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I haven't unpacked, so you can easily have that one if you want to.

I just stayed there last night. I don't mind.

Well, choose. Honestly, I really don't mind.

It's your trip.

I don't mind. I-I tell you what. You...

Oh, come on. Just choose. You stay in there.

Don't be so nice! It's fine. It's fine. I'll...

Really? Yeah. I'll go up there.

Sure? Yeah.

Okay. You'll be all right up there?

Yeah.

Baked apples.

With the blackberries? Yeah.

I think that's a very good idea.

Okay.

Oh, I love it when you do that.

I think the... Sorry, darling. Can I just turn the oven on over here?

There we are.

I'm not sure which one. Oh, it's this one, I think.

I'm just going to look after my eggs. Yeah. Sorry.

Remember I used to do this when you were really small?

Yeah.

Mum, here's your hot water bottle. Thank you.

There you go.

Turning this one out. Right.

Okay.

Night, my darlings. Night, night. Go up, Mum.

Let's hope Dad's here tomorrow.

You won't be seeing him again then, or...

No, I will, I will.

I'll see him that night, that one night I've got before I... I go.

- Night, C. - Night, night.

Sleep well. And you.

Mum? Darling?

- Night-night. - Sleep well.

You too. See you in the morning. Yeah.

Must be quite a nice job, really.

Coming away, family, free holiday.

Nice bit of cooking.

It's not very exacting. Is everything all right?

Yes. Delicious. Can I get you anything else?

I think we're fine. Thank you.

Good. Yeah.

Have you come a long way, Rose?

No. Well, sort of. Northamptonshire.

Oh, that's quite far.

Well, yeah, it's not Scotland though.

No.

Yeah. Whereabouts in Northamptonshire?

Sort of, quite near Silverstone.

That is quite far. That's almost up to Cambridge, isn't it?

Sort of on the way.

On the way, yeah. Yeah.

I'd say Cambridge is probably an hour or so.

So did you have to leave very early in the morning?

Yeah, quite early.

But it's fine. It's all part of the job.

Well, you're astonishingly ready for us.

I'm amazed that you've managed to get things together in such a short space of time.

It's really great. Thank you.

Well, it's a pleasure. It's what I'm here for.

It's a lovely house.

Yes. Isn't it great?

We love it. It's really, really nice.

Have you stayed here before, or...

Oh, yes. And for many years. Yeah, we've been here... Yeah.

Okay. Cynthia and I were here as, children.

Yeah. It's lovely.

Lots of lovely memories.

Did there used to be a picture on that wall, or...

Yes. How clever of you.

I just noticed the color difference in the...

Yes. In the...

Yes. It was rather horrible. Oh, right.

And Cynthia and Edward very kindly took it down.

Yep.

Oh, I see. Right. Well, I'd better get back, but, it won't be long.

Great. Great. Well, whenever you're ready.

Okay. Great. Thank you.

Okay. Thanks.

Do you want to finish that for me?

You don't have to act so kind. What?

I'm just... She's used to it. She can just go in there.

That's what she does all the time.

Darling, I don't think we need to whisper.

Oh, right, yeah.

I'm a bit stiff from that walking. Yes. It's good.

It's not a gap year, C.

I really want you to understand that.

No, I'm-I'm... Yeah, it sounds great.

I mean, of course, it's wonderful to... what you're doing. It's really great.

I just...

Well, I'm... Perhaps you could have done it a few years ago,

and you wouldn't be quite so out of step with your generation.

Cynthia, he's doing it now. And then you could just...

get on with getting a job and, working like the rest of us.

He's had a job.

But I'm happy for you.

You know, that you can be so cavalier with your future.

It's a luxury. I think you're doing...

Taking a wonderful... I mean, an excellent choice.

Well, I think, in Edward's defense...

I just think perhaps a little bit more awareness that it is a luxury, rather than...

It's not a luxury, and it's anything but cavalier. a natural thing to do.

Abstraction is a reductive process, a way of simplifying.

Distilling, really.

So, there's no such thing as, really, abstraction, if you like.

And there's no such thing as reality, so...

abstraction is a way of simplifying and distilling the important information...

so you get it home.

You know, you get your intention clear across to the viewer.

And...

Well, actually, most people just want to paint the view, but...

which is a starting point,

but, that's the way I started.

But as you get older, I suppose, you want to say something with it,

so it's a bit of... sort of a strange thing I'm teaching.

I'm teaching very specific, focused, things to do,

and yet I'm also introducing the idea of chaos, as well.

And that's part of this kind of wonderful... well, such a journey.

It's like this two-horse race, galloping off into no-man's land.

Okay.

With these two... with these two horses, I suppose.

And one sometimes gets in front of the other.

But the intention is where... That's the main thing.

What do I want to do? But you need the tools.

I mean, I'm giving your mum... trying to give her as many tools or hooks...

in which to work with as she possibly can.

So... So did we do anything else?

Is it light all night, all day?

