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-We are all connected.

Genetically, all humans
are 99.9% identical.

Composed of the same elements.

Oxygen. Carbon.
Hydrogen. Nitrogen.

Calcium. Phosphorus.

But society creates barriers
that separate us.

Disconnect us.

Sometimes we fear
those who are different.

Ignore them.
Block them out.

Or simply look away.

What if we took a moment
to stop?

Look? Listen?

Step outside of ourselves
and into their shoes?

Perhaps we could find a way
to connect.

Hey, there. Hi. Um...

My name is Oliver Wolf.
Uh, I'm a doctor.

Are you okay?
-Everyone's just walking around,

acting like everything's normal.

-I mean, I don't think
that there is any standard way

of being or perceiving.

-Do you see it, too?
-Uh, sure.

Just, um --

Just remind me one more time,
exactly what are we seeing?

-The dragon.

-The dragon.

This is Pete.

He is in the throes
of an extremely vivid,

sustained hallucination
of a dragon.

-Oh, cool.

I mean, not for him.
Like, uh, medically speaking.

-We talking Pokemon dragon
or Game of Thrones?

-Dragonite is so baby.
I love him.

-I have no idea
what any of that means,

but I would say
whichever's scariest.

-Found his social.
-Let me guess.

Frat boy from Fordham?

-Bingo.
-How did you do that?

-We get one like him
at least twice a week.

College kids gone wild
in the big city.

Probably hit his head on a keg.

-And now he needs our help.

-Okay. We'll run labs
and a UTox.

-Hey, hey.
Where did he come from?

-I saved him.

From a dragon.

-Of course you did.

Okay, well, make sure
he gets formally admitted.

You know,
standard patient procedure.

You may have heard of it.

Chief wants to see us
right away.

And do not make
a dragon lady joke.

-Your words, not mine.

Ericka, take point on Pete.
And not just labs.

I want to know exactly
what he's seeing and why.

Ah.

I'm having trouble with
one of my patients this morning.

Scheduled for a lap chole
for chronic cholelithiasis.

-Why is the Chief Medical
Officer removing gallbladders?

-Too many surgeries,
not enough surgeons.

Anyway, as I was saying,

my patient has called off
her surgery this morning

because she had
a disturbing dream.

Woke up feeling that she was
temporarily unable to move.

-Sleep paralysis,
pre-operative anxiety?

-That's what I said.
But she has gotten hysterical.

She's expressed that
she doesn't feel listened to

or like she's being
taken seriously.

And we all know
how that can blow up

if she takes it to social media.

-So you called us here because
you're concerned about optics?

-No. I need neuro
and psych evaluations.

Make sure she's safe
for surgery.

We're doing our due diligence.

-Yeah. Listening to her
and taking her seriously

seems like
a great place to start.

-We are on it, Chief.

-Thank you.

-Wait.

Your patient is
Jessica Williams?

-Mm-hmm.
-As in Jessie from the block?

-Yes.
-Jessie from which block?

-The boogie-down Bronx, baby.

WNBA All-Star,
all time assist leader,

and just all around good people.

She retired last year,

and now she coaches
a local girls Varsity team.

She's a hometown hero.

My husband and daughter and I,
we never miss a game.

-Oliver, may I have a word?

Carol, if you don't mind --

-I do not.

-Have a seat.

-Am I in trouble?

-I just wanted to reiterate

how happy I am
that you're on the team.

There's no one who is more
devoted to their patients

than you. And everyone
in New York knows that.

-I'm sensing a "but."

-Well, where you
get into trouble

is with the establishment.
Your disregard for rules.

-Only when they get in the way
of what's best for my patients.

-Yeah. Right.

So, this should help.

-Please tell me you did not
write a memoir.

-It's a manual outlining
the protocols for our hospital.

-Sounds riveting.

-Mugwump,

there aren't many hospitals
left in this town

that are willing
to take a risk on you.

