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[creaking]
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[crackling]
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[uneasy music]
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[suspenseful music]
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[male voice echoing]
Step right up.
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[clock ticking]
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[door creaks]
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[footsteps approaching]
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[door creaking]
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[clock ticking]
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[ominous music]
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[woman over phone]
Alana, I know
that you're scared.
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You're probably thinking,
"Why is God doing this to me?
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What did I do to deserve this?"
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And, you know,
sometimes God challenges us
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to bring us to our highest self.
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We just want you to know
that we love you so much.
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We love you so much, Jellybean.
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And we can't wait
to get our daughter back.
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[sobbing]
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[ominous music]
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[sobbing]
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[clock ticking]
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[Alana sobbing]
I break myself from every
spirit of sexual perversion
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in the name of Jesus.
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I release myself
from every spiritual pollution
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emanating from my past sins
of fornication
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and sexual immorality
in Jesus's name.
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I release myself from
every ancestral pollution
in the name of Jesus.
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I release myself
from every dream's pollution
in the name of Jesus.
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Every spirit
of sexual perversion
working against my life,
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be paralyzed,
and get out of my life!
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Every demon
of sexual perversion
assigned to my life,
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be bound in the name of Jesus!
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Oh, Lord, let the fire
of sexual perversion
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oppressing my life
receive the fire of God!
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[continues sobbing]
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In the name,
in the name of Jesus.
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[man]
So, why don't we, uh...
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-Do you want to be Pat or Trick?
-[boy] Huh?
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[man]
We're both named Patrick.
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So I was thinking I could be Pat
and you could be Trick.
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Does that sound okay to you?
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[clock ticking]
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[Pat sips, gulps]
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[inhales]
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Patrick Sherman,
October 22nd, 9:59 a.m.
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First interview
with Patrick Ableman.
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Okay, Trick...
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...how are you feeling?
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Fine.
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How are you feeling?
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I can do this all on my own,
but it'll go much faster
if you help me out.
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So, how are you feeling?
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Nervous.
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Hey.
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Progress.
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No need to be nervous.
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How do you know my parents?
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[snickers] I don't.
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Not socially.
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They called me because I have
some experience in this area.
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Fixing people?
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I don't think
you need fixing, Trick.
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I think you were fine
just the way you are.
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Look... [sighs]
if you don't want to be here,
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you just say the word,
and I'll take you home
right now.
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Okay, I would like
to go home now, please.
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But I think you should know
that your parents
are really concerned.
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-And if you continue
acting out...
-Right.
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-...I'm sure I don't
have to tell you...
-No.
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...that I am the nice version
of this.
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-I get that.
-Yeah.
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[breath trembles]
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Okay.
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Okay.
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Just one question.
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Are you happy?
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No.
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Why is that?
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[sighs] Your mom says
a lot of your friends are girls.
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I guess.
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Do you think
that's healthy for a young man?
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I don't know.
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They're nice to me.
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Sure.
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Life isn't always about
doing what's easy, Trick.
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Your parents love you so much.
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They just want you to be happy.
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Don't you want that too?
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I want to be happy.
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Yeah, and to be
part of a family.
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[sobs] Yeah.
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-And the community
of the church.
-[sobs]
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You know, um,
I talked to everybody
over there...
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...and you are just
the absolute golden boy.
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[chuckles] Everybody loves you.
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And love in this world
is precious.
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It is limited.
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You cannot waste it.
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I have seen some people
walk the road you're walking,
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and... there's not
a lot of love there.
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[tuts]
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If there were a pill
that could magically fix this,
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would you take it?
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There isn't.
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But if there was,
wouldn't it make
things easier? [snickers]
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But there isn't.
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Being gay
is a lonely life, Trick.
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My heart goes out
to young homosexuals everywhere.
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The violence and the bullying
that they experience
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is inexcusable.
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But it is avoidable.
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You're what, 17?
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Scientifically speaking,
your sexuality hasn't set yet.
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You're still developing.
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And that is good news
if you want a normal life.
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And not just a normal life.
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Look, I'm not
a big hell kind of guy,
but, you know, gay folk...
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...they just don't go to heaven.
They just don't.
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Leviticus. Genesis.
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Can I have my phone back now?
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[scoffs]
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Well...
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Okay.
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Okay.
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You're lucky
I'm such a nice guy. [chuckles]
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[pensive music]
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[muted]
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[birds chirping]
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And done.
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Amazing job, dude. High five.
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[Trick panting]
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Oh, okay. Here's what you do.
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Stand up straight.
Hands behind your head.
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Really open up your lungs.
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[Trick panting]
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You'll recover faster.
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[Trick exhales]
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Learned that playing D1 at Yale.
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[Trick playing guitar]
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[Trick]
♪ What a fellowship ♪
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♪ What a joy divine ♪
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♪ Leaning on ♪
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♪ The everlasting arms ♪
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♪ What a blessedness ♪
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♪ What a peace is mine ♪
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♪ Leaning on ♪
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♪ The everlasting arms ♪
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[water running]
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♪ Leaning, leaning ♪
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♪ Leaning-- ♪
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[Pat]
♪ Leaning on
the everlasting arms ♪
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♪ Safe and secure... ♪
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[Trick continues indistinctly]
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[insects chirping]
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♪ Oh, how sweet to walk
in this pilgrim way ♪
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♪ Leaning on
the everlasting arms ♪
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♪ Oh, how bright the path
grows from day to day ♪
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♪ Leaning on
the everlasting arms ♪
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♪ Leaning ♪
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♪ Leaning ♪
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♪ Safe and secure
from all alarms ♪
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♪ Leaning on
the everlasting arms ♪
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♪ Leaning, leaning ♪
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♪ Safe and secure from... ♪
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[ominous music]
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[sighs] Today, we're going
to talk about honesty.
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You remember I asked you
if you had any sexual encounters
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with other boys,
and you said no.
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Were you telling the truth?
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"I want to take your cock
down my throat
until I can't breathe.
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Daddy."
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It's not a big deal.
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Okay, cool.
I'll just send these
to your mom, then.
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Relax. I'm not going to do that.
We have confidentiality here.
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What do you want me to do?
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I want you to say
as honestly as you can...
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...that you are lost.
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I'm lost.
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Again.
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I'm lost.
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Say that you don't
know yourself.
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I don't know myself.
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Say that you're a liar.
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I'm a liar.
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Who'd you lie to?
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I lied to you.
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Yeah. Who else?
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Myself.
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Why did you lie?
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I don't know.
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You lied because you were trying
to justify your sin.
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-[tearfully] Okay.
-Say it.
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I lied to justify my sin.
[breath trembling]
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What did you do?
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[crying] I told Derek
I wanted to suck his penis.
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-Say you need help.
-[crying] I need help.
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There you go.
Beg me to help you.
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-[crying]
-On your knees!
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[serene music]
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Stop. Stop, stop, stop.
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[panting] Stop.
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I need to stop.
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We're still a good mile short.
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I can't carry this anymore.
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[panting]
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Why am I making you do this?
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Because the weight of the rocks
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is like the weight
of a life of sin.
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And that weight
doesn't get any lighter,
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does it?
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In fact... [clears throat]
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...oh, boy, it gets heavier.
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[Pat grunts]
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-[ominous music]
-[thunder rumbling]
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[pen rasping]
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[ominous music]
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[voices whispering indistinctly]
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[ominous music]
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[somber music]
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[Pat]
Mm-mm.
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There are pages ripped out.
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[clock ticking]
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Come on, bud,
I'm starving here. [sighs]
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All right, that, that's enough.
That's enough.
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-You know--
-What?
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You know,
there are many churches
that just don't care anymore.
