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Ethan Phillips, please.

Bill Henrickson. Please leave him a message
I called. Thank you.

Stephen Sola, please. Bill Henrickson calling.

Well, will he be back before the holidays?

All right, please have him call me
when he returns. Thank you.

Let it go.

Nothing you can do till after New Year's.

You may be deeply invested in your fate,

but everyone else is
off celebrating the holidays.

So you people do celebrate Christmas?

Of course.

I thought I had read somewhere
that your prophet shut it down,

and you only celebrate
Joseph Smith's birthday instead.

You still don't understand, do you?

I'm not of the compound.

I'm trying to clean up the compounds.

There's a whole new face of polygamy.

You know, we follow the same Bible
as you do, the same Book of Mormon.

Those Phi Delts from the U
having their Christmas party in the rotunda.

What are you still doing here?

Shelley's back in the hospital, so...

Thought I'd take advantage
of the peace and quiet.

I'm sorry to hear that.

Senator-elect,

have a restful holiday.

You're gonna need it come January.

It's all right, Thomas. Papa's here.

It's just a little nip. His skin's not broken.

Why weren't you watching him, Lura?
You failed to protect your children.

This is a stain on my intentions
for our new home.

Stop that satanic howling!

It wasn't Porkchop's fault.
Sometimes he plays too rough.

I'll work with him, father.
It won't happen again.

This has nothing to do with the dog.

Your mind is unfocused,
and your heart is full of distraction.

Well, I'm bloody well trying.

I have a good mind to reassign your children
to one of your sister-wives

until you get yourself right.

I strive

to be in compliance with your wishes, Father,

but I'm lost.

If you can't learn to please me,

your future is not bright.

I wait for you every night.

No!

Round up all the dogs.

Poison them.

Honey. Let me give you a hand there.

Here.

Thanks.

You got a lot of this stuff.

Took a leap and signed on
at premier platinum level.

-More Christmas decorations?
-Nicki.

How are the stores?

There's still protestors out front.

Here, I'll give you a hand. I got it.

How are you doing?

Better.

Still not 100%?

No, not yet.

Well, we'll get you there.

Do you know yesterday
was the shortest day of the year?

The darkest.

Now, we're turning to the light.

We're gonna have the best Christmas ever.

By the way, I need your driver's license.
Can you leave it out on the counter?

What do you need it for?

It's a surprise.

Why don't you close the garage door,
and I'll lock the one to the house?

Bill.

Please come up and have
Christmas Eve dinner with us.

We're going caroling,

and we're entering a big decorate-your-house
competition on the block.

We're having an old-fashioned,
storybook Christmas.

I'll be too tired.

I've got meetings at the county offices
all morning with all my caseworkers.

I'm officially indigent.

I'm so glad that's working out.

Yes, there's benefits
for low-income pregnant women.

There's a $200 emergency food assistance
program because I'm destitute.

There's utility assistance.

There's even a welfare avoidance program

that gives me $350 a month to stay off welfare.

Can't get my hands
on the moolah for at least a week,

so I've asked Albert to give me a small stipend
to tide me over.

Don't take one penny from that man. I can get
you a little cash to get you by. I'd be happy to.

Mama?

It's those darn hormones.

Please, come for Christmas. Spend it with us.

I'll be fine.
I'm really looking forward to the new year

and to bringing another righteous warrior
for Heavenly Father into the world.

Merry Christmas, darling.

It's not regular fat.
It's a special fat from around the kidneys.

It has a rich flavor and a high melting point.

Is fat safe to eat?

No, not very, but we only have it once a year.

And when you get all the labels off them,
we put the cans in the water to sterilize them.

I used to love suet pudding as a girl.

Melted beef suet,

and sour milk, and raisins,
and molasses all boiled together.

Barb, I couldn't find your new skates.

Well, they might be up in the bedroom.

Honey, I'm a little worried about your mother.

It's okay, Barb.

I told her the work on her cabin won't be done
till after the first.

She'll be spending Christmas with us.

No. I mean I think you need
to take a look at her.

I am.

Actually, Bill, you've been avoiding her.

