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The brain stores a single memory in millions of neurons.

There's a neuron that holds the smell of your prom date's glow.

Another neuron contains the sound of your dress being zipped out.

In one for your favorite song, you dance to that night.

Tell that to Griffith.

Hey, who's that girl in your room?

No one.

Why are you down here?

Does she snore?

I'm going back to sleep.

To remember the whole evening.

You need all of these neurons to communicate

with each other to make a complete picture.

But when the brain experiences trauma, these

neurons can be starved of oxygen and die.

Oh, this forgot to place the supplier to last week.

We're down to the last case of 4x4.

Can we steal from cardio?

If we can borrow a nurse from clinic.

How did this place survive a week without us?

Beyond me.

Hey, do you know when Nora young?

Yeah, she grew up down the street from me.

She was one of my sister's friends.

Well, Megan's sending her here.

She has a herf to suffocates from a nissen procedure.

They tried to repair it, but still has a week.

You know, I haven't seen Nora in a year.

She was kind of a pain.

Very bossy and tightly wound.

I mean assertive and a goal oriented.

Instead of complete memories, you're left with glimpses.

Good morning.

I hope you are ready to hit the ground running.

I've got some new ideas for genetic targets.

Is that a new PCR machine?

When they come from?

Dr. Richardson, God, on an NIH grant.

Okay.

Richardson, why is she putting her equipment in my lab?

It's her lab now.

What?

Of course.

I'm letting a lab sit idle for one whole week.

I will check in with operations and see what's available.

A smell, a taste, a feeling.

Morning.

And once you start losing bits of memory.

Okay.

That's all.

Take the stairs.

There's no way to get them back.

There is supposed to be a ding before the door's open.

Where was the ding?

Okay.

Let's take a step back.

She's in plenty of people kissing.

She's our boss.

One of our many positives.

She is way more important things to worry about today.

We are going to go out there about us as we are, like nothing happened.

We'll be well.

Have you seen Catherine?

Oh, she should be here soon.

Excuse you.

I was here first.

Well, this can't wait.

Then you get fired.

I wouldn't use those words.

Dr. Fox, do you have a minute?

Okay, I know we've had our differences, but I would like

to talk to you about coming back as residency director.

We had an appointment to discuss my research.

Didn't we, Dr. Fox?

Call my assistant and make an appointment, Dr. Bailey, please.

Put up heels for this.

Sit.

You've got some nerve.

How about thank you for flying all the way across the country to check on me?

Because no one knows I'm being treated for blood care, I syndrome.

Do you have a butterfly?

Go easy now.

Or what?

You'll fire me?

Over there.

Okay, but if she's his cousin, then why wouldn't we just say that?

Right?

Want us some mystery woman visiting?

For him.

Okay.

You know, it's going to be fun July when you're

an intern again and we're all your bosses.

Hi.

Hello.

Hi.

Good morning.

Where's Juan?

Here, I'm here.

Okay, for a second there, I thought you were sick, which is a great reminder.

If you're feeling under the weather, do not get together.

I really, I cannot have you dropping like slides.

I'm going to bring up the schedule now.

What's he doing here?

She wanted me to tell her about us.

At the hospital.

Yes, she refused to leave.

I guess the amnesia didn't erase her stubborn streak.

Okay, so Griffith, you're with Altman.

Yesuda, you're with Beltram.

Sheppard is back, so a million you'll be with her in Neuro.

Juan, you're with Hunt.

Oh, and Adams.

It looks like you are all set to help me with progress notes.

Although Indugo did request you so.

It's your call.

Maybe I should just see where Indugo wants.

Oh, yeah.

Great idea.

Oh, so if anybody wants to do a switcheroo, I have a spot open with me.

Ah, so... and we... Sure.

No.

Okay.

Okay.

Go, team!

If you take down the dressing to look at a wound, you have to redo it.

I have my own job.

Okay.

I can't follow you around all day cleaning up your messes.

She does not home back, does she?

She does not.

And yesterday I would have thrown down, but today I am trying something new.

Oh, yeah, what's that?

Professional detachment.

I know I'm not getting the Pete's fellowship.

I saw the list of ranked applicants, so I left after the nurses station.

I'm sorry, I wanted to tell you... It's okay.