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There are gay pastors.
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Do you think
we should be like that?
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Maybe.
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Sure, we could... [swallows]
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...make concessions.
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A lot more people
into the whole
Joel Osteen thing.
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Hey, we could
put in carnival rides.
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That's not what I'm saying.
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I know how badly
you want to be accepted
for who you think you are.
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And nothing
would make me happier
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than to throw open
the doors and say,
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"Come on in, be gay, whatever."
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But every concession
to the outside world
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costs a little bit of our souls.
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Makes us a little less distinct.
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Makes it mean less
to be one of us.
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And the easiest concessions
cost most of all.
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But why is it wrong?
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It's in the book.
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-Well, why does the book
say it's wrong?
-I don't know, bud.
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I don't need to know.
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[clock ticking]
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[rustling]
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[suspenseful music]
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[door opens and closes]
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[door opens and closes]
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[suspenseful music]
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[breath trembling]
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[Alana sniffles]
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[breath trembling]
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[sniffles]
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Do you know what this is?
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00:25:10,160 --> 00:25:11,988
Does this look
like Tylenol to you?
264
00:25:14,251 --> 00:25:15,949
[sighs, gulps]
265
00:25:18,168 --> 00:25:19,822
[sniffling] Forty-four...
266
00:25:22,042 --> 00:25:24,218
[crying]
267
00:25:24,392 --> 00:25:25,436
...forty-five...
268
00:25:26,133 --> 00:25:27,264
[gulps]
269
00:25:30,398 --> 00:25:31,486
Forty-six.
270
00:25:32,095 --> 00:25:34,794
-[suspenseful music]
-[Trick gasping]
271
00:25:39,538 --> 00:25:41,757
That was really stupid.
272
00:25:43,803 --> 00:25:45,935
[sighs]
Where were you even going to go?
273
00:25:46,109 --> 00:25:47,023
[locks door]
274
00:25:49,417 --> 00:25:50,418
Huh?
275
00:25:53,769 --> 00:25:55,728
And what am I
going to tell your parents?
276
00:25:58,992 --> 00:26:00,994
-Tell them what you want--
-Hey!
277
00:26:02,125 --> 00:26:04,998
That attitude doesn't cut
any fucking ice with me, okay?
278
00:26:08,697 --> 00:26:10,699
[somber music]
279
00:26:15,748 --> 00:26:17,184
[strumming]
280
00:26:37,944 --> 00:26:39,859
[leaves rustling, crunching]
281
00:27:40,920 --> 00:27:42,704
"I'm so scared of hell.
282
00:27:44,793 --> 00:27:46,360
The only reason
I don't kill myself
283
00:27:46,534 --> 00:27:48,318
is because
I'm so scared of hell."
284
00:27:55,195 --> 00:27:56,718
[inhales deeply]
285
00:28:01,331 --> 00:28:02,681
Do you think I'm an idiot?
286
00:28:04,117 --> 00:28:05,596
-[sucks teeth]
-No.
287
00:28:07,381 --> 00:28:09,688
So, what, I find these pages
conveniently sticking,
288
00:28:10,645 --> 00:28:12,473
sticking out
from under a rock...
289
00:28:14,257 --> 00:28:16,129
...and I rush you home.
That was the plan?
290
00:28:17,304 --> 00:28:19,262
-There was no plan.
-Bullshit!
291
00:28:32,319 --> 00:28:33,233
Get up.
292
00:28:34,930 --> 00:28:38,325
-[Trick grunting]
-[Pat] Men do not use
cheap schemes or manipulation.
293
00:28:38,499 --> 00:28:40,457
-Men fight. Come on.
-[Trick grunting]
294
00:28:40,631 --> 00:28:42,329
Combat. Survival.
295
00:28:42,503 --> 00:28:44,505
-Tap into it. Come on, Trick!
-[groans]
296
00:28:44,679 --> 00:28:46,550
We're in the arena.
Here come the lions!
297
00:28:46,725 --> 00:28:48,727
[Trick panting]
298
00:28:55,951 --> 00:28:59,172
[clears throat]
Man, those lions would
eat you up real quick, huh?
299
00:29:02,175 --> 00:29:03,654
What's wrong with you?
300
00:29:05,613 --> 00:29:06,657
Nothing.
301
00:29:08,007 --> 00:29:09,225
Do you like this?
302
00:29:11,010 --> 00:29:12,751
Do you like hurting people?
303
00:29:15,492 --> 00:29:19,105
If Jesus were alive,
he would never forgive you.
304
00:29:22,761 --> 00:29:23,849
Trick...
305
00:29:25,285 --> 00:29:28,244
-...I have not lied to you...
-[breathing heavily]
306
00:29:28,418 --> 00:29:31,204
...nor misrepresented
my faith once.
307
00:29:32,335 --> 00:29:33,467
Not once.
308
00:29:36,165 --> 00:29:39,516
I am here
because I genuinely believe
309
00:29:39,690 --> 00:29:43,042
that I am saving your soul
from an eternity of torment.
310
00:29:45,609 --> 00:29:48,177
I really believe that, okay?
I promise.
311
00:29:54,967 --> 00:29:56,620
Now, I think
you owe me an apology.
312
00:30:03,410 --> 00:30:06,630
Trick... apologize.
313
00:30:07,240 --> 00:30:09,242
[Trick shudders]
314
00:30:12,245 --> 00:30:13,333
Stand up.
315
00:30:16,423 --> 00:30:18,381
[sighs]
Maybe you don't need therapy.
316
00:30:18,555 --> 00:30:20,688
Maybe you need
some outside stimulus.
317
00:30:24,605 --> 00:30:26,259
-[Trick grunts softly]
-What are you going
to do about it?
318
00:30:26,433 --> 00:30:27,608
-Stop.
-Come on.
319
00:30:27,782 --> 00:30:29,001
-Stop.
-What are you going to do?
320
00:30:29,175 --> 00:30:30,654
-Stop.
-I'm not hitting you.
321
00:30:30,829 --> 00:30:32,482
We're fighting.
Come on. Come on!
322
00:30:33,614 --> 00:30:35,398
What are you
going to do about it?
Come on, Trick!
323
00:30:35,572 --> 00:30:37,139
-S--
-Come on!
324
00:30:39,620 --> 00:30:40,534
[exhales]
325
00:30:44,233 --> 00:30:45,321
Where's your fight?
326
00:30:46,540 --> 00:30:48,237
-Come on.
-Go ahead.
327
00:30:50,413 --> 00:30:51,806
Do whatever you want.
328
00:30:57,333 --> 00:30:58,378
[Trick thuds]
329
00:31:04,558 --> 00:31:06,516
What am I going to do
with you, Patrick?
330
00:31:07,866 --> 00:31:08,736
[sighs]
331
00:31:12,522 --> 00:31:15,525
[somber music]
332
00:31:50,821 --> 00:31:52,432
[Pat]
I just don't know what to do.
333
00:31:52,606 --> 00:31:54,434
He's fighting me on everything.
334
00:31:55,304 --> 00:31:58,220
[man over phone]
Have you tried aversion?
335
00:32:00,744 --> 00:32:05,488
[Pat]
I thought we weren't, uh...
allowed to do that anymore.
336
00:32:06,881 --> 00:32:09,231
[man]
Well, I guess that's true,
337
00:32:09,405 --> 00:32:13,105
but...[chuckles] ...we are
on a razor's edge out here.
338
00:32:14,062 --> 00:32:16,499
If this goes south,
I don't think
you're gonna have a job.
339
00:32:17,761 --> 00:32:20,808
But, you know,
do what you think is right.