Yeah, yeah. A couple of hours it's not,

and it just goes a bit duller.

Can you sleep? I slept out on the ice.

Did you? Yeah.

Goodness me. In a sleeping bag, which is... It was fantastic.

I woke up with all this sort of prism of colors bouncing off all the icebergs.

Yeah. It was just amazing. Oh.

I just thought I wanted to, kind of... You know, a bit like you,

just go somewhere which was...

And do something that I'd never, ever do again.

Or might not do again. Yes. Yes. Yes.

A real adventure. Yeah.

I've got two older sisters.

Yeah. Three girls.

And you're the youngest. I am.

Yeah. Me too.

Yeah, it's tough. It's tough at the bottom.

Yeah, no, they-they...

'Cause they... Yeah. They always used to wind me up so much when I was younger,

'cause they're actually closer in age,

and then there's a sort of gap between me and Chloe, so it's, you know...

Chloe? Yeah.

My girlfriend's called Chloe.

Oh, right. It's a lovely name.

Yeah, so they... they like... they all used to, you know, wind me up,

and, I just fell for it every time.

But, yeah, so lots of cooking... to come.

For them? For them.

I'll get some gruel.

And your mum and dad?

my... Well, my dad died last year.

So, yes, it's just my mum.

So it's actually four girls. I'm so sorry.

Yeah. No, no, it's fine. Hi.

Hi. Would you... Morning.

- Morning. - Are you ready for breakfast?

I'll be up and down, so don't worry. Thank you. Okay.

You're not dressed.

Oh, it'll only take...

Mum didn't sleep well at all. She feels dreadful.

She's wondering about the picnic.

Oh, I can't bear it.

Rose? Yeah?

Could you... I know we talked about soup and other things,

but could you just try and keep the picnic as small as possible?

So simple. Just one basket. Sure. Yeah.

I think if there's less faff and carrying stuff, she might be persuaded.

Oh, can you go up, Edward?

Yeah.

Thank you.

Rose? Yeah?

Did you find, the... both rugs?

No. I've only found one.

The cream one, I couldn't find it.

There's a check one. Oh, right. Okay, you've got...

Here, I'll come and have a look. It's all right.

Mum, you nearly ready?

Hello. Hi.

How are you? Good.

You ready? Yeah.

Hi, Christopher. Good.

Just get my boots on.

Hi. Hi, Cynthia.

Sorry. Sorry, yeah.

Hi. Good day for it, isn't it?

Do you need a hand with anything?

No, I think we're all right.

- Ready to go. - I think that's it.

Here, Edward. Torch.

Great. Thanks.

So it's all ready. Yeah. Think so.

Mum!

So, what have we got?

Just the basics, you know.

Sandwiches, crisps, dips.

Caviar? Yeah. Champagne.

She's brushing her teeth.

Hello. Great.

Hey. All right?

- Yes. - Right. Let's go.

On the road. Here, I'll grab that.

Morning. Hi.

- All right? - After you. Thank you.

You look lovely in that.

I'm worried I've forgotten something. Let me take that.

Well, if we have... You've done all the work. It's fine.

Yeah, as long as you've got the wine.

Yeah, but, you know, I get the blame if something goes wrong.

I'm joking. It'll be fine.

Look after that lunch!

Wait, Edward. Wait.

Wait. I'm hurt.

Can you give me a hand?

I think I've pulled a muscle.

Oh. Okay?

Yeah.

Right. I can't go any further.

She's in the same office as me.

She'll carry on working for a couple of years,

and then settle down and have babies.

It's all rather perfect.

It depends. Some jobs are very...

Do you remember, Christopher?

- You go to the left. - To the left?

Yeah, just follow this... It is, isn't it?

- This path? - Yeah, that'll take us there.

Okay.

It looks like it's clearing up.

Yeah.

It's no wind, I suppose.

I never really was very good at that...

of spotting patterns in... No.

Figures and things.

It's a shame, just...

having been given the opportunity.

It was all pretty set up.

There's an awful lot you can't do when you're doing that kind of work.

Not exactly nourishing.

Pity he couldn't stick at it just for a bit longer.

Must be a bit embarrassing for Dad.

You don't have to be embarrassed for your dad.

It's not going to reflect on him.

Anyone else? Edward?

No, thank you. I'm all right, actually.

You look just like Dad with that on. You do!

How weird. Have I got it on the wrong way round?

No, it's the right way round. Yeah. That's the right way round.

That's the way I wear it.

"I'll bally go and shoot those pheasants!"

"Pull!"

Fuck!

There's a kind of Western fatigue about AIDS, I think, and...

But it's still huge there.

Ever... Ever since the '80s, the mid-'80s,

when people sort of understood what a big deal it was,

and now, in Africa, it's as big a deal as it ever was.

But we just... We got a bit tired of hearing about it.

And it's killing people all the time.

And you don't think it's a lost cause?

No, of course it's not a lost cause.

And you think you're going to make a difference?

Yeah.

