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He was in the basement.
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He even ripped my shirt,
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and they still didn't believe me.
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They never believe me.
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They don't even believe me about you.
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You believe me, don't you, Abigail?
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When | was a kid, my brother
taught me how to spot faces in clouds.
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| could pull a face out of
a lot of things. Water, mud, leaves...
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Wallpaper.
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You know, | get a little older,
| start messing around
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with liquor, then drugs, and | was...
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| was going down
all the wrong routes, you know.
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| joined the service,
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you know, thinking
it would straighten me out.
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And it did.
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2004, my second tour in Iraq,
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my company secured the ruins
of a bombed-out hospital in Baghdad,
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and...
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We came across this little Iraqi girl.
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| mean, she was burnt up, dead.
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See, the thing is, most folks
don't know what happen to...
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Most folks don't know
what happens to eyeballs in a fire.
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In the right kind of fire, they...
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L E A= el i
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Like runny eggs on...
On black skin, you know.
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And...
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| mean, that fucked me up pretty bad.
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Anyway, six months later,
I'm back in the States,
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and pretty soon, | start seeing that
little dead girl's face everywhere.
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It's in the clouds,
it's in the dark, on fabric.
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It's fucking everywhere, you know.
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That little girl's charred body and
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melted eyes
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running down her cheeks.
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And pretty soon,
before | know it, I'm using again.
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So one night, | drop a little acid,
and there she is.
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| mean, it's growing out of the
goddamn wallpaper, you know.
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| mean, and she's staring at me.
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Eyeless even, | can tell.
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So | grab this knitting needle,
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you know, and all | can
think about was how to...
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How to make it stop.
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Seemed like a good idea at the time.
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So, then I'm blind.
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But | mean, like,
l-can't-see-anything blind, right?
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Thing is, is | still see her.
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| can't see anything else.
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| see her.
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Crispy kid with the runny-egg eyes.
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Twenty-four seven, | see her face.
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| mean, shit, | see it now.
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You know.
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171
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I'm here.
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Two months, I've been clean.
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It's a little too late.
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| leaned on my habit
to get rid of that face,
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and my habit made sure
that | never would.
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That's why I'm here.
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Two months.
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Well, thanks, Gordon.
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We're glad you're here.
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Any of our newbies wanna share?
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Luke, how about you?
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And follow that? You kidding me?
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Would anyone like
to take a newcomer chip?
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How about 30 days clean?
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Sixty?
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Ninety?
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-Thank you.
-You are welcome.
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Luke, addict.
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Hi, Luke.
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| actually don't know
what | want to say here.
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You know, I've never had
this much time before.
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You know, 90 days.
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So, here goes.
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One.
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Two.
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Three.
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Four.
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Five.
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Six.
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Seven.
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That's him,
the man | saw in the basement.
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Well, your mother and |
searched the entire basement, pal,
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and there's nothing down there.
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It's normal for kids to have
imaginary friends and nightmares.
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Go ahead, I'm listening.
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This house is bad, Dad. It's bad.
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Boy, oh boy, we could have
a heck of a yard sale, guys.
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Yeah.
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Has anyone seen Nellie?
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That's weird.
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You know, she was just here.
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It's okay, | just thought
she might like these cool old buttons
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-| found upstairs.
-Buttons?
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You got me.
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My little Houdini. Look.
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Whoa.
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Can | have the hat?
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| think it's too big for you, honey.
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| don't know. He'll grow into it.
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That is a big boy hat, all right.
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You want this?
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Well, you are a big boy now.
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But you know, big boys,
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they know the difference between
what's real and what's imaginary.
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So what do you say, champ?
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He loves it.
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Well, how do you know that?
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It's a twin thing.
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You two go and play.
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So much up there.
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I'm having a total déja vu right now.
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What do you see?
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Two tables, advancing colors.
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Four reading areas.
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Case goods and leather.
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A mom and dad sitting in reading
chairs that face each other.
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Smaller ones for two...
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No, no, three kids
who share an open center for play.
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The kids' books are
on the lower shelf,
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so even the little boy with the
wheelchair can reach his favorites.
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Wow.
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That got really specific.
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Case goods and leather,
though, for sure.
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And, | see an accident waiting to
happen if you don't pull those down.
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Bodies swinging
back and forth, right there.
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Yeah.
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I'll get to it.
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| must be allergic to the fourth step.
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Every time | do one, | break out
in track marks.
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Good. If you liked it,
you'd be doing it wrong.
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"A fearless moral inventory."
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We're only as sick as our secrets.
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Okay, well...
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K EI--
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I've burned Shirley
for thousands of dollars.
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Lied to Theo like it was my job.
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Stolen from Steve
on countless occasions.
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| broke Nellie's heart.
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Missed her wedding.
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I've even robbed
my asshole of a father,
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though that one doesn't
exactly keep me up at night.
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Try stealing morphine
from your mother on her deathbed.
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Probably would've, but she
didn't really give me a chance.
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At least you have
other family, you know.
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-Someone you can make amends to.
-Yeah.
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But I've done
some shitty things, Joey.
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Who hasn't?
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I've been on the streets
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There aren't enough pages
in that notebook for all my shit.
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| never know how far back to go.
Like, do | cover high school?
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Like, stealing cash
out of my aunt's wallet for beer,
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or do | just start with
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"l briefly lived in a haunted house."
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Hey.
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You okay?
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Yeah.
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Something's bothering you tonight.
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What could possibly
be bothering me in a place like this?
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You're nine months clean, Joey.
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Nine months.
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Your sobriety, it's full-term.