340
00:32:42,438 --> 00:32:43,570
[tape rips]
341
00:32:56,235 --> 00:32:57,323
[Pat]
Where have you been?
342
00:33:04,286 --> 00:33:05,374
[Trick hesitates]
Nowhere.
343
00:33:11,554 --> 00:33:12,425
Okay.
344
00:33:17,560 --> 00:33:18,561
Well...
345
00:33:22,087 --> 00:33:24,089
...I know I've been
a little hard on you lately.
346
00:33:25,090 --> 00:33:26,961
I figured you deserve
something special.
347
00:33:35,491 --> 00:33:38,016
So, uh, tell me something.
348
00:33:39,669 --> 00:33:40,453
[Trick]
Hm.
349
00:33:41,802 --> 00:33:43,978
Something different.
Nothing about sex.
350
00:33:45,066 --> 00:33:46,546
Nothing about God.
351
00:33:46,720 --> 00:33:48,765
Just, um, uh...
352
00:33:52,334 --> 00:33:53,770
What do you want to be
when you grow up?
353
00:33:56,512 --> 00:33:58,340
So, um...
354
00:34:00,777 --> 00:34:03,867
...I always thought
it would be kind of cool
to work, like...
355
00:34:05,043 --> 00:34:08,394
-...in, like art conservation
and restoration.
-[snickers]
356
00:34:10,178 --> 00:34:11,484
Oh, what's that entail?
357
00:34:12,572 --> 00:34:14,878
So, um...
358
00:34:16,271 --> 00:34:19,274
...this guy from the MET
came to our class
to talk about how
359
00:34:20,232 --> 00:34:23,061
-complicated it was
to do art exhibits.
-Mm.
360
00:34:23,235 --> 00:34:27,674
Like, you have to conceive it,
find money,
361
00:34:27,848 --> 00:34:30,633
ask other museums
to donate their stuff,
362
00:34:31,460 --> 00:34:36,726
transport it, inspect it
from both ends,
like, get insurance.
363
00:34:36,900 --> 00:34:41,383
Like, the whole thing
is really complicated.
364
00:34:43,124 --> 00:34:47,085
Transportation is really hard.
You have to be really gentle.
365
00:34:52,002 --> 00:34:53,874
Uh, you know, I know, um,
366
00:34:54,048 --> 00:34:56,572
a couple of guys
at the county museum. [snickers]
367
00:34:56,746 --> 00:34:59,488
It's not the MET, but, uh,
maybe we could get you
368
00:34:59,662 --> 00:35:03,405
-an internship or something.
-Oh, I don't want an internship.
369
00:35:03,579 --> 00:35:04,928
-Or--
-Why do you do that?
370
00:35:06,756 --> 00:35:08,193
You kind of turtle up.
371
00:35:11,500 --> 00:35:12,675
Do you get bullied?
372
00:35:15,417 --> 00:35:16,592
Oh, yeah.
373
00:35:19,029 --> 00:35:21,162
-Everyone does.
-Mm-mm.
374
00:35:21,858 --> 00:35:23,121
I never did.
375
00:35:25,297 --> 00:35:26,298
What happens?
376
00:35:28,691 --> 00:35:29,692
So, um...
377
00:35:32,521 --> 00:35:36,221
...there's like these,
these main group of dudes
who are all like, uh...
378
00:35:36,395 --> 00:35:38,179
[breath trembling]
379
00:35:38,353 --> 00:35:39,920
...really intense.
380
00:35:40,094 --> 00:35:41,226
And, uh...
381
00:35:42,966 --> 00:35:45,099
...they do things
that are like, um...
382
00:35:46,405 --> 00:35:49,451
-It's all right.
-[crying] ...really intense,
and, like...
383
00:35:50,017 --> 00:35:51,758
[sniffles] And I don't think
384
00:35:51,932 --> 00:35:54,326
that I come off as gay
or anything, but...
385
00:35:54,500 --> 00:35:57,503
[crying]
386
00:35:58,678 --> 00:35:59,896
...I can't help it.
387
00:36:02,029 --> 00:36:04,597
And I try to avoid them
at school.
388
00:36:06,599 --> 00:36:10,211
And you probably don't know this
about Saint Mark's.
389
00:36:10,385 --> 00:36:14,955
It's actually a really...
[crying] ...fascinating school.
390
00:36:15,129 --> 00:36:18,176
Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey.
It's okay, it's okay,
it's okay, it's okay.
391
00:36:18,350 --> 00:36:20,003
-Don't worry about it.
-[sobbing]
392
00:36:35,671 --> 00:36:36,890
Hey.
393
00:36:37,064 --> 00:36:38,370
Hey, can we, um...
394
00:36:38,892 --> 00:36:40,198
Can we not talk about it?
395
00:36:41,329 --> 00:36:42,635
I wasn't gonna.
396
00:36:42,809 --> 00:36:45,115
Okay. 'Cause, y-- you know,
397
00:36:45,290 --> 00:36:47,030
I'm actually feeling
much better now.
398
00:36:48,075 --> 00:36:49,468
-You are?
-Yeah.
399
00:36:49,642 --> 00:36:52,079
I mean, about the gay stuff.
400
00:36:52,253 --> 00:36:56,736
Like, I, I was just thinking
that maybe this kind of worked.
401
00:36:56,910 --> 00:37:00,479
Like, I was just thinking
that maybe this kind of worked.
402
00:37:03,351 --> 00:37:04,657
Okay.
403
00:37:04,831 --> 00:37:06,572
Yeah, I mean, genuinely, like,
404
00:37:07,399 --> 00:37:09,401
I don't... I think about guys,
405
00:37:09,575 --> 00:37:13,013
and I don't feel
or want anything, so,
406
00:37:13,970 --> 00:37:17,235
yeah, may, maybe we can
go back home now?
407
00:37:22,196 --> 00:37:24,154
Are you being honest, Patrick?
408
00:37:26,113 --> 00:37:27,375
Okay, we can...
409
00:37:29,769 --> 00:37:32,162
...we can stay here
for another day,
if that's what you want.
410
00:37:32,337 --> 00:37:33,338
[Pat sighs]
411
00:37:35,165 --> 00:37:39,344
Actually... I want to try
something a little different.
412
00:37:40,083 --> 00:37:41,955
Are you familiar
with aversion therapy?
413
00:37:44,087 --> 00:37:44,958
No worries.
414
00:37:46,351 --> 00:37:47,787
Drink this, please.
415
00:37:48,483 --> 00:37:49,441
What is it?
416
00:37:51,617 --> 00:37:55,316
If you drink this,
I will take you home tonight.
417
00:37:57,231 --> 00:37:58,188
[exhales]
418
00:38:11,332 --> 00:38:12,333
[exhales]
419
00:38:14,727 --> 00:38:16,032
It's called ipecac.
420
00:38:16,729 --> 00:38:17,904
It's an emetic.
421
00:38:24,432 --> 00:38:25,607
What are you doing?
422
00:38:26,216 --> 00:38:27,217
[Pat sighs]
423
00:38:28,131 --> 00:38:30,612
I really value
what you were sharing
with me earlier.
424
00:38:33,441 --> 00:38:38,577
Your job now is to not let
what's about to happen
jeopardize our closeness.
425
00:38:39,142 --> 00:38:40,230
Okay?
426
00:38:41,971 --> 00:38:43,190
How are you feeling?
427
00:38:43,843 --> 00:38:45,366
My tongue feels numb.
428
00:38:46,062 --> 00:38:48,064
[Trick panting]
429
00:38:56,421 --> 00:38:58,379
[Pat]
Into the tub, please.
There you go.
430
00:39:00,250 --> 00:39:01,208
There you go.
