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[RAINFALL]

[MUSIC PLAYING]

[HEAVY BREATHING]

[MOANING]

-What's wrong with me?

Why can't I just be normal?

Why am I laying here jerking
off to a gay porn magazine

and fantasizing
over some gay porn

star who calls
himself Hunter Ramrod?

This is so not
Christian behavior.

If there really was a Jesus
watching over me right now,

he'd probably be
pretty disappointed.

He'd be so grossed out.

Well, that's enough
sin for one night.

Time for bed, Hunter Ramrod.

-Wake up, Matthew.

-Hunter Ramrod?

-Yes, Matthew.

I need you to wake up.

I need to be with you.

-But how'd you get in here?

I'm so confused.

-While you've been watching
me in the magazine, Matthew,

I've been looking right
back and watching you.

I've watched you reach
down in your pants

and stroke your long,
hard cock, fantasizing

about being with me.

It doesn't have to be
a fantasy, you know.

Fantasy only goes so far.

The real thing is so
much more fulfilling.

That's what you want,
isn't it Matthew?

The real thing?

Rather than having to
stroke your own cock,

why don't you let
me do it for you?

-Oh, wait.

No.

I mean--

-Oh, come on, Matthew.

You can't tell me you
don't want to be with me.

I know the truth, remember?

I've watched you.

Oh, wait.

I know what it is.

You're nervous.

It's your first time and all.

But don't worry.

You'll be a natural.

I can tell.

I know all the things you've
fantasized about, Matthew.

And don't you worry.

I'll all come to you just
as naturally in real life

as it does in your fantasies.

How does that one fantasy go?

Oh, yes.

You're so eager to get
at my hot, juicy cock

that you can barely
contain yourself.

But you're not one
of those guys who

wants to get right down to
business and start sucking.

Not you, Matthew.

You want it to be
sweet and romantic.

You're such a gentleman.

Don't worry.

I may be a porn star,
and I might occasionally

do a butt sex gang bang
video here and there,

but I, too, am a
romantic at heart.

I can be soft and sweet, just
the way you want me to be.

[KISS]

Well, now that we've
got that of the way,

time to let the sucking begin.

-No, wait.

-What now?

Go ahead and tell me
you don't want to.

I can leave, you know.

-I-- I want to.

-I thought so.

-But--

-But what?

What if-- I mean--
what about Jesus?

-Jesus?

You're going to turn down
Hunter Ramrod for Jesus?

You don't even know if you
believe in Jesus, Matthew.

Do you really want to
spend the rest of your life

afraid to be yourself,
afraid to enjoy yourself,

all because of a guy you don't
really know if you believe in?

What about Jesus, Matthew?

What about Jesus?

I'll tell you about Jesus.

[MUSIC PLAYING]

(SINGING) If I had Jesus in
my pants, would you want Him?

If I had Jesus in my
pants, would you need Him?

Would you love Him?

Hold hands and spoon
and turtle dove Him?

If I had Jesus in my
pants, would you touch Him?

If I had Jesus in my
pants, would you hold Him?

Would you squeeze Him?

Grab on tight and
try to please Him?

But I guess that won't be.

'Cause I don't have
Jesus in my pants.

But I guess that won't be.

'Cause I don't have
Jesus in my pants.

If I had Jesus in my
pants, would you hug Him?

If I had Jesus in my pants,
would you smooch Him?

Would you kiss Him?

Slip him the tongue,
show him you miss Him?

If I had Jesus in my
pants, would you pet Him?

If I Jesus in my pants,
would you stroke Him?

Would you spank Him?

Not in a bad way,
but to thank Him?

But I guess that won't be.

'Cause I don't have
Jesus in my pants.

Oh, I guess that won't be.

'Cause I don't have
Jesus in my pants.

What I have in my
pants won't heal

sick or turn water into wine.

But some say it's magic cure.

What I have in my
pants won't [INAUDIBLE]

absolve you of your sins.

But it might bring
you back to life.

But I guess that won't be.

'Cause I don't have
Jesus in my pants.

But I guess that won't be.

'Cause I don't have
Jesus in my pants.

I don't have Jesus in my pants.

I don't have Jesus in my pants.

I don't have Jesus in my pants.

-Wait.

[SIGHS]

OK, Hunter Ramrod.

I'll make you a deal.

You stop invading my
dreams, and the next time I

fantasize about you, you
can have your way with me.

Deal?

Good.

[KISS]

MATTHEW: So, uh, what do
you guys want to do now?

You wanna go for a bike ride?

We could get some ice cream.

My treat.

School's over.

We've graduated.

It's officially summer.

We gotta get started on
those summer ice cream trips.

-Ooh.

Ice cream.

-You sure know how to
get Brandon excited.

-Just Brandon?

Cause I'm picturing
a hot fudge sundae

with brownie pieces and
cookie crumbs on the top.

-OK, now you've got
me really excited.

But we're gonna
share a sundae, cause

there's no way I'm eating
a whole one by myself.

Well, I've been
working out like crazy.

I don't wanna be chubby
on my wedding day.

I wanna look all
ripped and muscular

for Stacy on our wedding night.

-You stud.

-That's exactly the words I
want to hear come out of Stacy's

mouth when she sees me
for the first time naked.

-You have nothing
to worry about.

The way Stacy looks
at you, you know,

that's complete and total love.

You can have a big
old belly from eating

10 hot fudge sundaes and she'd
still think you were hot.

-Yeah, you're right.

But I'm still gonna like it all
ripped and muscular to, like,

be safe.

Um, so anyway, uh, me and Stacy
like really wanted to thank you

guys for always being
so supportive of us

and always like
being there for us.

Like when me and Stacy
first started dating

and we always used to get
into those little arguments

all the time, you two
would always, like,

conspire to make sure
that me and her could

can get through all that stuff.

Because you saw how
good we were together.

I think you guys knew that
me and Stacy were meant

to be before me or her even did.

And just because
I'm getting married,

that doesn't mean I'm gonna
stop being here for you guys.

Which brings me to something
that I've noticed-- um-- Matt,

is there something on your mind?

Because it seems like
something's been bothering you.

-Nah, I've just been thinking.

-About what?

-Different stuff.

-Do you wanna talk about it?

-Yeah.

You know, part of me really
does want to talk about it.

I'm a little scared of how
you guys are gonna react.

-Well that's something you
don't have to worry about.

Me and Brandon are
totally here for you.

-Well, it's not just one thing.

But a big part of
it is I'm starting

to wonder how much I
really fit into it.

-Fit into what, Matthew?

-Into the whole Christian thing.

-OK.

You totally have to
explain that one.

-Well, I have pretty
cool parents, right?

I've got the two best
friends anyone could ask for.

I live in a nice house, and I
grew up with a lot of things

that kids in other parts
of the world don't have.

But somehow I just feel
like I'm different,

like different from you guys,
like with your conviction

on what you want to
do with your life

and with your religion and
your relationship with Jesus.

I just-- I just feel
like I'm different,

especially with Jesus.

I mean, I remember
being real young

and being in church that day.

There was this big push
to get everybody saved

who hadn't already been saved.

And the preacher was talking
about how we couldn't just

take it for granted
that you were saved.

And you couldn't be like those
false Christians who just

thought they were Christian
because their parents

and grandparents were Christian.

And I wanted to do
it, too, you know?

I wanted to make
my parents happy.

I wanted them to be proud of me.

And I wanted to know Jesus, too.

I wanted to know Him in the
way they talked about Him,

you know?

It sounded so
nice, so beautiful.

