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Washing my clothes.
I'm just gonna boil them.

Ah!

! Ow.

Having my hand burned,
I can't shoot my bow.

Stupid.

I need to get out
of the temporary shelter.

So I'm gonna push,
and I think, when I'm done,

this place is gonna be
bomb-proof.

Gotta be careful
standing up so quick.

It's easy to forget
how much I haven't eaten.

The biggest game here
is down!

I've butchered
plenty of large animals

that I know how much work
this is gonna be.

I'm gonna burn up
a lot of energy doing this.

Yeah.

Boom.

Got him.

I strongly believe that

when nature throws you
a tidal wave,

you build a bushcraft
surfboard and ride it out.

Yeah!

I'm officially tapping out.

I just couldn't deal
with the social isolation.

I'm not tapping out.

I'd rather die.

Here goes nothing.

Whoa!

Yes!

Holy [bleep].

This is the harshest
location possible.

We're 125 miles
in the Arctic Circle.

Never had an environment

make me feel like
a complete amateur before.

Everything is
against us out here.

Mother Nature went
and bitch-slapped me.

Looks like I got grizzlies
and wolves as my neighbors.

Holy crap.

They're just hunting
the shoreline.

Mother Nature is about
to dim the lights on us.

We're heading
into total darkness.

- Hey, bear.

The cold and the dark is
going to sap people's souls.

Really makes you wonder
if it's worth it.

There is no camera crew.

There's no support system.

I'm completely alone.

Yes!

People go in one way...

Stop bleeding.

And they come out
entirely different.

This is the most difficult

survival challenge
in the world.

$500,000.

That's completely
life-changing money.

It's beautiful.

Whoever can thrive
the longest.

If they out here,
they ought to be afraid of me.

- Whoever can push through...

Wins.

I hope I made the right
choice coming out here.

I can package
the smoked meat,

get it in my food cache.

That's a lot of meat.

So I decided to boil
some spruce and shave.

See how this works,
shaving with an arrowhead.

Think that's about as good
as I'm gonna get it.

Oh, well.

I need to start moving around
because I'm getting cold.

But I really want to construct
the bed in my shelter.

That's all I'm gonna do today,
as far as work goes.

My energy level is zero.

My winter supply of meat
is done.

My moose meat is smoked
and it's in a cache.

It's very secure.

Now I can start moving
into my shelter.

OK.

I'm gonna go about
making a bed.

I'm gonna make a wood frame and
then a bough bed on top of it.

My strategy starting now
is to do the bare minimum,

as little as possible
physically.

My shelter smells like
smoked meat big time.

That's not gonna
bother me at all.

And eat as much as I can,

try to build some longevity
into my physique.

I have to raise up the bed off
the ground for maximum warmth.

I'm really tired,
and I shouldn't be.

My strategy always was
to work really hard

for the first couple or
three weeks to get things set,

and then do a strategy shift.

But the moose complicated it
so much that

it might have been
just overdoing it.

That might be good.

The way I've gone about
these last three weeks

will drive me out
of this competition soon

if I keep doing it that way.

I'm having a rough time,
just physically today,

a very rough time.

So that might be
one of the life lessons

I have to learn
while being here.

I got--I got just a start

on making the bed in there.

This is sad.

I've never been this inept
unless I was totally sick.

I really gassed myself
during the first three--

three weeks here.

So I'm paying for it.

I got to recoup.

Well, I have decided that
I must be getting sick,

coming down with something.

It's the only explanation
for how I'm feeling today.

I've started to sweat
and then get cold

and then sweat
and then get cold.

I'm worried about it.

Hot, cold, chills, sweat.

Not a great day.

The moose could easily
and ironically be

the thing that would
take me down.

Sweating again.

I've got to get through
whatever this is.

Place your bids.
Here we go.

Anybody got a giddy up, go.

Antique log going, starting
the bidding at 10 bucks.

Here we go.
Anybody gonna go 10 now?

Here we go, 15.

Anybody want to go 25 here,
anybody go 25 bucks.