I knew my absite wasn't competitive enough, and I don't have the research experience.

I will find something else.

No question.

All right.

Let's go around.

Did you know that there are more than 200 frozen dead people on Mount Everest?

That's nothing.

Ever hear of a little boat called the Titanic?

Elvis died on the toilet.

Not that you know who that is.

A heart attack.

Not constipation.

Common misconception.

Lovely.

I'm the cool chaplain.

Ever since Kyle's mom died, he's been a little obsessed with death.

Oh, I was obsessed with embalming when I was very interested.

I got it.

Yes, sort of.

Kal Huang 15 diagnosed eight years ago with Lee from many syndrome.

A genetic disorder associated with an increased likelihood of cancer.

He's in remission for an adrenal cortical carcinoma, treated two years ago,

and then it's from clinic for a workup of his increasing mid-back pain.

He hasn't been able to sleep, barely has an appetite.

So no, the tumor is in it?

It's not get ahead of ourselves.

We need to run some more tests to get to the bottom of

this pain, but your labs have come back normal so far.

Yeah, Dr. Schmitt's right.

One step at a time.

Like to your pseudo, we'll take you to get your CT scan

and I'll come check on you when we have the results.

Is now a good time to talk about getting the funding for my research project back?

Do you want my clock to just blow?

Married it.

Why didn't you tell me you were coming back to town?

Did you change your mind?

Are you back at the Fox Foundation?

I'm working out the details.

What does that mean?

But what's happening with the research funding?

Did Katherine say something?

Now's not really a good time.

Why wouldn't you give me a straight answer?

Can we talk about this later?

I'm checking on a patient.

Your scans are up.

Liver cancer?

What?

Without liver, it's covered in tumors.

Dr. Njigga?

I was told you requested me.

Yeah, I did.

Dr. Pierce said you declined her offer in Chicago.

Yeah, it was a great opportunity, but I'm happy where I am.

Well, we have some great opportunities here too.

How about you join us today in the skills lab?

Yeah, we're setting up a vascular anastomosis lab for the residents.

Dr. Weber, I've been looking for you.

I wanted to thank you for holding down the fort while I was gone.

I was overlooking the OR schedule and it is

a mess without belly, so I hope it's okay.

But I took the liberty of filling up your

schedule for the next two weeks and don't worry.

It's not all hernias.

Who said you should do that?

Well, it's the chief's job to oversee the schedule.

You're not the chief.

Well, Katherine said that I had my job back.

You are employed as a cardiophoresic surgeon.

When you can do that job without breaking the rules or without stealing any money,

then we'll see about chief.

I see.

Okay, thank you.

We've been at this a while.

When you say we get out of here, take a break.

That's not necessary.

Maybe not for you.

I haven't left the hospital in 36 hours.

You go off, right?

You two abs?

So are you going to tell me who she is?

Or am I going to have to pry it out of you?

Hey, welcome back.

Peace.

Let's go.

Nora Young, 46 female status posts, Nissen,

fundification, Convocated by Nisophageal Preparation.

Post-primary repair with ongoing leak and infection.

Grace, they're looking at you all grown up.

I know.

Is she talking to you?

I'm afraid so.

Oh, and... I'm sorry.

Dr. Hunt.

Ah, that sounds weird.

Dr. Hunt.

Wait, rooster.

In half-middle-schools, 19 A.V.E.

You know, the year doesn't matter.

Production of Annie.

You're a theater kid.

Listen, I did one play for extra credit.

You were suspenders, and it was a little voice crack.

Oh, okay.

This is my wife, Dr. Teddy only.

She's me taking care of you.

Welcome to Grace alone.

Thank you so much.

I know you're busy.

Megan sent you the boss.

Oh.

Yeah.

I'm glad to help.

My new friend of Megan's is a friend of ours.

All right.

We'll upload those scans from the last hospital.

I'll take it from there.

Thank you.

Let's go.

Hey.

Hey.

You okay?

Yeah.

Yeah.

I'm fine.

Hey.

I have to do a baptism.

Could you give this to Cal?

A coffin, catalog.

Yeah, he really wanted Camo, but the closest I could find was Army Green.

He's 15.

He has a genetic disorder that predisposes him to cancer.