I may very well be
your last chance.

-Lucky me.

-Outside hospital records
for the patient in Bed 4.

Thank you.

Good morning
to you, too, Dr. Wolf.

-Are you the brain doctor?

They told me
to come and see you.

-Jessie. Um...

Yeah, uh, you can call me Wolf.
Or Oliver.

-Did they tell you I was crazy?

-I believe the word
that they used was hysterical,

which, by the way,
our generation knows

not to say anymore.

-Ever have one of those dreams

that feels so real,
you can't shake it?

Haunts you the rest of the day?
-All the time.

-This is 100 times worse.

I can still feel it in my body,
like something is wrong.

-Can you describe the dream
for me?

-I was in my bed.

But I was floating above,

looking down at myself.

And when I tried to move, I --

I-I couldn't.

I felt...disembodied.

-That is agate.

The youngest of its kind
is almost 13 million years old.

That piece you're holding
took thousands of years to form,

molecule by molecule,
layer by layer.

-I'm so sorry.
-No, no, no.

There's -- There's no need
to apologize.

That's -- You know,
it's just a silly rock

that happens to be
exceedingly rare.

-Basketball players should be
better with their hands.

I don't know
why this is happening.

-You know, um, the mind
doesn't produce a nightmare

without a reason,
much like an agate can't form

without a preexisting rock.

Am I making any sense?

-Shockingly, yes.

-Good.
I'd use a basketball analogy,

but I'm worried
I'd "strike out."

Any, um, physical
symptoms, Jessie?

-I'm a little shaky, obviously.

I don't know if that's physical
or just in my head.

-Well, when we have a bad dream,

our logic brain,
the prefrontal cortex,

goes offline.
It becomes physical.

Heart rate rises.
Breathing quickens.

-So you don't think
it's just psychosomatic?

-No. What you're feeling
is very real.

Now, it is my job to make sure
it's nothing serious.

So let's just run some tests,
and then my colleague

Dr. Pierce, uh, is gonna spend
some time with you.

A warning -- She is a fan.

Thanks for the heads up.

-You're in good hands, Jessie.
We are gonna take care of you.

-He has green, glowing scales.

These big, sharp, red talons.

And his eyes are like tiny,
dim light staring right at me.

-Pete. Something like that?

-Damn, Jacob.
That's pretty good.

-Wouldn't have pegged you
as the artist of the group.

-Well, Dana,
I am a man of many talents.

-Can one of those talents be
checking Pete's UTox results?

-Already done. Lab's backed up,
but Portia's rushing it for me.

-Who's Portia?
-Don't worry about it.

-Pete, any of these look right?

-Pete, what's wrong?

Are you seeing one right now?
Dragon?

-I think he's gonna hurl.

-Good catch. How's Pete?
-Extremely hungover.

-Uh, give him a liter of LR.
Add thiamine and folate.

I need two volunteers to help me
with a workup on...Jessie.

Uh, you two, let's go.

-Why am I always stuck
babysitting bros

who O.D. on shrooms and binge
"House of the Dragon"?

-You're describing me.
Every Sunday.

-Find anything?

-Uh, these labs
are all in the black,

but I want to give this thing
time to declare itself.

We need to keep an eye on her.
-Too late.

She's going in for surgery.
Said she was feeling better,

said she wanted to get it
over with and get out of here.

Signed her paperwork
and my ball.

-Well, that must be nice,
to have a collectible.

Jessie broke my agate.

-Your what?
You know what? I don't even --

How did things go with your mom?

-Oh, um, she gave me homework.

-Really? I'm so glad
you find this funny, Carol.

I am having a really hard time
working here

at this hospital with her.
It's like...

being a kid again,
and not in a fun way.

-Wolf, you knew
this would be hard.

Look. I've had a front row seat
to your mommy issues for years.

You two need
to figure this thing out.

-You are right.
She can go first.

