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Thank you so much for picking them up.

I'm just making up for lost time with my

nephews. So here's the deal, chief,

I need a word with your mom. So you need

to take your little bro upstairs, and I

promise I'll be up to play with you before

I leave, okay? All right.

Go on, Jakey, go upstairs. Honey, go with

your brother. You guys go play search for

a minute, okay? Yeah. Thank you.

Graham said you dropped the boys off in

the middle of the night. You know

me. God forbid I miss out on a crisis.

Except there was no emergency. You weren't

even on the job last night. It was a

personal emergency. I assume everything

turned out okay. Because if there were a

crisis, you'd let me know.

Nicholas made plans to leave the country,

and I freaked, and I was very overwhelmed

by that feeling.

Okay, what feeling?

I don't know. Fear, emptiness. I couldn't

let him go. And I know that contradicts

everything that I've told you, everything

that I've told myself, that I should let

him go and end things with him. And the

only thing that matters is my relationship

with Lucky. But when I was faced with the

prospect of losing Nicholas, I panicked.

There's really no point in discussing this

right now. Maybe you can put your morning

ride on hold to help your brother

understand something. Help me understand

how you just happen to fall in love with

your former and future sister in law.

Well, Lucky, as a man who loves Elizabeth

like you do, you're the last person on

earth who should have to ask me that.

So you're not denying it?

What am I supposed to do with that? I

don't, I really don't know. The same

thing I do, I guess. Wake up every morning

and try and hold on to your sanity. This

is a conversation you need to have with

her. I did. What the

hell were you thinking, huh? Thinking had

nothing to do with it. I don't know what

to say. I fell in love with her. I don't

know how, when, why? Just one

day, there it was, and I've been beating

myself up ever since. Look, I'm sorry

that two years ago your life got turned

upside down and that you've been hurting,

okay? I really am. But why? Why did you

have to drag Elizabeth into your mess?

And why did you have to have to tell her?

I mean, you could have just kept your

mouth shut until it passed. When I tried

to do that, it didn't work. I just felt

like I needed to tell her how I felt.

My dad saw it. He knew something

was going on with you. He'd been sniffing

around Elizabeth. Lucky, it's not like

that. Then what is it like? Just forget

for a second what an absolute betrayal of

trust this is. But have you considered the

impossible position that this puts

Elizabeth in? Did it even occur to you how

she would suffer because of your

selfishness?

Don't. A mess, huh? This has got to be

tearing your port inside. Thank you. I

keep telling myself that I can handle it.

I'm walking around with constant anxiety,

like I'm gonna explode at any minute.

Guess what? Comes around goes around. You

know, I've known women to be caught

between two men before, and I always

thought they were weak. And now I'm the

poster child. You didn't ask for this.

Don't torture yourself. Still grieving

over Emily, and he's vulnerable. Oh,

sorry. You don't even see it. You're

always strong for your sons if you're

lucky. And whenever there's a crisis,

it's you who wants to take care of

everybody else. You want to be the one

that everyone else counts on, but who do

you get to count on? Lucky?

I realized when we got back together how

much I need him. And when I'm with him,

I'm at, I feel very centered, and I'm at

peace. And my feelings for Nicholas are

very different. They hit me in waves.

And when I realized he was leaving, I just

felt very empty inside.

I don't know how any of this happened. I

mean, how can I be so in love with Lucky

and all of a sudden fall in love with

Nicholas, too? Maybe that's progress.

Progress? What? Not only I'm physically

unfaithful to Lecky, now I'm emotionally

unfaithful to him, too, along the lines of

letting yourself admit that maybe there's

something real between you and Nicholas.

You're not writing it off as temporary

insanity or some irrational, you know,

attraction. It'll pass like a bad cold.

Are you trying to convince me to be with

Nicholas? I'm not trying to convince you

of anything, peanut.

Oh, don't try to make me feel good. This

is way worse than that time I ruined mom's

favorite. Oh, wearing them outside playing

dress up. You were in your own world,

traipsing around in those shoes in that

pink dress you used to wear. It was

trailing around in the gravel. I got in so

much trouble.

