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Sorry again to get you
up so early, Commander.

- Not a problem.
- Right this way, Ms. Hagerty.

I owe you one.

Follow me this way, Ms. Hagerty.

I'm glad you called. Thanks, Jeff.

Nick, I think if you hold
the blanket away with the claw

while you're shoving
the cufflink through,

it might settle down that dynamic.

Copy that. Let's move in 10 centimeters.

Tom, we're gonna need you to come up.

We're not finished.

I'm aborting the sim.

What's going on?

I'll fly Matteo out
to cover your position.

He could use the hours anyway.

I hate disrupting training like this.

We got it covered.

This doesn't have to be
a repeat of last time.

Don't let that get into your head.

You just do what you need to do.

- Thanks.
- Yeah.

- We'll do photos first?
- Fine.

You can start setting up down here.

Did you enjoy your flight?

- Yeah.
- Very good. Glad to hear it.

- She's not in yet.
- Is she on her way?

Mr. Shultz, I'm Jason, Laz's assistant.

Please come with me.

Got it.

We're just gonna have to wait
in this conference room here,

- if you don't mind.
- Okay.

- Jason told you?
- You threw your back out.

It's terrible luck. I
haven't put it out like this

for a while.

I can come to you.

Perhaps we could postpone till tomorrow.

Jason could give you a full tour,

we could put you up for the night.

I have to be in Washington tomorrow.

Senator Mills, Thibodeaux,
NASA. It's a tight schedule.

It's just I don't think I
can make it today, and I...

I don't want you to
have to see me in bed.

How about we can start on the phone,

and if you feel better,
maybe we meet later?

Perfect. I may have to
hop off for a few minutes

once the painkillers kick in.

- Mind if I start recording?
- Go ahead.

All right. We are on the record now.

Well, let's start with the
MAV malfunction straight away...

what we think happened, and
how we plan to tackle it.

- Um, there have always b...
- We'll get to the MAV.

I prefer to ask some questions first.

Let's start with the
beginning, before VISTA.

You made your seed
money through Purifair.

Terrible name.

Was that Spano or you?

His team did some data
analytics et voilà.

And no, I walked away
without a dime from Spano.

Although I did have
some personal savings,

but... peanuts compared to
what we needed for VISTA.

In the Economist interview,
you said that y...

Which one? 2026 or '30?

The most recent.

I said I walked away with
the seeds, not the seed money.

You remember your exact quote?

Photographic memory.

It's a curse as much as a blessing.

- So, by seeds, you meant...
- Oh, people, some staff,

important connections.

Ah, political connections.

The beginning of my career has
been written about ad nauseam.

Should we do something different?

I've been told that
you hate doing press.

There are those in my field who
nurture the cult of personality.

That doesn't interest me.

But things like this...

Well, they're part of the
job, so we do what we must do.

And I'm just trying to do my job.

Then ask me something
I haven't been asked

a hundred times before.

Are you happy?

Got my first laugh.

No, I'm not happy.

Why not?

Happiness is death by complacency.

That's what you tell your children?

I will leave them to draw
their own conclusions.

How would your children describe you?

Aaron, can I call you
back in a few minutes?

- Those painkillers are quick.
- They are.

And convenient.

I have another call I need to take.

- I'll be here.
- Thanks. End call.

Answer. This is Laz.
Are we on a secure line?

Yes, I'll connect you
to Commander Hagerty now.

Denise?

Come on. You should eat something.

I'm not hungry.

Eat anyway.

Is there anything in
here I should worry about?

Does my dad know?

Yeah. He's on a plane home now.

I wish I could draw like that.

I'm finished.

I'll leave it there in
case you want some more.

I'll leave the door open.

You were telling me your
thoughts on happiness.

Right.

It's a clever quote, but
I think there's more to it.

I don't think your
readers are interested

in whether I'm happy or not.

Are you on the spectrum?

Which one? There are so many.

It's been speculated in other articles.

Standing on the shoulders
of dwarves again.

I'm not speculating. I'm asking.

Diagnosed, no.

And a... anyway, what does it matter?

Self-awareness.

I am quite self-aware.

I mean, sometimes I wish I wasn't.

How do you mean?

Do you ever feel imprisoned?

- By what?
- You... Your own thoughts.

Y... your thoughts. I... imprisoned
is maybe not the right word.

Um... overwhelmed.

Sometimes... but probably
not in the same way.

I don't have the mind you do.

- Well, you're lucky.
- I think a lot of people

would kill to have your mind.

Flattery won't soften
me. Let's skip that.

You softened already.

- Did I?
- Show me another article

where you've talked
about being overwhelmed.

Why did you request me?

Your editor told you.

She showed me the e-mail.

Curiosity, I suppose.

I don't buy that. Here's what I think.