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It's a fully-formed
little baby. Anywhere,
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nine months clean is a palace.
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10:00. Lights out.
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Seriously, what's wrong?
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How's the step?
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You know...
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Kicking my ass.
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Fourth one always does.
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| meant to tell you,
your brother called earlier.
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Steve called?
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Yeah, wanted to know if you were here.
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That's typical.
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You should call him back tomorrow.
Tell him about your chip.
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Yeah, | don't know.
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He won't believe t.
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They never do.
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-It's kind of their thing.
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That sister of yours,
the one that dropped you off,
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she seemed to believe in you.
Tons, actually.
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Yeah, well...
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It's a twin thing.
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10:00, Joey.
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Yeah, yeah.
Back to the ladies' cell block.
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-Later.
-Good night.
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Luke, you ready?
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Ready.
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I'm sending down three buttons.
You ready?
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Did you get 'em?
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| got two.
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| sent three.
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Well, | only got two.
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It must be stuck.
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Maybe we can drop some other stuff
to shake it loose.
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Like what?
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There were some
rocks in the garden, pretty ones.
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Abigail showed me one in...
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Was somebody else up there?
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Like who?
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Mrs. Dudley or Theo?
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You're scared.
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No, I'm not.
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-| can tell.
-How?
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Because I'm scared.
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Nellie, still down there?
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I'm here.
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| was right.
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There's nothing.
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It was probably just Theo
messing around.
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Nellie! Nellie!
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TS
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/7:00 am. Breakfast in 10 minutes.
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As you've all heard by now,
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Joey chose to leave treatment
in the middle of the night.
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This is what happens
when we forget why we're here.
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| kKnow we're all gonna have
a lot of feelings about that.
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Some more than others.
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This is a moment
we should all pay attention to,
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especially you newbies here.
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There's a reason
why the program encourages us
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to stay out of personal relationships
the first year.
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We're not in a relationship.
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Any kind of relationship.
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We can get real close
to people in recovery.
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We're friends.
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How the fuck do you expect people
to get through this without friends?
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We don't.
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One of the biggest issues
that can sometimes happen and just...
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Sometimes...
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And I'm not saying this
about you, Luke,
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IS we can start to hang our recovery
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on someone else
instead of on ourselves.
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And you lean too hard
on another addict? Well, shit.
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We didn't all end up in here
'cause we're so reliable.
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SRILGE
-I'm fine.
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I'm just getting some air.
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Fuck.
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Luke, you okay in there?
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Hi, this is Nell.
Please leave a message after the beep.
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Hey, hey, it's... It's me.
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| had a moment...
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Last night, one of those.
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You know what I'm talking about...
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| just wanted to make sure
that you're okay.
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| don't have a phone,
and you won't reach me at the center.
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But you can call there... Call there
and leave me a message there.
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| should be back by tonight.
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| just have to find a friend.
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And don't worry. I'm fine.
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| just...
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| jJust wanted to
make sure you're okay.
265
00:17:23,376 --> 00:17:24,377
You know.
266
00:17:25,294 --> 00:17:26,295
Yeah, okay.
267
00:22:57,960 --> 00:22:59,128
liel @V/eV.
268
00:23:01,547 --> 00:23:02,923
Learn how to drive!
269
00:23:42,796 --> 00:23:43,797
Hey.
270
00:23:44,632 --> 00:23:45,633
Hey.
271
00:23:47,384 --> 00:23:49,011
How'd you know where to find me?
272
00:23:51,388 --> 00:23:52,640
| Know your spots.
273
00:23:54,808 --> 00:23:57,269
Hey, hey. It's okay, it's okay.
274
00:23:57,353 --> 00:23:58,771
Come on, it's okay.
275
00:23:59,188 --> 00:24:00,189
| found her.
276
00:24:00,272 --> 00:24:02,524
We're coming back.
We can be there in 20 minutes.
277
00:24:02,608 --> 00:24:03,943
This isn't a hotel, Luke.
278
00:24:04,026 --> 00:24:05,778
You know that.
You know that we're full up,
279
00:24:05,861 --> 00:24:08,447
and we need these beds for people
who actually want to get well.
280
00:24:08,572 --> 00:24:10,574
You run, you give up your spot.
That's the way it is.
281
00:24:10,658 --> 00:24:12,326
Please, Paige. Please.
282
00:24:12,701 --> 00:24:14,536
Your best bet is gonna be a shelter.
283
00:24:14,912 --> 00:24:16,914
That's the last place she should be.
284
00:24:16,997 --> 00:24:18,624
She'll cop. She's already...
285
00:24:20,668 --> 00:24:23,879
Look, | need a place
where she can come down safe.
286
00:24:24,254 --> 00:24:26,423
Fuck, Luke. I...
287
00:24:29,009 --> 00:24:30,010
NlTegy"2
288
00:24:30,594 --> 00:24:32,471
But you did it to yourselves.
289
00:24:33,472 --> 00:24:34,473
Fuck.
290
00:24:38,185 --> 00:24:40,604
SN ogd
| knew the rules when | left.
291
00:24:43,774 --> 00:24:44,775
You okay?
292
00:24:46,402 --> 00:24:47,403
Yeah.
293
00:24:48,404 --> 00:24:51,031
| just...
| slept on it funny last night.
294
00:24:53,075 --> 00:24:55,327
| told you not to follow me.
Why did you?
295
00:25:00,249 --> 00:25:01,542
NlTegy"2
296
00:25:07,381 --> 00:25:09,675
It's just... You gotta go back.
