Original subtitles

♪We are both dim light♪

♪Will time erase us?♪

♪Those who fade away in the shadows silently♪

♪Also crave a life under the bright sun openly♪

♪How can I break free from the chains of fate?♪

♪Who whispers in my ear♪

♪That I'm bound to fall?♪

♪Then burn me♪

♪Burn my stubbornness♪

♪The surging bitterness♪

♪The hot tears♪

♪Nobody knows♪

♪Entangling in the past♪

♪Silence in the darkness♪

♪The dim light finally turns♪

[Kill Me Love Me]

♪Into the fire of rebirth♪

[Episode 17]

[Fengyi Palace]

A lot has been going on in the palace today.

I heard you're suffering from a headache.

These pearls were nurtured

beneath the ice in the coldest regions.

They are the most nourishing.

I hope this string of pearls

can alleviate Your Highness's pain.

You may leave.

I appreciate your kind gesture.

But my pain is a chronic ailment.

The imperial physician said

that curing a chronic illness requires patience.

The death of Prince Jing

is also a chronic illness for Luomei.

You need to give her some more time.

Your Highness,

since it's a chronic illness,

it should be eradicated.

Your Highness, you know

the military power of the Pingnan Army

is a reliance for the Yin family,

but for Luomei, it is a burden.

One day, she will remove

this burden for the sake of her husband's family.

Your Highness, you have no son.

What will you do in the palace

by then?

The royal family most dreads the relatives by marriage taking power.

How can I believe

that you will treat the Yin family favorably

after you ascend to power?

My feelings for Luomei are obvious to all.

If you're willing to help me,

her heart

will eventually belong to me.

If I do not strive for it now,

I'm afraid

I will regret it for the rest of my life.

It's said

that dried Tianjing Grass

is more delicious

when cooked.

Can we wait for it to dry?

With such weather,

it will become dry in three or four days.

Brother, it's my turn.

Brother, it's my turn.

It's my turn.

Brother, it's my turn.

Erniu,

come down.

Let your sister play for a while.

No!

Erniu,

as a man, you should give in to your sister.

No.

Erya,

come.

♪My heart is actually your♪

♪Rippling♪

♪Past events are like rain, creating ripples♪

The wheat is fragrant.

Tianjing Grass fills the storehouse.

The wheat is fragrant.

Tianjing Grass fills the storehouse.

You have a dirty face.

Don't run.

- Run! - Erya!

Run!

♪Stick together through thick and thin♪

Don't run.

♪It's you♪

♪Who have witnessed the joys and sorrows♪

♪Yet you remain as steadfast as ever♪

♪I am♪

♪Your only love♪

♪I am still♪

♪Wandering in your eyes♪

You've got something on your face.

What is it?

Here.

You are laughing.

♪How I look forward♪

♪To the future with you♪

Come over.

♪I am still♪

Don't run.

The ground is covered with mud.

Stop!

Don't chase me.

Don't chase me.

♪When will spring flowers bloom again?♪

♪The snow is all over the sky♪

♪How to bury♪

When you were little,

you must be very naughty.

I wasn't just very naughty.

I was good at fighting.

I once knocked out two teeth

of the fat boy who lived next door to us.

I was only eight at that time.

Why?

He scared my mother with a dead mouse.

Later, when my mother found out that I had beaten him,

she chased me to beat me for a day.

It seems

that the only person who could discipline you is your mother.

Actually, my mother never really hit me hard.

She just put on a show to scare me.

I guess all mothers are the same.

That's not true.

Every time my mother used the paddle on me,

she really meant it.

One time,

she nearly crippled me.

You must have made

an unforgivable grave mistake.

I just skipped school.

When I was a child, I disliked studying.

Once,

I drugged my teacher at the school with a sedative,

knocking him unconscious for two days.

When my mother found out,

she gave me a severe punishment.

You deserved to be beaten.

You say you disliked studying.

But I found you are good at calligraphy and painting.

My mother hoped

that I could learn more poetry and etiquette

and become more composed.

But I

have always aspired to be a general.

So I didn't have much time to sit down

and write or recite books.

After the great fire in Qingzhou,

I became a cripple.

All day long,

I was either in the wheelchair or on the bed.

