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EPISODE 8

DON'T GO LOOKING FOR DEATH. DEATH WILL COME FIND YOU.

Mom?

This is too cruel.

No.

No.

Please don't.

No!

I had always thought that I knew a lot about my mother.

But it turns out that I didn't know anything.

Mom used to be a girl with big dreams.

That girl full of dreams

became a woman,

a wife,

and then a mother.

She even had a child with the man she loved.

Her happiness, which she thought would last forever…

was but fleeting.

CHOI JUN-MO

I didn't know then

that the reason my mom didn't break down

was because of me.

Hello?

I'm sorry?

Hang in there, Yee-jae.

Stay with me, Yee-jae.

Yee-jae.

I'm so sorry.

I wish I could be sick in your place.

Mom's heart was torn to pieces

because she couldn't be sick in my place.

Sir.

How could you just fire me overnight?

The company's going through tough times.

- Sir. - Let go of me.

RESIGN

UNJUST FIRING IS MURDER

WORKERS HAVE RIGHTS TOO!

My mom

walked through a much darker and deeper tunnel

than I had ever walked.

And yet,

she never gave up

or looked back.

She simply kept trudging onward.

I was blessed to have a mom like that.

But foolishly…

I never counted my blessings.

Cheer up, son.

I'm always on your side.

MOM

The person you have called…

Hello?

Are you Mr. Choi Yee-jae's mother?

Yes.

What is this regarding?

My goodness.

Please confirm his identity.

Yee-jae.

Mom is here.

Let's go home.

Wake up.

Yee-jae.

Yee-jae.

My poor baby shouldn't be lying here.

Mom's here to take you home.

Hurry and wake up. Come on.

Yee-jae.

It's your mom.

Open your eyes for me.

Please don't die, Yee-jae.

CHOI YEE-JAE

Death is contagious.

As I disappeared from the world…

Yee-jae!

my death

remained behind

with those who loved me.

When did you last see your son?

A week ago.

Did he not show any signs of suicide?

I don't know.

Why do you think your son died?

I killed him.

It's due to my many faults.

Had he been born to a smarter woman,

this wouldn't have happened.

Such a smart kid.

- Your grandson's a year old already? - Goodness.

- This rice cake is excellent. - Congrats.

- I'll enjoy it. - It looks delicious.

- Isn't your grandkid almost a year old? - Here, Seon-hui.

- Yes. - Gosh.

Thank you.

- I know, right? - This looks great.

Totally.

- She's right. - Already?

Seriously. They grow up so fast.

I've already become a grandma.

You're too young to be a grandma.

You can say that again.

- What? - Here.

Buy some clothes for your grandson.

Gosh, there's no need for this.

It's fine, really.

Take this with you!

Wait…

Why would she give me this?

It's bad luck.

That's right. You don't want it to rub off on you.

Don't get clothes for your grandson with that money.

I'm not even going to invite her to my daughter's wedding,

so you better keep quiet.

THE FUTURE DESTINY OF THE CHILD IS ALWAYS THE WORK OF THE MOTHER

NAPOLEON

So you killed yourself because your life felt hopeless?

Is that so wrong?

It's not like I did harm to anyone.

Think carefully

if you really didn't harm anyone.

I forgot about the dead girl's family when it should have been obvious.

Of course you did.

You are a selfish brat who fails to think about the sadness

the bereaved have to go through.

He thought I'd killed his daughter.

Of course, he'd want to kill me.

Then who would your mother want to kill?

Death had always known

what I had actually done wrong.

I experienced 12 painful deaths as punishment for what I did.

The death that caused me the most pain

wasn't when I burned to death

or when my limbs were severed.

Ji-su…

It was the death of someone…

that I loved dearly.

The hellish pain that I had put my mom through

had come right back to me.

I decided to continue living as my mom.

It was a punishment that I decided to give myself.

The first subway train of the day

was full of people's parents

who were doing their best to get by.

Could I ever say

that I did my best in life before them?

I felt unbearably ashamed of my own death.

HOUSING SUBSCRIPTION SAVINGS ACCOUNT CHOI YEE-JAE

This savings account

is a gift that I prepared for you

so that you can buy a house later on.

Gosh.

Can't you take your time growing up

so we can live together for a long time?

The doors are closing.

Please step back for your safety.

