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someday i'll understand someday

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count dracula in his vampire bride

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that's it who goes odds

even

you go

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you're a says that's what you are a

sadist

please what are you doing in the closet

come

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did you ever do out on saturday

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i like that

oh it feels yeah

do it do this

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don't

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yes

boy must be a porno gone with the wind

can't bear those films there's nothing

erotic about those families

nothing get off it you've never even

seen a dirty movie

haven't i oh yeah where in italy he's

such a lion

my cousin showed me one it was so

ugly

oh excuse me i'm sorry

did i snore huh hey

how'd you get in here

it's another factor

good good

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is that you sarah

hi mom hi darling

hey those are my fairy tea jeans i got a

pair too

and don't say they're too tight you're

supposed to be my mother

remember i got a great ass for a girl my

age

you're crazy you aren't waiting for me

by any chance

i want to hear about that movie shot for

shot

don't rush me

hi lieutenant hi kid

shot for shot wow

first i want you to swear upon this

bible that's not a bible that's the

oxford dictionary of earth it'll do

will remain a sworn secret between us

and us alone so help you god

now swear i never went to that movie you

never went to that movie

okay

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forget it sarah i don't need to hear

that all right

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like you didn't pay for your schnitzel

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sandwich

does he have something contagious

i sit for a minute sure

may i sure

what's happened boy yeah

right you're the dirty old man

my name is ashley sinclair now that's a

name

right out of gone with the wind miss

can i offer you something cappuccino

please

boyfriend trouble not anymore

love isn't easy oh brother

no what you couldn't be a dirty old man

how would you know you slept with the

best parts

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good thank you how old are you anyway

how old are you 15 60.

excuse me i like one

i'm crazy

know you

you're the painter you're assay sinclair

right that's what i said

ashley sinclair intense

like how much would you charge to pay me

i haven't painted in 10 years

why not i mean what do you do spend a

lot of time in a boat

worrying about why i haven't painted for

10 years

well i think you should paint it'll keep

you out of dirty movies

what about you that was my first one no

i mean what do you do

i go to school at maryborne very shishy

and i write little pro sings that my

wimp teacher calls undisciplined

now that's encouraging just let me read

them sometime

would you sure family

my dad teaches egyptology at the

university egyptology

he's a nut for tombs and i have a

gorgeous mother who drives around my

love life

i hope that is one of your little

clothes things it's a letter from paul

we've split

i'm free wow

thanks mr sinclair ashley

how do you call anyone ashley mcdry

ashley ashley i guess you could get used

to it

so long hey he's back

would you really like to read some of my

stuff sure

how will i be able to i'm in the book

now that's what i call chic

he's gone thanks

ashley

are you gay

no i always like to know if that is gay

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so

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hello

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oh no no it's it's still early well i

call because i thought if you ever did

get to reading my stuff

and if i ever did call you wouldn't know

my name

if you did call i would know because

right here on the folder it says

personal confidential for sarah norton's

eyes only

no matter what anyone says you have

a responsibility to write you have an

absolutely natural talent

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same place i'll buy you another

cappuccino no no paul covers that place

like the c.i.a

well perhaps you'd like to come out here

on sunday do i have to wait until sunday

well i've got tomorrow morning off from

school

all right goodbye

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hello there are those your horses no

just friends

i wasn't sure you'd come i always come

when i bite myself

what are you doing to the tree this is

to keep the rabbits from the bark

cardboard will keep them away well it

isn't the brandenburg concertos

i don't get it well the story goes

that bach dedicated the concertos to the

margrave of brandenburg

who not only never had them performed

but gave the manuscripts to his gardener

to

save his trees from the rabbits

so good come on in

this is it nice music

vivaldi

ashley are you telling me the truth

about myself

what you read you're going to be a

writer

don't ever doubt it now you tell me the

truth

why did you give them to me to read

after all we've only met

i felt as if i should

aren't we going in

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you turn this down

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drink fruit juice and cola

could i have some white wine please oh

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i've never been in a painter's studio

