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You want to know the truth? I'll tell y...!

OK, well, I found this on the floor.

Jamie got upset about Liam, cut his hand on the bottle.

You won't tell anyone? He'd be gutted.

We need a story.

Just keep saying it - in your head, out loud -

till you make it the truth,

and then all the bad things will just fade away.

I promise you.

I know you didn't want to know. He's your dad, too.

Beth tracked him down in prison.

What are you doing?! Mum tried to bribe Connor.

Just as he said.

I need to find out if he's Connor's dad or not.

Would you rather tell the truth?

Would you rather I tell everyone? No.

Connor was my son.

Connor was my son.

I cheated on your mum.

It was my fault.

KNOCKING

Connor Moran is missing.

He didn't show up to sign on at his local station,

broke his bail conditions.

Officers went to check his home address, but...

...yeah, no sign of him.

Hmm. It's not unusual for someone like him to go AWOL, is it?

The last trace of his phone was at your daughter's wedding.

Surprised he got an invite, after everything.

He just turned up.

Megan felt sorry for him, let him stay.

Was there any trouble?

No.

Still, I bet you weren't too happy to see him.

Well, it was a very happy day.

It probably helped him to let go.

How do you mean?

Well, seeing us together

might have... might have helped him

realise that he was not a part of our family after all.

What time did he leave?

No idea.

See,

kids tend not to stop using their phones.

He lost it?

Ditched it, got a new one?

I'm sure he will tell you when you find him.

Uh, I want a word with Will.

Will? Yeah?

WHISPERS: Why Will?

He kept well away from Connor. His sister's Happiness comes first.

When was the last time you saw Connor at the wedding?

I mean, to be honest with you,

I wasn't paying attention to him.

And what time did you leave?

I don't know. You lose track of time with these things.

Were you there for the speeches, the cake?

All I remember is we left early because my son was tired.

Do you know, this is starting to sound a bit like harassment?

If you're genuinely concerned about Connor, there's more useful

places you could be looking. I mean, have you tried the bus station,

the estate?

We're checking out all the hot spots in Bristol and around here.

Hopefully he'll turn up, we can all go back to our families -

although you're not staying with your family,

is that right?

Temporarily, yeah.

Well, let me know if you remember anything useful.

Do you want to go in? I won't be a sec.

So, um, if I remember something

of your dealings with my client,

should I get in touch with the Chief Inspector?

Or will she be more interested in your profiling of my son?

If you think it'll help you, go ahead,

but it might get her thinking you've got an ulterior motive.

Good luck with your investigation.

My family is none of his business.

It's nothing, love. Just calm down.

Why was he asking you about Connor anyway?

That's none of your business either.

They had a disagreement.

It was Connor's fault.

It'll be standard procedure.

I wonder what's happened to him.

Well, doesn't anyone care?

He... came out of the blue.

I guess he went the same way.

Maybe he's moved on to another family.

Five minutes ago, sorry,

you were all convinced he was your brother.

I think we wanted to believe it because of Liam.

Right. But if he's in trouble, shouldn't we be trying to help?

There's nothing we can do.

Let's leave it to Pritchard. Pritchard couldn't find his arse

with both hands and a map.

PHONE RINGS

Hello.

Hey, can you cover for me at work tomorrow?

My mother's had a fall, I think it's the end.

Oh, Chris, I'm so sorry.

Well, I'm not. I've got to do my duty. Have you told the kids?

Well, they don't know about her, remember?

No-one else knows.

Yeah, I get that, love,

but if she's dying...

...I mean, she's their grandmother.

She's nothing to them, all right?

They've been through enough lately.

Look, if you can't help me, then I... No, no, I do, I will.

Of course I will.

Cheers, Beth. I owe you.

I hated you for making me do that.

All these years, I've pictured me seeing the kids...

...where we'd be, what I'd say, what I'd do to make amends.

Instead they had to see me in here.

Now I have to look them in the eye in their hour of need and tell them

a pack of lies.

I didn't make you do anything.

We had an agreement.

You, me and Kate.

We have to stick with that.

So it's done?

They won't find him?

I need to get my story straight,

in case the police come asking.

They won't come asking.

Connor will slip through the cracks like he always did.

I've sorted the loose ends.

Gethin and Beth are asking questions,

but I can handle it.

What about Kate?

Kate's always had our backs.

Joe said she was pretty wasted at the wedding.

Too many pills, too much booze.

Same old story.

