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(This drama is based on a true story.)

(The plot was adjusted for entertainment purposes only.)

(We have no intention to offend, encourage immoral sexual values, )

(or create a pessimistic disposition of a gender or a group of people.)

(We would like to apologize in advance for any misunderstandings.)

(Presents)

(Hot Love Issue)

Do you want to visit Dia with me, Rin?

Dia, I'm back.

Have a chat with Dia, Rin.

If the person you like is sick or has a mental illness,

will you keep going or give up?

Loving a sick person is tough.

Are you really going to fight for Non?

I think I can handle it.

I won't argue about work,

but this is way tougher.

Where is Dia's stuff? Why are you butting in, Rin?

It's Dia's stuff. Why did you mess with it?

Is this about you?

Is this your stuff, Rin?

Is this your stuff?

It's Dia's stuff. Why did you mess with it?

Go get it back.

Get it back, Rin!

- Non, calm down. - Get it back!

Don't butt in again.

Dia.

You're still with me.

You're still with me.

You're still with me, aren't you?

You're still with me, Dia.

You're not dead.

You're not dead.

You're not dead, Dia.

You're not dead.

Dia...

You're still with me.

Non.

I'm sorry.

Leave me alone.

Let Dia go, Non.

If you keep doing this,

she will be worried about you.

Today was Dia's birthday.

Let's celebrate

and make her happy

before letting her go.

After this,

let me take care of you.

I'll make you happy.

Don't.

Get out.

Get out.

Get out!

Get out!

Get out!

I said get out.

Am I so wrong?

Am I wrong

for trying to make you move on from the past?

It's my fault.

It's my fault!

Depression often begins

starts when the patient feels worthless

and blames herself for everything.

It's expressed

when she starts hurting herself unknowingly.

It's my fault.

Everything I do is wrong. It's my fault.

- Rin. - Everything is my fault.

Everything I do is wrong.

- Rin, stop. - It's my fault.

- Everything is my fault. - Rin.

- Rin, that's enough. - It's my fault for butting in.

- What are you doing, Rin? - It's my fault.

- Rin, stop. - No.

- Rin. - Everything I do is wrong.

- Rin. - This is all my fault.

I'm sorry.

- RIn, that's enough. - I'm sorry.

- I said stop. Stop! - Let go!

Let go!

I will stop.

I will stop.

From now on, I'll leave you alone.

You can keep living in the past.

Why, Aoy and Chod?

Why is Non stuck in a past that will never come back

instead of moving forward with me?

Was all the effort I put in for an entire year a waste of time?

I just realized

that love can drive me insane.

I wasn't aware that I was hurting myself.

(Happy Birthday Nadia)

I was willing to go insane

and be in pain.

Would I give up so easily?

Rin, that is absolutely crazy.

Non went too far. How could you let him?

Do you think you're a girl in a novel?

But I've thought about it. I was in the wrong, Maew.

I should apologize to Non.

This wouldn't have happened if I had asked for his permission.

What you did wrong was one thing,

but giving a chance to someone who doesn't see your worth

is unacceptable.

But I love Non.

You love him?

You like to win, Rin.

Think about the past year.

What has Non done for you?

You were the one who did everything for him.

When I'm with him,

I'm happy.

That's enough.

Your relationship with Non started because you felt sorry for him.

It's not love.

Open your eyes, Rin.

That's not true.

I love Non.

Oh dear.

You and Non are the same.

He only talks about his ex.

You only talk about someone who doesn't love you.

I'm going crazy.

Maew, I haven't been able to contact Non all morning.

I don't know if he's okay.

Rin.

Rin.

Hey.

Tell everyone that Non took a sick day.

- Don't call and disturb him. - Okay.

Oh dear.

Rin is in too deep.

What are you doing?

Well...

I'm going to move the things back to where they were.

I'm sorry

for not asking for your permission first.

Dia is not with me anymore, right?

It has been four years.

I've waited for Dia for four years.

I miss her.

I thought

you were able to move on.

I thought so too.

So I tried opening my heart to you

and starting over with you.