before and this is where it all happens

what doesn't happen it's the case maybe

this place all of this and you don't use

it you don't paint

how come it's a long

dull story why are you so mad at hamburg

why are you changing the subject the

subject and object of this visit was to

talk about your writing but now

hamlet was a skunk so you say

but he had a few uh family problems okay

who hasn't but he's supposed to be dying

of love and what does he do

sends a girl off to a monastery

same difference then he disappears and

lets a girl go nuts

that isn't a danish skunk what is well

he uh

he wasn't in a position to offer her

much then he should have let her alone

in the first place

let's have a look at that folder i made

some notes

you really took the trouble let me ask

your friend uh paul was it exactly right

paul was it

you didn't patch things up paul is

permanently a dead issue

perhaps but it occurred to me there

might be some connection between him and

the way you feel about hamlet

this man is very lovable completely

whacked

maybe it comes from being alone too much

will you let me come again

yes i'd like that very much

tastes so good

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well i spent the day with a man

i have the strongest kind of feeling for

it

he's a real man i mean older

for instance 30

older 35

60. you have the strongest kind of

feeling

for a man who is 60.

oh jesus he's robbing the cradle

no you're robbing the grave

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that's 60.

huh

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so

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you see much excuse me

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is that how you dressed when you painted

not quite

but there was an artist who took off all

his clothes when he painted

just made that

have you reached william blake in school

blake

wasn't he a divine madness

should i tell you a story to

pomegranates what i love most is to hear

you tell stories

blake lived in the regency period

aside from a certain decadent

aristocracy

that was a puritanical time

the devout parishioners returning from a

nearby church on sunday

were horrified to see blake painting in

his garden

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start naked he was pretty old then

65 very old

he couldn't stand being locked indoors

enclosed he moved his tools out into the

garden so he could feel the sun

while he worked against the deadline of

death

one day it rained and the proper people

of the town stared

tight-lipped and tight-assed and the

spectacle of blake

again stark naked with a servant holding

an umbrella over his head

as the old man painted

paint

but there was one young girl

one deeply passionate young girl she

understood

she adored she would steal away from my

family and

run through wood and

field to watch him work

she had long raven black hair

and running through the wood to get to

his place

her hair would get tangled in bramble

and bush

and he thought her a wild beautiful

vision

and he fell in love with he talked to

her from his garden

he loved her to madness his madness

and hers how did it end

the impossibility we'd all drove into

suicide she

drowned herself just like a girl don't

want to go to school

i don't want to go home i just want to

be with you

all you do is step on the pedal and spin

this was a collage in the making now

where would you put this

i'd put it

here how helmet

there oh yes now he's really moving

this was uh for the big stuff that is

big

get on huh come on

you are the most perplexing intriguing

girl

did you do that i don't get it

no i did not do that

that's tar paper it was left here by the

farmer who built this barn

i couldn't take it down i love it

i love all the things that went into its

making

dust wheat hay

picasso said dust is the artist's friend

dust smoke things that settle

and the artist will utilize any tool are

you going like that candle on the table

over there

take this in hold your head that's it

now come on here

now i'm going to make a little flower

the most beautiful sounds in the english

language

are the names of flowers columbine

veronica violence

rosemary astor's larkspur

richness and of course

nuts

rather contract little fly

hold this

what's this blowtorch that's right now

this too can be an artist too

like it gets

ah

there's a break all the ladies not for

burning

this could be a coaster for it

or stravinsky's fireball

or she could be a phoenix symbol for the

artist's talent that burns itself out

has to rise from the ashes over and over

again

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sarah

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sarah you're so beautiful

and fun and alive when you talk about

painting

you're not working

this is where you're going to paint me

i'll give you a million dollars

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i'll write an immortal poem and dedicate

it to you

i'll love you forever

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what did i do that was for nothing

when you

hi sarah i invited paul for breakfast

sarah

sarah

why don't you talk to him he's terribly

hurt i have nothing to say to him

then talk to me i am your mother not my

sister

why do you always have to make me feel

older than god

i have a great idea why don't you

divorce dad and marry paul

women's wear daley would love it

i want peace negotiations between you

and your mother

i can't stand your obsession with my

private loss sarah don't be dumb

i refuse to have a dumb daughter she's

concerned

granted the right to be concerned

grudgingly

you've got a 16th birthday coming up and

i want it to be nice

now will you end this war for me

okay good

i want your ham sandwich you got it

daddy did you ever have an affair with a

young girl

sarah i'm old enough to be your father

come on professors fool around with

their students all the time did you

now who's obsessed with whose private

life me will you have tempted

no swear no

did you no when you did how much older

were you

give me a break

i love you too

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ashley will you take me on your boat one

