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[rumbling]

[echoing tones]

[SYnth chord]

[echoing crowd chattering]

[interviewer] You ever get
nervous before the shows?

[chuckles]
Nervous before the shows?

I don't think it's nervous,

it's just like anxiety,
so to speak,

but not in a stressful way.

It's like me getting
ready, prepared,

so it's just like, I'm
thinking about every moment,

every step, and every second,
so it's just like,

okay, cool, let's go out
there and do our thing.

Some nights are stronger
than other nights,

some nights I'm just
confident and just having fun,

but some nights, it's like,
I got a point to prove,

show them why I need
to be doing this.

You know, it's disappointing
for me in certain ways,

because I feel like, you know,

certain aspects of
my career sometimes

are overshadowed by
the negative stuff.

So, it's like, it kind of like,
fucks with my head a lot.

Now, how I transition
my creativity,

it's basically all I wanna
kind of show, you know,

'cause I'm tired
of giving people

something to talk
about, you know.

They should be talking
about how

I'm the baddest motherfucker

on the stage instead of--
[chuckles]

You know, I'm the baddest
motherfucker in the courtroom.

You know what I'm saying?

I just try to keep a level head,

whether whatever
problems going on,

like, everybody goes
through their shit,

I go through my shit
most of the time.

You know, I got a problem
everyday, but it's like,

I try to just keep
my head on straight,

and I kind of channel
some of that energy,

if I'm angry, if I'm
upset about something,

I take it out on the stage.

[booming]

♪ Swear to God I'm moving on ♪

[interviewer] Standing here
with a guy right now

that knows everyone
on the red carpet,

and everybody wants
to work with him.

It's been a blessing, I just,

I just can't do nothing
but thank all of my fans,

I just appreciate all the
support, it's been incredible.

I I ain't goin' back no more,
I ain't goin' back no more

[vocalizing]
I I ain't goin' back no more

And the winner is,
Chris Brown.

[Chris] I just wanna say,
thank all the fans,

I love you with all my heart.

[interviewer] You're 23 years
old, I mentioned you came out

with your first music when
you were 16,

you were discovered at 13.

Oprah}
Chris Brown riding high,

brand new CD out,
F.A.M.E., it's out today,

already has three
number one hits,

a fourth one
climbing the charts.

reporter} He's been
labeled hip hop's bad boy.

[male reporter] Chris Brown is

accused of assault and battery.

[female reporter]
The alleged fight broke out

inside a Lamborghini
that was located...

[interviewer] I'm gonna tell
you something,

let me be honest.

I was disappointed,
almost felt let down,

because I said,
this kid could be

the great superstar.

He was sentenced to
five years of probation,

and 180 days
of community labor.

[Rihanna]
I lost my best friend,

everything I knew switched.

[female reporter]
Brown reportedly

used a chair to smash a window

-in his dressing room.

- I guess he's not
a morning person.

Interviewer} How are you
different?

Chris} I've been humbled

by the whole experience,
from me losing everything,

most importantly, knowing that
what I did was totally wrong.

[interviewer] It's also been
said

people like comeback stories.

For me, it's about
proving myself to my fans.

I You put me on layaway

J" You just like to heart shop

r I think that it's over

r I think that it's over

I I swear to God
I'm moving on

I come from a small town,
Tappahannock, Virginia.

As you see me
throughout my journey,

I was about 15 when I started.

A' Oh, tell me fellas
have you seen her

♪ It was about
five minutes ago ♪

It was a good start for me as a,

as a kid, to be able to kind
of start off green, in a way.

Chris was very, very active

at a very early age, probably
one, before he was walking.

He started out in child care,

'cause I run a
child care center,

and he was probably
one of the most active

child in the facility itself.

Since he was, like, two,

he wanted to look at
Michael Jackson videos

and dance, I mean,
he could come to my house

and get in between the
doorways and actually

climb them and do
backflips, you know, so,

he was always full of
energy, all the time.

He would go over
to relatives' houses,

and when that happened nobody
wanted him to spend the night,

'cause Chris was
jumping from bed to bed.

I was a fan of
Michael Jackson's

all my life, of course,

so he would sit in
front of the TV,

he would try to mimic his moves.

Being able to see stuff on TV,

whether it be my idol,
Michael Jackson,

or anybody that I looked up
to at the time, you know,

I'd be able to try to
put myself in that world.

I just tried to always
look at it like,

"okay, I could do that,"
you know,

being from a small town
where there's not too many

opportunities, but have
that mentality to try

to push forward and be
something bigger and greater.

In school, he liked to be

the center of
attraction. [laughs]

You know, it was
a cool upbringing,

real country, high school
of about maybe 500 kids,

my graduating class
was probably about 30.

Chris was a haPPY
go lucky type of kid,

was always smiling, always
moving around, dancing.

Every now and then, you might
catch him over there singing,

even on the basketball
court he was somewhat,

I guess you could say creative,

and always moving and
had different moves

than the other kids.

[Joyce] I used to go to
all of his games,

he used to show off a lot.

He's like, doing his
moves on the court,

and I'm like, are we
playing ball here or what?

He was really artistic,
he loved to draw.

They were mostly
drawing assignments,

and he was very good with
the drawing, shading,

and detail, and also
with the coloring.

He missed some time
basically because his,

I guess the routines
he was going through.

With my mom, she was
a supporter from day one

with my music, and my dad,
you know, he was there too,

he actually first taught me
how to moonwalk.

He used to just do it on
gravel one day, and I was like,

man, how did he do that.

[Joyce] He was a kid,
just acting out what he saw.

But he actually sung on
church choirs at a early age.

[Christine]
He was good at everything,

whether he played
basketball or football.

He had his own style.

He might not have always
had the means to have,

like, the best of
everything, because,

you know, times are hard.

But he would take older
clothes, rip them up,

tie them back a certain way,

adjust them and
make his own style.

He would dye his hair red.

And then he would go to
school, then he'd sing,

like at basketball
games or football games,

and all the girls
would crowd around him,

so, he really enjoyed that.

I hate performing when
there ain't no girls!

When there ain't no girls
it just takes the life

out the performance,
'cause you can't just--

[inhaling sharply]

[girls screaming]

Well, my success,
I would have to give it all

to my family, you know,

I think our values
as family members,

and whether it be your mom
or your dad, cousins, uncles,

aunts, grandma and grandpa,

I think everybody had
a real warm and humble

approach at life.

See, see, how she, you know she,

you know she's really
feeling what you're saying

when she laugh like that.

[mimicing wheezy laughter]

Listen, listen, listen,
look at her! Caught her!

[Christine] Chris's mom, she's
very supportive of his career.

From the beginning she
always believed in him.

She's actually the one
that said, you can sing!

We“, his father worked
at the gas station,

there was a guy came by

and he said he was looking for
some talent,

and his father said

well, you know, my son sings.

It was something that I knew
that he was just interested in,

so I just went with the flow.

She pretty much dropped it and

went to New York to be with him.

[Joyce] From there,
they did a little video,

and the video got into
the hands of L.A. Reid,

and L.A. Reid saw it and
fell in love with him.

[Usher] When I heard about
Chris,

L.A. Reid wanted my influence,

and he said, you know, I
really wish that you could

have a conversation with Chris.

I mean, you tell him
what you wanna tell him,

as long as you tell
him to come with me.

[interviewer] Tell me about
the phone call from Usher,

that was a little crazy.

Yeah, I mean, it was exciting,

because, like, I never
talked to a celebrity before.

[interviewer]
Yeah?

But, like, it
was my first time,

he called me, and he
was like, what's up?

And I was like, who is this?

He's like, oh, Usher,
I was like, oh, word?

I told him to make his
decision where he goes

based off of what's
real more than anything.

You gotta rock with family.

So he was like, "Yeah, man,
I hear you about to get signed

with a different label.

I was just asking him,
like, who should I go with?

And he was like, just make sure
it's the best decision for you,

whatever decision you pick,

and whatever decision you make

is the best for you.

That was our first
conversation, across the board.

It started from there.

["Run It" by Chris Brown]

His fame came instant, you
know, it came all at once.

He was discovered at the
age of 13 at a gas station

where his father worked,

now he is a platinum
recording artist.

Ladies and gentlemen,
Chris Brown.

Being able to maneuver
at 15 and try to, you know,

and having the success that
I did have at the time,

I was like, man, this is crazy.

When "Run It" came out, I heard
him screaming all the way out,

Mom, Mom, my song
is on the radio!

