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- Hey guys, I'm Tasha.

This video is
going to be I guess

in the hope of educating people.

And on behalf of those who are

unable to speak
up for themselves.

I've been doing
some crying today,

it's been rough
emotionally, and it's

actually not the parasites
this time, it is the...

The opinions of other people.

I know that my worth
comes from God and

it shouldn't matter
what other people think,

but the truth is I
am human and as a

human it does hurt
when what people

say can really get
to us as a human.

So this video is
about having a disease

that is called a
delusional disease,

doctors think it's a
delusional disease.

It does make me
feel crazy and it

makes me feel stupid, you know?

But it's real.

- Tonight we're going to
focus on a controversial

and mysterious condition
known as Morgellons.

Its sufferers complain
of stinging and

crawling sensations
under the skin

and say their bodies
sometimes grow

strange string-like
fibers on the surface.

There are thousands who say they

suffer from its
bizarre symptoms,

bu there are many in the
worlds of science and

medicine who believe that
it's all in the mind.

- I don't even really
like to call it a disease

because I don't think we've
quite figured out what it is.

An illness that a whole lot
of people are suffering from.

An illness they're not
getting any answers to.

Not from the CDC,
not from doctors.

- [News Anchor] Randy
Wymore started out

as a skeptic too,
but years ago after

taking a closer look at
the fibers, he changed

his mind and he
says other doctors

might also if only
they would look.

- I'd like the world
to know that when

you're a Morgellons
patient, you are treated

worse than you would
treat your family pet.

When you're rejected like that,

you don't feel like
living anymore,

you feel like you
don't have any hope.

Please help the people
that have Morgellons.

[dramatic atmosphere music]

[laughs]

- [Carrie] Hey everybody.

I've been taking
micro shots of it with

my microscope, my
digital microscope.

I only paid 20 bucks
for it on Ebay,

so the pictures are
real low quality,

but it will show you some stuff,

so I'm gonna go
through the slideshow

and talk to you as I go through

and point out some
different things.

See the symptoms of
Morgellons in here?

There's the 30th
of April, this was

the next day after
the scab comes off.

That's on the 1st.

There's a better picture
of what I'm talking about

and it brings things to the
surface, look at the Morgellons.

I miss my $300
microscope, but those

were adequate, I
think they showed.

- Hey guys, I'm Tasha and
it's been an exciting morning.

Really crazy morning
actually with some

discovery, so thought
I'd better fill you in.

So it started, well I
can't say it started,

but it just came
to light because of

the video that I
posted, the two videos

that I posted yesterday
about the worms

coming out of my
face, and so people

did not believe that
they were worms,

so I was like you know
what, you've gotta

see what came out of my wrist.

Now I have pictures of all this.

I posted them last
night actually and

it's on my blog, so if you go to

TashaLee.org/MCS it's one of the

top two posts,
most recent posts,

I believe it's called
Worm Pics Part Two.

It was like the pussy
organism type thing

that came out, but there
was this black wire

in there, I'm like
why is there a wire,

what the heck is that
wire doing, it looks

like it's coming out from there

and going elsewhere on my arm.

Okay, so after people
not believing that

they were worms and
then I was like I'm

gonna dig out those
pictures, I posted them,

so it had me looking
through them again

and thinking about
facial worms, and so

I was doing a search
online and I came

across a video about
Morgellons Disease

and I'm like oh yeah,
I remember people

saying that that means parasites

coming out of your
skin and, I don't know,

for some reason I
just felt I had to

watch it today, I
hadn't really wanted

to look into Morgellons
Disease 'cause I'm

like I know I have
parasites anyway and

I'm doing stuff to
treat the parasites,

so I don't really feel the need

for another
diagnosis, but today I

felt drawn to watch
the video, so I did,

and let me tell
you, it was freaky!

Because I looked
on the video and

I'm like that thing,
that organism,

that is exactly what I
just posted pictures of.

It's got the black wire.

It looked, I mean it's
just exactly like it.

So the people describing
their symptoms

on there, I'm like I
have those, oh my gosh!

So I guess I have
Morgellons Disease too.

If you're interested at
all in this, you know

that the symptoms that
people describe with

Morgellons is feeling
crawling things,

biting, itching,
and colored threads

coming out of their
skin, and if it

sounds like something
you got, do your

own research, look
into a little bit.