Jessie said she feels
disembodied.

Don't you think that's such
an odd word choice? So specific.

-Well, her psych eval
came back benign.

Jessie did say that talking
to you made her feel better.

It's not surprising.

You've always had
a way with your patients.

Whatever it is
you're doing with them,

you should try it with your mom.

-Is this her signature?
-Think so.

She filled out her consent
with the surgical resident.

-No, it's completely different.

Look. It -- It looks like
it was signed

by somebody with
a different hand.

Perhaps by somebody
who feels disembodied.

When did she sign
this basketball?

-About 2 1/2 hours ago.
-And the consent form?

-Less than 30 minutes later.
You think she's declining?

-Yes. And fast.

-You are not listening to me.
-Ma'am, I need you to relax.

-I-I said
I don't want to do this.

-You will feel so much calmer
when the anesthesia kicks in.

-I'm not -- How are you gonna --
-Stop! Hey.

-Jessie, what's going on?

-I was laying here
getting ready for surgery,

and something changed.

My body, it's like
I'm not in it.

-You mean like your nightmare?

-It's coming true.

-Jessie consented
to the surgery.

What made you intervene?

-She changed her mind.
-Again?

-Jessie expressed that her body
doesn't feel like it's hers.

To proceed with the operation

could cause irreparable
psychological damage,

let alone the physical harm

that could come
from operating on someone

with a progressive
and still undiagnosed condition.

-What have you found?
-Look. Here.

Same signature,
less than two hours apart.

That shows a significant decline
in fine motor functioning.

-Underlying causes?
-We don't know yet.

We'll get her
straight to the MRI,

rule out stroke, tumor,
other abnormalities,

and bring you back
something more conclusive.

-Let's figure this out.
Quickly, before it escalates.

Oliver, try not to get
too attached.

We both know it hasn't
served you well in the past.

-I do not get too attached.

-Nice of you to grace us
with your presence, Oliver.

Take the seat next to Benedict.

Today, Oliver.

That's not Benedict.

-Perhaps if you spent
a little less time

with your head in the clouds,

you'd know your classmates'
names by now.

-What's wrong with him?

-Let's continue. Open your jars.

Place the cotton ball inside

to euthanize the specimen.

-Hey, little buddy.

-Oliver?

Oliver, where do you think
you're going?

-So, is this an official
medical examination?

-I guess you could say so.

Your brain MRI was normal,
but something's going on.

I wanted to observe you
in your element.

What position did you play?

-Point guard. I ran the offense,
called out the plays,

made sure we all worked
together as a single unit.

A great team moves
as a single body.

Now that's what I'm trying
to teach my girls.

I'm guessing you don't play?
-Basketball? No.

Team sports in general,

not really my thing.
PTSD from being the gay kid

who always got picked last
in gym class.

-Mm.

-What is it?
-I just --

It doesn't feel right.
-In what way?

-It's like I'm outside my body,

like I'm watching a video
of myself,

but I can't control it.

-Have you ever felt this before?
-In my dream,

and then when they were
prepping me for surgery.

It felt like my body is...

dead, or not mine.

-It's okay, Jessie.

We're gonna keep running tests
until we figure this out.

Dr. Pierce.

You know the patient
that Dr. Wolf brought in? Pete?

-Uh, the one he saved
from the monster?

-Dragon. I-If we're
splitting hairs.

Uh, well,
we ran additional tests,

and he's positive for LSD,
but he's still seeing dragons

24 hours after his last dose.
And Dana said

that acid typically
doesn't last that long,

so my gut tells me
it might be a psychotic break.

Thanks, Dr. Pierce.

-Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa,
not so fast.

-It's a drug-induced
hallucination,

possibly tipping off
his first episode of psychosis.

Doesn't that fall under psych?
-We don't know yet.

And Pete's your patient,
so you can't just skip off

and join Wolf on his mystery
disembodied case just yet.

Come on. You're coming with me.

