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In those times,

Clarisse would play in the house corridors,

hiding from Ivan.

Two brothers,

so young, so happy…

But that night,

First I heard the screaming,

then came the silence,

While blood ran down through the floor,

Clarisse cried and then started to forget.

When pain is stronger than desire,

the body can’t take it anymore.

CLARISSE or something about both of us

Father, look at what I found. - Nice, honey.

Cecilia, go wash your hands.

Then do you pick Cecilia at school?

Obviously! When did you pick her up?

But you’re not going to your father’s today?

It depends on Caetana's call.

Clarisse, the lawyer needs to file a petition before the recess.

- We have... - I know!

I know about everything.

If I have to go I'll let you know.

Joseph should have come.

Joseph can not come, dad.

At the time it is better that he stays in Fortaleza

talking to the lawyer, the bank president, the deputy.

I mean, doing what he does best,

making money!

Pragmatic, responsible,

as if he was a son of mine.

Better leave your son in law in his place.

He’s just a son in law.

You only had one male son.

Joseph has the determination of someone who left his world

and adopted a new place to live his life.

So did I, dad.

But he has a vision, he calculates, he acts with precision.

Almost like a Swiss watch.

He's European, Clarisse…

Now, a slight foreign accent,

an attitude, a diploma from Vienna, that’s enough for you to like a person.

I can't believe it's you, my father!

Whatever it is,

I only know it was him who brought you to this company.

Otherwise...

Otherwise he wouldn’t be in our company either.

Not even your daughter would ever be…

Memories of My Childhood

Clarisse.

Clarisse.

Clarisse liked to play with her mom's recorder.

She used to spend hours hearing her own voice.

Ivan did not appreciate it.

He was afraid mom was going to complain.

Today you don’t resemble your mother that much anymore.

You just look a little bit like Ines.

They say I look just like her.

You’ll see the pictures,

it mixes up with childhood memories and it makes you draw that conclusion.

Anyways I definitely don’t look like you.

You’ll remember me when I die.

It is impossible to forget you!

My God, is it that difficult to cherish a father’s memory?

What memory dad?

You didn’t even see me grow up.

Right after mum died,

you sent me to Fortaleza and you would never see me.

I had a lot of work to do.

That quarry that turned into ruins.

Ruins that paid for your studies in Europe

and gave you a good husband, right?

That night I... I think I dreamed of Ivan.

Every night I dream of him and Ines.

Moon! White lie of space

that deceived me to illuminate

the nights when crazy in my arms

You would lie kissing me under the moonlight

I did not want to listen to just one piece of advice

How your malice hurts!

Today, when I see myself in the mirror

I see myself and it's not me

Moon! Home of sorrow that used to watch

The cravings of a love that was illusion

My chest was the house of joy

My heart burning like the sun

Every crime longs for punishment

Every stone that bursts out

Makes gold flow and condemnation rots the flesh.

Until death becomes the end of all secrets.

Lampyris noctiluca...

When I was a child,

I would grab a firefly with my hands and stick it to my clothes.

It would leave a trace of light on my blouse.

Then I would run to get another one...

Only the males fly and light up.

They search for fertile females in plants.

It's like a dream...

In fact females seduce males with their lights.

After they are fertilized they behave like all the other females,

sending different signs.

Then they attract males again but this time, to eat them.

Well fed, they can give birth and bring up their babies.

They look like little stars, watch!

Attraction and destruction, mating and death.

It's all a matter of wrong light signs interpretation.

The light does not illuminate our conscience, it only beguiles us.

Certainty only comes from darkness.

Father, did you cry

when he died?

Did you?

Did I?

Clarisse.

that day he cried.

And you also cried on your father’s lap.

Did you see him cry some other time?

What to say about the face of someone who was in the darkness?

Did you see him whimper?

What does it matter?

If this man does not cry anymore,

if death approaching does not terrorize him,

can he still be called a man?

And my mother What would she say?

- Is it to play like this all the time? - All the time.

E now you do...

- Clarisse call me? - No.

It's over.

Show me.

You have to find a way up here.

I got lost. I think I'm here, right?

I am sick and tired of so much fighting.

Samuel’s behavior scares me.

He just locks himself and plays with his own life.

I am only sorry for Clarisse,

but I trust you.

Forgive me but the tests don’t give me hope.

I don’t know if I’ll resist.

Yes, wait.

Clarisse.

Let me talk to you first and then you talk, just wait.

Come to play

What’s your name?

How old are you?

Clarisse.

Get out, Ivan!

Daddy!

Like that, put it on your head,

on your head!

No! Get out!

While remembering Ivan’s mass,-

they wrote under his picture:

The blood of a sacrificed animal

would pay for our mistakes

but the son of God became man

and in a single sacrifice

redeemed us with his purifying blood.

All man’s flesh shall only die once.

For me that was an adult’s toy,

you would point at your own head.

The risk was the proof of my power and my humanity.

And with Ivan I tried to imitate your joke.

But he didn’t have your power.

Or my luck.

Today my body sets its own end,

without awareness.

It is a long-lasting end.

Ivan was just a child.

So was I.

God punishes my arrogance. I would say so if I believed in him.

Be careful...

God also plays his cards.

Once Clarisse was watching Ivan playing by the pool.

When the boy fell into the water.

And she, even small, in desperation,

dived into the water to save her brother.

Clarisse, what happened? I called you so many times. Are you alright? How’s your father?

- The day here is so beautiful. - What?

I’m going to enjoy the next few hours…

This weather makes you so hungry.

Look, I am trying to solve this thing at the notary public.

- I can’t get used to all this bureaucracy. - You would feel fine if you were here.

Caetana has taken care of him very nicely.

You need to sign this paperwork at once. When are you coming by?

The nights seem long, people relax

and time goes by more slowly.

Clarisse, are you listening? Did you understand?

You need to come by at once, tomorrow if possible.

Have you found the original contract and the attachment?

I am going to ask Dad for some English tableware that belonged to my grandmother.

- Clarisse, I think that... - Nice!

Hello!

- Hello! - Old family stuff,

it will look nice at the living room entrance,

you’ll like it.

And how’s Cecilia?

Ivan?

Ivan?

Are you listening to me, Ivan?

Did mother spend the day crying yesterday?

Are you listening to me, Ivan?

Say something, Ivan.

Before all, the Earth was shapeless and empty.

The face of the abyss was covered in shadows.

What was your face like before you were born?

What was your face like before your parents were born?