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So, are you in recovery?

What?

You said you don't drink.

Oh, yeah. No, uh, nothing like that.

I just... tend to get into trouble when I do.

That's wise.

Yeah, I... I guess.

Well, where do you want to go?

Um, we can still go to a bar.

I'll just get a soda or something.

Cool.

How about this?

Oh, um...

I thought you said a bar was okay.

It is. I just... this one is, um...

Oh, yeah, no.

It's just, it's not really my vibe.

Yeah. That place, it sucks.

- It's no good.

You want to pick?

Um...

How about that one?

Hey. Oh, hello.

Do you come here a lot?

No, I've... I've actually never been here before.

Mae, bitch! Where have you been all my life?

I need some of that magic powder.

Um... Oh, you...

you must have me mistaken for someone else.

Oh, your name's not Mae, and you don't have

an endless supply of that high-grade blow

on which you can sing Bonnie Raitt

really, really, really fast?

No.

No, I-I just have a familiar kind of face, I guess.

I'm, um... Liv.

Color me Brad Pitt.

I guess I'll have to go find my magic fairy dust

somewhere else.

Hey, do you want to, um, get out of here?

Sure. Yeah.

- So, drugs?

What... what is it you do?

I'm, uh, I'm a writer.

Like prose or...

Fiction.

Really? Have you, um, written...

or how many novels have you written?

I'm working on my sixth, actually.

No! Oh, my God. That's amazing.

Yeah, I guess. Yeah.

Sorry. I, um,

I'm just impressed with the human spirit.

What about you?

- Hm? - What do you do?

Oh, um, I'm a curator... of life.

Of-of-of life... curator.

Life curator.

Yeah, I create experiences

for women, you know,

to teach them how to live.

That's cool.

Yeah, it is, I guess.

Sort of an epidemic these days, yeah.

We all spend so much of our lives obsessing over

what we should be doing rather than what we want to be.

So...

what do you want to be doing right now?

Do you wanna come in?

Yeah.

- Whoa.

No TV, huh?

Oh, yeah. I know that's weird.

No, I think that's cool.

Did you want a drink? A water?

- Yeah, water's good. Thanks. - Okay.

Who, uh, who painted all these?

I did. Long time ago.

- Really? - Yeah.

I still like to paint, just for fun.

- Oh, thanks. - Yeah.

You're, um, you're really good.

I'm okay.

It's funny, painting has always helped me with my writing.

There's something about leaving one world

and entering another that, I don't know,

allows you to reenter the old one from a new place.

Wait. Sorry.

It's okay.

I just need... um...

do you think we could just, like, take this slow?

Yeah. You don't want to do this?

I...

Get out.

What?

Just kidding. I was kidding you.

Oh, God. You scared me.

Yeah, I know. What do you want to do?

- I'd love to take a shower. - Yeah. Sure. Okay.

Hi.

Hi.

Last night was fun.

Yeah?

Just sleeping next to you.

Oh.

Yeah.

Oh, man.

What?

I just remembered I had the craziest dream.

- Oh, really? - Mm-hm.

What was it?

I was here. I was like, kinda here.

I was in this house, but it was slightly different

in the details... Oh, God.

What?

Explaining your dreams to someone is the worst.

- No, no. It's okay. - Ugh.

- Go on, I want to hear it.

Okay. You were there.

Or here. We were dancing.

You kept trying to lead, which I like.

I kept tripping over my feet.

And then my feet got like, stuck to the ground.

Suddenly, I couldn't move them anywhere.

You just kept dancing around me, and I was watching you.

And you were... magnificent.

Just so free in your movement.

And then you kept asking me where I was going.

- Like, oh, where are you...

...and my feet were clearly stuck.

And I...

I couldn't find the words to say that...

I wasn't going anywhere.

Good to know.

- Take it in slow, right?

Yeah, right.

You still want to keep hanging out with me?

Yeah. Absolutely.

This is the only canvas I got stretched right now,

but we could share.

Mm. Okay.

One for you...

and one for me.

Hm. What about the space between?

Possibilities are infinite.

Right on.

Okay.

Okay. Hm.

Where to begin?

Depends what story you want to tell.

- May I? - Yeah.

You got the flat

for when you want to fill in large spaces.

You got the bright

when you want more control.

You got the fan

for when you want to...

smooth things over.

Oh, my God.

- Oh! I want you so bad. - Mm-hm.

Fuck. But we can't. I'm sorry, we can't.

It's okay.

I just don't... I don't want this to go away.

And if we fuck,

maybe we could just...

Take it slow.

Yeah.

Are you hungry?

Yeah.

Also, could I maybe, um, borrow some clothes?

What you in the mood for?

There's a good sushi spot,

or there's a good Thai spot around the corner, too.

Or, there's a killer Mexican spot.

It's a bit of a walk, but the tacos are amazing.

Oh, man. Um, I'm so bad at choosing.

Hm. Let's not choose.

Okay.

Man, you look insane.

- I probably smell even worse.

Flower for the lady?

Absolutely.

Thank you.

- Gracias.

- Thank you. - That's not for you.

I was just gonna get you to hang onto that, sorry.

Please don't.

All right, what are we doing? Where are we starting?

Okay. Well, I guess this is where I'm gonna go, okay.

