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I've lost my daughter.

Ali!

I did a terrible thing but I always loved you.

Joanna Taylor told us she abducted a four-year-old child from a beach.

Welcome home, Ali.

How does it feel, Joanna, to know you've ruined so many lives?

- Do you remember me? - Yeah. More now I'm with you.

I hope they give you the maximum they can.

- Don't you think it's time to move on? - I want her to suffer.

What do you want from me, Steven? I've said all the sorrys I can.

I can't give you anything more.

Since she came back, things have been worse, Sarah. Not better, worse.

She loves me. I brought her up for ll years. I was her mother. She still loves me.

The woman that nicked that kid, she jumped.

Steven.

I'm so sorry.

They, erm...

they won't let you see her, yet.

They're doing the, erm, a postmortem.

They wanna know what she died of.

They could have asked me that, couldn't they? Save themselves the job.

She died cos she thought she had nothing to look forward to.

You see, Jo didn't wanna take Lori away from you.

She just wanted a bit of her, you know?

See her once in a while. Have a little cuddle.

Find out what bands you were listening to, sweetheart...

who you fancied,

what you did at school yesterday.

That's all.

But you wouldn't even allow her that, would you?

Jasmine, inside, please.

See you later.

Why are you here?

I just wanted to see that they're OK.

Well, they never met her, why wouldn't they be?

Listen, we don't want you here,

watching us all. We don't need you.

We just wanna be left alone to get on with our lives

so I'm asking you, please, just leave.

Why d'you think she did it?

Now, I mean.

Well, perhaps the guilt finally got to her.

Hi.

What did she ask you, Debbie Weaver?

Nothing much. Just stuff.

- What stuff? - Erm...

How's school? Am I OK, is Sean OK? Just stuff.

Don't answer any more of her questions, Jas. It's none of her business.

Sorry. Mum?

What?

Sorry. Nothing. It's OK.

Alice, I, I just want you to know

I am so sorry for your loss.

And I want you to understand that you don't have to feel any sense of shame

in expressing your grief in our house.

I... We will offer you all the comfort we can.

Just leave me alone.

Alice.

Alice!

- Baby? - Oh, leave me alone.

- No, I wanna help you, sweetheart. - Please don't pretend like you give a shit,

- either of you. - I do, of course I do.

- You hated her and you hate me. - I love you. I love you so much.

I heard you, Sarah, at the hospital.

I heard you. "It's got worse since she's come back. It's all her fault."

- Oh, my darling, you misunderstood me. - Well, I hate you! I hate you!

You don't. No, you don't hate me, darling. You don't hate me. It's OK.

It's all right.

It's OK. Shh. It's all right.

How is she?

She was at the hospital.

She heard us rowing about her.

- Shit. - Yeah, really.

- Should I go and speak to her? - No, I think you've probably said enough.

Did you find out where she went afterwards?

- After what? - After the hospital.

No.

- Sarah, don't you think you should ask her? - Why?

She was gone most of the day.

David, I'm trying to offer her comfort

I'm not gonna start quizzing her on her movements. Why does it matter, anyway?

Because you thought she may have gone to see Joanna

and Joanna has just killed herself.

- And? - And? And I'm wondering

if there might be a connection.

Listen, Joanna Taylor and Joanna Taylor alone is responsible for her actions.

So please don't even think of implying it had anything to do

with what Ali may or may not have done, OK? Anything.

Why are you getting so wound up? This is a perfectly reasonable question to ask.

Well, to you, maybe.

Did you go there?

No.

Is that what this is all about? Guilt?

- Shut up, David. - Did you pay her a little visit?

Remind her of a few choice facts,

that Ali was yours and that she'd never see her again?

- For God's sake. - Did you show her the depths

- of your bitterness? - David, will you shut up?

- Alice is trying to sleep. - Well, she should hear.

She should know just what her mother has turned into.

I have a right to be bitter. I have a right to be angry.