So I got up there.

And I said it.

I said that I was accepting
Jesus into my life.

But I don't know if
anything happened that day.

I don't know if I was saved.

I don't know if maybe the timing
was off, and I was too young.

Or maybe Jesus just
doesn't want me.

-Well one thing's for sure
is that Jesus wants you.

There's no question there.

Now listen, Matt.

I can't get inside
of you and tell you

what happened to you that day.

But that's something
you have to figure out

on your own, something you
have to deal with yourself

and maybe even pray about.

And if you would
like, I'd be more

than happy to pray with you.

And I'm sure Brandon
would be more

than willing to pray with us.

-Oh, heck yeah.

-Another thing's for sure
is that you do fit in.

You're not a true Christian?

Matt, you act more Christian
than most Christians

that I know.

You're a good person.

You're honest.

You're good to all
your friends and you're

polite to your
parents and to others.

And you're always the first to
jump in and work when our youth

group is doing a fundraiser
or community service.

And you know the Bible
pretty darn well.

Other than that, you're
an all-around fun guy,

and your personality
has that way

of uplifting those around you.

But being a good guy isn't what
gets you into heaven, Matt,

and me and you both know that.

It would be really unfortunate
if you did go through the rest

of your life without ever
having been truly saved,

but there's no shame in it to
admit to yourself that maybe

you did feel pressured into
getting saved that day.

And maybe because of that,
it didn't happen for you.

But that offer is
still there, the offer

is still extended to you.

Don't think just at that
moment it didn't happen.

Don't think you blew it.

Don't for one second
believe that you do not

have another chance to ask
Jesus to enter your life again.

Maybe it's the possibility
that maybe you were saved

and you're just unsure.

Maybe it's the case that you
have to affirm your desire

for salvation in a personal
relationship with Jesus

as an adult.

You have to make it real, not
because your parents or wanna

just because everybody else
around you is doing it.

But it has to be
because you want it.

It has to be there, and
it has to be with Jesus,

and it has to be real.

Is any of what I'm
saying here getting

through to you,
hitting the mark?

-Brandon, what's the matter?

-Matthew, [SNIFFS] I
remember being there that day

all those years ago.

You were right.

We were just kids.

We were what?

Five years old?

I remember wanting to
be like the other kids

that were getting saved.

I wanted to be
like you, Matthew.

[SNIFFS] But I was
just overwhelmed

and couldn't grasp the
concept of being saved at all.

I just sorta stood
there and cried.

Getting saved for
me didn't truly

happen until a few years later.

But when it happened,
I knew it was for real.

And all this time,
I thought you had

that same feeling of
certainty that I did.

And that you even found
it long before me.

Well, it looks like I was wrong.

And it makes me sad to think
that you've been living

without that certainty
all this time.

I want you to have that
certainty, Matthew.

I want you to know it.

I want to know that you're
saved and that you're

going to get into
heaven when you die.

Whatever Ican do to
help you, I'll do it.

-But no pressure, right?

-[SNIFFS] Yeah.

No pressure.

-It wouldn't do any of us any
good to pressure you, Matt.

You need to accept Jesus
for your own free will.

But we could be there for
you, and we'll pray for you.

You can count on that.

-Yes, you can.

-Matt.

-Yeah?

-Yeah, ooh, um,
you said that there

was something else on your mind.

Do you want talk about it?

-Yeah, maybe.

But let's just save
that for another day.

I've done enough of this
emotional stuff for now,

you know?

I feel back to being
my cheerful self.

I think some ice cream
with my two best friends

should help accomplish that.

-Well, let's go then.

Ice cream for the masses.

-Wow.

This is a crazy magazine.

Let's see.

How to practice gay safe sex.

I guess that's good
to know if I ever

decided to do
something like that.

Huh?

What's a rim job?

Ew.

Prior to eating out
another guy's ass,

it's best for the recipient of
the analingus to first shower

and thoroughly
clean out his anus

to ensure the removal
of any dingleberries.

What's a dingleberry?

Dingleberries are tiny balls
of fecal matter clinging

to the hair
surrounding the anus.

Ew.

That's it.

Enough of this for one night.

I'm going to bed.

-Hello, Matthew.

MATTHEW: Where am I?

-In your future, Matthew.

You're about to give
a hot guy a rim job

and you're staring
into his butthole.

MATTHEW: That's disgusting.

I don't believe you.

Who are you guys?

-We're the dingleberries.

MATTHEW: You mean--

-That's right, Matthew.

We are tiny little balls of shit
clinging to this hot guy's ass

hair, and you're
about to eat us.

MATTHEW: Yuck.

No way.

-It's OK, Matthew.

We don't mind.

We like to be eaten.

In fact, if you like, you
can pour a little honey

or chocolate syrup
on this guy's asshole

and add a little extra
flavor to your meal.

Add some whipped cream
while you're at it.

We go very well with
the whipped cream.

We're so tasty, Matthew.

People just don't appreciate
us as much as they ought to.

I mean, you've heard
of strawberry pie.

You've heard of blueberry pie.

You've heard of raspberry
pie and blackberry pie.

But what about dingleberry pie?

When was the last
time someone baked

a nice, warm, dingleberry pie?

People just don't know what
they're missing, Matthew.

MATTHEW: That is so gross.

-Come on, Matthew.

That isn't very nice.

You have this hot
guy here waiting

for you to eat his ass
out, and you're just

staring at us calling us gross.

We're not gross, Matthew.

We're cute and friendly.

Would you like to hear a song?

MATTHEW: I don't know.

Sure you would.

Come on, boys.

Hit it!

[MUSIC PLAYING]

(SINGING) We are
the dingleberries.

We are the dingleberries.

We are the dingleberries.

Eat us up, up, up.

We are the dingleberries.

We are the dingleberries.

We are the dingleberries.

Yum, yum, yum.

We really like you.

Matthew, won't you
please eat us up?

I bet you we will pass through.

and we'll be the dingleberries
on your own butt.

We are the dingleberries.

We are the dingleberries.

We are the dingleberries.

Eat us up, up, up.

We are the dingleberries.

We are the dingleberries.

We are the dingleberries.

Yum, yum, yum.

-Come on, Matthew, open wide!

MATTHEW: No way.

I won't do it.

-It's too late, Matthew.

You can't control
yourself anymore.

You're gay, after all.

And this is what gay people do.

MATTHEW: But-- but I-- oh, no.

I can't resist.

I can't stop myself
from doing it.

-That's it.

Matthew.

Dig in.

[SLURPING SOUND]

-Yes, that's it, Matthew.

Good boy.

Keep thorough.

Make sure you don't
miss any of us.

[SLURPING SOUND]

MATTHEW: No!

[SIGHS] It was just a dream.

I didn't eat any dingleberries.

Why does being gay
have to be so gross?

[VIDEO GAME SOUNDS]

-Yeah!

These ones are big ones today.

Take that, sinners!

-Ooh, Satan's coming up.

You beat him and
you beat the game.

-I love your excitement
about it, Matt.

God, you've beaten
this game like what?

Six times already?

-Seven, but, uh, who's counting?

I mean, there's only so
many Christian video games.

And I mean, it's always
fun to pull one out

that you've beat
before, to see if you

can do it faster next time.

-I think most of the fun
comes from being around you

and watching you get all excited
that you're about to kick

Satan's butt for
the eighth time.

Take that!

Oh, yeah.

You're no match for
the power of Christ!

-Ooh, make sure that
you kneel and pray

each time before you zap him.

It's time consuming, but you
beat Satan faster in the end.

