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♪We are both dim light♪

♪Will time erase us?♪

♪Those who fade away in the shadows silently♪

♪Also crave a life under the bright sun openly♪

♪How can I break free from the chains of fate?♪

♪Who whispers in my ear♪

♪That I'm bound to fall?♪

♪Then burn me♪

♪Burn my stubbornness♪

♪The surging bitterness♪

♪The hot tears♪

♪Nobody knows♪

♪Entangling in the past♪

♪Silence in the darkness♪

♪The dim light finally turns♪

[Kill Me Love Me]

♪Into the fire of rebirth♪

[Episode 32]

[Fengcao Pavilion]

Physician!

Physician,

she...

My Lord,

the Momai poison in Miss Mei Lin was never truly neutralized.

What did you say?

When I took her pulse,

I found her weakness

wasn't just from fatigue

but because the poison has eroded her heart.

This time, she vomited blood and fainted,

clear signs of the poison's onset.

She wished not to distract you, my Lord,

vowing to tell you

when the war ended.

How foolish,

always caring for others

yet neglecting yourself.

[Fengcao Pavilion]

Snow Dragon Whisker.

Snow Dragon Whisker comes with the snow.

If I find some,

she will be saved.

My Lord, there is none left.

After the great fire in Qingzhou,

the Snow Dragon Whisker has perished.

♪Time is so forgetful♪

♪The oblivious, still the same♪

♪Why should there be♪

♪Warm sunshine even in winter?♪

♪Why am I the only one left?♪

Your Highness,

though our men searched the snowy mountain,

no Snow Dragon Whisker remains.

♪My life has been bleak♪

♪You were once a ray of light♪

♪It's enough♪

♪To warm the long stretch of my past♪

Snow Dragon Whisker.

♪I face the moon in silent pose♪

♪Only then do I see it clearly♪

Why?

Why is it not the Snow Dragon Whisker?

♪I'm fearless and bold♪

♪Living life on the edge♪

♪Taking control of my own fate♪

Your Excellency.

Your Excellency,

Miss Mei Lin is awake.

♪Still, I long to keep you by my side♪

[Fengcao Pavilion]

♪I'm fearless and bold♪

My Lord,

I've suppressed the poison.

She may endure but a month more.

When she faints again,

she won't awaken.

♪I'm afraid you'll encounter the spring light♪

♪Tears welling♪

Jinghe.

Are you

alright now?

I feel great.

Whatever the medicine may be.

Now, I feel

better than before.

I will find the Snow Dragon Whisker.

I will find it.

You will.

Snow will come again.

You will find it.

It's my fault.

I brought this harm to you.

Jinghe.

I forgave you long ago.

The loss of the Snow Dragon Whisker

was merely fate.

Since it has happened,

don't use the past to torture yourself.

I hid my condition,

not only due to the war

but also

to save you

from hurting yourself because of me.

I don't want you to blame yourself or feel sad.

I'm grateful

for these moments by your side.

If this ending

is the price I have to pay

for meeting you,

I have no regrets.

[Fengcao Pavilion]

It's so tasty.

Let me try it.

Jinghe.

It's tasty.

Don't keep a straight face.

Smile a bit.

Isn't it fun for you to shop with me?

Smile again.

I look tanned. This suits me better.

Your skin is lighter.

It's the governor and Miss Hua.

His Excellency is here.

The governor?

Your Excellency.

Your Excellency,

try some home-grown sweet fruits.

Miss Hua, please take this jade pendant.

Your Excellency, my fruit cakes are sweet.

Your Excellency, Miss Hua,

please come visit my store.

Take whatever you like there.

We appreciate your kind gesture,

but we can't accept your things.

Your Excellency, you drove off the Xiyan army for Qingzhou.

We owe you thanks, Your Excellency.

- Indeed, Your Excellency. - Indeed, Your Excellency.

These are but humble offerings.

Indeed, Your Excellency.

Please take them.

Dear townsfolk.

They are home-grown.

Dear townsfolk,

these two fruits

represent your kind gesture.

We will take these.

But we wish to stroll today.

Please excuse us, dear townsfolk.

Okay.

Go ahead, Miss.

They look great together.

Look.

They look great together.

They look lovely.

Truly a fitting pair.

A perfect match.

Ten years ago,

this was a barren land

with only a crumbling temple

and beggars.

Do you know that I cured

a blind beggar's eyes?

How?

I threw a stone into the bowl

he used for begging.

He immediately opened his eyes.

How did you know he was pretending?

I noticed

that when copper coins were tossed into his bowl,

he offered simple thanks,

but when silver coins were given,

he would kowtow to the donor.

Curious how

he could gauge the amount

by sound alone,

so

I threw a stone,

and he was exposed.