Okay, you don't mean to explain my patient's pathology to me.

If you want to give this to him, which I highly

advise against, you'll have to do it yourself.

Are you at peace with mortality, doctor?

Father.

With all due respect.

It's Reverend.

You can call me James.

Great.

Now, if you'll excuse me, I have to get back to work.

Is that a coffin, catalog?

So, good news.

Is it looks like a benign trauma of the thoracic root, but it's huge.

Can we resect it?

I see how it's so close to the spine.

The consults that haven't yet scheduled procedures

and try to get some of those on the books.

Dr. Shepard, I didn't know you were back.

Well, well, yeah, I just try to ease back in.

Well, sorry to mess up your plans, but could you take a look at this?

I can't figure out the right approach.

Wow, that is a puzzle.

Yeah.

I think you could squeeze in a consult he is in a lot of pain.

I think I'm probably shuffling some things around.

Let's schedule an MRI and a spinal 3D reconstruction on these scans.

So, this is it.

This is how I die.

Well, we don't know that.

I know my primary cancer, Meredith.

The scan tells me it's met sore and new cancer.

Neither is a good option.

We won't know that for sure until we get further testing.

Don't play Kate me.

Fine.

You don't want me to play Kate you.

You need to tell Richard.

No.

He can help you through this.

No Meredith.

He would want to help you.

Do you know how many complications I have every year?

Low neutrophils?

Pain in my back?

Pain in my chest?

Pain in my ass?

I don't want Richard panicking every month, every week.

Putting his life on hold, waiting to see if I'm going to die.

It's not over.

This is not the end.

Maybe not for you.

But it is for me.

This is going to sound weird given where I

am right now, but I feel like a movie star.

You're right.

It does so weird.

I have four kids.

My wife is laundry and making lunches.

And today I was whisked away in a plane.

And you're giving me blankets so I can't even wash.

It really sounds so sad to you.

Are you kidding?

I don't know how my mom's doing.

I stress her eyes and mine.

At least that's how I do it.

Do you always want a big family?

I don't want it to be a White House reporter.

None of my husband.

His family has a sugar beet farm in the country.

And it's this big operation.

Every farmer needs his wife.

Need it.

We're at the finish line of a long divorce.

I'm sorry.

I'm not.

After this, we'll check on your labs in CT.

And then Dr. Almond will be back to discuss next steps.

How?

Did she end up on this floor?

Are you looking up with a patient's granddaughter?

No.

You shouldn't be here in the ICU.

I brought you a bagel.

I saw you didn't eat anything this morning.

I never eat breakfast.

That used to drive you crazy.

Well, it's the most important meal of the day.

Coffee is the most important meal of the day.

If we were engaged, why could I only find one photo of you?

I don't know.

How did we meet?

At a Halloween party.

You were dressed up as a giant disco ball.

You're so big that you couldn't fit in through the bathroom door.

I was waiting to go next.

And then you asked me if I could hug the costume so you could squeeze in.

We looked so dumb.

And we couldn't stop laughing.

And then I saw your reflection on the tiny little mirrors on the costume.

And I remember thinking...

There's no view of this person I didn't like.

Oh, that must have been nice.

To be loved like that.

Why did we break up?

It was complicated.

What does that mean?

Come on.

I need a crash card in here now.

I need a crash card.

I need you.

Can you ignore these to the breeze?

Show you how this is done.

Where's the hole over there?

Maybe the sun got in his eyes.

I'm a little rusty.

That's okay.

Adam, do you need a good?

All right.

That was just all right.

Well, compared to the guys I normally play with.

No, I think this young man just insulted us, Dr. Indubu.

You saw him on my ball, right?

Well, let's see if I still got it.

That's a beauty right there.

You're going down.

All right, bring me up to speed.

She vomited over a liter of blood.

We can't get a read in her BP anymore.

She's about to code.

All right, with this much bleeding, it could be

an upper GI, or an Ayorta Asophageal Fistula.

Griffith, you're going to help me place a Minnesota tube.

I need Curlix, an IV bag, an X-ray.

I'm in.

Color change noted?

Great.

Griffith, can we ever place a balloon tampon on?

You're going to take this.

It is just like an OG tube.

You are going to place a catheter down the throat behind the ET tube.