You may have a right, Sarah, but what the hell is the point of it all?

Well, what is it giving you?

What is it giving us?

Because I can tell you, it has taken a hell of a lot.

Has it?

- Has it really? - Yes, it has.

So what are you gonna do about it, David?

Come on.

Cards on the table.

Will you leave that, for Christ's sake, David?

- Hi, David. - Hi.

- Can I come in? - Of course.

Hi.

- What can we do for you. - How's Alice?

Well, she's still pretty upset. She's asleep at the moment.

Right. OK. You're gonna need to wake her, I'm afraid.

- Why? - There have been some developments

regarding Joanna's death.

We don't believe she killed herself.

We don't believe she jumped.

So I'm gonna have to ask you to wake Alice. We need to ask her some questions.

And we're gonna need to talk to both of you as well.

Do you have someone to look after the kids? Would you like us to sort that out?

You call your sister. I'll go and wake Alice.

Alice.

Ali.

(Man) Death occurred at some time between 5 and 8 pm.

Interruption of spinal cord continuity by severance

caused immediate respiratory arrest and death.

Also, a bilateral extradural and subdural depressed fracture,

which we may well assume occurred at the same time as the fatal injury.

This second injury was caused by a single blow to the back of the head.

- And when was the last time you saw her? - I never have.

Not in the flesh.

I saw her picture in the papers but I never went to the court.

Right.

So you were out a large pan of yesterday afternoon?

- Was I? - I'm sure you mentioned it

to Debbie Weaver.

- Yes. I did go out? - Where did you go?

- Why would I do what you suggest? - What am I suggesting?

That I killed her. I had little interest in her.

What was done was done, as far as I was concerned.

It was in the past. We had to look ahead.

So where did you go?

- For a walk. - Where?

The common.

Were you gone for long? How long were you gone?

A couple of hours.

- Maybe more. - Did anyone see you?

No idea.

Two hours. Long walk.

I had a lot of thinking to do.

- About? - About the bloody awful mess we're in.

Tiny, our flat.

I always used to moan about the lack of space.

Then Lori went.

Suddenly, it just seemed so big.

And I, I couldn't bear to be there.

You know, I couldn't sleep at nights,

not being able to hear her around.

Getting a drink, going to the loo,

watching telly in her room.

I couldn't sleep in the daytime, either.

So I started to spend whole days in the pub.

And yesterday was one of those days.

You know, drinking myself stupid

when I knew that, actually...

Jo needed me.

And I think that's the hardest thing to deal with.

You know, knowing if I'd have been there, I'd have been able to stop it all...

getting so out of hand.

I know there's a lot of anger flying around

but, erm, I don't think anyone would have wanted her dead.

I'm pretty sure of that.

But...

But, in the end, I wasn't there for her.

So when was the last time you saw her?

Yesterday.

The first time in nearly six months.

- I needed to see her. - (Doorbell)

Oh, sweetheart Oh, God.

Come in, will you, pl...? Please come in.

Thank you.

- Did you get your card? - Yeah.

Thank you. You didn't have to. I know that's a lot of money.

Oh, don't be silly. It's nothing. It's fine.

I thought, erm, you could choose something for yourself, can't you?

Cos I'm not sure what you're into now.

- Same stuff. - Yeah?

So how have you been?

Yeah, not too bad.

- You sound all posh, now. - Do I?

Yeah, a bit.

So how's everything at home?

- It's different. - Yeah, well, I bet.

It's different... and it's difficult sometimes.

I feel pretty confused, really.

Son of, torn.

Like I shouldn't be there.

- Do they make you feel like that? - Not on purpose, I don't think.

You know, it's hard for them an' all but...

It's not like I feel I should be here, exactly, but...

Oh, I don't know.

Get a card from you,

see my friends, see Nathan.

And I miss it.

I miss it all.

- I miss you. - Yeah, well, I miss you, too, lots and lots.

And, you know, I'm trying to forgive you and everything.