How old were you then?

I was twelve.

I wish I had seen you then.

Qingzhou now is the finest I've ever seen.

Jinghe,

that's due to your efforts.

Once,

I watched Qingzhou burn, corpses strewn

across the land,

and that vision haunted me.

I couldn't understand

why one command

could bring ruin upon innocents.

However, after Qingzhou's recent trials,

I realized that a single order

can also shield many lives.

Jinghe,

your Weibei Army and you

safeguarded Qingzhou

and its people.

I once thought

joining the army meant fighting,

defending the country

meant winning battles.

Now, I see

the Weibei Army guards not just a city

but the lives

on this land.

So,

you'll continue

to protect them

and Qingzhou,

right?

Yet, Murong Jinghe

cannot shield Mei Lin.

Murong Jinghe,

you don't live to protect Mei Lin alone.

You live

to protect

millions of people like Mei Lin.

You're not allowed to cry.

No more tears.

Smile.

I like to see you smile.

I want to keep that smile in my memory.

Smile.

Do you still wish to be my live-in husband?

Let's marry.

Officer Li.

What can I do for you, Your Excellency?

Are the lovebirds

ready for the betrothal?

By Qingzhou custom,

the betrothal gifts

are all prepared.

When the townsfolk heard of Your Excellency's plans,

they offered many gifts,

filling the governor's mansion

and cake shops.

The war has just ended,

the people should not be disturbed.

Return their gifts.

Fear not, Your Excellency.

The offerings

are humble gifts from the countryside,

a sign of the townsfolk's blessings

for

Your Excellency and Miss Hua,

wishing you both joy.

Good to hear.

She must be anxious.

I should see her.

Your Excellency,

have you forgotten

today's significance?

[Qingzhou] In the 26th Year of Zhaoming,

Great Yan forged the Qingzhou Treaty

with Xiyan,

pledging mutual respect for borders

and vowing non-aggression.

For a century,

three emperors upheld this pact,

maintaining peace between the realms.

I still owe you gratitude for saving my life.

I did it for Qingzhou,

not you.

By the way,

I've heard Your Excellency

will wed in two days.

Congratulations.

Thank you.

This

is from Concubine Yan.

She kept it for you.

Brother,

I know

you now bear the title of Prince Heir,

bound by heavy duties.

You are not just my brother now,

so you can't come to see me.

I don't blame you.

Am I sensible now?

Brother,

are you weary?

If so, have some bamboo brew.

When you

become the king,

come to Zhaojing to see me.

I'll be waiting.

Also,

I dreamed of you.

In the dream, you carved a grand hobbyhorse

for the little prince.

Not to rush you.

I simply

miss you.

My dear, you are ever the sweetest.

[Fengcao Pavilion]

Your Excellency,

Qingzhou tradition says

newlyweds shouldn't meet the day before the wedding.

Does this apply to live-in husbands as well?

Yes, Your Excellency.

Mei awaits you tomorrow.

His Excellency can't bear to part with Mei for a second.

What did he say?

Only that His Excellency longs to see his bride.

These formalities are unnecessary.

In Qingzhou, the ritual is simple.

One places a wooden stick on the door

and shares a meal with neighbors.

That's all.

A wedding should not be simple.

It's a once-in-a-lifetime occasion,

deserving grandeur.

Yes.

Yi,

when it's your turn to marry,

we'll throw you a grand wedding.

I won't marry.

I'll stay at the spice house.

You will support me forever.

In your dreams!

If you won't,

Mei will.

Mei,

I'm getting better

at making Dengguo cakes.

The cake shop now has a live-in husband

and won't need your help.

You should

stay at the spice house.

Jinghe can only audit accounts.

If he bakes,

my shop will close.

I'm counting on you for my cake shop, Yi.

Certainly.

Look how smug you are.

Mei, teach me.

Teach me too.

Okay.

Start from here.

And then do this.

Look, the pattern you cut is crooked.

[Escort Team]

Look.

A couple is being wed.

Really?

Look at the big bridal sedan.

Look at that.

Is that the governor?

Are you seeing things?

Why would the governor be in the bridal sedan?

That's the governor.

Didn't you know?

Today

is His Excellency's big day

to become a live-in husband.

His Excellency's way

is certainly different from ours.

Do you think

these are betrothal gifts

or a dowry?

Is this color too bright for me?

You always dress plainly.

You should stand out today.

It's perfect.

You look nice.

[Governor's Mansion]

Great.

[Escort Team]

Great.

Welcome the groom!

Miss.

♪In February♪

Let's make a bet.

If I can grow Red Fruits,

you will marry me.

I won't bet.

I won't be married off.

I'll just take a live-in husband.