Just don't get angry,

but I called Dr. Herman's office,

and they are able to squeeze her in tomorrow
before they close for the holidays.

Now I want you to take her.

Thank you.

What is that?

-It's going to be our plum pudding.
-Where are the plums?

All right, Benny, you're old enough to know
that there are no plums in plum pudding.

Did you speak
with the recruiter this morning?

I was really tired from finals. I will in January.

All right, do you want us
to call a family council,

and we can talk about your options?

-We just want to help you with a plan.
-You do need a plan, Benny.

I know. But, guys, what was your plan at 18?

It's the change of plans that concerns us.

You just always said you wanted the Navy.

Now, you're not sure
that you're still interested.

Lois, Lois, could you turn that down?

It's Navy Blue. I know her. I know her!

All right, I understand,
but could you turn that down?

Is this rancid?

Darn that butcher.

Don't worry. I'll take care of it.

I got it.

-Can I come in?
-Yeah.

Okay, thanks.

Ben, hi.

Heather? Wow! You look...

You don't look like you.

A new haircut, I guess.

You just look different.

-Sarah's not here.
-I know.

It's a bummer, but I've just been thinking
about you guys a lot since the election,

and I wanted to say hi, so...

I baked some gingerbread.

Merry Christmas.

Thanks.

-How's college?
-It's good.

BYU is a hard school,

but it's worth it. It's fun.

Do you want to go ice skating with us later?

Okay.

See, it's not actually about selling.

It's about signing up other people to sell
who sign up more people to sell,

and we get a cut of all of those orders.

-Michael Sainte is huge, Margene.
-I know. I met him my last day at VSN.

He's our Utah Warren Buffett
and Elvis rolled into one.

My sister-in-law sold his nahjie juice.

He's sponsoring that huge soccer stadium
that's been in the news.

Exactly. So you'll technically be part
of my downline,

but then we'll build you a downline, too.

-This fruitcake is so delicious.
-Sam's Club, can you believe it?

We're cutting back this year.

Carl's been looking for work for five months.

And unemployment's run out.

-Pam?
-Hi, honey!

Margie's helping me build my downline.

How much did you spend?

You've gotta spend money to make money.

-Come on in, Carl.
-No, I can't really stay.

Pammy, we've gotta head
over to Aunt Bonnie's.

Okay, hon. I'll be right there.

I'll be outside.

Merry Christmas, Marge.

Merry Christmas.

Hey, we're gonna do fantastic.

I'm fine. It's just...

A rough Christmas is all.

I'm awfully depressed. Carl's depressed.

Everything's basically great.

There's a lot of problems,
especially in the fireworks department.

Pam, every marriage goes through that
at one time or another.

-Even you and Bill?
-Of course.

And the holidays can be hard.

I don't know how you do it
when there's just two people in a marriage.

God, I am sorry.
It really just must have been something I ate.

You want to just finish your proof?

My stomach really hurts.

All right, Miss Walker,
you can finish up next time.

Thank your mother for the cookies.

Wait, I have something
for you too before you go.

Go ahead. Open it.

I think you'll like Barbara McClintock.

She demonstrated how genes
are associated with who we are.

They're associated with who we are,
Cara Lynn,

but they don't dictate who we become.

A whole lot more goes into that.

McClintock's father was
a struggling family physician,

and she grew up to win the Nobel Prize.

Thank you.

I'm gonna work hard. I want you to know that.

-I got your text.
-Yes.

Your mother's turning us into criminals.

She doesn't mean to.
She's just kind of high strung.

Do you wanna go downtown?

Okey-dokey, dominokey.

Sorry. Who says stuff like that?

I gotta be home by 5:00.

In the name of Jesus Christ,

I bless this good food
which strengthens our bodies

and the ladies of the house who prepared it.

Ben?

On behalf of the Aaronic priesthood,

Dad and I would like to give a special salute
to womanhood.

Heavenly Father has assigned us,
as men and women,

separate but equally sacred responsibilities.

We recognize that without righteous
mothers and daughters to nurture us,

Heavenly Father's plans can't come
to fruition.