So, Pete,
have you ever been diagnosed

with a mental health disorder?
-No.

-Any family history?
-Not that I know of,

unless you count Grandpa George
telling his entire golf club

he had syphilis. The man's
a nut, but he can still get it.

Okay. Got it.

So, tell me about this dragon
I've been hearing about.

Do you see it right now?
-Yeah.

But when I was tripping,
it felt so intense.

-And now?
-I still see it, but...

I know it's not really there.

It's not real.
-Got it.

I'm just gonna speak
with Dr. Kinney for a moment.

He's aware that
the dragon is a hallucination.

A psychotic break is
fundamentally characterized

by a loss of contact
with reality.

If he can distinguish between
what's real and what isn't...

-Then he's still in touch
with reality.

-Which means...

-This is a neuro case.

-Have fun, Doctor.

-My sister's team
has playoffs next week.

The girls are asking
if she's gonna be okay.

-You tell them we are doing
everything we can

to get her back to them ASAP.

How you feeling, Jessie?

-Well, I don't love the sound
of a spinal tap,

but if it gives us a medical
explanation for my air ball,

I'm all for it.

-Dr. Markus is gonna
collect a sample

of cerebral spinal fluid.

The results will let us know

if you have an infection
or inflammation

that's causing your symptoms.

-Uh, would you mind

leaning forward just a little?
Thank you.

Take deep breaths.

-Everything okay there,
Dr. Markus?

-Yeah. Just, uh -- Just didn't
think I'd have an audience.

Damn it.

-Van --
-Take this. I can't do this.

-All good.

You might feel
a little pinch, okay?

3, 2, 1.

Good job.

-Dr. Markus?

What happened in there?

-I-I don't know.
I got overwhelmed.

-Yeah, well, that's obvious,
but why?

-It's, like, this thing
that happens.

I-It was like I could feel
the pain from the needle.

And not to mention
your disappointment

and Jacob's judgment, and
her whole family is watching,

and just -- I was a mess.

-Well, I'd call that
an accurate assessment.

A lumbar puncture is a
basic procedure, Dr. Markus.

-I-I know --
-Jessie is already terrified.

And you may have just
scared her even more.

Figure this out.

"Chapter 4, billing procedures.
When logging patient notes,

a physician must follow" a long
list of bureaucratic nonsense

that improves the health
of no one

and bends
to the insurance lobby,

because lest you forget,

medicine is
a for-profit industry.

Yeah, this is Wolf.

I'll be right there.

-Okay, so her tap was clear,
Dr. Wolf.

But I-I don't understand
what's going on.

-Okay, well,
what happened, Jacob?

-Well, we found her
like this. I --

I --

-Jessie?

Jessie, can you -- can you
put your arms down for me?

I can't.

I-I can't control them.

-It's okay. It's okay.
I'm gonna help you.

Okay. It's okay. Just breathe.

Okay. Here we go.

We're gonna just
walk it off, okay? So...

Alright, can you -- can you
just take a couple of steps

toward Dr. Nash?

I-I can't.
-What is it now?

Tell me -- Tell me,
what are you feeling?

-Like there's no ground
to stand on.

I can't walk.
I can't even stand.

What is happening to me?

-Okay, things just got
really weird.

-I'll say it.
Van gives good head.

-Is this punishment
for my failed lumbar puncture?

-No. You're helping me
illustrate a point.

Everyone, shush.

Okay, right now,
when Van looks down,

he's unaware of his body's
presence or position.

He's essentially blind
to his body.

That's what Jessie
is experiencing --

a very specific nerve damage

resulting in total
proprioceptive deficit

from her toes to her head.

It is often said proprioception
is our sixth sense.

You mean she sees dead people?

-No. What?

Uh, but her body
feels dead to her,

like in her dream. Her brain
knew something was wrong

before her body showed
any symptoms.