297
00:25:09,800 --> 00:25:11,593
Just 'cause | messed up,
doesn't mean you have to.
298
00:25:11,677 --> 00:25:13,262
| got an idea.
299
00:25:13,637 --> 00:25:16,515
If | can get you a motel, then...
300
00:25:16,598 --> 00:25:17,599
Do you have money?
301
00:25:19,685 --> 00:25:21,478
-No.
-Can you get money?
302
00:25:23,230 --> 00:25:24,523
What about your sisters
or your brother?
303
00:25:25,691 --> 00:25:28,694
-Do you think you can call them?
-I'll get some. Okay?
304
00:25:29,903 --> 00:25:33,782
And I'm gonna fix this. I'm gonna
get us a place to stay tonight.
305
00:25:33,866 --> 00:25:35,868
Tomorrow, too.
306
00:25:36,326 --> 00:25:38,037
And I'm gonna get you clean again.
307
00:25:38,996 --> 00:25:41,957
And I'm gonna be right here,
right there with you.
308
00:25:43,292 --> 00:25:45,544
All the way,
just like you were for me, okay?
309
00:25:47,379 --> 00:25:49,214
And we're gonna find a new place.
310
00:25:50,674 --> 00:25:51,675
| promise.
311
00:25:59,099 --> 00:26:00,434
You got anything left?
312
00:26:05,522 --> 00:26:06,523
Yeah.
313
00:26:15,074 --> 00:26:16,909
That should get us most of the way.
314
00:26:23,665 --> 00:26:25,334
Come on. Come on.
315
00:26:28,170 --> 00:26:30,130
You got some balls, man.
316
00:26:30,339 --> 00:26:32,174
How long did you wait this morning?
317
00:26:32,299 --> 00:26:33,550
Before hopping the wall?
318
00:26:33,884 --> 00:26:34,885
Not long.
319
00:26:35,511 --> 00:26:37,054
| still can't believe
you came after me.
320
00:26:39,098 --> 00:26:41,225
Well, my sister kinda told me to.
321
00:26:42,184 --> 00:26:44,686
No, not really. She...
322
00:26:46,688 --> 00:26:48,273
We're kind of in each other's heads.
323
00:26:48,357 --> 00:26:50,526
IR M LG FEN
since we were kids.
324
00:26:51,151 --> 00:26:53,570
It's a twin thing.
325
00:26:54,071 --> 00:26:55,405
You know, once |...
326
00:26:55,989 --> 00:26:57,199
Once | broke my foot...
327
00:26:58,450 --> 00:26:59,451
And...
328
00:26:59,743 --> 00:27:02,621
And Nell called me a few
minutes later, and she was just...
329
00:27:03,080 --> 00:27:06,750
She was just watching TV,
and her ankle just went nuts.
330
00:27:07,251 --> 00:27:08,669
It hurt like hell.
331
00:27:08,752 --> 00:27:10,879
She had no idea why.
She iced it for an hour.
332
00:27:10,963 --> 00:27:12,673
-Bullshit.
-No, it's a true story.
333
00:27:16,426 --> 00:27:18,178
You know, there are...
334
00:27:19,805 --> 00:27:22,266
There are moments
you kind of remind me of her.
335
00:27:24,893 --> 00:27:25,894
And she...
336
00:27:27,646 --> 00:27:30,107
You know...
She's always believed in me.
337
00:27:30,190 --> 00:27:31,191
Not. ..
338
00:27:31,525 --> 00:27:33,068
The rest of the family, not so much,
339
00:27:33,152 --> 00:27:36,822
but the only other person
that believed in me like that was you.
340
00:27:39,700 --> 00:27:41,201
So yeah, of course | came.
341
00:27:41,869 --> 00:27:43,620
It's what you would've done for me.
342
00:27:48,625 --> 00:27:49,960
Fuck.
343
00:27:50,836 --> 00:27:51,837
You okay?
344
00:27:53,005 --> 00:27:54,006
Yeah, I'm...
345
00:27:54,798 --> 00:27:56,675
| don't know. I'm cold...
346
00:27:57,968 --> 00:28:01,263
Listen, when we...
When we get there, just hang back.
347
00:28:01,346 --> 00:28:03,182
| don't want her to see your eyes.
348
00:28:03,891 --> 00:28:05,392
-She'll know, okay?
-Yeah.
349
00:28:07,519 --> 00:28:09,563
She always fucking knows.
350
00:28:34,254 --> 00:28:36,215
SN Y
-Hey, Leigh.
351
00:28:36,673 --> 00:28:37,674
How you doing?
352
00:28:39,384 --> 00:28:42,638
This is a... Surprise.
353
00:28:43,513 --> 00:28:44,640
What are you...
354
00:28:46,225 --> 00:28:47,601
-How are you?
-I'm good.
355
00:28:47,893 --> 00:28:51,939
I'm really, really good.
Ninety days good, in fact.
356
00:28:52,022 --> 00:28:53,106
That's really great.
357
00:28:54,858 --> 00:28:56,443
| can tell. You look different.
358
00:28:56,526 --> 00:28:57,611
Thank you.
359
00:28:58,278 --> 00:29:01,823
S0 good, | got a day pass.
Is Steve here?
360
00:29:02,157 --> 00:29:03,325
No, he isn't.
361
00:29:03,408 --> 00:29:05,577
Is he... Well, is he coming back soon?
362
00:29:05,661 --> 00:29:07,829
| just kinda need to talk to him
about something.
363
00:29:07,913 --> 00:29:09,122
He didn't tell you.
364
00:29:09,706 --> 00:29:10,707
Tell me what?