And, and I just get so confused

cos I'm...

I'm not sure who I want to hold me,

who I want to make it all better,

- to go to. - I'm sorry, baby, I'm s...

And yet, it's not fair, really, cos I shouldn't have to choose, really, should I?

No, course you shouldn't. I'm sorry, darling. I'm so sorry.

Oh.

I stayed about an hour.

Left about two.

And now all I can think is that I left her confused

and upset and unhappy.

And that's how she must have felt when she died.

Steven.

Whatever happens, if Alice is OK with it,

if you want to see her...

it's wrong that you can't.

You should be a pan of her life.

Christ knows, you never did anything to deserve all of this.

I'd like that.

I'd like that very much.

And when was the last time you saw her?

In court

- Did you know Alice saw her yesterday? - No.

When Alice went missing did you not,

at any point, think she might have gone back to Joanna's?

Why would I think that?

She'd been back to Horley a few times, seeing Nathan.

She invited her old friends to her birthday.

- She hadn't out off, you knew that. - Yeah, but Joanna was different.

I didn't believe she had any desire to see her.

So you never went anywhere near Horley yesterday?

- No. - You're sure of that?

Yes.

We have a neighbour who says he heard Joanna

and a woman having a row outside her flat yesterday.

Well, it wasn't me.

Where did you spend the afternoon, then?

In my car, between the house and the hospital, looking for Ali.

We think Joanna may have tried to fend off whoever attacked her.

She has traces of someone's skin under her nails.

And?

Oh, please don't tell me you want to do a DNA test.

We don't need you to, Sarah. You already took one.

Remember?

I'm just telling you that we will be doing a comparison test.

And I'm offering you the opportunity now

to tell us anything you think may be relevant.

- No. I've got nothing more to add. - Fine.

Then thank you. You are free to go.

So,

when will they have a result?

She said some time tomorrow.

And what are they gonna find?

- What do you think they're going to find? - Sarah, I'm trying to help you.

Really?

Because this is what you warned me about, isn't it?

I mean, you said it would all end in tears if I didn't learn to forgive.

You must be delighted.

Unlike you, I have three children to think about

and I have a right to know the truth

before they have to see you walk out of here in handcuffs for Joanna's murder.

And I have a right to know where the hell you were all afternoon.

I have told you and I have told the police. I was out on the common.

- Oh, really! - Well, it's not me they're testing.

Fine. If you want the truth, I will tell you the truth.

I am glad that she is dead and if that appals you, I'm sorry.

But I hated her when she was alive and I hate her now that she is dead

for what she is still doing to my family.

Did you kill my mum?

Your mum?

Oh, my God, Ali, no. Of course I didn't.

God.

Jesus.

Hello, sweet pea.

This is all right, innit?

- How did you get in? - The back door was open.

Listen, it's OK. You're dad said it'd be OK. We spoke at the police station.

- Did you? - Yeah, he said he wanted me to see you.

- Does he know you're here now? - Oh, he won't mind. He won't mind.

I just thought we could have a few moments on our own, you know?

- You scared me. - Oh, Jesus. Sorry, I...

- I didn't mean to scare you. I'm sorry. - It's OK.

- It's good to see you. - Oh, it's good to see you.

Oh.

- You smell like a brewery. - Oh, yeah. Sorry.

So how's it going?

Not so good.

It's hard, you know,

- not knowing who to trust. - I know, I know, I know.

Ah.

I thought you might like these.

It's stuff of Jo's that was in the van.

And I, erm, I couldn't get into the flat because of the police.

Maybe when they're out, you'll come round and choose some proper stuff of hers, eh?

- Yeah. Thanks. - You're welcome.

So, puts our place to shame, doesn't it?

They're both nice, they're just different.

Do you ever wish she hadn't have found you?

Cos it's son of messed everything up, hasn't it?

I kinda got the feeling that's what your dad was trying to tell me.