Oh, and use your
Bible as a shield.

The further you get in the game,
the more effective it becomes.

-Whoever wrote this
game really knows

how to drive home the point.

-Yeah, well, it's
Pastor Steve's number

one recommendation for a reason.

-Oh, yeah.

You're going down, Satan.

Going down!

The power of Christ is
stronger than you, isn't it?

Take that!

[EXPLOSION NOISES]

-Oh, sweet.

You annihilated him.

-It was all thanks to Jesus.

-That's right.

-That was fun.

Hey, what's this?

There's something sticking out
from underneath your mattress.

"Hot Cock 4-U?"

-Brandon, it's not
what you think.

I mean, I can explain.

It's just that I-- well,
I'm sorry, Brandon.

Please don't be mad at me.

-Mad that you're gay, Matthew?

-Oh, shit, Brandon, I
wanted to talk to you

for the longest
time, but I just--

-Shh.

-Holy shit.

What's happening, Brandon?

Am I dreaming?

-I think I'm the one
that's dreaming, Matthew.

We've been friends for so
many years, and so many

of those years I've
been in love with you.

I wanted to say something
sooner, but I was too scared.

I was too scared to admit
that I was in love with you.

I was too scared to
even admit to being gay.

But I realize now you
were about to tell me

and Chuck yesterday
in your kitchen.

You were about to tell us
you were gay, weren't you?

-Yeah.

But I was way too scared.

-But you almost did.

That's braver than anything I
could have ever done, Matthew.

I suspected it for so long.

I thought it was
just in my head.

I thought it was just
wishful thinking on my part.

I thought I was just
imagining that there

was something
growing between us.

Was I imagining it, Matthew?

-No.

You weren't imagining it.

I thought I was the one
that was imagining it.

So I forced myself not to
think of you in that way.

Are you sure I'm not
dreaming, Brandon?

-No.

I'm pretty sure
this is for real.

VOICE FROM BEHIND: Matthew?

-Dad!

I thought you were at work.

MATTHEW'S DAD: That's
clearly obvious, Matthew.

I was supposed to be, but it
looks as though God willed

for me to leave early today so
that could come home to witness

this and put an end to it.

"Hot Cock 4-U?"

Should I even ask you to
explain yourself, Matthew?

-Dad, I--

MATTHEW'S DAD: I-- I mean
I walk into your bedroom,

and here you are
kissing Brandon?

And there's a homosexual
pornographic magazine

laying in your bed?

There are queers in
this household, Matthew.

Do you hear me?

-Dad, I--

-Sir--

MATTHEW'S DAD: This is
between Matthew and I,

Brandon, just as this will
be between you and your mom

when you get home.

-[SIGHS]

MATTHEW'S DAD: In fact,
you should go now.

I'll be calling your mom later
to discuss this matter, as

if she doesn't have enough
to deal with raising you

and your brothers
all by herself.

I highly recommend that you tell
her about this before I do so

that at least the truth can
come from your own lips.

Now leave so Matthew
and I can be alone.

-Sir, this was all my fault.

MATTHEW'S DAD: That's
enough, Brandon.

-[SIGH]

MATTHEW'S DAD: It's nice of
you to stick up for my son,

but he needs to stand up
for himself right now.

(ANGRILY) Go now.

-It's OK, Brandon.

You should go.

-[ANGRY SIGH]

-Dad, I--

MATTHEW'S DAD: We will
not have smut like this

in our household, nor
will we have queers.

You're not one of them,
Matthew, and neither is Brandon.

You're both just confused.

They've clearly gotten
to the both of you.

I know the homosexuals
are out there trying

to steal young people away and
convert them to their sinful

way of life, but
I refuse to allow

that to happen to my own son.

This is a Christian
household, Matthew.

Do you understand me?

My son is not going
to be a queer.

God does not approve of
homosexuality, Matthew.

There is no heaven
for queers, Matthew.

Do you understand me?

There is no heaven for queers!

-Dad!

MATTHEW'S DAD: No, Matthew.

There is nothing more
for you to say right now.

This filthy magazine
says it all.

I-- I never thought my own son
would be looking at something

so disgusting as this
"Hot Cock 4-U" magazine.

It sickens me to
even say the name

of this filthy, ungodly
pornographic magazine.

You're to stay in your room for
the rest of the night, Matthew,

and pray about this.

I need to discuss this
matter with your mom

when she gets home
so that she and I can

figure out what
to do about this.

-But Dad--

MATTHEW'S DAD: There will
be no further discussion

at this moment, Matthew.

But believe me,
there will be later.

Get-- get to praying, young man.

Pray to God.

Thank Jesus for forgiveness
and pray for guidance.

Pray good and hard
that you don't

turn into a discussing queer.

-[CRYING]

[MUSIC PLAYING]

-[SIGHS]

BRANDON: That was an
awesome [INAUDIBLE].

-Yeah, it was.

-What about Lindsey?

Did you have any idea
she could swim like that?

-No, she beat the both of us
easily every time we raced her.

Hey, where is everybody?

-Uh, we're running a bit behind.

It's almost dinnertime.

I noticed the rest of the guys
got out of the pool before us.

They're probably at
the cafeteria already.

-Well, we better
get going then, huh?

-There's no hurry.

We've still got a few minutes.

And besides, there's
always one or two

people that get to dinner late.

Nobody seems to care.

-Well, in that case, there's
something I wanna do.

Actually, it's
something I've wanted

to do ever since we got here.

-Wow.

I missed those lips so much.

I was too scared to say or do
anything since we got here.

I didn't want to
get you in trouble.

-I love you, Matthew.

-I love you, too.

-I have to tell you something.

[SIGHS] I've been saved ever
since I was 12 years old.

And ever since then, I've
tried to be a good Christian.

You know, I really have.

All this stuff they're
trying to tell us here?

You know, how we need to be
transformed into heterosexuals

and how we need to have a
strong relationship with Jesus

in order to accomplish that--
I don't believe that anymore.

I feel very close
with Jesus, Matt.

And, you know, I did
ever since I was saved.

It's like He's with
me all the time.

[SIGHS] But I don't
see a conflict

between my Christianity and
my homosexuality any longer.

And I don't want to bear
the struggle anymore.

I just want to be myself.

And I can be that with you.

And I can be that
with Jesus also.

I just wouldn't
let myself before.

He doesn't hate
me for being gay.

You know, He never did.

But I need to stop
hating myself.

And I know I'm
going to hate myself

if we take this any further.

I just don't want this to be
a summer fling between us.

You mean too much to me.

I want to continue to see you
openly after camp is over,

and I want to take you
out on a real date.

I want to spend some
quality time with you.

I want us to be a real couple.

I want our first time to be
beautiful and not a quickie

because we had to sneak around.

I don't want to sneak
around, Matthew.

I don't care how long it takes.

You'll be 18 soon
enough, and you'll

be able to move out of
your parents' house.

Then they won't have
control over you anymore.

We'll plan things out.

We'll take things slowly.

And when we're ready, we'll
get our own place together,

someplace-- someplace where
we don't have to hide anymore.

I love you, Matthew.

I love you, and I'm not ashamed.

-I love you, too.

I suppose we have to
get dressed now, huh?

-Disappointed?

-No.

Not as long as you meant
everything that you just said.

-I totally meant it.

-All right, then.

First one more kiss.

Time for food?

-Huh?

Uh.

Yeah, food.

[MUSIC PLAYING]

-No!

Brandon!

It was just a dream.

Oh, calm down.

It was just a dream.

