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Are you ready?
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Ms O'Riordan, this is a
really serious offence.
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You understand this, yes?
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Yeah.
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- Has the victim made a statement?
- Yes, sir.
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She says, "I knew Orla meant me no harm
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and I beg you to go easy on her."
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Thank you.
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Ms O'Riordan, the tariff starts
at 35 days plus another seven
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because you physically
took hold of the victim.
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But there are some mitigating factors.
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Your children going into care is one.
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Your good behaviour...
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- Excellent, you said, Officer Martin?
- Yes, sir.
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Your excellent behaviour.
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And, of course, the fact
that you pleaded guilty.
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Mrs O'Riordan, you will serve
an extra 20 days in prison.
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Thanks.
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Thank you.
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You're back, then?
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You delivered Kelsey's baby?
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Yeah.
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No officer, or... ?
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No. They were all watching
your little show, weren't they?
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I didn't know.
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I'm sorry.
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Oh, my God.
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Aw, wow!
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Look at him.
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He's perfect.
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Yeah, he is.
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Would you like to hold him?
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- Oh, no...
- No, please, hold him.
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Please. I'd like you to.
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- Are you sure?
- Yeah, I'd really like that.
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All right.
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There you go.
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- Sh...
- Ooh, shh...
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- Aw!
- It's OK...
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There you go.
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Oh, Kelsey.
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He's only little, but
he's a right milk monster.
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- Are you feeding him yourself?
- Yeah. I am, yeah.
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Mm.
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What's his name?
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Daniel.
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- SHE SNIFFLES, I can't...
- It's OK, it's OK.
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There he is.
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You let me down, Adam.
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You got it anyway, babe.
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You got the mother and baby unit.
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Yeah, no thanks to you.
You've let me down big time.
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Where is he now, babe?
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Where's the baby?
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He's asleep.
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Let me come and see him, Kels.
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Yeah?
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Let me come and see little baby Adam.
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It's Daniel.
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I thought you were
going to name him Adam.
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After me.
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Well, I didn't. It's Daniel.
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And it's too late to change that now.
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That's OK, babe. Just...
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... let me come and see little Daniel.
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I've got to go.
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No, look. Listen, Kels...
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- He's crying.
- Babe...
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I think he's got a little bit of wind,
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his little legs keep lifting up.
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Oh, baba, come here. There you go.
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Is it wind hurting my baba? Is it?
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Is it wind?
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Come here.
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- Hi, Maeve.
- Hi, miss.
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Do you mind if I close this?
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What's it about? Is it bad news?
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No. Well, nothing to do
with your family or anyone,
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so do you mind?
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Right. Yeah.
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Lou's had a bit of good news.
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A card from her son, yeah. Great.
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- You two still close?
- Yeah.
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Not had a fallout?
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No. Why?
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Maeve, her son didn't send
that card. Someone else did.
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How do you know that?
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- I phoned him.
- Right.
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And why are you telling
ME this? What... ?
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You think I sent it?
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I think someone you know sent it.
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Someone on the outside.
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Why would they do that?
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Because you asked them to.
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I only did it to see her face light up.
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I know.
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I know you didn't do it maliciously.
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So what are you going to do about it?
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I don't know.
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No Kyle?
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No.
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- Can I get you a drink?
- No, I'm all right. Hey.
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- What... ?!
- I don't want it!
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- What?
- Take it back.
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Don't be so stupid.
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You're the stupid one. Shh!
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- What have I done?
- You prick.
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What have I done?
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You know I've packed it in.
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You're always saying that, Kelsey.
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No, I HAVE packed in this time.
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You're going to have
to come with us, Morgan.
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- Wha... ? No, I didn't...
- Listen, I...
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Will you sit down and
remain seated, please?
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I didn't mean for any of
this. It wasn't planned...
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He's passed you something
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- and we need to see what it is.
- It's something we used to do,
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but he didn't know I didn't
want to do it any more.
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Move, please. Kelsey.
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Everyone knows I've packed it in!
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Ask anyone in this nick and they'll
tell you that I've packed it in.
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But he didn't believe that, that's
why he done this. It's not me.
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It's got nowt to do with me, it's him!
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In you go.
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They'll take the baby off her.
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Can they do that?
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Oh, yes.
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It wasn't my idea, honest.
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- Sit down. Take it out and show it to us, please.
- It wasn't!
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I didn't know he was going to do it.
If I did, I'd've done it properly.
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- Sit down. Take it out...
- I would've swallowed it...
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... and show it to me, please. And
you wouldn't have seen anything.
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Show it to me, please, Kelsey.
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Could you take her through, please?
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What's going to happen?
What's going to happen, miss?
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Shh...
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Erm, listen. I've been seeing someone.
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Right.
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Sahira.
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How long have you been together?
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About 18 months now.
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Serious, then?
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Yeah.
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What does she do?
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Uh, she's...
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- She's a nurse. Yeah.
- Yes.
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- At your hospital.
- Yes.
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Why are you smiling?
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- Just am.
- Yeah. Well, she's pregnant.
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Yeah, so, um...
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I just... I need to ask you something.
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What was the biggest
thing that I did wrong?
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Nothing.
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- Nothing, you're not to blame in any way whatsoever.
- I was.
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And I... know that I did
a lot of things wrong...
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... but... what was the biggest?
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The harder I found it,
the more you looked away.
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Right, erm...
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Someone from children's
services is coming
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and they're going to
take the baby for a while.
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- For a while?
- Yeah.
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- Will I get him back?
- Yeah.
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When?
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When will I get him back?
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I don't know.
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I'm never going to get him back,
then, if you say it like that...
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- Don't start thinking that.
- Well, when, then?
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You just keep doing what you're
doing, keep your head straight,
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and you'll get him back, but today...
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- They're not getting him.
- You put it in the baby's clothing.
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- Maybe if you hadn't have done that...
- I panicked! Didn't I?
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Didn't know what I was doing!
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Should you feed him?
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No. Because he's not going nowhere.
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I know you love him.
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I love him more than anything.
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Then hand him over,
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because if you resist, they're
still going to have to take him...
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- They're not taking him.
- ... and it might hurt him.
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- This is not the end.
- They're not getting him!
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It might take a bit of time,
but you can get him back.
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- They're not getting him! They're not getting him.