That my reporting has been
critical of the Mars program,

and you haven't given a major interview

since the explosion, and the
clicks will go through the roof.

And if you can convince me, a skeptic,

then you will have public
opinion on your side

in case the MAV fix fails.

I also don't buy your back gave out.

- Why would I lie about that?
- You tell me.

Yes, I wanted to discuss the MAV.

That is why I raised
it at the beginning.

In terms of the press,

I didn't give an
interview since the launch

because I thought it was
my job to focus on the work,

not to draw attention
to the things that...

You can retreat to your talking points,

but that's not how you win me over.

Some people prefer to speak on the phone

where they can't be seen,
where they can be less...

self-aware, less self-conscious.

Where they can be more in control.

We have one more shot at this mission,

and it's important that we show
the world it's in good hands.

- Your hands.
- Thousands of people's hands

working day and night to
make sure that it's a success.

You could've said the same
about the first launch,

and now you have a major asset
on Mars that isn't working.

I'm confident the MAV
will be fully functioning

by the time we launch.

Confidence is an attitude, not a fact.

- You want me to prove it.
- That would be nice.

- Sleep?
- Normal.

- Appetite?
- Normal.

- Dreams?
- None.

You're not being entirely honest.

Sorry.

I don't remember my dreams.

You're not being entirely honest.

- It's so weird.
- It's just a beta version.

How does he know you're lying?

He uses facial cues, uh...
pulse, body temperature.

- Want to give it a try?
- Oh. I don't know.

Yeah. Come on. Go ahead. Yeah.

Okay.

Matteo, new subject. Begin.

I'm Matteo. What's your name?

Mm! Feels like our first date.

- Just tell him your name.
- I'm Camila Rodriguez.

Hello, Camila.

What do you want to talk about?

So, this is, like, if something
happened to you, right?

Or I'm not in the Hab or I'm asleep.

People respond better when
they have a face to look at.

But isn't that messed
up? Like, if you're...

If...

you're dead, then they're
just staring at your ghost.

All right, let's depressurize.

Roger.

Go for depress.

I think it's a mistake to show him.

Laz wants to roll the dice.

Did she tell him we've
only got a 40% success rate?

It's 42.8%.

And who's got to do the song and dance?

The Head Engineer.

You're an engineer and an astronaut.

Okay, rock, paper, scissors.

Oh, God, no.

You've got a statistically
better chance at winning

than getting this test to work.

It's 33%. Isn't that
six different options...

Okay, well, you've got a
67% chance of not losing.

But, actually, the
draw's an automatic redo.

Statistically, it would be...

Okay, let's just do it. Come on.

- All right, fine.
- All right.

- One, two...
- Wait.

It's after three, correct?

- On.
- On?

- Yeah.
- All right, fine.

One, two, three. Damn it.

Okay, two out of three.

No way. Enjoy.

The rover should arrive at base
camp in approximately 10 weeks.

We'll use its drill to get
into the insulation on the cord

to the mobile power plant.

Zoom in to the reactor.

The drill closes the
circuit, the MAV loses power.

That triggers an automatic
reboot of the CPU.

- I'm not a tech guy.
- Let's say you have

a coffee maker that isn't working,

and you don't know if
it's making coffee or not,

no matter how many voice
commands you give it.

- The coffee is fuel.
- Yes, liquid oxygen.

- Okay.
- But if you pull the plug

and plug it back in, maybe it
starts talking to you again.

The coffee here is shit, by the way.

Budget cuts.

Can you get closer on the power cord?

So, that is our plug.

But instead of unplugging
it, we're shorting it.

Now pull up the simulation.

You said "maybe." You're
not certain it'll work.

We're still running tests.
You'll see one today.

The key is to have
the drill bit vaporize

the instant it shorts the circuit.

Otherwise, too much current
loops back on the reactor.

Bad news bears.

How bad?

That's worst-case.

Uh, but we do have a
manual-fix option as a backup.

- Fix it up there?
- And we have MAV2

going with us. There it is.

But that means you're
launching with one broken MAV

on the surface, and
the one you're sending,

if that malfunctions or crashes or...

The chances of coming back

- are greatly reduced.
- Greatly.

- Yes.
- What are the odds?

It's tough to put exact numbers on it.

Coin flip? Better? Worse?

They wouldn't let us
launch if it was worse,

but it's not much on the side of better.

How does that make you feel?

Putting your lives at that much risk?

We don't spend a lot of
time thinking about it.

What about your family?

All our families know
what we signed up for.

Hey.

- She in her room?
- Yeah.

She had a bite to eat, and
then she went back to sleep.

Thank you for this.

- Flaring up?
- Oh, it just started. It's fine.

We need a plan.

It's on me, I took the risk,

but I can't have you leaving. Not again.

I told you it wouldn't be predictable.

I know.

But if the last facility didn't work,

then let's try a new one, or home care.