Oh, but it felt so real.

I need to know that he's OK.

I should call him.

Oh, but it's probably
too early to call.

But his mom's probably
already left for work,

so it should be OK.

Wait, that stupid.

I don't know what time his
mom gets up and goes to work.

What if everyone's
still sleeping

and I call and wake them up?

I'm gonna look so stupid.

Oh, it was just a stupid dream.

I just need to calm down.

Everything's going to be OK.

What if it's not?

Something just feels so wrong.

[PHONE RINGING]

[PHONE RINGING]

[PHONE RINGING]

-Hello?

BRANDON (ON PHONE): Matthew?

-Yeah.

Brandon, is that you?

BRANDON (ON PHONE): Yeah.

I didn't wake you, did I?

-Don't worry about it.

I-- I just had
this terrible dream

that something bad
was happening to you.

I just woke up from it.

It scared me so much I
was just gonna call you.

Are you OK?

BRANDON (ON PHONE): Sort of.

You had a dream about me?

-Yeah.

BRANDON (ON PHONE):
What happened in it?

-It was pretty scary.

I-- I dreamt that you were
trying to kill yourself.

BRANDON (ON PHONE): Wow.

-Pretty crazy, huh?

BRANDON (ON PHONE): Maybe
not so crazy, Matthew.

I nearly did it.

-Nearly did what?

BRANDON (ON PHONE): I
nearly killed myself.

I mean-- I was
thinking about it.

-Oh my God.

Are you OK?

BRANDON (ON PHONE): Yeah.

I didn't actually do anything.

I almost did, but
I stopped myself.

I'm sorry to lay all
this on you, Matthew.

-I'm just glad to
know that you're OK.

Promise me you won't
hurt yourself, Brandon.

BRANDON (ON PHONE): I promise.

-What's going on?

Why were you thinking
of killing yourself?

BRANDON (ON PHONE): When
I got home from camp,

things seemed kind of weird.

My brothers weren't there.

My mom told me
they were spending

the night at my grandparents'.

She said she wanted
to be able to talk

to me without them overhearing.

She asked me how camp was.

I told her it was fine.

[SIGHS] Of course,
what she wanted to know

was what sort of progress I'd
made toward becoming straight,

so she started asking
me questions about that.

At first, I tried
to just play along

and let her think I was cured.

But for some reason I
couldn't keep playing along.

I didn't want to live
like that anymore.

So I just decided to
be honest with her.

I told you that even though
camp tried pretty hard to get me

to work on being straight, I've
come to realize that I'm gay,

and there's nothing
that can change that.

I told her I finally
accept that's how it is

but that I also no longer
think of it as a bad thing.

I told her I feel
optimistic about my future.

She asked if this had
anything to do with you.

But I told her that as far as
I knew, camp worked for you.

I didn't want to say anything
to her that would get

you in trouble
with your parents.

So I told her that
this was only about me.

I told her that I was gay,
and that I wanted her to just

accept me and to love me even
if she didn't completely agree

with the idea of
having a gay son.

Well, she wasn't pleased at all.

Not with any of it.

I told her that I wasn't
trying to hurt her.

I was just trying to be honest
rather than to lie to her.

She told me that she
respected my honesty

but that she was disgusted
with what I had become,

and she said she couldn't
have someone like me living

in the same house with her
and my brothers any longer.

She told me that she didn't
want my siblings exposed

to the kind of person
that I have become.

She told me that she
was ashamed of me.

Then she went on to say that
this is the end of the line

for her and her
attempts to help me

and that clearly I did
not want to be helped.

So there was no point
any longer in her trying.

She told me that as far
as she was concerned,

I was dead to her and
dead to my brothers.

She told me to get
out of her home

and said that she never
wants to see me again.

She then started
to leave the house

and told me that she
was going to spend

the night at my
grandparents' house.

She said that by the
time she gets home

the next day she
expected me to be gone.

She said that I should gather
up whichever of my belongings

I wanted to take with me and
go somewhere far away from her

where she will
never see me again.

I was crying so hard, begging
for her not to do this,

apologizing to her
for causing her pain.

But she just walked out the
door and told me that I better

not be there when she gets back.

I couldn't believe
what had happened.

I felt like I wanted
to end it all.

Thoughts of killing
myself started

to flow through my
head, and I started

figuring out how
to actually do it.

I felt like I might
actually kill myself.

But I eventually started to get
so tired from crying so much

that I eventually passed
out and fell asleep.

But I just kept waking up, over
and over, and every time I did,

I felt more and more hopeless.

And I just kept
feeling more and more

like I should just end it all.

But then I started to
see you in my dreams,

calling out to me,
telling me not to do it.

And then I started to
feel a sense of calm.

I felt Jesus inside of
me and all around me.

I knew it was Him, because I had
that same feeling before when I

was saved, and I
still sometimes get

that feeling when
things are peaceful.

And I just clear my
head and focus on Him

and feel one with Him.

And even though things weren't
all that peaceful in my head

at that moment, and my thoughts
weren't so much on Jesus,

there He was, reminding me
that He was indeed with me.

And He was reminding me that
I didn't have it so bad,

reminding me how
blessed I truly was,

and reminding me of how bad
I wanted to take you out

on that date and how much
I was looking forward

to being with you and eventually
getting our own place together.

He reminded me that these things
that I was so looking forward

to were no less in front
of me now than they were

before the incident with my mom.

All I needed was the
strength to pick myself up.

And He helped me to find
that strength inside of me.

And He helped me to
see all of the reasons

that I had to be hopeful.

Now it's up to me, Matthew.

I know this is sudden,
but I have no choice now.

I have to move away.

And I wanted to call
you and tell you

and I also wanted to
invite you to come with me.

Now, I totally understand if
you need a little more notice.

and if you want to wait
awhile until I'm eventually

settled somewhere
before you join me.

That's totally OK.

But I have no choice
except to go now,

because I'm basically
homeless as of this moment.

It's totally up to you
what you want to do.

You don't-- you don't
have to come with me.

MATTHEW: [CRYING]

BRANDON (ON PHONE): I don't--
I want to pressure you.

I know how sudden this all is.

So if you want to stay
with your parents for now

and then join up
with me later, that's

totally fine, no hard feelings.

I still love you, and I
still plan on taking you out

on that date no matter
what you decide right now.

-I don't want to wait.

I want to go with you now.

BRANDON (ON PHONE):
Are you sure?

-Yes.

Will you come get me?

BRANDON (ON PHONE): I
will so come get you.

-[SNIFFS] All right.

I'll be here.

My parents should be out
for a while, so I'll just

pack whatever I need and--
and grab whatever money I can.

BRANDON (ON PHONE): Yeah.

I already grabbed
whatever I had.

I'm sure we'll be fine if
we pool our money together.

We'll catch a bus to someplace
where your parents won't be

able to find you, some
place that's safe for us.

I need to ask you one
more time, though.

Are you completely sure
you want to do this?

-[CRYING] Yes.

Just come get me.

I'll be waiting here for you.

BRANDON (ON PHONE): OK.

I'm on my way.

I love you, Matthew.

-[CRYING] I love you, too.

[MUSIC PLAYING]

[SNIFFLING]

Jesus, thank you for
being there for Brandon.

And thank you for keeping us
connected in our time of need.

[SOBBING] Thank you
for coming to Earth

and dying for all my sins.

I see you now.

You're always there.

[SOBBING] But now I see you.

[SOBBING] Thank you for
allowing me the opportunity

to open myself so that you
could be revealed to me.