Yup.

I think I'm in the stomach.

Inflate the gastric balloon.

All right, let me take a look.

Perfect.

All right, let's get X-ray out of here.

We need to engage traction.

All right, quon.

Hook up suction to the esophageal port.

Good, good, good.

You're right, bleeding must be coming from the esophagus.

All right, inflate the esophageal balloon.

We have seconds before she codes.

Should we hang another unit?

Yes, where are we, Griffith?

Esophageal balloon is inflated.

Great job, everyone.

What's the plan?

Tivar and Stens to cover the fistula.

Excellent, right, quon.

Book an IR suite.

Lidding has stopped.

Dr. Bailey.

Dr. Bailey, I need a consult.

Oh, go ask someone on the payroll.

If this is about this morning, I'm sorry.

Are you?

You didn't seem sorry when you've recently

gotten the way of me trying to get my job back.

Yeah, you don't seem sorry at all.

That Sydney Heron is still bossing my interns around.

Wait, Sydney Herons back?

Yeah.

And all her perky pass of aggressive glories.

You need a consult, Paige, or... I'm not pathing Sydney Heron.

Well, call whoever.

I can't.

And why not?

Because the patient doesn't want him to know.

All right, what are we looking at?

The schwannoma has invaded this spinal column and now it is compressing the cord.

Well, it's incredible that he made it this long without becoming symptomatic.

Well, he spent his life in and out of hospitals.

This point is pain tolerance is very high.

You can't imagine being 15, knowing that every moment your cells could be mutating

into cancer and still have to take a geometry final.

If we do an interior approach, we won't be able to assess the posterior emergence.

If we go in posteriorly, we can't access the thoracic component.

Can we just turn him over at turn surgery?

Well, I wouldn't have to if he's on his side.

Dr. Beltran, you could open his chest and work from front to back.

And then I could open his back and work my way forward.

Maybe that's your risky?

I think risky is all Kel House.

Let's go talk to him and decide.

Cal's not in his room.

Where is he?

The chaplain said that he was taking him somewhere and not to worry.

What?

He's part of the care team.

Nora has an aorta esophageal fistulet, and I

can't find anyone to help me repair her esophagus.

Why is no one answering or six?

I'm sure we could invite someone to help.

Are you magic?

Can you just pull someone out of the air?

Because Bailey works across the street.

Richard has taken the day off and Sidney Heron's in an emergency debridement.

Who's Sidney Heron?

She's the new Bailey and she's in acquired taste, which I will never have.

Pretty sure, Richard wouldn't mind coming in for an emergency.

I don't think that's a good idea.

Why not?

They could do an esophageal stent asleep.

Richard is not stepping down from chief.

He said that he doesn't trust me, so I don't

think that he and I should be operating together.

Could you finish up any please?

Yes, sir.

What do you mean he said he doesn't trust you?

What did you say to that?

Nothing.

His mind is made up.

All right, you know what I'm going to do?

I am going to call in, Richard, and I'll just replace myself.

We'll be back when we can do it.

Norrick came all this way to see you.

I'll do it.

I'll stand this up.

This is your first day back in the trauma room.

And you are the best damn CD surgeon in this whole hospital.

Let me help.

Thank you.

Okay, I'll see you in the or.

She doesn't want any type of intervention.

I practically had to hold her down for her blood draw.

No, I'm blame.

I should have been through a lot.

I didn't think you and Katherine were exactly on good terms these days.

Are you on good terms with all of your patients?

Mm-hmm.

She's a trailblazer.

I respect her.

And she paved a way.

Showed me who it was possible.

I owe her my career, even if I'm sidelined right now.

Although in fairness, that was my decision.

Okay, look, see these masses look like they've been growing for a while.

But now, wouldn't you think there'd be myths in other places, too?

It could be a different primary cancer.

Whatever it is in cancer, at all.

Maybe hemangiomas or other fatty changes from the skin, yeah.

The odds of that are almost not existent.

It's got a box.

Anything's possible.

Yeah, like, hey!

What are you doing out here?

Just planting my funeral.

Case I, crow.

You're not dying.

What you have is a benign tumor that we are going to remove.

Today is Suda.

Can you please take Cal up to his room?

All right.