Okay, thank you.

So, Barb,

Nicki, Margene, Cara Lynn, Nell, Mother,

always remember
that not just during Christmas

when the fruits of your labors,
and baking, and whatnot are so evident,

but year round,
that as beloved daughters of Heavenly Father,

you're very special
and entitled to the guidance

of righteous priesthood holders.

And Cara Lynn and Nell,

remember, too,
that as daughters of Heavenly Father,

you also have free will,
your own personal relationship with him,

and the divine ability to discern the truth
of the Gospels in your testimony.

What was that little rumpus
at dinner all about?

I had something to say, so I said it.

Why would Heavenly Father give us
strong minds and powerful faith

if he didn't trust us to use them?

Honestly, Barb, any chance to stir the pot.

I think I left my mittens in the car.

-Do they fit?
-Yep.

I'm glad. They were mine.

Wayne, your brothers are a couple of naturals.

I used to have double runners
when I was a boy.

Come on, get out there.

Margie, don't forget. I still want your license.

Bill, I think I lost it.

-You think, or you know?
-I looked in my wallet, and it wasn't there.

Well, Santa still needs it.

So I want you to go down to the DMV
first thing in the morning

and get a replacement, okay?

You seem more confident or something.

I think I get confidence from finally being
where I think I'm supposed to be, you know?

You seeing anyone?

Yeah, I've had a few dates with a couple guys.

How's your family doing?

Seems like everyone's going after your dad
like Piggy from Lord of the Flies.

We're pretty proud of him.

It's hard right now.

But you can't go through life
pretending not to be who you are.

And who are you, Ben?

LDS guys at your age
are preparing for their missions.

I finished up mid-semester,
so my last day of school was yesterday.

Are you okay?

-Ben, Heather.
-How you holding up?

Fine.

Heather's really blossomed.

She got Ben out on the ice.

-Those were great comments at dinner.
-Thank you.

Do you want to say anything more?

-ls there a problem?
-No problem.

I just hope we're not settling into a place

where we feel the need
to constantly one-up each other.

I don't want that either.

'Cause if you're feeling I'm not enough,
or that my guidance is lacking...

Bill.

There's no hidden agenda.

Time to grab your sweetheart
and take her for a spin around the rink.

Couples skate. It's a couples skate only.

Shall we?

No, Bill.

It's our family night.

It's now or never.

Here you go.

-I'm uncomfortable.
-We all are.

Chin up, Margene.

See? It's not so bad.

Just don't let go of each other.

If you can't do the $300,
I could make do with $200.

-I got a call from the county this morning.
-Yes.

Verifying your address
for the women, infants and children program.

What's this?

What is this?

-Albert.
-You said the baby was gone.

Not exactly.

-You said this monstrosity was gone.
-Please...

I'm purifying this compound
to make us worthy in Heavenly Father's favor.

I have nowhere else to go.

This baby and this house is all I have!

No. No!

No.

You are impure, unworthy and unholy.

I have kept all of the Covenants.

You are unclean
to dwell among the righteous

and unfit for resurrection at the end of days.

I only did what was asked of me.

I'm sorry! Please! I am sorry!

You are a cold and deceitful woman.

Pack your things and go.

Father, she's left.

-Who's left?
-Lura.

She'd never leave me. She's confused.

Find her. Get her. Go!

Pack.

To your knowledge,
has your mother suffered any strokes lately?

No, not at all.

Has she complained
of any headaches or migraines?

No, but she wouldn't.

She doesn't like to complain
or show vulnerability.

Why? What's going on?

I'm sorry to tell you this,

but your mother is suffering
from a fair to moderate amount of dementia.

Dementia?

You mean Alzheimer's?

Possibly, but not necessarily.

I gave her a quick mini cog-screening test,

and I asked her to draw a clock
with the hands set at 11:10.

Could be Alzheimer's
or Huntington's or Parkinson's,

or even aphasia, or a B12 deficiency.

Bill.

She wants to put her
through all kinds of tests and scans

at the university hospital after New Year's.

I'm so sorry.