Wanted me to get more into your life,

take back the reigns a bit,

get things back to normal.

Cos it must be terrible pressure on you. The responsibility, an' all.

Lori, darling, would you like that?

For things to get back to normal and ev...

Ali, go and tell your father that Mr Taylor's here, please.

- OK. - Now.

- Lori. - No. You can get out now

or I will call the police.

It's OK. I'm going.

I'd never have thought I could have ended up here.

- What the fuck are you doing? - David, let him go.

Come on, darling, just one more mouthful.

Come on, darling, just one more mouthful.

No? One more for me?

What did you get?

OK. I'm coming right now.

Is she here?

Sarah Hooper, I am arresting you on suspicion of the murder of Joanna Taylor.

You do not have to say anything but anything you fail to say now,

which you later rely on in court, may be used in evidence against you.

- Please can I speak to the children? - Yeah, quickly.

- What have you done? - I haven't done anything.

Alice...

It's OK, baby. It's OK.

Everything’s gonna be OK.

I'll be back soon, all right?

I'm so sorry.

I'm sorry for everything.

We're gonna need to search the house and garden. It'll take a while.

I suggest you spend the night with friends or family.

- I'll pack a bag for the kids. - David, we need to talk about the kids.

Sorry?

In the circumstances, we're not entirely happy about them being left in your care.

What circumstances? What the fuck are you talking about?

- David... - What circumstances?

- Until your alibi is corroborated. - Oh, you think we did it together, do you?

And there's other stuff.

I know you've found the adjustment harder than the others, David,

which I'm worried about.

Clearly, Jasmine's had some problems

and I know Alice feels...uncomfortable about certain things,

some things she's mentioned to me about physical contact.

I didn't mean it like that.

I have never, I have never, I...

- I would never... - I didn't mean it like how she's saying it.

- I'm sorry. - It's OK, Alice. It's not your responsibility.

You've done nothing wrong. Do you wanna get Alice?

- You are not taking my children. - David, you'll just cause more upsets.

- (Officer) It's OK. Come with us. - Leave them alone!

- It's OK, Sean. - Leave them alone, you bastards!

- (Jasmine) Dad! - David, please.

- If I tell you where I was. - What?

If I tell you where I was.

I am their father. I have done nothing wrong.

I can't promise anything but yes, of course it would help.

I was with a friend in a pub.

I paid with a card. We had drinks and food. You can check.

Why the hell didn't you tell us this before?

It was a woman.

A work colleague who...

It was a woman.

She sent Alice a birthday card and I went round there to tell her

that she was breaking the terms of her injunction.

And she attacked me

and she put her hand on my neck.

And she must have taken a bit of skin off then.

- And after that? - Well, she walked away.

- And you? - I got back in my car.

- And did what? - Oh, I don't know. I mean, I...

I drove around for a bit, got out, walked for a bit.

I don't really remember, but eventually, I did go home.

- And you never went back to her flat? - No.

This is a very different version of events to the one you originally described, Sarah.

- I know. - And you made them both

sound equally plausible but, by your own admission, the first was completely untrue.

Yes.

So, why should we believe this version?

Why should we believe that you went home

instead of following Joanna to her flat and attacking her?

Listen, I lied about seeing Joanna

because I was scared

of what Alice might think of me.

You know, I was scared that she might turn away from me if she knew that we'd fought.

I think a lot of what's happened to my family over the past few months

has been as a result of my fear

of losing her again.

And that fear has turned my love...

Well, in the end, I think all it's done is corrode.

So that's why I lied. But I am telling you the truth now.

I promise.

You can dump your bags in here and we'll son things out later.

Thanks, sis.

It should only be for a couple of days, OK?

- Happy now? - Jasmine.

Sean, I'm so sorry.

Over here.

The blood on the clothes, it is Joanna Taylor's.

So we've found a bag of clothes with blood on them.

And you know what occurs to me, Steven, or what seems odd,

is how badly hidden this bag was.