431
00:39:03,297 --> 00:39:04,472
[Trick groans]
432
00:39:04,646 --> 00:39:06,039
[panting]
433
00:39:07,693 --> 00:39:08,781
What's an emetic?
434
00:39:10,739 --> 00:39:13,786
It is a gastric irritant.
435
00:39:16,484 --> 00:39:18,138
How are we doing?
You feeling it?
436
00:39:18,312 --> 00:39:19,966
-[panting]
-Yeah.
437
00:39:27,887 --> 00:39:29,105
[coughs]
438
00:39:32,935 --> 00:39:35,373
[moaning on video]
439
00:39:42,728 --> 00:39:44,294
[indistinct talking on video]
440
00:39:49,822 --> 00:39:50,866
Eyes up, kiddo.
441
00:39:51,867 --> 00:39:54,566
Yeah. Eyes up. Eyes open.
Come on. Come on.
442
00:39:55,218 --> 00:39:56,437
-Come on. Open--
-I can't.
443
00:39:56,611 --> 00:39:58,439
Yes, you can.
There you go. That's it.
444
00:39:58,613 --> 00:40:00,093
-That's good. Look.
-It hurts.
445
00:40:02,225 --> 00:40:04,184
-Is this what you want?
-[men moaning on video]
446
00:40:06,491 --> 00:40:07,883
Good, good. You're doing good.
447
00:40:08,057 --> 00:40:09,494
Is this what you want?
448
00:40:10,320 --> 00:40:11,409
Is this what you want?
449
00:40:11,583 --> 00:40:12,584
[crying] Stop!
450
00:40:12,758 --> 00:40:15,195
Don't ask me, Trick. Ask God.
451
00:40:15,369 --> 00:40:17,284
-Please!
-Ask him, Trick.
452
00:40:17,458 --> 00:40:19,417
-I'm sorry!
-Is this what you want?
453
00:40:19,591 --> 00:40:23,159
-[Trick crying]
-[men moaning on video]
454
00:40:23,333 --> 00:40:24,944
Open your eyes, Patrick.
455
00:40:25,118 --> 00:40:27,207
Open your eyes. Open your eyes.
456
00:40:27,947 --> 00:40:30,776
-Eyes open, Patrick!
-[Trick sobbing]
457
00:40:30,950 --> 00:40:34,519
Hell is not a game.
This is a spa treatment
compared to hell.
458
00:40:34,693 --> 00:40:37,260
-I'm so sorry!
-Are you planning
on lying to me again?
459
00:40:37,435 --> 00:40:40,394
-I'm so sorry!
-Are you planning
on lying to me again?
460
00:40:40,568 --> 00:40:42,614
-[sobbing]
-[moaning continues]
461
00:40:42,788 --> 00:40:44,529
I'm sorry!
462
00:40:45,181 --> 00:40:46,052
Are you?
463
00:40:46,226 --> 00:40:48,228
I'm sorry!
464
00:40:48,402 --> 00:40:52,711
-[moaning, grunting on video]
-[Trick sobbing] I'm so sorry!
465
00:40:53,886 --> 00:40:55,409
I won't lie!
466
00:40:55,583 --> 00:40:57,933
Oh, Jesus! God!
467
00:40:58,107 --> 00:41:00,675
-I'm sorry!
-[grunting]
468
00:41:00,849 --> 00:41:02,982
[sobbing, retching]
469
00:41:07,552 --> 00:41:10,206
[sobbing] Please!
470
00:41:11,947 --> 00:41:13,558
[retching]
471
00:41:18,084 --> 00:41:20,478
[retching, groaning]
472
00:41:22,871 --> 00:41:25,221
[whimpering]
473
00:41:25,395 --> 00:41:28,311
[heavy breathing on video]
474
00:41:42,325 --> 00:41:43,979
There's nothing
I can do now, Trick.
475
00:41:45,677 --> 00:41:47,461
Some things
you just have to endure.
476
00:41:47,635 --> 00:41:49,811
-[Trick retching]
-[moaning on video]
477
00:41:57,036 --> 00:41:58,907
[Trick panting]
478
00:42:35,509 --> 00:42:37,555
[somber music]
479
00:42:45,388 --> 00:42:47,434
[heavy breathing]
480
00:43:01,361 --> 00:43:02,492
[shudders]
481
00:43:07,323 --> 00:43:09,325
[somber music]
482
00:43:55,981 --> 00:43:57,547
You still don't feel
like talking?
483
00:44:02,901 --> 00:44:04,729
It hurts me
when you do this, Trick.
484
00:44:06,295 --> 00:44:07,296
[snickers]
485
00:44:12,475 --> 00:44:13,520
All right.
486
00:44:14,173 --> 00:44:15,522
[door creaks]
487
00:44:51,732 --> 00:44:55,910
[male voice]
One of us.
488
00:44:57,912 --> 00:45:00,872
-Forever.
-Forever.
489
00:45:01,046 --> 00:45:03,701
Forever. Forever.
490
00:45:04,702 --> 00:45:06,965
Forever. Forever.
491
00:45:07,705 --> 00:45:10,142
Forever. Forever.
492
00:45:10,316 --> 00:45:11,883
[man talking indistinctly on TV]
493
00:45:12,057 --> 00:45:13,667
My wife since...
494
00:45:15,538 --> 00:45:17,584
...served Jesus today.
495
00:45:19,499 --> 00:45:22,589
"How did you
serve Jesus today?"
I said, "Say what?"
496
00:45:22,763 --> 00:45:26,158
And she just said it again.
She said, "How did you
serve Jesus today?"
497
00:45:26,332 --> 00:45:30,466
I said, "Well, Pastor,
I serve Jesus every day
with all my heart."
498
00:45:31,598 --> 00:45:33,818
A gentle approach
is usually better.
499
00:45:34,644 --> 00:45:36,777
We, uh, feel the same.
500
00:45:37,343 --> 00:45:38,431
But firm.
501
00:45:40,650 --> 00:45:43,262
Sure, sure. Gentle but firm.
502
00:45:43,436 --> 00:45:45,394
That's really the trick,
isn't it?
503
00:45:45,568 --> 00:45:47,657
[Kai]
Do you, uh, need a water?
504
00:45:48,223 --> 00:45:50,269
You were at redemption
with Alan, right?
505
00:45:50,835 --> 00:45:52,837
Oh. You know Alan.
506
00:45:53,011 --> 00:45:56,318
[Deb]
We think what happened to him
was just criminal.
507
00:45:58,451 --> 00:46:02,498
Well, there will always be those
who don't understand.
508
00:46:03,282 --> 00:46:06,372
It's just a shame
so many of them are
federal regulators. [chuckles]
509
00:46:08,896 --> 00:46:10,158
I'm serious.
510
00:46:10,855 --> 00:46:12,552
Christians are
more persecuted now
511
00:46:12,726 --> 00:46:14,467
than they were
during the Roman Empire.
512
00:46:15,598 --> 00:46:16,991
It's definitely alarming.
513
00:46:18,253 --> 00:46:20,342
[man on TV
continues indistinctly]
514
00:46:22,214 --> 00:46:23,868
Do you do exorcisms?
515
00:46:25,652 --> 00:46:27,349
[man on TV]
He is a mighty God.
516
00:46:28,307 --> 00:46:29,308
[chuckles softly]
517
00:46:30,483 --> 00:46:33,747
Uh, well, no. Not technically.
518
00:46:34,356 --> 00:46:35,749
I am not empowered to do that.
519
00:46:35,923 --> 00:46:38,752
Uh, Deb thinks it's a demon.
520
00:46:39,492 --> 00:46:42,234
-You don't have to
say it like that.
-Sorry.