How's she doing with the news?

Bill? She doesn't know?

-I mean, Bill, you have to tell her.
-Not now, I don't.

Well, it's her life. She needs to know.

Barb, it'll destroy her.

I'm not gonna ruin
what could be her last Christmas.

It can wait.

All I can think is there'll be a day
when she won't even know who I am.

She's always been so indestructible.

Let me help you.

I'm strong, Bill.
Let me shoulder some of the burden.

You are such a blessing to me.
What would I do without you?

You know.

It felt so good to have responsibility
at the casino,

to feel that I had something unique to offer.

Let's find more areas
where we can make that happen.

It means so much to me to hear you say that.

Do you ever doubt it?

No.

No.

I'm gonna make some changes
at church tonight.

I think you'll be pleased with them.

And the butcher's gonna call this afternoon
with the suet.

Thank you.

Let's hope these make a difference
at the casino.

Albert has no authority.

Albert's a false prophet.

Mama, don't you understand?

My life, my beliefs, all my good works,

building up Juniper Creek
shoulder to shoulder with your father.

This Christmas is your new beginning,
our new beginning.

-I have no one.
-You'll start over.

You are a survivor.

Where's the woman
who can work any situation to her advantage?

Bill called. I'm so sorry.
What can I do to help?

Thank you, Margene. My poor mother.

-Here you go.
-Thank you, sweetheart.

I'm gonna go pray for a while.

Gram, have you heard
anything from my father?

Has he called you recently?

No, sweetheart.

I did get a card not long ago from Mexico.

I think that's where it was.

Definitely. And he's well.

Is he mad at me or angry?

I'm sure he isn't.

Nicki, I'm so sorry.
I hate to ask you this right now,

but I need a driver's license.

Bill's breathing down my neck for it,
and I lost mine.

And I can't go get another one,
because I have so many parking tickets.

Margene, that's unacceptable.
Any little scandal could hurt us.

-Please...
-You get rid of those tickets right away.

Please, could you or your mom
just make me a new one?

Margie, it's not as easy as you think.

And I doubt Mama just carries
the equipment around in her van.

Could you ask her?

You just pay your tickets.
Bill has many enemies now.

What are you doing?

Putting together the Nativity
for the front yard.

-What's up?
-What do you know about my father?

Nothing. They stop talking about him
whenever I come into the room.

My mom says that he ran away to evade arrest.

And I've talked to all my family,
and they don't know where he is.

I mean, the whole thing is just weird.

What do you think is happening?

I really don't know.

Will you cover for me tomorrow?
Back me up? Say you took me shopping?

Sure, I guess. It depends.

What are you gonna do?

I'm gonna find out where he is.

My ice cream bar.

The tribe wanted to go in a different direction.

And you shouldn't even be here
until we're through with arbitration.

Yes, I know, but we wanted
to make a gesture of conciliation.

Look, we invested our hearts in this.
You can't just take it away from us.

The place smells to high heaven
of cigarette smoke.

You've made yourselves
quite unwelcome up here.

This new concept
is keeping this place in business,

and it's doing quite well.

Here's your check
for your percentage of the revenue.

Wait a second. $1,700?

That can't be for the whole quarter.
That's impossible.

You can take that up with the arbitration, too.

Nice ofyou guys to drop by.

Leave the plants on the bar on your way out.

I testify that our lord, Jesus Christ,
is a resurrected being

of absolute love and compassion.

I testify that Christ gave his life

that we may live eternally
with him and Our Father in heaven

and with our beloved families.

-ln the name of Jesus Christ, amen.
-Amen.

I see we have several new faces
with us here tonight.

Welcome.

I usually have the honor
of blessing the sacrament,

but tonight I'd like to start a new tradition,

try something different.

Ben, would you bless
this special sacrament?

Oh, God, the Eternal Father,

we ask thee in the name
of thy son, Jesus Christ,

to bless and sanctify this bread.

I didn't know where else to go.

Don't trust her.

She's here to get Mama.
You're here to hurt Mama.

No, I left. I've left the Creek.

What happened, Lura? Why did you leave?

