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♪ Shall we gather at the river Where bright angel feet have trod? ♪

♪ With its crystal tide forever Flowing by the throne of God? ♪

♪ Yes, we'll gather at the river The beautiful, the beautiful river ♪

♪ Gather with the saints at the river ♪

♪ That flows by the throne of God... ♪

- You're getting good, man. - Thank you.

- What about me? - Well...

Work in progress. We're on our way. It's good. No, we're both...

Okay.

Oh, um, hi. No, no, hold on, hold on, don't...

Wait, sorry, don't, uh... I didn't mean to startle you.

Um, are you... Hi.

Are you... are you okay? Do you need anything?

Are you, uh, are you lost?

I'm not lost.

Are you?

- Yeah, a little bit. - A tiny little bit.

- I... I mean... - I'd say a little, uh...

We're not headed anywhere in particular.

We just actually kind of wanted to get lost.

Not like physically lost.

More like spiritually or whatever, you know?

We don't have a plan is really all that we're saying.

Just kind of drifting for a little bit.

Do you eat those?

Want any help?

Um, actually...

yeah, can you come and grab a handful of ferns over here?

Yeah, yeah.

Uh, here.

Just rip them at the base so you don't hurt the plant.

- Okay. - Here. You just...

- Got it. - There you go. Yeah.

Okay. All right.

Oh, shit.

Here.

Oh.

Okay.

Never return to camp empty-handed.

No way.

- Whoa. Holy... - Uh, you can add them up here.

They help insulate.

Try to keep them in, like, the same direction.

All right. Is that fine?

- Mm-hmm. - Kinda like that.

- Wow. - Holy farfegnugen, Batman.

- Did you do all this? - Uh... ...yeah.

This is insane.

How did you learn how to do all this?

Sorry, that might have came out sexist. I didn't mean it that way.

I just meant, um, I don't know anyone our age who could pull this off.

Sorry, again, I'm just assuming your age.

I think what Peter means is this is really, really amazing.

Really.

Thank you for sharing this with us.

Um, I was only able to get one fish.

I think because it's getting colder now, um, they're starting to hibernate a bit,

- so that's all I could get. - Oh.

- Sorry. - No, don't worry about it.

We brought way too much food. You don't have to share with us.

I want to.

Well, uh, we can at least contribute? Uh, we have, uh...

noodles and meat sauce. Freeze-dried.

Tastes worse than it sounds.

We got other stuff, too, like, uh, veggie proteins, oats.

Oh. Do you guys know how to fillet fish?

Do you want to learn how to fillet a fish?

Um, we can fillet it, and then we can put it in a stew,

and we could probably add some of the oats to thicken it,

and then we could all share it.

Sounds great.

Cool.

Okay.

Take those off.

Hmm. Soup, we can get all of it.

- Then yummy, yummy noodles. - And... Yeah.

That is a very good texture for this.

- Cool. Almonds, do it. - Almonds?

- Do it. - Little nutty fish or something?

- Does that work? - Nutty fish.

Stir it around a little bit.

And we're going to add some fish.

- Oh, is that the head? - There. Okay, you ready?

No, no. Whoa, wait.

And then, you put it in the pot.

Put in the p... Okay.

- You're gonna put it in the pot? - Yes.

Then, we make a stew.

- It looks kinda gross. - It looks... Yeah.

Okay.

What, are you gonna balance it on the stick? What are you gonna do?

Like this.

- Oh... - That's something special.

- Yeah. - Now, you see.

This is it, boys.

This is what the master teaches you. Wow.

Oh, for God's sake.

Yeah.

♪ Yeah, they used to say That's when he carried us ♪

♪ Yeah, they used to say We'd fly on eagles' wings ♪

♪ And now it's getting late And it's hard to keep the faith ♪

♪ When there's no one here ♪

♪ But me to walk me home ♪

That's pretty, um...

- Was that like a, uh... - Weird church song?

- No, I didn't... - Don't worry, it's...

I know it's a little cheesy.

I... I actually did write it for church, but I never... I never shared it.

I... I didn't think they'd be open to it.

Why not?

Because it expresses doubt about faith.

Even though it's sort of about the journey back,

but taking a different route.

- So, is like the... - So, did you...

Sorry. No, no, you go.

Oh, um, I was just curious what you guys are doing out here.

Yeah. Me too. And, uh, and so is my mom

and my guidance counselor and just about everybody else.

Um, no, Barry and I, we graduated this year.

Um, I was supposed to go to Trinity in San Antonio,

and he got into Loyola Marymount.

You know, we're, uh, on the path, you know?

But, um...

I don't know.

Somehow, as it got closer, it just started to feel like, uh...

I don't know, not right.

Um, we were all raised Catholic, right?

And I do think that we have a deep faith in us.

But... lately, it's not really about spirituality.

And in a lot of cases, it's been co-opted by the extreme right,

and then... then it's been vilified by the left, so...

It's gotten totally fucked up.

Barry.

Sorry. Sorry. I'm trying on cussing.

Wasn't it always fucked up?

- Sorry. - It's okay. I think that, um...

...I think we all sort of ultimately felt, like, that there's got to be a better way

to celebrate God or even just spirituality.

And we're just trying to figure it out like everybody else, you know?

Like, just because we grew up Catholic doesn't mean we hate queers.

Barry...

What?

- I can say queer. I am queer. - I don't think you know who you are.

Oh, trust me. I'm gay. I know it.

And I think you just don't know who you are yet.

Well, it's... it's kind of hard to figure out who you are

when you've been told your whole life

that you... you're going to go to hell if you have premarital sex.