If I can stop one... one person, one 13-year-old,

if I can connect with just one person,

and... and he... and he understands what I'm talking about...

and-and-and protects himself against, you know,

using safe sex, then... then I'll have done my job.

You know, I can't... I'm not the president of the U.N.

I can't... There's no policy making... but at least I'm...

I hope I'd be connecting with... with people, you know, on the ground.

How else are you supposed to do it?

Yeah.

Is everybody finished?

Yeah. Thanks. Yeah, I think so.

Can I have this apple? Can I have this apple? Of course you can.

Does anyone else want this apple? Okay.

No more brownies? Are you sure?

I might save some for tea later.

They were that good? They were that good.

I think, in this sort of situation, it's best to just do quick,

Yeah. sort of spontaneous work.

Okay, okay, okay.

Does he like, your... Does he like you painting?

Does he appreciate that aspect?

I think so.

I think he thinks...

if I like it, it's a nice thing.

Yeah. Yeah.

Yeah.

It's a kind of place you can go, isn't it?

You just kind of relax... Yes.

And forget everything. I don't think he gets the full measure of it though.

I don't think...

I don't think Will's very strong on imagination.

He doesn't like to...

give himself up to things like this. Yeah. Yeah.

Well, I suppose he's got other things to think about. Do you understand that?

Hello, darling.

How are you?

Where are you calling from?

Oh.

Well, we're really looking forward to it.

Yes, we really are. We really are.

Marvelous being here with the children.

Yes, they're well, yes.

Edward's full of Africa.

We've done some things. We've been out. The weather's been lovely.

But it would be very nice if you were here with us.

I'm not going to do much blue.

So, you see, if I got rid of those blues there,

then the other colors become, kind of, the blues.

So they exist in relationship to all the other colors,

and they become... they take on a blueness.

It's kind of what I'm trying to do.

To... To approach it more, sort of a...

at a slightly more intriguing tangent.

Understatement.

Yeah.

I quite like that blue. It's kind of... kind of joyous.

Hello, Rose. Hello.

Bit of a breezy afternoon. Yeah. To say the least.

Yes. Right.

Oh, perfect. Here's your delivery of lobsters.

Thank you so much. Yeah.

Great. How much do I owe you? One... One of each.

It's 35, please. Thirty-five.

Male and a female there for you. Oh, really?

Yes.

And how do you tell the difference?

Well, let's have a look.

Here we go.

I've got 40 there. Do you have any change?

We'll sort the change out in a minute. Don't worry.

See, that's a female.

You turn her over.

See the length of the... the shell covering her tail?

Yeah.

It protects her eggs. She carries her eggs down there.

And see, they hide up under the shell there.

Oh, I see. She can carry them in here.

With this male here...

Only just a male. the shell just comes level with the body.

That's the difference. That's the male, that is, and that's the female.

How amazing. Yeah, it's incredible.

And he seems to be a lot smaller than her, as well.

Well, they're the same weight. Really?

Just a slightly different shape. She looks bigger because... She looks wider.

Yeah, well, she's a slightly different shape,

because her shell is much bigger, you see, for carrying the eggs.

Okay. That's why. But in actual fact, they're the same weight.

Okay.

Well, by the time they're cooked, they'll be bright red.

They change color.

What's that noise?

It's just air being released.

Have you done this before?

Not very many times, to be honest.

I'm not that comfortable around them...

'cause I don't really eat, much shellfish, so...

In fact, I don't really eat it at all.

I've had quite strange reactions in the past. So...

Did you do it at Ballymaloe? Yeah, I did.

Oh, God! Oh, my God! That's so...

Scaring me! Sorry.

Oh, my God.

Yeah, we did it at Ballymaloe, and they were much worse than this.

They were, you know... If we put the lid on, they'd be thrashing the lid off,

and the lid would go flying across the room, and they were very, very awake.

And very aggressive.

These... These seem so sleepy.

Well, they've, you know... they've been out of water for a long time, I'd say.

Right. Longer. You know, in Ireland, it was literally like out the sea,

two minutes down the road, they were in our kitchen.

Well, I mean, it's the same here, but it's...

Did you always cook them like that?

Well, this is the way that we were taught, because there's so many different ways.

I mean, you know, it's...

At Ballymaloe, they were really big on, you know,

killing things in the most humane way possible, obviously. Sure.

And so the way that we learned was to put them into sort of tepid water...

you know, sort of warmish... Yeah.

And then bring... as you bring the water up to a boil, or a simmer,

they will automatically fall into a coma, basically.

And then they'll die peacefully. Right.

Rather than, you know, putting them in a thing of boiling water.

Which is like gassing them. Yeah, it's like torturing them.

Yeah. Which is not, you know... not fair.

And none of it's fair, really, but...

It's probably not a conversation you want to have, being a vegetarian.

I just think it might be nice if we asked her to join us.

I can't think of anything worse than have to eat with someone else's family.

I don't think she wants to. Fine. Fine. Fine.