He's killed all the dogs on the compound.
He threatened to reassign my children.

I don't believe you.

He's changed. He's frozen inside.

Please, I can't lose my children.

She's in need, and we're gonna help.

But it's not safe for them here or for us.
What if Alby comes looking for her?

I'm getting dressed
and taking them to the shelter.

This way. Okay.

Nice beds for you guys.

Here we go.

Here's your new place.

Thomas, you're the oldest,
so you get to pick bunks.

I'll be right back.

How fast can the cops get here
if there's a problem?

Only takes a few minutes.
We have a direct line to the dispatcher.

We don't go through 911.

After the holidays,
I can get with the State Attorney

to help out with protection and custody.

Until then, we've gotta keep an eye out.

Unfortunately, I have more experience
with abusive husbands than I care to recount.

This is a special variety.

No one on that compound has ever left a man
of her husband's importance.

We'll give her special care,
and we'll see you tomorrow.

We don't want to hurt you, Santa Claus,
so come along quietly.

What's cookin', good lookin's?

Gram, I can't see Santa.

-Yeah!
-Yeah!

-You wanna see Santa, do you?
-Yeah.

Santa, Santa, Santa, Santa!

O little town of Bethlehem
How still we see thee lie

Gary, I don't know what to say.

I saw it at the mall.
I thought maybe you'd like it.

How's it look?

Beautiful.

Are you nervous or something?

-We just passed a cop.
-So?

So I don't have my driver's license,
just a learner's permit.

I mean, we're all going
to perdition anyway, so what the heck?

Welcome to Telly's. Happy holidays.
How may I help you?

We wanna see Santa.

Excuse me?

Santa. Santa. We're here to see Santa.

Gram, let's just go home.

Ma'am, maybe if you try the mall.

What's wrong with you?

Do you think I'm some kind of fool?
Is that what you think in there?

Come on, let's go home, Gram.

-Yeah, let's go home.
-Yeah. Yeah.

Come on, lady! Move it!

Where is Santa? You tell me right now.

-Guns, Bill?
-You peeked.

You deliberately went out ofyour way
to find them,

then you deliberately unwrapped them.

I wanted it to be a surprise.

Well, the streak continues.

-Last year you got me an electric razor.
-You got me a curling iron.

You got me a scale while I was pregnant.

I thought they'd be fun.
And not just the guns,

the permits and shooting lessons
that I thought we could all take together.

Nicki, could you please take my pepparkakor
out of the oven and rotate my spritz?

I specifically asked for a washer and dryer,
something practical.

-Guns are practical.
-How, Bill? How are guns practical?

I haven't had one since my bag was stolen,
and I'm fine.

The world's an uncertain place,
and if ever I wasn't here,

I want you guys to be able
to take care of yourselves.

-Why wouldn't you be here?
-It's just precautionary, Margie. Just in case.

-ln case we need to shoot someone.
-No.

-ln case anything happens to me.
-What's gonna happen to you?

-I'm not gonna shoot anyone.
-No one is.

-I already have a gun anyway.
-And if this is why

you need my driver's license, forget it.
You're not gonna get it.

Enough! That's enough.

I'm sorry you hate my gift idea.

But they're paid for. It's what you're getting.

And if this, of all Christmases,
with your mother and mine,

the trials we're facing, the wars overseas...

If this is about nothing more than gifts
when we should be counting our blessings...

And, Margene, I am tired of asking.

I want your driver's license
or your birth certificate.

I don't care, but I want it now!

Hello?

-We're lost.
-Wayne?

-Wayne?
-Where is he?

-He's lost.
-Lost?

Honey, where are you?

I grabbed Gram's phone.
We've been driving around.

God, please, stop lying to me!

We're at a restaurant.

Can you look for an adult?
Okay, can you do that?

-What's wrong with you?
-I did not say one word to you.

-I think so.
-Please stop lying to me!

Why won't anyone tell me?
Dear God, where is Santa?

-Mom!
-Mom.

Are you okay? Wayne?

Am I in trouble?

What happened?

I'm sorry. I just...