["Run It" by Chris Brown]

[DJ Khaled] I remember meeting
Chris Brown for the first time

in Miami, we just got
done recording "Run It,"

and as soon as it got
done out the studio,

it got in my hands and
I went on the radio

and broke it, helped
break that record,

it was a record I believed in,

I knew he was gonna
be the next superstar

the day I met him.

I remember the first time
Chris Brown came on 106 & Park.

I saw people lined up all
the way down the block,

and I didn't know, I thought
some kind of fire drill

was taking place

or something like that,

and as I got closer,
I just, you know,

and I saw all those kids,
and then I looked,

and I saw they had spray
paint on the t-shirts and,

you know, the signs that
said marry me, Breezy,

I love you, Breezy,
Chris Brown for life,

and I was like,
what is going on!

It was fun, but also
I'm sure it was very stressful,

because he couldn't
just walk into the store

and go shopping and just go
play basketball at the gym

like he used to.

It wasn't the same anymore.
He didn't understand that,

because he figured he could
just go, and he'd be fine.

I'm a normal kid,
I'm just Chris,

I'm like, no, it doesn't
work that way anymore.

Well, you know, being 14
and 15 with a record deal,

you know, it's the best
feeling in the world,

but it also comes with
complications, you know.

[Jamie] I think it's tough for
anybody

to start out at 14, 15,

'cause you ain't
went to high school,

you ain't had a chance to
like, just live a regular life,

you've already been a star, so
a lot of that's overwhelming.

[Chris] Being that, most of
your family

have dealt with poverty,

and under minimum wage kind
of living most of your life,

$10,000 to me was like,
dang, I'm rich, you know?

My son calls me, I'm at work,

and he goes, Mom,
like, you know,

there's people outside
our door recording

and taking pictures,
from paparazzi to,

even people you knew just made
it different and difficult

having a normal life.

I just was more
overwhelmed by--

but just not letting
it shape me like,

not letting the
money kind of shape

what I wanna do as an artist,

like with every family
you had problems

and complications, you know.

Sometimes jealousy and
envy plays a big role.

It's kind of new to them,

it's not really something
that even myself

really could
comprehend at the time.

His mom and dad, they
had a great relationship,

and one day I guess they
were all together home

as a family and then it,
you know, it fell apart.

Chris not having a
father in the house

made him to grow up faster
than what he actually had to.

It was a lot, it was more than
I knew that he could handle.

[Jamie] What I always called
it is, is I'd tell Chris,

it's God's balance,

God is gonna give you
that great opportunity

to be something fantastic,
and then at the same time,

he's gonna level
darkness around you

that's gonna keep you balanced.

So, with a person that's 14, 15,

hopefully they have
someone there to recognize

the dark patches, and say,
"okay, yeah, we can do this,

but you just gotta
be mindful of that. "

[Joyce] Yeah, it was a
challenge, and this growing up

thinking that he was
in this adult world,

and thinking that he could
deal with the adults, too,

but no, just because
it's there for you,

you're not gonna do that,
that is not what you do.

For me, having my mother
there created a balance,

and I think it was a bit
difficult, period, for him.

[interviewer]
You sound very driven.

- Yeah, definitely.
- Yeah.

- You live with your mom, right?
- Yeah.

I think he felt that he
had to take care of me.

I gotta take care of my mom
because my dad is not there,

I'm the dad of the house,

or he felt that he was
the man of the house,

that's how he thought, and
that's actually what he said.

Your family you expect
to be your family.

So, even family sometimes,
you know, change, and.

At that point,
it was kind of hard,

'cause Chris was back and
forth with me and his father.

Um... and it was hard for his
father because I had left.

He grew up so fast
he didn't really get to have

a childhood or a teenage
life of a normal person.

I actually wanted him
to actually speak

to a psychiatrist

to just prepare him

for what was about to happen,

because he blew up so fast,

knowing that he would not
know how to handle it,

so that he could talk about
it, and how it made him feel,

but we never could
get him to do that.

I wanna be at
the pinnacle, like,

the highest point to
where I'm known as like,

a legend, almost.

Two years ago, this artist
was just another kid

in high school.

Now, two years later,

he's one of the biggest
stars in the world.

Tonight, performing at the
VMAs for the very first time,

Chris Brown.

[audience screaming]

[rap music beat]

Chris}
I was backstage and my,

my dancer, he ran in,
Moody, he was like,

"yo, you gotta see him,
he's on stage right now,

he's crazy," and I was like,
"I'm coming, I'm coming."

And out of nowhere, I heard
this groundswell of, like,

hysteria, you know what
I'm saying, like, these,

it was just loud, it was loud
as it was when I was on stage.

[audience screaming]

So I ran out there, and
there he was, killing it.

Then I realized, "oh my God,

he is truly gifted,
he's talented, man,"

in a way that we haven't seen

in a long, long time, you know.

He has a gift of, a gift
like Michael Jackson had,

that makes you scratch
your head and say,

what else is he doing, because
I've seen these steps before,

I've seen these moves before,

but what else
is Chris Brown doing?

♪ Coming from wall to wall ♪

When I got in the game,
I kind of was like,

I wouldn't say alone,
but I was, like,

to myself I had to prove myself.

People wanted to be
like, "okay, well, cool,

what is this kid about,
or what can he do?"

[man] Chris Brown
is in the building.

I remember Chris's first
BET Awards performance.

[Terrence] I remember he came
out with that white jacket,

I think I was
backstage at the time,

I had to present shortly after,

and I just remembered
hearing the rumbling,

and so we went, we're
looking at the monitor,

and we're just
watching this kid,

we're watching him kill it.

This dude is really,
really special.

I knew he was special,

but I didn't realize how
incredible the dancing

was until that day.

And I feel blessed to have him.

Really showed the
best of Chris's ability

to sing and dance
and win over a crowd.

Only person having
star power like that

is Michael Jackson.

There's Michael Jackson,
and there's Chris Brown.

And that's just facts.

Just like Michael Jackson
opened the door for Usher,

I believe that Usher
opened the door for Chris.

For any person,
African-American artists period,

to have come up in that
time and be successful,

and have that very delicate
mixture of being a singer,

dancer, performer, entertainer,

man, it was hard.

[Terrence] He was a trailblazer,
he was setting a tone.

You know, there was a shift
in how things were sounding,

and there was this shift
that was happening from,

you know, the grungey street
sound to how rap was just

so hard, to how hip-hop and
R&B and everything was like,

turning into more
dance, and more fun.

When I first
heard Chris's sound,

I was definitely, I just
remember, it was like,

kids just getting always
down, like on the streets,

and doing all these
beatbox dances, and, like,

I'm not a dancer, but I
definitely was dancing,

and I think what Chris
started was kind of like

that confidence boost in,
not only males,

but I think in females too,

and I think he paid
a lot of respect

to the dancer community.

I just remember seeing
this young, fresh face,

a kid, like he was about
to take over the world

in so many ways.

[interviewer] 'Cause it
seems like this whole thing

just happened so quickly,
like, how does it seem for you?

It just, it's just a blessing,

it's been going real,
real fast,

everything's happening
just so fast.

I was excited for him,
he was so excited.

But after that, I guess
he blew up instantly,

we was on a tour, we went here,
we went there,

everything was-- and he was
so excited and so happy

in the music industry
at that time.

Woman} Chris Brown?
- What's up?

woman} Chris Brown?
- Yeah.

-[woman] Hi.
- Hey!

-[group laughing]
- It's your boy Chris Brown, man,

you gotta run a siren on it,
man, you gonna have to drop it,

you gonna have to do
the dang thing on it, man,

you ought to know
how you do it,

on Power 106,
where hip-hop lives.

R I gotta give
her game proper

I Spit it so she get it

♪ There she is,
I gotta stop her ♪

Yo. [laughs]

["Yo (Excuse Me Miss)"
by Chris Brown]

I Or what about her style?

♪ I'm outta time,
she's at the door ♪

♪ I gotta go for mine... ♪

Once I got an opportunity
to continuously make music,

and be creative, and dance,
and show people my talents,

I think that
overpowered everything

as a whole, I think,
people kind of saw it,

and kind of took it
for what it was worth,

and it was like, "oh you
know what, this guy is,

is really talented,
I think he has potential,

I think he can do his thing."

[Usher] What he was able to
do as a performer was

kind of effortless in the
way that he performed.

I don't know if it was
just his passion for it,

or the fact that
he was well-studied,

or just the simple fact
that he just knew where

to put every move, it was
just perfectly placed,

he knew his choreography,
he was well prepared, man.