She'd probably prefer to be on her own and talk to her friends.

Yeah. Yeah. I don't... I don't...

Don't you have your own friends? You don't have to make friends with the cook.

Fine. I don't see her talking to her friends, that's all.

She's doing the washing up. Yeah, on her own.

Darling, it's a job. Oh, my God.

It's a job she's taken on for two weeks.

Yeah, but all we have to do is ask her to join us.

We've got a massive table. It wouldn't be a huge thing.

Well, then, go and do it.

Ask her to join us. Ask her, if you like to. That's fine.

She's a very, very sweet girl. It doesn't matter.

She's very sweet. Yeah.

Okay. Rose?

Yeah?

I think Edward's got a bit of a crush. Do you want a hand?

He is so ridiculous. Burning martyr, sort of.

Poor cook. Staff.

He's just got too much empathy.

It's so annoying though. It's always in such a, sort of, accusatory way.

Well...

"Why don't we ask cook to join us?" As though we've... No, we shan't.

That's just Edward.

Thank you, darling. What's just Edward?

Caring about people's feelings. Right.

Clearing the table.

Why are you... No, I think we're all full.

Okay. Yes.

I could have done that. That's... No problem.

God.

It's actually getting quite embarrassing now. I feel sorry for her.

So what do I do now?

We can both do it together.

- You're right. - Would you rather I wasn't here?

He's always trying to make himself...

Now he's got to sort it out there too.

That's the whole point about helping.

Poor girl just wants her bloody wages.

Job's a job. It's a very straightforward thing. Do it.

Go to the pub for a drink or something.

...absolutely delicious.

My dad worked in motor racing.

He was a racing driver, so, yeah.

So that's why we've ended up there, really.

Yeah, so I think we're still very much...

As a family, we're, you know...

I don't know. It's like we've come out... come out of the coma.

Sure. And that... that can be good,

and it can also be bad,

because it's... because it's the realization, you know.

That he's never coming back, sort of thing, and that's the... and that's the...

the... Yeah, I mean, that's the... Sure.

The hardest thing, really.

And, yeah, you just...

You don't really feel anything after it happens for a long time.

because he died in an accident, so it was all very... You know.

You know.

He sort of walked out the door one day and didn't come back.

So... God, yeah.

Yeah. I can't imagine.

Leucospermums, pincushion proteas, that sort of thing,

mixed in with pelargoniums and what have you, you know,

the geraniums with the very fragrant foliage from South Africa.

And what we try to do is to stop things like the Christmas trees getting involved too much.

Also what you get from here is you get these wonderful views out to the sea.

Tops of the trees all showing through and that sort of thing.

And you suddenly realize, then, that, if you can see the sea, the wind can come in.

So everything up here has to really survive through some pretty...

Hello! harsh conditions.

But then it would naturally get that in Table Mountain.

Shall we do the photo? Yeah.

Come and stand here. Be Dad.

Right. Right? Lovely.

Ready?

One, two, three.

Edward, your face is in the sun.

Sorry. I'm squinting?

Okay?

There we go.

Then all the palm trees, these are all related to date palms.

So been here since about 1900.

Right. Well, they don't mind where we sit.

So, what do you think?

It's nice, isn't it? You're so good at this, Cynthia.

Shall we sit here?...

Yeah? Whatever you'd like, darling.

Would you like this? This is good, isn't it, in the middle?

Do you want to look out the window? Let's get this one.

Yeah, nice to have a view, isn't it?

Are you cold? It's looking a bit bleak.

All right, well, where do you want to sit?

Where shall we sit? Anyone?

This one's good, isn't it? Five, isn't it? That's right. Here.

Great. Mum, why don't you go at the head,

and then Christopher,

and I'll sit here, Rose and Edward on the other side.

Is that good?

Great....

Or shall we be more sort of boy, girl, boy, girl?

Maybe we should have Christopher at the head, yeah?

That's good, isn't it? Christopher at the head.

I mean, no, you at the head, Christopher, Edward there.

And then we can sit here. Lovely?

Excellent.

Thanks.

Oops.

You don't look convinced, Mum. What is it?

Sure you don't want to go that one?

All right, okay. Come on. Let's move on to that one.

So much choice. We might as well get it right.

So, fine.

All right?

Okay.

Now the next choice.

So me here?

Yeah. Yeah?

Thank you. There we are.

Thank you very much. You're welcome.

There we go. Thank you.

Okay, enjoy.

Thank you.

Bon appétit.

Quite an urge to start with all the drizzling.

Not yet, thank you.

Pepper, Mum?

Thank you, darling.

This isn't done properly.

It's still really pink. Really?

It shouldn't be like that.

No, it shouldn't be like that all. Oh.

Wait for 25 minutes and then...

Look. Mum, isn't yours bad, Mum?

I-I think mine's fine.

You don't have to say it's fine if it's not.

I mean, we've paid, so we can easily send it back. It's fine.

Mine's definitely not fine, at all.