-Literally a horror movie.
-Okay, Van,

hold up your hand
in front of your face. Right?

Okay, so Jessie can see
her hand in this position,

but the moment it moves
outside the field of vision,

it's like she no longer has
a hand at all.

-Well, she's an athlete.
Can her loss of proprioception

be from an old spine injury
or contusion?

-Good idea. Look into it.

-Can we turn the lights back on?
-Yes.

-Or a cavernous malformation

in the dorsal column
of her posterior cord.

We should scan her again,
the entire spine this time.

-Get those to me ASAP.
-I'm pretty sure this happened

to a friend of mine
who got way too into Whippets.

-That reminds me, how's
the frat boy who sees dragons?

-Pete?
-Yeah.

-Well, his CT brain, CSF,
and EEG are all unrevealing.

We're still waiting
on a few labs,

but if it isn't drugs
or psychosis --

-We know
that sustained hallucination

doesn't just
come out of nowhere.

-That's right.
It's got to be connected.

Let's keep digging.

-Mugwump? A word?

-Excuse me.

-Mugwump?
-What even is that?

-I don't know,
but it's embarrassing,

and my mom calls me
her little butter bean.

-Wait, wait, Dr. Wolf
is the Chief's son?

-Dude, duh.

Did you seriously
not google your new boss?

-So help me understand how
a patient walks into my hospital

for a routine surgery
and now may never walk again.

-I was trying to solve that
before I was interrupted.

-It could be viral.
-Well, we're looking into it --

-Autoimmune, bacterial,
environmental exposure.

And if we don't know
what caused it,

we don't know how to stop it
or how far it could progress.

-I said I am on it

Now, against my better judgment,
perhaps, we are colleagues now.

So no more pet names.
And stop micromanaging me.

-Do your job,
and I won't have to.

-I didn't want
to kill the frogs.

I want to be a doctor.
Do no harm.

-I know.

You're not in trouble, honey.

I brought you here
so you can learn to dissect

the proper way.

-Who is that?
-It's a body that a person chose

to donate to the medical school,

so aspiring doctors can learn

and one day help people.

Okay.

So, you start at the collarbone.

Once you're through the sternum,
you'll see the heart.

It won't be easy, Mugwump.

You'll have to cut deeper
than you expect.

Dr. Wolf. Hey. You paged me?

-I did, 20 minutes ago.
It's about time.

-I was in surgery.
What do you need?

-Ah, I need a consult
on my patient Jessie.

Acute, severe
proprioceptive deficit.

She came in for an elective
surgery, and now she can't walk.

It's moving fast. I have
never seen anything like this.

-Is that how this works?
You, uh --

You only acknowledge me
when you need something?

Come on. You keep
blowing past me out there.

-What? When?
-Today,

on three separate occasions.

-Why are you counting?
-It's rude, okay?

It's rude. You are rude.
-No.

I have prosopagnosia.

It is a neurological condition.

It means I can't
recognize faces.

-Okay, so how does it
work for you?

How do you recognize people?
-Um, defining characteristics.

Style, gait triggers
my temporal cortex, or...

deep crow's feet,
ghostly white complexion.

Do you want me to check
if you have a pulse?

-Let's go back
to you ignoring me.

Okay. You can read an MRI
as well as I can, Dr. Wolf.

You and I both know
there's nothing here.

So why did you call me?
-Well, sometimes

even the most brilliant doctors
need a second opinion.

Nichols...I'm worried about her.

-Well, hopefully the fact
there's nothing to resect

is good news.

-Hey, Coach, can I ask you
a personal question?

-Okay, ESPN. Shoot.

-When you retired,
you were in your prime.

Were you hiding an injury
or something?

-No, I was just ready.

-Well, it couldn't have been
that easy.

I mean, you were a star.
You averaged like --

-Sure, I was scared
to leave the game.

But once I did,
I knew it was right.

When I started coaching,
something just clicked.