Sure she got rid of the paperwork?

I will phone her and check.

I'll bring her up to speed.

Yeah. Go and see her.

Look into her eyes.

We're all too good at lying.

Then you can go back to hating me.

Never been anyone else, Chrissy.

Um...

I'll let you know about Kate.

DOOR OPENS

Go on. Which one of my clients is it this time?

Oh, it's not Iwan with the snakes again, is it?

Oh, no. No, not this time.

No, I was just wondering, were you at Megan's wedding?

First at the church, last off the dance floor.

Why?

What happened with Connor Moran?

Oh, well, he turned up, which was a surprise, but nothing

happened, as far as I know.

You talk to him?

Only about whether it was a good idea, him being there,

and he seemed to think it was,

so I left him to it.

When did you see him leave?

What's going on?

Is Connor OK?

No-one's seen him, and his phone's been dead since the wedding.

What were you shredding?

PHONE RINGS

Excuse me? BABY CRIES

What the hell are you doing here?!

Looking for your painkillers.

I thought you might need some when you woke up.

Why are you here?

Has something happened?

Just a welfare check.

You must be dehydrated.

I will make us a brew.

No, Chris.

I'll do it.

Why are you checking on me, Chris?

It's not you. I needed to look at something in those papers.

I destroyed mine.

I was hoping you'd still have the original.

Well, I told you, I got rid of them.

I thought you meant you were going to do it but...

...hadn't got around to it yet.

What was it you wanted to check?

Doesn't matter if they've gone.

Which is good.

So I will just use the loo and I'll be on my way.

Morning. Morning.

Quick word about Connor Moran.

Well, yeah.

Mum said...

What did she say?

Just something about you looking for him.

So you've no idea where he is?

I...

Jamie wouldn't have a clue.

I was working him hard that day as well.

Time for your break?

Yeah.

I saw Connor, early on,

let him stay.

He was gone soon after the service.

Left without saying goodbye.

I think that probably means he's gone for good.

Congratulations.

On your wedding. Oh!

Thanks.

If you hear anything, let me know.

Wouldn't want Connor winding up like your Liam.

DOOR OPENS AND CLOSES

OK? I hate him.

I hate all of this.

I'm sorry.

This is not fair on you.

We'll get through it. You shouldn't have to.

It's not your fault, any of this.

Maybe that's why you can lie to Pritchard.

You haven't done anything wrong.

But me? We can't talk about this here.

If he asks me again, then I'm going to cry. I should just come clean.

That's what should have happened in the first place. You can't now.

We're all in on it. I need to get out of here.

You're better off here with us.

We'll look after you.

RUMMAGING

Don't you believe me?

I want to.

I really do.

Oh, Chris...

I'm just looking out for us, Kate.

Connor's disappeared.

What's happened?

The police are doing a few checks.

So we need to keep our heads and we can't have any loose ends.

Oh.

Is that what I am?

It's what we all are.

I've seen Harry as well.

Harry?

It's that serious?

Well, Beth's been snooping,

the kids want answers.

But don't worry, cos we've worked it all out.

Oh, don't fob me off like I can't handle it.

I have a right to know!

Where was Harry?!

What answers have you two cooked up behind my back?

Tell me!

I'm part of this, too!

Sorry. Drowning in accounts here.

Uh, didn't you find him last night?

He was a bit hazy on timing,

so I thought best check with you.

When did you last see Connor?

Not sure. Sometime after the meal, I think.

He was mucking about with Alfie.

You were both OK with that?

Well, I'm not wild about known delinquents fraternising

with my son, no.

But I was watching him like a hawk.

Alfie can get overexcited.

Oh, like your husband?

What's this all about?

Because it's starting to feel like you've got it in for Will.

And why might that be?

I'm just doing my job.

Delinquents need to be kept track of.

Don't you think, Mrs Rees?

So how long did you stay at the wedding

after you last saw Connor?

I'm a little hazy about that, too.

Think about it.

Rough estimate.

Sometime after the speeches, I think, when Alfie got tired.

That's what Will said.

So that's when you all left,

together?

Is Will in some kind of trouble?

I'll let you know.

PHONE RINGS

It's the school.

Sorry. See yourself out?

Thanks.

What's he done now?

How is our weakest link?

He's fine.

Tougher than you think.

You need to keep an eye on him.

He's going to mess it up for all of us.

You don't have to keep an eye on either of us. Thanks.

Here you go.

And the toast.