day although it's not here it's in

antigua

in the caribbean will you take me there

sometime

we could rent a boat down at the marina

one of these days would you like that

great girlfriends

you could invite them would they like to

come if they'd like to come they drop

dead to come

are you writing trying

trying to write about us tell you the

truth more about me

the way i see us what do your

parents say my pain to you they don't

say anything

they don't know

where you tell them you are i tell them

lies

what would they say if they knew well my

mother would say

sarah how wonderful i'm coming with you

do you want her to come i think about it

no more today go home

may i sure how much that

wow who is she

claudia who's claudia

someone i've known for a long time

someone i'm close to

she your lover and more

when everyone else gave up on me she was

always there

are you gonna marry her no

she's a businesswoman as an art gallery

in new york

we both have our own lives we prefer it

that way

okay

does she have other lovers

never asked you know what colombo would

say about that

who's columba who's columbo are you from

mars he's a detective on tv

i'm crazy about him what would he say

claims he loves her but

never asks maybe this guy uses a

chastity belt

how old is this claudia anyway 44.

well no contest see you tomorrow

tomorrow do you feel close to me

yes

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tomorrow

you out of your mind

aldrich gallery ashley how

nice claudia

it's ashley

here she is ashley

what are you doing so far away

i'm missing you why didn't you come up

here to toronto i'd love to

next weekend gloria

i'm painting again he's painting again

oh dear you're wonderful you're

steadfast

i admire you i'm glad he's painting

again i'm glad for him i'm glad for you

but 10 years and even then his painting

toward the end

in the end you just stopped trying you

made a fortune out of actually sinclair

i didn't stop trying people stopped

caring

claudia you have a gallery

you know what's happened in the art

world ashley simply didn't move with the

times

oh como call madeline tell her i'm on my

way

yes sir claudia i'll tell you what

you want my contract with him i'll give

it to you

i'd take it if my gallery had half as

much cloud as yours you son of a [ __ ]

can i drop you somewhere harold you've

got to try

see what he's got

a break it's finished

can i see it

come tell me what you think of it i

don't know the difference between the

sistine chapel and the burger king

what do you think intense

it's no good

you can't pick up a brush after 10 years

and expect it to be good

an israeli painter named enrique said it

well

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an artist has to be on the alert like an

army

you can't go to sleep for 10 years

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when artists stop working they find

sick ways of destroying themselves

you know one pain he did a few years ago

slit his wrists sprayed his blood all

over the

canvas until he dropped dead

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it's no good

it's no good

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then make it good do it again

and if you have to again and again

don't send me away ashley

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perhaps you'd like this it'd make a

handsome gift

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it's charming harry did you find the

artist

yes i did just give me a moment

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hmm

what are you staring at i'm sorry i

see you somewhere before

not me just like that i'm a painter

would you consider sitting for me i'd

like to paint you

what the hell for

you pay yes will you be here next week

today for me to decide and upstairs

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ashley

monkeys they were all the rage in the

french courts of the period

intense

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would you like it

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excuse me

i'd love it but it's too expensive

anyway where would i put it i'd have to

hide it

and thought of that so let's

oh ashley look look at all those hats

this one's gorgeous it's a porsolino can

i try it

sure

what a strange face he gives me the

creeps

me too

and the barcelina i die for this hat

it's yours and it becomes you

that looks awful try it no

come on try it

it's not bad that's what i like about

you

an open mind

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you want to get me arrested maybe they

put us in solitary

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that was good who taught you to cook

i read a book aren't you lonely

not now

i have a proposal to make

look i started all this i picked you up

at the patisserie i collaborated

i invited myself to your house i

received you i asked you to paint me

for which i shall be eternally grateful

what's the proposal

a heart to heart talk

it's time

i know that certain people shouldn't get

all tangled up together

but they can't help it they do because

they

have an affinity right

eating with a man is intimate isn't it

are you attracted to me i mean

physically

yes have you

thought of going to bed with me

yes

let's

obviously no

is it because you think i'm a virgin

because if you think i am

you are i am

look you've got to help me with this

burden

you remember what ben johnson wrote

about the last living version in venice

he was thinking of me help

i don't think my heart could stand it

what's the matter

something wrong with your heart well

sometimes he behaves strangely

like now you're kidding aren't you

yes because sometimes i spy new jockey

you do

i do and you look great and strong and

young

crazy kid don't say that ashley please

give me your hand

this is no crazy kid speaking

i love you i'm in love with you

when we meet again if ever we do meet

again

i'll reintroduce myself my name is

ashley sinclair i'm a painter and i'm 60

years old

i'm 60. i don't care

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i wouldn't care if you were in a