Okay.

Here we go.

Mm! This is next level.

Here you go. I'm not gonna feed it to you.

It's not gonna look good for either of us.

Yeah, I know. Probably not. Okay.

- Holy... wow. - Yeah.

You know what I mean.

Spicy.

- Yeah. - Spicy.

Well... I got to do some water.

Don't do water. Water will spread it around.

- Rice is the way to go. - Okay. Quick. Quick.

Oh, my God. Oh, more. Oh, no. Oh, no.

Oh, she's a mess.

Yeah, that's even worse than your nose would've been.

- Yeah, those are reborn. - Mm-hm.

Uh-oh.

What?

You're not one of those, are you?

One of what?

Monk chasers.

No, what? Why do people keep talking about that?

- That's not a thing. - It's a real thing.

- It's not a thing. - It's a thing.

No. I...

I thought I knew that one but...

Guess I was wrong.

Well, life is in the unknowing.

Yeah. Yeah, it is.

Oh, snap.

- What? - I just had an idea.

Oh, what you doing there?

- No, uh-uh. That's too much. - No, no, no.

- This is good stuff. - Yeah?

- Real good. - I don't... I don't believe you.

- Come on. - Okay.

Hm.

Mm?

All right. All right.

That's actually really great food.

Yeah, really good.

I'm sure I didn't invent that, but...

I mean, I did change your life.

Yeah. Not a big deal.

You had something on your face.

You wanna go somewhere with me?

Yeah. Where?

It's my favorite place in the city.

Cool.

Go on, Elijah.

Thanks, man. It's good to see you.

I come here a lot. Helps me get inspired.

Also, there's a really cool exhibit going on right now

that I think you'd dig.

I know this is kind of crazy.

I was shocked, too, the first time I came here.

It's like the maze at the end of The Shining.

Except nobody dies here.

You've seen The Shining, right?

I didn't just spoil it, did I?

Mm. No, I've seen The Shining.

Okay, everyone, follow me this way.

I'm about to show you something really special.

- Are you not into this? - Huh?

I thought you'd like it because of your monk chasing.

Oh. No, I... I... I am.

I just didn't expect this exhibit to still be here.

Oh, yeah, no, it's part of the permanent collection now.

I guess hungry ghosts never leave.

Oh, yeah. No kidding.

Oh, I wanted to say that I admire your discipline.

What do you mean?

No alcohol. No sex.

What's the story?

Oh. Um...

I don't know. I guess...

I've never really considered myself

an addict, you know.

I was always like an overachiever,

played by the rules, never indulged.

But... recently I've come to realize that, like,

we're all fanatics, you know?

That control, or the illusion of control,

is just another way of, like,

avoiding the ghosts.

I was celibate for a year.

- No way. - Oh, yeah.

I was using sex as a crutch just to fill the void.

It's like you said,

we're all looking for a way

to escape this just insatiable...

Yeah. Totally.

I guess that's why Buddhism has always been

so interesting to me.

You know, the Buddha, when faced with the devil,

invited him to tea.

He invited him to tea?

I mean, it's a longer story than that.

And it's not a devil per se.

It's like this evil demon named Mara,

but I had a teacher who said that, yeah,

when the demon would come for the Buddha,

the Buddha wouldn't, like, ignore him

or try to drive him away.

He would acknowledge him and say, "I see you, Mara,"

and then... yeah, invite him in as a guest,

for tea.

What?

Oh, nothing.

I just, um...

I woke up this morning, and for the first time...

I wanted to be awake.

Mae?

Mae!

Are you seriously ignoring me right now?

- She knows you, Liv. - Oh.

Mae!

What the fuck, dude?

You call me with some big bullshit apology,

and then hang up on me when I call you back?

Like, I called you three times.

You're just gonna completely ghost me?

I don't even know what this is, or who the fuck this is.

I'm Elijah.

No, no, no. You... you don't have to.

Elijah, right.

This is the dude you were saying was your husband

right after your actual husband was killed, right?

Which was when? Oh, right. Yesterday.

I-I can explain.

Okay. I think I should go.

No, no. Elijah.

What? No. You know what? No.

Elijah, you stay. I'll go.

No, Gina. Gina.

You know what? I can never figure out

why I'm always struggling...

with love, with work.

I can never fucking win. But you know, I think I got it.

I can never take care of myself

because I'm always fucking taking care of you.

Ever since we were kids,

even though you're the older one.

And you should be taking care of me, Mae.

But you can't do that, Mae. You can't do that.

'Cause all you do is take and take and take and take!

But you know what? You're free paper bun

because I'm done.

Gina...

I have nothing else to give.

I'm done, Mae.

Gina.

Listen. I... I am...

Your name is Mae.

It's very complicated, but I-I promise

I didn't lie about anything. I mean,

other than my name which is-is Mae.

- I don't understand. - I know. I know. I...

Was this like... are you, like, pathological?

No. No. No. This was real.

Did she say that you have a husband?

That was not real. I mean, yes,

a man died yesterday and... and legally, we were married.

Oh, my God.

Please, I just need an hour of your time,

and I can explain everything.

- This is-- - I know you'll understand.

- I know it. - Just don't contact me.

Elijah.

Elijah!

I love you.