At that time,

besides painting,

I played Go.

I didn't expect

I fulfilled my mother's wish in the end.

If Her Majesty had known it,

she would feel very sorry.

What about you?

Given your temperament,

I doubt you could stay

in the fruit cake shop for long.

Of course, I couldn't.

But every day,

I just loved to sit there

watching my mother making fruit cakes.

You were craving the fruit cakes, right?

Of course.

Whenever my mother made fruit cakes,

she always saved the ones with the most filling for me.

Your mother treated you so well.

No wonder

you just want to get a live-in husband.

If the Qingzhou fire hadn't happened,

what would happen

if I met you?

Luomei,

you are a general of Great Yan.

What you shoulder

is different from others.

You shouldn't continue to grieve and be dejected

over someone who has passed away.

Don't worry, Aunt.

Tomorrow, I'll return to the training ground to drill the troops,

and I will not be negligent.

Well...

You know I'm not talking about military affairs,

but rather your marriage.

You just said you came here today to pray and relax.

A Buddhist temple is a place of peace and quiet,

and it's not suitable to discuss such worldly matters here.

I'm tired.

Let's go to the side hall to have a rest.

[Wan'an Hall]

Wan'an Hall?

I don't know

when this Wan'an Hall was built here.

Let's go

take a look.

Luomei,

today's military report informed me that you led only a dozen light cavalry

[In the 17th year of the Zhaoming era]

to launch a sneak attack on the enemy's scout camp at night.

My heart sank as if falling into an ice cave

and then burned as if doused with fire oil.

I keep thinking of how you are diligently engaged in your duties,

both day and night.

Luomei,

learning that you would soon return to the capital with your troops

filled me with joy.

However, yesterday I heard that my father was worried

about the unrest in Baiyue and has already sent an urgent decree,

ordering you to divert and pacify the disturbance.

This means it will be

several more months before I can see you again.

General,

this Wan'an Hall was built by His Highness for one person.

The deities enshrined inside are all to ensure the safety of that one person.

Apart from His Highness,

there are no other worshippers.

[Hoping to ensure Luomei's safe and unobstructed journey]

Luomei,

going to battle for our country is your heartfelt wish.

I cannot ride alongside you

nor guarantee

that there will be no wars

or injuries.

I beseech the gods and Buddhas.

Yin Luomei cares for the people

and disregards her own safety.

I don't ask for much.

I spent the night copying scriptures

to accumulate blessings,

hoping to ensure Luomei's safe and unobstructed journey

and peace in all matters.

Since your first battle,

the Crown Prince has been praying for your safety,

and this practice has never ceased over the years.

It seems

I misjudged the Crown Prince,

mistaking his genuine concern

for a desire for military power.

I believe

in His Higness' genuine concern.

Now that you believe in it,

you should agree to this marriage.

I've told you

that in the imperial family, there is no love,

only favor.

But the Crown Prince truly cares about you,

which makes it a really good marriage for you.

His Highness is very nice.

I just haven't made up my mind.

If Prince Jing were still alive,

I would never force you.

But the imperial edict for the arranged marriage has been issued.

You have to

get married anyway.

If you cannot be with the one you love,

just find a man

who truly loves and protects you.

Giving the man around you a chance

means giving yourself

a chance.

[Prayer for Blessings in the 20th Year of Zhaoming]

Let her be alone and think about it.

Thank you for your help, Your Highness.

Your Highness,

please remember your promise.

[Wan'an Hall]

[Wan'an Hall]

Your Highness,

when did you arrive?

I saw you were inside and didn't want to disturb you.

So I've been waiting here.

So you have done so much for me, Your Highness.

But I am unable to give you the same in return.

Do you know that my father wants to reclaim

the Yin family's military power through your marriage?

If you are willing to marry me,

I will do my best to protect the Yin family for you and your aunt.

But if I were to use your genuine feelings

to protect the Yin family,

that would be unfair to you.

Luomei,

I...

It doesn't matter.

You don't have to agree now.

But I hope you can remember

that what I said to you

forever counts.

[Wan'an Hall]

May the gods and Buddhas witness

that I built this temple with no selfish intentions.

But as a mortal,

I have ultimately given in to greed,

desiring to keep my beloved by my side.