I've got to keep an eye on everything around here!

Have you seen Connor?

Do you know he's gone missing? I heard something, yeah.

But to be honest with you, I've got enough on my plate.

Haven't you? Jamie, forget the toast. Making me late.

I'll see you soon, all right? Yeah.

Just need a... word with...

You didn't tell Connor, did you?

What you found out from Harry?

I haven't spoken to him.

Yeah, well, I think he might know anyway.

I found what I think is his research.

What? At work.

It's loads of photos of Connor and your family, and notes.

It's Connor's writing, so I can only assume that he gave them to your mum

to try and get her to come clean.

Harry's fine.

You just don't get it, do you?

You think we can all just go along with it all, no matter what.

He's not a risk.

But he's worried about you.

Oh, that's nice!

Is that how you bonded?

You had a good, old bitch about me?

Even though he was the one who let you down and I never have!

I have always been there for you, Christine!

And I've been here for you, too.

We are all in this together.

We are all in bloody prison!

And we will be for real, the moment that Connor shows up!

And then what?

How much longer can we keep lying?

No-one is showing up,

because I've kept you out of this.

He saw me! And I saw him!

His face.

Liam's face.

If I had those papers, I wouldn't give them to you.

I'd wait until you went home and I'd give them to the police.

And we'd be free. You better bloody knot.

Well, what have I got to lose?

You and Harry have got the kids. What have I got?

This place? My job?

I'm so sick of it.

Where have you hidden them, Kate?

In here, maybe?

Don't!

You're making a mess!

Christine!

So sorry!

Christine, please...

Sorry!

Stop!

Where is it?! Stop it!

INTERNAL RINGTONE

Hello. Is Kate Daniels in the office today?

No worries.

Yeah. I hope she's on the mend soon.

Thank you for your help. Bye.

I'm going to be late home tonight. I need to see Kate.

What's Kate got to do with it?

That's a good question.

Connor was asking the same thing.

You promised not to talk to him.

I haven't.

He's gone missing, and she's called in sick all week.

I've got a feeling she's mixed up in all this.

Pritchard's already looking for him. I could just mention Kate.

You'd end up telling him the whole story,

so if you want to upset your best friend and her entire family

over some mad hunch, then, sure, go ahead.

Otherwise, I think you should come home, order a Thai and forget

all about this.

Yeah, I wish I could, Joe.

Just not built that way.

Don't wait up.

Beth. Beth! KNOCKING

Hi, Joe.

I came as soon as I could. Is Alfie OK?

Is Will on the way?

He's tied up at work.

Ah. You might want him here.

Um, shall I give him a call?

To be honest, um, I haven't told him.

We're having a few issues.

Oh, I'm sorry to hear that. Mm.

Is Alfie all right? Um...

He's lashed out, worse than usual.

Is he hurt? No.

But the kid he threw the chair at is getting stitches.

Oh, my God! I'm so sorry!

Alfie's barricaded himself in the safe space,

which is at least safe.

I'm hoping we can coax him out without removing the hinges.

Well, Ann...

It's OK.

It's OK.

We just need Alfie to know that no-one's angry with him,

we're worried.

SHE CLEARS THROAT

The, uh...

...waiting list for assessment is longer than ever.

But if this is something more...

...environmental, then perhaps

we can work together to sort it out.

Do you want someone else with you? I can call Christine. Oh, hell, no.

No. She's the last person. Oh.

Sorry.

You wouldn't know what it's like, that family.

Our family.

Will's fighting all the time for her love, approval.

I don't know, but I know he'll never be free,

so he...

...he lashes out.

He hasn't hurt me.

Yet.

But Alfie's seen...

Well, Alfie's a bright boy.

He's learning all the time.

Not just when he's here.

Do you need help to get away?

My family will help me.

Just, um...

I just need to sort it out, for Alfie's sake.

For all of you, by the sounds of it.

Please, don't tell her.

This is a safe space, too.

Are you ready to talk to Alfie?

Yeah? Mm. Come on.

Thank you.

Alfie?

Your mummy's here.

She just wants to speak to you.

Is that OK?

I'm not cross. I just want to see you.

I've got some chocolate buttons.

RUMMAGING

Not there.

What's all this?

That's...

...my safety net.

For when we're found out.

And now it's happened.

I can't lie any more.

Not to his face.

There's been too much.

How could I tell him what we did?

You don't need to.

It's over.

Connor's gone...

...and he's never coming back.