I knew it was what I was
supposed to be doing

with my whole life.

-You know, um,

I was a quarterback
back in the day.

Played D1.
-Damn!

How'd you end up in scrubs?

-Um, one too many concussions.

-Mm. Well, it seems you got
a good head on your shoulders,

even if it is
a little banged up.

If I can't walk again...

can't move...

I don't want
to let my girls down.

This is a tough place
to grow up.

And a tough time to be a kid.

Am I gonna be okay?

-Hey, Coach J,

you have plenty of court-side
huddles left in you, trust me,

okay? And while you're here,
we're your team.

And we're not giving up
until we fix this.

I promise.

You should try to get some rest.

I think I know the cause.

Smoothies.
Jessie drinks them all the time,

and they're loaded
with supplements.

Then I rechecked her blood work,

and her B6 levels are high.

-So the pyridoxine toxicity
from the B6

could have caused
the proprioceptive damage,

which means...

-There's hope.

-He's been sleeping a lot.

Hasn't been to class in a month.

Classic Pete.

Doesn't have to care
about grades. He's a legacy.

-Of course he is.

-I'll check the fridge for mold.

Mycotoxins could be the culprit.

What is that smell?

-I'm getting notes of weed
and, uh, booze-soaked carpet.

Reminds me
of the good, old days.

Man, it's been so long
since I've shotgunned a beer.

You know, like --

Yeah.

-Oh, my God. You've never
shotgunned a beer before.

-Uh --

-Keg stands,
Edward 40 hands, beer pong?

Did you have any fun in college?
-Listen, I would have loved

to have gone to parties.

I would have loved
to have been a legacy.

I would have loved to have
slacked off and skipped class

and been hungover all day,
but I was busy

busting my butt
to get into med school

while working two jobs
to pay for it.

It is so rank in here!

The dragon.
-Uh-oh.

You seeing him, too?

-Jessie?

We are almost done
flushing your system

to see if it helps
your symptoms.

Jessie?
-Coach J?

We were just giving her fluids.
What's going on?

She was alert a minute ago.

-Her lungs are clear,
so fluids aren't the problem.

Her O-2 sat is dropping,

and she's unresponsive.
Get the crash cart.

Let's go, let's go!

She's not breathing!

Come on, Van.
Come on, Van. Come on.

-No pulse.
-I'll start compressions.

-We can't bag forever.
We need to intubate her now.

Where's anesthesia?
-They're coming.

Go, go.

-Come on, Coach J. Come on.
Come on, Coach.

We got you.

-We flushed her system,
hoping that it would

slow or reverse
the progression of her symptoms.

Unfortunately, she's
still not breathing on her own,

which means that perhaps the B6
wasn't the cause after all.

But even though
we don't know the cause,

we're still looking
for a solution.

My big sister has always been...

invincible.

How is this happening to her?
-You have to understand

how exceedingly rare
your sister's case is.

I mean, I've read
of similar deteriorations,

but nothing this fast.

And it's possible we may
never know the cause.

-Are you saying
this is permanent?

-I don't know yet.

But what I can tell you
is that all of you --

her family, her team --
give her purpose.

That's what Jessie needs
right now.

A reason to get better.

-First Van, now you.

You interns
are a real time suck.

What happened?
-Nothing. I just...

stepped out
to finish some notes.

-Okay, well, we don't walk out
on patients to finish notes.

-You don't think
I already feel crappy enough?

I told Jessie
she would get better.

I looked her right in the eye,
and I lied to her.

-Yeah, that's not great.

But contrary to popular belief,
doctors are humans, too.

Sometimes we need hope
to be better at our jobs.

And sometimes we need to know
when hope is not enough.

-And what about you?

Have you lost hope?
-No. For Jessie's sake,

I can't afford to.
And neither can you.

-Dr. Wolf?

We need you to see Pete's MRI.

-Hallucinatory palinopsia.
-Yeah.

