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What's the outfit?

I'm going for black, double-breasted.

-Hey! -Hiya!

Losing was not an option.

Maybe one won and the other had come in second,

and the one who won couldn't be happy because his brother was sad.

-My pulse is going up. -Yeah.

My heart rate went up, now that it's getting close to it.

Now, Henrik Lundqvist has to play his best game of the tournament.

When Henrik gave up a soft goal, I understood that it hurt him,

so it hurt me too.

If the goal goes in, you hear it from the stands.

"He should have gotten that one," or something like that. It hurts.

Hey, it's Jimmy.

Hi, it's Hank.

Hey. How are you today?

It is quite rare to have the kind of career that you've had,

staying in one place for so long.

Yes.

It sounds funny, but it's really the case that when we have an image

of how we should be,

and when we feel like we didn't achieve what we had envisioned,

this can become very challenging.

Exactly that.

I've been thinking about winning and losing.

Isn't the definition of what winning is

based on what you, yourself, want it to be?

I think it depends on how you define what winning is.

What do you think? Then it's about what you experience--

You can feel like a winner, even if you don't win all the time.

But, in the end…

it becomes quite clear if you've won or not.

One could say that you've won New York's heart.

As an athlete, you are very much appreciated in New York.

Yes.

Then you've won.

The aorta being that size concerns us

particularly in someone who is playing, you know…

I appreciate that you're a goalie, you have protective padding,

but there's still a potential to take some hits there.

Not far behind that in my mind is,

is the narrowing of that aortic valve.

With the aorta, the risk is dissection, tearing of the blood vessel.

There's a risk of death with that, and it is a significant risk.

But then the narrowing of the valve,

the risk is you're not getting enough blood supply to the heart muscle

when you're exercising at the very extremes.

And that can increase the risk of

abnormal rhythms and sudden death.

If…

If I was your brother…

would you tell me not to play?

I would.

Yeah.

This is crushing.

And then it's like, if we take self-esteem, what's that for you?

Self-esteem.

Our thoughts about ourselves.

The idea of ourselves. Yes.

So, if we have dominant thoughts about ourselves, that we are valuable

and we are worthy of what we want, we think highly of ourselves…

then the probability is higher for us to choose to be…

loving to ourselves, of course, but also to be able to make decisions

and commit to actions that promote that.

You probably had an even more abnormal valve

than the typical bicuspid valve.

And the calcium has kind of built up all across that valve.

So that explains why your valve has failed at such a young age.

Thirty-eight is really young.

I know they're telling you after 15 years in New York, you're going--

you're an old goaltender, they're telling you.

But you're a young man.

-You're really young, okay? -Yeah.

And I'd love to see you play hockey again.

But if we let your heart fight against that valve

that's not opening very well for too long,

you can develop changes in the muscle of your heart

that will limit your overall lifespan.

Basically, your heart is working like someone

that's exercising kinda all day long,

even when you're just sitting here at rest.

Because your heart's fighting against that valve that doesn't open.

Then the concern is when you're really pushing yourself hard,

like you do in a game,

if your heart hits the sort of peak where you just can't get enough

blood flow to that heart

that's now thickened and kind of working so hard,

you could have a really bad problem, you know.

You could die from that.

We gotta either do something about your valve

or put your game at rest.

What a party!

What a year, wow!

Cheers, happy new year!

We're at the party of the year!

-Take care. -No, we're not.

-Hang up now, she's not filming-- -He's crazy!

Nobody is watching this.

He's crazy!

New Year's Eve, 2020.

-Hello, Charlise. -Hi.

Juli? What do you think has been good in 2020?

What's good is that we're about to build a new apartment.

That's exciting!

A new home. Our new home.

So you can have one designated visitor.

They want it to be the same person. So it sounds like it's gonna be your wife.

Yup.

She can come with you the day of surgery

and then stay here in the hospital while you're in surgery,

meet with Dr. Roselli

and then be able to see you after surgery.

Okay, great.

It was a tough surgery.

I know this, I'm a physiotherapist.

I know how a heart works.

I knew what was wrong with him.

I knew it was a very dangerous operation.

Major surgery.

-Hello. -Hi.

We're all done. Everything went great.

-Okay, great. -No problems at all.

-Thank you. -Yeah, his valve was awful,

as we expected.

I think he's really going to feel a whole lot better now.

-Okay, great. -With the new valve.

I mean, there's no question this was the right thing to do.

I've been so nervous the whole day! I can breathe again.

-Yeah. -Right? A little at least?

-Yeah. -Yeah.

It was pretty easy somehow after the surgery…

my daily life.

Why do you think that is?

I thought almost nothing about the future at first.

I think you were just happy to be alive.

Yes.

He was doing great at first,

and then he had a stage when he couldn't eat or anything.

I just said, "You have to get up."

"You have to get up and walk. You have to get on your feet."

You can't lie in bed and just say, "I can't take it."

"I don't want to eat, I don't want to walk."

"Up!" I said.

"Now you just have to walk."

Right after the operation, I lived so much in the present

that I didn't think much about things that needed to be done,

or what had happened, either.

I was just there, and that was a sense of calm…

I want to recreate that all the time.

I just needed time to…

get that energy out, I think.

It felt a bit like that, get the negative energy out of my body.

Yeah.

And that negative energy…

was that connected to your expectations and what you had envisioned,

and when it didn't turn out that way, it became a lot to deal with?

Yeah. Exactly.

The rehabilitation had not gone as he had hoped,

so then we all had to come to terms with that.

Captain Erik.

All is well?

I'd say so. How are you?

Great.

Yes, I can already feel myself getting relaxed.

It's hard not to, on a day like this.

Thanks for the ride.

Thank you!

-Do you want some coffee? -I'd love some.

Somehow, life wants us well, I think.

Yes, and it can be hard to see when you're in the middle of it sometimes.

You're still here.

I'm still here, yes.

-But without the skates. -Without the skates.

I think that our expectations, when we have expectations,

should be a specific way, because there is a risk they limit us.

And that this is what makes us suffer.

Do you agree?

Yes. I think that was a bit of a problem…

Toward the end, in my mind, I imagined how it should be.

Instead of just living it, I sort of tried to…

draw the roadmap,

and it created stress

and disappointment too.

I feel that we don't believe enough

that our thoughts actually create our reality.

A lot of what we talk about…

for example, things like, "I want to end my career here."

"This is what I want…"

But then life wants something different, and then it's difficult to accept reality.

Is there a car coming?

Yeah, I can call.

Deep breathing.

Deep breathing.

Stretch.

My back's hurting. Is it because I'm retiring for real?

Will you be all right on the carpet all the way over there?

Yes, we've practiced it.

You've practiced, we saw you practice.

You're going to walk hand-in-hand.

-Waving to the people. -Maybe waving a bit more humbly.

Like a queen, they wave like this.

If they cheer, you know for sure…

-They will. -That will be tough.

It will be tough, but the tears are coming to me already.

Keep your pockets full of tissues always.

What does tomorrow look like?

Tomorrow…

We'll see if we do anything during the day, but the party is at night.

Celebrating my 40th birthday. It'll be…

It'll be fun.

-It really is a full week of celebration. -Yes.

You could say that.

If you go back to where you were a year ago or three years ago,

you realize quite a lot has happened.

And things can grow a lot more than you realize.

Yeah, I guess that's what life is, right?