Train's leaving.

He wanted to plant his funeral.

I know that he'll likely get more cancers.

And I know that one of them will probably take his life.

But I can't think about that right now.

Because I have to focus on removing the gigantic one that's impinging on his spine.

It's quite the guy complex you have there.

I'm doing my job.

Screw your job.

Be a person.

His whole obsession with death, the facts, the jokes.

He's scared.

He's telling you he's scared.

He has an incurable genetic disease.

I can't fix that for him.

I can't make that go away.

And if I can't, there's sure as hell nothing you can do.

Like, you might have more schooling than me.

You might get more respect.

You don't have all the answers.

And you do.

I don't have any answers.

All I can do is listen.

You should try him.

Found it!

Oh, nope.

It's a rock.

You're all uncle and I had a standing game every week in the summer.

It was obnoxiously good at everything.

An odd golf.

All the way.

He sank that ball.

How'd you get to be so good?

My dad pushed me to learn.

Said it helped me socialize with my colleagues one day.

I guess he had a point.

Sometimes I forget.

It's nice to get out of the hospital with your colleagues.

Actually, not a lot of think about it.

The uncle and I used to play with Phil a couple of men.

He's an ENT, but now he runs the outreach over at the ACGME.

Wouldn't hurt to give him a call.

You think he could do something about my remediation?

He's a fair guy.

I mean, if he doesn't feel like the punchman

fits the crime, I'm sure he'll do what he can.

But don't tell Catherine I said that.

Yeah, we don't talk that much.

I heard it.

Look at that.

Not too far from the green.

You're still in a rough end, dogo.

This is not a good time.

We just need two minutes.

I am not in the mood to debate anybody's employment status.

We're here to discuss your health.

My health is fine.

Thank you.

She's seeing the scans.

Damn it, great.

You can believe that I'm going to sue you for breaking.

Help your lawyers know where to find me.

I needed a consult.

Can't you give me the dignity of just dying in private?

But what if it isn't cancer?

You saw the scans.

I did, and while they are concerning, there's a chance that the lesions are a

benign finding of your subacute bachiaric syndrome.

And we could do a biopsy to find out.

My liver is teaming with lesions.

A biopsy could cause bleeding, a stroke.

It's dangerous.

It's absurd.

Why would you even recommend that?

Because this would Richard taught me to do.

And I think it's what he would want.

Richard's ears are burning.

What's happening?

I don't know.

Is she having the stroke now?

Well, come on.

Yeah, I want to talk.

Let's go talk.

Okay.

How's your patient doing?

I have to take her up the surgery in a few minutes.

Oh, does that mean you have a minute to talk?

I really should head back upstairs.

I can't leave here until I know our whole story.

I swear, I'm not trying to take advantage.

I know your time is valuable.

Does it really matter what happened?

You seem happy.

That doesn't mean I don't want answers.

I mean, until Dave, this was the most significant relationship in my entire life.

I have no idea why it ended.

I mean, wouldn't you want to know?

Hey.

You don't have any pictures of me because you deleted the bomb.

I came home one night and you were crying on the floor.

You had found out that I had cheated on you.

We were young.

The wedding was getting closer and I kept thinking

about how my mom wasn't going to be there.

And it was a stupid, drunk mistake that I have regretted every single day since.

I think I'm sure it was devastating at the time, but I'm okay now.

You don't have anything to regret.

I haven't even told you the worst part.

After we fought, you got in the car.

And an hour later, I got a call that you had been in a wreck.

The accident.

Yeah, well, that was nobody's fault.

Nobody if you hadn't been so upset.

I stopped thinking that way a long time ago.

I met peace with it.

And I got to start over.

More suction, please.

How's it going over there?

Making my final cut?

Great.

A little more traction.

All right, time to get a basin ready.

I'm going to remove the last piece.

We got the whole tour.

Pat will confirm, but to my eyes, the margins look good.

No, no, no, no, no, he's bleeding.

Where?

I can't see.

Do you have anything on your side?

No, nothing.

What pads could it be bleeding from the vessel feeding the tumor?

It seems to be coming from a normal tissue.

I found it.

Dr. Schmidt is correct.

It's coming from an intercostal artery.

Millen, I'm going to have you tie it off.