There is no log
on the face of the Earth

with the same grains and beauty
as this sumbitch.

Now, come on.
Anybody gonna go 40?

40 bucks.
Can we get a 41?

Sold!

Ladies and gentlemen,
put your hands together...

for the young lady in the back

who bought this amazing piece
of lumber

for $42.

Sold.

All right,
that's enough fun, Dub.

No fun allowed
here in the Arctic.

It's all work, bro.

It's darn cold out today

on a pre-winter day
in the Arctic Circle.

Food and firewood are
the two things

that are gonna be hard
to come by in about a month.

All right.
Let's go check the gill net.

What scares the hell out of me
more than anything

is that period
of a couple weeks

before I can walk on the ice
on this river.

If that happens, and I don't
have food stored for that--

I can't ice fish.

I can't fish this open water
and I can't ice fish.

So that'll be two weeks.

Two weeks of me not eating
is a tap-out.

I'm too skinny, so I can't--

that can't happen.

That could happen
to just about anybody else

in this competition,
but that cannot happen to me.

Gill net.

Drumroll, please.

A bunch of--
a bunch of garbage in there.

There's no fish in here.

Nothing in the gill net.

Must fish.

I must fish at all costs.

And I must do it
almost every day.

I really would much rather
be hunting right now.

But...

I also know...

this is a smart thing to be
doing right now with my time

that's not burning calories.

I think something's
hitting this one.

I don't know if I should
wait for it to spring

or just grab it.

I'm just gonna spring it
by hand.

Holy crap, that's big.

Stay on there.

My club is right here
in front of my feet.

So gentle.

No sudden movements.

Wow.

Freaking wow.

Yes!

How's that--

.

When you have a fish caught,
in your hands...

And to have it
suddenly get away,

it's like a--

it's a heart-wrenching thing.

It's like you work so hard.

Every freaking calorie,
when it comes down to it,

every calorie
on every one of these fish

means something to me.

And literally losing a fish
in a split second

from a bad decision
is taking away

my time of being here
for longer.

Everything's OK.

Everything's OK.

It's only--

It's only five days of food
and $500,000, dude.

That's all.

Never let that happen again,

and we can recover from that.

Besides looking like an
absolute idiot on television,

we can recover from that.

That was a damn nice fish,

days and days
and days of food.

I think I might just have
to be satisfied

with my hard lesson today.

Stupid lesson.

This is my pipe I'm making.

It's gonna be like
a little hobbit pipe.

We are going to fire that pipe.

So you can see my pipe
down in there.

Essentially,
what you're doing is

welding the clay
into a ceramic.

Picked some kinnikinnick.

What do you think of that?

There we go.

Well, it certainly
isn't tobacco.

It's got kind of
a peppery flavor to it.

It's not bad.

All right.

We're gonna go work
on the shelter.

This has been the single
most challenging thing

since I've been out here,

selecting a place to build
a permanent shelter

and what kind of shelter
to build.

And because I'm getting
right down to the wire,

I think the most efficient,
quickest thing that I could do

is a wickiup.

So then it became finding
a place where I could find

enough small trees
to make a wickiup.

I walked up and down
this whole river.

And the only place
on this side of the river

that I found that was suitable
to do it was right behind me

in the one place
I didn't look.

I just want to get rid
of as much bark as possible.

Then it won't be so liable
to catch on fire on me

in the middle of the night.

The thing about a wickiup is,

it provides a lot
of really good insulation

by slowing down the air
from the outside.

If I can settle in here
and become comfortable,

I'll be able to stay here
for a very long time.

All right.

Done with that for now.

Think I'll get my tarp
on there

and then try and catch a fish.

If I don't catch anything
in the net,

I will fish with my line.

I can see the net,

but I don't see any fish.

I made a handline
from the leftover strands

of paracord core
from making my net.

I haven't had
much success with it,

but I'll give it a try.

So here is a chunk
of pike meat,

and this is the leader

that I made from my bootlace.