[SOBBING] I know
that I'm a sinner,

just like every
other human being,

no ifs, ands, or buts about it.

I make no justifications,
no excuses for any of it.

I know that you died on
that cross for my sin.

And then you rose from the dead.

I confess that you are Lord.

I accept you now as
my Lord and savior.

Please enter me and let your
blood flow through my veins.

Please stay with me always.

Amen.

[SOBBING]

BRANDON: You sure you
still want to come with me?

It's not too late to
change your mind, you know.

-And so stop asking me that.

I'm so totally 100% sure.

In fact, there's something
else I'm sure about.

Come here.

-Matthew, I don't want to
rush you into any of this.

-Who's rushing?

This time around I'm certain
my dad won't be walking

through that door at any moment.

I'm done waiting, Brandon.

And besides, if we're gonna
start our new life together,

I think we can finally
stop holding ourselves back

from what's been building up
between us all these years.

Now lay down.

-Ah, yes, sir.

-It's gonna be OK, Matthew.

-I know.

But tonight feels
like it's gonna

be colder than last night.

It sucks so much that we
have to sleep out here again.

But I'll deal.

Maybe if I wasn't so hungry
this wouldn't be so bad.

I've never been this
hungry before, Brandon.

-I know what you mean.

I'm sorry I put you
through all this, Matthew.

It's my fault that we're here.

-It's not your fault.

I want to be with you.

I'd rather be here with you
than anywhere else in the world.

-I know.

I just wish we were
together someplace else.

I wish being with me
didn't mean sitting

here, hungry and homeless.

-Will you stop
beating yourself up?

We'll get through all of it.

-Yeah.

Well, in the meantime, I
think I should try and find us

some money, enough to
buy us a bite to eat.

Maybe I can even find
us enough to rent

us a room in that cheap
hotel for the night.

It's nasty there, but at least
we'd have our own private room

and shower.

Want to shower with me, Matthew?

-Heck yeah, I do.

But how are you gonna
get us the money?

-I'm just gonna go into the bar,
see what I can come up with.

-How are you going to
get money in there?

The same guys that offer
us money for blow jobs

go in and out of there.

-I know.

-Look, I don't want you sucking
some nasty pervert's dick just

to get us money to
feed me and give us

a room to sleep in for a night.

Who said anything
about sucking dick?

Don't worry, Matt.

You know I wouldn't do that.

Your dick is the only dick
I'm interested in, sorry.

And what a fine dick it is.

-So how are you gonna
get us money in there?

-I'm just gonna see if I can
find someone who looks nice.

You know, maybe they
can give me some money.

Or maybe I can win some
money playing pool or darts.

I'm real good at
that sort of stuff.

-Should I come with you?

-Nah.

You stay here and
guard our stuff.

If anyone gives
you trouble, don't

be afraid to yell
an run into the bar.

There's plenty of people around,
though, so you'll be safe.

But just in case, you
know what to do, OK?

-OK.

And you be careful, too.

Promise me you won't
do anything stupid.

-Who, me?

Don't worry.

I'll be putting any nasty
pervert's gross herpes-

and gonorrhea-covered
dick in my mouth.

-And don't forget genital warts.

-How could I forget
genital warts

after Counselor
Dave's many lectures?

Allow me to correct myself.

I won't be putting any nasty
pervert's gross herpes-,

gonorrhea-, and
genital-warts-covered,

pus-dripping dick in my mouth.

Oh, and how about this?

Even if there's a guy in
there with a dick as clean

as my mother's kitchen table
after she's disinfected

the hell out of it and he
offers me $1,000 to suck

his super clean dick,
I still won't do it.

Even if he offers me $100 just
to touch it once with my pinky,

I won't do it.

It's just you and me, Matthew.

There's no other guys for
me, not even for money.

I promise.

It's just you and me forever.

I love you, Matthew.

-I love you, too.

NEARBY MAN'S VOICE: Oh,
how sweet, the two of you

are so adorable.

You're like cute
little gay kittens.

-Um, hi.

NEARBY MAN'S VOICE: Sorry, boys.

I wasn't exactly going out
of my way to eavesdrop.

I was just grabbing
a smoke outside

and couldn't help but overhear.

But since I'm already
out here, mind

if I grab a seat
with the both of you?

Maybe I can help you boys out.

Is there room on this
cardboard for me?

-Yeah, I guess so.

-Sure.

Why not?

-I prefer to get my rear on
a nice comfortable chair.

Oh, this dirty
piece of cardboard.

Not to say my rear
doesn't get around.

But you boys don't
need to know that.

-Um--

-Oh, I'm just being silly.

Hi, I'm Tommy.

-I'm Brandon.

-Oh, Such a nice,
firm handshake.

-I'm Matthew.

-Oh, what young, delicate hands.

Oh, I feel like a dirty
old man just touching them.

Oh, you know, a lot
of the boys in there

are talking about you two.

You can definitely make some
money if you go in there.

But it will be
playing pool or darts.

Betting on games is
against bar rules.

And besides, the men in there
have things on their mind

besides pool when it
comes to the two of you.

The kind of stick they want
to handle when it comes to you

boys isn't a pool stick,
if you know what I mean.

So if you go in there
by yourselves with money

on your mind, be prepared
for exactly the kind

of business transaction
you don't want.

-So what are we
supposed to do, Tommy?

-Well, let me ask you first, how
did the two of you end up here?

I mean, I asked the
bartender about you.

He's a friend of mine and
doesn't spread false gossip.

He said that as far as he
knows, you're not into drugs.

And you're obviously not
hustlers, so what gives?

-Is it OK if I tell him?

-Yeah, I guess so.

The no talking to strangers
rule doesn't apply anymore.

Everyone here is a stranger.

-I'm not so strange.

I'm just your
run-of-the-mill queenie homo.

-Well, we come from
very Christian families.

I got kicked out of my
house for being gay.

And Matthew's my boyfriend.

We hopped on a bus and took
it far, far away from home so

that his parents wouldn't find
him and couldn't touch him.

[SIGH] His parents had put
him in a mental institution

for being gay before.

And we didn't want
them doing it again.

He's still only 17, so
they can pretty much

do whatever they want with him.

TOMMY: It never
changes, does it?

After all the
progress we've made,

there are still nice
young boys going

through the exact same thing
today as when I was your age.

And believe me, that was
a very long time ago.

-You don't seem that old, Tommy.

-Oh, flattery will get
you everywhere, Matthew.

So what about you, Brandon?

Are you also 17?

-Nope.

I'm 18.

-Have you tried to get
any social services?

-We got here a few days ago.

I stopped by the county office
as they were closing today,

and they said it was
too late in the day,

and they told me to
come back on Monday.

Besides, I'd rather just work.

-I wanna work, too.

-Yeah.

-That's just how we were raised.

Except we talked about it, and
we decided that it would be

best if we waited
until Matthew turned 18

before he got a job so
that his name doesn't

suddenly pop up on the radar.

His parents are probably
still looking for him.

He left them a note saying
not to worry and not to look

for him, but I doubt
they'll listen.

-Would they suspect the two
of you are together right now?

-Yeah.

Probably.

-If that's the case, and
they're looking for him,

it's just as easy for a
private investigator or police

to spot your name when
it pops up on the radar.

-Yeah.

I know.

But he's gonna turn 18
in just a few weeks.

And if anybody
starts bothering me,

we'll just stall them
until after he turns 18.

TOMMY: And if the two of
you just lay low for now,

then when Matthew
turns 18, you won't

have to worry at all
about any of that.