- It's definitely not the end...
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- They're not getting him.
- ... honestly.
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- But the... first thing you've got to do...
- They're not taking him!
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- ... is hand him over peacefully.
- They're not getting him!
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Because if you resist,
i-it could ruin your chances
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- of ever getting him back...
- You like your job, do you?
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- Yeah.
- But you like this most of all, don't you?
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Taking babies off mothers!
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You couldn't be more wrong.
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Why did you do it?
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I mean, there was your mother. Right?
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"I can't cope, Mum.
Can you come and stay?"
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That's better than...
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Did you just not think of that?
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How far gone is she?
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Or the woman next door. You
know, she's an experienced mother.
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All you had to do was say,
"I need a little bit of help."
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But you... Did you
just not think of that?
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Why did you do it?
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For fuck's sake, Abi.
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I mean, yeah, as bad as I was...
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... why did you do it?
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I don't know.
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Yeah... HE SNIFFLES
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Shall I take him?
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Can I?
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Come on.
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I'm sorry, Kels.
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Do you want your baby back, Kels?
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- Yeah.
- Yeah?
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Then keep off that stuff.
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Thanks.
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Hi.
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Come on in, Lou.
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Who's dead?
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No-one.
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What's all this, then?
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You sent that card?
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I'm so sorry.
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I'm so, so, so, so sorry.
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I didn't do it to hurt her.
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It wasn't a wind-up
or anything like that.
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Hello?
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Hi, Kyle.
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Grandma's died.
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When?
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Really early... this morning.
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The hospice phoned.
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Right.
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- What did she want? Burial or... ?
- Crem.
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Definitely a crem.
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Will you come to it?
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I'll ask.
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But I might be in handcuffs.
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- Why?
- Erm...
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Because I got into a bit of trouble.
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I'll see you, though.
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Won't I? I'll see you?
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I need to go.
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The family would like
to pass on their thanks
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to the Willow Care Hospice
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who looked after Elizabeth and
made her as comfortable as possible
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in her final months.
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Elizabeth had a lot of love
for her four shining lights.
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Kyle,
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Callum, Nancy and Orla.
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And one of them, her daughter Orla,
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is now going to say a
few of her own words.
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Thank you.
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Well, I'm not telling any secrets
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when I say me mam were fond of a drink.
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Hey, but we all make mistakes.
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She were an alcoholic.
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She'd been one all me life, me mam.
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She fought it, but...
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... she very rarely won.
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But there were this one day...
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Kyle's first Holy Communion.
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We'd been to Mass and were
coming back t'church hall
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and they opened the bar.
262
00:20:50,020 --> 00:20:52,340
And I weren't expecting
that, and me mam weren't.
263
00:20:53,540 --> 00:20:55,900
And I thought, "If
she touches one drop...
264
00:20:57,380 --> 00:20:59,660
I'm going and I'm taking Kyle wi' me."
265
00:21:00,820 --> 00:21:03,059
I mean, Kyle were having
the time of his life,
266
00:21:03,060 --> 00:21:04,339
playing with kids his own age and...
267
00:21:04,340 --> 00:21:07,340
... getting money off
adults. But sod it.
268
00:21:09,460 --> 00:21:11,260
He's coming wi' me.
269
00:21:13,980 --> 00:21:16,260
But she did not touch one drop.
270
00:21:18,260 --> 00:21:20,979
She probably battered
it when she got home,
271
00:21:20,980 --> 00:21:22,540
but in that church hall...
272
00:21:23,860 --> 00:21:26,699
... she stayed to the bitter end
273
00:21:26,700 --> 00:21:28,820
and she did not touch one drop.
274
00:21:30,340 --> 00:21:32,540
She were my hero that day.
275
00:21:48,940 --> 00:21:51,459
- Nice to see you.
- Well done, love.
276
00:21:51,460 --> 00:21:53,179
- So sad.
- Thank you.
277
00:21:53,180 --> 00:21:54,780
- Bye, see you soon.
- So sorry.
278
00:21:55,900 --> 00:21:56,940
Hiya. One minute.
279
00:21:58,660 --> 00:21:59,940
Please take 'em off.
280
00:22:01,100 --> 00:22:02,220
Please.
281
00:22:10,740 --> 00:22:12,099
Thank you.
282
00:22:12,100 --> 00:22:13,460
Hey, come here.
283
00:22:14,980 --> 00:22:16,899
Right, it's all right, yeah?
284
00:22:16,900 --> 00:22:21,899
It's going to be all right.
I'm going to see you soon. OK?
285
00:22:21,900 --> 00:22:26,299
I love you. Love you. Love you.
286
00:22:26,300 --> 00:22:28,299
OK? You tell your brother...
287
00:22:28,300 --> 00:22:31,459
You tell your brother
that I love him, all right?
288
00:22:31,460 --> 00:22:32,980
I've got to go.
289
00:22:45,220 --> 00:22:46,459
Babe?
290
00:22:46,460 --> 00:22:48,179
Hiya.
291
00:22:48,180 --> 00:22:49,740
Kels, I'm sorry, babe.
292
00:22:52,060 --> 00:22:54,940
I'm really... really,
really sorry, babe.
293
00:22:55,940 --> 00:22:57,540
Right.
294
00:22:59,700 --> 00:23:01,340
What are you going to do?
295
00:23:03,460 --> 00:23:05,459
I'm going to get him back.
296
00:23:05,460 --> 00:23:07,299
How, babe?
297
00:23:07,300 --> 00:23:09,459
I mean, that's good, yeah,
298
00:23:09,460 --> 00:23:11,099
but how are you going to do that?
299
00:23:11,100 --> 00:23:13,179
That's why I'm phoning.
300
00:23:13,180 --> 00:23:15,060
I'm going to tell the truth.
301
00:23:16,460 --> 00:23:19,139
If I'm going to get him back,
I've got to get out of this place,
302
00:23:19,140 --> 00:23:22,219
- so I'm going to tell the truth.
- And what is the truth?
303
00:23:22,220 --> 00:23:24,180
You know what the truth is, Adam.
304
00:23:26,260 --> 00:23:28,100
And who are you going to tell this to?
305
00:23:29,740 --> 00:23:31,579
The bizzies.
306
00:23:31,580 --> 00:23:33,099
What?