All right, well if
you like this video

please give it a thumbs up and

I will see you next time, bye.

- I've rubbed crushed
asprin into my skin,

and you can see the Morgellons
is in my cheek there.

That's what's made
it really puffy.

It's all around my lips.

It's in my chin.

It's really bad there.

It's actually getting
better with this asprin.

And in the nose, it's hard
to put it on, makeup kinda

falls off, but you have
to just press it in.

I just had a bath.

I put some [mumbles] on my skin.

My eyes are a really
dark, I don't know what

that's from, something
to do with Morgellons.

Dark dark dark under
there, I don't know.

I don't know why I'm
like that, but I think it

looks worse in this lighting
than it actually is.

I don't know what that's
from, but not a good sign.

The lips are really bad.

Put it on your lips too.

Got a horrible
coating on your lips.

So anyhow folks,
there's my latest video.

Regarding Morgellons symptoms,

I opened a Facebook
support group.

I'd like you to join.

That'd be great.

Anyhow, thank you for
watching this update of my

silent superbug fiber
disease Morgellons symptoms.

Thank you for watching.

- I'm having a whole
lot of thoughts,

so I just keep
getting the message,

turn the camera on
and talk, and the one

thought that keeps
coming up to mind

for me right in this moment is

mfromcanada1, over and
over she is in my mind.

I just want to somehow...

Say hi.

Your videos make me
cry because you are

getting on there and
you are showing it

like you see it and
risking looking crazy.

I'm not trying to say I think

anything, 'cause why
risk it, you know?

There are a lot of
us on YouTube who do.

And I wanna tell you
if you're watching

and you're thinking
about, I'd just love

to get my face on there and just

saying how I feel and
show my piece of the

puzzle, YouTube is a
sweet, sweet family, guys.

Morgellons videos are boring
because it's very slow.

It's so slow you
can't capture it and

it's so fast you
can't capture it.

[mumbles].

Did I say that?

Time to shut the camera off huh?

- [Heather] Stacy
Hillman and her husband

Jeff say 2011 was
the year from Hell.

- [Stacy] I was suicidal.

- [Heather] Last
March Stacy started

feeling pin pricks on her skin.

A few weeks later lesions
covered her entire body.

- It felt like there
was some type of bug,

thousands of bugs
crawling all over my face.

- [Heather] They spent
thousands of dollars

going from doctor to
doctor trying to get help.

- They basically would look
at her like she was crazy.

- [Heather] Stacy shares
that skin crawling

sensation with thousands of
people all over the country.

Its common name is Morgellon
Syndrome, which the

CDC doesn't recognize as legit.

After months, the
Hillmans finally found

relief in Dr. Omar
Amin in Scottsdale.

He's a parasitologist,
but since so many

sought his help
thinking they were

infected by bugs,
he wanted answers.

- [Omar] I'm a hardcore,
old fashioned scientist.

- [Heather] Dr. Amin
believes the problem

actually comes down to
dental material that's

not compatible with the
body's immune system.

The exposure to those
toxins causes nerve

damage which makes it feel
like the skin is crawling.

- The nerve cells would misfire.

You have no normal
nerve impulse anymore,

and that misfiring
will cause the

sensations of movement
and [mumbles].

- [Reporter] The
body's lymphatic system

tries to eliminate those
toxins through the skin

which breaks out in
sores and invites

other biological
organisms to nest.

Like spores which grow
long-stemmed fungus.

The concept is new to
science and easy to dismiss,

but Dr. Amin warns
thousands are at risk.

- Everybody who has
dental work, and that's

just about everybody
that lives in this

culture of ours,
is an open game.

- He saved my life.

He really did.

- Dr. Amin calls
the disorder NCS

for Neurocutaneous
Syndrome, he sees patients

from all over the
world, the Hillmans

came here from Los Angeles.

Now Stacy is taking some
homeopathic remedies,

but her dentist has
already started replacing

her fillings with more
compatible material

based on her own
individual blood tests.

If you'd like more
information you can

head to our website
at CBS5AZ.com.

Reporting live in Phoenix I'm
Heather Moore, CBS 5 News.

- Hey guys, I'm Tasha.

I don't know if you
can tell, but my face

is looking kinda
strange this morning.