I'm not sure.

She's confused.

I hope you don't have to write up a report.

You're that polygamist senator, aren't you?

Not today. Today, I'm just a father and a son.

I get it.
I'll do my best to keep this off the blotter.

-Thank you, Officer.
-Merry Christmas, buddy.

-ls everything all right?
-It's all right, Mom. It's all taken care of.

-We just gotta go.
-Can we go home? Let's go home.

Thanks again.

This was his clinic.

No one said anything about a fire.

Something's happened to him.

But you said you've talked to him.

I just made that up.

Hello?

Lura? My darling?

I'm sorry I had to leave you at Christmastime.

I can't tell you how much it gladdens my heart
to hear from you, Lura.

Are you coming back?

To think of you rejecting the righteous path
to live among the filthy, amoral Gentiles...

You're a good woman. I know that.

You and I are not perfect,

but we can turn our marriage around
with the help of Heavenly Father.

Do you want to be an outcast, an apostate?

No.

You'll never see your parents again,
or your brothers or sisters

in this life or the next.

I should think
that would be too much to endure.

Senator.

We hope your wife is feeling better.

The first Noel

The angels did say

Was to certain poor shepherds

In fields as they lay

In fields where they

Lay keeping their sheep

On a cold winter's night

That was so deep

Noel, Noel

Noel, Noel

Born is the King of Israel

I looked up bicams and unicams,
and I had to conclude

that the unicameral legislature just makes
for more efficient lawmaking.

That sounds like a very interesting course,
Heather.

Honey, why are you so quiet?

-What's the matter with you?
-I'm fine, Mama.

Thank you, everyone, for having me here.

It's a joy having you with us this Christmas,
Adaleen.

It's a very tough time for me,
and I'm so grateful to Heavenly Father

for my daughter, my grandchildren,
for all of you.

We're glad you're here, Grandma.

-I'm grateful, too.
-Did you like the lamb, Gram?

-Are you all right?
-I'm fine, thanks.

What exactly are you doing here?

It is Christmas Eve.

My parents are in Mexico City right now
picking up baby Ruby.

-It's my new little sister.
-That's wonderful.

This plum pudding is delicious, by the way.

Thank you, Heather. It's a family tradition.

There are no plums. It's made with all fat.

Take some to Aaron and Lester.

"By Nebo's lonely mountain

"On this side Jordan's wave

"There land...

"There lies in the land... There..."

Come on, Gram. Let's go look at the tree.

-That's Sarah and Teenie.
-I wanna talk to them too, Mom.

Hello? Hi, sweetie!

Margie?

Honey, come sit by me.

-Hi.
-What is it, honey?

Hey, what's going on?

I have to tell you something.

I found my driver's license.

-You found it. That's great.
-lt wasn't lost.

I didn't want to give it to you,
because when we got married, I was really 16.

Bill?

What do you mean?

I lied about my age.

I wasn't 18 when we got married. I was 16.

-No, you weren't.
-Yes, I was.

Hold on.

What is it?

You were only 16?

But your mother said you were 18.

Because I told her to.

But you signed on for medical at work.

No one looked.

And then I didn't think
it was a big deal at the time,

but then I realized it was a big deal,
so I've been too afraid to tell.

And I didn't want to hurt anybody
because I love you all so much.

Mom, where are you? Where's Dad?

Your dad will have to call you girls back.
Okay.

You are aware
that the legal age of consent is 18?

Congratulations, Margene.

You've just ruined Christmas.

-What happened to my father?
-Nothing I'm aware of.

His clinic is burned to the ground.

Yes. He did it.

Why?

To hide the evidence.

-The evidence of what?
-Of what he was doing.

What was he doing?

I don't know. Experimenting.

-Please, leave me alone!
-No, tell me.

-Leave me alone, Cara Lynn.
-Experimenting with what? Tell me.

With babies, with conception.

-With what he put inside me.
-What did he put inside you?

A monster.

My father is dead, isn't he?

Okay, Aaron, Lester,
let's get these toys home.

That can wait until after we get back.

We're not still going to the shelter.

