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We always seem to think we're invincible when we're younger.

The thing about that is we're all unstoppable

until someone comes into your life and changes it irreversibly.

And no matter how hard you try, you never find anyone like them ever again.

When I had my first breakup in high school, my mother told me,

everyone will enter your life as a season.

Sometimes you barely make it out

and learn how to prepare for the next winter.

But sometimes you grow

and you enjoy the beauty that that season brings.

For me, the hardest, most beautifully vivid season

was Antonella.

She was dynamic.

She was like the character that you only ever read about.

Brazen, charismatic, everything.

Something about her just drew you in

and you could never quite put your finger on it

but you knew that you wanted it.

And you'd do anything.

And I did.

Every. Single. Thing.

We were inseparable.

I had never fallen for someone so fast.

I was never so sure that anyone was meant for me.

We both jumped right in.

I took the good with the bad.

I loved Antonella and everything that she was.

We had each other and that was enough.

Or at least it was enough until I needed more.

Okay. Yeah, okay, I will be there in 30 minutes. Bye.

You don't have to do this, you know.

I make enough to support both of us.

I take care of myself.

I can't support myself this way.

I have been doing this for a long time now.

So my feelings on the matter mean nothing, basically.

I'm not gonna have this conversation with you right now.

I'm gonna be late.

No matter what, I love you.

I hope you know that.

See you tonight.

It wasn't the first time that I had fooled myself into thinking that I could change someone.

I knew that eventually this would eat away at me.

But I can convince myself of anything, including telling myself I won't get attached.

But there I was, five months in, between a rock and a hard place.

The one thing I couldn't settle for.

I was desperate, so I acted desperately.

This is everything.

Everything I have.

I want you to make a decision.

I need you to, actually.

I'll give you all of this.

But you have to choose me.

No more late nights.

Going out with whoever?

Nothing.

I worry about you.

I want to be with you forever.

But I can't keep going on like this.

It's killing me.

Sorry, I just...

No, no.

I can start over.

I'm the fucking comeback queen.

I needed a new change of scenery.

New people, new city, new number.

Hell, maybe I'll dye my hair fresh and new.

But first, I just had to make one last stop.