Pike have a mouth
full of razor blades,

and something that
I'm very limited on is hooks.

Inside the core
of my winter bootlaces

is a material
that's really strong.

They make bulletproof vests
out of it.

So I'm hoping this leader
will be safe from pike teeth.

That way,
I don't lose my hooks.

I brought a big treble hook
this time.

We'll see how that works.

I was gonna save this for lures
but changed my mind.

I need to catch a lot of fish

before the river
starts to freeze.

I want to try it just
a little further out than that.

There's a fish.

Come on.

Oh, no!

No! [bleep]!

My main line snapped.

There it goes.

!

How am I gonna get that back?

I'm gonna have to go swimming.

I can't lose my leader.

I won't accept that.

Soon as I get that back, we're
going from here to the camp.

.

Oh, [bleep].

Oh, it's cold.

Tailbone felt that one.

Oh, what an adventure.

OK, I do not recommend
doing that.

I probably should go back
to the fire, get warmed up.

Well, I'm in my--

my permanent shelter.

It's not done yet,
but it's getting there.

I'm in an extreme amount
of pain in my tailbone

and in my abdomen.

So I have debated, um...

Talking about this because...

it's kind of embarrassing.

I've had probably
30 pounds of food.

And in 12 days,
I haven't had a single BM.

I wish that I had killed
that beaver early on

because that may have kept

my digestive system
working regularly.

I've been eating as much
roughage as I possibly can.

I just don't know
what else I can do about it.

Since my divorce, my kids
have watched me struggle.

But I think it's important
for them to be able

to see me outside
of our family circle

and see what I'm capable
of doing.

When you step into nature,

everything else
is stripped away

and you are
a vulnerable animal

that is bumping along,
clumsily.

But there is no situation
that I would be in

that would make me tap.

I made a commitment
to finish this.

I would rather die than quit.

I feel like if I eat
any more green stuff,

I'm gonna make it worse.

So I'm just
keeping myself hydrated

and hoping things
work themselves through.

I got to see what it is.

Oh, yeah!
We got breakfast.

Yeah!

Yeah!

Hot.

I know that there's
some Indigenous groups

that eat a lot of bark.

And right now,
I'm on a fish diet,

so I'm getting mostly protein.

And I want to get some sugars
and carbs in my body.

I think it'll be
a more well-balanced diet.

Puts, you know,
food in your stomach.

OK, so I'm gonna muck 'er down

and go look for some berries.

Look at that.

This here.

Getting juicier all the time.

Got to try to figure
something out.

Sassy little bugger, anyway.

.

.

You know, not good
when you got something

stealing your food
all the time.

Well.

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.

Yeah.

I may go for a little fish
here this evening,

so try to secure
something for tomorrow.

So food is starting to become
a pretty good priority.

The critters here
are very aggressive.

Food stored is not safe
anywhere.

I got jays, the most
aggressive little jays

I ever seen.

We got minks here.
We got martens.

They're constantly
stealing food from me.

And it's a real concern.

It's actually the biggest
threat I got right now.

It's one thing to catch food,
but then you got to be working

to keep the critters
from stealing.

I can see it's gonna be a real
challenge going forward.

I'm gonna have to come up
with some other ideas

to try to figure out
how to keep the animals

from getting at my food.

Yeah!

Is that a pike
or something else?

Is that a salmon?
No, it's--or a whitefish?

Oh, so the whitefish is here.

Oh, just gotta be careful.
Just be careful, Willie.

Look at that. Look at that.
Look at that.

Mm-mm.

Whitefish is on the run.
I should put--

be very careful.

Very careful.
Extra very careful.

There, right there, almost.

Oh, look at that!
Got a whitefish.

Oh-ho-ho-ho-hoh.

Oh, how things turn around.

Super happy, super happy,
super happy.

This is gonna be
a well-protected fish.

Look at that.

Oh, my.

♪ Whitefish on the menu

Oh, what a pleasant surprise
that whitefish was.

The timing was just perfect.

I've been needing something
like that because

had a lot of food,
critters cleaned me out.