365
00:29:10,999 --> 00:29:13,252
No, Steve is not coming back soon.
Maybe ever.
366
00:29:13,335 --> 00:29:14,753
He doesn't live here anymore.
367
00:29:15,212 --> 00:29:16,838
Wait, what? What?
368
00:29:18,048 --> 00:29:19,716
We separated a month ago.
369
00:29:21,969 --> 00:29:23,095
Why? Why?
370
00:29:23,887 --> 00:29:26,098
| would really rather
not get into that.
371
00:29:30,435 --> 00:29:31,436
Okay.
372
00:29:35,399 --> 00:29:37,442
Listen, I'm clean.
373
00:29:37,734 --> 00:29:41,530
-Ninety days, like | said.
-And | said that's great.
374
00:29:44,283 --> 00:29:45,617
Leigh, | need to borrow some money.
375
00:29:45,701 --> 00:29:46,785
SV =W =h
-Jesus, Luke.
376
00:29:46,868 --> 00:29:48,662
No, it's not like that. | just...
377
00:29:48,745 --> 00:29:51,331
We have been through this
over and over.
378
00:29:51,415 --> 00:29:54,293
It's for a hotel. Or if you could
just let us stay here...
379
00:29:54,376 --> 00:29:56,878
You know you can't do that.
You know that.
380
00:29:58,588 --> 00:29:59,589
Okay.
381
00:30:00,716 --> 00:30:02,968
Okay, can you...
382
00:30:04,052 --> 00:30:06,555
Can you just give me
Steve's address then, please?
383
00:30:07,431 --> 00:30:08,807
| think he's out of town.
384
00:30:11,059 --> 00:30:13,020
| mean, even if he wasn't...
385
00:30:14,271 --> 00:30:16,565
| am proud of you, | am.
386
00:30:17,274 --> 00:30:18,942
But you have to talk to Steven.
387
00:30:19,860 --> 00:30:21,361
You know what he's going to say.
388
00:30:21,820 --> 00:30:24,531
| really can't
deal with this right now.
389
00:30:24,614 --> 00:30:26,575
Things are bad enough.
390
00:30:27,284 --> 00:30:29,494
-You're not serious.
-lam. | am.
391
00:30:29,578 --> 00:30:32,331
They'll hang a toy phone
around your neck,
392
00:30:32,414 --> 00:30:34,207
and you have to wear it all day,
maybe longer.
393
00:30:34,291 --> 00:30:36,043
Like a child's toy phone?
394
00:30:36,126 --> 00:30:39,296
Yes, it's like The Scarlet Letter
for violating the phone rule.
395
00:30:39,379 --> 00:30:43,050
Improper use of a phone. They
catch you, you wear the phone, like,
396
00:30:43,133 --> 00:30:45,927
"Let this be a chilling example
to the others."
397
00:30:47,304 --> 00:30:48,305
You...
398
00:30:48,680 --> 00:30:50,557
You can't make calls
in the first 30 days
399
00:30:50,640 --> 00:30:52,684
unless a caseworker signs off, so...
400
00:30:52,768 --> 00:30:54,561
Well, that's a little harsh, isn't it?
401
00:30:54,644 --> 00:30:56,855
It's not as harsh as an overdose.
402
00:30:57,856 --> 00:30:59,483
| mean, addicts, we're...
403
00:30:59,649 --> 00:31:01,943
We're pretty slippery
in early recovery.
404
00:31:02,027 --> 00:31:04,696
That's why they confiscate
our cell phones, you know,
405
00:31:04,863 --> 00:31:06,865
In case someone was to call
a connection.
406
00:31:06,948 --> 00:31:07,949
Yeah.
407
00:31:08,033 --> 00:31:09,701
What if you want to call your mom?
408
00:31:09,785 --> 00:31:12,496
For some folks in there,
their connection is their mom.
409
00:31:12,579 --> 00:31:13,747
-Truly.
-It's true.
410
00:31:21,088 --> 00:31:22,756
S0, Luke tells me you're a writer.
411
00:31:24,049 --> 00:31:26,343
He did? I'm surprised he mentioned it.
412
00:31:27,052 --> 00:31:28,845
Where do you get your ideas from?
413
00:31:32,099 --> 00:31:34,601
| write about haunted houses, mostly.
414
00:31:35,018 --> 00:31:37,938
And haunted people. I'm afraid
there's no shortage of them.
415
00:31:38,271 --> 00:31:39,481
Must run in the family.
416
00:31:39,564 --> 00:31:41,441
| mean, Luke's a great writer, too.
417
00:31:41,525 --> 00:31:43,652
-Yeah?
-No, I'm not.
418
00:31:43,735 --> 00:31:46,530
Stop selling yourself short.
He's really talented.
419
00:31:46,613 --> 00:31:48,865
You should show them the one about
420
00:31:48,949 --> 00:31:52,160
the short story with the imaginary
little friend in the garden.
421
00:31:52,244 --> 00:31:54,454
-The one... Do you know that one?
-Yeah.
422
00:31:54,538 --> 00:31:56,248
-Abigail.
-Yeah.
423
00:31:56,373 --> 00:31:58,208
| put her in one of my books, too.
424
00:31:58,667 --> 00:32:01,545
Something tells me Luke
won't get as much blowback for his.
425
00:32:03,171 --> 00:32:05,006
IR E=Ta WA
426
00:32:05,090 --> 00:32:06,633
It's not anything, you know.
427
00:32:06,716 --> 00:32:08,844
| keep telling him
he should publish it.
428
00:32:09,136 --> 00:32:10,137
Off his name alone.
