Original subtitles

‐ Damn. It's getting cold.

‐ Yep.

‐ That was an intense group of kids.

‐ Dude, it's always an intense group of kids.

‐ [chuckles] Yeah.

Abby thinks I'm some glorified babysitter of fucked up kids.

‐ Yeah, well, maybe Abby should come lead a group.

Then she can talk.

‐ Exactly. ‐ Yeah.

‐ So how long of a drive is it back to your mom's house?

‐ Uh, I was gonna try to do it in two days.

I don't know.

Maybe it's dumb to go‐‐

SHAWN: To go to your high school reunion?

‐ Yeah.

‐ Man, let me tell you something.

I went to mine last year...

Dude, it's hella fun.

‐ Yeah.

You're right.

SHAWN: [yawns]

Oh, man.

I'm beat.

I'm gonna turn in. ‐ All right.

Night.

SHAWN: Night, man.

[poignant music]

♪ ♪

[girls giggling, object bangs]

[footsteps thudding]

CLAIRE: No running, girls. LIZZY: Juice, please.

CLAIRE: Ah, sweetie, I'm just in the middle of this.

JEFFREY: I got it. ‐ Hey, did you confirm dinner

next week with the O'Neils?

‐ Yep. ‐ Great.

‐ Here you go, honey.

[softly] Here you go. Okay.

CLAIRE: Do either of you have to go

to the bathroom before we go?

No?

‐ Hey, did you hear from the club

about the swim lessons?

‐ Yes, I convinced them to put Sarah

in the intermediate class.

So it'll be every day after school,

and then we'll do ballet on weekends.

‐ Wow, you girls are gonna be busy this winter.

CLAIRE: Super busy. ‐ Out you go.

CLAIRE: Let's go.

♪ ♪

[birds chirping]

That is crazy.

JEFFREY: All right.

I'll get you. All right.

JEFFREY: Okay, grab your bags.

Here you go.

CLAIRE: You got yours?

LIZZY: Yeah. ‐ Yeah?

SARAH: So excited!

CLAIRE: Thank you.

I got it.

LIZZY: Happy birthday! SARAH: Happy birthday!

WYATT: My girls. Come, come, come.

[birds chirping]

You know what? I heard there's some

fresh‐baked cookies in the kitchen.

LIZZY: Cookies? ‐ Yeah.

‐ Come on! JEFFREY: Oh, boy.

WYATT: [laughs]

CLAIRE: Happy birthday, Dad!

WYATT: Thanks, darling. ‐ Hi.

WYATT: Hi. Oh.

CLAIRE: Hey. ‐ Come on and sit down.

JEFFREY: Oh. ‐ Take the big chair.

[dramatic music]

♪ ♪

‐ [whistling]

[man speaking indistinctly over PA system]

[clears throat]

CLAIRE: What kind of cake would Grandpa like?

LIZZY: Chocolate! CLAIRE: Mmm.

Okay, you wanna grab the rice?

LIZZY: Uh‐huh.

CLAIRE: Good helper. Thank you.

[uneasy music]

Oh, wow.

Eric, hi.

‐ Hi. CLAIRE: Um...

♪ ♪

How are you?

‐ I'm okay.

[cash registers beeping]

♪ ♪

Uh...I should probably get going.

‐ We should‐‐

♪ ♪

LIZZY: Who is that man?

‐ Um, he's...just a...

he's a old friend.

♪ ♪

[keys jingling]

♪ ♪

‐ Fuck!

[solemn music]

♪ ♪

SARAH: Mom, my arm's getting tired.

Could you do it?

Mom? ‐ Yeah.

Sure, sweetie.

Why don't you go check on your sister, okay?

‐ Okay.

♪ ♪

[dog barking distantly]

♪ ♪

[birds chirping]

‐ Oh, hey, I'm sorry I didn't get a chance

to pick up that stuff you needed

from the grocery store. I'll go back tonight.

‐ No, no, no, don't be ridiculous.

I'll go later tonight. ERIC: All right.

DEVIN: Bro! ‐ Hey.

Devin.

Dude!

Holy shit. You've filled out.

‐ Ah, just a little bit. I don't know.

‐ You're looking‐‐looking good, man.

DEVIN: [laughing] Okay.

‐ Where's Phil?

PHIL: I'm here. ERIC: Hey.

Dude.

Dude, you've grown another, like, five inches

since I last saw you.

SANDY: I think they're both taller than you are now.

‐ It's not cool, guys. [laughter]

Let me see, uh‐‐let me see what you did with the place.

I wanna see the room.

DEVIN: Oh, this isn't gonna be good.

SANDY: Hey.

ERIC: What's up?

‐ You okay?

‐ Yeah. Yeah, totally.

I'm just, you know, tired from the drive.

It's good to be home.

[door clicks open]

NATE: Knock, knock. LISA: Hey.

WYATT: [laughs] Hello, hello!

NATE: Good to see you.

