477
and we heard a noise under the desk. ..
595
00:33:40,560 --> 00:33:42,395
Not that. You already told me that.
596
00:33:44,272 --> 00:33:45,565
| was really drunk.
597
00:33:46,358 --> 00:33:47,692
| swear to God, Theo...
598
00:33:47,776 --> 00:33:48,777
And the lights went out
599
00:33:49,778 --> 00:33:51,738
While we were down there, and |...
600
00:33:53,156 --> 00:33:55,617
Couldn't see. | was in the dark.
601
00:33:56,910 --> 00:33:59,037
| mean, like | was in the dark
602
00:33:59,704 --> 00:34:02,165
that whole night, and | just needed...
603
00:34:06,169 --> 00:34:07,504
| couldn't see
604
00:34:08,046 --> 00:34:09,047
him,
605
00:34:09,172 --> 00:34:10,549
If that makes any sense.
606
00:34:10,674 --> 00:34:12,384
You know what? Never mind.
607
00:34:12,884 --> 00:34:14,052
I'm trying to tell you...
608
00:34:14,135 --> 00:34:15,512
Forget | asked.
609
00:34:15,595 --> 00:34:17,931
You just don't know
what I'm dealing with.
610
00:34:18,014 --> 00:34:19,307
We've all been dealing,
611
00:34:19,391 --> 00:34:20,600
and we somehow managed
612
00:34:20,684 --> 00:34:22,310
not to try to fuck
each other's spouses...
613
00:34:22,394 --> 00:34:23,645
Hey, that's not what this was about.
614
00:34:23,728 --> 00:34:24,813
IS ATk 8
615
00:34:24,896 --> 00:34:27,190
S0, you were drunk,
616
00:34:27,274 --> 00:34:28,441
and that's supposed to be okay?
617
00:34:28,525 --> 00:34:29,901
I'm telling you.
618
00:34:30,402 --> 00:34:32,737
| don't even know why
| let you come with me.
619
00:34:33,905 --> 00:34:36,783
| touched Nell's body
the night before.
620
00:34:37,409 --> 00:34:38,827
The fuck is wrong with you?
621
00:34:40,662 --> 00:34:41,955
Why don't you listen?
622
00:34:42,038 --> 00:34:43,748
-l don't... No, no...
-I'm telling you.
623
00:34:43,832 --> 00:34:44,833
I'm trying to tell you.
624
00:34:44,916 --> 00:34:46,918
| don't need to hear your excuses...
625
00:34:47,002 --> 00:34:48,628
-I'm not making excuses.
-...or your bullshit.
626
00:34:48,795 --> 00:34:49,796
| saw...
627
00:35:10,567 --> 00:35:12,736
-Are you okay?
-That was her!
628
00:35:12,819 --> 00:35:15,739
That was her! That was her!
629
00:35:16,156 --> 00:35:18,033
Did you see that, Shirley?
630
00:35:18,116 --> 00:35:20,118
Do you fucking believe that?
631
00:35:24,372 --> 00:35:25,999
You ought to know why | did it.
632
00:35:27,167 --> 00:35:29,377
| touched Nell because | had to know.
633
00:35:30,295 --> 00:35:31,921
You know what I'm talking about.
634
00:35:32,005 --> 00:35:33,465
Don't pretend that you don't.
635
00:35:34,466 --> 00:35:36,635
You know what happens
when | touch people.
636
00:35:36,718 --> 00:35:38,720
A part of you knows, it always has.
637
00:35:40,847 --> 00:35:42,349
| had to know, and |...
638
00:35:43,558 --> 00:35:44,559
| touched her.
639
00:35:45,602 --> 00:35:46,603
And | felt...
640
00:35:47,937 --> 00:35:48,938
Nothing.
641
00:35:50,565 --> 00:35:52,067
Just nothing.
642
00:35:53,568 --> 00:35:56,279
And it spread,
it spread everywhere in me,
643
00:35:56,363 --> 00:35:59,491
this nothing, until | couldn't
feel anything anymore.
644
00:35:59,574 --> 00:36:01,117
| was just this dark,
645
00:36:01,618 --> 00:36:03,328
empty black hole.
646
00:36:03,828 --> 00:36:06,122
And | tried to fill it up,
| tried to fill me back up.
647
00:36:06,206 --> 00:36:09,417
| called Trish, and she came right
away, and | felt nothing.
648
00:36:09,542 --> 00:36:12,462
And then | tried to mourn at the wake
and | felt nothing.
649
00:36:12,545 --> 00:36:15,924
And so | drank and | drank,
and nothing worked.
650
00:36:16,007 --> 00:36:18,134
| couldn't feel anything, Shirley.
651
00:36:18,218 --> 00:36:21,554
After | touched her skin,
| couldn't feel...
652
00:36:22,722 --> 00:36:23,890
Anything.
653
00:36:24,641 --> 00:36:27,727
And then we're in the basement,
and the lights go out.
654
00:36:29,145 --> 00:36:30,438
And | can't see.
655
00:36:31,106 --> 00:36:32,440
And | can't feel.