Then I was starting to get
a little short on food.

But that's a nice
little pick-me-up.

Tear that off.

Like that.

Now what I'm gonna do--

now, this is my--
this was my clay carrier.

It's gonna go in there now.

And this is gonna be tied over
and hung up like that.

Now that goes up here,
and you tie it over tight.

Well, I'll tell you,
things can turn around

kind of fast out here.

Not putting in that hidey-hole.

No, don't trust that spot
now either.

That's great.

I got a message that they're
doing med check sometime today.

So we'll see what they say.

I got up a while ago,

and the pain in my abdomen
is strong enough

to make me stop doing
what I was doing.

I'm not complaining.

Just dealing with it.

But I said from the beginning,
and I'm gonna keep saying it,

I'm not tapping out.

So we'll just see
what happens.

Got a med check,
so that should be fun.

I hear the boat coming.

I'm kind of nervous.

How thorough is the med check?

I don't know.

I don't know what the outcome
of this med check's gonna be.

You always hope for the best,
but plan for the worst.

Gonna me change my pants,
be respectable for the doctor.

My stomach is feeling
really lean, scary--

it's scary how lean it feels.

I'm actually worried
about this med check.

I've thought about
whether or not I should just

grit my teeth and fake it
through this check.

But I've decided
to not do that.

Bring the shirt kind of up
to the bone here, the navel.

There any chest pain?
- No.

Difficulty breathing?

Um, no.
I've been out of breath from--

from work, you know, of course.

Some of these logs
are pretty big.

But no difficulty breathing.

I am trying
to catch my breath...

- OK.
- Uh, constantly.

- Constantly?
- Yeah.

- Any headaches?
- No.

- Vision changes?
- No.

Any chest pain?

- No.
- No?

Sometimes it throbs.

Sometimes it feels like a--

like a dull knife.

- No belly pain?
- Mm-mm.

Bowels been good?

There was one day that
I had some stomach pain,

and I think--
I don't know what was going on.

And maybe I hadn't used the
restroom in, like, five days.

And so there was one day
that I had a little pain there,

but it wasn't serious.

I haven't had
a bowel movement in--

it's either 14 or 15 days.

And that has become
extremely painful.

How often are you having
these pains?

Constantly.

It's more pronounced
when I do anything.

It does worry me a bit.

I don't want to have
a heart attack at 35.

- Any pain there?
- No.

- That's OK?
- Oh, all good, yeah.

- OK, that's sore.
- That's sore there.

- OK.
- Yeah, that's sore.

Yeah? So the deeper--
the deeper I go, the more--

- Oh, yeah, way more.
- OK.

Like, j--

Yeah, just taking
that off was...

making it pretty hard
to breathe.

At this point, I don't think
it's medically safe

for him to be in the field.

Given Dr. Gary's concerns...

We need to officially extract
you for medical reasons.

My largest concern is,

you're showing signs now
of a bowel obstruction.

My concern
with a bowel obstruction is,

that's something
that can evolve

into a perforation
or an infection

throughout the body
called sepsis.

These are
very serious diagnoses.

And it's no longer safe
for you to continue.

Any chance we could just,
like, give it a few more days?

Four days or something?

It's a pretty serious risk

that you're putting yourself in
day by day,

living out here.

It is not safe to continue.

My brother, uh...

had an obstruction.

They had to take out
about 7 feet of his intestines.

So I understand.

I think that it's probably
the right call.

I just don't want it to be,
you know?

That's all I've got to say,
I guess.

I feel like
I had my hand extended,

reaching at this goal
that I wanted so badly.

And then the goal stretches
out beyond my reach,

and all I grab onto
is empty air.

But what I'm realizing
about this experience

is that it's OK that
I didn't win the prize

because what I gained
is wisdom.

When you're faced
with a challenge like this,

it tests your character.

I came to know myself better.

And I'm going to keep
this state of vulnerability,

because I think if I do,

I can be more helpful
to my family, my children.

My kids will see
a passionate and happy Jake.