But greater than just
understanding choreography,

he understood the magic
of singing and dancing,

and that right there
is a technique that not

every artist understands,

it takes a lot of
hard work and focus,

and as a teenager, for him
to be able to do that,

I just knew that
this kid definitely

is headed for major success.

Performing a fun new anthem,
Chris Brown!

I think he definitely helped
take kind of R&B and hip-hop

and make it more
popular, for sure,

make it more pop, and more
radio, and just more Top 40.

He definitely has his kind
of finger on the pulse

of the sound of the streets.

There's lots of great singers,

there's amazing,
great artists out there,

but not everybody sings
and dances and performs

on a level like a
Chris Brown does.

[Terrence]
Team Breezy, they go hard.

You know, they were crazy.

Any time we had like a,
any time you had a video,

it was always voted number
one, any time there was like,

any type of competition
between him and other artists,

he would kind of always blow
people out of the water.

I just try to put 100%
into everything I do,

my music, you know, what I'm
doing as an everyday person,

so, you know, I just wanna
influence and inspire

the world just to
be better, you know.

Hopefully be better
with my music.

He had this energy
about him that was unreal.

Like, he was nonstop,
every song he played,

he had a different idea for
it, he had the video for it.

["Gimme That" by Chris Brown]

What I loved the most
about Chris is his presence.

His presence really stands out.

You know, I mean, you know that
thing when people are like,

they're just superstars?

Chris is just a superstar.

Standing here with a guy
right now that knows everyone

on the red carpet and everybody
wants to work with him.

He's got three
nominations tonight,

of course, Chris Brown,
how you doing, buddy?

I'm good, man, how
about yourself, you good?

Are you kidding me,
hanging out with you guys?

A great year for you.

Yeah, it's been a blessing,

I just can't do nothing
but thank all my fans,

I just appreciate all the
support, it's been incredible.

And the winner is
Chris Brown.

[audience screaming]

[inspirational piano music]

I'm gonna try
to keep it short,

they got the countdown
on the prompter, so,

I'm kind of, totally, I would
have given it to Coldplay,

but, I'm really,
I'm lost for words,

I just wanna say,
thank all the fans,

'cause I love you with
all my heart, I just--

Thank you.

You know, I went from
being on top of the world,

number one songs,
and, you know,

being kind of like America's
sweetheart, you know,

to being public enemy
number one.

[booming]

[creaking]

[high-pitched tone
reverberating]

[female reporter] Prosecutors
have charged

singer Chris Brown with
two felonies,

including assault...

[female reporter 2] Allegations
of domestic violence.

[female reporter 3] Has damaged
his squeaky clean image.

[male reporter] Allegations
turned more serious,

much more violent.

Grammy Award nominee
has just posted bail

on criminal threat charges.

[Chris] I think I was about 15

the first time we actually met.

It was a at show,
I think a Z100 show,

in New York, and we were,
I'd been hearing her,

like, her music and stuff,
from, you know, the radio,

it was a big number one hit.
And I was just sitting there,

I was like, man,

okay, cool, I wanna see what
she look like,

I wanna meet her,

I seen her videos,
I know she cute.

So, you know, I saw
her at the showing,

and she was like, hey,
what's up, how are you doing?

She had an accent, I was
like, never heard that before,

that kind of sound good,
you know what I'm saying,

so I said, you know what,
let me talk to her,

and see what she talking about,
just to be cool with her,

we exchanged information
and stuff like that,

and through passing
we would be on the same shows.

She would always,
like, would perform,

and then would go
sit in the crowd.

She watched my show, so I was,
like, nervous,

I was like, did she like me,

I didn't know if she'd like me
or not, but I was just like,

she really watching the shows,

so she actually
must like my music.

So, from then on
we just became friends,

and friends kick it more,
we'll kick it,

nothing too serious, but
we just had, you know,

a good understanding
of each other.

What's all these dating
rumors, Chris, yes, no?

I would just keep it as just,

we just doing our thing,
just having fun.

And just one day I remember,
it was like,

right before our
VMA performance,

me and her did the VMA
performance, my first ever one,

and it was a couple
months before that,

and I remember staying
over at her house,

and I was just looking,
like, "Man, what are we doing?"

She was just like,
"What you mean?"

I was like, "I'm always
over here, like,

we like each other, obviously.

Let's just,
let's just do it," I said,

"Let's be boyfriend
and girlfriend."

She's talking like,
"You ain't serious.

I don't think
you wanna do that."

I was like, "Why?"

She said, "No, no,
you ain't ready."

And I was like, "No, I am,
I think I'm ready, for real."

And so then I was like,
I remember, I was like,

I think I love you.
She was like,

she was looking
at me like, "What?"

Like, did I say the word?

You know, so.

You know, at that time
when we did the VMAs,

it was more like we kept
our relationship secret,

so we had been together
for maybe like,

I wanna say eight months prior.

So, we just
kept it to ourselves.

We didn't want
everybody to know,

we just wanted to,
you know, just to be like,

if they guess it, they guess it,
but right now,

we love each other, so,

I really don't care about
everybody else.

So, we did the show,

and it was like that moment
when you got a chance

to say, okay, yeah, they're
dating, they're talking.

At that moment, she had, like,

the biggest records out,
like, was going crazy,

and me, I still was going
strong with all my records

and new stuff, and we got
a chance to do that show,

it was kind of like both of us
being able to show the world

like, heY:

we both are dual
talented artists,

and we both are gonna
make a mark in this world.

It was like a fairytale.
[laughs]

[Terrence] To see Rihanna
and Chris

when they first
started dating,

it was magical, you know,
and those two,

they were kind
of inseparable, you know,

you would hear about
them being in the studio,

you would hear them coming
into the club together,

and it was just,
it was just an energy.

At that time in our career,
being that young,

being naive, gullible,
but also just happy,

just wanting to be
everywhere, I mean,

there was no other
feeling like it.

But what hurt with my
Rih, it was just like,

our power that we had at
that age, it was just,

it's dangerous, man, like
you couldn't go anywhere,

like, we couldn't go to a hotel

and not have 100,000
fans outside waiting.

You know what I'm saying,
we couldn't go to any

restaurant and just eat.

Like real life rock stars
at 16 and 17 years old,

that's dangerous, because you
could do whatever you want.

I just think we were
like the perfect,

like, and bad combination, like,

it was just good and
bad together, just, ah!

I wanna say maybe a year and
a half into the relationship

with Rihanna I just, I really
was serious about it, like,

you know, I was always
goofy about everything else

being a young kid, but,
the maturity level I had,

and my beliefs of what I
wanted and my girlfriend,

you know, I wanna
marry you, but I want,

before we go any further,

I just want to be able to
be honest and be completely

real with you about everything
you've ever had a question

about or a doubt about.

She had asked me, like, when
we first started dating,

"Have you ever messed
with this person?"

And this person, she
worked for me at the time,

and I said, "Nah, nah, nah,
man, you know how it is,

they just..." I brushed
it to the side.

One, I didn't want her
knowing my business,

two, I just didn't
know who she would tell

if I tell her what I'm doing,
you know what I'm saying, so,

around the eighth month
or maybe like a little bit

after that VMA performance,
I just broke it to her,

I said, "Hey, I wanna marry you,
but I wanna be real with you,

I wanna be honest with you
and tell you, you know,

everything, this is what it is.

Before we were together,

me and this other
girl did have sex."

My trust totally
was lost with her,

you know what I'm saying,
she hated me after that,

I tried everything,
like, she didn't care.

She just didn't
trust me after that.

From there, it just went
downhill, because, you know,

there would be fights,
there would be verbal fights,

physical fights as well,
mutual sides,

and this is the first time
I get to say anything,

and, like I said, I still
love Rihanna, but it's,

I'm just gonna be honest.

We would fight each other,

she would hit me,
I would hit her.

And it never was okay,

it was always a point to
where we'd talk about it,

like, "Yo, what the
fuck are we doing?

Like, I don't like that, I
don't like you slapping me."

If I go onstage, I got
a scratch on my face,

and I gotta explain it,
like, "oh no, I fell,"

or, like, "Or you, if you
got a scar or a bruise,

you gotta put makeup on it,
I feel like shit."

I'm not, like,
I'm not ever trying

to put my hands on any female.

Anger or whatever, you have to
walk away from the situation.

Never, ever,
put your hands on anyone.