-Yeah, I guess.

But that means being homeless.

TOMMY: Maybe not.

Listen, boys.

I'm a pretty good
judge of character.

I have a pretty big house and
can probably offer you a place

to stay for now until
you get on your feet.

It's no strings
attached sort of thing.

I don't expect anything
back from either of you

except that you
behave as good guests.

There's a late night
cafe near here.

Why don't we walk
over there and I'll

buy you boys something to eat.

We can talk about it some
more, and once we're there,

get to know each other
a little bit better,

figure out if it's a good idea.

I'm a pretty good
judge of character

and don't think I have to worry
about you boys stealing from me

or taking advantage of me.

-You're right about that, Tommy.

-Good.

Then let's get going then.

-I don't know.

I-- I mean, it's one thing
to talk to a stranger.

It's another thing
to go home with one,

even if you do seem really nice.

TOMMY: I understand,
Matthew, and you're right.

But I only want to help.

You're very wise to be cautious.

But I promise you that you
will be far safer in my home

than you are right now
out here on the streets.

Besides, you boys
aren't the only ones

who come from a very
Christian family.

[CLEARS THROAT] "And
above all things,

have fervent charity among
yourselves, for charity

shall cover the
multitude of sins.

Use hospitality one to
another without grudging."

-Wow, Tommy.

Straight out of
the Book of Peter.

I'm impressed.

-Thank you, Brandon.

-OK, that was impressive.

-Come on.

Let's give it a chance.

We can at least go to the cafe
and talk about it some more.

It can't hurt to talk
about it some more.

-OK, I guess you're right.

But if we do decide
to go home with you,

will you promise that you're
really just trying to help us

and you won't hurt either of us
and you won't turn into a perv

and try to molest us?

I mean, I know that's
a stupid question.

Because if you were
trying to trick us,

you wouldn't tell us that
you were trying to trick us.

But I would feel a lot better
if you'd look me in the eye

and promise me anyway.

-I promise, Matthew.

-All right them.

If you're for real,
Tommy, then thank you.

Thank you so much.

-And this, boys, is
the guest bedroom.

Just throw your
stuff on the floor.

You can put it in the
dresser and the closet later.

There's plenty of room.

-This is great, Tommy.

TOMMY: You like it?

-Oh, totally.

It's nice in here just like
the rest of your house.

-So it's safe to say that
you gentlemen will be staying

the night and maybe
a little longer?

-It's a nice bedroom
and a nice house

and nice, safe neighborhood.

I'm so ready to crawl
into bed and not

have to sleep in
that alley again.

Thanks so much, Tommy.

And thank you
again for the food.

It was really good.

-You're totally welcome.

-Yeah, thanks again
for the food, Tommy.

That was the best sandwich
I ever had my whole life.

-Thank you, Matthew, but I
think your extreme hunger may

be influencing your rave
review of that sandwich.

-Well, yeah, maybe.

But maybe not.

It was all gourmet and stuff.

-Well, I'm glad you liked it.

I'm gonna give you boys
some privacy right now.

The guest bathroom
is right outside.

There are fresh towels
in case the two of you

want to shower
before you go to bed.

Feel free to use the hot water.

I won't need it until
tomorrow morning.

Also, there are new
toothbrushes in there.

And you boys are
welcome to use them.

You boys have a good night.

-Good night to you, too, Tommy.

-Yeah, Tommy, you
have a good night.

-Good night, boys.

[MUSIC PLAYING]

-So do you like it here so far?

-Yeah, I do.

-Well, good.

You wanna take a shower with me?

-Heck yeah.

-You know, aside from that camp,
we never showered together.

And I don't know if
camp really counts.

-Yeah, not really.

There'd be other guys in there.

And I was real nervous
because I was secretly

checking you out the whole time.

It's only because
I was so nervous

that I didn't get a hard-on.

-Yeah, you wouldn't
want to have to explain

a hard-on to the counselors.

Besides, Matthew,
Jesus only wants

you have a hard-on
for your future wife.

You'd be in trouble if you had
a hard-on in the boys' shower.

-I'd just tell them
it was all your fault.

-Oh, would you?

-Yeah, your fault for
being so damn hot.

--[LAUGHS] Well, I used
to check you out, too.

I just learned to run
the water cold on my cock

if it started to grow.

-Ooh, you're clever.

Well, it doesn't matter now.

Because now we can have
all the boners we want.

-What are we gonna do
with all them boners?

-I could think of stuff.

So do you want to shower with me
and run the water nice and warm

for a change?

-Dude, I've never been so
excited about a shower.

I'm washing you
all over real good.

-Same here.

I'm especially gonna focus
on that cock of yours.

That things is so huge.

I hope there's enough
soap and water.

-Yeah, right.

-It's humongous.

[MUSIC PLAYING]

-It was nice sleeping
in, wasn't it?

-Yeah, it was.

I don't even remember
Tommy leaving this morning.

-Yeah, he just sort of gently
knocked on the bedroom door

and popped his head in.

He said he had to
go to the salon.

-Did he say when he'd be back?

-Nope.

-Sorry I was so tired after
the shower last night.

-You so don't have
to be apologizing

for being tired after
all you've been through.

But you're not tired
now, though, are you?

-No.

-Good.

Cause, uh, I have plans for you.

-Oh yeah, what sort of plans?

-Well, it's been a stressful
time for the both of us.

It would be nice
to unwind a bit.

I know I sure could go for
a nice, relaxing blow job.

-Oh, aren't you
the romantic one?

Well, I meant romantic blow job.

I thought that went
without saying.

-Oh, of course.

-So very romantic being here
with my wonderful, handsome

boyfriend and being
intimate with him.

Oh, kissing your sweet lips,
feeling your warm mouth pressed

against mine, getting aroused
by even your slightest touch, so

aroused by my boyfriend, longing
for those nice, soft lips

of his to be wrapped
around my big, hard cock.

[PHONE RINGING]

BRANDON: Shit.

MATTHEW: Should we pick up?

[PHONE RINGING]

-Yeah, Tommy said he might
call to check in on us.

That could be him right now.
[PHONE RINGING]

-I'll be right back.

[PHONE RINGING]

BRANDON: Hello?

Oh, hi, Tommy.

Yeah, everything's fine.

Are you sure?

You don't have to do that.

OK, thanks, Tommy.

We'll be ready.

Well, that was Tommy.

-Yeah, that's what
it sounded like.

What's up?

-He said he's done with
his clients for the day

and he's having his
employees close up later so

that he can leave early.

He said he wants to
take us out to lunch

and give us a tour of the city.

He'll be here in a few minutes.

-That's so nice of him.

He doesn't have to do that.

-I know.

That's what I said.

But it would probably
be a good idea

to have a tour of the city.

It would be nice to
know our way around.

But I guess there's no
time for that blow job now.

-Aw, I guess I'll
just have to owe you.

-Good.

Because I'm so gonna
collect that debt.

-Oh, you don't have to worry.

That's one debt I'm
looking forward to paying.

Maybe I'll even earn some
interest in the meantime.

-I don't exactly know
what that means, Matt,

but I do can't wait to find out.

-Today was a fun day, wasn't it?

Yeah, it was.

It looks like Tommy's gonna
be OK with us sticking

around for at least a few weeks.

-Yeah, Tommy's so nice.

We're so lucky to have met him.

-Totally.

It looks like we're going
to be sleeping in tomorrow.

It's not like we belong
to a church around here.

-Yeah, but maybe we could
find one eventually.

I mean, I've heard
of some churches that

are actually OK with gay people.