Right angle and silk tie, please.

Thank you.

Donna?

All right.

Like this?

Yeah.

Make sure the knot is square.

That's great.

What now?

Now we celebrate.

Great job, everybody.

Dr. Schmidt, after we take him to post office,

would you like to tell us about the good news?

On it.

Deploying the staff?

She didn't seem bossy to me.

Nora and Megan used to make me a picture batting practice

to them, and they would heckle me in very colorful language.

I bet you didn't expect to put her life in your hands.

Okay, let's get ready to inject a dye.

Okay.

Dammit, get me a balloon for dilation.

Griffith, what do you see?

Blood is coming from the stent.

Correct.

Clawing next steps?

You dilate the balloon to put the stent into the aortic wall to stop the leak.

Good job.

All right, I'm starting the balloon.

Right balloon is in, inflating the balloon.

All

right, inject the dye.

Make a spectre.

We work, everyone.

Let's remove the sheets so Dr. Hunt can place the esophageal stent.

The surgery couldn't have gone better.

Thank you.

Cows are great, Ken.

When he wakes up, I found a killer death fact for him.

Huh, I was actually unintentional.

Give me the rise of pain, Anthony.

He's ball-training shepherd.

On it.

Okay, okay.

I'm here.

Now, that's what you call a birdie.

I just like to state that if we play football,

I would have wiped the floor with both of you.

I want to be so sure.

Why don't you go return the cart.

We still got some daylight you want to go hit some on the driver range?

What?

You don't see how ridiculous it is that you're

worried about losing steam in the operating room?

You've got more focus and stamina than an intern.

Well, golf is different.

It's not that different.

Both take endurance and concentration.

That fire in your belly?

Look, I made a mistake.

Yeah, we all make mistakes.

Not everybody is over 65.

Yeah, I don't buy it.

Don't get me wrong.

It's good that you're taking stock.

It'd be irresponsible not to.

But, when were I staying?

You're still going strong.

Why would they have to have peanut shells on the floor?

Do you want to go someplace else?

There's a nice sushi restaurant across the street.

This is the one place Richard won't think to look for me.

Would you like to discuss your options?

I understand my pros and cons.

What I don't know is if I have the 42.

The energy.

My body is tired.

And what you're asking, more surgery.

Another treatment.

Unless it's benign.

Who knows the odds that I'm a minuscule?

But they're not nothing.

Catherine Foxx.

Well, I expected more from you.

You have shattered every glass ceiling.

Beatin' every odd.

Right?

Why are you giving up?

You better watch your tone if you want your job back, Dr. Bailey.

Look up on another job if I need to.

But come on, you have so much to live for.

Why won't you try?

Do you think I'm just sitting back waiting for death to come and snuff me out?

Most days I feel like the same young woman I was with the world in my feet.

But I don't believe in miracles.

I believe in science and the science is not on my side.

Maybe.

Or maybe not.

But we won't know unless you let us do the biopsy.

How many of your patients have beaten the odds?

Why them and not you?

Fine.

Do the damn biopsy.

But one of you paid for the drink.

I'm glad you called Megan when you did.

You are a lot sicker than anyone realized.

We almost lost you.

Yeah, but now you're going to make a full recovery.

Thank you.

All of you are pleasure.

It's Megan.

Are you okay if I give her the update?

Please, I owe her my life.

Okay, let's order some porcelain abs.

You really grew up to look like your dad.

You can't believe you remember him.

I mean, you must have been six or seven when he died.

You put me on his shoulders once, so I could reach the monkey bars.

I never forgot.

It's good to see him.

I got here as fast as I could.

What are...

Oh, my God.

Diffuse intrinsic pontine glioma.

Satellite lesions.

But he gets yearly full body scans.

This was just missed.

It could have been too small to catch on his last one.

I mean, this is a rapid growing malignant brain tumor.

Soon, it is going to start affecting all of his vital functions, breathing,

blood pressure, heart.

Isn't there anything we can do for him?

Radiation, chemo.

I mean, we could put him through radiation,

but it'll give him maybe two agonizing months.

So, it's a death sentence.

I'll go talk to Kelli and his dad.

I'll do it.

I'll tell them.

Snorse Karen's birthday.

We tried a dozen different cases for a wedding, and you won a limit.