429
00:32:10,470 --> 00:32:12,556
Maybe get a sweet place
like this for himself.
430
00:32:12,848 --> 00:32:14,683
| mean, you guys...
This is so awesome.
431
00:32:14,766 --> 00:32:17,936
You guys got it all, man.
Where do you go from here?
432
00:32:19,563 --> 00:32:21,481
Nothing left to do except
433
00:32:21,606 --> 00:32:23,900
maybe fill this place up
with some kids, | guess.
434
00:32:28,405 --> 00:32:30,449
So is this your first rehab, Joey?
435
00:32:30,615 --> 00:32:32,409
It's far from it.
436
00:32:33,368 --> 00:32:36,246
Some of us are addicted
to treatment centers, huh?
437
00:32:36,663 --> 00:32:38,623
Not Luke's first rodeo either.
438
00:32:39,583 --> 00:32:42,085
So what's different this time?
Something must be.
439
00:32:42,169 --> 00:32:44,212
| mean, you know the definition
of insanity.
440
00:32:44,296 --> 00:32:45,297
Steve.
441
00:32:45,380 --> 00:32:47,299
Doing the same thing over and over
442
00:32:47,382 --> 00:32:50,135
and expecting different results.
Sure, man. Sure.
443
00:32:50,594 --> 00:32:52,679
They're all different, though.
Every day is different.
444
00:32:52,762 --> 00:32:55,015
Every... Craving is different.
445
00:32:55,098 --> 00:32:56,725
Every meeting is different.
446
00:32:57,184 --> 00:32:59,644
Right. I'm not trying to suggest
you're not taking it seriously.
447
00:33:00,854 --> 00:33:01,855
And I'm just...
448
00:33:02,063 --> 00:33:03,106
This time around...
449
00:33:04,024 --> 00:33:07,486
I'm just speaking for myself, like...
| got more support.
450
00:33:08,695 --> 00:33:10,155
And I'm giving more support.
451
00:33:12,782 --> 00:33:14,576
In a sense, | guess you could say...
452
00:33:15,076 --> 00:33:17,204
It looks like the same thing
over and over again,
453
00:33:17,287 --> 00:33:18,705
but that's not insanity.
454
00:33:19,122 --> 00:33:21,249
Out there on the streets,
that's insanity.
455
00:33:21,958 --> 00:33:22,959
@oo V15 T}
456
00:33:23,877 --> 00:33:25,962
So that's what recovery is, you know.
457
00:33:26,046 --> 00:33:28,673
It's the same thing
over and over again,
458
00:33:28,757 --> 00:33:30,592
in spite of the result, or...
459
00:33:30,884 --> 00:33:31,885
In spite of...
460
00:33:32,427 --> 00:33:35,430
A backslide or in spite
of a full-fledged fucking relapse.
461
00:33:37,891 --> 00:33:40,435
Doesn't mean you stop just ‘cause
it gets a little repetitive.
462
00:33:41,645 --> 00:33:42,646
One day at a time.
463
00:33:44,481 --> 00:33:45,815
When we decide to get clean,
464
00:33:45,899 --> 00:33:48,693
it's not because we expect it
to be fucking exciting, you know.
465
00:33:56,993 --> 00:33:59,454
Is it normal to bring a friend home
on a day pass?
466
00:33:59,579 --> 00:34:00,580
Yeah.
467
00:34:00,914 --> 00:34:01,998
It happens.
468
00:34:02,374 --> 00:34:04,459
| just never really
felt like it before.
469
00:34:04,543 --> 00:34:05,544
You must like her.
470
00:34:06,461 --> 00:34:07,671
| admire her.
471
00:34:08,588 --> 00:34:09,589
Don't you?
472
00:34:10,590 --> 00:34:12,592
| feel like
she's got her shit together.
473
00:34:12,801 --> 00:34:15,387
I'd think you'd want me to take
a page out of a book like that.
474
00:34:15,470 --> 00:34:18,348
Look, | get it. She's charming.
475
00:34:19,391 --> 00:34:21,142
She's articulate, she's funny.
476
00:34:21,643 --> 00:34:24,062
-Yeah.
-Disarming, you might say.
477
00:34:24,604 --> 00:34:26,147
You might even say "slick."
478
00:34:28,066 --> 00:34:29,067
Slick?
479
00:34:29,693 --> 00:34:30,860
Just saying.
480
00:34:31,486 --> 00:34:33,113
You know, she stayed up with me
481
00:34:33,697 --> 00:34:35,574
that first week
when | was coming down.
482
00:34:35,657 --> 00:34:37,951
You ever seen someone
in withdrawal, Steve?
483
00:34:38,034 --> 00:34:39,035
Nope.
484
00:34:39,661 --> 00:34:40,662
Well, it's hell.
485
00:34:41,371 --> 00:34:42,372
It's...
486
00:34:42,872 --> 00:34:44,541
You're freezing all the time.
487
00:34:44,624 --> 00:34:47,502
T INIV\Y
no air conditioning, freezing.
488
00:34:47,752 --> 00:34:50,547
Muscle aches, stiff as boards,
nausea, shakes.
489
00:34:50,672 --> 00:34:52,465
-l wouldn't know.
-Well, she does.
490
00:34:52,549 --> 00:34:53,758
Because she was there.
491
00:34:54,426 --> 00:34:56,553
And she talked me through it.
She rode it out with me.
492
00:34:57,554 --> 00:34:59,431
Wow. Awesome.
493
00:35:01,308 --> 00:35:02,809
Fuck. Steve...