♪Rapeseed flowers bloom all over the field♪

♪Willow leaves are like green silk cuttings♪

♪In February♪

♪The peach blossoms are red♪

♪The apricot flowers are white♪

♪Rapeseed flowers bloom all over the field♪

♪Willow leaves are like green silk cuttings♪

Bow to each other.

The ceremony is complete.

Great.

Escort the groom to the bridal room.

Your Excellency,

please

enter the bridal room.

Great.

Great.

Go back and wait for me.

Don't drink too much.

Jinghe.

Let's drink together.

Okay.

Let's drink together.

Okay.

Bottoms up.

Cheers.

Delicious.

More.

The stars shine so bright tonight.

Father,

Mother,

are you watching over me?

I got married today.

Rest assured.

Even if you marry,

your father and I

would never let you be mistreated.

Father,

Mother,

I swear

to care for Mei.

Big Guy,

Mei is married today.

You must have seen it, right?

Big Guy,

I miss you.

I miss your Dengguo wine.

Wei will see it.

Wei,

don't worry.

I'll always stay by Jia's side.

She won't be alone

with me here.

Wei,

Qingyan,

and Your Highness,

we all think of you.

You must be pleased

to see harmony and joy

on earth.

They are.

You had

a bit too much to drink tonight.

I only drank a little.

You just married into my family.

You've started to discipline me.

I wouldn't dare discipline.

I'm but a live-in husband,

none would dare discipline his wife.

♪I am still♪

♪Wandering in your eyes♪

♪March flowers scent the hem of my dress♪

Jinghe,

♪My worries fall like dust♪

you look quite dashing.

♪How I look forward♪

Not as much as my beloved wife.

♪I am still♪

♪Waiting through your years♪

♪Who can truly understand the joy and sorrow of life?♪

♪When will spring flowers bloom again?♪

♪The snow is all over the sky♪

♪How to bury♪

♪Unwavering love♪

♪I am still♪

♪Waiting through your years♪

♪Who can truly understand the joy and sorrow of life?♪

♪When will spring flowers bloom again?♪

♪The snow is all over the sky♪

♪How to bury♪

♪Unwavering love♪

Zigu,

it's snowing in the capital.

In Xiyan,

it must snow too.

I will send you

home.

You can't bear to leave me.

♪Meeting is difficult, and love easily drifts away♪

Okay.

You don't need to leave.

You don't need to leave.

I too cannot bear parting.

♪Yearning drifts with the enduring wind♪

♪Cross mountains and rivers for you♪

♪Can't wait for you to look back♪

♪Irrelevant♪

♪Love is a spring flower, easily crushed♪

♪We spend our entire lives♪

[Wan'an Hall]

♪To seek in vain♪

♪We seek and lose, leaving only a sigh♪

We've reclaimed Youwen Ridge.

We can now build a road

between Qingzhou and Mozhou,

easing travel for all.

[Memorial Tablet of Deceased Husband Murong Xuanlie]

It's forbidden to drink here,

so I'll raise water as wine.

It's been long since we drank together.

♪Dreamy like dispersing smoke♪

♪Meeting is difficult, and love easily drifts away♪

Do you never think of me?

Or want me to forget you?

Why never visit me in my dreams?

[Memorial Tablet of Deceased Husband Murong Xuanlie]

But, know this,

I don't want to forget you.

♪Can't wait for you to look back♪

Return

and see me once more.

♪We spend our entire lives♪

I order you...

♪To seek in vain♪

♪We seek and lose, leaving only a sigh♪

♪A sigh for the fleeting nature of time♪

to come back.

♪Even exhausting deep feelings end in loneliness♪

♪Destiny wrongly arranges love, hate, joy, and sorrow♪

♪We are bound to have regrets♪

Are you done gazing at me?

I could never tire

of watching my beloved.

[Fengcao Pavilion]

The clothes are ready.

I have one condition.

Give me another painting.

[Fengcao Pavilion]

It's snowing.

Jinghe,

I have but one wish,

may you

live well

and long.

Jinghe,

I will

always,

always

be with you.

When you miss me,

just call out.

♪The wind scatters the spring flowers♪

♪The dream was filled with sorrow for the entire night♪

♪Troubled thoughts shatter into a sky full of stars♪

I will

hear you.

♪If fate is too unbearable♪

♪I am mired in the mud♪

♪Love is helpless♪

♪Falling into the abyss♪

♪If life is♪

♪A predetermined sorrow♪

♪Love is♪

♪An endless wandering♪

♪A place in the heart♪

♪From which there is no return♪

♪It's a vain hope♪

♪It's in imagination♪

♪It's the distinguished light♪

Jinghe,

if not for the fire in Qingzhou,

how would

we have met?