307
00:23:33,100 --> 00:23:35,059
The bizzies!
308
00:23:35,060 --> 00:23:37,099
So you're grassing on me?
309
00:23:37,100 --> 00:23:39,259
Uh... I'm telling the truth!
310
00:23:39,260 --> 00:23:40,979
Well, I'm telling you this, babe,
311
00:23:40,980 --> 00:23:42,659
if you go near those bizzies,
312
00:23:42,660 --> 00:23:47,139
if you even THINK about bubbling
me to those bizzies, you're dead.
313
00:23:47,140 --> 00:23:49,619
You're dead and your baby's dead.
314
00:23:49,620 --> 00:23:52,139
Yeah, and don't think
I won't be able to do it
315
00:23:52,140 --> 00:23:53,819
because I'll be banged up.
316
00:23:53,820 --> 00:23:56,379
Because I'll just slip someone
in your nick a bit of brown,
317
00:23:56,380 --> 00:23:59,180
and some slag, a little bit of
brown, and she'll do it for me.
318
00:24:00,660 --> 00:24:03,820
She'll cut you and your baby's throat.
319
00:24:21,140 --> 00:24:22,380
Send him down, Kels.
320
00:24:24,980 --> 00:24:26,820
Send him down.
321
00:24:43,180 --> 00:24:45,460
- All right?
- Yeah, have you got a minute?
322
00:24:45,461 --> 00:24:46,461
Yeah.
323
00:24:51,460 --> 00:24:53,979
Yeah, my son's coming to see me.
324
00:24:53,980 --> 00:24:55,979
I'm pleased for you, Lou.
325
00:24:55,980 --> 00:24:59,020
Yeah, it's not a visit.
It's one of them...
326
00:25:00,060 --> 00:25:02,459
... you know, restorative
justice things.
327
00:25:02,460 --> 00:25:04,259
Right.
328
00:25:04,260 --> 00:25:05,739
So, uh...
329
00:25:05,740 --> 00:25:07,660
Yeah, I was wondering if...
330
00:25:08,780 --> 00:25:10,899
Would you come?
331
00:25:10,900 --> 00:25:12,059
Me?
332
00:25:12,060 --> 00:25:14,740
Well, I like you and...
333
00:25:15,780 --> 00:25:19,019
I thought you might be
all right with it and...
334
00:25:19,020 --> 00:25:20,060
Go on.
335
00:25:22,780 --> 00:25:24,820
I'm an alcoholic.
336
00:25:29,260 --> 00:25:30,300
Right.
337
00:25:43,700 --> 00:25:45,220
- Come in. Sit yourselves down.
- Yep.
338
00:25:48,140 --> 00:25:50,019
Um...
339
00:25:50,020 --> 00:25:53,859
OK, so I know everyone,
so I'll do some intros.
340
00:25:53,860 --> 00:25:58,939
I'm Marie-Louise. I'm chaplain
here. This is Prison Officer Carter.
341
00:25:58,940 --> 00:26:03,100
- This is Orla, who is here to support Lou, yes?
- Yeah.
342
00:26:04,420 --> 00:26:07,540
This is Stephen. This
is Lou's son, Stephen.
343
00:26:16,620 --> 00:26:18,540
I've always hated myself.
344
00:26:20,540 --> 00:26:22,140
That's where the booze came in.
345
00:26:24,100 --> 00:26:26,460
You can never forget
you hate yourself, but...
346
00:26:27,860 --> 00:26:30,059
... getting pissed helps a bit.
347
00:26:30,060 --> 00:26:32,579
Trouble is, the more pissed you get,
348
00:26:32,580 --> 00:26:34,499
the more you act like an idiot
349
00:26:34,500 --> 00:26:36,700
and the more you hate
yourself the next day.
350
00:26:39,860 --> 00:26:41,020
So, uh...
351
00:26:43,580 --> 00:26:45,540
Yeah, I started to be other people.
352
00:26:47,300 --> 00:26:49,900
Anybody. Anybody apart from me.
353
00:26:51,140 --> 00:26:55,459
And I told myself, I wisnae
drinking because I hated myself,
354
00:26:55,460 --> 00:26:57,820
I was drinking because
I was rock and roll.
355
00:26:59,420 --> 00:27:00,740
A bit wild.
356
00:27:04,500 --> 00:27:07,659
And that's what I was on
the day I punched Anna.
357
00:27:07,660 --> 00:27:09,339
I was...
358
00:27:09,340 --> 00:27:12,620
I was just rabbiting on and
she came up to me and said...
359
00:27:13,900 --> 00:27:15,940
... "Why are you behaving like this?"
360
00:27:20,540 --> 00:27:23,420
It was... so simple.
361
00:27:24,540 --> 00:27:26,180
So clear.
362
00:27:30,140 --> 00:27:33,660
And so impossible for me
to answer so I punched her.
363
00:27:35,860 --> 00:27:37,700
And she went down.
364
00:27:39,860 --> 00:27:40,900
And...
365
00:27:43,300 --> 00:27:46,019
I had to pretend that I didn't regret it
366
00:27:46,020 --> 00:27:47,860
in any way whatsoever because...
367
00:27:48,980 --> 00:27:51,580
... because I was rock
and roll. I was wild.
368
00:27:56,300 --> 00:27:59,140
But all I wanted to do was
pick her up and say, "I'm sorry.
369
00:28:00,820 --> 00:28:03,620
I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry."
370
00:28:08,980 --> 00:28:10,020
But... I didn't.
371
00:28:12,660 --> 00:28:15,699
And that was the last time
I ever touched a drink.
372
00:28:15,700 --> 00:28:18,019
I mean, this is a prison, yeah,
373
00:28:18,020 --> 00:28:19,739
but there's booze...
374
00:28:19,740 --> 00:28:22,580
There's even more drugs, but
I've never touched a thing.
375
00:28:26,860 --> 00:28:29,340
Deep down, I always wanted
to talk to you about it.
376
00:28:30,940 --> 00:28:33,740
But I thought if I did that,
I would be betraying Anna.
377
00:28:37,100 --> 00:28:39,020
But it was Anna who told me to come.
378
00:28:41,100 --> 00:28:46,140
She's not up to seeing you yet,
but she wanted me to come and...
