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[knocking at window]

Hi, I've come about the room.

-What do we owe you? -[woman] 2,400 pounds.

I-- I don't wanna jump the gun, but it's for the deposit.

When were you gonna tell me that we couldn't pay our bills?

[Jessica] Nick had an affair.

[Sian] You think you can just take whatever you want?

I see you Alice.

[Alice] It's weird to have someone live in our house, but I like her.

[Nick] Three thousand pounds. It's the deposit you gave to my wife.

Didn't have to sell something, did you, Nick?

I found her, Aunty Fay.

I'm gonna get my baby back.

[tense music]

[waves crashing]

[haunting music]

[footsteps thumping]

[haunting music continues]

[Jessica] What do you think of the parquet?

Hmm?

Come on, you're the artist among us.

[Alice] Why don't you ask Sian?

[Jessica] Well, 'cause it's not Sian's home, it's yours.

I mean, she's here for now, but it's not permanent, is it?

Morning.

Sian, morning.

Sleep well?

Like a baby.

[Jessica] What do you think, Sian?

Leaning towards the oak parquet, but it is pricier.

Yeah, no, definitely the oak.

Do you think? It's not pretentious?

No, not at all.

You have a great eye.

Mm, thanks.

Glad someone thinks so.

Shower is fixed.

Shower, I fixed it.

Jess and I had someone sorted for that.

Right, well, I've saved us a couple of quid, haven't I?

Well, it was gonna be for free.

Well we're not a charity case just yet.

All right, we'll go with the oak parquet.

Dad, I need a lift to school.

I can take you.

I can take her.

You get your stuff, I'll be right behind you.

Sian, listen.

You don't need to chauffeur our daughter from A to B.

Alice isn't your concern.

-Go and have a look. -Hmm?

The shower, I fixed it.

Oh.

[tense music]

♪ Oh the cuckoo, she is a fine bird ♪

♪ Sings when she flies ♪

♪ She brings us good tidings ♪

♪ And tells us no lies ♪

♪ She sucks on birds' eggs ♪

♪ To make her voice clear ♪

♪ And never sings cuckoo ♪

♪ Till the summer draws near ♪

[birds chirping]

-Dad? -Mm-hmm.

What's your problem with Sian?

I don't have a problem with Sian.

She's just, you know, I don't know her, that's all.

Well, I like her.

I think she's cool.

I think she's worried that she disturbed you

in your office.

Did she?

No, I.

No, I, look, maybe, I dunno.

Dad, I've been trying to talk to you.

I just don't think we should get too attached

to somebody that we hardly know, that's all.

Well, she lives in our house.

Yeah but not for much longer.

What's that supposed to mean?

Right, go on, off you go.

You're gonna be late.

Go on.

[engine revving]

[Sian] I see you, Alice.

You're an artist.

It's the artist.

What do you want?

[tense music]

[tense music continues]

He's only gone and fixed it.

Haven't had a shower like that in months.

I feel almost human.

That's good.

Hey Sian, have you got a sec?

The thing I told you about Nick.

The affair.

That's between us, yeah, because he's not that man.

Okay.

It was a one-off.

As long as the shower's fixed.

Oh, I dunno if this is yours,

I found it on the kitchen floor.

Looks like a receipt.

Oh.

Jess!

Jess!

[Jessica] Yeah.

How was the shower?

-Mm-hmm. -Yeah?

What kept you?

What?

Jess.

Jess!

[tense music]

[ethereal singing]

[knocking at door]

Come in.

Did you say something to Jessica?

[Sian] About what?

[tense music continues]

Where is it, Sian?

The receipt.

I know you took it, where is it?

What receipt?

How did you get into my safe?

Safe?

I don't know what you're talking about.

Well, is that why you're here?

Are you trying to, trying to rip us off?

I thought I was here because you needed the money.

Hey, hey.

That's not yours, is it?

Is it?

I told Jess I'd put a wash on.

If you've lost something, Nick, why don't you ask her?

[tense music continues]

Yeah, no, I want, I want you gone.

Sorry.

Did you hear me?

I thought we understood each other.

[tense music continues]

You can say whatever you want to her

because she will not believe you.

And I expect you know all about that.

Once a cheat always a cheat.

What time does the pawn shop close, Nick?

Because if you need to get anything before Jess gets back,

you could take my car.

You do still have that £3,000, don't you?

I'd have thought the family jewels would fetch more than that.