Well, shall we get somebody over? Yeah.

Because, look. That's actually quite dangerous if you eat it like that, isn't it?

That's... Yeah, I mean, if you're not happy with it, then...

There's just no point in not complaining when you're in a restaurant for the one day out.

Excuse me?

Is your... Everything else is all right, is it? Yeah. The soup's good. Yeah.

You okay there? Hi. No, this isn't, cooked properly in the middle.

Oh. Yeah.

Awfully sorry about that. That's all right.

Would you like me to get you a new one or...

I think I'll just have something else, actually.

Maybe I'll just have a soup.

Because that's actually quite dangerous, I think, if you eat that.

Mum, don't you want to send yours back? It's fine.

You don't have to say it's fine. I'm sending mine back, so...

I've eaten some. It's fine. Fine. All right.

There we are. Thank you very much. Okay, would you...

Soup. Great. Yeah.

Do you think... Actually, could I have a word with the chef?

'Cause that's quite dangerous. Yeah, no problem. I'll just go and get him for you.

Thanks.

You don't have to sit quietly,

and you don't have to look at me like I'm making a massive scene, like how embarrassing.

The cook... It's not cooked properly. It's dangerous.

It would be nice if I didn't sit here with everyone just in silence around me.

Anyway.

Well, I think you've done the right thing.

If you're not happy, you know, you have the right as the customer, so...

Thanks, Rose.

Unfortunately, Mum and Edward are just sort of allergic to any sort of complaining.

Well, you don't want to be ill. No. No.

Mine is delicious. So... Good.

Thank you very much.

I'm sure you've... I'm sure you've done the right thing.

Right, well, thanks for that, Edward. Not a moment too soon.

I hear there's a problem with the meal.

It's just that... It was just that it took a rather long time coming,

and then when it came... I don't know if you've seen it.

But it's not cooked properly in the middle.

Well, guinea fowl is actually served slightly pink, slightly underdone.

It's not like chicken. I wasn't told that when I ordered it, though, was I?

And it's not really terribly good for you.

It was cold and uncooked, almost cold in the middle.

It was cold, was it, as well? Oh, dear.

Mum, are you sure yours is all right, Mum? 'Cause you don't want to get ill.

It's fine. Okay. Fine. Anyway, that's it. It doesn't matter.

Can I get you something else? I've asked the waitress for a bowl of soup.

Have you? Yeah.

Okay, I'll sort that out. I'm sorry about that. That's right. Never mind.

I'll have a word with them, make sure they offer the meat properly next time, okay?

Thanks. Thank you.

Thank you. Thanks.

It's actually rather good.

You can eat your soup, Edward. You don't need to sit there being moody.

Oh, God.

Oh.

Oh.

No, I'm fine.

Where are you? I thought you'd be here by now.

Oh. Hurry up.

Yeah.

Good. Fine. Everything's fine.

Yeah.

She's all right? Shall I get her?

Okay. Bye.

Mum?

Mum, it's Dad.

Will?

Not great.

Just a bit difficult.

It would be much better if you were here.

Well, it's not real, so... Sure.

Sorry. That's all right.

It's not nice.

would you like cereal or toast?

You don't have to make my breakfast.

I'll do... I'll... Let... I'll get... I'll get...

I was...

Okay. That's my job. Left hand, right hand.

I can do it.

What are you looking for?

A spoon.

Big one, small one.

Thanks.

Did you ever play the spoons?

Not on a regular basis, no.

So, what's the plan today?

I have no idea.

I'll wait and see what I'm told to do.

That doesn't sound like fun.

That's how it is.

C.?

Yeah. Morning.

Morning. What time is it?

It's about 8:30.

I thought we were supposed to be on holiday.

Sleep all right? Yeah.

What do you want?

I've brought you a cup of tea. Oh.

Okay.

Do you want to go for a bike ride later?

No.

I've just woken up.

You don't have to decide now.

It was more... It was more of a feeling than a dream.

It was about Dad.

And I was... And C. was there, and...

Anyway, I was... We were in the mountains or something, and I was late.

I was late.

Weird.

Where was Dad?

He was waiting for me.

But I was late.

He was so angry.

Up!

Ay-ay-ay!

Good boy! Come on, you bird.

Come on!

Get up! Get up!

Up! Good boy.

Get up, get up, get up. Get in there. Good boy.

Up, up, up, up.

- Ay-ay! - up!

Good boy, good boy, good boy, good boy. Get on, get on.

Okay. Okay.

Up! Get up, get up, get up.

Up!

Ay-ay-ay! Up, up, up, up.

- Good boy. - up!

Get up.

- Get up. - up!

Good boy. Ay-ay! Ay-ay!

Get up. Get in there. Good boy, good boy, good boy.

- Get on. Get on. - up!

Up, up, up, up, up, up.

Go on, boy. Get up, get up.

Up!

Good boy, good boy. Talking, talking!

Up, up, up, up. Ay-ay.

Ay-ay.