379
00:28:47,660 --> 00:28:50,820
... I'd like to come again,
if that's OK, because...
380
00:28:52,260 --> 00:28:54,219
Well...
381
00:28:54,220 --> 00:28:56,380
It's been nice to finally meet you, Mum.
382
00:28:59,420 --> 00:29:01,380
I'd love that.
383
00:29:05,700 --> 00:29:07,140
Thank you.
384
00:29:14,140 --> 00:29:17,339
I can't get this one tight
like I did the other one.
385
00:29:17,340 --> 00:29:18,699
It's so annoying.
386
00:29:18,700 --> 00:29:21,779
- I don't even know why you need that string.
- I just make it up, I do.
387
00:29:21,780 --> 00:29:24,619
Hey, check this out...
Eh? Look at this...
388
00:29:24,620 --> 00:29:26,499
Have you seen that wizard thing... ?
389
00:29:30,540 --> 00:29:32,060
Maeve?
390
00:29:53,580 --> 00:29:54,860
I'm sorry.
391
00:30:16,620 --> 00:30:18,819
Calling on the case of the Crown
392
00:30:18,820 --> 00:30:22,059
versus Adam Muller and Kelsey Morgan.
393
00:30:22,060 --> 00:30:25,459
Mr Muller stands accused
of the importation of drugs,
394
00:30:25,460 --> 00:30:29,459
supplying class A drugs into
prison, and threats to kill.
395
00:30:29,460 --> 00:30:32,579
Miss Morgan stands accused
of the importation of drugs
396
00:30:32,580 --> 00:30:35,859
into the country, and smuggling
drugs into Carlingford Prison,
397
00:30:35,860 --> 00:30:39,219
where she's currently on remand.
398
00:30:39,220 --> 00:30:42,819
Your Honour, my client,
following her plea,
399
00:30:42,820 --> 00:30:45,499
would like to give evidence
for the prosecution.
400
00:30:45,500 --> 00:30:46,980
Very well.
401
00:30:48,780 --> 00:30:52,060
I call Kelsey Morgan to the stand.
402
00:30:55,820 --> 00:30:58,899
Well, I'm telling you this,
if you go near those bizzies,
403
00:30:58,900 --> 00:31:03,499
if you even THINK about bubbling
me to those bizzies, you're dead.
404
00:31:03,500 --> 00:31:06,899
Because I'll just slip someone
in your nick a bit of brown
405
00:31:06,900 --> 00:31:10,620
and she'll cut you
and your baby's throat.
406
00:31:15,940 --> 00:31:20,579
I was a heroin addict. I
was trying to come off it.
407
00:31:20,580 --> 00:31:23,459
And my mate and her
fella were going to Spain,
408
00:31:23,460 --> 00:31:27,339
and they wanted to get me away from
Adam and from where I was living.
409
00:31:27,340 --> 00:31:29,139
It was all drugs.
410
00:31:29,140 --> 00:31:33,299
Um, so they took me with them.
And it was great for a bit.
411
00:31:33,300 --> 00:31:36,579
I was rattling but I was doing OK.
412
00:31:36,580 --> 00:31:39,019
Then Adam showed up.
413
00:31:39,020 --> 00:31:41,819
Told me I was stupid
to be rattling in Spain.
414
00:31:41,820 --> 00:31:44,899
If I wanted to turkey, turkey
back home, not here in Spain,
415
00:31:44,900 --> 00:31:47,499
'cos Spain's for spoiling yourself.
416
00:31:47,500 --> 00:31:49,539
So I went back on it.
417
00:31:49,540 --> 00:31:52,379
Me and Adam flew home together.
418
00:31:52,380 --> 00:31:55,059
They wouldn't let me
through the green channel,
419
00:31:55,060 --> 00:32:00,459
they opened my bag and inside there
was a package of heroin, a kilo.
420
00:32:00,460 --> 00:32:03,179
A kilo of heroin.
421
00:32:03,180 --> 00:32:06,980
And Adam was suddenly
nowhere to be seen.
422
00:32:10,780 --> 00:32:13,299
He visited me on remand.
423
00:32:13,300 --> 00:32:15,099
And he told me that he loved me
424
00:32:15,100 --> 00:32:19,860
and that I was going down anyway so
please don't take him down with me.
425
00:32:20,860 --> 00:32:24,019
Is Adam in this courtroom?
426
00:32:24,020 --> 00:32:25,620
Yeah. He's there.
427
00:32:27,060 --> 00:32:30,499
Did you see him put
the package in your bag?
428
00:32:30,500 --> 00:32:32,299
Yes.
429
00:32:32,300 --> 00:32:34,619
Did you think it was drugs?
430
00:32:34,620 --> 00:32:36,060
Yeah.
431
00:32:37,460 --> 00:32:40,619
- Did you ask him if it was drugs?
- Yes.
432
00:32:40,620 --> 00:32:43,059
He said no, it was a
present for his mother.
433
00:32:43,060 --> 00:32:45,739
- You knew that was a lie.
- Yeah,
434
00:32:45,740 --> 00:32:48,099
but I couldn't call him a liar, could I?
435
00:32:48,100 --> 00:32:51,220
I couldn't call him a liar, 'cos I
was too scared to call him a liar.
436
00:32:56,780 --> 00:32:59,859
Miss Morgan, I can only
imagine the distress
437
00:32:59,860 --> 00:33:04,059
that having your baby
removed would have caused you.
438
00:33:04,060 --> 00:33:06,019
It is for this reason
439
00:33:06,020 --> 00:33:09,099
and the fact that you have
assisted the prosecution
440
00:33:09,100 --> 00:33:11,299
and that you pleaded guilty
441
00:33:11,300 --> 00:33:16,019
that I sentence you to
two-and-a-half years in prison.
442
00:33:16,020 --> 00:33:17,979
Taking into account the nine months
443
00:33:17,980 --> 00:33:19,979
that you've already spent on remand,
444
00:33:19,980 --> 00:33:23,059
which was longer than
usual due to your pregnancy,
445
00:33:23,060 --> 00:33:28,219
you will serve a further six
months before you will be released.
446
00:33:28,220 --> 00:33:29,820
Thank you.