I'm going to be
a better version of myself,

full authenticity,
but with purpose.

And I'm going to finish
that journey on my own terms.

Gonna use some of
the ptarmigan bones for bait.

There we go, six baited hooks.

You mother[bleep].
I hate you.

You are
a robbing little bastard.

What are you trying
to steal from me now?

Huh?

Jerk.

Stupid Canadian jay.

Med check is done
and over with,

and they didn't pull me
because I'm dying,

so we'll call it a success.

So I'm going to walk
over to the river

and check my longline.

A longline is a long rope

that's anchored down
at one end.

And off of that rope is
multiple baited hooks,

so there's multiple chances
of catching a fish.

My body's feeling depleted.

I am really hoping
I get a protein today

because I ate the last
of the ptarmigan.

Oh. Oh, gosh.

OK, change in plans.

See if I can get that bird.

A couple days
into my journey here,

I stopped wearing my belt.

Oh, where'd you go,
pretty chicken?

I need you so bad.

And today I put it back on
and found out that

I lost enough weight that
I'm in at least one notch.

Where'd you go?

I hear it.

Oh, I see her.
She's up there a ways.

Too big or too small,
doesn't matter.

My entire life, I see
my body different than it is.

It's [bleep] up.

Please, God, be with me
and guide this arrow.

I can really use this.

.

Damn it.

Oh, please, God,
let me get one of these birds.

Oh, [bleep].

Un-freaking-believable.

Even that raven's
laughing at me.

Raven, shut it!

Not funny.

Feel like a [bleep] dumbass.

All right, back to my lines.

I spent most
of my adult life overweight.

I've always had
an addictive personality.

Unfortunately,
that came from my family.

Sure hope my anchor holds on.

Those things are hard to find.

My mom ended up
falling into alcoholism,

and she got
into Alcoholics Anonymous.

Nothing on the first one.

Nothing on the second one.

And I started to see
these amazing changes in her

in a very short
period of time.

And then she came to me when
I was 17 years old and said,

"I love you,
but I'm done with motherhood.

I now have
to take care of myself."

And nothing on the third one

or the fourth one.

That was the day
I had to grow up.

There was just an emptiness
inside of me.

And I filled the void
with alcohol and food.

But I turned it around
because I got pregnant.

Everything still has
its chunk of bone on it.

Just not the best bait.

Knowing how it felt
to have your mother

not mother you anymore,
I wouldn't do it.

I know I was a better mother
than my mother was.

And my daughter is
an amazing mother.

Because each one of us has our
own trauma from our mothers,

I know that every generation
in my family,

we're getting better.

Yeah, been one of those days.

I don't remember who told me--

some woman in my world--

about how they always hate
the competitor,

the female competitors,
that cry.

And here I am.

My confidence is taking a hit.

That voice inside of me
that loves to tell me

how much I suck at everything
is getting louder.

And it's looking
for any weakness I have.

All of a sudden,
I'm starting to question

my abilities again.

Do I really have
what it takes?

I made a promise to my husband
that I would tap out

before I broke physically
or mentally.

I might be there.

An emotional breakdown...

On video.

It's humiliating.

And in my safe space at home,
I'm not embarrassed to feel.

On television?

I'm vulnerable like every
other person in this world.

And sometimes I suck
at some of the skills

I'm supposed to have.

Now you all know.
Sometimes I just suck.

I sometimes suck at fishing.

And I often suck at hunting.

But the plain and simple fact
is, this is just me.

And, you know,
we all go through our lives

projecting an image.

And I project an image--

OK, I try to project an image

of having my [bleep] together,

of being a tough, badass woman.

And sometimes it just doesn't
work out, any of it, out here.

And now the whole world knows.

The publicity of this game

was one of the scariest parts
for me, because I knew.

I knew the real me
would be shown.

I have no doubt that

my lack of nutrition
and hydration

is affecting not only my body,
but my mind.

It's OK.

Because there's a lot
of other people in the world

who project a great image,

and sometimes they suck, too.