-Wow.

That sounds like a
nice change of pace.

-Yeah.

But sleeping in on Sundays
doesn't sound too bad.

-Yeah.

I'm still a little worn out from
all that we've been through.

By the way, I have to
tell you something.

You sometimes toss and turn
and even talk in your sleep.

-Oh gosh.

I'm sorry.

I hope it doesn't bother you.

-Oh, no.

It's cool.

I just have these crazy dreams.

-Like what?

-Well, most of them I
don't even remember.

But the ones I do, I
usually prefer not to.

-Nightmares?

-Nah, they're just
really weird and bizarre.

-Oh yeah?

Tell me one.

-Are you sure?

My dreams get pretty weird.

-Yes.

Tell me one of your dreams.

-All right.

Well, you remember
that, uh, "Hot

Cock 4-U" magazine that I had?

-How could I forget?

-Well, there was a
safe sex article in it.

And it talked about
dingleberries.

-Oh, no.

-Yeah.

And I fell asleep
after reading it.

And I had this dream that I was
staring into this guy's ass,

and there were dingleberries.

But they were like these
little cartoon characters that

were talking to me
and singing and trying

to convince me to eat them up.

-Ew!

-Yeah, I know.

But then I woke up.

-Ah, thank goodness.

-You're telling me.

-Well I promise if you ever
decide to give me a rim job,

I will take a shower first.

-You are so not
getting a rim job.

--[LAUGHS] I could live
without it, I guess.

-Well, you do get
lots of other stuff.

Oh yeah, like what?

-Like that blow job I
owe you from earlier.

-Oh, yeah.

I forgot about that.

-No, you didn't.

-You're right.

I didn't.

[LAUGHING]

-I believe these are yours.

[MOANING]

[MOANING]

MATTHEW: That's great.

-Thank you.

-It's sort of fun
having a pool table.

It's not as boring waiting
around until I turn 18.

I mean, I know we
do chores and stuff,

but that doesn't take much time.

-There is actually something
I want to talk to you about,

Matt.

-So important you can't talk
while taking your next shot?

-It kind of is, actually.

-Well what is it, Brandon?

-Well, remember the other night
when we met Tommy's boyfriend?

-Yeah.

-Well, while you and
Tommy were preparing food

and wouldn't let us into the
kitchen, he and I were talking.

-And?

-And he told me that he
and Tommy are good friends

with the owners of this
gay club around here.

Tommy just probably
hadn't though about it,

but apparently they're
always looking for helpers.

And he said that he's pretty
sure they'd hire me and pay me

off the books for a few
weeks until you turned 18.

-Wow, that's great.

I mean, I know how
much you really

want to work and start
making us some money.

Uh, but a gay club?

-Yeah.

I know.

-Well, what would
you be doing there?

I mean, what sort of
helpers do they need?

You don't know how to bar tend.

And we don't believe
in drinking alcohol.

So what would you be
doing in a place that

serves alcohol to horny gay men?

-It could be different stuff,
like helping clean up the bar,

helping wash the bar glasses,
or working the front door

or working the coat check or
carrying around a tray of shots

and trying to sell
them to the customers.

But most of the money would
probably come from dancing.

MATTHEW: Dancing?

I don't understand.

-I'd be a go-go boy, Matt.

-A go-go boy.

I'm not overly
familiar with this,

so correct me if I'm wrong,
but isn't a go-go boy

sort of like a
go-go girl, someone

that dances around wearing
practically nothing up

on a platform or in
a cage and has money

shoved down their waistband
by nasty perverts?

-Yeah, something like that.

-What the fuck, Brandon?

Jeez, I can't believe
I just said that.

-I don't think
I've ever heard you

curse like that in
your whole life, Matt.

-I know.

I'm sorry.

I shouldn't talk
to you like that.

-Well, I guess I deserved
it laying all this on you.

MATTHEW: No.

No, you don't.

I'm just confused, that's all.

I understand that you
want to make money,

but why not wait until I turn
18 so we can get regular jobs?

-Because.

Thanks to me, the boy that
I love more than anything

in the world, the
boy that I want

to spend the rest
of my life with,

ended up homeless, sleeping on
cardboard in a dirty alley way.

I don't think I can ever
forgive myself for that, Matt.

You know, if I'd only learned
to shut my mouth, none of this

would have happened.

We could have secretly made
plans and done it the right way

if I'd only lied to my mom when
she asked me about being gay.

But thanks for my pressing
need to be honest,

look what happened.

-Yeah, but at least we have a
roof over out heads for now.

-Yeah, but as things stand,
we don't have any money.

We're relying entirely
on Tommy's hospitality.

I mean, what if he gets tired of
having us around before we have

enough money to
get our own place?

We'd be homeless again.

I refuse to let
that happen, Matt.

I need to start
getting some money,

and I need to start
getting some money now.

I'm gonna take care
of us, Matthew.

You mean more to
me than anything.

But since I can't
find another job,

I guess I'll just have to be
a go-go boy if that's what it

takes to keep my boyfriend safe.

-That's-- that's so--

-Yeah, so stupid, I know.

-I was going to say beautiful.

-Beautiful?

-Yeah, beautiful.

I have the best boyfriend ever.

-No.

I have the best boyfriend ever.

So you're gonna be OK
with me doing this?

-As long as you promise
to be very careful.

I know they were just trying
to scare us at Camp Get

the Gay Out, Brandon, but not
everything was scare tactics.

A lot of it was the counselors'
personal experiences.

Do you remember when
Counselor Dave gave us

that talk about that
one gay cowboy movie?

-Yeah.

-Well, he said that the
gay relationships he'd seen

weren't like the movie.

The gay relationships he'd
seen didn't last for years,

that most of them were just a
brief, random sexual encounter

that lasted only a few minutes.

And that if they did happen
to last more than a few weeks,

they'd quickly fall apart
a few months later when

one of the guys would tire of
monogamy and start to stray.

He said that to a gay
man, a boyfriend is just

as disposable as any cheap
toy we have these days.

He said that the gay
lifestyle promoted promiscuity

over stability because
it favored superficiality

and self-gratification rather
than love and spirituality.

He cried when he told us how
he was once in love with a man

and how they would constantly
cheat on each other.

He was so broken
down and bitter when

he said that a gay
man would rather

a new, exciting sexual
encounter rather

than anything else in life.

I felt so sad for him.

-I think you're putting things
a little too nicely, Matt.

I believe the exact words
ex-gay Counselor Dave used were,

"Gay guys don't know a darn
thing about God and love.

All they care about is dick.

And to them, strangers'
dicks taste best.

The stranger the better."

MATTHEW: Well, I just
don't want that to be us.

-Well, it's not.

And it won't be.

I promise.

The thought of being with anyone
else but you repulses me, Matt.

I could never get sick of you.

We've been-- we've
known each other almost

our whole lives now.

And we've been friends
through the whole thing.

And now we're just
more than that.

You are not disposable to me.

I don't ever want
to live without you.

I love you.

And all the strangers'
dicks in the world

could never make
me think otherwise.

I look forward to a
lifetime together,

a lifetime of
sharing and caring,

a lifetime of making love,
a lifetime of bending you

over pool tables and
having my way with you.

--[LAUGHS] I didn't
see that one coming.

-Well, maybe you should have.

Now, turn around and bend over.

-[MOANS IN SLEEP]

[MUSIC PLAYING]

(SINGING) This is pure torture.

The sweet boy I love has gone.

Love and peace,
nothing to him when

presented with a stranger's cum.