wheelchair

i love you

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sarah kiss me

just once

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any more work today

i don't think so

i'll collect my things

darling

claudia

i i wasn't expecting you till the 15th

this is the 15th oh i've been working on

for some reason i thought it was the

14th i want to see yes

unbelievable

you're working on both of these at the

same time

this

what's going on actually

i'm uh painting

yesterday you are and that's wonderful

uh claudia this is sarah sarah claudia

hello hello

i have to run no need to go she has to

run

thank you for lunch

great shoes you got there lady great

shoes

i thought she was just a kid she is

how long have you known her about a

month

oh you goddamn fool

you're a perfect age to play the horse's

ass

you're in love with her aren't you yes

oh you goddamn fool

sarah

sarah

sarah can't you knock

don't be such a little creep i have a

message for you

someone called ashley phoned he seems

anxious to talk to

i don't want to talk to any ashley's

what's wrong

nothing's wrong sarah

nothing's wrong

who's ashley

a painter

not ashley sinclair

what have you got to do with ashley

sinclair

answer me

he paints me

since when mother could you please leave

me alone for a little while

my god sarah is old enough to be your

father

he's old enough to be your father

look dying

i know how attractive older men can be

to girls your age

believe me you'd be surprised how well i

know

but i also know that you're getting

please i'll talk to you about it later i

swear i will

just leave me alone

oh my god sarah

mother when did he call

a few minutes before you got home

i'll see you thank god your phone

i no no

she went back to new york

she uh she didn't think she should stay

please come please

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is

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hopeless we tried again

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so

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a poem written in my youth in this world

since god began it there's nothing

sweeter than a pomegranate

a measure of my love my last one

hey where are you away away

what do you see there i see you offering

a pomegranate to someone your own age

and i'm kicking the bucket hey

lieutenant

a day like this a sky like this and this

guy is talking about kicking the bucket

i promise never to die on a day like

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this

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yes yes by god i like them

what those sons of [ __ ] did was to

make me feel i should apologize for what

i

did for what i knew how to do

one crapulous critic called me an

illustrator i let it get to me by

christ you were just a crazy mixed up

kid

all those years lost

all that time lost

nude with cigar

get dressed painted claudia in the nude

get dressed my body's as good as

claudius any day

cut dressed

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don't be mad at me you know i'm just

jealous of claudia

tell me why the cigar

i felt naked without it

i'm never gonna leave you ashley get

tomorrow

right after school i'll break all speed

records

hello hello

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oh you look terrible what are you doing

here

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you you screwed that awful park

take your clothes off for everybody with

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me

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wow

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wow

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catch oh

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get back to the studio phone an

ambulance

run

the boy has a fractured skull

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kids

all's going to be all right oh my god

his parents are not here they're in

spain i know

i asked your parents to call them

yes i felt them

they're gonna take me away

don't be afraid

sarah i'm all right mother

we'd like to be left alone with our

daughter don't go ashley

mr sinclair is leaving

mr norton you are a disgusting old don't

you talk to him like that

sarah

i'll bring you tomorrow

let me out of here god damn you let me

out

oh

so

sarah you don't let me free

things will never be the same i trust

you sarah

you've only to promise never to see him

again

no are you in the pill

can you imagine if you became pregnant

let me out of here

not until you promised no then you'll

stay here until you do

you'll do all your studies here and if

you refuse we'll call him a psychiatrist

home sweet good luck you'll take all

your meals here

mom dad

i won't eat until you let me out of here

sarah no mother

no

we love you

i can sit here forever as long as you

pay me

excuse me

hello could you tell me how sarah is

please this is ashley

so

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hello

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mr don't ever come here again