447
00:33:31,860 --> 00:33:33,539
Mr Muller,
448
00:33:33,540 --> 00:33:37,499
the sentence I consider appropriate
for the importation of drugs
449
00:33:37,500 --> 00:33:39,859
is one of ten years.
450
00:33:39,860 --> 00:33:44,339
For the supply of class A
drugs into prison: five years.
451
00:33:44,340 --> 00:33:47,819
And for threats to kill
Miss Morgan: two years.
452
00:33:47,820 --> 00:33:50,819
You will serve these
sentences concurrently,
453
00:33:50,820 --> 00:33:54,660
meaning a total of ten
years' imprisonment.
454
00:33:57,260 --> 00:33:59,339
Can you go back to your mum's house?
455
00:33:59,340 --> 00:34:01,819
No, she rented it. Private landlord.
456
00:34:01,820 --> 00:34:03,939
- That's a problem, then.
- Is it?
457
00:34:03,940 --> 00:34:05,859
Yeah. It's getting harder to find places
458
00:34:05,860 --> 00:34:07,299
for people leaving prison.
459
00:34:07,300 --> 00:34:11,139
We haven't got anywhere for you,
Orla. All the hostels are full.
460
00:34:11,140 --> 00:34:14,379
Well... what do I do?
461
00:34:14,380 --> 00:34:17,619
- We can give you a tent.
- What?
462
00:34:17,620 --> 00:34:19,020
A tent.
463
00:34:20,140 --> 00:34:23,139
You're thinking of sending
me out of here wi' a tent?
464
00:34:23,140 --> 00:34:24,419
Yeah.
465
00:34:24,420 --> 00:34:27,060
- Is this a joke?
- No.
466
00:34:28,500 --> 00:34:30,180
I'm sorry, Orla.
467
00:34:41,740 --> 00:34:45,260
Sending her out to live in a
tent. It's an absolute disgrace.
468
00:34:46,660 --> 00:34:48,260
I know.
469
00:34:57,820 --> 00:35:00,259
Right, come here.
470
00:35:00,260 --> 00:35:02,860
- Bye, sweetheart.
- Bye.
471
00:35:06,500 --> 00:35:08,579
Sorry for the things I said.
472
00:35:08,580 --> 00:35:11,140
It's all right.
473
00:35:12,540 --> 00:35:13,850
Look after her.
474
00:35:13,851 --> 00:35:15,420
- Yeah.
- And yourself.
475
00:35:16,580 --> 00:35:18,100
Take care, yeah?
476
00:36:37,140 --> 00:36:38,939
Hiya.
477
00:36:38,940 --> 00:36:41,260
Hiya, Mum. Are you out yet?
478
00:37:01,020 --> 00:37:02,300
Ta.
479
00:37:03,820 --> 00:37:05,219
Hiya.
480
00:37:05,220 --> 00:37:07,299
Hiya.
481
00:37:07,300 --> 00:37:09,819
Can I get you something?
482
00:37:09,820 --> 00:37:11,939
Er, tea, please.
483
00:37:11,940 --> 00:37:14,459
- Milk?
- Yeah, please.
484
00:37:14,460 --> 00:37:20,219
I know this is proper cheeky,
but could you get me some toast?
485
00:37:20,220 --> 00:37:21,605
- Toast.
- Yeah.
486
00:37:21,606 --> 00:37:23,900
- Right.
- Ta. Thank you.
487
00:37:30,580 --> 00:37:32,739
- You OK, son?
- Yeah.
488
00:37:32,740 --> 00:37:35,220
Look, I'm going to say all this
before she comes back, right?
489
00:37:35,221 --> 00:37:36,221
Yeah.
490
00:37:37,220 --> 00:37:40,020
You know all that
not-coming-to-see-me, Kyle?
491
00:37:41,980 --> 00:37:44,059
It's 'cos you were ashamed?
492
00:37:44,060 --> 00:37:45,540
Yeah.
493
00:37:47,220 --> 00:37:49,500
You were ashamed I were in prison.
494
00:37:50,820 --> 00:37:53,699
But you weren't ashamed of what I did.
495
00:37:53,700 --> 00:37:57,259
You were ashamed that
I got caught doing it.
496
00:37:57,260 --> 00:37:58,580
Yeah.
497
00:38:00,580 --> 00:38:02,060
Me too.
498
00:38:03,260 --> 00:38:07,419
I am not ashamed of
anything I have done for you,
499
00:38:07,420 --> 00:38:09,699
Callum or Nancy.
500
00:38:09,700 --> 00:38:13,939
But I won't do it again. I'll
never do anything like this again.
501
00:38:13,940 --> 00:38:15,819
I'm going to get a job,
502
00:38:15,820 --> 00:38:17,899
I'm going to get us somewhere to live
503
00:38:17,900 --> 00:38:20,779
and I am going to get
us all back together.
504
00:38:20,780 --> 00:38:23,659
I promise. Right?
505
00:38:23,660 --> 00:38:25,060
Right.
506
00:38:26,500 --> 00:38:28,180
But you have to help.
507
00:38:32,260 --> 00:38:34,860
Treat me like your mum.
508
00:38:37,580 --> 00:38:39,939
Let me come and see you.
509
00:38:39,940 --> 00:38:41,420
Phone me.
510
00:38:46,860 --> 00:38:48,860
Love me.
511
00:38:51,940 --> 00:38:53,580
- Yeah.
- Yeah?
512
00:39:04,260 --> 00:39:05,939
I missed you.
513
00:39:05,940 --> 00:39:07,940
Missed you, too.
514
00:39:48,660 --> 00:39:50,020
Too spicy?
515
00:40:12,500 --> 00:40:13,980
You knew?
516
00:40:15,980 --> 00:40:19,140
Shit in my food and
you didn't say anything?
517
00:40:36,180 --> 00:40:39,060
I was too scared to say
anything. I'm really sorry.
518
00:41:25,420 --> 00:41:27,859
- I'm going to go get him.
- You're not.
519
00:41:27,860 --> 00:41:29,819
I can't take any more of this.
520
00:41:29,820 --> 00:41:31,939
We agreed to try letting him cry.
521
00:41:31,940 --> 00:41:34,821
No, we agreed to try it for
a bit. This has been hours.
522
00:41:34,822 --> 00:41:35,822
It hasn't.
523
00:41:35,860 --> 00:41:37,260
Oh, God.