It's not a lot of money for a big shot like you, is it?

[tense music continues]

[suspenseful music]

[tense music]

[metal clanking]

[tense music continues]

[phone ringing]

Log Farm.

[Mr Farrow] Mrs Haynes?

Who's speaking?

This is Mr Farrow at Ullswater Secondary.

Alice's head teacher.

Is-- Is everything all right?

-It's no cause for alarm. -What's happened?

Alice and some other girls, there seems to have been an altercation.

An altercation?

-Mrs Haynes, in situations like this-- -I'm on my way.

[tense music]

-Mrs Haynes? -Where's Alice?

Mrs Haynes, I was wondering if we could arrange

-for you and your husband- -I'll take it from here.

Mrs Haynes.

Mrs Haynes.

[tense music]

You don't have to come.

It's not your problem.

What happened?

Nothing.

Girls.

Alice, this is not nothing.

He thinks you're my mum.

Christ, these places.

Sian.

I don't wanna go back.

Come on.

-Nick. -In here.

Hi.

Sian found it.

Don't try and deny it, I called into the pawn shop.

[tense music]

Yeah, I was gonna get it back.

I was always gonna get it back.

My mother's jewellery, Nick.

That's all I have of her.

All because you were too proud to take in a lodger.

-Please, Jess, just- -No don't, just don't.

Sian gave you this?

Oh, God.

She found it on the kitchen floor.

No, it was in the safe.

Don't, don't you see what she's doing?

This isn't about anyone except you and me.

-No, it was in the safe. -I can't trust you, Nick.

Every time I think we're getting back on track.

It was in the safe, Jess.

Don't raise your voice to me.

How does she know we had a safe?

How would she even get in there?

Stop trying to deflect everything onto-

'Cause the pin is Alice's birthday.

Isn't it?

The 7th of September.

How would she even know that?

God, I can't talk to you when you're like this.

Just get them back.

[tense music continues]

Alice.

It must've been Alice.

So how long's it been going on?

Since we got here.

Have you spoken to Nick and Jessica?

No, 'cause they've got their own stuff going on.

Alice, look at me.

Parents are meant to take care of you.

That's what makes them parents.

Yeah, but I don't think they wanna be here either.

I don't know, it's just stuff went on in London.

So they move you up here to the arse end of nowhere

and don't explain why.

Well, it's to do with dad's job.

Go on.

Well, you know, I liked it in London.

I actually had friends.

Dad was teaching me how to drive, but can't do that anymore,

'cause he sold the car.

He won't let me drive his fancy one.

I'm too young anyway.

Sorry, I sound like a spoiled brat.

No.

No, you, you sound confused but

anyone would be in your situation.

You don't know the whole story.

What's yours?

Huh?

With your parents.

Um, oh.

Oh, I'm sorry.

Like you don't have to if it's really-

No, okay, well.

I didn't know my dad

and let's just say that my mum didn't want to know me.

I was brought up by my auntie mostly.

Sorry.

Is what it is, but, see, that's why it boils my piss

when I see parents who aren't stepping up.

Because it doesn't matter

what your mum and dad are going through.

There is nothing,

and I mean nothing more important than you.

Do you understand that?

[laughing]

What?

Boils my piss.

My mum used to say that.

[tense music]

Is that them?

Yeah.

I think we should just go, to be honest, Sian.

Just wait there.

Sian.

[tense music continues]

Piss off.

Sick freak!

Yep.

[tense music continues]

[Pupil] What did she say to you?

What did you say?

You drive.

Why are you home so early?

What happened?

You should see the other girl.

What, you were there, what's going on?

Oh Mum, it's not a big deal.

Sian just came to pick me up.

I'm gonna go and get cleaned up.

-Alice, wait. -Later, Mum.

[tense music]

Something the matter?

You look like someone's just walked over your grave.

Jessica.

I need to speak to you.

[tense music continues]

What is she doing with Alice?

[Jessica] She said she just picked her up from school.

[Nick] Why, why has she picked her up from school?

[Jessica] Alice has got, she's got a mark on her face.

Someone's been beating her up or something.

[indistinct whispering]

[Nick] I keep telling you about her.

I don't like it, we don't need it.

We can just move on.

[indistinct whispering]

[Alice] Dad!

Dad, I thought you fixed it.

-Alice, what's happened? -The shower.

Oh, come on, let's get you sorted.

[water gushing]

It's all right, it's all right.

No, it's there.