As soon as we saw the dragon
outside Pete's frat house,

we realized that it isn't just
some random hallucination.

It's like a memory,

an image he's been seeing
outside his window every day

that his brain's visual memory
area keeps causing him to see,

even when it's not
directly in front of him.

-Which only happens
when there's a lesion.

-Right here. The noncon CT
never could have picked that up.

An occipital lobe
dural arteriovenous fistula,

causing a buildup of blood
and venous hypertension

in the occipital lobe.
-Causing visual disturbances

like palinopsia.
-The lesion could bleed out

into his brain at any moment,
can't it?

-I'm off to prep the O.R.

-How's our frat boy?

-Uh, he's in surgery.
It's delicate.

-Well, Nichols is
one of the best.

-Oh, "one of." That doesn't
inspire confidence.

-I heard Jessie had
visitors today.

-Yes. It's really important
for her to maintain a connection

to her community, her purpose.
-I agree.

And I've been meaning
to talk to you about this.

If she doesn't improve
in the next few weeks,

we're gonna have
to talk about a trach

and long-term care facilities.

-Ship her off to be forgotten

so you can free up a bed?
Not an option.

-Unfortunately,
it's not your call.

-Well, whose call is it, Carol?

My mother's?

This is why I didn't want to
work here. Jessie is my patient.

I determine her course of care
based on who she is,

what's important to her,
and what she would choose.

And I don't like you doing
my mother's bidding --

-I'm not doing your mother's --
-Look, Carol, I've known you

for 20 years. Never play poker.

-Hey. I know you
don't want to hear this,

but your mother isn't
always wrong.

Without knowing the etiology,
we have to assume

that Jessie's nerve damage
is permanent.

Proprioception is necessary
for breathing, too,

which means
that if this is permanent,

she won't be able to breathe --
-Exactly.

And she's getting weaker
the longer she lays there

not using or even trying
to use her muscles.

You put her in long-term care,

next it'll be pneumonia,
then bedsores.

She'll never walk, talk,
or breathe again on her own.

And her team needs her.
They cannot see her quit.

-See her quit or you?

Wolf, I know this is hard,

but this is what you do.

You get too attached.

-Who is that?

-Yes, this is John Doe.

No ID, no medical history,
no family.

Transferred from hospital
to hospital

every time he gets
a new infection. Now he's ours.

No one knows who he is
or where he came from.

-Diagnosis?

-Uh, stroke?

Whatever it is,
it's not salvageable now.

Whoever John Doe was is gone.

-And this is what happens
when no one gets attached.

-I couldn't do it.

I picked up the scalpel,
and I froze. I couldn't move.

-Hey, kiddo. It's okay.

-No, it's not. I couldn't even
make the first incision.

-Forget all that.
-I don't want to.

I want to be a doctor,
like you and Mom.

-Alright.

Next time, try this.

Step outside yourself.

Don't worry about the
entire cadaver in front of you.

Start small.

Just focus on your hand.

I believe in you.

Enough for the both of us.

-We're taking out Jessie's tube.

We're gonna stop her precedex,

reduce the vent settings
to minimal support,

loosen the breathing tube,

and get ready
to deflate the cuff.

-Dr. Wolf, she could die.

-Yeah, she can't breathe
on her own.

-Jessie can't move her body

because she's suddenly blind
to it. It's overwhelming.

But what if she
steps outside of herself?

What if she uses her other
senses to control her body?

Starting small, focusing
on one body part at a time.

It's not
that her muscles are weak.

It's not that she can't breathe.
She can.

She just doesn't know it yet,
because she has to learn

to connect with her body
in a brand-new way.

And the longer we wait,
the weaker she gets,

and the more she loses hope.

I mean,
if we don't believe in her,

how is she supposed
to believe in herself?

Let's get in there.

Let's do this.

-He gives locker room
speeches now?

-Clear eyes, full hearts,
can't breathe.