I think that was actually our biggest fight.

It never gets less weird.

I mean, I just met you.

But we also fought about cake five years ago.

You've broken the space-time continuum.

Yeah.

I see why I like to.

Yeah?

Mm-hmm.

You're funny.

You're smart.

You and me smile at your eyes too, this sparkly thing.

No, I'm sorry.

Yeah.

See?

Funny.

And you bring me cake.

Even when you spend all day saving other people's lives...

I don't have feelings about the memories that I've lost because...

I mean, you can't miss something that you didn't know happened in the first place.

But I wish I remember you.

I'm so sorry.

It's fine.

No, no, it's okay.

It's been a long day.

You're good.

It's okay.

I should get back inside.

But...

But if... Do you ever need anything, you?

We're in order to find you.

And it's me, too.

Back to it.

It'll be good.

Sing me home.

How long do I have?

I've seen you.

It could be anywhere from weeks to months.

Is it?

I'm so sorry.

Do you...

Do you know that feeling when school's over...

and you're outside playing with all your friends?

And it feels like summer could last forever.

It's because our perception of time isn't fixed.

Two months could feel like ten years.

And ten years can go by in a blink of an eye.

Hey.

Hey, hey.

We can cram a lot in a few months.

Sing me home.

I don't want to die.

What do you want to do?

Before you die.

You've always wanted to go to space camp.

Okay.

What else?

I'm going to go see Matt McKinley.

It'll be reasonable to the drinks.

That is one of my favorites, too.

Oh, did you come in under par?

It's okay.

And Dugu told me that you guys hit the links.

Must be nice.

Sorry.

Oh, I've just never had friends in high places.

That's not why I'm here.

That's what you're implying.

I got the highest app-size score in my class.

Is that how it works?

Get the highest score, and then they take your golfing?

I guess I should have studied more.

I have to hand it to Megan.

She knew something was wrong, and she pushed to make it right.

I give me a few phone calls.

You saved her life.

Very bad.

Dr. Weber.

I want Chief Beck.

Okay.

I have a whole speech about why I deserve it.

Take the win, Altman.

I'm going to stay a little later.

Go do what you need to do.

Every time I feel safe, I find a traitor.

Take and suck it.

I'm a poor kid.

Mm-hmm.

And let's depressing those.

I got two interns kissing.

Oh, nice.

Remember when we were interns?

And our futures felt so bright.

Everything was possible.

Now, I'm pretty sure Meredith is hiding something from me.

And my department reassigned all of my cases while I was gone.

I don't know what to do next.

I do.

Hi.

I'd say welcome back, but I've been gone too.

We're not back.

We need your help.

We're doing a procedure in the clinic.

Can we have a scrub nurse?

A scrub nurse in the clinic?

Okay.

Who's the attending?

Oh, come on.

I just got my job back.

I know.

And I also know that I'm the one responsible for you losing it.

And I would never ask you if this wasn't a matter of life and death.

Okay.

Don't make me regret it.

Hey.

That was rough.

You okay?

I thought that if I walled off the pain, that it wouldn't hurt.

But... I was wrong.

There are some memories we probably wouldn't mind, Lucy.

The deaths, the breakups.

The hard times.

We're heading out to... I'm catching up on her and her progress notes.

What is going to happen when you're repeating in turn year, doing notes,

changing bandages, and I get to operate.

This isn't about you.

I don't want to be billed out.

This is what my family does it.

But I don't want to be that person.

I want to take responsibility for my mistakes.

But it isn't little about me, right?

But memories like neurons work together to make you who you are.

What?

Hey!

You okay?

If all we remembered were the good times...

All right, prepare to be big wish.

Oh, I am going to destroy you.

Our friendships wouldn't be as strong.

What are you doing?

Get out of the corner.

Listen to her.

I'm fine, baby.

And our loves wouldn't be as sweet.

Oh, my love.

A thousand kisses from you.

And it's never too much.

And I just don't want to stop.

I don't know what you're saying.

A million days in your arms.

And it's never too much.

It's never too much.

And I just don't want to stop.

It's never too much.

It's never too much.

It's so cling to the bad along with the good.

One day you'll be glad you did.

Good thing we're not in it for the glory.

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