Yeah, that was his girl,
you know what I'm saying, so,

I feel like, you know,
what he went through,

it was like a test,

and it wasn't so much
of the situation,

I think it was just a test
in life.

[Mike] I was just like Chris,
I was very successful

at a young age,

and when you're
really successful,

I was taught that can't should
be a foreign language to you.

A no should be a
foreign language to you,

you shouldn't be able to
understand the language

of "No," or "You can't."

Like, me, I felt
like a fucking monster.

[female reporter] 20 year old
pop star Rihanna is the woman

involved in the alleged
domestic violence assault case.

[Rihanna] I lost
my best friend,

like, everything
I knew switched,

and I couldn't control that.

So, I had to deal with
that, and that's not,

that's not easy
for me to understand.

[Chris] Several years ago
when I was about 17, 18,

you know, the whole
Rihanna incident happened,

and a lot of that,
that changed my life.

That night at that
Clive Davis party,

and 1 made sure the person that
I was involved with before,

I said, "Hey, you can't come
around to these places,"

and the person comes in.

Comes right to the table,
say, hey, what's up y'all,

and I already knew it's
an issue, so I say,

"Hey, cool, and they keep it
moving and leave,"

I look over to Rihanna,
and she's bawling,

she's just crying in the middle,

the ceremony's about to start
and she's just crying,

and I'm like,
"Yo, v0, v0, v0, v0, v0,

please, please babe,
don't do this,

like, don't do
this in here, like,

I didn't know what
her problem is,

I swear to God, I didn't know."

So, she got over it, she
started drinking a little bit,

we both were drinking
a little bit.

We was tipsy, laughing,

joking, you know,
and then we left.

[female reporter] And while
just a few hours ago,

we saw Chris Brown drive off.

According to sources,
the alleged fight broke out

inside a Lamborghini that
was located at Hancock Park.

[Chris] As you know,
young relationships,

any relationships, it's based
on trust,

but because I told her that,

she didn't trust me
with any of that.

So, I would give her
the option that,

"Oh, you can look at my phone."

So I gave her the phone,
she looks at the phone,

and there's a message,
and it says,

"Kill the Grammys,
do your thing,"

and I didn't read the rest of
the message, I didn't open it.

So she opened the message, and
the rest of the message said,

"I'll see you
at the Clive party."

So, all the time
she thought I was lying.

She starts going off,
she throws the phone,

"I hate you, whatever,
whatever,"

starts hitting me,
we're in a little Lamborghini.

You know, she's fighting me,
and I'm like, "Look,

I'm telling you the truth,
I swear to God,

you know, I'm telling
you the truth, stop it."

So then she hits me
a couple more times,

and I just, kind of just, it
doesn't go from translation to,

"Let's sit down,
I'm telling you the truth,"

it goes to now I'm fixing
to be mean, and be evil,

arguing and arguing and arguing.

So then, like, I remember
she tried to kick me,

'cause like, just
her just being upset,

but then, I really hit her.

Like, with a closed fist,
like, I punched her.

You know, and it busted
her lip, and when I saw it,

I was in shock,
I was like, "Fuck,

why the hell did I hit her?"

So, from there, she just
spit in my face, like,

spit the blood on my face,
and I'm like, "Yo,"

so it enraged me
even more, like,

it's a real on fight in a car,
we driving in the street.

So I'm like, "Yo, hey,
we tripping, what the fuck,

like, what are we doing?"

She's trying to
grab for my phone,

and I'm not giving her my phone

to throw it out of the window.

So, she grabs my nuts,
and when she do that,

I actually, I bite her arm,
I think, as I'm driving,

'cause I'm still
trying to drive.

It's just like a petty,
stupid fight going on,

like, and I'm just realizing it,

I'm like, "What the
hell am I doing, bro?

Like, are you honestly doing
this in a car right now?

Like, what are we doing?"

So I pull over in Hancock Park,

maybe less than two, three
miles from her house,

and I'm just trying to
resolve the situation,

I'm not trying to
fight any further,

I don't wanna, like, I love her,

I don't wanna hurt
my girlfriend.

And so, I pull over,
and I said, "Look, like,

I'm telling you the truth,"
like, I'm crying, she's crying.

I'm like, "I'm telling you
the truth, I swear to God,

I didn't do it, I didn't
know she was fucking coming,

I didn't know, I promise."

She just didn't
believe me, like, she,

I just know you lying
to me, lying to me.

So she takes the keys out
of the car, I'm in park,

she takes the keys out
of the car and fakes

like she throws
them out the window.

I'm like, "What are you doing?"
And I get out the car.

When I got out the car,
I'm looking for the keys,

in somebody's yard,

and she yells out,
out her door,

"Help, he's trying to kill me."

I said "Stop, like,
we're gonna get in trouble."

So, I'm looking for the keys,
she's sitting on the keys.

So I'm like, "You know what, I
can't play this game with you."

I'm getting my bags out of
the car, she takes my CDs,

this is back when I
would record on CDs,

you couldn't put on your phone
when you're in the studio.

So I had new music, and she
was just scratching it up,

I just seen her scratching
it up with the keys.

So, I saw her, I just
snatched the bag,

and I was like, "You know what,

you got the keys,
you can drive home."

By this time her lip was busted,

she had a knot 'cause
I pushed her head

up against the window.

And, and...

you know, a lot of
the times, like,

I look back at the picture,
and I'm just like,

"Yo, bro, like,

that's not me, bro, that's not,
that's not me," like...

I just, I hate it to this day,

you know what I'm saying,
that's gonna haunt me forever.

Rihanna}
I was hurt the most.

Nobody felt what I felt,
it happened, it happened to me.

And it happened to me
in front of the world,

it was embarrassing, it was
humiliating, it was hurtful,

you know, it's not easy.

[male reporter]Chris Brown is
accused of assault and battery.

Larry King] You're a
great dancer, a great singer,

you're popular and known
all over the world,

do you ever say to yourself,

"I screwed up"?

Can remember the night when
he called me and was in L.A.,

the incident had happened,

and he said, Mom, please come,

I just did something really bad.

Like, oh my God, what is it?

And this was the Grammys,

the Clive Davis party
we had just left,

with him and Rihanna at
the table, and I'm like,

my heart just dropped,
but I had no idea

what he was going to tell me,

and I get to the hotel,
and he's laying in the bed

crying and crying,

and he was hiding, of course,
crying, like, "Mom, Mom,"

I was like, "What did you do?"
and then he told me,

I was like... that was
the worst day of my life,

and probably of his life,
because he,

I just saw that he was
just a broken person.

[Usher] There are these
moments, right,

in every artist's career
that they say,

"What the fuck was I thinking?"

He was laying in bed,
he was crying,

and he was devastated
about what happened,

but his main concern was
how was she and was she okay.

Of course, legal went down
and he was arrested,

or, well, he turned himself in.
So he was just devastated,

and just seeing him in that
state was the worst ever,

and I felt like I was
gonna lose my child.

I hated myself, you know,

I was thinking about suicide
and everything else.

So, it was just like, fuck.

But, from there,
I said, "You know what,

I'm just gonna take
everything that could come,

my consequences for my actions
have to be dealt with."

I turned myself in the next day.

[man] When I first met him,
he was 18.

The male's brain
doesn't fully form

in impulse control
until you're 25.

About six years ago
last month I got a call

from a buddy in
New York who said,

was the morning of the
Grammys, it was a Sunday,

it was about 6:30, and my
buddy says there's this guy,

there's an arrest
warrant for him,

L.A. P.D.'s looking for him,
his name is Chris Brown,

and the complaining
witness's name is Rihanna.

He called me, I think it was
maybe an hour or two

after it happened,

and he was, he was scared,

um, like in disbelief,

like he couldn't even believe
this was even going on.

I couldn't believe that.

But he was, you know,
he was scared.

I have been through
a lot in my life,

but that was the most
devastating thing

I've ever had to experience,

to see the hurt and
the pain on his face,

and not knowing what
was gonna happen to him.

[Chris]
I look at it in this,

in this really, like,

how could I be that person?

Well, the case,
originally, was,

an assault with a deadly
weapon, criminal threats,

various charges like that
involving strike offenses

for the serious felonies.

He wanted to, immediately,
take responsibility,

wanted to plead guilty.

Pled guilty,
didn't, didn't argue,

didn't say, "Hey, let me
fight this case and take it

to trial," and just say
"Hey, she fought me back,"

no, I'm not, that's not
where my head was at,

and that's not where it is now,

you know, I loved her,

I wanted to protect her because
I did too much stuff to her.