Do you think she'd be open to that?

I haven't even spoken to her yet.

Tom.

I appreciate you looking out for her,

but I think you should go.

I need to be part of this discussion.

No, actually, you don't need
to be part of this discussion.

This is between my daughter and I.

- This is family business.
- Now it's my business, too,

because you're our commander.

Hey.

You okay?

Yeah, just... gonna go take a shower.

This is Laz.

We're ready. Want me to sync you now?

Do it without me and then
call me after. End call.

That's the drill test...

...for the Times piece.

- You need a heat pack?
- No.

I got some meds in my bag.

I could've sworn...

Were you only in the kitchen
and out here with your bag?

Yeah.

And Denise's room, but...

What kind of meds? Painkillers?

Yeah.

Denise?!

- Denise, open the door, baby!
- What?!

Open the door. Open it! Come
on! Open the door for me!

You have that purse in there with you?!

Tom! I found it.

Okay, let's lower it.

We've made contact.

What am I looking for?

A flash when the bit vaporizes.

Okay, power down.

It didn't work.

- No.
- Is that a fluke or...

We haven't achieved consistency yet.

- How inconsistent are you?
- This is early stages.

There's plenty of room for improvement.

Yeah.

Are you ready to talk?

I can just listen if you want.

I don't know what to say.

What happened?

I don't really know
how I ended up there.

I wasn't even high yet. I just...

It was the painting.

I finished the one of Mom, and I just...

Oh, my God.

Everybody, out!

Let's go! Everybody out of there.

Are you okay?

Can you tell me what you took?

We need an EMT over here.

No! No!

No! No! No!

I fought him when he
tried to pull me out.

Then...

Then I was in the
hospital and then jail.

And why did you call Laz instead of me?

You were out of town. She wasn't.

And...

I was afraid.

Of what?

Of
Fucking everything up again.

When...

you OD'd back in New York...

I didn't OD this time.

But you could've.

You could've.

That's all I think about.

I remember you...

hooked up to all those machines,

your skin so pale,

your heartbeat s...

skipping.

Any m... moment, it could stop.

And that's what scares me.

That I'm gonna get that call

that you're gone.

Mom and I felt that.

When you were up there.

What do we do?

How do we fix this?

We're working on our success rate.

- You said you were confident.
- I am confident.

- We've still got time.
- What I saw is a failed test.

The engineers tell me you're not
anywhere close to consistency,

and if you fail, you're
putting lives at increased risk.

That's your version of confidence?

I'm confident in what
we're capable of achieving.

No one thought...

we'd raise the venture capital. We did.

No one thought we'd get
NASA on board. We did.

No one thought we'd
have a transit vehicle

prototype by 2026. We did.

Or that we'd get it built
within two years. We did.

Every asset, every
satellite, dozens of launches.

I had the confidence we
could. And I was right.

70 years, NASA's had,
what, a 4% fatality rate?

You can't hold Mars
to the same standard.

When it's people lives
I sure as hell can.

You keep focusing on the explosion

rather than all the success before it.

- And you keep deflecting.
- Quite the opposite.

Yes. People died.

And people will die.

Any time people venture into
the unknown, there is a cost.

Space has never been
safe. No frontier is safe.

Quote me...

When it comes to Mars,
we must get used to death.

I believe it's worth the lives we lose.

The five astronauts you
lost... doesn't that eat at you?

Doesn't that give you pause?

Y... you're asking me to
weigh my entire life's work

against the loss of life.

It's an impossible question.

But it's the question.

It's the question that never goes away.

It's their lives, not yours.

You don't understand.

Not finishing what I was meant to do...

that's worse than death.

- I can't explain it.
- If you can't explain it to me,

good luck with the rest of the world.

I want you to watch another test.

I'll get Eitan to double the voltage.

I'll rig it so that you can
see how it's supposed to work.

That doesn't prove anything.

All the people who have doubted me...

professors, investors,
politicians, journalists...

they all said the same thing...
"I'll believe it when I see it."

But that's backwards.
Belief comes first.

- Only then can you see it.
- I don't report fictions.

I'm asking you to use your imagination.

So, I'll quit.

No. I don't want to hold you back.

- You're more important.
- I'm not.

I know you think that
your mom, that I...

Look, I didn't mean that.

You might be
right. I just can't change it.

And I don't want to lose you, too.

I don't want to lose you, either.

So, I'll stay.

You'd hate me.

And I'd hate myself.

Denise?

We need a plan.

I'm not trying to be
insensitive, but we do.

Yeah.

I'll go to Myk's.

Um, that's not a very good idea.

- She's my sponsor.
- And she's an addict.

I can't stay here anymore.

All right, then we'll just

find something else,
we'll rent something.

We'll get out of here for a while,

- do whatever we have to do.
- No.

No, no, no, no. I want to go to Myk's.