If my wishes come true,

even if I were to fall

into eternal hell after death,

I would accept it with contentment.

General,

the Crown Prince sent these to you

to congratulate you on returning to the capital.

The best place to watch it has shifted.

In this world, everything changes.

Clinging to childhood memories

will make you miss even better sights.

I've never forgotten your ambition.

Even if you become the Empress,

the military power will remain yours.

You'll still be General Yin,

and I'll never confine you to the harem.

The legend about the red foxes in Lushan is true.

As long as I, Murong Xuanlie, am alive,

I won't let anything

upset you.

Good boy,

you're so well-behaved.

Tasty.

I'll give you more since you are so obedient.

Is it tasty?

Tasty.

I'll give you more if you are obedient.

Okay. You'll get more later.

How much longer does he have to take this medicine?

It's hard to tell.

Based on the current condition,

it'll be at least ten days.

Make him sober as soon as possible

as long as the medicine doesn't kill him.

Each day Prince Jing remains outside

is another day of danger for him.

Don't worry. I understand.

[My Lord, it'll take ten more days to cure Li Qing.]

My Lord,

it'll take ten more days to cure Li Qing.

Mei,

Qingyan said

Li Qing would be cured

in ten days.

Great!

I like the gloves

you made for me very much.

Look at this.

Does it look like the Dengguo in Qingzhou?

It's called Red Fruit in Laowozi Village.

The ones picked early in the morning are the freshest.

You got up so early these days.

Did you not sleep well at night?

Rise with the sun.

Rest at sunset.

I like the life here

very much.

After avenging Qingzhou,

I want to continue

such a life forever.

What about you?

How did you sleep recently?

Do we need to catch fireflies for lighting?

No.

I had no nightmares these days.

Really?

Mei Lin.

Mei Lin.

Big Brother.

Liu.

Well,

Mei,

when no one is around,

don't call me Big Brother.

I feel awkward.

Awkward?

What should I call you then?

Whatever, you can call me anything.

In all,

just don't call me Big Brother.

Mu

Rong

Jinghe.

Fine.

Just call me by my name.

Murong Jinghe,

I'm off to work.

Are you going to dry Tianjing Grass?

I'll go with you.

I'm feeling much better now.

I can work

a bit with you.

Let's go.

Miss, Sir,

you don't need to go.

This basket is for Madam Wang.

Thank you, Wei.

Mei,

what do you like to eat?

Me?

Mei?

It's the annual Spring Harvest Banquet of Laowozi Village in a few days.

Each family will prepare a dish. It'll be very lively.

Mei,

I'll cook

whatever you like to eat.

Wei, I...

Mei loves dragon meat.

Dragon?

What is it like?

I've never seen any dragon.

Wei,

my brother loves talking nonsense.

Don't listen to him.

I like all kinds of food. Everything is fine.

Mei

is picky about people.

If she doesn't like the man,

whatever he cooks,

she won't like it.

What does Brother-in-law mean?

If she dislikes the man, she won't like the food he makes.

But Mei told me she likes all kinds of food just now.

Could it be

that Mei also likes me?

I got it.

What did you get?

You understood it wrongly.

What's going on with Wei?

There's something wrong about him.

Stay away from him.

There's something wrong with the way he looks at you.

What's wrong with it?

Where are you going?

I'm going to catch a dragon.

- It smells good. - Yeah.

My husband never cooks.

This man looks nice.

I heard he can do needlework.

He is very handsome.

Is he married?

My sister-in-law isn't married yet.

We can ask him later.

Right.

Sir, please wait.

Erniu's mother says you...

I'm married.

Married?

You heard it, didn't you?

Madam Wang said

his family suffered a calamity. I'm afraid his wife was...

My wife is very fine,

and I'll only love her

in my lifetime.

Thank you for the kitchen.

This is her favorite snake broth.

I need to send it to her while it's hot.

Well...

His...

Is his wife also in the village?

Isn't he here just with his sister?

Sister?

Wei,

these are...

These are all betrothal gifts for you.

I want to marry you.

I can hunt

and farm.

I won't let you starve.

Wei,

we are leaving soon.

Where will you be going?

I'll go...