Well I guess strangers'
dicks taste best.

Well I guess strangers'
dicks taste best.

Well I guess
strangers' dicks taste

best, at least
tastier than mine.

The pure love in
this cruel world

should not be easily dismissed.

But loving becomes
irrelevant compared

to the sweet flavor of piss.

Well I guess strangers'
dicks taste best.

Well I guess strangers'
dicks taste best.

Well I guess
strangers' dicks taste

best, at least
tastier than mine.

You say you're still just a kid.

Yeah, what a guy commitment
[INAUDIBLE] but I could be.

But instead he went up on your
knees sucking crusty cock,

swallowing STDs.

Oh.

[MUSIC PLAYING]

(SINGING) Well, I guess
strangers' dicks taste best.

Well, I guess strangers'
dicks taste best.

Well, I guess
strangers' dicks taste

best, at least
tastier than mine.

-[MOANING IN SLEEP]

-Shh.

Shh.

It's OK, Matthew.

It's just a dream.

-No stranger's dick.

-Oh, Jeez, Matt.

No strangers' dicks.

It's just you and me, sweetie.

You're just having a bad dream.

Get some sleep and
have happy dreams,

happy dreams for Matthew.

-Mm.

Happy.

[MUSIC PLAYING]

TOMMY: Good night, Matthew.

-Good night, Tommy.

[DOOR OPENING]

[DOOR CHIME RINGING]

[DOOR CLOSING]

[MUSIC PLAYING]

[DOOR OPENING]

[DOOR CHIME RINGING]

[DOOR CLOSING]

-Hey, you.

BRANDON: Hey.

-How was school?

BRANDON: Good.

I did really well on that one
test that I took the other day.

if I'm doing as well when I
finally start the regular fall

semester as I'm doing with
these two intro summer classes,

college should be
a breeze for me.

-Wow. that's really great.

-And how was your day?

-Hectic, as usual.

But I kinda like hectic days.

I had this new client today
who gave me a really huge tip.

She said I made her
look nicer that she

ever looked in her whole life.

But I think the tip was as
much for the conversations

as for the haircut.

Tommy said that being
a great hairdresser

is much more than
giving a good haircut.

You have to sort of
chat up the client

and make them feel
comfortable or else

you won't be getting
a very good tip.

-Well, you're very
fun to talk to you.

I'm sure you'll be
getting plenty more

big tips in the future.

I'm glad you're enjoying
being a stylist.

-Yeah. being a shampoo boy
and an apprentice was fun,

but now that I have my
license, it's so much better.

I really love being a
stylist in Tommy's salon.

-Yeah.

I kinda miss you being
a shampoo boy, though.

It was fun having you
practice shampooing my hair.

-Aw, well do you
want a quick shampoo

before we go back
to our apartment?

-Yeah.

I kind of would, actually.

-All right.

Let's get you over to
that shampoo station then.

[MUSIC PLAYING]

[MOANS]

MATTHEW: How does that feel?

-Ah!

Oh, wonderful.

MATTHEW: [LAUGHS] I should
shampoo you more often.

That moan sounded almost like
the noises you make during sex.

BRANDON: [LAUGHS] Should
I work on expanding

my repertoire of sexual noises?

MATTHEW: No, your repertoire
is just fine with me.

I like your cute
noises. [LAUGHS]

BRANDON: Ah.

MATTHEW: Let's get you
over to the salon chair

so I can blow dry and
style your hair for you.

-[LAUGHS]

Hm.

you know what?

I think I just want to comb
it out and let it air dry.

I'm gonna wind up
ruining the style anyway

when I take my nap
later before work.

So I'll wait until
then before I style it.

MATTHEW: Oh, you go-go
boys and your perfect hair.

--[LAUGHS] Yeah,
well, even when I bar

tend it helps to have good hair.

The cuter you are,
the more tips you get.

That places is as
superficial as they come.

But it pays the bills
and the owners are great.

They love the fact
that I'm not into drugs

and don't get involved
with any of the gay drama.

They said that-- they
said that they wish

all their employees
were like me.

--[LAUGHS] Well, I'll be glad
when you get your college

degree and you can quit
there and start doing the kid

of work you really want to do.

-Yeah.

me, too.

But it's still going
to be a few years.

-Yeah, I know.

I'm totally cool with that.

Any worries I had in
the beginning about you

working at a gay club
are totally gone.

You're still the same
Brandon I know and love.

-Yeah, well, I think we've both
matured a lot this past year

but at the same time
stayed true to who we are.

-Hey, who are you
calling mature?

[BOTH LAUGH]

So you wanna get out
of here and get home?

-Uh, hold on a moment.

There's actually something that
I want to talk to you about.

And I don't want to
wait until we get home.

-What's up?

-You haven't heard the
news yet, have you?

-News?

What news?

-I think we should switch
places first before I tell you.

I want you to be
sitting for this.

-Something bad?

-No, not bad, just big.

-OK.

So what's this big news already?

-It's about the
discrimination court case

that's been in the
new so much lately.

They just had their ruling
late this afternoon.

The state Supreme
Court just ruled

that denying gay couples
the right to marry

is against the
state constitution.

Gay marriage just
became legal here.

-Oh my goodness.

That's great news, Brandon.

-I think so.

I actually think it's amazing
news, Matthew, because I've

been holding on to something
for close to a year now,

and I finally have the
chance to give it to you.

-What what is it.

Brandon?

I'm confused.

-After you turned
18 about a year back

and we no longer had to keep our
whereabouts a secret anymore,

do you remember
how Chuck was when

he finally heard from us again?

And he didn't judge us, and
he didn't give us any grief.

He just said that we
better be there at his

and Stacy's wedding
and that we better

follow through and
be his best men.

-Yeah, Chuck's
awesome like that.

-Yeah, he is.

It was already weird enough
that he had two best men

at as wedding, but
on top of that,

his best men were a gay couple
and everybody at the church

knew thanks to the
church rumor mill.

Despite that, he and Stacy
made sure that we felt welcome.

After being rejected by
my mother and my church,

being accepted by Chuck was one
of the most heartwarming things

that I've ever felt in my life.

Chuck, the All-American
heterosexual Christian, Chuck,

the youth group leader,
Chuck, the future reverend

accepted us with an
open heart and open arms

and showed us the same
amount of love and friendship

that he's always shown
us as though nothing

had ever changed.

-Yeah, he totally did.

-And he did even more than that.

He pulled me aside
at the wedding

and he gave me something to give
to you when the time was right.

He said he understood that
what you and I had is exactly

equal to what he and Stacy
had and that despite what

the church said right now and
despite what the government

said right now, he truly
believed that one day soon, we

would have the opportunity
to express our commitment

and our devotion for
each other the same way

that he and Stacy were able to.

He said that it was unfair for
us to be denied that right.

And he just told
me to hang in there

and to stay true to my faith and
to stay true to my principles,

and even if society didn't
come around in our lifetimes,

that we could still be a
committed Christian couple

without their official sanction.

He said that if we
stay true to our ideals

and true to each other, that
our union, whether recognized as

marriage or not, could still
mean so much more than so very

many empty marriages that
exist in society today.

But in anticipation that
his optimistic prediction

of marriage equality
actually came true soon,

he wanted me to be prepared.

So he gave me this ring.

Ever since then, I've been
waiting for the right moment

to put this on you and to
ask you to be my husband.

I love you so much, Matthew.

Would you please do me
the honor of marrying me?

-Of course I'll
marry you, Brandon.

I will so marry you.

[MUSIC PLAYING]