The last few days
have been extremely

emotionally up and
down, really difficult

things, but also really
good things, so I

wanted to share
with you about this

amazing stuff, and this
little piece of magic.

On the first day
that I realized I had

Morgellons, I was
reading a lot that day

and one of the
things that I read

was that this organism
has, well it's a

crazy weird organism,
but that pulsed

magnetism overloads
the circuitry.

When I held it back
there, I was like oh

my gosh, I'm just
gonna cry, it was...

I felt it all over
my body and it was...

I could feel my head
actually was going.

And all these things
in my eyes were

just going, like I
cannot believe this.

It affects everything.

I'm like so if the
Morgellons is in my brain

and is affecting function
all over my body,

I don't know exactly, but that
was some super crazy stuff.

It kept on like that
and I just held it there

and I'm like I'm gonna
kill you, Morgellons.

[laughs]

Eventually it kinda slowed
down and I felt like...

A different person, I'm like
something huge happened there.

Another thing that
happened after using that

was I woke up in the
morning, and I was

gonna go do the Epsom
salt bath and I'm

like I have to go
to the bathroom.

So I went and it was
different, it felt

very different, so
I looked, 'cause I

haven't been
analyzing my BMs, I've

been burning out on
that, and we don't have

a good toilet for it,
but I did look that day

and there was definitely
big pieces of rope worm.

I posted about it
and a girl who says

she has both the rope
worm and the Morgellons,

she believes it's
the same organism.

I'm like that's kinda
an interesting thought.

It seemed like whatever it
was that was, I was shaking

up this area, but then
my gut area happened too.

I think those were
the big things I was

gonna say, this thing is
a little miracle baby.

It's only $20!

This, and you can get
the zapper for $35,

and how much does
treatment cost?

I'm really really
excited about this.

I hope this information
has been giving you

hope, has given
you hope, and some

information that can
maybe help you too.

If you like it, please give it a

thumbs up and share
it and thanks for

watching, see you
next time, bye.

- Okay, I had a
couple comments lately

that I have sadness in my eyes.

You guys can make all
kinds of comments,

and I can let them
slip on down the river

and I can build a
bridge and get over it,

but that one kinda hit
me because it's true,

I do have sadness in
my eyes, it's been

really hard lately
to even upload clips.

I'm sad because, and you
can see it in my eyes.

I see it out there
in the word, I see it

in my children, I see
it in my grandchildren,

and that's not
because I'm crazy.

It's because they keep
going to the doctor,

they're complaining
about something,

and something is
affecting their health.

But they're not
getting any help.

And I want us all
to quit suffering

from disease that we
don't know anything about.

Unidentified disease,
that makes it like a UFO.

But if you see sadness in my
eyes, it is, it's really there.

'Cause it's really
serious, you guys.

A lot of people are
looking at it and

a lot of people are
finding dead ends.

But we need a healing
that comes from truth.

Ourselves.

Yeah, sad eyes today.

It's okay.

I love you guys.

I really do.

- So I've just been
using the magnetic

acupressure vibrator
on my nose area.

Seems like some of the
freckles have cleared out.

This one came out on the side.

I kinda tried to pull it.

Oh I got it that time.

That's what's left.

Isn't that interesting.

Huh, I've never seen
it do that before.

I've just seen that what comes

out kinda looks
like a worm shape.

Busted open, this one looks
like he's still coming out.

All right, so I
just tore him off.

Interesting.

- [Marcia] It was a
Morgellons machine.

You will not believe
this, it's got a

little particle on the end of it

and it is moving, look at that.

60 times magnification.

See if I can adjust it
a little bit more here.

So it's coming from that
little sample there.

Did you just see that movement?

Did you just see that movement?

What on Earth is this?

Look at this thing, oh my god.

It is strong, it is
very flipping strong.

Oh my goodness.

Just weird energy
around it, it's kinda

being picked up by the camera.

I don't know if that's
anything important or not.

These are just a bunch
of little pieces that

came out of a sample,
this came from my arm.

What's all that weird stuff?

My goodness.

Well let's watch the
fiber for a while.

See if it starts moving again.

Let's see if we talk to it.

Wow, where did that come from?

Did that just
sprout out of there?

Excuse me, but did you see that?

It seemed to come out of there.

It popped out of there and
grabbed on the other fiber.

What on Earth is going on?