Of course we are.

-I'll stay with Gram.
-I think I'll stay, too.

Merry Christmas.

-Soup?
-Thank you, sir.

-Merry Christmas.
-Thank you.

Don't be mad. Bill didn't know.

I am not mad at him.

Please don't be mad at me either, Barb.
I have struggled alone with this for a while.

Do you know what this turns us into,
Margene?

What it does to Bill?
Didn't you ever think of that?

No, Barb, I didn't.

-Do you know why?
-Please enlighten me.

Because my age never mattered before.

It was just a date on a license,
a license that nobody cared about,

because I wasn't remotely associated
with Bill, or you, or the family.

Unmarried mother, unmarried teen mother.
Eighteen, 16, who cared?

I care. Bill cares.

I can't believe we're here
after Margie's little stunt.

I wish I knew how I could go forward,
but I don't.

I can't expect you to understand
how I feel, but l...

Me? Listen, Barb,
I was against that marriage from the start.

I voted against it. You were all for it.

So spare me the indignation.
Your anger is between you and you.

-Here you are.
-Thank you.

-Enjoy.
-Thank you.

-I'm sorry.
-I know, Margie.

I'm so sorry for what I've done.

All I wanted was
to be a member of this family.

It's not your fault, Margene.

It's not your fault.

Like some soup?

-Merry Christmas.
-Thank you.

Please scrape the plates in the garbage.
The turkey can't go down the disposal.

Cara Lynn, snap out of it.

Things are hard enough already.
It's Christmas.

What's the matter with you?

He's dead.

-Who? Who's dead?
-Papa is.

Stop lying to me.

I went to the compound.

-I saw his clinic.
-No.

-I talked to Adaleen.
-I don't...

Stop lying to me.

Don't!

I didn't tell you
because I wanted to protect you.

-Your father was not a holy man.
-No.

He had evil in his heart,
and he did terrible things.

I grew up insisting
that my father was a good man,

-and it almost ruined my life.
-Please, stop.

I'm sorry, baby, but you have to hear this.

If I'd accepted what my father was,
things would have been different for me.

Your father tried to play God, Cara Lynn.

He tried to do it with me.
He tried to do it with you.

He taught me how to ride a bike.

I mean, he taught me how to read.

Why are you trying this family, me,
so unmercifully?

Are we sinning? Have we strayed?

We struggle to keep your Commandments,
to dwell in love.

Heavenly Father, I can bear any burden,

I can endure any trial, but my family...

Please, spare my family
these unending punishments.

Bill, Bill, come quick. Alby's got Lura.

Let's go home.

Very good.

-Here we go.
-Alby, no.

Unhand my wife, Nicolette.

You hated Papa, but you're becoming worse.

Let her go. Bill.

You have to let her decide, Nicki.

I'm not leaving
until she tells me with her own mouth

that she wants to stay in hell
among the darkest spirits.

Lura, listen to me. You don't have to go.

We can protect you and your children.

-What do you want to do?
-l...

-I don't...
-Tell me.

I...

She wants to go home.

Then let her say it.

Lura?

I don't want to go back.

That's it, Alby. She stays.

Now get out of here.

How dare you come
between a priesthood holder

and his wife and children?

Alby.

You're not worthy
to be anyone's priesthood holder.

I'll tell you what you are.

You are filth.

You're a sinful, shame-faced coward
who lives a secret life,

who takes out his own self-loathing
on innocent women and children.

-You disgust me.
-Bill!

That's enough.

Come on.

You got back early.

Barb.

Wayne, go in the other room.

She's been...

I think there's some leftover plum pudding
in the fridge.

I haven't eaten it all.

Merry Christmas.

Mom, come on. It's gonna be all right.

No, I'm fine.

-I'm fine.
-Barbara.

Here.

We're not holy.

We're all unholy.

No, that's absolutely untrue.

Come on, it's still Christmas.

I wasn't pure.

I am now.

Heavenly Father tests those
he holds a special mission for.

Sometimes we only realize his plan
through loss.

My darling boy.

I will never leave you.

I'll take good care of you.