The sun would've shone bright

that day.

General!

General Weibei!

General Weibei!

General is back.

General!

General Weibei.

General!

General!

General Weibei!

General!

General!

General Weibei!

[Spring Flower Cake Shop]

I never saw

what General Weibei looked like.

Does he look fierce?

Does he have a mustache?

General,

we won the fight.

When will you wed?

The brothers await the wedding wine.

Who says I'll wed?

Stop pretending.

I've heard

you promised the Empress

you'd return to the capital and wed after defeating Xiyan.

I only said that to appease my mother.

I won't get married.

Marriage has no appeal to me.

Forget if he's mustached or not.

Remember this:

he's Qingzhou's great hero, and that is enough.

Come now. Stop playing that.

We've fruit cakes to deliver.

Hurry.

A great hero?

Yes.

Mother,

I wish to join the army,

to battle like General Weibei!

The battle will claim your life.

This isn't a game.

Cease your nonsense

and get to work.

I'm unafraid!

But Liu Dajiang says marriage is wonderful.

He even trains

with such vigor now.

I caught him secretly shedding tears at home the other day.

What do you know?

When a woman worries,

it's more troublesome than a mother's scolding.

Moreover,

we are men.

How can we be bound

by fleeting emotions?

Wild girl,

you're untamed

and fearless.

Who would marry you?

You'll remain home forever.

So what if no one marries me?

I'll have Father find me a live-in husband!

Good idea.

Mother,

your stone hairpin as the dowry then?

Give it back!

Crazy girl,

give it back to me!

I will tell my mother

I'm only...

Miss,

your stone hairpin.

Even if the Qingzhou fire hadn't happened,

fate

would eventually bring us together.

[The end]

In the 29th year of Zhaoming,

Emperor Murong Qian abdicated.

Murong Jinghe ascended the throne,

taking the era name Zhenyuan.

In Murong Jinghe's decade-long reign,

he appointed the wise and diligent,

bringing prosperity to Yan.

The Yan Dynasty grew stronger,

the economy thrived,

and the people enjoyed peace,

known as

the Prosperous Zhenyuan Era.

[Zhenyuan Era, Year 10]

[Fengcao Pavilion]

♪The wind scatters the spring flowers♪

♪The dream was filled with sorrow for the entire night♪

♪Troubled thoughts shatter into a sky full of stars♪

♪If fate is too unbearable♪

♪I am mired in the mud♪

♪Love is helpless♪

♪Falling into the abyss♪

♪If life is♪

♪A predetermined sorrow♪

♪Love is♪

♪An endless wandering♪

♪A place in the heart♪

♪From which there is no return♪

♪It's a vain hope♪

♪It's in imagination♪

His Majesty now inspects Qingzhou,

sitting daily to admire the view.

Is this Red Fruit tree

truly so lovely?

He gazes at the tree, but his thoughts drift elsewhere.

His Majesty

planted it together with the late Empress.

What kind of woman was the late Empress?

For her, His Majesty keeps no harem,

appointing his nephew as Crown Prince.

She was indeed exceptional.

They say

His Majesty was once her live-in husband.

Is that so?

Mei Lin,

at last, we meet again.

♪Troubled thoughts shatter into a sky full of stars♪

♪If fate is too unbearable♪

♪I am mired in the mud♪

♪Love is helpless♪

♪Falling into the abyss♪

♪If life is♪

♪A predetermined sorrow♪

Your Majesty!

Your Majesty!

Your Majesty.

Your Majesty!

Your Majesty.

Your Majesty.

Your Majesty.

Your Majesty.

Your Majesty!

Your Majesty.

♪It's a vain hope♪

♪It's in imagination♪

Your Majesty.

Your Majesty.

Your Majesty.

♪The wind scatters the spring flowers♪

♪The dream was filled with sorrow for the entire night♪

♪Troubled thoughts shatter into a sky full of stars♪

♪If fate is too unbearable♪

♪I am mired in the mud♪

♪Love is helpless falling into the abyss♪

♪If life is a predetermined sorrow♪

♪Love is an endless wandering♪

♪A place in the heart from which there is no return♪

♪It's a vain hope, it's in imagination♪

♪It's the distinguished light♪

♪If life is a predetermined sorrow♪

♪Love is an endless wandering♪

♪A place in the heart from which there is no return♪

♪It's a vain hope, it's in imagination♪

♪It's the distinguished light♪

♪If life is a predetermined sorrow♪

♪Love is an endless wandering♪

♪A place in the heart from which there is no return♪

♪It's a vain hope, it's in imagination♪

♪It's the distinguished light♪

♪It's a vain hope, it's in imagination♪

♪It's the distinguished light♪