Like, I did what I did,
so, it was wrong.

Explain quickly, Mark,
what he pled guilty to.

Assault, basically,
is what it is,

a felony assault charge.

The hardest person to see,

or talk about it to would be...

I would say probably my father,
you know what I'm saying,

my father and my,
my real father.

I don't want to
disappoint my father,

because he actually
was there for me.

For my mom, it was a little
bit more closer to heart,

because I seen my mom
deal with that,

you know, firsthand,
not from my father,

my biological father Clinton
Maurice Brown is a great man.

But her significant other
at the time,

my mother's significant
other, he was a monster,

animal, pure hatred, evil,

I've never hated somebody
in my life like,

if I could kill him, I would.

So, I promised my mom one day,
I said, "Look, Ma, you know,

I know you tell me not
to do like crazy shit

and hang with these niggas
and do what I do," I said,

"but when I get 15,
I'm gonna kill him.

Like, I'm not playing, I'm
not not joking, I'm serious.

I wanna take his life."

So, that's the kind of hatred
this guy brings from me,

and fear, and stuff like that.

So, I'm terrified of this man.

I would be at home, you know,

he blew his brains out when
I was six, but he didn't die,

he shot himself in the head,

and then he went blind and shit.

I was six years old, bro, like,

fuck, how does a kid
deal with that shit?

And then, being that he's
physically impaired now,

it frustrates him more,
so he's in a depression,

so, but he takes it out
on his girl.

His girl happens to be my mom.

This is what I had
to deal with, like,

I had to hear my mom
get beat up every night.

I had to pee on myself,
like, I'm scared,

scared to even get up
and walk in the hallway,

'cause I didn't
wanna see nothing.

You know what I'm saying,

so nobody knows the fear

that they had to deal with,

and then it transcends
sometimes,

it's learned behavior.

So, me having to see my mom
look at me through that light,

I just saw him, that's
what I saw, I saw him,

I didn't see Chris,
I seen that motherfucker.

And so, that's what
ate at me, and like,

that's what killed my soul,

because I was the one thing
I was running from.

Sometimes you try to run
away from the one thing

that you don't wanna become,
and you become it.

[Rihanna] The only person
I hate right now is him.

[comedian] The only thing
Chris Brown is guilty of,

-a felony.
-[crowd laughing]

We don't know everything
that went down,

this is a tough one.
You know, he is

in huge trouble.

[woman] We're not
gonna put up with

domestic violence
as business as usual,

and I think we should
just take this

and keep moving with it.

[woman 2] We're not saying
I think he should be

thrown in jail, we're saying
he should get treatment.

[Rihanna] It was a weird,
confusing space to be in,

'cause as angry as I was,
angry and hurt and betrayed,

I just felt like...

he made that mistake
because he needed help.

The label,
the name woman-beater,

is something I would
say to somebody.

You know what I'm saying,
it scares me because that,

I would place that
judgment on somebody.

So, when people say it,

I don't get mad at them,
I'm more mad at myself,

because I feel like
I am the reflection

of what they're saying.

To have that type of success
that music brings,

people really look at you
and look to you

for inspiration,
for hope, for light,

for all of these things,
and that pressure can

sometimes be so tremendous.

You are a rock star,
you live in a world where

they want every piece of you,

because they need
to sell a story.

[female reporter] He has said
that he feels really bad

about what transpired,
that he's gonna

meet with his pastor,
and hope to become

a better person,
there are reports he's gone

to anger management classes.

[Mike] Beside that incident,
you know,

it's like
a domino effect,

it brings other
things that happened,

it brings up rage and anger,

and we don't understand
why we angry,

because we're angry
because we think people

think about us in a certain way.

I'm gonna tell you
something, let me be honest.

I was disappointed,
almost felt let down,

because I said, this kid
could be the great superstar.

You say how could I
be the best in the world

and people still talk about me?

And that's just
what life is about,

overcoming emotional
quagmires, adversity,

becoming stronger
in life, you know.

If you didn't experience
any kind of

emotional conflict with
yourself or with anyone else,

under the light of this
struggle, you just crumble.

Sentenced to five years
of probation as you said,

180 days of what Judge Schnegg
calls community labor,

and he has to undergo a
domestic violence program

for one year.

Chris} The first time
I walked in the courtroom,

I was super nervous, you know.

I never even did jury duty,
so I was like,

"Man, I don't know what's
gonna happen here,

I'm not used to
this environment."

This is a guy who's gotten
kind of everything he wanted

since he was 16 years old.

But once you step into a
courtroom, you lose all control.

They wanted me
to do jail time,

there was a lot of
women's rights groups

that were calling in and
demanding that I had jail time.

You know, I was terrified, man,

I was only 17, I think,
about to turn 18,

and I was like, man, like,

I'm about to go to jail, and
just have my life turned out,

I got out of my
situation in Virginia,

and made something of my life,
and I'm going right back?

- Like, that's how I felt.

- This is where
the process begins.

And there has been
speculation already by some

that this really will
end Chris Brown's career.

His drive, his enthusiasm,

his excitement about
everything was gone.

It's hard to go from
that admiration from the world,

to all of a sudden
that judgment from the world,

and being able to balance that,

and understand how to
maneuver through that,

that shit is not easy.

[DJ Khaled] Being on probation

is like the hardest thing ever.

I know that was a tough time.

Any little thing
can be a violation.

I did go into a deep
depression, like I said,

for almost, like, three months.

Stayed in my room,
didn't come out,

they would bring my
food to the door,

my homies would be like,
"Come on man, what's up?"

And I'd just sleep in bed,
stay in bed all day.

Some of the greatest artists
in the world fell,

you know, from that,

and they fall to
substances and things

that just really
cloud their judgment,

cloud their ability to kind
of see their way through it.

Chris} I wasn't sleeping,
I barely ate,

I just was getting high,
I would pop a couple Xanaxes,

drink some lean, then
just be like, "I'm good,"

and be a zombie for
the rest of the day.

I remember being on video
sets and falling asleep,

cussing people out, not
knowing where I'm at, like,

and then I'd wake up
the next day, like,

"Hey, we gotta shoot
the video."

They'd be like, "Dude,
we shot it yesterday. "

I'm like, "dang." So, that's
when I knew it went bad.

And I said, "Hey, man,I'm
not telling you

nothing that ain't
nobody told me,

I'm not telling you
nothing that Quincey Jones

didn't tell me or
Oprah Winfrey didn't tell me,

I'm just telling
you gotta fly away,

like, you know,
do your thing, have fun,

but just always remember
that if the people

that are around you don't
have a risk like you do,

it's probably not,
it's probably,

probably not cool."

The more light we get,

the more we have
to hide our demons.

That's pretty much a deterrent
to see who we truly are,

the light,
the light is the demon,

it's blinding you
from seeing him.

The elephant in the room
is the fact that there's

been some very tumultuous
things that Chris

has experienced
in his career, right?

Well, I'll talk about it.
Everybody has shit

that they go through,

but not everybody has to deal
with it in front of the world.

["Don't Judge Me"
by Chris Brown]

[overlapping reporter chatter]

A loss in fans,
or a loss in revenue.

Chris Brown doesn't see either,

so likely he'll
continue on this path.

[Chris] One day I just started
thinking about it.

Well, if they all hate me,

I want them to hate me
'cause they can't beat me.

["Deuces" by Chris Brown]

A" All that bullshit...

That next week
I went into the studio,

and I said, "I don't care even
if I don't know how to write,

if they don't like my song,

I'm just gonna say
whatever I feel."

Let me just talk about
what I'm rocking with.

Then you got songs like
"Deuces" that will come out.

I Girl, yeah

I That knows just what I need

I She knows just what I mean

No bullshit.

♪ Three in the morning ♪

♪ You know I'm horny ♪

And even throughout
that process,

I tried to get Rihanna back.

I would try to call,
and try to, like,

"Hey, what's up, man,"
just like...

One time she's like,
"Hey, I got a boyfriend,

stop talking to me."

I was like, "Woah."

So I said, you know what,
"Cool, let me just be me then."

I'm putting all my records out,

the pain records,
the ones that,

when I'm at my lowest
point, and it's like,

back against the wall,

nobody thinks I'm gonna
come out the underdog status.

And, you know, I got a
Grammy off of those records.

I don't know, man, I'm nervous,
I don't know what to say.

Team Breezy, man,
it's all for you, man,

all my fans back home,
I love y'all, so.

[audience screaming]

We got one.
Thank you.

About that time, I was
able to meet somebody else.