That is so weird, that
totally popped out,

I'm sure, you saw
that didn't you?

Gosh, there's another one
on a little piece of fiber.

Lots going on here, let's see.

It just detached
itself from there,

oh my god, it is
moving, oh my god.

It is so strange.

It looks like a plant, you know?

To me.

This is so, oh my god, I
see it move, the little

one is lifting up the
big one, oh my god!

Oh my god, the little
one is under the big one

and it is actually,
is it lifting it up?

Look at that, when
it starts moving,

the power, the
force, the energy.

Where does it get its food?

It is flipping strong.

Okay, flipping strong.

So are you gonna move anymore,
are you gonna move some more?

A.

Oh my god, it moved me
saying the letter A!

Did you see that?

Oh my god.

A.

Now it's not reacting to that.

Or is it, oh my god, now what?

Oh my god, look at it.

This is at 60 times
magnification,

I'm using a Celestron
amoeba microscope.

And this Morgellons sample
came from my chin area.

So we got these little machines.

And I would really like to know

where they are getting
their energy from,

I would really
like to know that.

E!

That made it move
too, the letter E.

[ethereal atmosphere music]

F.

F.

F.

O.

O.

U.

A.

E.

Wow.

E.

E.

My goodness.

I.

I.

I.

O.

O.

O.

U.

U.

U.

Y.

Y.

Oh man, did you just see that?

This is just insanity watching

this work, this machine at work.

It's working, it's
jabbing into things,

it's connecting,
it's now jabbing

into the other end
of the little one,

it's connected to
the other sample.

And all I had to do was say Y.

Y.

Y.

Why are you moving
to the letter Y?

Why are you in my body?

Why?

Why?

Why why why!

I don't know if it's
just the words or...

- Hey guys, I'm Tasha.

Today's video is about hair.

So I wanted to give you
the best view of my hair.

Look at that.

I'm looking at it and thinking

it looks like a
Pantene commercial!

[laughs]

But we all know
that in the Pantene

commercials they
actually put stuff on

there to make the
hair look shiny.

I don't have anything
on my hair and

it is so soft and
shiny and gorgeous.

Okay, so what's up?

When I take a bath
in Epsom salt,

guess what came out of my body?

You can't really see it, it
just looks like a clump of hair.

This is probably 10, 10
to 15 fibers that came

out of not my head, but
the bottom part of me.

This came out of somewhere.

The bottom part of me
that was under the water,

I just kept seeing these
things appear in the water.

And this is a clump
of hair that came

out of me the same day
right after that bath,

I took a shower and pulled
this out of my head.

I mean if you look
at them in the camera

you can't really
see a difference.

Close up camera, they
kinda look the same too.

They are fibers.

This area on my head has
been losing hair for a while,

but I started to
get these white and

silvery hairs
growing right there.

And over here.

You can see some white ones.

I learned recently
that what happens

with Morgellons is,
gotta fix the hair.

[laughs]

Morgellons takes
over the hair shaft.

It kicks out your
normal hair and then

it starts to grow
its fibers out of it.

And the fibers are more wirey.

Well when I started doing
this parasite cleanse

I was like why is
my hair so nasty.

Well I think because
the Morgellons

was getting kicked
out of my head.

And now those little
wirey things are

gone from right here
and it is very soft.

So isn't that interesting?

Parasite cleanse is doing
wonders all over my body.

Now we're seeing it in the hair.

Very interesting.

All right, well
thanks for watching.

If you like this video,
please give it a thumbs up.

See you next time, bye.

- Hey everybody.

Another beautiful
day in Colorado.

Hey check out this cup I was
just noticing I was drinking.

Pikes Peak, tells the
elevation right there.

They got these
world famous donuts.

Can go up there and get them.

You don't even have
to walk up there.

[laughs]

Walk up for 13 miles
and then have a donut?

Okay, anyway, hey,
got a little corner

over here and try and
talk to you privately.

Okay, I'm gonna say
some things and I'm

gonna say them like
I know something,

but I don't really
know anything, I'm just

gonna tell you my thoughts
and put them on table.

You can shuffle it around and

throw them off if
you want, okay?

Clifford Carnicom and
Gwen Scott, I posted

those videos a couple
days ago, are saying

that we all have
Morgellons right?

And I believe that to be
true because everything

I've looked at under the
microscope that's in the...