Come here, come here, come here.

Heel, heel. Heel. Good boy.

Heel, heel.

Come back, come back, come back.

Come back.

Come back.

Heel, heel.

- Patricia? - Hello. Hi.

Oh. I'll just come round. One sec. Yeah.

Morning. Hi.

All well? Hi. I'm Rose.

Pleased to meet you. Steve. I'm cooking for the family.

Ideal. I brought you a brace of birds from the shoot the other day.

Yeah, great. I didn't know you were coming.

The family, they've gone for a walk.

No, I've rather sprung it on you. Yes, you have.

I've brought you a nice brace. They've been hung for three days.

Three or four days. So they're ready to pluck really.

They'll be super.

Okay, so, well, you might have to give me some advice,

'cause I've never really... Right.

I've... I've... Actually, I've plucked a duck once,

but I can imagine it's quite similar.

Very similar. Yeah. Yeah.

The good thing about these you don't have the down on them like a duck does,

so it's slightly easier to pluck. Okay.

Basically, what you do is, pull the tail feathers out.

Yeah. Pull the primaries out, on the wing, okay?

And then, basically, from there on, you just pluck it downwards.

Yeah. If you pull upwards,

it tends to rip the skin a wee bit, so be careful of that.

Okay. Pull it downwards into a sack.

So sit down, outside, probably, with the sack open...

and just pull all the feathers into a sack.

Okay. And, And then you'd need to take the head off,

take the legs off and put it in some foil, stick it in the oven.

And what about the guts and everything?

The guts, basically, you draw them out from the back end.

Take the crop off that's inside the chest, basically, you'll find it.

It's a sort of lump there. Right.

Probably be full of corn or food that they've been eating.

Right. Pull that out. Job done.

That's good. Don't forget those white shapes...

behind the object, Patricia.

Yes.

Thank you. Thank you.

Thank you.

There may come a point in the painting where you just need to let it rest,

let it dry a little bit, and then get back into it.

Thanks.

It's great to get this kind of degree of chaos.

'Cause chaos gives ideas...

which you may not have found out...

if you'd tried to control it completely.

Oh, yeah.

Well, that's forever going to be the difficult part for me.

Chaos. Yes.

Controlling chaos. Yes. Yes.

What do you think?

That's better. Yeah, yeah. It's very good.

Hi. Hi.

How you doing? Good. Yeah.

Your family are doing very well.

Well, Christopher's pleased. I think that's the main thing.

Well, it probably isn't the main thing, but...

Hi.

Hi. How are you?

Good.

Okay. Bold now. Think of... Think of the whole.

So do you think it's the artist in you, in a way,

that needs more space than you would have if you had a family?

Well, I don't... I don't know.

I mean, I think it's opportunity...

and your own personality.

And the job that I do possibly have made it more difficult...

than, might otherwise have been.

I kind... I kind of regret it.

But, there's lots of children around in my life,

so it's good. That's good.

Yeah. Keeps me silly.

Yeah. Well, that's... You've hit on something that's very important.

Yeah. Yeah.

Yeah. I think that's one of the benefits.

They keep you young, and they keep you...

a bit silly. Yeah.

Yeah.

I'm not sure Will would agree with that,

but, certainly from my perspective.

It's... It's...

It's such a commitment, though, isn't it? Yeah, it is.

And you've got to be sure that it is something you choose...

Yeah. Yeah. and that you can sustain it.

Well, in the end, of course, you make the decision to have them.

And you have them, and you hope you're doing the right thing.

But then, of course, they do become young people,

and then how could you not have them? Yeah.

Do you see? It sort of has its own imperative somewhere. Yeah.

And it's your family. Yeah.

Certainly wouldn't be without them.

Great. Well, it looks all sort of coming together.

Yeah.

So, we got pheasant? Is that right?

Yeah, local pheasant.

Not shot by Dad though.

Is he a good shot?

Yeah.

Bloody good shot.

Bloody best shot of the season.

Have you eaten yours?

Or sunk. It's sunk, yeah.

Mine's sunk as well.

Good. We're practically brothers.

Okay, lunch is ready if you want to come through.

Great.

Okay. Okay.

Can you manage?

There was this one instance she described...

of a man they called the Night Dancer.

And he went round people's huts and homes,

and... in the middle of the night, completely naked...

and danced on people's... outside their front door or at their window...

and would practice witchcraft on their children.

And they found out who this man was.

And in the light of the next day,

they pulled him into the middle of the central square...

and-and beat him...

and beat him to death, eventually.

And there's no... And as a volunteer,

you can't impose any westernized model of-of-of morality.

You simply have to stand by and watch,

because if you interfere, then they will include you...

in-in his... in his sentence.

And, it sounds absolutely horrifying.

Yeah.

What about Chloe? She must be quite worried about you going away then.

I think she is, yeah.

I-I don't know. I mean... Is she going to visit?

No. She's not allowed to come and visit.

Why is that?

Well, there... Something to do with respect.