Her name's Karrueche,
I met her,

you know, and she kind of
got me through the times.

I was like,
"You know what, cool,"

I'm really cool with
not turning up as much.

I still, I mean,
I still did, you know,

I would only do that only
because I didn't know

how to cope with dealing
with being in love with her

and Rihanna at the same time.

What would the Chris Brown
sitting next to me right now

tell the Chris Brown
one year ago?

Um...

Make some wise
decisions, brother.

I would definitely
look at myself a year ago

and be like, "Man, like,
really, really, like,

don't take this for granted.
Don't take anything for granted,

and don't think you
untouchable, you're invincible,

because you're not."

He has to make that
decision to choose who he is,

we have to look in the
mirror sometimes of life,

and decide, do we like
who we looking at?

And I sometimes don't like
who I'm still looking at,

but I like him more
than I used to like him.

At that time, I just was
trying to mask my real feelings.

My life was just slowly going
downhill because of my fear,

you know what I'm saying,
and my insecurities,

and me not being, me
not really manning up.

So it's 2010, we've decided
that we're going to have

Chris Brown do...

the year after, the year
anniversary, Jackson tribute.

But there's one tribute,
one tribute

performance we've yet to see.

And the crowd knew
exactly who it was,

and there was this
murmur that built,

and the lights drop out, and,

Chris hit the stage.

["Man in the Mirror"
by Michael Jackson]

It was so surreal, man.
I was hosting BET,

that for everyone was
just a moment in time

where it was just, Chris
was going through a thing.

And so, therefore,
it really hurt him.

[sobbing lyrics]

It was lot of things happening,

first of all, we were giving
Michael Jackson a real,

great sendoff, a passing
of the torch, if you will.

And then he poured
his heart into it, man.

a' I'm starting with
the man in the mirror

♪ I'm asking him
to change his ways ♪

♪ No message could
have been any clearer ♪

a' If you wanna make the
world a better place

a' Take a look at yourself
and then make that

♪ Change ♪

♪ Change ♪

[Stephen] Chris Brown was
there to prove something

that night, that he
belonged on this planet,

that he belonged on stages.

[Jamie] No matter what you
think about Chris Brown,

when he starts
to dance and sing,

he has that light,
he has that fire that,

that lightning
rod-ness of a career.

So, I think that sobered
a lot of people up,

like, you know,
you can only do so much,

you can only give so much,

sometimes you gotta
step back a little bit

and just decompress.

Everybody's human, and
everybody makes mistakes,

and if God can give us mercy,

why can't we have
mercy on each other?

You may have heard about
Chris Brown's appearance here

on GMA on Tuesday, he and
I had a brief interview,

and then he performed a
single from his hit new album,

and it's what happened
after that performance that

unfortunately made headlines.

Chris Brown did become
very angry backstage

here in our studios,

talking about his past
clearly touched a nerve,

and his behavior now
has everyone talking.

The Good Morning America
incident, man.

Chris Brown, riding high,
brand new CD out, F.A.M.E.,

it's out today, already
has three number one hits,

a fourth one
climbing the charts,

and the album is number
one on iTunes today.

It's a far cry from the last
time the two of us sat down,

just months after he pled
guilty to felony assault.

He took responsibility for
hitting his then girlfriend,

Rihanna, and has spent the
last two years rebuilding

his life, Chris Brown,
how are you?

I'm pretty good, yeah,
everything's good, yeah.

That morning, I remember
my album had just came out

that day, was supposed to
be a big promotion 'cause,

you know, all of the songs
were doing great, "Deuces,"

"Look At Me Now," all these
big records, "Yeah 3x,"

it was so many records that,

that were kind of just
elevating and transcending

life instead of the negative
that was in my life.

So, that morning I remember,

and I always do this on
prep before any interview,

I would say, "Hey, look,
these are the terms and

conditions of the interview,

you cannot ask this question,
you cannot ask this question,

and we need you to sign off
just so we can take

legal action if you do."

And thank you for sitting
down for just a moment

for, it's all about the music,
your fans are here,

but you have been very good
about talking with me

a little bit about this because

we've gone through it
and talked about it

when I went to your home.

What's going on now is that
recently the restraining order

against you that Rihanna
had issued has been relaxed.

I always danced
around the topic,

I always would dance around it,
and I didn't know

how to deal with it,

my self esteem was a big
insecurity within myself.

[interviewer]
Have you all seen each other,

been around each other?

I mean, not really, I mean,

it's not really a big deal
to me now,

as far as that situation,

I think I'm past that
in my life,

and I think today's
the album day,

so that's what I'm focused on,

so everybody go get that album.

That was so intense to me,

and I felt like it was
a slap in the face, like,

you want me to be
this person on TV,

you want me to be that person,

you still want me
to be the monster.

- F.A.M.E., F-A-M-E.
- Yeah.

What does that stand for?
F.A.M.E.,

forgiving all my enemies,

and definitely,
fans are my everything,

and that meaning,
like, you know,

being able to go through
everything I went through

and show my fans that
I love them, you know,

that's what it is, and
fans are my everything.

You could see me
getting agitated.

You could see me in there

kind of getting frustrated.

[interviewer] Well, you
said forgive all my enemies,

who do you consider
your enemies?

Just anybody, naysayers, haters,

I just think, you know, being
positive and promoting that

is what I'm about now, and
that's what I wanna do.

I was like, clenching
my jaws, and,

trying to play it off.

Yeah, but you could
understand how some people

you know, that was very serious,

what you went through.

It just was killing me because

she was depicting the monster
that I thought I was.

Have you been able to,
how have you been able to,

-put that--
- I've been focusing

on this album, you know,
I think this album is what,

you know, I want people to hear,

and I want people
to really get into, so,

definitely this album is what
I want them to talk about,

and not that stuff that
happened two years ago.

I understand that,
I understand that.

So I lash out, and
it's like an unconscious,

like, impulsive, like, demon.

I just walked off stage,
and when I walked off stage,

in the back room, I broke down.

I took my shirt off,
I was crying

in the middle of the floor,

like, I was mad,
punching the wall,

like, so enraged.

I remember one of the security
guards that worked there

ran up, I said,
"Bro, if you come in,

it's gonna go bad for you."

[male reporter] Shattered
window which Chris allegedly

destroyed after he
stormed off the GMA stage.

And they think I threw a
chair through the window.

I punched the window.

Through my anger, I didn't
know how hard I hit the window,

and it actually shattered,
and I was like, fuck.

I just remember just leaving
the building, I said,

I gotta leave the building
before I do something else.

And I just remember
running outside.

Me hopping in a van,

you got pictures of me with
my shirt off

in the middle of the street,

and, like,
I was crazy, man,

that's like psycho behavior.

I think Chris has gone
to the bottom at some point

in his career, or at
least he's felt that way.

When you're Chris Brown
and you're that big,

-you know, it's the biggest
camera on you at all times.

-[Chris] Fuck $10,

-give me my key.
-[security] Let's go, let's go,

You gonna turn
this whole spot up.

- Promise you.
- We got it right here,

we got it right here.

[remake reporter} Fighting
with singer Frank Ocean,

reportedly over a parking spot.

[female reporter 2]
According to reports,

both Chris and Drake were
hanging out in the V.I.P.

section one minute, the next,
fists and bottles were flying,

leaving the club completely
trashed, several people hurt.

I definitely think
it's extremely important

to walk away from a
situation before anger

gets the best of you because

everything after that
is a consequence.

You have to focus on
the choices you make,

and me, I was a fuck it
kind of dude.

So it was like,
I didn't give a fuck,

so I'm like, "Fuck it,
I don't care. Fuck it."

That mentality though
only lasts for so long,

then you go to jail.

Chris Brown, he's in a
Washington, D.C. jail

this morning,

charged with assaulting a
man early Sunday morning

outside his hotel.

Paula, this is
a serious charge,

and Brown already on probation

on domestic violence charge.

Karrueche broke up
with me, and I was like--

and I didn't know how to
deal with it at the time.

And I just was angry,
so when I got to D.C.,

that's when I caught that case,

I broke one of the guy's nose.

Chris Brown in jail
this morning,

and could face the
reality of prison time

after this latest incident,

his third run-in of the year.

The victim says in the
police incident report

he attempted to get
into a photo with Brown,

and the rapper said, quote,
"I'm not down with that

"gay expletive,
I feel like boxing. "

Brown then punched
Parker in the face.

That caused me to
check myself into rehab,

you know, I checked myself into
rehab for anger management.