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i just want to know if sarah is she's

fine will you please tell us

nothing get out let me assure you don't

try you've confused the hell out of her

all i ask is you can't ask anything for

god's sakes will you leave her alone

she's only a child will you please let

me know mr sinclair

you may be older than we are but we

don't need your advice

now it's obvious we can't appeal to your

sense of decency but

maybe just maybe you have a sense of the

ridiculous

because you are ridiculous mr sinclair

get the hell out of here

you wanna die on your birthday

please sarah talk to us

rosencrantz and guildenstern

hi dr reed

ow

you're nuts think i need a shrink i

think you need a good kick in the pants

i think you'd all be more concerned

about paul

paul is fine and he's

eating when his parents get home they'll

probably throw me in jail

better than this place no they won't

he's admitted he attacked you

he's been mainlining methadron did he

tell you

yes well he's growing up

seems as if everyone's going up around

here

too fast

sarah

why did you stop seeing paul he would

have stopped seeing me anyway

why you really want to know

yes cause i wouldn't let him sleep with

me

well that's as good a reason as any

which brings us to

sarah what about this old gentleman boy

is my mother a lowlife

yes and among other things she wanted me

to ascertain that you are still

a virgin how do you do that radar

forceps

jesus sarah your virginity

or non-virginity is of no interest to me

but you must eat try force-feeding doc

sarah you're going to be sick

very very sick

now i supervised your entrance into this

world and i

am damned if i'm going to supervise your

exit and i don't

read if you want to treat me well you're

going to have to treat me like a woman

now i don't want to be sick i don't want

to waste away

that old gentleman happens to mean more

to me than

anything else the next time i eat

will be with him

happy birthday

that's all very enlightened

what would you do in our place i tell

you what i'd do in her place

i'd make a promise never to see that man

again

and then i break that promise just like

that

would you like us to reserve them as

sweet of the plaza i don't like the

plasma oh emily come on we

we're old friends but please save us the

whip today

i have got to make you realize crazy as

it seems

that this is not slight stuff

i saw a woman up there a woman

deeply in love and you have got to let

her live it

doctor you need a doctor

and sarah needs to eat

locking her in up there it's inhuman

unfeeling and probably illegal

she loves you i'd think you want to keep

it that way

emily wait a minute

i want to invite you to a party now

don't try and stop me philippa

smitty daniella get off your little

asses and move

she's 16 today we're going to have a

party tonight and you know the kids from

school she'd want to invite so go

move music bring that weird quartet

and the cute girl with the flute okay

hey philippa now who can we find who

will make us a wonderful cake on such

short notice

flashes

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mr

only sinclair here honey where's mr

sinclair

he went to new york yesterday what take

a look

oh jesus jesus

me

happy birthday to you

happy birthday to you

happy birthday

happy birthday to you

happy birthday to you

happy birthday to you

happy birthday dear

birthday to you

am i gonna tell her nothing for letting

keep your mouth shut

the door is open sarah

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pretty mean characters down there