I mean, it could have been dumped in a canal, with all the evidence washed off,

or burnt or buried.

And I can't help but wonder if whoever put it there maybe wanted it to be found.

Alice?

Alice.

- And where did you last see her? - In here.

I, er...

I left the pub at about four.

I was a bit drunk. I think Jo was, too.

What are you doing?

- Thinking. - Oh, yeah?

About what?

About Lori. About what to do.

Mm, so many choices, eh?

Her mother was here today.

You what?

In the street. She drove over.

Why?

Why?

Lori was here.

- Lori W-W... Well, why didn't you ring me? - Steve.

If Lori was here, why didn't you ring me. I could have seen her, Joanna.

- I could have seen her. - Because of this. Because of this!

All of us fighting for a piece of her.

All of us thinking about what we want.

I held her in my arms, Steven, and she was so...

she was so confused and scared.

I thought,

it's just not fair

on her.

And I can't do it.

I can't do it to her mother

but most of all, I can't do it to Lori,

not if I love her.

So I'm gonna ring her.

I'm gonna ring Lori...

ring Alice

and tell her we love her,

we will always love her,

but we can't be a part of her life right now.

She needs time alone, she needs time alone with her family.

- No, Jo. - And if she comes here, Steve,

- then we, we can't see her. - If she wants to see us, though...

- No, no, no. She is confused. - No, listen.

I don't wanna do this, I really don't, but I know it's the right thing to do.

- And I'm gonna, I'm gonna call her now. - No, Jo, don't do it.

- Jo. Jo. - I've got to, babes.

Listen, when she's 16, if she wants to make contact...

- That is a year away. - I know this is the right thing to do.

- She'd have forgotten us by then, all right? - Just...

- Give that here. You're not gonna do it. - Steve. Give me the phone.

- I won't let you do it. No. - Steve. Give me the phone!

Get off! No. Get away!

Jo.

Jo?

Jo?

Jo?

I... I wanted to do all the stuff you're meant to do

but I just...

I didn't know...

I looked up and it was dark.

I was thinking of Lori and what I had done would do to her.

And, I guess, in the end, I just thought it might be better

if she could believe she still had me,

unchanged, solid,

there for her.

And, erm,

that's why I did the rest.

I didn't do it for me. I did it for Lori.

I did it for my little girl.

- Oh. - Oh, Sarah.

She didn't take any clothes, any personal things. The only thing she took

was the picture of us all.

On holiday. The last photo.

Well, could she have gone to the beach?

Well, why would she have gone to the beach?

Turn around.

The day Joanna was killed,

I never went for a walk.

I was with Gabby.

We've become close over the last few months.

We're not lovers.

We talk. We just talk,

which is maybe an even greater betrayal because I should have been talking to you.

And I'm so sorry.

But I guess you already know that I haven't felt able to talk to you for a long time.

But I do want to try because I want our marriage to survive.

I love you, Sarah. And I love our children.

All five of us.

We're a family again.

And that is something, isn't it? That is something to hold on to.

I'm sorry, David.

I'm so sorry.

Sarah, she's there.

(Sarah) Ali, baby.

What are you doing?

I'm thinking.

- Thinking what? - Thinking that maybe

it would have been better if I had gone in that day.

That you would have found my body,

mourned me and then just got over it, got on with your lives.

No. Why would you think that?

Because all I can see is unhappiness because of me.

That is not because of you, OK? That's our failing.

All of us.

And I know that I have to change.

And I'm not gonna tell you that the future is gonna be easy,

that it's all gonna be bliss, because it isn't.

And you are gonna hate me sometimes.

You're gonna fight with Sean and Jas.

David's gonna piss you off, you're gonna piss David off.

But that's family, baby.

That's how it works and you know that because you've had one already.

And God, we love you, Ali.

We always have.

Ali, Ali, not a second goes by that we don't thank God that you're here.

(Sarah) Oh, God.

Thanks, Mum.

Come on.