It's fine.

I've got it, I've got it.

I don't know how that's happened.

[indistinct arguing]

[Nick] No, it was absolutely fine.

No, no, we can't afford it.

[indistinct arguing continues]

[tense music]

[knocking at door]

[tense music continues]

Sian's not in her room,

and her car's not out the front either.

Where would she go this early?

Sian doesn't have to tell us her comings and goings.

And you shouldn't go in her room when she's not here.

She wouldn't mind.

You two have got pretty pally.

I thought you liked her.

Oh, I do.

I just want you to know that

whatever you talk to Sian about, you can talk to me too.

I'm your mum.

I know that.

Hi, Dad.

Have a good day, sausage.

[phone chiming]

Who is it?

It's Alice's head teacher, he wants us to come in.

[tense music]

[knocking at door]

[knocking at door]

[tense music continues]

[tin rattling]

[tense music continues]

[tense music continues]

[door opening]

[tense music continues]

I thought it was you.

I'm making a brew.

[knocking at door]

Hi.

-Mr Haynes? -Yeah.

-Mrs Haynes? -Hello.

Do sit.

I apologise, but yesterday,

well, the lady who came to collect Alice,

I was under the impression.

Oh, that would've been our lodger.

Ah, okay.

I misunderstood.

Obviously a trusted friend.

So what's been going on here?

You shouldn't just walk in while I'm at mass.

Well, why didn't you answer my message?

Shortbread, or have you already helped yourself?

I'll pay you back.

It's her, Aunty Fay.

Look.

[Aunt Fay] Oh, it's no good.

No, no, no, here, here, look.

It's proof.

But I can't see what I'm looking at.

They're adoption papers.

I found them, they were hiding them in the safe.

In a safe.

What were you doing looking in a safe?

Do you know what the combination was?

Zero seven zero nine.

My little girl's birthday.

You should see her, Aunty Fay.

She even draws like me.

All those drawings, couldn't make head nor tail of them.

Why don't you listen to me?

Hmm?

You never listen to me.

This girl has a family and you got into her house.

What's gonna happen to you when they find out?

Find out what?

Don't break my heart.

[tense music]

What about mine?

Well, they can't love her.

Not like I do.

She's my little girl.

Sian, she can't be.

[tense music continues]

Okay, well, thanks for the tea and the shortbread.

Come home to me, pet.

I'll look after you.

I thought you'd be happy for me.

[tense music continues]

What, no, Jess.

She, she impersonated you.

Did she though?

Well what else would you call it?

Being there for our daughter,

which is more than I can say for us.

You heard what he said.

Alice is being bullied and we knew nothing about it.

This obsession with Sian and

-Obsession! -blaming her

-for everything that goes. -Obsession?

Yes, obsession, because you can't face the fact

we're coming apart.

You, me and Alice.

[gentle music]

You lost that docket yourself, it was never in the safe.

You're hardly a master at hiding evidence, are you?

Doesn't matter what I say, does it?

You will never trust me.

[Jessica sighs]

I want Alice to know.

Know what?

We should have told her years ago, Nick.

How can we be a family if we can't even be honest?

No.

No, we agreed.

But Alice is in trouble

and we've been too selfish to see it.

I mean, what, what if all this confusion

is because deep down she doesn't know who she is?

She's ours.

She's ours, and that's all she needs to know.

[Jessica] We have to tell her, Nick.

Nick.

[tense music]

Hello?

Hello, we're in here.

Hey, how was school?

Yeah, it was all right actually.

-Good. -Where's Sian?

Look, we know that you've been having

some problems at school.

Yeah, Sian helped.

It's sorted now.

Sit down, Alice.

Nothing's happened to her has it?

Look, this is about us, our family.

-Come sit down a minute. -Go on.

Your dad and I had a bit of a scare yesterday.

We thought you might have seen something

that you weren't supposed to.

Something you might not know how to process.

To process?

We just want you to know how much we love you,

and if we ever lost you.

Dad?

Hey, no, it's all right.

It's okay, just.

Just, yeah, just listen to your mum.

Gosh, this isn't easy for any of us.

Okay, now you're scaring me.

No, Alice, Alice.

What your dad and I are trying to say is that

sometimes you might feel like you don't belong

or, or, or that we don't understand you, but.

You were chosen.

Sweetheart, do you understand?

You are so special, and we knew from the moment we saw you,

you'd be our daughter.

[tense music]

-No. -Alice.