We're safe.

How?

You don't need to know the details.

KATE GASPS

But it was nobody's fault but his own.

He's with Liam now.

Oh, God!

What have we done?

We did nothing but good, Kate.

The rest was out of our control.

What's important now is that we're in the clear...

...when those papers are destroyed.

Where are they, Kate?

Where are they?

Your car...

...was near Connor's flat.

It'll be on CCTV.

The police won't notice...

...unless it's flagged by someone.

Do you understand?

Good.

Now...

...I'm going to put the kettle on...

...and you are going to get me what I need

by the time the tea is ready.

All right?

What the hell are you doing? Let me go.

Look, I've thought it all through. I won't mention you or anyone else.

It's better this way.

Listen, I get it. I really do.

But let's just talk. Talking's not going to help.

I need to do this. I should have done it in the first place.

It's the only way out. It's not a way out, though, is it?

Once you're through those doors, then your life is over.

It's what I deserve.

You're not thinking straight.

I made my decision.

This is one decision you ain't going to come back from,

so just take a breath.

I've already lost one brother. I can't lose another, I can't.

Let's go home.

GRUNTING

What the hell were you thinking?!

GRUNTING

YELLING, GRUNTING

Let go of him!

YELLING

GRUNTING, PANTING

PANTING, SOBBING

It's OK.

Connor's file, last copy.

Where was it?

Was hidden in my car.

What happens if they find him?

They won't.

CHRISTINE TURNS ON RADIO

MUSIC PLAYS Don't.

Don't.

I'm tired.

So am I.

I'm tired... and I'm old.

♪ I just don't wanna be lonely... ♪

Come here.

CHRISTINE SIGHS Come here.

♪ Only moments a day

♪ I just don't wanna be lonely... ♪

Remember how we used to be, Kate?

♪ Depended on to give a love I can't give... ♪

We used to be so naive.

♪ When you're gone

♪ I just don't wanna be lonely... ♪

Thought we could take on the problems of the whole world.

Like we didn't have enough.

♪ I just don't wanna be lonely... ♪

We can get through this again together. I know we can.

Like we always do.

♪ I just don't wanna be lonely... ♪

I won't.

Not this time.

I need to go away...

...and I can't see you again.

♪ I just don't wanna be lonely... ♪

I can't keep living like this.

I need to start over.

♪ I just don't wanna be lonely... ♪

It's my fault Liam's dead.

The night he died, I...

...I found him...

...beaten up by his dealer.

And...

...as soon as he saw me, he just...

...just started smiling.

No matter how shit I was to him...

...he always bloody smiled.

Of course he did.

He wanted money for gear.

What did you do?

I gave him twice as much as what he asked for.

Told him to...

...go and get off his head and...

..."Don't come back."

It's my fault, too.

He rang me at uni...

...the day he died.

The police had brought him home the night before...

...given him one last chance.

When Mum was sorting out rehab...

...Liam knew he couldn't do it.

He was desperate to get away.

Left me a long message,

begging to come stay with me.

If he got on the train right then,

he'd still be here now.

No, he wouldn't.

He'd have found your local dealer,

made your life hell and still gone the same way.

Liam called me, too.

That night.

He wanted me to come home so he wouldn't be alone.

I was out, getting pissed with my mates.

I told him, "Stop being so boring," and to come join us.

What not to say to a recovering addict.

I was the last person that spoke to him.

If anyone could have saved him..

...it was me.

KNOCKING Come.

Sorry to barge in.

I know you're busy man.

Is it about Connor?

You and Beth must tell each other everything.

Oh, she's just worried about the kid.

Uh, have you had any news?

Any idea what time you last saw Will Rees at the wedding?

I don't keep track of other people's kids on my days off.

Fair enough.

But did he leave before you, or...?

Uh...

Yeah. Yeah, he must have done, actually, cos we gave Sam and Alfie

a lift home.

Oh, yeah? Why is that?

Oh, I think he had a bad pint.

Went home on his own.

No idea when, though.

Sometime after the meal?

Presumably.

I really couldn't say.

OK.

Thanks. You've been very helpful.

Looking for your husband, Mrs Rees?

Just here to collect some receipts.

I think he's seeing suppliers today, isn't he?

He's hardly been in all week.

We're both busy. I don't track his every movement. I see.

Have the council signed off on the mineshaft already?

Will said it was just a formality, said we can go ahead and get it

filled in. So they haven't signed it off?