That's being human.

So any crazy thought
that I'm having,

I know that it's my body

trying to convince my mind
to go home.

But I'm not breaking yet.

I still have fight in me,
so I'm not tapping out yet.

I'm really tired.

I've been going
pretty hard today.

Ooh.

It's new socks day.

Oh, yeah.

It's the best part of today.

Look at 'em.
They're so soft.

Mmm. And they smell good.

Well, I don't even know
if they smell good or not.

They just don't smell
like me, so.

But yeah, today is gonna be
pretty easygoing.

I haven't had a break
since we've been here,

so I think I'll just
take it easy

and rest and heal
and just enjoy being here.

That's the plan for today.

I have been working nonstop
on my shelter,

burning an easy 3,000
to 4,000 calories a day

and maybe getting an average

of 500 calories a day
in my body.

That's not sustainable.

I'm having some pains
in my chest.

I think I work myself
too hard.

So I need to stop feeling like
I got to work all the time

and just try to relax.

Today...

my church involves
just being still

and washing my underwear.

That's my morning--
that's my morning service.

I haven't taken this underwear
off in two weeks.

So much filth coming off
of these.

Oh, that's horrible.

I might get a ticket for,
like, polluting the water.

Oh, man.

All right, now I'm gonna
boil some water.

I know I don't have
enough water in me,

so I'm starting to get
a little bit of a headache.

This here is just birch bark.

And it works really good for...
a fire starter

because of all the oils
that's inside birch.

I only got one ferro rod.

It has a very limited number
of strikes.

I think the same thing
with the ferro rod,

and me taking my time
to make the most

out of this fire starter,

I think it applies
a lot to our lives,

at least mine.

I'm sure I'm not the only one
that's gone through tragedy,

but how much time did I waste

not taking advantage

of when my brother was here?

Like it's gonna last forever.

It's not.

People in your life

that actually mean something
to you,

what are you doing
with them today,

tomorrow, this weekend,
you know,

to make the most
of your time with them?

There it goes.

I'll drink some water
and go for a walk.

Being out here,
I wish now that

I'd have valued
my time with them more.

It's just like that ferro rod.

May not be today, may not be
the next few months.

It may last you a lifetime.

But most likely, it won't.

There's always a job to do.

But the thing is,
there's always a job to do.

I need to slow down.

I need to just be present,
be in the moment.

My baby girl is only gonna be
one year old for so long.

And it's more important
that I enjoy that time

instead of work it all away.

It's getting cold.
Gonna put this on my noggin.

I can't believe it.

That's crazy.

I found a...

tangled up gill net.

Seems like some of it
is intact.

I want to salvage this.

Pretty cool stuff.

Lucky.

I didn't take the time
to make a gill net

because at first,

catching stuff on the bait
was really working.

So I just didn't bother
with it.

And then I just got
so caught up in that shelter.

I'm sure there's a lot of stuff

I'm gonna look back
and wish I'd done better.

But you know,
that's just the way life is.

Maybe this is just
exactly what I needed to win.

I need to get
that thing fixed.

I need to get it
in the water ASAP,

and hopefully it starts
turning a profit.

This could be a big win.

Got us a... gill net.

Oh, my God, dude.

That did not just happen.

Why the [bleep]?

I just smashed my glasses.

That's another
terrible mistake.

Can't be making mistakes.

I'm gonna have to, like,
figure something out here.

So here's my glasses.

They broke right there.

So the lens is gonna fall out
every time I move.

Wonder if I could just try
to melt that back together.

I think that's probably
what I should try doing.

We got paracord and pine pitch.

So if I can get
this heated up...

And welded, if you will,

this plastic welded,

we'll pop in that lens.

And I think we'll be
back in business.

It's gonna be probably not
just that simple,

'cause most things never are.

So it seems like
it's semi... fixed.

I'm gonna wrap paracord
really freaking tight.

I'm gonna cover it
with a very generous layer

of pine pitch glue.

That's awesome.

There's our resin glue.