[female reporter] Hopefully
rehab will be a new start

for the singer, he seemed
to be hinting at that

in this recent tweet.

In order to go where
you have never gone,

you have to be willing to go
where you have never been.

I tried to figure
out what makes me tick,

what makes me this aggressive,

why do I have to be this
impulsive, why am I this person?

[male reporter] I think
that this

being his third violation,

the judge is probably
gonna throw the book at him.

[ominous music]

[Usher] Everybody has some
tumultuous thing

that happens in their career.

The way you rebound from that
is what makes you who you are.

If you didn't have
something to go through,

it wouldn't be worth it
when you got to it.

[female reporter] Chris Brown
has checked into rehab.

The singer's rep
announced Tuesday night

he's chosen to enter
a facility.

His goal is to
gain focus and insight

into his past and
recent behavior,

enabling him to continue
the pursuit of his life

and his career from a
healthier vantage point.

Chris} During that time,
I had to do community service,

and go to the rehab.

Rehab helped me, to a degree.

Not to discredit anybody
or everybody, you know,

I think because of my
lifestyle and who I was,

I was envied a lot by
even some of the staff

and some of the people
that worked there.

[male reporter]
Chris was thrown out today

for breaking internal rules,
and sources are telling us

that Chris had
an inappropriate,

is how we're being told,
a relationship

with a worker there.

So, I get a call
up to the office,

they said, somebody
wants to speak to you,

so I walk up to the
office like, okay, cool.

Seven cops just come out,
drawing guns, drawing,

get down, get on the ground.

I'm like,
"What the fuck did I do?"

So, the woman, I guess,

she lied and said
that I talk about,

I talked about threatening
with knives and guns,

and I like to hurt people
for fun, or whatever it is.

If you look at any of the
reports in the whole time

I've been there,
there's never been no incident

of me saying anything like that.

I said, "Why would I even
randomly joke about that?"

You know what I'm saying, so,

I could see that it was,
somebody set me up,

so, automatically, they
called my P.O. and said,

we kicked him out of rehab.

And then the judge said,
"Well, go pick him up."

County jail, here I come.

I don't think that
there's any doubt

that Chris Brown is not guilty,

and we want him
to be found not guilty.

He'd been there for 90 days,

he was making
tremendous progress,

you know, do you have
a bad day?

I have bad days sometimes.

Do you say things
you'd like to take back?

I certainly do, so,
I don't know that

being in a therapeutic session,

and you're talking
about your reflections,

and you say one sentence,
means you go to jail?

Seems to me to be
counterproductive to therapy.

[ominous tones]

[Chris] Jail was like
an eye opener, man,

once you get in there
with real killers,

once you get in there
with real murderers

and real rapists, child
molesters, and, you know,

all of the worst,
you get a chance to

understand what it is,
and how blessed you are.

Joyce}
It feels like you're hopeless,

although when he was in jail,
I was there every other day.

The judge gave me permission
to go in with his attorneys,

and that was uplifting for me,

'cause everyday
I'm calling the attorney,

could you please
go with me today,

could you please go with me,
I just wanna see him,

because I said, just to
get him out of the cell.

You get out on, like, the
end of the week for an hour,

you go to the roof and they
will put you in a cage,

like, you wouldn't be out
with the regular people

and playing ball,

you would be in a cage
with a dip bar and a phone.

You understand, I mean,
couldn't sit down,

there was piss, shit, like,

people would shit
right on the floor.

It wasn't sanitary,
you know, it was jail,

at the end of the day.
But you had to either adapt,

and kind of learn how to
mentally be content with being

in a stationary one spot,
that was horrible.

But, seeing him chained
to the table was one

of the most devastating things,

to chain his arms up to
the table, and, you know,

I just, like, it broke my
heart, but I couldn't cry.

I was like,
"He can't see me crying,"

because I see him,
he come in there like,

"I'm so happy to see you,
glad to get out of the cell."

Even with them extraditing me,

I had to go to court in D.C.
and get on Con Air.

I mean, they shackle you
from your hands to your feet

around your waist and you walk,

and you walk right in a line,

and you know, marshals with
real pistols and tasers.

The idea that somebody
would be bused by the feds

cross country for
a misdemeanor case,

was probably unparalleled,

I mean, it wouldn't be done
absent being Chris Brown.

For me, certain jails
that I went in didn't have

isolation for, you know,
high class or whatever it is,

so you go into solitary,
you go in the hole.

So, I would be in the
hole most of the time.

So, people don't understand
what the hole is.

You're in a room with a
metal door and no windows,

like, metal door,
and you is in the room.

You can touch
both sides of the wall,

and the bed's metal.

You get a cot, but it's
like, it's nothing,

it's like, thinner
than your sock.

They'll bring you your food,

slide it through
the door, and that's it.

I would draw
mirrors on the wall,

just anything, that
I was being creative,

just keeping my mind going.

I got a chance to really
read the Bible at that time,

I never read the Bible
in my life.

I was amazed at the way

he dealt with the
custody time, going to jail.

For me, that was a real big
learning experience for me.

What I respect about him,
that he weathered the storm.

[Chris] Just calling all my
fans, y'all know I love y'all,

I thank y'all
for all the support.

Thank you for
everything, you know,

the video just came out,
so I hope y'all enjoy that.

And most importantly, Kae,
Karrueche, I love you.

I've looked at that
experience again,

but it goes to that old adage,

if it doesn't kill you,
it makes you stronger.

Throughout that time, it just,
it just was an eye opener,

and I just looked at myself
like, this ain't my life,

this is not what I do.

I think pain is our strength,
struggle is our victory.

Even me being
a young black man,

or anybody that's oppressed or,

or been looked less of,
or kind of like,

you know,
thrown out to the wolves,

I just think our pain
makes us fearless, you know?

Because it's not,
you don't have a choice.

Well, when they say
you at the bottom, right,

there's nowhere to
go but up, always.

A' Thought it was over
Let me see

[female reporter]The
controversial singer was

released early Monday in
Los Angeles,

according to authorities.

As a refresher, he's been
in lockup since March,

when he was arrested
for violating the rules

of a court order
to rehab center.

I was released from jail

I think July 6th,

and it was a Sunday, I just
remembered, I was like, "Woah,

they came and got me,"
I kissed the ground when

I got out and everything,

went to Burger King, went, I
like, I got every, I was like,

eating every burger
you could name,

and then I went to my girlfriend
at the time's house, Kae,

'cause my house was actually,
I just didn't want to go to it,

so I was staying at
Karrueche's house.

[DJ Khaled] While Chris Brown
was locked up,

them fans was fighting.

And when he came home, he
came home with a celebration,

and that's what it's about
when you in jail,

you have a number one record,
and the people got love,

they love Chris Brown.

["Loyal" by Chris Brown]

[indistinct lyrics]

I These girls ain't loyal

I Whoa

I These girls ain't loyal

He did his jail time,
came home like nothing.

Went straight in the studio,

and he come home and
put massive hit records,

you gotta be strong to do that.

I You can tell by the way
I walk that I got 'em

♪ Bail any girl that I wanna ♪

♪ Got bitches and marijuana ♪

You know, Chris is a one
in a million type artist,

you know what I mean,

you don't meet a lot of people

with that type of blessing

and that type of gift.

He's like, really,
he's figured out how to, like,

really explain what he's
goin' through in life,

and not just like
write a catchy song,

but make something that really
is what he's going through.

[female reporter] Chris Brown
is climbing the charts

with his newest album.

X was delayed through
court dates and rehab

following Brown's arrest from
beating ex-girlfriend Rihanna.

He spent three months
in jail and says he learned

from the experience.

For me and my spirit,
I just wanted to be

able to kind of like,

you know, have some peace,

and be able to chill
and do what I love,

because I was blessed with this
opportunity and this talent.

So, I don't want to waste it.

Once I really changed
my life and mentally

started making
cognitive decisions,

that would better my living
and better my standards,

you know, a lot of things
started opening up for me,

you know what I'm saying,
even with just me being

just happy, you know?

Me being internally happy.

And everything
was good, you know,

and I didn't even know
about my daughter.

[tinkling music]

[baby cooing]

During me and
Karrueche's break up,

like August or September is
when my child was conceived.

As the time goes on,
I'm on this tour,

this big tour we doing,

I get a phone call
from a girl crying,

and I'm like, "What's up?"

And I'm like,
"What's wrong with you?"

And she's like,
"Yo, he's not the father,

you the father of the baby."