Denise, what was it
about the last program?

- What didn't you like about it?
- No, no, no.

I... I'm not going to rehab again.

Maybe it was just the wrong fit.

You guys are not going to ship me out!

No, don't you... Don't!

No. No. I'm going.

You're not in a position

to make very good decisions right now.

I'll jump off the fucking
balcony if I have to!

No, that you won't do. Sit down!

Tom.

This is... This is my daughter.

Why won't you just let me go?

You know, it would be so much easier

for both of you, for everybody...

I can't do... I can't do that! Okay?

Then I never should've come back.

And what... what were you gonna do?

- Just be out on the street?
- There's nothing for me here!

There's me! There's me!

No, we tried that, and it doesn't work!

You know, I can't help
it, but I hate your mother.

I hate your mother for
putting us in this. I...

Don't you dare blame her!

She left! I haven't! I'm still here!

You know what? She was there for me more

than you will ever be! Ever!

All right, you know what?
All right, fine. Fine.

Walk out the door in your bare feet.

Go drown yourself in the same
goddamn river she did. Go.

- That's enough!
- No, no, I didn't mean it.

- No! Get off!
- I didn't mean it. I'm sorry.

Fuck. Fuck!

I'm sorry.

Denise.

Denise, this is what I want.

I want you to come home
with me. I have a guesthouse.

You'll have your own space, okay?

Just for a few days. Just breathe.

We don't have to figure
everything out right now.

Will you do that? Okay, get your stuff.

Drill at speed.

Okay, lower the arm.

We've made contact.

Rub two sticks together long enough...

fast enough...

your palms will blister.

You'll rub the skin right off.

Your jaw will clench from the pain.

You'll fail, and you'll fail again.

But then...

...where there was darkness,

there's light.

Where there was cold...

...there's warmth.

You can see every corner of the cave.

You can walk into the night

even without the moon
or stars to guide you.

But to get there, you had to believe.

You had to believe there
was fire within the dead wood

that made your fingers bleed.

No, it wasn't God that lit the way.

It was your own two hands.

It's beautiful.

Why don't you come up to the house?

I'll get Jason to make the arrangements.

End call.

You may want to stay
put in the guesthouse

when the reporter comes.

If that's all right with you.

Okay.

The fridge should be fully stocked,

um, but if you want anything else,

make a list, and we can get it for you.

And if you don't feel like cooking,

the chef will be here from
2:00 till 10:00 p.m. every day.

There's a housekeeper at midday
to do a tidy and take laundry.

Okay?

I'll let you get settled, then.

What are you most afraid of?

I'm supposed to say
"losing another crew."

What are you not supposed to say?

"Being willing to lose another crew."

Why don't you just
transcribe the recording?

Writing it longhand helps
bake things into my brain.

How 20th century of you.

Not all innovation is progress.

I suppose if you write down
everything I've said today,

I won't come off very well.

Better than if you'd kept your guard up.

People respond to
honesty. But you know that.

- Do I?
- It's a strategy, too.

You must think I'm very calculated.

I think you have to be.

Oh, could I have a tissue?

I suppose you think
this is a case in point.

She wiped all her makeup off

so she doesn't look
glamorous for the photo shoot.

No, I've only got 3,000 words.

We're ready when you are, Ms. Ingram.

Okay.

- Could you give me a hand?
- Yeah. Here.

I promise to make this quick.

Well, you take the time you
need. You have a job to do.

Okay. We're just gonna
run some, uh, test shots,

so you might want to close your
eyes while we run the flash.

- Aaron.
- Yeah?

You know at the beginning
when you asked me

- about the seed money?
- Yes.

It was my sister.

- The model?
- Yes. Not for VISTA,

but for my first
prototype in grad school...

the CO2 scrubber.

That's how Spano found me.

But I needed 200 grand,
and Elena gave it to me.

Would you rather sit in the photo?

- I'd rather stand.
- Okay. We're almost done.

It disgusted me having to ask her.

There she was, earning all this money

for doing absolutely
nothing, just standing there,

and I was trying to build something.

I resented her.

Okay, you can open your eyes.

Over time, I've come to admire her.

I mean, it can't have been
easy just... standing there

doing nothing.

Um, being...

Exposed.

Exposed.

Scan.

New skin. New subject.

Whenever you're ready to
begin, just say "Begin."

I'll leave you to it.

- Begin.
- Hello, Tom Hagerty.

What do you want to talk about?

My daughter.

Her name's Denise.

She's my only child...

...and I'm frightened for her.

What are you frightened of?

I don't know if I can
give her what she needs.

What does she need?

I don't know.

The mission... I know what that is.

I know what that requires.
I'm trained for it.

But with her...

I don't understand anything.

I would give it all
up again, the mission.

I'd give it up...

if I knew that that would make her okay.

You're not being entirely honest.