THE BEGINNING OF YOUR SECOND LIFE SEONA MEMORIAL PARK

What?

This is

the station near my columbarium.

Yee-jae.

Mom had been coming here

every day after work.

My son.

How have you been today?

How can I even call myself a mother when I couldn't even save

my precious son?

I don't see why

I keep calling myself your mother when I have no right to.

Yee-jae.

Remember how I asked you to be my son in your next life too?

I take that back.

You should find parents

who are much richer and better than I am

so that you can live happily in your next life.

I'll just watch you from afar

just to see

if you're living a good life.

I won't even act like I know you.

I'll just watch.

In return…

I hope you'll live out

your next life

until the very end.

I wanted to tell Mom that I was sorry

and that I wanted

to be born as her son once more

in my next life.

But none of my words

nor any of my feelings

could reach her.

That's just

how death is.

Mom, is there anywhere you'd like to go with me?

I want to go to Mount Obong.

Mount Obong?

I used to go there often with your dad when we were young.

Once I get a job,

I'll take you to Mount Obong.

Goodness.

My son is the best.

But you know what?

I can't go because of my weak knee.

Nonsense.

I'll carry you on my back if need be,

so hold on a little.

Even though it was late,

I wanted to show Mom

the place she used to visit with Dad

when they were young and loved to hike.

How beautiful.

Mom.

I'm sorry that I forgot.

I'm so sorry

I didn't keep my promise.

Is anyone out there?

Help me.

Please…

You can't die like this.

Please don't die, Mom.

Please don't die.

Thank you for still being alive, Mom.

Yee-jae.

Hurry and wake up.

Let's go home.

Please don't die, Yee-jae.

Mom.

You can't die like this.

Please don't die, Mom.

As I desperately wished for my mom's survival,

I felt the same desperation she had felt

when she sobbed upon seeing my cold body in the morgue.

I'm sorry.

I made a grave mistake.

To fulfill my mom's wish

for me to live on until the end,

I had to…

go on living.

I lived for 32 years…

which was longer than the time I lived as Choi Yee-jae…

in remembrance…

of the people

to whom I've said goodbye.

You can't really say you're living

when you live in constant fear.

But since I was a coward,

I always lived in constant fear.

Afraid that the world wouldn't recognize my worth,

that I would fall behind my peers,

and that I would be rejected,

I ended up taking my own life

due to this fear

before my life could even blossom.

I only realized after dying

that life in itself

was an opportunity.

And the pain that I thought engulfed my whole life

was only a small part of it.

A clear day.

A rainy day.

A windy day.

I learned that life

was made up of these different days.

And that it was okay to fail

as long as I kept going.

It was only after I ended up inside my mom's body

that I finally

realized this.

I never thought I'd say this…

but I missed you so much.

It's just that I didn't realize

it'd take this long to see you again.

Did it?

I have trouble sensing the passage of time.

I did think it took longer than usual, though.

It was plenty long enough for me.

And

I spent all that time thinking about what I should do

when I met you again.

I'm begging you.

Can you please

shoot me again

just once more?

I already used up all the bullets allocated to you.

I know.

I do,

but please give me a chance

to live as myself just once more.

Let me have another go at life as Choi Yee-jae.

I'm begging you.

Please.

Why?

I want to give my mom a hug one last time.

You said that you would beat me

playing by the rules I have created.

You won.

What?

You managed to avoid death and survive.

You received your punishment from me in full.

All that is left for you now is God's judgment.

And before that happens,

I'll give you one more bullet.

Really?

You will be given the chance you asked for

if this gun ends up firing.

What if it doesn't?

Then you will be in God's hands.

MOM

Mom.

Are you standing at the edge of the world?

THERE IS ONLY ONE YOU IN THIS WORLD

Unable to cry out loud

You struggle to call out the name

Of the person you loved

The only one you loved

It's okay to cry out loud

Until your cries are heard In the distant future

If you happen to encounter today

I hope there's no pain

Or despair left

Are you still standing there?

Are you afraid to turn back?

The face I somberly remembered

The person I'm grateful for

The person I owe

Although there's no miracle we hoped for

Nor the strength to get back on our feet

Listen to the voice that embraces you

"I love you"

"I love you"

If you're still hesitating

I hope you find the courage

To stand up again

And overcome it

Subtitle: Sonya Hong