521
00:46:43,409 --> 00:46:45,280
[Deb]
I don't think it's a demon.
522
00:46:45,454 --> 00:46:48,109
I strongly suspect
demonic influence.
523
00:46:48,283 --> 00:46:50,720
Not uncommon
in a case like this.
524
00:46:52,287 --> 00:46:55,725
But I don't,
I don't deal in demons.
525
00:46:55,900 --> 00:47:00,295
After all, a demon can only
take root in a willing host.
[snickers]
526
00:47:00,469 --> 00:47:03,777
So you treat the patient,
and the demons will go away
on their own.
527
00:47:03,951 --> 00:47:06,519
[Deb]
There's a camp,
you know, in New Mexico.
528
00:47:06,693 --> 00:47:08,129
They have
a water recreation area.
529
00:47:08,303 --> 00:47:11,219
-And you do cost more.
-Sure.
530
00:47:11,916 --> 00:47:14,701
And if money is a concern,
Jubilee is your best bet.
531
00:47:14,875 --> 00:47:16,355
They're great folk.
532
00:47:17,660 --> 00:47:20,359
-But your kid, what's his name?
-[Deb] Patrick.
533
00:47:22,317 --> 00:47:23,753
Funny. [chuckles]
534
00:47:24,450 --> 00:47:27,888
At Jubilee, Patrick will be
around 50 other kids
535
00:47:28,062 --> 00:47:30,717
looked after
by four or five counselors.
536
00:47:31,892 --> 00:47:34,547
If you go with me,
your son will be
my only priority.
537
00:47:34,721 --> 00:47:38,551
-Money's no object.
-Money's... [chuckles]...
a small object.
538
00:47:39,813 --> 00:47:42,468
How much
is the week-long retreat?
539
00:47:44,426 --> 00:47:45,732
He's our son!
540
00:47:45,906 --> 00:47:49,214
You fucker! You fucker!
541
00:47:49,910 --> 00:47:51,129
[Kai sighs]
542
00:47:51,303 --> 00:47:52,608
I am trying to save
543
00:47:52,782 --> 00:47:54,045
our son's soul...
[continues hitting Kai]
544
00:47:54,219 --> 00:47:56,134
...and all you can think about
is money!
545
00:47:58,527 --> 00:48:01,095
[Pat breathing heavily]
546
00:48:18,504 --> 00:48:19,635
[grunts]
547
00:48:21,376 --> 00:48:23,248
[sighing]
548
00:48:42,528 --> 00:48:43,703
[sighs]
549
00:48:46,271 --> 00:48:47,098
[grunts]
550
00:48:49,404 --> 00:48:50,579
Up, up, up.
551
00:48:50,753 --> 00:48:52,146
Time to get up.
552
00:48:52,886 --> 00:48:56,063
I am really pleased
with our progress yesterday.
553
00:48:56,977 --> 00:48:59,849
We are through the hard stuff.
We're on the road to Damascus.
554
00:49:01,634 --> 00:49:07,074
You know... [clears throat]
Paul reported intense pain
when Jesus visited him,
555
00:49:07,248 --> 00:49:09,033
and he was struck blind.
556
00:49:09,207 --> 00:49:10,599
The presence will do that.
557
00:49:13,863 --> 00:49:14,952
[sighs]
558
00:49:18,216 --> 00:49:19,608
Are we going to have
another day of sulking, Trick?
559
00:49:19,782 --> 00:49:21,784
I really don't need you
ruining another day.
560
00:49:31,011 --> 00:49:33,013
[suspenseful music]
561
00:49:38,497 --> 00:49:40,151
[Trick]
To whoever reads this...
562
00:49:43,676 --> 00:49:47,506
...I'm sorry for all the pain
that I've caused.
563
00:49:49,334 --> 00:49:51,423
Damn it! [sighs]
564
00:49:51,597 --> 00:49:55,079
[Trick]
I'm sorry for being
a disappointment to everybody.
565
00:49:58,821 --> 00:50:00,562
I'm sorry, Mom and Dad.
566
00:50:04,044 --> 00:50:05,872
I'm sorry, Mr. Sherman.
567
00:50:08,788 --> 00:50:11,356
I'm sorry that it took me
so long to do the thing
568
00:50:11,530 --> 00:50:14,663
that I know will make
everybody's lives easier.
569
00:50:14,837 --> 00:50:17,318
[Pat grunting]
570
00:50:17,492 --> 00:50:19,581
[Trick]
I'm just so scared of hell.
571
00:50:22,106 --> 00:50:23,803
I'm so scared of hell.
572
00:50:23,977 --> 00:50:25,979
[breathing heavily]
573
00:50:26,153 --> 00:50:28,199
I'm so scared of hell.
574
00:50:30,375 --> 00:50:32,420
I'm so scared of hell.
575
00:50:34,379 --> 00:50:36,946
I'm so scared of hell.
576
00:50:41,734 --> 00:50:42,865
[exhales]
577
00:50:43,605 --> 00:50:45,346
[insects chirping]
578
00:50:59,534 --> 00:51:00,666
[gasps softly]
579
00:51:13,113 --> 00:51:14,158
[sighs]
580
00:51:16,595 --> 00:51:17,596
[snickers]
581
00:51:20,425 --> 00:51:21,295
I...
582
00:51:21,948 --> 00:51:23,732
I don't know. [snickers]
583
00:51:25,517 --> 00:51:27,258
[smacks lips]
I don't know what happened.
584
00:51:27,432 --> 00:51:28,824
No, I... [sighs]
585
00:51:30,087 --> 00:51:31,305
I... [sighs]
586
00:51:32,915 --> 00:51:34,134
I don't know what happened.
587
00:51:34,787 --> 00:51:36,136
He must've snuck out.
588
00:51:38,834 --> 00:51:40,923
No. No signs.
589
00:51:44,840 --> 00:51:47,060
You let me inform the parents.
I'm a preacher.
590
00:51:47,669 --> 00:51:49,323
Look, let me inform...
591
00:51:49,497 --> 00:51:51,325
Will you let me in-- Damn it.
592
00:51:54,372 --> 00:51:55,286
[exhales]
593
00:51:56,548 --> 00:51:58,202
Let me inform the parents.
594
00:51:58,376 --> 00:51:59,333
I'm a preacher.
595
00:51:59,507 --> 00:52:00,508
[snickers]
596
00:52:03,381 --> 00:52:07,341
No, of course not. No, I have,
I have no idea where he went.
597
00:52:07,907 --> 00:52:10,301
I just hope we find him
before it's too late.
598
00:52:14,392 --> 00:52:15,654
Thank you, Officer.
599
00:52:17,351 --> 00:52:18,961
[breathes deeply]
600
00:52:21,921 --> 00:52:23,575
If there's anything I--
601
00:52:23,749 --> 00:52:26,534
If there's anything I--
[exhales in frustration]
602
00:52:29,276 --> 00:52:31,148
If there's anything I can do...
603
00:52:42,246 --> 00:52:43,769
[exhales forcefully]
604
00:52:43,943 --> 00:52:45,988
[ominous music]
605
00:52:56,042 --> 00:52:57,130
[stone clatters]
606
00:52:59,393 --> 00:53:01,743
[breathing heavily]
607
00:53:11,623 --> 00:53:13,494
This is private property!
608
00:53:15,931 --> 00:53:17,933
Don't think
I won't call the cops!
609
00:53:18,760 --> 00:53:20,022
-[stones clattering]
-[yells in pain]
610
00:53:22,938 --> 00:53:23,983
God!