At this time,
I'm in a relationship,

trying to get my girl
pregnant at the time,

I'm trying to do the
right thing as a boyfriend

and not cheat, not mess with
no girls, none of that stuff.

So, I'm like, "Woah."

[baby yelling]

She came, I looked at the
baby, as soon as I saw her,

I was like,

"She looks just like me,
that's my kid."

Say, what's up?

Oooooh.

So, once I found out,
I guess somebody leaked,

like, the story to TMZ, or
whoever they leaked it to,

and say, "Hey, boom,
Chris has got a secret baby,"

and my lawyers called me
30 minutes before the story,

the story dropped, like,
"Yo, they're about to run this

story, they already caught us,

told us they're running it,
you got anything you wanna say?"

I'm like, "What, no, I ain't
even around my girlfriend,"

like, I'm trying to, I need
her here so I can sit her down

and have a real face
to face conversation,

and really be honest
with her and let her know.

30 minutes, boom,
it's on everything.

[female reporter]
So, reports have been swirling

that Chris Brown
is secretly the father

of a nine month baby girl.

I'm calling her,
I'm like, "Look, listen..."

She's looking at it
as I'm calling her.

She's screaming at me,
"What the hell is this shit,

boy, you ain't shit,
I'm tired, it's over with..."

Done.

[female reporter] Karrueche Tran
has confirmed this whole thing

on Twitter and dumped
Chris Brown in one swoop.

One can only take so much,

the best of luck to
Chris and his family.

No baby mama drama for me.

Ended that relationship,
you know what I'm saying?

And, like, I love my daughter
unconditionally, like,

nobody come before her,
you know what I'm saying,

God made her, you know,
for me, I think.

What you see?

It's a top.
Don't eat the top!

Nobody coming in between
me and her.

I love her with all my heart,

I wouldn't trade her
for nothing.

Chris is just a
really caring guy.

He's always been that person,

and he looks after everyone,

and before he had a baby,
before Royalty was Royalty,

it's about time people see
that Chris is who Chris is,

which is a loving,
caring, gorgeous person.

Being a father now has caused--
even made me grow up,

it made me grow up way more now.

[DJ Khaled]
Life is,

it's a special thing,
man, 'cause,

you know, it's going hurricane,

somebody else
would have gave up,

you know,
he ain't allowed that.

My daughter, she shaped me
to be like a real... man.

That's what it's all about,

'cause we can only be
entertainers, fighters,

for a short duration of time,

and after that's over,
we're still human beings.

We have to improve on
being better human beings

in order to succeed in life.

You know, this is the
hardest game we, you know,

and hardest goal that we're
trying to accomplish, is life.

Whatever that is he wants,
that's up to him.

It's a life lesson,

for all of us,

because it's affected all of us.

If you truly
do love Chris Brown,

then you felt everything
that has gone on with him.

The end of the day, it is
what it is, it was a, you know,

an 18 year old guy
who made a horrible decision,

and was struggling
to learn from it.

But, you know,
at the end of the day,

the amount of scrutiny
that he's been under,

the amount of haters out there,

I think is dwarfed
by the number of people

that really are
supportive of him.

Chris}
Today, I am nervous, but,

a little bit happier
than sad, you know,

'cause usually
when I come in and do

the whole lawyer thing,
go to court,

it's always, well, you know,
we gonna have some trouble,

and Mark always gives me
a speech like,

I cannot keep saving your ass.

So, you know,
it's really a better day,

now that the probation
report isn't horrible,

it's actually good,
you know, so I'm...

nervous but trying
to keep it together.

You know, I'm gonna get
in there and be respectful,

polite, and if I
get off probation today,

it will be a miracle,
it would be amazing.

[Mark] Well, today I'm hopeful,
we'll see.

We've got a good report,
he just finished his tour,

he has completed
his community service,

all of the things
that the judge had asked

the probation department
to investigate,

the law enforcement has given
a clean bill of health,

he's tested repeatedly clean,

his psychiatrist gives him
kind of great marks,

and I can echo that
with the psychiatrist.

The breadth and depth
of his understanding and

self-awareness is light years

from where it was six years ago.

Right now, this is
always nerves, man,

'cause you just never know.

Especially in my case
and my situation.

It's always something,
I'm just waiting,

hopefully that day is today
when all that ceases.

Okay, wish me luck.

[crowds chattering]

[Judge] On the matter of People
versus Christopher Brown,

case number VA353571,

the defendant is present.

At this time the
court does not find

any willful violation
of probation.

Probation is ordered
terminated at this point.

Anything further?

Nothing further,
thank you very much.

[Judge] Thank you,
council, we're in recess.

[Chris] Thank you, Your Honor.

[Judge] You're welcome.

[crowd chattering excitedly]

Anything to say, Chris?

I'm off fucking probation!

[excited quiet yelling]

They terminated my probation,

I'm a free man,

no more problems, no issues,

nothing.

I feel great, I don't even
know what to say right now.

Probably just gonna
go to the house,

play with my daughter, and,

figure it out from there.

He is in a spot right now
and in a place right now

that I couldn't
be prouder of him.

The court terminated
his probation today,

which is a monumental
feat for him.

He's completed everything
that he was ordered to do.

I think he learned quite a bit

while being on probation,

I think it was
instructive for him,

and I think helpful for him,
I couldn't be happier,

and I'm delighted for him,

and we're gonna go
celebrate right now.

I think my music
is gonna be my legacy.

But what I want the people
to remember me for is my...

determination,

and I think when
my daughter gets older,

you know, she'll look
at this, and be like,

"Man, my daddy CFBZY:
you know?"

But, she'll be proud
of the man I've become.

[Usher] You've experienced
the travesty and the,

and this traumatic
journey back to just being

a conversation about music,
a conversation about artistry.

You know, the fact
that he's chosen art

as another expressive tool
I think is great.

[Rita] There's so many
opinions in this world,

and he is one strong guy
to kind of carry it through,

and like, take that
weight on his shoulders,

and still roll with it.

[Terrance] This generation,
I don't see nobody coming out

like him for the next 10 years.

Of this century, he's the
Michael Jackson, you know?

We thank you for this
opportunity to be here,

to allow us to
bless these people

with amazing talents and fun,
and happy spirits,

and all that, thank
everybody that's here,

I'm glad to see each and
everybody in good health,

everybody in one piece,
now let's do what

we came here to do,

and give them one hell of
a night, without the hell,

but you know what
I'm talking about.

In Your name I pray, amen!

[AH] Amen!

[Jamie] When you're
on stage with him,

or you're in the crowd
with him, and he smiles,

to see that kid in him,
man, it's, it's amazing.

[Jennifer]
Chris, right now, is,

and probably for the
past couple of years,

has been so prominent,
as far as his influence,

and what music is right now.

I mean, as it is,
he's already one of the

greatest of all time.

Stephen} The smile that
he lost in those middle years

is back in earnest now.

[Rita] And what I love and
respect the most about him

is that he didn't let it
mess up his creativity.

He didn't let it
affect his music.

And no matter what people say,

he keeps giving us
them bangers.

[DJ Khaled]
That's an icon, I promise you.

[Mary] Chris Brown
is a special person,

when you're that special, your
trials are gonna be great.

[Mike] Time is the
greatest teacher of them all.

[Usher] When you see
him now, he's just,

he's just more of a man.

[Joyce] I hope he becomes
the biggest superstar

in the world, I really do.

[inspirational music]

Chris}
My legacy is based on...

my choice, you know.

I choose to be a great father.

I choose to be a great artist.

I choose to never get
in trouble, [laughs] you know.

I'm trying, but I'm still human.

And for all my love
that I get from my fans,

and the love that I get
from my daughter alone,

it's shaping me
to become legendary.

If there was ever
a doubt in your mind,

Chris Brown was done,
he was finished...

I wouldn't bet on it.

♪ Every dream in my head ♪

♪ It's like a mountain
that I just keep climbing ♪

I And when I get to the edge

I I turn around and put
that dream behind me

a' And it never feels
the way I want

♪ But I keep on trying ♪

♪ I just keep on trying ♪

I Have you been there

♪ Have you seen it all ♪

S Have you done this
once before

♪ Did they tell you
you'll love this life ♪

I And all these lights

S Now you're lying
on the floor

♪ And they know
what doesn't kill you ♪

♪ Makes you want it more ♪

♪ And this is your life ♪

♪ Your life, your life ♪

I Welcome to my life

["Welcome to My Life"
by Chris Brown]

[song continues]

[Sling ends]