No, no.

Alice.

Alice?

-What's going on? -Just-- just…

-[Jessica] Has something-- -Do you ever mind your own business?

-I was just trying to help. -We're trying to have a--

-Well, we don't need your help. -She's upset.

We're trying to have a little conversation.

-Just stop it, stop it, Jesus Christ. -[car engine revving]

Alice!

[Sian] Alice!

Alice!

Alice, Alice, open the door!

It's fine.

Alice, please, don't you dare.

Alice.

Alice, come on, Alice, listen.

Please just open the door, Alice!

-Open the door! -Alice!

[car revving]

[dramatic music]

[tyres screeching]

[metal crashing]

Oh, God.

Is she okay?

Call an ambulance.

Oh, my God.

Can you hear me? Can you hear me?

[Nick] Yeah.

[gentle music]

Alice.

Call an ambulance, call an ambulance.

Alice, can you hear me, darling?

Okay, okay.

-You're all right. -Yes, yes.

-Okay, slowly, slowly. -Yeah, it's my.

-Okay, slowly, slowly. -Yeah, it's my.

-Is she okay? -Yeah, yeah.

-It's my daughter. -Slowly, slowly.

[Nick] It's a car crash.

Alice.

-Alice. -Slowly, slowly.

I'm fine.

-Are you all right? -I'm fine.

My baby, I thought I'd lost you again.

I don't wanna be here.

[gentle music]

[knocking at door]

Who is it?

It's me, it's Mum.

[Alice] Go away.

I just want to know you're all right.

[gentle music continues]

Go away!

[gentle music continues]

Yep.

And you'll tow the car.

Okay, thank you.

Yep, bye-bye.

Well, that's another debt.

And we've lost the insurance, so.

Who cares about the insurance, Nick?

How is she?

Look, the doctor said she's gonna be fine.

Let's just give her some time.

[cup smashing]

Jess?

You all right?

-Sorry. -I'll do it, I'll do it.

How is she?

You should never have come here.

Well, from what I heard, you didn't have much choice.

So what happened?

Why did she take off like that?

We've been keeping something from her.

About Nick and the reason you're here?

Jess, you can talk to me.

I lost my mum when I was a little girl.

Barely remember her.

I just wanted to be a mum like I never had, you know.

We kept trying and trying and I just couldn't get…

I don't know whether it was Nick or me,

we couldn't work it out, but it just wouldn't happen.

So we got on the list.

We were waiting, God, years, forever.

And then

this beautiful baby girl.

Her mother had given her up.

Didn't want her, couldn't handle her.

I mean, can you imagine?

This baby girl just tossed away.

[tense music]

We never told Alice she was adopted.

I, I didn't want her to ever feel grateful or,

or maybe I just told myself that's why.

[tense music continues]

But since what happened with Nick, since coming here, it's,

it's like she's further and further away from me.

She looks at me like I'm a stranger

and I've had my head in the sand with all this crap

that doesn't matter.

You told her?

I just thought if I could be honest with her,

if someone in this house would just be honest, maybe.

I did the wrong thing, haven't I?

I'll talk to her.

[tense music continues]

This is all since you came here, isn't it?

Your wife's in the kitchen blaming herself.

[tense music continues]

[knocking at door]

Don't come near me.

Alice.

It's me.

I guess they told you.

[tense music continues]

I just don't understand

how they could keep something like that.

It's messed up.

[Alice] You're the only person I can talk to.

[Sian] I know.

I've got to get out of this place.

I know.

I don't want her up there with our daughter.

Do you think you knew?

Like, I think sometimes, you know,

we know things even though we don't know we do.

Alice needs someone she can trust.

We could have lost her today.

Let's go together.

Why would you do something like that for me?

Oh, no, don't cry.

Don't cry, I can't bear it when you cry.

I want that woman gone.

[Alice] I don't know, I just…

I kind of feel like I don't know myself anymore.

Like, I don't know who I am.

You're mine.

[tense music continues]

Did you hear me?

You're mine.

You're mine.

It's me.

It's me.

[tense music continues]

I'm your mum.

[tense music continues]

I'm your mum.

♪ The cuckoo, she's a fine bird ♪

♪ She sings as she flies ♪

♪ She brings us good tidings And tells us no lies ♪

♪ She sucks all the birds' Eggs to make her voice clear ♪

♪ And never sings cuckoo Till the summer draws near ♪

[music fades out]