524
00:41:39,740 --> 00:41:42,179
- That's pain.
- It's not.
525
00:41:42,180 --> 00:41:45,139
- No, I'm going to go get him.
- Right, well, if you bring him in here,
526
00:41:45,140 --> 00:41:47,019
I'm getting out bed,
I'm going downstairs
527
00:41:47,020 --> 00:41:48,620
and I'm leaving you to it.
528
00:41:49,940 --> 00:41:51,739
I'm sorry...
529
00:41:51,740 --> 00:41:53,619
I know...
530
00:42:00,340 --> 00:42:02,819
Naughty Mummy. I'm sorry.
531
00:42:20,820 --> 00:42:23,860
You won't believe this but
I'm not a violent person.
532
00:42:26,340 --> 00:42:30,339
But you attack me, I'll attack you.
533
00:42:30,340 --> 00:42:33,459
And I'm sick of it.
534
00:42:33,460 --> 00:42:36,939
So I'm going to tell you my story.
535
00:42:36,940 --> 00:42:40,379
I'm hoping you identify with bits of it
536
00:42:40,380 --> 00:42:44,860
and that's enough for
you to leave me alone.
537
00:42:48,500 --> 00:42:49,980
So...
538
00:42:52,380 --> 00:42:54,700
How many of you have had kids?
539
00:42:58,780 --> 00:43:00,339
Most of you.
540
00:43:00,340 --> 00:43:01,820
Well...
541
00:43:05,780 --> 00:43:09,619
Uh, we were trying for ages,
542
00:43:09,620 --> 00:43:10,940
me and Rob...
543
00:43:12,540 --> 00:43:15,340
... so when I got pregnant I was...
544
00:43:17,820 --> 00:43:19,420
... ecstatic.
545
00:43:21,900 --> 00:43:26,220
Yeah, read all the books,
listed all of the names and...
546
00:43:27,340 --> 00:43:29,059
... made all the promises, you know,
547
00:43:29,060 --> 00:43:34,859
no bottle, no dummy, nothing
sweet: all that stuff.
548
00:43:34,860 --> 00:43:39,020
And then... I went into labour.
549
00:43:42,100 --> 00:43:43,900
And it was horrific.
550
00:43:45,340 --> 00:43:47,500
Two days of agony.
551
00:43:48,940 --> 00:43:51,299
Then home with a crying baby.
552
00:43:51,300 --> 00:43:55,900
And I could barely sit
down because of the pain.
553
00:43:58,300 --> 00:44:00,819
Uh, then...
554
00:44:00,820 --> 00:44:04,499
... the nurse came and she
stripped him and weighed him
555
00:44:04,500 --> 00:44:06,460
and said he was losing weight.
556
00:44:08,180 --> 00:44:12,419
And I said I wasn't finding
it easy with the stitches
557
00:44:12,420 --> 00:44:14,819
and the worry and losing so much sleep,
558
00:44:14,820 --> 00:44:18,499
and she said that she was
here for the baby and not me
559
00:44:18,500 --> 00:44:20,459
and that if he carried on losing weight
560
00:44:20,460 --> 00:44:24,659
he's going to go back into
hospital, so I started to... cry
561
00:44:24,660 --> 00:44:29,140
and she started telling
Rob about her holidays.
562
00:44:30,780 --> 00:44:32,499
I wanted to scream at her.
563
00:44:32,500 --> 00:44:34,979
It is my first child,
you heartless bitch,
564
00:44:34,980 --> 00:44:36,860
I need a bit of help!
565
00:44:39,620 --> 00:44:41,260
I had no-one.
566
00:44:43,020 --> 00:44:45,259
We'd moved there for Rob's job.
567
00:44:45,260 --> 00:44:48,420
He knew people in work. I knew no-one.
568
00:44:50,140 --> 00:44:52,060
Just Rob and the baby.
569
00:45:00,980 --> 00:45:04,219
- What time will you be back?
- About eight.
570
00:45:04,220 --> 00:45:06,633
- For God's sake, Rob.
- We've got to have a debrief.
571
00:45:06,634 --> 00:45:09,259
No. You have a debrief
the next working day,
572
00:45:09,260 --> 00:45:10,939
you don't have a
debrief in your own time.
573
00:45:10,940 --> 00:45:13,219
We have to have it in our own
time 'cos we're snowed under.
574
00:45:13,220 --> 00:45:14,555
You're doing it after work
575
00:45:14,556 --> 00:45:16,975
because you don't want
to be here with the baby!
576
00:45:16,976 --> 00:45:17,979
We're doing a debrief after work
577
00:45:17,980 --> 00:45:21,059
- because it's the only time we can do it.
- It's not fair, Rob.
578
00:45:21,060 --> 00:45:24,459
If I go out it's to get the shopping
and I'm back at six at the latest.
579
00:45:24,460 --> 00:45:27,739
I spend time with the baby
- with you AND the baby!
580
00:45:27,740 --> 00:45:31,340
- And you are home at half eight every time.
- Listen, I've got to go.
581
00:45:40,300 --> 00:45:41,779
Fuck off.
582
00:45:45,740 --> 00:45:49,059
Ssh... Ssh.
583
00:45:49,060 --> 00:45:52,379
Ssh-ssh-ssh!
584
00:45:52,380 --> 00:45:56,859
Ssh! Ssh.
585
00:45:58,980 --> 00:46:00,180
Ssh!
586
00:46:02,020 --> 00:46:05,379
One day I managed to get him
to sleep - God knows how -
587
00:46:05,380 --> 00:46:07,340
and I put him in his cot.
588
00:46:08,780 --> 00:46:11,819
I walked out the room,
589
00:46:11,820 --> 00:46:15,139
but once out the room
590
00:46:15,140 --> 00:46:17,420
I started thinking I'd harmed him.
591
00:46:19,020 --> 00:46:20,820
I've killed him.
592
00:46:23,580 --> 00:46:27,579
I don't know why I
thought that but I did.
593
00:46:27,580 --> 00:46:30,620
So I went back in and
checked and he was fine.
594
00:46:32,140 --> 00:46:34,219
I walked out again.
595
00:46:34,220 --> 00:46:36,939
No sooner out the room then again
I'm thinking I've harmed him,
596
00:46:36,940 --> 00:46:39,979
so I go back again and he's fine again.