Process of death, where
they're shriveled up and dying,

they're full of Morgellons and
it's taking over their body.

Morgellons is the death process.

And we do all have
it, we're born

with it, we're born with death.

It's controlling,
the death factor is

very controlling,
the fear of death in

our culture, in our
society, in our world.

It totally controls us.

And we, in response,
wanting to find a

way to fix that
and not die right?

I don't know, I'm not
afraid of it anymore.

I don't even wanna say
that, you know what I mean?

You don't wanna say it, I
don't wanna be arrogant,

but it just doesn't
scare me anymore.

I'm ready for that if
that's the way it is.

God's will be done, you know?

But I am not, my nails
aren't abnormally dying.

So that's a good sign.

Hey, thanks guys for letting
me vlog for a minute.

I'm trying to spit
out some stuff today.

- Hi everybody.

There's my Spooky2 setup.

I've been trying
this technology to

help me with
Morgellons symptoms.

I've been trying it
for about a month now

and I wanna tell you
a little bit more

about this and how it's
actually helping me.

So let's just adjust
the camera here.

So this technology is
based upon Rife, R-I-F-E,

and you can look it up on
Google, there's a lot of

information out there
on Rife and his research

and to how frequencies
can actually be used

to help cure people
of diseases et cetera.

This setup here costs
approximately $500 plus taxes.

I do think that this
would be a very good

investment for just
about anybody because

of the ability to
diagnose and also

to help treat you
for many things.

Even if it didn't
work for Morgellons

it surely works
for other things.

The one other thing
that I love about it,

I absolutely love
about this program,

is that you don't actually have

to be present for
it to work and that

is the most amazing thing to me.

I used to try that
ionic foot bath,

I hated having to
sit in there for

so long with my
feet in that bath.

Couldn't go anywhere,
do anything.

I also tried the
Hulda Clark zapper

where you hang onto
those copper things

and you do 20
minutes and then you

take a break and then
another 20 minutes.

I have no patience for
those things, okay?

I much prefer the
remote settings and I'm

using just fingernail
clippings or toenail

clippings in there of
my own for the DNA.

And you insert
those into a magnet

and the magnet, the
frequency generator

goes through the
fingernail to either

diagnose or to treat, and
because we are beings,

a small part of us is
a whole part of us.

It's like, and I
understand that inherently.

Okay, so what have the
improvements been so far?

From me using this.

Well one of the main
problems is my lips.

The coating has
almost disappeared.

For over a decade I've
had this plastic-like,

amber colored coating
on my lips that

is like having glue
on your lips and

you have to rip the
glue off every day.

My lips have been
nice now or pretty

nice like this
for two weeks now.

I'm just amazed, okay?

Now the other thing is
the skin on my face.

The skin on my face just
feels so much nicer.

I can't tell you,
it used to just

feel like it was
covered in something

that was suffocating
me literally.

Now it'll pick up other
problems you might have

like perhaps you got
an aneurysm going on,

or you might have
cancer in your body

going on somewhere,
it's gonna pick that up.

It appears that
I have pneumonia.

I might even have tuberculosis.

Now I do think that's
accurate because

I've been having this
terrible cough for about

10 years now coughing up
this jelly-like matter.

And one of the main
reasons I haven't

been making YouTube
videos as well is

because my voice,
the symptoms get

so bad that I find
it hard to speak.

Now today I seem
to be able to speak

quite fine for over
10 minute, but with my

Morgellons symptoms it
hasn't been that way.

I've been lucky if
I can speak a minute

or two without having
to stop and cough up.

So anyhow folks,
thank you for watching

this video, I hope
you appreciated

my update and I
will give you more

updates on my trial of
Spooky2 as I go along.

Thank you again for
watching, I'll post links

below where you can
get this, I'm not

trying to sell it, but
I'm trying to help people.

I'll post links below
where you can purchase

the Spooky2 and try
it out for yourself.

Marcia signing out.

♪ Don't it always seem to go

- [Reporter] Joni
Mitchell's music remains

as vibrant today as it
was all those years ago,

but here physical
health is another story

and now we're learning
more about the

mystery that may
be to blame for her

emergency hospitalization
this week.

It's a bizarre ailment known
as Morgellons Syndrome.

- This is the face of
Morgellons Disease.

- The people you
see here on YouTube

claim to be suffering from it.