494
00:35:03,893 --> 00:35:06,980
I'm not asking
for her hand in marriage.
495
00:35:07,063 --> 00:35:08,815
| just wanted to bring
a friend to dinner,
496
00:35:08,898 --> 00:35:10,066
and you're not even
giving her a chance.
497
00:35:10,150 --> 00:35:11,151
No, | guess I'm not.
498
00:35:11,234 --> 00:35:13,236
-Why not?
-I'm fresh out of those.
499
00:35:14,487 --> 00:35:15,697
| gave 'em all to you.
500
00:35:17,324 --> 00:35:18,325
Wow.
501
00:35:18,908 --> 00:35:20,452
| just want you to be careful, is all.
502
00:35:20,535 --> 00:35:22,037
I'm doing good, Steve.
503
00:35:22,329 --> 00:35:25,290
Anyway, she's a good person.
She's a good influence.
504
00:35:26,458 --> 00:35:29,919
Just because someone's a good person,
just because you care about them...
505
00:35:30,545 --> 00:35:32,213
Doesn't mean they won't burn you.
506
00:35:33,673 --> 00:35:35,216
You're a good person, Luke.
507
00:35:35,300 --> 00:35:36,301
And | love you.
508
00:35:37,427 --> 00:35:38,428
And...
509
00:35:38,887 --> 00:35:39,888
You know.
510
00:35:42,515 --> 00:35:43,516
Thanks, Steve.
511
00:35:45,894 --> 00:35:49,147
You know, I'm so glad
we got to share this milestone.
512
00:35:49,773 --> 00:35:50,815
That's all | wanted.
513
00:35:50,899 --> 00:35:53,068
Thirty days clean, so you can
make me feel like shit again.
514
00:35:55,737 --> 00:35:57,322
SR X
-Fuck you.
515
00:36:10,210 --> 00:36:12,754
Jesus, Steve.
It's fucking freezing in here.
516
00:36:36,861 --> 00:36:38,571
Fother mucker.
517
00:36:47,706 --> 00:36:48,707
SV NILCY
518
00:36:51,793 --> 00:36:53,336
Hey, Steve.
519
00:36:57,799 --> 00:37:00,218
Look, this isn't what it looks like.
520
00:37:01,094 --> 00:37:02,095
Are you cold?
521
00:37:02,345 --> 00:37:03,346
Yeah.
522
00:37:04,973 --> 00:37:06,391
How'd you know where to find me?
523
00:37:09,894 --> 00:37:12,856
Tell you what,
I've got 200 bucks here.
524
00:37:13,273 --> 00:37:14,816
You hand me that iPad,
525
00:37:14,899 --> 00:37:17,235
you can keep the cash
and sell that old camera.
526
00:37:17,652 --> 00:37:19,696
But, | need the iPad, you know?
527
00:37:20,196 --> 00:37:21,239
It stays here.
528
00:37:30,749 --> 00:37:31,750
Hey.
529
00:37:32,250 --> 00:37:33,251
Hey.
530
00:37:33,334 --> 00:37:35,670
Oh, my God. | saw him walking in.
| thought you were fucked.
531
00:37:35,754 --> 00:37:36,755
It's all good.
532
00:37:40,091 --> 00:37:41,885
Should be enough for a night,
maybe two.
533
00:37:42,677 --> 00:37:44,345
And some food. Here.
534
00:37:48,016 --> 00:37:49,517
Amazing, Luke.
535
00:37:49,601 --> 00:37:51,019
Amazing.
536
00:37:52,437 --> 00:37:55,523
Goddammit, it's cold tonight.
Are you cold?
537
00:37:56,941 --> 00:37:58,193
Where are we? Seventh?
538
00:37:58,276 --> 00:37:59,486
Yeah, almost.
539
00:37:59,569 --> 00:38:00,945
It's a few more blocks.
540
00:38:01,029 --> 00:38:03,656
| want a clean hotel,
no junkies on the sidewalk.
541
00:38:03,740 --> 00:38:06,493
Man, | don't know if I'm gonna make it
a couple blocks without a piss.
542
00:38:07,911 --> 00:38:09,120
I'll just...
543
00:38:09,204 --> 00:38:11,873
Pop into the little jJunkies' room
and be back in a minute.
544
00:38:20,006 --> 00:38:21,049
You got a fever?
545
00:38:21,216 --> 00:38:23,009
Yeah, maybe.
546
00:38:23,802 --> 00:38:26,846
It's my arms and legs, you know.
Muscle aches.
547
00:38:26,971 --> 00:38:28,348
You know, I'm fine.
548
00:38:28,848 --> 00:38:30,058
Hey, I...
549
00:38:31,267 --> 00:38:32,268
Thank you.
550
00:38:34,938 --> 00:38:36,189
For coming after me.
551
00:38:39,234 --> 00:38:40,527
It means a lot.
552
00:38:41,319 --> 00:38:42,320
You're welcome.
553
00:38:51,621 --> 00:38:52,622
-What...
-It's okay.
554
00:39:02,173 --> 00:39:03,633
What are you doing?
555
00:39:04,717 --> 00:39:06,052
Be back in a flash.
556
00:39:09,764 --> 00:39:10,765
Okay.
557
00:39:33,413 --> 00:39:35,540
Come on, let's keep going.
558
00:39:43,047 --> 00:39:44,048
Joey!
559
00:39:52,265 --> 00:39:53,266
Joey!
560
00:40:02,525 --> 00:40:03,526
Fuck.
561
00:40:04,360 --> 00:40:05,361
Joey!