If you're there as a western volunteer, then you can't be seen...

You're teaching about sexual reproductive health.

You can't be seen to then be having extramarital sex with someone,

and importing...

It's a respect thing. It's something about dignity.

And if you have to lead by example...

I've got one... I don't know...

I'm seeing her on Wednesday for one night. That's all I've got.

I've but one night to see her before I go away for 11 months.

I don't know what's gonna happen, and...

Are you going to split up?

No, we're not going to split up. All right.

I don't know what we're going to do.

Actually, frankly, it would have been nice...

to have had her here with us, now.

I don't really see why she couldn't have come.

She couldn't really come here, could she?

'Cause it was like a family holiday.

Well, actually, she could have come, Cynthia,

and you may refer to it as a family holiday,

but she actually feels like family to me, in that I'm attached to her...

and she's someone who's significant in my life, and she could have come.

Well, that's not really family, is it?

That's just someone you're attached to,

who you've been out with for a year and a half.

So you think a year and a half is nothing.

I'm going away for 11 months, and a year and a half is...

Well, you obviously think it's nothing...

if you're going away for 11 months.

Can't be the top priority in your life, can it?

The girl's viewpoint.

I don't understand how you can say that.

I don't know what I'm doing anyway.

I have no idea what I am doing.

Am I doing the right thing? I have no idea.

I'm going away to Africa for 11 months. Why? Who knows?

Why am I qualified to teach sexual and general health?

Oh.

Oh. Fucking hell.

All right?

I've got a shot in my thing.

Oh!

That really hurts.

Really, really hurts.

Darling.

So sorry, Christopher.

Edward, would you... would you go and see if she's all right?

Please.

Cynthia!

C.?

C.!

Cynthia?

C.?

Cynthia? What?

C. What?

You don't have to be so angry.

Oh, shut the fuck up!

I'm literally sitting down there,

fucking batty as you guys are talking bloody fucking shit!

And you think I say nothing. You're going to tell me to be quiet.

And why? What is he scared of?

What, that something might happen I could be angry?

You should be fucking angry!

I am angry! Of course I'm angry!

Why are you angry with me?

Because... Because you can't stop...

What have I done? What have I done?

You're so resentful.

I can't fucking take any more of his shit!

Hello.

Hello, Mr. Leighton. How are you?

Yes.

I'll... I'll just give her a shout.

One second.

Mrs. Leighton?

Mrs. Leighton?

Mrs. Leighton?

It's your husband on the phone.

William.

So that's it.

I can't bear this.

No. He'll be with Chloe.

Oh.

I can't bear it.

Yes.

I can't bear it, William.

I really... I really think I'm doing the wrong thing.

Do you? Yeah.

Well, what's the alternatives?

Maybe I could write.

I could write, maybe. Yeah. Yeah.

I write a lot. Yeah.

Somehow.

Yeah.

It's not really what you do.

It's-It's more the intensity by which you do it.

I mean, you just...

By the conviction of your reality that you... you believe in,

you'll make others believe in it.

You kind of can't make it up, really.

And then people get convinced,

and even oneself gets convinced.

But there's no sort of one kind of hidden track,

you know, that's there waiting for you.

It's... You've just got to step into it.

Whatever that is.

It takes... One does all sorts of things with painting.

You do all the things that are not right,

but they all contribute to the thing that will be right in the end.

It's never lost. It's all... It's all accumulating,

all building up in intensity.

But it's... it's not secure, is it?

It's not... It's not solid or anchored.

I'm... I'm just not sure.

You're quite held, aren't you?

You've got to toughen up.

Ed?

Christopher's here.

Edward? Just came to say hello.

A hand.

Watch... Oh.

Is it... Oh, I've cracked it. Sorry.

Do you want me to put that back? Don't put that pin in me.

All right.

Thanks.

It's almost ready.

Where are the others?

I don't know. Upstairs.

Well... Shall I go and...

Are you ready to eat? Sure.

I'll go and tell them it's ready, yeah.

Yeah.

Are you going or not? Yeah.

I can do it. No, I'll go. I'll go.

Hello, Mommy.

I've been a bad badger.

I've been a bad, bad badger.

And I'm sorry.

Will you forgive me?

Rrrrr.

Don't worry. I'll look after you.

Rose says supper's ready.

All right, I'll come down.

You're too scared, aren't you?

You're too scared of having to face up to your own emotions...

than dare to look at somebody else's.

You're so fucking selfish.

I never really imagined that I was going to be bringing up children by myself.

I am doing my best here to make sure...

that Edward has a wonderful trip and a wonderful send-off.

Happy send-off.

And if you don't phone Edward tomorrow to say good-bye,

he will never forgive you either.

And you deserve all of it. You deserve all our hatred.

I hate you!

Lasagna's delicious.

Good.

All right?

Yeah.

He pulled me aside one day and said,

"Christopher, I've been thinking.

I don't think you should go to art school."

And I thought, "Well, what? Why?"