lieutenant

think they'll break me down with a

string quartet in a birthday cake

they're kind of killers aren't they

first ashley now me

what do you think emily maybe

jesus

did any of you ever hear of someone

committing suicide by diving into a

birthday cake

i bet you never heard of that before

sarah i told you the door is open and

it'll stay open

it's kind of hard to believe wouldn't

you say mom

sarah i saw ashley

he's waiting for you true smitty

true true it's okay

come on baby

so

so

can i spend the night at smitty's

yes thanks

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you know where she's going

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he just walked out

no note no message nothing

you know it's the nicest thing it could

do

do you have any money not much

why

how much does it cost to go to new york

oh come on sarah no

i'm not gonna let you go to new york

that's crazy i'll tell your mother

how much sarah listen

you don't know new york it's a big place

you'll get lost

you'll get mugged how much does it cost

think

will you think for a minute what could

you possibly do in new york

i could sleep with him i could kill him

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so

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oh

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foreign

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so

the question is not whether i like them

you never did respect my opinions

the question is can i sell them

i don't think i can those are good

paintings harold i don't say they aren't

actually in the past 10 years i've been

one of the strongest galleries in the

world

gallery with a definite voice a definite

character

any buyer anywhere who wants

contemporary work

work in the mainstream automatically

thinks of the model gallery

i can't go back to the well-made

portrait

i can't go back to the figure you owe

ashley some loyalty harold

he helped you make that strong gallery

sadly claudia

loyalty is unprofessional friendship is

one thing

business the only friends you ever cared

about were the ones who made money for

you

and even then you stole from them how

dare you

he would sell my paintings to the

maidler gallery and dusseldorf

40 commission and mr bordell here

was the silent owner of the maidler

galleries

artists are not blind they're not stupid

they just know they have to live with

people like you

i'll try to forget this

every time i sold here or in dusseldorf

you made money too

harold he didn't mean he did me

i'll send the paintings tomorrow come on

claudia

ashley i do want to forget this

let me make you a retrospective next

year

we collect all your finest work over the

years retrospectives are for

painters with one foot in the grave

ashley

maybe it's not a bad idea i know

you'll have to wait until i'm dead for

that

both of you

there was no reason to attack me ashley

i have loved you for a long time

don't let what happened in toronto cost

us too much how would you know what

happened in toronto

daniel don't you talk to me like that i

didn't turn a kid's head and then walk

out you did

they wouldn't let me see her i'd have

found a way to see her

maybe it wasn't love actually maybe it

was a need to

touch a young body

something else happened up there you

didn't say to me what she said

do it again do the painting again you

offer me consolation

forgive me

you have a guest mr split thank you

seven

seven

excuse me i know this

is your house very nice

i didn't know where else to go it's okay

maybe i'm on your side

be my guest take her to bed with you

telephone her father

do anything that comes into your head

that's definite so long as she knows

where the hell she is

i'll be at marika's

don't do that to people you don't do

that to people you don't

do that to people

you don't just disappear

and on my birthday was that your present

to me

yes well i think it was a rotten present

but are you some kind of hit-and-run

driver

i guess i can go back now i don't think

i have anything else to say

the only one who had the right thing to

say in all this was your father

he had the right words get out

that was honor rule i tell you

it's gone with the wind the honorable

ashley sinclair yes sir honorable is why

you didn't sleep with me

get her all excited but don't sleep with

her no

isn't honorable but please tell me sir

was it honorable to make me fall in love

with you

you knew what was happening why didn't

you stop it

you and your charm your brandenburg and

your goddamn rabbits

is that what you do go around charming

little kids

making little kids fall in love with you

and then disappear

sarah don't tell me how old you are i

know it and i don't care i know the

numbers all of them

when i'll be 60 you'll be 104.

we'd make a great couple

boy do you owe me an explanation

i'll try sir

try

yes i could have stopped it

i didn't

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what happened

i saw a young girl she made me laugh

i was amazed and flattered that she

wanted to go to bed with me and she

worked something in me that

made me want to go to work again

then i

watched myself fall in love with her

sixteen

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sixty oh sixty

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i don't think there was a minute with

you sir happy as it was

i was happy

i don't think there was a minute when i

could free myself from from watching

myself

and i kept saying what the hell are you

doing

i saw this old idiot making a fool of

himself over a young girl

yet every time you came on that

silly little back my heart would lift

again

when you stood there to be painted when

you offered yourself

i'd say she's young she's lovely

take the gift time's running out take it

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you know what i think it was sarah

if i didn't make love to you it wasn't

because of

honor or morality or any of that

i was afraid of what would happen to me

i was thinking of myself

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i couldn't face not holding on to you i

couldn't face the ridicule i couldn't

face

claudia's ridicule

i didn't have the strength to face your

eventual

inevitable regrets

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and yet

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i let myself say it

resolves and resumes all this

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i love you

sarah

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i love you

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that isn't a nice thing to say now

what do you want from me

what do you want from me

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i ashley tell you what i want from you

i want you to go on loving me as i

go on loving you

i'll tell you why this

collision this accident this beautiful

dirty trick

we once talked about affinity

i could never measure what you gave me

or what i gave you except all the love i

had to give but i want you to think of

the

short life we had as as worthwhile

you're going to be a beautiful talented

woman

me

whatever new life you make

whatever's left of mine

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i want us to go on loving each other

when i'm married and have 18

kids i'll go on loving you

i'll go on

pennies you toss

in a stream

tarnished and left to turn

day dreams

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paintings that crumble

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foreign

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i can't get over

my moment

in a circle of two

if

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half of me

for me a circle

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of two

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so

you