But last night

made me realize

that everything I tried to suppress

and keep hidden

came pouring out.

It's okay, Non.

Don't put pressure on yourself or rush things.

Hearing that you tried to open your heart to me

and that you see me

makes me so happy.

Let's take things slow from now on.

I can wait as long as it takes.

I...

Won't you be upset?

What is there to be upset about?

We don't have to forget Dia.

Dia will always be with us.

All three of us will move on.

Thank you, Rin.

Thank you for understanding me.

Okay.

(Nadia)

(This new year sucked. I didn't want to do anything.)

(Non came home late again. I'm boring, right?)

(I feel like I'm in a black hole and can't find a way out.)

(I tried to be positive, but all the comments were negative.)

Non.

What's your plan today?

Do you want to get something to eat?

Maybe we can talk more about us.

About us?

What about us?

Well...

You said you're opening up to me.

I thought we could date and slowly adjust to each other.

I...

I need some more time.

Give me some time to move on.

I think it's too soon.

But I promise

that I won't make you wait long.

Of course.

I can wait.

You're back, Rin.

Another sign of depression

is crying to let out the frustration hidden inside

without being able to control oneself.

Rin.

Are you all right?

I'm fine.

I...

I just read a novel.

It was so sad.

That's a relief. I thought something was wrong.

January 1, 2019.

The second year

of being clinically depressed.

The second year

of trying to stay alive

in a dark room.

I don't want to breathe.

I don't want to see anyone.

I don't want to work.

- No work means no money. - Dia, let's talk.

- Let go. - Dia.

I became a burden to Non.

It's okay.

Do I still deserve to be in Non's life?

- I can't do this anymore. - Should I walk out of Non's life?

It's okay.

Come on, Dia.

(Should I walk out of Non's life?)

February 5, 2019.

The feeling test worked.

Dia.

I tried to be unreachable

- and out of his life for a day. - Dia.

- Non lost his mind. - Dia.

- Dia. - I was happy

- seeing him that way. - Dia.

Dia.

Because it made me realize

that I was still important to him.

(I was still important to him.)

When the patient feels worthless,

she lacks confidence.

Her logical thinking declines.

Sometimes she trusts and follows someone else without any reasoning.

Be out of his life for a day

to find out if I'm important to him.

Non.

Why?

Seeing me makes you that upset?

I thought it was Non.

Why are all the lights off, Rin?

Maew.

Please help me.

No, I won't cooperate with you.

Maew, please.

I just want to find out

if I'm important to him.

If he doesn't value me,

I'll walk away.

Don't try to lie to me, Rin.

You won't walk away that easily.

Why don't you tell Non how you actually feel?

You're usually very open.

Why won't you be open about something this simple?

You want me to lie to him.

No.

I don't want you to lie to him.

I just want you to help him realize.

No.

I won't help you with this.

Non, I can't reach Rin.

I don't know what's wrong with her.

I'm worried about her.

She left in the afternoon.

What's wrong?

I don't know, but some of our colleagues said that

her eyes were red and that she seemed upset.

Did you guys get into a fight?

No.

We cleared the air.

I think you should try to find her.

I'm worried about her. I don't know where she is.

If you find her, you guys can talk it out.

Okay, Maew.

I think

it's time for me

to make a decision.

That way, Rin won't have to feel so anxious.

That's a good idea.

I think she's been putting in a lot of effort for your sake.

I think

I should stay away from her.

And...

once I've come to terms with things,

I'll come back.

And if she hasn't found anyone else by then,

there...

There might be a chance for us.

Non, I don't think that's a good idea.

Maybe you should think about it carefully

in case you change your mind when you see her.

I think you should take it slow.

It's better that way.

Right, can I get a glass of water?

Oh, I'm sorry.

I completely forgot.

Oh, I'm screwed. What should I do now?

Non,

can I be honest with you?

Why are you still fixated on the past?

And why would you choose to let Rin go?

Don't you love her?

Is there anything wrong with her?

It's...

It's not that I don't love her.

But I'm afraid.

You're afraid?