And he said, "I don't think you're tough enough."

So I was completely devastated.

I was quite shy anyway at that... you know, at that age.

And, I just didn't know what that meant, really,

without losing my own, you know, sense of myself, who I was, you know.

I wasn't tough, Mr. kind of leather jacket guy.

I was, you know, Marks & Spencer's Hush Puppies.

But I wanted to paint.

I had something I wanted to do and deeply wanted to do.

And I think he thought that if I went to art school,

that may be bashed out of me.

And, therefore... I should not go,

because that precious thing, that was quite vulnerable anyway.

But it wasn't really vulnerable.

It was there, but it wouldn't have survived,

you know, the criticisms of others.

It would... So...

So I guess being tough is actually holding your course, in some way,

and... believing that thing inside of you...

that's really, really important to you...

even though it's not defined as yet...

and you can't articulate... you can't reveal it to others...

in its full, worldly sense.

But it... it just... it takes a long time to...

to, in a sense, fully come to that point.

Others... For a lot of people, it's quick.

But for me it's taken a long time, which I'm kind of glad...

because it means that I... I know the angles a bit more.

Now, if you were doing what I'm doing now,

would you... would you... would you be wanting to do...

to respond to this in lots of different ways at the same time,

or would you... would you stick to an idea or a...

a theme, I supposed I mean.

Well, I guess it has a certain amount of energy, so...

Yeah. I would start with observing it...

in a very general sense. Right.

Not committing to little rocks and waves,

but go for,

the overall color sequences, really, the keynotes...

and then that would produce the sort of basic mood.

It's beautiful, because you've got this sort of violety-gray clouds,

and that moves into the blues and the...

And then, in opposition to that,

you've got a slightly orangey-violety orange...

violet coming through the orange.

So there's a link there.

And then you've got this beautiful...

sort of Royal Doulton cup-and-saucer green...

that sort of silvery green. Yes. Absolutely.

It is such a beautiful sort of...

Well, it's symbolic of a place, and so...

Yeah. Yeah, it is.

That's my limit.

And when's the next exhibition going to be?

Well, it's, I don't know. But it's come from New York.

So... Oh, yes.

But it's early January.

Hi. Cynthia. Christopher's here to say good-bye.

Where's Ed? I think he's upstairs.

Edward. Yeah.

Christopher's here to say good-bye.

Hello. Hello, Cynthia.

Good-bye. Good-bye.

Thank you for everything. See you soon, I hope.

How much longer are you here for? Friday.

Oh. Be at my hilltop cottage.

Yeah. Yeah.

Good-bye, Ed.

This is it. Bon courage. Thank you.

I'll write you a letter or something. That would be great.

Bye-bye, Patricia. I'll see you out.

All right. Thank you.

Have a safe journey.

Bye. Bye.

Bye, Christopher. See you.

Thank you for everything.

Keep the good work up. Certainly will.

I'll call you in a couple of weeks. All right.

Bye.

As I can't communicate with you much,

I'm going to write little notes and put them in a little book.

And then send it to me?

Well, I was thinking of keeping it until you got back.

Why? I don't know.

I keep thinking I can't send anything.

But if you write it, then you can't...

Why don't you put them in the book and then send it to me?

Okay. Like a book of post-it notes.

Okay. Or maybe I could just send each post-it note.

Yeah, okay. Yeah. Yeah.

What, like, "Went to... Went to this exhibition"? Yeah.

"Went to the theater." "Went shopping." "Bought bananas."

"Fed the cat." "Fed the cat."

Okay. Yeah.

I'll do all that. All right.

Yeah. Be nice.

You will get them?

At some point. Okay.

Okay.

How does it look?

Is that straight?

Sorry. Tiny bit down on the right. Tiny.

Doesn't want to, does it?

- It's all right though. - It's fine.

No, it doesn't. You're right.

Feels smaller in here with that up.

Yes, it does.

It still doesn't look straight.

The ceilings in here are wonky, though, right?

That's right. It's not just me. No.

What you doing, Mum?

Just gathering.

A few books, a few papers.

Don't want to leave anything behind.

Oh, I've got one of your books.

Oh, have you? I'll give it back to you.

Which one? The Boyd.

Oh, great. Did you enjoy it?

I've barely started it.

You can read it on the train.

Yeah. Yeah.

Okay.

Morning. Housekeeping.

Hello? Hello.

Hello. We'll be right down.

What have you got in here?

Oh, I'm so sorry. Hello.

Okay. Okay.

I'm sorry.

Okay.

Cynthia? Yeah.

Could you have a check in the kitchen for chargers and things like that?

Okay.

Okay. Quickly.

It's for you. What?

All clear.

Can you make sure you put these cases to one side...

- '- cause they're headed for the boat. - Yeah.

- Thank you. - God, that's heavy.

Okay.

Yeah, I think that's it.

Thanks!

Bye.

Just grab my bag. Great.

Good-bye! Thank you!

Bye! Thank you!

Bye, house.