And then there was that movie that you and

Sarah wanted to see, and she got

to go, and you had to stay home as

punishment. You were so miserable. I know,

but you took me out driving in the dirt

roads and you let me steer, which is a

really big deal for a six year old.

I don't think letting me steer this time

is gonna fix anything. I didn't realize

it backed in. I was just a teenager

myself. Nobody. All I wanted to see was my

little sister smile again. In retrospect,

I did a smart thing when I let you steer.

I gave you power. I put you back in

charge, which is what you've got to do for

yourself now. Lizzie, you gotta stop

coming from this place of fear and take

control. Please. If I had to be self

control, I wouldn't be here in the. Oh,

okay. There you go again. You're bad.

It's your fault. You're no good. Come on,

there are three people involved here and

they are all contributing. Even lucky

suddenly makes sense. You didn't dump

Rebecca because she ran a scam on you.

You decided to fall in love with Elizabeth

so you didn't need Rebecca anymore. My

change of heart with Rebecca had nothing

to do with Elizabeth. I didn't want to

lead her on, so I tried to do the

honorable thing and let her go. You think

this is honorable?

Compromising Elizabeth and betraying me?

For what? Do you even get what you're

doing? I mean, you and Elizabeth have been

friends for years. She doesn't want that

ruin because of some infatuation. And

she's terrified that this is going to

destroy my relationship with you. I know

that Elizabeth

had to keep your secret because she wanted

to protect me. Nicholas. Do you have any

idea the amount of stress that you put her

under? It's not that black and white.

He has done nothing but love. And trust me

and Nicholas, we are the ones who are

betraying him. Didn't you tell me that

Lucky was the one who pushed to get

remarried when you want to believe things

the way they were? Next, keeping in mind

I'm your brother and I'm biased and I'm

inclined to defend you. It sounds like

Lucky was paying more attention to this

idea and his head of the two of you being

together than to hearing what you actually

wanted. The thing is, I do want to

get married. I want to marry him because I

love him. We had the best time New Year's

Eve. We danced and we talked and he played

the guitar for me. And I loved it. I loved

every moment of it. I loved being with

him. And I thought, this is it. With

Nicholas, I remember this is who I am.

And then when I see Nicholas, everything

goes out the window. And the only thing I

know for sure is that I don't want to lose

Lucky. So tell him the truth.

Really? I mean, come on. Be honest. If you

were in Lucky's shoes and you loved a girl

and you had stood by her and you forgave

her and you took in her kids and you found

out that she was sleeping with somebody

you trusted, how would you feel? Well,

I've never been in Lucky's situation, but

I've been close. I loved somebody

and found out she didn't love me. She fell

in love with a friend of mine instead.

Why didn't you tell me? Because I didn't

see any point in unloading my drama on top

of what you're going through. Well, tell

me now what happened. All right.

Charlotte. Mm hmm.

I found out Charlotte fell in love with

somebody else, and she sat me down one

night and told me. So what was I supposed

to do but wish them well, you know? I

mean, yeah, it hurt, and I felt a great

sense of loss, but, you know, I knew them

both, and they were good people. It's not

like they planned this. It's just how it

happened. Are you still friends with them?

I don't see them as much as I used to.

Now, are they still together when they're

expecting their first child. Oh,

is that why you left Memphis?

I left Memphis because I had a chance to

take the job our grandfather held for

years and move close to Graham and my sis,

who I missed.

I wasn't running away from the happiness I

didn't get. But I gotta tell you, I'm not

gonna lie. It made it easier to leave.

I'm so sorry I've been so self absorbed.

I haven't asked you anything. I didn't

come here for you to throw me a pity

party. I'm only telling you this now

because I just thought maybe my experience

could inform yours. The first person

you have to live with is yourself.

And you've got to find a way to do that,

a way to find your own self respect and

go from there. And that is

all the advice that I'm giving you today.

So feel free to disregard every word.

Not a chance.