611
00:53:25,506 --> 00:53:26,377
[groans]
612
00:53:38,519 --> 00:53:40,260
[pants]
613
00:53:42,871 --> 00:53:45,265
[groaning]
614
00:54:23,564 --> 00:54:24,826
[sighs]
615
00:54:32,399 --> 00:54:33,531
[sighs]
616
00:54:41,974 --> 00:54:43,149
[sniffs]
617
00:54:49,242 --> 00:54:50,896
[sighs, opens drawer]
618
00:54:56,510 --> 00:54:57,598
[sighs]
619
00:55:04,475 --> 00:55:05,302
[stone thuds]
620
00:55:07,260 --> 00:55:09,262
[panting]
621
00:55:14,920 --> 00:55:17,270
[breath trembling]
622
00:55:18,053 --> 00:55:19,359
-[woman] Excuse me!
-[gasps]
623
00:55:26,671 --> 00:55:28,629
[stifles sob]
624
00:55:29,761 --> 00:55:31,763
[breathing heavily]]
625
00:55:40,598 --> 00:55:42,774
I know you're in there.
I can see your car.
626
00:55:44,993 --> 00:55:46,125
Excuse me.
627
00:55:46,691 --> 00:55:48,040
I'd like to talk to you.
628
00:55:50,651 --> 00:55:52,566
[man]
Babe, come on.
629
00:55:54,916 --> 00:55:56,048
Hey. Sorry.
630
00:55:56,222 --> 00:55:57,571
Couldn't hear you over the sink.
631
00:55:58,180 --> 00:55:59,399
Who are you?
632
00:55:59,573 --> 00:56:01,270
Uh, I'm Pat.
633
00:56:02,533 --> 00:56:03,751
You're not Alan.
634
00:56:03,925 --> 00:56:05,013
Uh, no, ma'am.
635
00:56:06,319 --> 00:56:07,799
And you're a pastor?
636
00:56:07,973 --> 00:56:08,930
Yes, ma'am.
637
00:56:16,503 --> 00:56:18,418
-Uh...
-[man] Babe,
638
00:56:19,463 --> 00:56:20,681
-come on.
-[woman] Shh.
639
00:56:22,291 --> 00:56:23,467
Is the kid in there?
640
00:56:25,425 --> 00:56:26,600
What kid?
641
00:56:27,514 --> 00:56:28,385
Oh.
642
00:56:28,559 --> 00:56:30,648
Uh, yes. Um...
643
00:56:31,997 --> 00:56:33,607
He, uh...
644
00:56:35,435 --> 00:56:38,395
I don't really think of him
as a kid. He's asleep.
645
00:56:39,265 --> 00:56:40,266
Asleep?
646
00:56:41,310 --> 00:56:43,574
He was up late in prayer.
647
00:56:46,098 --> 00:56:48,274
So, how do you know Alan?
648
00:56:48,448 --> 00:56:50,929
Um, I'm a pastor.
649
00:56:51,669 --> 00:56:52,757
[chuckles] Uh, I know.
650
00:56:52,931 --> 00:56:54,454
Um, are you from around here?
651
00:56:56,978 --> 00:56:59,459
Me and Alan, we, we go way back.
652
00:56:59,633 --> 00:57:00,982
[snickers]
653
00:57:01,156 --> 00:57:03,289
So, Alan knows
you're here, right?
654
00:57:03,463 --> 00:57:04,682
Sure hope so.
655
00:57:07,162 --> 00:57:09,121
-Yes, he does.
-And the kid.
656
00:57:10,296 --> 00:57:11,515
What about him?
657
00:57:13,342 --> 00:57:14,605
Hey, are you in there?
658
00:57:14,779 --> 00:57:16,215
Is everything okay?
659
00:57:17,390 --> 00:57:18,696
[smacks lips]
660
00:57:19,479 --> 00:57:20,785
He's a deep sleeper.
661
00:57:22,264 --> 00:57:24,310
How about I just come in
for a second and check?
662
00:57:24,963 --> 00:57:28,270
That's so sweet of you,
but I think we better
let him rest.
663
00:57:28,445 --> 00:57:30,490
I am responsible
for his welfare, after all.
664
00:57:30,664 --> 00:57:33,232
And as far as I can tell,
you're just some trespasser.
665
00:57:42,589 --> 00:57:43,460
[horn honks]
666
00:57:44,199 --> 00:57:46,898
Honey, the range closes
in, like, an hour.
667
00:57:47,072 --> 00:57:48,160
[woman]
All right.
668
00:57:51,816 --> 00:57:52,817
Well...
669
00:57:54,601 --> 00:57:56,473
-...take care.
-[Pat] You as well.
670
00:58:06,744 --> 00:58:09,790
Take the car to the end
of the driveway, block the exit,
and call the cops.
671
00:58:11,662 --> 00:58:12,663
[man sighs]
672
00:58:13,402 --> 00:58:15,448
[car drives away]
673
00:58:22,281 --> 00:58:24,631
[ominous music]
674
00:58:36,295 --> 00:58:38,471
[light shuffling]
675
01:00:10,607 --> 01:00:12,609
[ominous music]
676
01:00:20,399 --> 01:00:21,530
[yells]
677
01:00:24,751 --> 01:00:26,710
[high-pitched ringing]
678
01:00:28,537 --> 01:00:30,583
[squelching]
679
01:00:40,767 --> 01:00:42,639
[breathing heavily]
680
01:00:47,121 --> 01:00:48,340
[gasps]
681
01:00:51,778 --> 01:00:52,953
[inhales sharply]
682
01:00:55,260 --> 01:00:56,653
[creaking]
683
01:01:05,270 --> 01:01:06,314
[gasps]
684
01:01:31,992 --> 01:01:34,995
[sirens wailing, approaching]
685
01:01:36,736 --> 01:01:38,869
[breathing heavily]
686
01:01:41,610 --> 01:01:43,743
[distant indistinct chatter]
687
01:01:43,917 --> 01:01:45,614
[phone ringing]
688
01:01:48,443 --> 01:01:50,532
[officer]
All right, now,
why don't you just tell me
689
01:01:50,707 --> 01:01:53,753
-a little about what happened
over there?
-[softly] I don't know.
690
01:01:54,711 --> 01:01:56,277
[officer]
Listen, Alan's a friend,
691
01:01:56,451 --> 01:01:58,932
and we really don't want
to have to embarrass the church
692
01:01:59,106 --> 01:02:02,153
or anything like that.
So, if you just tell me, uh...
693
01:02:05,243 --> 01:02:06,331
[sniffs]
694
01:02:09,073 --> 01:02:10,204
[sighs]
695
01:02:22,434 --> 01:02:24,566
[footsteps approaching]
696
01:02:28,266 --> 01:02:30,529
Well, here's the lay of it.
697
01:02:31,573 --> 01:02:33,837
We can keep you out of jail.
[chuckles]
698
01:02:34,011 --> 01:02:36,274
Lucky for you,
Judge Blatt, he's a friend.
699
01:02:36,927 --> 01:02:39,059
But you're going to have
to disappear in a hurry.
700
01:02:41,061 --> 01:02:42,106
Where do I go?
701
01:02:42,933 --> 01:02:44,282
I could go to Rexburg.
702
01:02:45,152 --> 01:02:47,024
Now, I know
you didn't just say that.
703
01:02:48,677 --> 01:02:51,028
I feel like I've done
everything I can for you.
704
01:02:52,464 --> 01:02:54,292
You ain't going to prison.
705
01:02:54,901 --> 01:02:55,989
Be thankful.
706
01:03:00,341 --> 01:03:02,082
Alan, I was working for you.
707
01:03:05,782 --> 01:03:08,785
I told you to scare the kid,
not kill him.
708
01:03:11,048 --> 01:03:12,701
That's not how I remember it.