597
00:46:39,980 --> 00:46:42,899
But this time I can't leave him there
598
00:46:42,900 --> 00:46:45,659
so I pick him up and I carry him.
599
00:46:45,660 --> 00:46:48,819
And carry him and I carry him.
600
00:46:48,820 --> 00:46:50,739
And it's only when Rob comes home
601
00:46:50,740 --> 00:46:53,099
that I can put him down
602
00:46:53,100 --> 00:46:54,580
and leave him there.
603
00:46:56,140 --> 00:46:59,459
I couldn't let him out my sight.
604
00:46:59,460 --> 00:47:02,219
So every minute of every day,
605
00:47:02,220 --> 00:47:04,619
I am looking at my child.
606
00:47:04,620 --> 00:47:08,460
Where other women are
seeing THEIR baby crying...
607
00:47:10,860 --> 00:47:14,579
... I'm looking at
mine and he's twisting.
608
00:47:14,580 --> 00:47:16,979
He's twisting in pain.
609
00:47:16,980 --> 00:47:20,459
He'd fight even to
get away from his dad.
610
00:47:20,460 --> 00:47:23,899
When he'd come back to me, crying.
611
00:47:23,900 --> 00:47:25,780
Still screaming.
612
00:47:27,780 --> 00:47:29,779
Nothing can make him stop.
613
00:47:31,820 --> 00:47:34,860
Yeah, Robert Cochrane. He's in theatre.
614
00:47:37,580 --> 00:47:39,779
Well, yeah, I know that,
but when it is possible,
615
00:47:39,780 --> 00:47:42,539
could you ask him to phone me, please?
616
00:47:42,540 --> 00:47:44,939
I'm his wife.
617
00:47:44,940 --> 00:47:46,380
Ssh-ssh-ssh-ssh.
618
00:47:52,100 --> 00:47:54,059
This is Croft Park Medical Centre.
619
00:47:54,060 --> 00:47:57,579
Our receptionists are busy
at the moment but you are...
620
00:47:57,580 --> 00:47:59,379
... 18th in the queue.
621
00:47:59,380 --> 00:48:00,400
Please feel free...
622
00:48:22,020 --> 00:48:24,860
I think I wanted to stop him crying.
623
00:48:26,300 --> 00:48:28,100
It's just...
624
00:48:30,300 --> 00:48:35,300
If you... stop him crying
then you ease his pain.
625
00:48:37,660 --> 00:48:40,099
Just stop them crying.
626
00:49:11,060 --> 00:49:12,940
I held him under.
627
00:49:18,380 --> 00:49:20,500
I wanted peace and quiet.
628
00:49:23,180 --> 00:49:24,540
For him...
629
00:49:25,940 --> 00:49:27,380
... and for me.
630
00:49:29,220 --> 00:49:31,220
No more suffering.
631
00:51:07,380 --> 00:51:08,820
What's wrong?
632
00:51:10,780 --> 00:51:11,940
What is it?
633
00:51:14,820 --> 00:51:16,220
You didn't ring.
634
00:51:18,980 --> 00:51:20,700
My God, you're wet.
635
00:51:21,780 --> 00:51:23,100
And cold.
636
00:51:24,900 --> 00:51:27,659
You're starting to scare
me now, Abs. What's wrong?
637
00:51:27,660 --> 00:51:29,140
Where's the baby?
638
00:51:31,740 --> 00:51:33,580
Abi, where's the baby?
639
00:51:36,060 --> 00:51:37,860
In his cot.
640
00:52:31,140 --> 00:52:33,660
Have you told this
story to anyone before?
641
00:52:36,580 --> 00:52:38,700
It wouldn't bring him back.
642
00:52:40,820 --> 00:52:44,260
No. But it... could've helped you.
643
00:52:47,140 --> 00:52:49,500
I was under pressure, yeah.
644
00:52:51,020 --> 00:52:52,500
But so...
645
00:52:55,380 --> 00:52:57,500
... were so many other women.
646
00:53:00,500 --> 00:53:02,179
They coped.
647
00:53:02,180 --> 00:53:04,219
I didn't.
648
00:53:04,220 --> 00:53:09,019
I was... Yeah, I was ashamed,
I was ashamed of that.
649
00:53:09,020 --> 00:53:11,819
Didn't want them to know that.
650
00:53:11,820 --> 00:53:15,260
So I told all about killing my baby.
651
00:53:17,340 --> 00:53:20,820
But I told no-one that I couldn't cope.
652
00:53:24,220 --> 00:53:26,420
Can I ask a question?
653
00:53:28,220 --> 00:53:29,420
Yeah.
654
00:53:32,500 --> 00:53:33,900
What was his name?
655
00:53:44,580 --> 00:53:46,260
Daniel.
656
00:53:53,340 --> 00:53:54,660
Daniel.
657
00:54:06,780 --> 00:54:09,419
One of them will go for me now.
658
00:54:09,420 --> 00:54:11,939
- Someone from the group?
- Mm-hm.
659
00:54:11,940 --> 00:54:15,379
Yeah. I've shown a bit
of vulnerability, you see.
660
00:54:15,380 --> 00:54:18,699
They'll think I'm not so tough,
they can take me on and win.
661
00:54:18,700 --> 00:54:21,659
Other women have spoken
and nothing's happened.
662
00:54:21,660 --> 00:54:23,820
They haven't murdered their kids.
663
00:54:25,220 --> 00:54:27,859
- Shall we sit?
- If you want.
664
00:54:27,860 --> 00:54:29,180
Yes, I do.
665
00:54:36,580 --> 00:54:39,899
She cared for me all the way
through my pregnancy. All the way.
666
00:54:39,900 --> 00:54:42,899
And she, like, delivered my...
She delivered my little Daniel.
667
00:54:42,900 --> 00:54:45,659
She delivered your baby, that
entitles her to murder her own?
668
00:54:45,660 --> 00:54:47,379
- That's what you're saying?
- That's not what I'm saying.
669
00:54:47,380 --> 00:54:48,699
I'm saying she's done a bit of good.
670
00:54:48,700 --> 00:54:51,271
She's done way more good than
anyone else in here, including me.
671
00:54:51,272 --> 00:54:52,810
- Yeah.