562
00:40:10,658 --> 00:40:11,659
Joey!
563
00:40:20,293 --> 00:40:21,294
Joey!
564
00:41:08,383 --> 00:41:09,550
Luke, addict.
565
00:41:12,971 --> 00:41:16,516
| actually don't know
what | want to say here.
566
00:41:16,891 --> 00:41:18,101
You know, l've...
567
00:41:18,393 --> 00:41:20,269
I've never had this much time before.
568
00:41:20,561 --> 00:41:21,688
You know, 90 days.
569
00:41:31,280 --> 00:41:32,490
So, here goes.
570
00:41:33,616 --> 00:41:37,495
It's taken me 10 years
to get 90 days clean.
571
00:41:38,579 --> 00:41:43,251
And I'm starting step four, which is
always the one that does me in.
572
00:41:44,877 --> 00:41:47,922
"A fearless moral in inventory."
573
00:41:50,425 --> 00:41:54,012
Now, I've been called
a lot of things in my life,
574
00:41:54,095 --> 00:41:57,306
but "fearless" is not one of them.
575
00:41:58,891 --> 00:42:01,936
You know, | was always
a scared little kid,
576
00:42:02,687 --> 00:42:04,355
and | thought...
577
00:42:04,689 --> 00:42:07,775
thought I'd get braver
as | got older, but...
578
00:42:09,027 --> 00:42:10,236
| didn't
579
00:42:14,782 --> 00:42:16,451
| just got scared of new things.
580
00:42:19,037 --> 00:42:23,082
My mom committed suicide
when | was six years old.
581
00:42:24,000 --> 00:42:27,295
And my siblings and |,
we were sent to live with our aunt,
582
00:42:27,378 --> 00:42:31,174
and, I mean, | was just
a kid, you know. | didn't...
583
00:42:32,675 --> 00:42:34,719
| didn't really understand death yet.
584
00:42:34,802 --> 00:42:39,766
So, | guess | just expected her to...
585
00:42:40,892 --> 00:42:41,893
To come back.
586
00:42:45,897 --> 00:42:47,440
And every night, I'd...
587
00:42:49,358 --> 00:42:52,528
I'd stare out my window
as the cars came around the corner,
588
00:42:52,612 --> 00:42:56,532
just hoping that one would stop,
and my mom would step out,
589
00:42:56,616 --> 00:42:58,284
you know, to come take me home.
590
00:42:59,035 --> 00:43:01,454
Every time | saw those headlights
come around the corner,
591
00:43:01,537 --> 00:43:03,706
I'd sit up In bed,
592
00:43:03,790 --> 00:43:07,752
staring out of my window,
just full of hope.
593
00:43:08,211 --> 00:43:11,798
One, two, three, four,
five, six, seven.
594
00:43:13,674 --> 00:43:16,219
But they'd just keep driving.
595
00:43:20,890 --> 00:43:22,892
Those ftaillights, they were the worst.
596
00:43:23,976 --> 00:43:26,521
Red eyes in the dark,
just taking hope with them.
597
00:43:29,982 --> 00:43:33,152
| mean, Mom,
she never came back, of course,
598
00:43:33,236 --> 00:43:35,571
but other things
from when | was a kid, they...
599
00:43:35,780 --> 00:43:36,948
They came back.
600
00:43:37,198 --> 00:43:38,616
And | guess that's...
601
00:43:39,951 --> 00:43:43,121
| guess that's why | started using
in the first place, you know.
602
00:43:44,288 --> 00:43:45,623
To keep those things away.
603
00:43:50,711 --> 00:43:52,672
And I'd get clean,
604
00:43:52,755 --> 00:43:54,465
you know, a week, a month.
605
00:43:55,299 --> 00:43:58,970
But I'd always feel 'em,
you know, just sneaking back up on me.
606
00:43:59,679 --> 00:44:02,181
-So I'd use.
-He's not real. He's not real.
607
00:44:02,682 --> 00:44:04,976
You know, my family,
they're not gonna believe this.
608
00:44:05,059 --> 00:44:06,519
They never really believe me.
609
00:44:07,061 --> 00:44:08,437
And | don't blame them.
610
00:44:08,521 --> 00:44:12,233
You know, | fucked them over
S0 many times. Lied, stole.
611
00:44:13,484 --> 00:44:15,778
| mean, come on,
you all know what | mean.
612
00:44:18,489 --> 00:44:19,824
And | guess...
613
00:44:23,619 --> 00:44:24,662
| guess I'll...
614
00:44:26,455 --> 00:44:30,334
I'll never know how it felt
for them to be done like that.
615
00:44:33,754 --> 00:44:34,755
| hope | never know.
616
00:44:39,177 --> 00:44:40,261
Sorry,
617
00:44:40,344 --> 00:44:43,014
| want to thank my caseworker, Paige.
618
00:44:44,390 --> 00:44:46,350
And everyone at our recovery house.
619
00:44:47,018 --> 00:44:48,853
And someone...
620
00:44:49,645 --> 00:44:53,024
Someone special,
who's always had my back.
621
00:44:53,900 --> 00:44:54,901
Thank you.
622
00:44:56,068 --> 00:44:57,236
Any addict alone...
623
00:44:58,404 --> 00:44:59,947
Is in bad company.
624
00:45:00,531 --> 00:45:02,116
That's right.
625
00:45:02,491 --> 00:45:03,492
Thank you.
626
00:45:12,752 --> 00:45:14,170
| couldn't help her.
627
00:45:15,880 --> 00:45:17,590
We've been waiting for you to call.