709
01:03:17,097 --> 01:03:18,098
What?
710
01:03:20,709 --> 01:03:24,931
I remember you calling me
and, and telling me
to give the kid ipecac.
711
01:03:28,326 --> 01:03:32,286
You already gave your testimony,
you absolute son of a bitch.
712
01:03:33,418 --> 01:03:35,202
Maybe I remembered
something new.
713
01:03:38,945 --> 01:03:40,773
Just give me a place to live.
714
01:03:44,211 --> 01:03:45,256
God damn it.
715
01:03:47,736 --> 01:03:51,740
Well... there's one place
I can put you.
716
01:03:59,836 --> 01:04:01,838
[somber music]
717
01:04:18,419 --> 01:04:20,769
[door unlocks, creaks]
718
01:04:46,534 --> 01:04:47,579
[spray can hisses]
719
01:05:13,474 --> 01:05:15,476
[insects chirping]
720
01:05:28,185 --> 01:05:29,229
[sighs]
721
01:05:35,148 --> 01:05:36,671
[sighs]
722
01:05:59,999 --> 01:06:01,044
[exhales]
723
01:06:08,268 --> 01:06:09,313
[sighs]
724
01:06:41,780 --> 01:06:43,477
[breathes heavily]
725
01:07:09,155 --> 01:07:11,157
[gasping]
726
01:07:34,311 --> 01:07:36,139
[rustling]
727
01:07:51,110 --> 01:07:52,329
[woman]
Heard you got off.
728
01:08:01,251 --> 01:08:02,904
This is church property.
729
01:08:05,081 --> 01:08:06,212
That's right.
730
01:08:07,039 --> 01:08:08,736
Right up to that
line of trees over there.
731
01:08:09,998 --> 01:08:11,304
And it's my property.
732
01:08:17,005 --> 01:08:19,660
And if you so much as breathe
on my land,
733
01:08:20,618 --> 01:08:22,924
I will do to you
what the state should have done.
734
01:08:26,363 --> 01:08:28,495
I guess that'd be
about what I deserve. [sniffs]
735
01:08:35,067 --> 01:08:36,329
Do you feel bad?
736
01:08:38,592 --> 01:08:40,420
Do you think
about that poor boy?
737
01:08:43,989 --> 01:08:45,208
Most days.
738
01:08:46,383 --> 01:08:47,427
Most days?
739
01:08:47,993 --> 01:08:49,255
Jesus Christ.
740
01:08:50,865 --> 01:08:53,607
Somebody really should
put you out of your misery.
741
01:08:53,781 --> 01:08:55,218
I'm sure somebody will.
742
01:09:06,185 --> 01:09:09,449
[Pat on recording]
I don't think
you need fixing, Trick.
743
01:09:09,623 --> 01:09:11,582
I think you're fine
just the way you are.
744
01:09:18,023 --> 01:09:19,807
Look, if you don't want
to be here,
745
01:09:19,981 --> 01:09:21,853
just say the word,
I'll take you home right now.
746
01:09:22,027 --> 01:09:25,509
[Trick]
Okay. Um, I would like
to go home, please.
747
01:09:25,683 --> 01:09:27,424
[Pat]
But I think you should know
748
01:09:27,989 --> 01:09:30,905
that your parents
are really concerned.
749
01:09:32,037 --> 01:09:35,040
And if you continue acting out,
they may try other things.
750
01:09:36,694 --> 01:09:37,738
[Trick]
Right.
751
01:09:40,001 --> 01:09:41,612
[Pat]
I'm sure I don't have
to tell you that I'm,
752
01:09:41,786 --> 01:09:43,309
I'm the nice version of this.
753
01:09:43,483 --> 01:09:45,137
[Trick]
I, I get that.
754
01:09:47,835 --> 01:09:48,880
[Pat]
Okay.
755
01:09:50,403 --> 01:09:51,230
Okay.
756
01:09:54,277 --> 01:09:55,408
Just one question.
757
01:09:57,149 --> 01:09:58,716
Are you happy?
758
01:10:00,326 --> 01:10:01,414
[Trick]
I'm not.
759
01:10:04,287 --> 01:10:06,071
[Pat]
Why is that?
760
01:10:12,817 --> 01:10:14,079
[exhales]
761
01:10:20,216 --> 01:10:21,826
[girl sobbing]
762
01:10:26,047 --> 01:10:27,353
[exhales heavily]
763
01:10:28,441 --> 01:10:30,138
[girl crying]
764
01:10:30,313 --> 01:10:32,315
[thunder rumbling]
765
01:10:33,881 --> 01:10:35,056
[exhales heavily]
766
01:10:35,231 --> 01:10:37,233
[ominous music]
767
01:10:46,242 --> 01:10:49,288
[breathes heavily]
768
01:11:06,349 --> 01:11:07,741
[thunder rumbles]
769
01:11:24,671 --> 01:11:25,933
[door opens]
770
01:11:29,633 --> 01:11:30,721
[door closes]
771
01:11:30,895 --> 01:11:32,897
[thunder rumbling]
772
01:11:34,986 --> 01:11:37,031
[rain pattering]
773
01:11:46,911 --> 01:11:49,392
[Alana]
Do you remember me, Patrick?
774
01:11:56,573 --> 01:11:58,096
Of course I remember you.
775
01:11:59,750 --> 01:12:01,186
How old are you now?
776
01:12:02,622 --> 01:12:03,667
[Alana]
Twenty-two.
777
01:12:06,713 --> 01:12:07,714
Wow.
778
01:12:11,065 --> 01:12:13,633
-Last time I saw you--
-You don't remember me.
779
01:12:17,637 --> 01:12:18,725
[Pat]
I'm sorry.
780
01:12:20,292 --> 01:12:22,033
My name is Alana Conan.
781
01:12:31,347 --> 01:12:33,174
What can I do for you,
Alana Conan?
782
01:12:33,349 --> 01:12:35,612
It's so hard to focus.
783
01:12:36,439 --> 01:12:39,224
[sighs] It's so hard
to know what's real.
784
01:12:44,534 --> 01:12:47,145
[Pat]
Did you have something
that you wanted to say to me?
785
01:12:47,319 --> 01:12:48,364
Yes.
786
01:12:49,887 --> 01:12:50,844
That's right.
787
01:12:53,673 --> 01:12:54,892
You told me...
788
01:12:56,807 --> 01:13:00,550
...if I wanted to be a lesbian,
I should look like one.
789
01:13:05,511 --> 01:13:06,991
I know that I was lucky.
790
01:13:09,994 --> 01:13:15,913
There were rumors about
what the counselors did
to the other kids.
791
01:13:22,789 --> 01:13:23,877
For a while,
792
01:13:24,443 --> 01:13:25,575
I thought I was pretty lucky
793
01:13:25,749 --> 01:13:27,577
that I just had my head shaved.
794
01:13:32,669 --> 01:13:34,627
But I don't feel
that way anymore.
795
01:13:40,546 --> 01:13:42,635
I need you to apologize.
796
01:13:47,118 --> 01:13:49,599
Alana, from the bottom
of my heart...
797
01:13:52,253 --> 01:13:53,864
...I am so sorry.
798
01:13:59,609 --> 01:14:00,566
Okay.
799
01:14:01,959 --> 01:14:02,873
But...
800
01:14:06,354 --> 01:14:09,096
...at the time,
we thought we were
doing the right thing.
801
01:14:12,273 --> 01:14:17,235
I just think it's important
to look at the larger context.
802
01:14:17,409 --> 01:14:20,586
"The larger context."
803
01:14:21,718 --> 01:14:24,024
The cultural context.