Of what?

I don't dare...

I don't dare to be happy.

Every time I feel happy,

I feel guilty about Dia.

Because

when she was still alive,

I neglected and ignored her.

And it caused her to indulge in self-harm.

So you chose to hurt yourself

by constantly being miserable?

Non,

do you think Dia would be happy

to see you in this state?

So what should I do?

I don't want to forget her.

You can keep her beside your heart.

Allocate a space for her.

I know you won't forget her.

And you have the right to start over.

I think it's time you did that.

Otherwise, you'll lose a good person like Rin as well.

Okay.

I... I don't think

I can do it.

Think about it carefully, Non.

If you refuse to let go of the past,

you might cause something to happen to Rin too.

Remember, she's the person you love.

You shouldn't lose her.

Understand?

You can't contact me on my phone.

Are you still ignoring me?

That's not enough.

March 3, 2019.

I was sick, bored,

and fed up with life.

I wanted to stay in a dark world

without having to see the light of day.

(KITTY)

Sorry. The number you have dialed is...

Sorry. The number you have dialed is...

Non, can you help me fix this?

We got an urgent request from a client.

It has to be sent over by today.

Can you take a look at it?

- Let me see. - Thanks.

(Darin)

Oh, Non?

Tell Maew I'm taking the afternoon off.

Sure.

Rin?

Rin? Rin?

Rin?

Rin? Rin?

Rin?

Without proper treatment,

you'll start hearing things and hallucinating.

If I were Dia,

you'd be worried, Non.

What is this?

(The Elevator Is Out of Service We Apologize for the Inconvenience)

Rin?

Rin?

Rin, can you open the door for me?

Rin?

Rin?

Rin?

Rin?

Rin, it's me, Non!

Rin?

Think about it carefully, Non.

If you refuse to let go of the past,

you might cause something to happen to Rin too.

Rin, open up!

Rin!

Dia? Dia!

Dia! Dia!

Rin!

Rin!

Rin!

Rin? Rin?

Rin?

Rin? Rin?

Rin?

Rin? Rin?

Rin? Rin?

Rin, it's me, Non.

Rin? Rin?

Rin!

Rin? Rin?

Rin?

Rin?

Rin?

Rin?

Rin?

Rin?

- Non? - Rin?

What are you doing?

Non, where are you taking me?

To the hospital.

You took sleeping pills, didn't you?

I'm okay.

But you're not. Let's get you checked up.

I'm really okay, Non.

Are you sure?

Non,

I promise I won't do this again.

Rin,

you're like this

because of me, aren't you?

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry.

What should I do, Aoy, Chod?

Should I confess to Non

about me not actually taking the sleeping pills?

It was only a cry for attention.

I didn't want to die just yet.

But lying just once

is okay, right?

If I hadn't lied that day,

something this wonderful wouldn't have happened.

Non?

Non?

Non?

Non, I'm home.

Can you give me your hand?

Which one?

Let's start with the right one.

Rin.

Even though this ring...

is made out of a piece of paper

that seem worthless,

I'm going to

make it worth something.

It will be meaningful to you.

Please give me a chance.

Non.

Hm?

Should we find some time to take a trip overseas?

Maybe two or three days?

When?

Next week?

Maew's going to complain.

It's super busy at work right now.

There shouldn't be a problem if I get the work sorted first.

A paper ring.

Why does it feel so familiar?

Harming oneself for attention will have the opposite effect.

You say you love me,

but your actions say otherwise.

Rin, please talk to me.

Come on, Rin.

Leave if you're still so in love with her!

Go and be with her!

She'll be depressed one day,

then manic the next.

It's worrying.

Dia was like that when she started suffering from depression as well.

I defeated you, Rin.

No, you didn't.

You didn't! No, you didn't!

- Let go of me! - Dia!

I said let go!

Why did I have to act cool for the camera? It should be her.

It takes a lot of arm strength.

My arms.

I basically trained them for this.

Dia?

Dia! Dia!

Bring in the ladder.

I'll fix it.

That's enough.

Very nice.