LISA: Hey. NATE: Good to see you.

Here, got those for ya. ‐ Hey.

NATE: Hey.

CLAIRE: Good. Nice to see you.

‐ It's been a long time. ‐ Yeah, too long.

NATE: [chuckles]

JEFFREY: You guys are done with these.

So do you wanna do blue lips? SARAH: Yes.

[dog barking distantly]

WYATT: You doing okay?

‐ Mm‐hmm.

‐ Thanks for organizing this whole thing.

‐ It was a team effort.

75.

How does it feel?

‐ I feel mighty happy to have my family

all together like this.

Claire...I'm proud of you.

[spacey electronic music]

♪ ♪

[muffled indistinct chatter]

SINGERS: ♪ Da, da, da, da, da ♪

KENDRICK: ♪ Alls my life I has to fight ♪

[Kendrick Lamar's "Alright" playing]

♪ Alls my life I ♪

♪ Hard times like, "Yeah" ♪

♪ Bad trips like, "Yeah" ♪ ‐ [exhales deeply]

KENDRICK: ♪ Nazareth, I'm [...] up, homey ♪

♪ You [...] up, but if God got us ♪

♪ Then we gon' be all right ♪

PHARRELL: ♪ We gon' be all right ♪

♪ We gon' be all right ♪

♪ We gon' be all right, do you hear me? ♪

♪ Do you feel me? We gon' be all right ♪

♪ We gon' be all right ♪

♪ Huh? We gon' be all right ♪

♪ We gon' be all right, do you hear me? ♪

♪ Do you feel me? We gon' be all right ♪

KENDRICK: ♪ Uh, and when I wake up, I recognize ♪

♪ You're looking at me for the pay cut ♪

♪ But homicide be looking at you ♪

♪ From the face down, what MAC‐11 even boom ♪

JOSH: Whoa.

Is that Eric?

‐ Yo. JOSH: What's up?

[stammers] ‐ What's up, man?

JOSH: The prodigal son returns.

[groans]

ERIC: Good to see ya.

JOSH: [laughs] ‐ What's up, man?

What's it been, like five fucking years?

ERIC: Dude, it's good to see ya.

It's good to see you too, guys‐‐damn.

‐ Hey, baby. NICOLE: Hey.

Hey, I'm Nicole.

‐ Hey. Eric.

‐ Dude, we had a kid last year.

‐ Dude, I know. I saw on the 'gram.

Major congrats. JOSH: Yeah, truly...

‐ Yeah, let me show you some pictures.

ERIC: Yeah. ‐ I got to.

Here it is. ‐ Oh, God.

Good thing she takes after Nicole.

She's beautiful. [laughter]

‐ I can't wait to tell your kids stories

about you from high school.

LOGAN: No, never‐‐never. ‐ Oh, yeah. Oh, yeah.

‐ No, no, no. You should come by

this weekend. ERIC: Yeah, I will.

‐ Yeah, I mean it. ERIC: For sure.

‐ How are you, man? You good?

‐ Yeah. Yeah, man, I'm doing all right.

‐ So what's the deal? How long are you in town for?

‐ Um, just a couple of days.

‐ That's it? ‐ Yeah, man, it's a quick trip.

JOSH: Okay. ERIC: Whoa, there she is.

‐ [laughs] My favorite trio.

LOGAN: Hi. ALISON: How are you?

LOGAN: Good to see you. ‐ It's been so long.

JOSH: How's it going? ALISON: Good to see you.

‐ Hi. ALISON: Hi!

[laughs]

[Kendrick Lamar's "Alright" continues]

Hi. NICOLE: Hi.

‐ Alison. Nice to meet you.

‐ Nicole. Nice to meet you too.

‐ All right, we gotta roll. It's pump time, baby.

‐ Don't say that. ‐ Sorry.

[laughter] Seriously, come by.

‐ Uh, yeah. Yeah, I will.

‐ Bye, guys. ALISON: Bye, guys.

JOSH: I should probably head out too.

You should have came earlier.

‐ You, uh‐‐you're right. I messed up.

‐ No, no, honestly, it's all good.

It's‐‐it's good to see you.

‐ You too, man.

JOSH: Come on, get in here.

ALISON: [laughs] JOSH: Ah.

[softly] Dude, I hear she's single.

Okay.

[indistinct chatter]

‐ You know, I heard he made millions

off Bitcoin, like, five years ago.

ERIC: I heard that. ‐ Yeah.

‐ It wouldn't surprise me.

‐ [laughs]

How does‐‐how's everything with you?

‐ I'm good. ALISON: Yeah?

‐ Yeah, I started leading these, um

therapeutic wilderness trips.

ALISON: Yeah, I heard about that.

‐ Oh, you've been keeping tabs on me.

‐ Well, maybe. [both laugh]

[glasses clatter] Do you want vodka or whiskey?

‐ Either's fine. ALISON: All right.