656
00:36:33,483 --> 00:36:37,654
And I'm just floating
in this ocean of nothing,
657
00:36:37,737 --> 00:36:40,365
and | wonder if this is I,
if this is what death is,
658
00:36:40,448 --> 00:36:44,411
just out there in the darkness,
just darkness and numbness and alone,
659
00:36:44,494 --> 00:36:48,373
and | wondered if that's what she felt
and that's what Mom feels,
660
00:36:48,456 --> 00:36:52,335
and it's just numb
and nothing and alone.
661
00:36:56,089 --> 00:36:58,842
What if that's what
itis for all of us
662
00:36:59,884 --> 00:37:01,094
when the time comes?
663
00:37:02,554 --> 00:37:06,641
And then the lights came on,
and there he was, and |...
664
00:37:07,225 --> 00:37:09,269
| didn't see him. | didn't see him.
665
00:37:09,352 --> 00:37:11,187
He was a light in the darkness.
666
00:37:11,271 --> 00:37:13,898
He was a life preserver in the ocean.
667
00:37:13,982 --> 00:37:17,318
| just... | reached for him
because | had to feel something.
668
00:37:17,402 --> 00:37:18,653
| had to feel anything.
669
00:37:19,070 --> 00:37:21,740
And | didn't see him.
670
00:37:22,157 --> 00:37:24,409
| didn't... | didn't see him.
| didn't see him.
671
00:37:24,617 --> 00:37:25,618
| didn't see him!
672
00:37:25,702 --> 00:37:27,203
And he stopped me. He stopped me.
673
00:37:27,287 --> 00:37:29,080
He took my hands, and he said no,
674
00:37:29,164 --> 00:37:31,541
and then | saw him,
and then you walked in.
675
00:37:33,001 --> 00:37:35,211
God, I'm so glad | did it, though.
676
00:37:36,671 --> 00:37:37,922
Because it worked.
677
00:37:38,840 --> 00:37:40,383
Oh, God, it worked.
678
00:37:40,884 --> 00:37:42,427
| started feeling things again,
679
00:37:42,510 --> 00:37:45,597
and | felt... | felt shame,
and | felt grief,
680
00:37:45,680 --> 00:37:47,891
and | felt... Scared.
681
00:37:47,974 --> 00:37:49,642
| felt so fucking scared
682
00:37:49,726 --> 00:37:52,562
that | was gonna lose
the only sister that | had left.
683
00:37:54,606 --> 00:37:55,607
And I...
684
00:37:55,899 --> 00:37:59,402
Honestly, | had to do it,
because it felt better than nothing.
685
00:37:59,527 --> 00:38:02,614
That thorough fucking shame
686
00:38:02,989 --> 00:38:06,993
was so much better
than that horrible, empty nothing.
687
00:38:07,076 --> 00:38:09,746
| can't... Shirley, please.
688
00:38:12,207 --> 00:38:14,375
FEln il ms
689
00:38:14,459 --> 00:38:16,085
| am so, so, SO sorry.
690
00:38:16,878 --> 00:38:18,129
I'm so sorry.
691
00:38:19,047 --> 00:38:21,049
Please, just please.
692
00:39:58,313 --> 00:40:00,648
One, two, three, four,
693
00:40:00,773 --> 00:40:02,400
five, six, seven.
694
00:40:08,823 --> 00:40:09,824
One,
695
00:40:10,033 --> 00:40:11,826
two, three,
696
00:40:12,368 --> 00:40:14,037
four, five,
697
00:40:14,537 --> 00:40:15,538
SIX. ..
698
00:40:51,240 --> 00:40:52,241
Mom.
50495
Can't find what you're looking for?
Get subtitles in any language from opensubtitles.com, and translate them here.
Afrikaans
Akan
Albanian
Amharic
Arabic
Armenian
Azerbaijani
Basque
Belarusian
Bemba
Bengali
Bihari
Bosnian
Breton
Bulgarian
Cambodian
Catalan
Cebuano
Cherokee
Chichewa
Chinese (Simplified)
Chinese (Traditional)
Corsican
Croatian
Czech
Danish
Esperanto
Estonian
Faroese
Finnish
Frisian
Galician
Georgian
German
Greek
Guarani
Haitian Creole
Hausa
Hawaiian
Hebrew
Hmong
Hungarian
Icelandic
Indonesian
Irish
Italian
Japanese
Kazakh
Kinyarwanda
Kirundi
Kongo
Korean
Krio (Sierra Leone)
Kurdish
Kyrgyz
Laothian
Latin
Latvian
Lithuanian
Luganda
Luo
Luxembourgish
Macedonian
Malagasy
Malay
Maltese
Maori
Mauritian Creole
Moldavian
Mongolian
Myanmar (Burmese)
Montenegrin
Nepali
Norwegian
Pashto
Persian
Polish
Portuguese (Brazil)
Portuguese (Portugal)
Quechua
Romanian
Romansh
Russian
Samoan
Scots Gaelic
Serbian
Sesotho
Setswana
Seychellois Creole
Shona
Sindhi
Sinhalese
Slovak
Slovenian
Somali
Spanish
Swedish
Tajik
Thai
Tigrinya
Tonga
Turkish
Turkmen
Ukrainian
Uzbek
Vietnamese
Welsh
Wolof