- I mean, she could have walked away,
672
00:54:52,811 --> 00:54:54,539
she didn't have to help Kelsey.
673
00:54:54,540 --> 00:54:57,499
- She's a trained nurse.
- I know, but she didn't have to help, did she?
674
00:54:57,500 --> 00:55:00,420
You can't deny that
she's done something.
675
00:55:07,180 --> 00:55:09,499
What does that represent?
676
00:55:09,500 --> 00:55:12,100
What do you want it to represent?
677
00:55:13,500 --> 00:55:17,699
Is it my child, still
alive, up in heaven?
678
00:55:17,700 --> 00:55:19,380
- Perhaps.
- It's a candle.
679
00:55:20,780 --> 00:55:22,979
It's a bloody candle.
680
00:55:22,980 --> 00:55:25,757
- You want me to blow it out?
- Do you want it lit?
681
00:55:25,758 --> 00:55:26,758
Yes.
682
00:55:26,820 --> 00:55:31,139
It reminds me of the presence of Christ.
683
00:55:31,140 --> 00:55:32,540
Fine.
684
00:55:36,180 --> 00:55:38,900
I ask a lot of women this, do you mind?
685
00:55:41,060 --> 00:55:44,619
If I could grant you one
wish, what would that be?
686
00:55:44,620 --> 00:55:47,419
I fear I'll say what they all say -
687
00:55:47,420 --> 00:55:50,339
can I go back in time, please?
688
00:55:50,340 --> 00:55:52,060
A lot say that, yes.
689
00:55:53,780 --> 00:55:58,500
So, if I could grant you
another wish, what would that be?
690
00:56:00,420 --> 00:56:03,499
Has the bishop found you out yet?
691
00:56:03,500 --> 00:56:05,619
No.
692
00:56:05,620 --> 00:56:06,900
Good.
693
00:56:12,260 --> 00:56:17,140
So if I could grant you another
wish, what would that be?
694
00:56:24,580 --> 00:56:26,780
I'd like to be able to grieve.
695
00:56:30,220 --> 00:56:32,819
But how do you grieve
the death of a child
696
00:56:32,820 --> 00:56:34,980
when you're the one responsible for it?
697
00:56:36,260 --> 00:56:38,740
Can I pray for that?
698
00:56:40,660 --> 00:56:43,860
That God enables you
to grieve for Daniel?
699
00:56:49,820 --> 00:56:50,860
Yes.
700
00:56:55,580 --> 00:56:58,859
OK, what if we'd done it?
What if we killed our babies?
701
00:56:58,860 --> 00:57:02,099
- I wouldn't.
- Yeah, but what if we had? We'd be wrecks.
702
00:57:02,100 --> 00:57:04,939
That woman is a wreck and she
deserves a bit of compassion.
703
00:57:04,940 --> 00:57:06,899
She needs looking after,
704
00:57:06,900 --> 00:57:09,019
not attacking. I think
we're all forgetting
705
00:57:09,020 --> 00:57:10,979
she couldn't kill herself.
706
00:57:10,980 --> 00:57:15,059
OK to kill a baby but not herself?
No, that is a selfish bitch.
707
00:57:15,060 --> 00:57:17,859
That's not what I'm saying.
Maeve, what do you think?
708
00:57:17,860 --> 00:57:19,622
What Abi said stuck with me
709
00:57:19,623 --> 00:57:21,059
when she said that we
need to show the world
710
00:57:21,060 --> 00:57:24,059
that we couldn't possibly do
what she did, so we attack,
711
00:57:24,060 --> 00:57:27,339
and the more we attack,
the more we feel saintly.
712
00:57:27,340 --> 00:57:29,060
And that's fucking bullshit.
713
00:58:26,220 --> 00:58:28,420
My God, the telly's off.
714
00:58:32,100 --> 00:58:34,019
Yeah, we've been talking.
715
00:58:34,020 --> 00:58:35,540
- About me.
- Yeah.
716
00:58:37,020 --> 00:58:39,860
Look, no-one here's
going to do you any harm.
717
00:58:41,220 --> 00:58:44,700
OK, I'm not saying that everyone
forgives you. They don't. But...
718
00:58:45,740 --> 00:58:47,899
... we won't do you harm.
719
00:58:47,900 --> 00:58:50,579
I can't speak for the
rest of the prison,
720
00:58:50,580 --> 00:58:53,539
they'll need putting straight,
but everyone here right now,
721
00:58:53,540 --> 00:58:56,339
everyone in this unit, right?
722
00:58:56,340 --> 00:58:58,060
- Yeah.
- Yeah.
723
00:58:59,100 --> 00:59:00,820
You're fine.
724
00:59:09,140 --> 00:59:11,260
What, including you?
725
00:59:12,660 --> 00:59:13,859
Yeah.
726
00:59:13,860 --> 00:59:15,659
Whatever.
727
00:59:15,660 --> 00:59:16,740
Yeah.
728
00:59:24,220 --> 00:59:25,740
Thank you.
729
00:59:29,860 --> 00:59:31,100
Thanks.
730
01:00:39,780 --> 01:00:41,700
Bye, then.
731
01:00:45,660 --> 01:00:47,140
Bye.
732
01:00:53,820 --> 01:00:56,299
No ta-ras, then.
733
01:00:56,300 --> 01:00:57,820
Looks like that.
734
01:00:59,540 --> 01:01:01,220
I'll come with you.
735
01:02:49,940 --> 01:02:51,500
- You OK?
- Yeah.
736
01:03:21,860 --> 01:03:24,859
Mrs Kelly? I'm Fay Clarkson
from Children and Families.
737
01:03:24,860 --> 01:03:26,723
- We spoke on the phone.
- Hello.
738
01:03:26,724 --> 01:03:28,180
- This is Kelsey.
- Hi.
739
01:03:28,181 --> 01:03:29,181
Hi, Kelsey.
740
01:03:31,580 --> 01:03:33,740
Give Mummy a big hug, Daniel.
741
01:03:44,500 --> 01:03:47,179
He'll be yours again soon, my love.
742
01:03:47,180 --> 01:03:49,259
Just keep doing what you're doing.
743
01:03:49,260 --> 01:03:52,100
I will. I will, I will.
744
01:04:30,000 --> 01:04:35,000
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