I get it. And that's why I'm saying it's fucked up, you know?

Anyway, I guess the point is, is that, uh, we all left the church

and decided, uh, to bag on all the life plans.

Wow.

You know, I don't think your tent is, uh,

rated for the temperatures we're going into.

Yeah. Yeah, we realize that, but, uh, there's three of us, so...

body heat.

You guys can always come stay with me in my cabin tonight if you want.

I mean, all the ferns and the moss do a lot to help insulate.

It might be a little crowded, but... ...if you guys want.

Really?

Why are you being so nice to us?

I don't know.

- Sure, yeah. - Thank you.

Sorry. Uh, the smoke will die down.

- It just takes a minute. - Oh, that's okay.

- It's totally fine. - The smokiness helps cover the smell.

Oh, God.

I did not want to be the first one to say it, but uh...

- It wasn't me. - It wasn't me.

- "I didn't fart!" - It wasn't me.

- Sorry. - Dude!

Oh...

Seriously? Meat sauce? I mean, camping food.

I mean, is it...

James, come on.

- Again? - That... that wasn't me.

- Oh, don't deny it. - That... No, no, no,

no, no, no. It wasn't me.

Jesus said he will deny me three times before the night is over.

- It wasn't me. I swear. - Liar.

- Liar. - Guys, guys. Leave him alone.

It wasn't him.

You?

Guys, meat sauce, seriously. Don't ever bring that on a camping trip.

Oh, man.

Oh...

All right, all right.

Who's, uh, who's in for a quick prayer before bed?

- Oh, yeah. - All right.

Yeah.

Um, I'm not religious. I don't want to be disrespectful.

No, it's okay. Don't worry. It's not that serious.

Trust me.

Come on.

All right.

Dear God, I want to thank you for this day.

Thank you for our health and...

the opportunity to be here in this beautiful place.

We ask that you keep us honest, and humble, and curious

as we do our very best to bring light to ourselves

and those around us.

Lastly, we'd like to thank you for our new friend, Penelope,

who has been nothing but a gift and a blessing to us

in so many ways today.

We ask that you look over her

and help protect her on her journey out here.

She's got a beautiful spirit. Please, please take care of her.

Bring her joy and happiness

and help guide her towards whatever it is she may be looking for.

Amen.

Thank you.

Here.

- Oh, no, I can't take that. - No, you need this more than us.

Please.

Well, thanks for keeping us warm last night, Penelope.

I could say the same thing for you, James.

- Well... - Well...

Good luck with all that out there.

You too.

Wait!

- I have an idea. - Yeah?

Oh.

That was a great idea.

- That wasn't the idea. - Oh, I still liked it.

Here's my idea. I like you a lot.

Okay, good. I really like you, too.

And my idea was, um, do you want to spend the day?

I mean, I don't really have, uh, like, for, like, a long term...

- No, I get it. Me neither. Me neither. - But, like, a day, right?

Like, we could be, like, I don't know, like, it'll be a day, but we're together,

but for, like, only a day, and then...

I love this idea.

Good, because I was saying it in my head, and it didn't really seem...

- We'll just, um... - Just, uh... Yeah.

Uh, do you want to meet us tomorrow at the caves

we were going to go to yesterday?

Yes. That sounds good. Okay.

- Cool. - Well...

Bye! It was nice meeting you guys.

- Yeah, have fun. - Nice to meet you.

Thanks.

And what are these... There are for?

- Asthma. Colds. - Okay.

This looks... Wow, okay.

You can go if you wanna go.

Yeah.

It's not very tasty, but it's edible.

Um, I think it's kind of like a dinosaur or something, you know?

- A dinosaur or something? - Yeah, like, I think,

that's like prehistoric part of the woods here.

Kinda like the prehistoric ones, from like...

- Yeah. - ...that kinda thing.

That's interesting. Did you know crocodiles

are the last living ancestors of dinosaurs?

- That totally correlates. - So you didn't?

I didn't know that.

You think the iguanas have something to do with it?

- And turtles. - Turtles also?

- I think so. Or maybe like shrimp. - So then they're not... They're not like...

I should probably leave this bag for you when I head out tomorrow.

No, it'll be okay. I've got my own.

You've got winter coming. It's going to be freezing.

Are you really just going to, like...

stay out here

by yourself through the winter?

Uh, I don't know.

I don't want to, like...

I don't want to pry. I just...

- I really like you. - I like you, too.

And I just... I worry about you being out here by yourself,

and I think, like, is it... is it worth, like, you know, living out...

What is it that you're doing out here?

Well, I came out here with my friends to try and figure some things out.

Okay, so how is that any different?

Well, there's three of us, you know, if something happens, and...

This is really hard, and I suck at words. Um...

I just think that maybe, right, maybe...

what I was looking for when I came out here, maybe...

that was, like...

you.

I'm sorry.

- I didn't mean to ruin our little pretend. - It's okay.

I just feel like I needed to be honest with you.

Peter, it's okay.

Can we just have tonight? Make it special?

Yeah.

We could always pretend tonight...

is, like...

our wedding night.

Yeah, okay. When you say wedding night,

you mean, like...

what couples do on their wedding night?

Yes.

Right. Um...

I, uh...

I really want to, right? But...

I mean, you know, my faith says I'm supposed to wait.

This is like...

a really big deal for me.

It's a big deal for me, too.

Peter?

Penelope, I couldn't sleep last night for a lot of reasons.

I decided to head out early,

mostly because I couldn't trust myself in this game.

I knew I'd ask for more days, more time, and I know that you can't give me that,