It feels really weird being back here in Austin,

having to stay at a hotel room instead of my parents' home.

‐ How are they?

‐ Exactly the same.

Is everything okay?

‐ Yeah. Yeah, I'm fine.

I'm just‐‐sorry.

I just, um...

I‐‐I didn't think this was gonna happen again.

‐ Yeah. [laughs]

‐ I think I'm just... in my head.

ALISON: That's fine.

Here.

ERIC: [clears throat]

Hey, I'm sorry about what happened senior year.

‐ Oh, Jesus Christ. ‐ Oh, come on.

‐ What? ‐ I'm just‐‐I'm being serious.

‐ Yeah, but that was, like, a whole lifetime ago.

Yeah. ‐ Yeah.

‐ [laughs]

‐ [sniffles]

‐ [laughing softly]

You're a good guy, Walker.

You are.

Did I mention I have

an insanely early flight in the morning?

‐ Oh, yeah? ‐ Yeah.

‐ Do you want me to leave? ‐ No.

I want the opposite.

I was just apologizing just in case I wake you up.

Come here. [laughs]

[insects chirping]

[melancholy music]

‐ [breathes shakily]

♪ ♪

JEFFREY: Claire?

‐ I'm just getting some water.

♪ ♪

[glass clinks]

♪ ♪

[glass thuds]

[breathes shakily]

♪ ♪

[cell phone clicks]

♪ ♪

[cell phone dings]

[cell phone clicks]

[cell phone dings]

[cell phone clicks]

♪ ♪

[dishes clinking]

[indistinct chatter]

Hi.

ERIC: Hi.

‐ Did you find parking okay?

‐ Uh, yeah. Yeah.

‐ Oh, good. I‐‐I've had trouble parking

around here before. So...

ERIC: I found a spot around the corner.

SERVER: Something to drink?

‐ Uh, water, please. Tap is fine.

‐ You sure you don't want anything else?

[mouths word]

‐ [exhales deeply]

So you're married now?

You have a kid.

‐ Well, two, actually.

‐ You guys live in Houston?

I, uh‐‐I Googled you. [snorts softly]

‐ I've Googled you too.

‐ Why did you text me?

‐ I‐‐I have been...

I've‐‐I've been wanting to for years.

I feel like such a coward.

I can't tell you how many times

I have thought about reaching out to apologize,

and I know that I should have.

But I just‐‐

I wanted us both to be able to move on.

And I was so happy that you were able to go to UT

and move forward with your life.

‐ Thank you.

‐ I just didn't wanna pull you back.

‐ I didn't move forward with my life.

Our relationship fucking destroyed me.

‐ [softly] I'm so sorry.

My marriage wasn't working, and‐‐

and so I blew it up

because it‐‐it was the only way I knew how to end it.

That's not an excuse.

You were the victim of that,

and I shouldn't have let it happen.

I violated my‐‐my role as an educator, and I...

I should have never betrayed those boundaries.

I should have...

I should have stopped you.

I shouldn't have let you kiss me.

I should have...

[exhales deeply]

I should have just turned you down.

‐ Is‐‐is that what you think happened?

‐ You came into the classroom and kissed me,

but I should have ended it.

‐ You agreed to tutor me.

You took me to UT.

You insisted that I call you "Claire."

You took me away from that dance,

and you told me to get in the back seat of the car.

‐ I never wanted you to do anything you didn't wanna do.

ERIC: You're in denial.

Do you know how long it took me to figure out

that I wasn't responsible...

that‐‐that you were the one creating those moments?

Do you know how long I hated myself

because I thought that I hurt you.

I lost years, Claire.

I saw my brother the other day.

He's 17 now.

Same age I was.

He looks so fucking young.

I was just a kid, Claire.

‐ I know. I know.

[inhales sharply]

And now being a mother,

knowing I did that, I...

I cannot understand it myself.

It's taken me so long to figure out

how to live with that.

Every day, I...think about

what I should have done differently.

I just want you to be okay. ‐ Oh, my God.

You're kidding, right?

You called me here today

because you're sick of feeling guilty.

I've seen you.

You know, I've seen your photos,

your perfect family and your big house.

‐ My life is not perfect.

Yeah, sure, I got lucky.

I‐‐I found a husband who, for reasons

I will never understand, doesn't judge me

the way other people do, but, like...

I can't get a job.

I can't go to PTA meetings.

The way other parents look at me‐‐

it is a‐‐a Google search away.

I am one click away from ruin.

It's hell.

‐ [sniffs]

‐ You're still making this about you.

‐ No, wait. Eric, please.

‐ I will never be just one click away from this, Claire.

I have to live with this forever.

So do you.

[Moses Sumney's "Indulge Me"]

♪ ♪

MOSES: ♪ Indulge me ♪

♪ ♪

♪ Indulge me ♪

♪ ♪

♪ Indulge me ♪

♪ ♪

♪ Indulge me ♪

♪ ♪