Now, I want to get it
in every nook and cranny

so that
it's basically fiberglass.

OK, put the glue in.

You guys ready
for the big unveiling?

Boom.

That's back to normal, man.

That is awesome.

Look at this.
This is what I lose

without a hairbrush.

I'm gonna be bald
before this journey is over.

Feeling some frustrations
right now,

frustrations over my inability
to smack an animal

with an arrow.

You know, I've had
a couple opportunities

that I could have got
some bait,

and I blew it.

All right.

That's enough mental bashing.

I think I'm gonna go
take a walk with my bow

and see if there's
anything to shoot at.

So I finally have
a badass afternoon.

Fairly certain cameras are
pointed in the right direction.

And when I go to look
at the media,

it says it can't be read.

So... yeah.

It's OK.

Doesn't take away
from how fabulous it was.

Because "Alone's"
worst hunter...

Got two spruce grouse.

Yay!

I have that sense
of pride that,

not only did I get a bird,
I got two birds.

I don't need the feathers,

so I'm just going to pluck them
down to nakedness.

So here I am,
with at least two more weeks

that I get to hang out
and keep fighting.

OK. One naked little bird.

I've got more bait,

so now I have another chance
at fishing,

another chance
at feeding myself.

I have an actual chance of
being able to nourish my body

through this game and win.

Hey, yo!

It's day 23.

Do you know what that means?

It means it's gonna be
a wonderful day.

It means it's untangle
a dilapidated gill net day.

It means that today's the day,

and it's gonna be a great one.

Oh, yes.

Ah!

Day 23.

I was sleeping great
last night.

I was having a dream
about all things breakfast

from Tudor's Biscuit World,

and it was great.

An egg and a hash brown
and cheese

and a piece
of country fried steak on it.

Yeah, it was so good!
Oh, I want some Tudor's!

Oh, yeah.

Definitely got
a good feeling about today.

First on the docket is
check out my fishing lines.

And nothing.

Might need new--new bait.

Another squirrel
would be handy.

I feel like my mind is strong,

but my body's acting

very differently
than it has before.

The last few days, I've felt
like my chest was tightening,

like I had like
an elastic band

wrapped around my ribcage.

No fish today.

That might just mean
that I'm too hungry,

which I'm positive has
a part to play with it.

Maybe next time.

Today I just feel, like,
this discomfort in my chest.

Something to keep an eye on.

All right, time to start
working on a gill net.

Let me show you
what I got here.

Oh, man, this is gonna
take forever!

And you have to understand,
this thing was wrapped up.

Oh, did I find the end of it?

Bet that's what that is.

All right, so this is
one end of it.

All right,
that's already a lot more...

uh, gill net
than I already have.

So we're doing something.

I'm positive that
my brother Josh is in heaven

watching this right now
and just laughing.

My chest don't feel right.

Feel like someone's
squeezing down on my insides.

Kind of a throbbing pain
when I'm getting active.

And I think
it's directly resulted

with not enough food
being brought in.

And it's kind of making me
a little nervous.

Just got to keep pushing.
That's it.

There's no other way around it.

Nice!

Well, it's definitely more
than 10 meshes deep.

All right.

The net is cut to size-ish.

I'm going to cut down
a spruce pole

to use to hang this thing
out there.

Let's get it.

My heart's going nuts.

I am losing my breath.

My chest hurts like crazy.

Oh, I can just hear--

I can feel my heart
just, like, pounding.

I'm not even doing anything.

It's like my sternum
and my upper abdomen, maybe.

I gotta get some food,
actual food.

I think that's what it is.

Maybe.

Something is not right.

It hurts a lot.

Oh, God,
it's not getting better.

There's something big over here

on the other side of this lake
right now.

That's a big [bleep] moose.

All right, here we go, baby.

Living on the edge.
Day by day meals.

Good food cache.

I'm gonna eat the last
of the whitefish.

Just in front of my shelter,

there's fresh wolf tracks
this morning.

It's a wild place out here.

Brothers! The time has come!