628
00:45:17,965 --> 00:45:19,759
There's something | need to tell you.
629
00:45:19,842 --> 00:45:22,678
Listen, | know | fucked up. Okay?
630
00:45:23,262 --> 00:45:25,806
But | didn't...
| didn't use. | didn't.
631
00:45:25,932 --> 00:45:28,142
And I'm so fucking cold,
632
00:45:28,226 --> 00:45:31,062
and my arms and legs are so stiff.
633
00:45:31,145 --> 00:45:32,146
| just, I...
634
00:45:33,606 --> 00:45:36,192
| need a bed, like a couch.
635
00:45:36,275 --> 00:45:38,527
I'll sleep
on the goddamn floor. Just...
636
00:45:38,611 --> 00:45:39,612
Please.
637
00:45:39,779 --> 00:45:42,365
Please, please
let me come back. Please.
638
00:45:43,491 --> 00:45:45,326
Where are you? We'll come get you.
639
00:45:47,203 --> 00:45:50,539
One, two, three, four,
640
00:45:50,623 --> 00:45:53,084
five, six, seven.
641
00:45:55,920 --> 00:46:00,883
One, two, three, four, five, six,
642
00:46:00,967 --> 00:46:01,968
Seven.
643
00:46:17,775 --> 00:46:18,776
Hey.
644
00:46:20,444 --> 00:46:21,487
NNV 1LY
645
00:46:21,862 --> 00:46:23,447
Well, yeah, 'cause...
646
00:46:23,698 --> 00:46:24,824
NNV 1LY
647
00:46:25,408 --> 00:46:26,742
| saw her again.
648
00:46:28,286 --> 00:46:29,537
The Bent-Neck Lady?
649
00:46:41,507 --> 00:46:43,676
Mommy and Daddy don't believe me.
650
00:46:44,552 --> 00:46:45,553
Ever.
651
00:46:48,014 --> 00:46:50,599
They say she's a nightmare,
IR N =1
652
00:46:50,683 --> 00:46:52,184
| know she is.
653
00:46:54,729 --> 00:46:55,980
| got an idea.
654
00:47:07,366 --> 00:47:10,828
You need seven,
and you set them up like this.
655
00:47:11,871 --> 00:47:12,913
Why seven?
656
00:47:13,748 --> 00:47:15,624
Mom, Dad,
657
00:47:16,208 --> 00:47:20,421
Steven, Shirl, Theo, you, me.
658
00:47:21,505 --> 00:47:23,090
It has to be seven.
659
00:47:23,799 --> 00:47:27,553
It helps if you touch each one
and count out loud.
660
00:47:29,180 --> 00:47:31,349
One, two,
661
00:47:31,932 --> 00:47:33,851
three, four,
662
00:47:34,560 --> 00:47:37,104
five, six, seven.
663
00:47:38,064 --> 00:47:39,482
That keeps you safe.
664
00:47:39,565 --> 00:47:41,776
Sometimes you gotta do it a lot.
665
00:47:41,859 --> 00:47:43,527
Like, a lot, a lot.
666
00:47:44,695 --> 00:47:46,072
Don't forget to count.
667
00:47:47,990 --> 00:47:48,991
One,
668
00:47:51,535 --> 00:47:52,536
three. ..
669
00:47:52,620 --> 00:47:55,498
Four, five, six, seven.
670
00:48:00,211 --> 00:48:05,091
One, two, three, four,
five, six, seven.
671
00:48:09,762 --> 00:48:14,141
One, two, three, four, five, six...
672
00:48:16,143 --> 00:48:17,144
Seven.
673
00:48:24,777 --> 00:48:29,907
One, two, three,
four, five, six, seven.
674
00:48:30,241 --> 00:48:35,162
One, two, three,
four, five, six, seven.
675
00:48:35,454 --> 00:48:38,040
One, two, three...
676
00:48:57,351 --> 00:48:58,769
Come home, my love.
677
00:49:23,002 --> 00:49:25,212
Steve.
678
00:49:28,132 --> 00:49:30,676
I'm so sorry, | didn't...
679
00:49:30,885 --> 00:49:33,429
| couldn't help her.
680
00:49:33,512 --> 00:49:35,264
| couldn't help her.
681
00:49:41,479 --> 00:49:45,024
And I'm so cold. | didn't. ..
682
00:49:46,609 --> 00:49:50,196
My arms and legs are stiff.
683
00:49:50,279 --> 00:49:51,489
And I...
684
00:49:52,823 --> 00:49:54,617
It's...
685
00:49:55,034 --> 00:49:57,161
It's like withdrawal, but...
686
00:49:57,661 --> 00:49:59,663
But | didn't use.
687
00:50:00,414 --> 00:50:02,416
| wasn't using, but...
688
00:50:03,250 --> 00:50:04,251
Butl...
689
00:50:04,585 --> 00:50:06,212
But | feel it anyway. It's...
690
00:50:09,548 --> 00:50:11,467
You believe me, right?
691
00:50:13,219 --> 00:50:14,678
You gotta come with me.
692
00:50:16,138 --> 00:50:18,098
You gotta come with me, Luke.
693
00:50:18,182 --> 00:50:19,308
What? Why?
694
00:50:19,683 --> 00:50:20,684
It's Nell.
695
00:50:24,480 --> 00:50:25,731
Nell's dead.
696
00:50:38,118 --> 00:50:39,119
How?
697
00:50:40,454 --> 00:50:42,331
It was suicide.
698
00:50:58,180 --> 00:50:59,181
NV
699
00:51:04,853 --> 00:51:05,854
It wasn't.
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