-Jessie?

Will you run a drill with me?
Just the two of us.

When we take out
the breathing tube,

I want to see your breath
on this tray, okay?

Now, in order to do that,

I want you to embrace your
feelings of disembodiment.

Look at yourself
from the outside,

focus on your chest in space,

and then use your eyes
to imagine it moving.

Can you do that for me?

Step outside of yourself.

Start small.

One breath.

I know you can do this, Jessie.

I know you can.

-Come on.

-I believe in you.

Enough for the both of us.

-Oh, my God.

-Good job.

-Jessie has been working
Incredibly hard.

She's made great progress.

I want to manage
your expectations --

-Wolf.

It's okay. Let's just show them.

-Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa.
-Jessie.

-Don't. I got it.

How about a huddle?

Yes.

-Thank you.

For not giving up on me.

-Right back at you, Coach.

-Jessie.

-Once Jessie was able
to breathe on her own again,

she needed to relearn
how to move the rest of her body

using vision and touch
instead of proprioception.

We started small --

one hand and a piece of paper.

It takes practice.

But just like in basketball,
you start with the fundamentals,

teaching different parts
of the body to move as one,

just like players on one team.

We'll likely never know what
caused Jessie's nerve damage.

But with a lot of patience
and strong will,

Jessie is reconnecting with
her body in a brand-new way.

It takes hard work for a group
of players to come together.

It might even seem impossible,
until you try.

I know working together
is not gonna be easy.

That said, I want to try.

-Okay. Now I'm sensing a "but."

-Never attempt
to transfer one of my patients

without discussing it with me
ever again.

-I only said that to Carol
to light a fire under you.

-I don't care.
That's annoying, too.

Oh, and that John Doe in ICU?

-What about him?
-He's mine.

That's my patient now.

-I connected with your dad.

He's on his way.
-Thanks.

-And Dr. Nichols says
you should be out in a few days.

-You saved me.

In a way, the dragon saved you.

-It was signaling
something was wrong.

I just needed to look closer.

-Well, I'm lucky you spend
all your Friday nights

in the library.
I mean, I'm assuming.

Good thing it's not too late

for both of us to have a life.

-My bias could have cost Pete
his life.

Am I a judgey bitch?

You don't get to answer that.

-Ericka, you made a mistake.
It happens.

We're interns.
We're supposed to screw up.

Van fumbled a simple LP.
Sports reference!

-And I gave a patient,
you know, false hope.

-And I'm perfect, of course.

But I have to give you all
something to aspire to.

-Ah.
-Flanagan!

Three beers. In a can.

-Why do we need beers?
What -- What are you doing?

-I'm not doing anything.

-You're clearly up to something.
-Sweet baby angel.

-You're shotgunning
your first beer.

-Yo.
-Tonight.

-Yes!

-* It's been so long
since I went dancing *

* Dancing *

* It's been so long, it's been
so long, been so long *

-So, the post-op should be
waking up soon,

and we'll need Q2 hour
neuro checks.

Thank you.

-Oh, hey, Nichols.

I'm just kidding.
Good job with Pete.

-Thank you. Oh, hey, uh,

since you finally recognized me,

what defining feature
did you land on?

-Oh, you know, in the end,

it was the, um,
freakishly large hands.

Honestly, how do you perform

brain surgery with those things?
They're liabilities.

Oh, uh, one more question.
Is the anatomy lab still here?

-What are we doing?

-Well, it's harder
to empathize with a cadaver.

They have fewer feelings.

Go ahead.
Let's see your best spinal tap.

-I'm so grateful to you.

Having Oliver home, it just --

It means everything.

And he would never
have agreed to work here

if you hadn't convinced him.

-He really trusts you.

That's why I'm going to need you
to keep an eye on him.

-Muriel, I am not gonna be
his babysitter.

-I had a feeling
you were gonna say that.

But there are things
about my son's past

that even you don't know.