804
01:14:25,417 --> 01:14:27,245
The older I get,
the more I feel it's...
805
01:14:28,551 --> 01:14:31,336
-We're all just products
of our culture.
-I had, um...
806
01:14:37,908 --> 01:14:38,952
I had, um...
807
01:14:40,911 --> 01:14:43,261
...Tylenol, I think...
808
01:14:44,741 --> 01:14:46,264
...in my medicine cabinet.
809
01:14:50,181 --> 01:14:52,270
I didn't know
how much to take, so...
810
01:14:54,490 --> 01:14:55,621
...I just took it all.
811
01:15:00,060 --> 01:15:01,584
And now my stomach is...
812
01:15:03,107 --> 01:15:06,458
...full of nails,
and chalk, and...
813
01:15:10,027 --> 01:15:14,640
After the paramedics left,
I started walking.
814
01:15:18,644 --> 01:15:22,126
Sometimes I felt... hungry.
815
01:15:22,300 --> 01:15:25,608
Um... sometimes I felt sad.
816
01:15:27,610 --> 01:15:29,046
And sometimes...
817
01:15:30,656 --> 01:15:34,094
...my feet would leave the earth
for an hour at a time.
818
01:15:37,663 --> 01:15:39,230
The others walk with me.
819
01:15:42,276 --> 01:15:45,932
When they fade away...
I'll carry them.
820
01:15:46,890 --> 01:15:49,762
And, and when I fade away...
821
01:15:51,677 --> 01:15:52,852
...they'll carry me.
822
01:15:58,902 --> 01:16:01,513
Who will carry you, Patrick?
823
01:16:09,521 --> 01:16:12,393
You know, I really shouldn't
be having visitors this late.
824
01:16:14,918 --> 01:16:19,749
Say you had, um... a baby.
825
01:16:21,489 --> 01:16:24,623
A newborn baby... your son...
826
01:16:27,539 --> 01:16:29,280
...and a rabid dog...
827
01:16:30,586 --> 01:16:33,632
...broke into your house
and killed him.
828
01:16:36,113 --> 01:16:40,552
Clawed out his eyeballs
and tore through
his soft little neck.
829
01:16:43,250 --> 01:16:45,165
How would you kill a dog
that did that?
830
01:16:45,339 --> 01:16:49,387
You have every right
to be angry with me.
831
01:16:49,561 --> 01:16:50,736
Would you trap it?
832
01:16:52,520 --> 01:16:54,479
Keep it in a little cage?
833
01:16:55,872 --> 01:16:57,656
What would you do then?
834
01:16:58,701 --> 01:16:59,789
Would you kick it?
835
01:17:00,746 --> 01:17:02,008
Hit it with a stick?
836
01:17:02,182 --> 01:17:05,142
Break its jaw?
Crush its bones? Uh...
837
01:17:06,447 --> 01:17:08,232
Pull its teeth out one by one?
838
01:17:11,017 --> 01:17:15,456
What do you do to something
that took away what was
most precious to you?
839
01:17:19,460 --> 01:17:20,984
What do I do?
840
01:17:21,941 --> 01:17:22,681
Trick.
841
01:17:22,855 --> 01:17:24,857
[ominous music]
842
01:17:54,626 --> 01:17:56,933
[ominous music]
843
01:18:01,459 --> 01:18:03,287
[Trick]
Lord have mercy.
844
01:18:03,940 --> 01:18:06,246
Christ have mercy.
845
01:18:06,986 --> 01:18:10,555
God, son, the Redeemer
of the world...
846
01:18:10,729 --> 01:18:12,383
[others]
Have mercy on us.
847
01:18:12,557 --> 01:18:14,646
God, the Holy Spirit...
848
01:18:14,820 --> 01:18:16,430
[others]
Have mercy on us.
849
01:18:16,604 --> 01:18:19,085
[Trick]
Holy Trinity, one God...
850
01:18:19,259 --> 01:18:20,608
[others]
Have mercy on us.
851
01:18:20,783 --> 01:18:22,306
Holy Mary, pray for us.
852
01:18:22,480 --> 01:18:23,916
[others]
Pray for us.
853
01:18:34,100 --> 01:18:35,406
[grunting]
854
01:18:39,889 --> 01:18:41,542
[groans]
855
01:18:44,894 --> 01:18:46,896
[spluttering]
856
01:18:48,027 --> 01:18:50,029
[choking]
857
01:18:52,162 --> 01:18:54,468
[Trick]
Hold not thy peace
of God of my praise,
858
01:18:54,642 --> 01:18:58,821
for the mouth of the wicked
and the mouth of the deceitful
are open against me.
859
01:18:58,995 --> 01:19:01,475
-They have spoken against me
with lying tongues...
-[coughing]
860
01:19:01,649 --> 01:19:05,479
...and have rewarded me
evil for good
and hatred for my love.
861
01:19:05,653 --> 01:19:10,006
When he shall be judged,
let him be condemned.
Let his prayer become sin,
862
01:19:10,180 --> 01:19:13,531
-let his days be few,
and let another take his office.
-[coughing]
863
01:19:13,705 --> 01:19:16,795
Let his children be fatherless,
and wife a widow.
864
01:19:16,969 --> 01:19:19,885
Let his children
be continually vagabonds
in death.
865
01:19:20,059 --> 01:19:21,669
-[others speaking indistinctly]
-Let them seek out their bread
866
01:19:21,844 --> 01:19:23,889
also out of
their desolate place.
867
01:19:24,063 --> 01:19:26,283
Let there be none
to extend mercy unto him...
868
01:19:26,457 --> 01:19:27,850
-Let not the sin of his mother
be blotted out.
-...neither let there be any
869
01:19:28,024 --> 01:19:29,808
to father
his favorless children.
870
01:19:29,982 --> 01:19:31,201
[retches, spits]
871
01:19:32,463 --> 01:19:33,725
[coughs]
872
01:19:40,297 --> 01:19:44,170
In the name of the children
who you murdered,
873
01:19:44,649 --> 01:19:47,043
and the ones who survived,
874
01:19:47,695 --> 01:19:52,091
the ones who clawed
their lives back from you,
875
01:19:53,179 --> 01:19:56,487
who cut you out
like the cancer you are.
876
01:19:56,661 --> 01:19:59,142
[pensive music]
877
01:20:20,990 --> 01:20:22,992
[birds chirping]
878
01:20:28,301 --> 01:20:29,607
I'm not surprised.
879
01:20:30,608 --> 01:20:31,652
That's all I'm saying.
880
01:20:32,740 --> 01:20:34,612
Not surprised somebody did it.
881
01:20:36,483 --> 01:20:37,571
I didn't do it. [chuckles]
882
01:20:37,745 --> 01:20:38,659
But...
883
01:20:39,835 --> 01:20:41,314
...not surprised somebody did.
884
01:20:45,623 --> 01:20:46,929
Is he in there?
885
01:20:47,625 --> 01:20:50,976
[man]
Yeah, but it's not
something really that you...
886
01:20:57,678 --> 01:20:58,679
You okay, miss?
887
01:21:00,638 --> 01:21:02,596
Well, now I don't know
how to feel.
888
01:21:11,997 --> 01:21:12,955
[camera shutter clicking]
889
01:21:21,615 --> 01:21:22,790
[camera shutter clicking]
890
01:21:24,967 --> 01:21:27,099
[somber music]
891
01:23:39,231 --> 01:23:41,581
[indistinct, muffled chatter]
892
01:24:43,469 --> 01:24:45,471
[muffled laughter]
893
01:24:54,698 --> 01:24:56,700
[somber music]
894
01:25:43,007 --> 01:25:45,009
[melancholic piano music]
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