Many experts believe
Morgellons Syndrome is a

psychiatric disorder,
including Dr. Charles Sophie.

Is there anything really there?

- Usually no.

I've had several cases of
this over the last 20 years.

Some people feel there
are bugs in their skull,

and we have had biopsies down to

the cranium and
there's nothing there.

- [Reporter] Joni
called Morgellons

"a slow, unpredictable killer.

"I have this weird,
incurable disease

"that seems like it's
from outer space,"

Joni Mitchell once
said of her condition.

"Fibers in a variety
of colors protrude out

"of my skin like mushrooms
after a rainstorm.

"They cannot be
forensically identified

"as animal, mineral,
or vegetable."

What is she talking about?

What is she feeling?

- She's actually
thinking and she's

actually feeling that
this stuff is real.

- [Reporter] For Joni Mitchell,
the mystery continues.

- Hi.

I wanted to talk to you for
a minute about Morgellons.

Well welcome to all
you new subscribers,

and if this is a
conversation you're

not interested in,
I won't be offended,

go click and watch
another video because

I'm gonna talk about
Morgellons, what we

call Morgellons
and urine therapy.

Which I've had
experiences now for

three years going
on trying to fight,

trying to fight the battle with

this therapy, with
this technique.

I wanted to get very
honest with you about my

feelings and thoughts
and experiences about it.

What I would like to
say in all honesty

is I am still having a struggle.

And it's still a daily struggle.

So if you're thinking
about urine therapy

for pretty much any
other disease or

illness that I can
think of, colds,

hangovers,
rehydrating your body,

getting your blood
pressure normal,

getting everything normal, yeah,

drink your pee, it
is awesome, you can

cure just about anything
that I can imagine.

I do it all day long every day.

I drink my pee
when it comes out.

Sometimes I save it and drink it

other ways, I drink it through

my nose, I drink it in my eyes,

I drink it in my
ears, and my skin

is the biggest one,
you wanna really

do a lot of massage
with urine, or you

can age it and
it's more powerful.

More stinky, more
powerful in a lot of ways.

But okay, so back to Morgellons.

Even though the
evidence of it and the

affliction, the
hell that is minimal

in comparison to the way it was

three years ago,
very much so in fact,

but I can't say it's cured
it, I can't say it's gone.

Like I said, if
you're thinking you

wanna cure Morgellons,
the reason that

Morgellons is coming
are the, well I don't

wanna say anything,
it's not like I can

say anything, but
it's an expression of

what we've done through
ourselves through life.

It's telling you it's
time to clean the temple.

Yeah.

And you can for free.

Just get in there and,
well you need a cup,

and you can have a
cup pretty much made

out of anything, I
wouldn't use styrofoam,

plastic, has to be
like pottery or glass,

brass, gold, I mean
who has a gold cup

laying around, but
that kind of thing,

use that kind of
cup and catch the

midstream, let a little
go at the beginning,

save a little, let
it go at the end.

Catch the middle.

Just do a couple drops in your
orange juice in the morning.

A couple drops will treat the
whole thing, just bless it.

You know, it's a
different way of life.

Talk about red pill blue
pill stuff, boy once

you start doing
it you don't wanna

go back to that
other way of life.

Because it feels
really healthy and

it feels really good
and it's very...

I can't promise you
anything, but it's

a different kind of [mumbles].

I won't use those words.

Start using words and
people get attached.

But can come unattached
and just drink your pee.

[laughs]

Yeah, got lots of people really,

in this country,
pee is called toxic

and pee is called gross and all

kinds of other ways,
taking the Lord's

name in vain, but we
won't get into that.

Hey, have a great day,
I didn't mean to shed

bad news, but I just
gotta be honest you know?

- I know that the people
that I've seen talking

about Morgellons are
usually anonymous.

I have multiple
friends who have talked

to me about having
Morgellons and thanked me

for speaking about
it because they can't

talk about it
because the people in

their life will think
that they're crazy,

or they have brought it up and

people think that they're crazy.

I guess it came up for me today,

I mean it's come
up multiple times

where I post pictures
and people say

oh that's nothing,
oh that's nothing.

I posted the video
yesterday of the

Morgellons coming
out of the side of

my nose and everybody
who commented

said it looks like dead skin.