Wherever you go, I'll follow you.

Anyway, I'm the only one left in my family.

Mei Lin,

you saved my life before.

I won't let you live a hard life.

Wei,

actually, it was my brother who saved you.

Don't worry.

We'll become family after we get married.

I'll treat my brother-in-law well.

Actually, I'm married.

I know.

Madam Wang told me about it.

Your husband has died.

He...

Who said I had died?

Brother-in-law?

Who is your brother-in-law?

I'm her husband.

You...

Aren't you siblings?

We are not siblings.

We are childhood sweethearts.

During our journey,

I made many mistakes

and made my wife angry.

That's why she didn't want

to mention our relationship in front of others.

Mei,

it's been so long. You should be calm now.

It was my fault

for making Wei misunderstand.

I...

They are a couple.

Madam,

it was all my fault.

It's okay.

Well,

I have good taste, right?

Just

give up.

Stop it.

Don't cry.

A real man doesn't need to worry about getting a wife.

Madam.

All couples quarrel.

By compromising with each other,

you'll stay together for a lifetime,

right?

I think your husband's attitude is quite nice.

You can forgive him.

Yes.

Actually, I forgave him long ago.

That's good to hear.

That's good to hear.

Come on.

Try it.

Didn't you go to catch a dragon?

Your eyes are so poor

that you caught a snake?

The Book of Strange Records mentions

that snakes, originally named Hui,

transform into dragons after 1,000 years of cultivation.

So, a dragon is essentially a snake,

and dragon meat is snake meat.

Roasted snake meat is more delicious.

You previously hurt your spleen and stomach.

Meat broth will help with digestion.

You can have roasted snake meat some other time.

It was my first time cooking.

Let me try it first.

I'm not picky about food.

How is it?

Doesn't it taste better than the dragons in the sky?

It's tasty.

I owe you this.

When we were in the wilderness, I said

as long as we could make it alive,

I would treat you to dragon meat.

Actually, I said Meat Dragon.

The Meat Dragon was made by my mother.

Meat Dragon?

It's a type of cooked wheaten food,

a steamed bun

with meat in it.

In Qingzhou,

every family made Meat Dragons for joyful occasions.

Haven't you tried it?

I seem to have seen it in a border city

I passed by.

They call them meat buns.

How about we make Meat Dragons

for the Spring Harvest Banquet?

I'll take a try then.

I think I can make them.

As long as they are cooked.

As a couple, we can't just eat for free.

We should at least

prepare something.

Since you are a couple,

don't sleep on separate beds.

Madam.

Madam Wang.

We'll sleep separately.

It'll be more spacious.

How can you say that?

Couples have arguments,

but they make up quickly.

If you keep sleeping separately,

your feelings will fade.

Why are you smiling?

If you offend your wife again,

I can't help you anymore.

Yes.

I'll be obedient.

I'll listen to you and my wife.

That's more like it.

Take care, Madam.

We need

to listen to Madam Wang.

We've slept on the same bed anyway.

Are you

asleep?

Rest at sunset.

She should be asleep.

You

can't fall asleep?

If you can't fall asleep either,

I can talk with you.

I...

I...

I have nothing to say.

Sleep then.

Actually,

I'm also quite sleepy.

There is a mosquito.

It's dead.

We can sleep now.

I hope such days

can last forever.

[Yanming Palace]

We've searched for such a long time.

How could there be no traces?

Your Majesty,

here is the tea I just made.

Please try it.

Sit.

Let me see.

Fortunately, the burn that day

did not leave a scar.

The burn ointment bestowed by Your Majesty is very effective.

Thank you,

Your Majesty.

Concubine Yan,

you are afraid of me?

No.

Your Majesty, you are a benevolent ruler and have been very nice to me.

I'm not afraid.

I don't remember

you were skilled in these things.

Is the tea I made not good?

I'll make another pot.

No.

You did it very well.

I'm just not used to it.

Thank you for your praise, Your Majesty.

There is a lot I need to learn.

Maybe I scared her that day.

Concubine Yan,

take a look.

I don't dare.

I allow you to read it.

Look.

The Prince Heir?

My brother has become the Prince Heir of Xiyan.

I thank Your Majesty on behalf of my brother.