Sorry, I need to make a call.

No, no, you go ahead.

PHONE CHIMES

HE SOBS

HE SCREAMS

What's going on?

All the mess in the hall!

We, um...

We had a disagreement.

It's all sorted now.

Look at the state of you.

What is that going to look like to that detective, or any cop

with half a brain cell?

Let alone Gethin and Beth, who are already asking questions.

What is wrong with you?!

I'm killing myself to save you,

and all you can do is make it harder.

You...

...grow up,

go home,

sort your marriage out.

Go!

You, get changed!

You're all old enough to know better!

And you... Mum, I'm sorry... ..just get out of my sight!

KNOCKING

I know I'm not meant to, but I couldn't stay on that ward and...

...I don't know what I'm doing.

He keeps crying and there's no-one else.

Come on inside.

BABY CRIES SOFTLY

How did you know where I lived?

You told me once.

Am I in trouble?

I will be if anyone finds out.

Look, you can stay for another hour or two, to calm down.

Does that mean...?

He can't be hungry again.

No, I think it's the other thing.

Just stay there and rest.

I'll sort it.

Hey. Oh! There.

Right...

DOOR OPENS AND CLOSES

DOOR OPENS

FOOTSTEPS

Leave it.

Easier to get a new one.

Where's Alfie?

With my mum.

Is he OK?

I didn't want him to be here in case you got angry again.

And I should warn you,

my dad's calling to check I'm OK, so please, keep your temper.

I'm not going to get angry.

We need to sort this out.

I know you lied to the police.

I don't want to know why.

I don't want to hear any more of your lies.

What did you tell them? Nothing.

Not about the suit in the washer,

not about you leaving the wedding early.

I covered for all of your bullshit.

But that is the last time.

You won't need to do that again.

I know.

Because I'm leaving you.

You can't.

I'm over trying to fix this family for Alfie, for you, for...

...whoever I used to be before I got used to living like this.

You can't see how messed up it is because you've never

known anything else, but I've still got a choice

and I don't want Alfie to turn out like you.

You don't get to choose. He's my son.

He put a kid in A&E today.

What? Yeah.

He's clearly your son.

He's young enough to change.

I don't know if you can.

It's not my problem any more.

Get your things and go.

I'm sorry.

I know you won't believe me, but I can change, I can.

Even today, me, Megan and Jamie, we had it out, we sorted it.

Things are going to be different.

Yeah? Mm-hmm.

You're even lying at work.

You must know nothing can happen until we get proper sign-off

on the mineshaft.

I had to sort that out as well. What did you do?

What you should have done -

put everything on hold until the paperwork comes through.

I don't know who you think you are, that rules just don't apply to you.

Did you tell the police about that?

They were there, but they wouldn't have any interest in that...

Oh, my God! ..would they?

Stupid, STUPID...!

PHONE RINGS

My dad.

So, what happened?

Just family stuff.

Why can't you tell me?

Thanks for calming me down. I've got to get back.

Call me again if you need to.

Yeah.

Check CCTV coverage of the area... INDISTINCT CHATTER

RADIO CHATTER

SHE GASPS

Oh, thanks for doing the cards.

Where have you been all afternoon?

Jamie and Will fell out - usual stupid stuff.

It's all sorted now. Do you want a hand with this?

No.

Look, I've been thinking - we should just send everything back.

What?

The wedding presents.

You know, it's not a marriage if you keep lying to me.

I'm not. I'm not an idiot, Megan.

If you don't let me in, then we're done, you know?

I want to be like you.

Like it's all so simple.

If I tell you, then I'll be making you like us.

And that's the last thing I want.

This was Liam's room.

My Liam.

Thanks for looking after my Liam.

We don't deserve you.

Everyone deserves a proper start in life.

I can't help everyone.

I do what I can.

Get some sleep.

♪ Go to sleep, my baby

♪ Close your pretty eyes

♪ Angels up above you

♪ Peering at you dearly from the skies

♪ Go to sleep, my baby

♪ Close your pretty eyes... ♪

SHE SOBS QUIETLY

♪ Stars begin to peek... ♪

Liam?

I spoke to your rehab...

♪ Go to sleep, my baby

♪ Close your pretty eyes

♪ Angels up above you

♪ Peering at you dearly from the skies... ♪

You can't tell anyone else.

Ever.

Swear it.

I swear.

Connor's dead.

Tell me everything.

TYRES SCREECH

SIREN WAILS