I know

my brother relied on Your Majesty's support

to become the Prince Heir of Xiyan.

It's because your brother has the capability.

I merely took pleasure in his success.

From now on, there will be someone backing you up.

So,

don't be afraid of me.

I'm never afraid of Your Majesty.

I don't need you

to serve me here.

It's late at night.

Go back to Fanghua Palace and rest.

Yes, Your Majesty.

Don't you think

she is acting more and more properly as a concubine of Great Yan?

Concubine Yan is smart.

She learned the rules very fast.

Today, I heard the Noble Consort

praising her

for being sensible and courteous.

I just don't want to see her

being so well-behaved.

Send a letter of congratulations to the Prince Heir of Xiyan.

Sure enough,

he didn't disappoint me.

Yes, Your Majesty.

Your Highness,

you're the reincarnation of the Sun Kunlun.

So the Princess Heir

should be the reincarnation of the Moon Kunlun.

The union of the Sun Kunlun and Moon Kunlun

brings the harmony of Yin and Yang,

ensuring favorable weather.

It will surely bless Xiyan

with everlasting prosperity.

As long as the Sun Kunlun and Moon Kunlun unite,

Your Majesty will surely enjoy a prolonged life.

Heaven begins with one. Earth completes with six.

Once one and six unite, all origins become clear.

May this be the guiding principle and ultimate source of life.

Please, heavenly deities,

guide us to find the Moon Kunlun now.

How is it?

Found her.

Your Majesty, I've found her.

The sacred woman reincarnated from the Moon Kunlun

is in Zhaojing of the Yan Dynasty.

The Princess Heir is from Great Yan?

Father,

the Sun Kunlun and Moon Kunlun

are the divine envoys of the Xiyan heavenly deities.

Now that the sacred woman is the Moon Kunlun,

she must be from Xiyan.

I suppose

she is just temporarily residing in the Yan Dynasty.

Your Highness,

you have a point.

Send our men to search for her immediately.

Make sure to find the sacred woman

and bring her back to Xiyan.

Father,

I request to speak.

I've been in the Yan Dynasty for several years

and I'm quite familiar

with Zhaojing.

If I am to search for the sacred woman,

success is assured.

You can't.

You are the Prince Heir.

Why should you go to the Yan Dynasty?

This is something confidential.

You can't tell it to anyone.

Father,

coincidentally,

I've received the letter of congratulations

sent by the Emperor of the Yan Dynasty.

He invites me

to discuss border trade.

Isn't this a great opportunity

given by the heaven deities?

God bless Xiyan.

[Letter of Congratulations from Great Yan]

Alright.

Since this is about your Princess Heir,

you'll find her

in person.

Yes, Father.

Your Highness, you are wise.

How were you sure

His Majesty

would believe in the reincarnation of the Sun and Moon divine envoys?

Who among those at the pinnacle of power

does not yearn for immortality?

But you

don't believe in immortality, Your Highness.

Immortality.

Immortality is good.

Immortality

would eliminate the regret of unfulfilled ambitions

and dispel the ignorance of overreached attempts.

Even as the seas turn and the earth changes,

deep emotions are not bound by shallow fates.

How wonderful it would be!

Mei Lin,

my Princess Heir,

wait for me to go back.

♪The wind scatters the spring flowers♪

♪The dream was filled with sorrow for the entire night♪

♪Troubled thoughts shatter into a sky full of stars♪

♪If fate is too unbearable♪

♪I am mired in the mud♪

♪Love is helpless, falling into the abyss♪

♪If life is a predetermined sorrow♪

♪Love is an endless wandering♪

♪A place in the heart from which there is no return♪

♪It's a vain hope, it's in imagination♪

♪It's the distinguished light♪

♪If life is a predetermined sorrow♪

♪Love is an endless wandering♪

♪A place in the heart from which there is no return♪

♪It's a vain hope, it's in imagination♪

♪It's the distinguished light♪

♪If life is a predetermined sorrow♪

♪Love is an endless wandering♪

♪A place in the heart from which there is no return♪

♪It's a vain hope, it's in imagination♪

♪It's the distinguished light♪

♪It's a vain hope, it's in imagination♪

♪It's the distinguished light♪