The thing with
Morgellons is the stuff

that comes out of you can easily

be explained as something else.

The long fibers that come
out of me look like hair.

The ones that grow in
my head look like hair.

The little worms that
have come out of my face,

people say they
look like whiteheads
coming out of my face.

Or the little one
that looks like

the little piece, it looks like

dead skin, it looks
like dry skin.

What can I say?

These things come out
all over my body and...

If you're an outsider
who just sees

one little snippet
of it, it's easy

to think that that's what it is,

it's just dead skin or whatever.

But if you're in
my body, and I am

closely observing
everything about

what's going on, it's
pretty exhausting,

it can be pretty
exhausting 'cause you're

not only dealing
with physical stuff,

but you're also
dealing with this

relational stuff and
it can be really hard

for people with these
illnesses who don't have

any support, I mean I'm
so grateful for Facebook.

There's groups online
for all this stuff.

For people who are
dealing with these things

where nobody in their
real life gets them.

I guess I just wanna
educate those of you who are

unfamiliar with invisible
illnesses like Lyme

and mold, multiple chemical
sensitivity, Morgellons.

So you know what
we're going through,

I mean I know it can
be hard because it's

like seriously you're
making a big deal out of

nothing, but why would
somebody make this up?

Why would you
continue to talk about

something when people
say oh you're crazy?

Why would you keep
talking about it?

And subject yourself to more

people telling you you're crazy?

You wouldn't do that unless
it's really happening.

Or unless you have
a delusion I guess,

but the thing is
there are so many

people with this, how
can it be a delusion?

In conclusion, thank
you so much for those of

you who have been so
supportive throughout this

whole thing, it's really
not easy to deal with.

There are some good days, there
are some really tough days.

It's getting better though,
I'm getting so much better.

I don't know what I
would've done without

online support and
without people who get me.

My friends, I have some
really good Lyme Aid

friends who are getting
me through this stuff.

And we tell each other
that we're not crazy.

My friend today said she's
gonna kick your butt.

[laughs]

If anyone gives me a hard time,
she's gonna kick your butt.

Anyway, I mean it's
just good to know that

you have people who've
got your back because

we all need people, we
all need human love.

Even if we're okay
with none ourselves

and know that we're
walking the right path,

it's just really
really important

to have people in
our lives who...

Who get us and
understand and love us

and accept us and tell
us we're not crazy.

All right, thanks for
watching this video.

See you later, bye.

- Hi everybody.

In response to a
Morgellons video of mine,

AscendingStarSeed wrote this.

"I really feel
sorry for you, lady.

"Fear has taken total
control of your life."

First of all, you
do not feel sorry

for me at all, that's
a bald-faced lie.

And fear has not taken
control of my life.

I actually don't fear anything.

You don't know me one bit.

Because if you did know
me, you'd know that I

was the bravest person
you'll probably ever meet.

"The alt news community
has failed so many

"people with constant
fearmongering, hate, anger,

"and feelings of powerlessness
over the boogeyman."

What has that got
to do with my video?

Okay.

Nothing.

The boogeyman didn't
create Morgellons.

It was created by
people that make war,

it's a weapon of
war, it's bioterror.

You need to wake up.

I've actually disclosed
the cause of Morgellons.

I've actually disclosed the

coverup of Morgellons
by the CDC.

I don't know what to
say to people like you.

I don't know what to
say to people like you.

There is nothing,
absolutely nothing,

loving or kind whatsoever
in your comment.

There's no empathy whatsoever.

You think you know everything
and you know nothing.

I actually really hope that
you get Morgellons, I do,

because it'll be a great
learning lesson for you.

A great learning lesson,
and you'll probably

learn somewhere in
there to have some

compassion and empathy
for people instead of

making hurtful, hateful
comments like this one.

AscendingStarSeed,
you're not welcome

on my page and you're
getting blocked.

And I actually hope
everybody goes over

to your channel
and tells you what

they think of you
for writing this sort

of comment because
you're heartless and

I don't want heartless
people in my world.

They don't belong.

- There are things that...

Oh my gosh, it's like...

Why turn on the recorder,
why talk to you?

But when you're the only
one that I can talk to...

And I get frozen and he's
frozen, I mean paralyzed.

I would love love love to
pass the system of diagnosis.

But I've been diagnosed with
some pretty heavy stuff lately.

Psychotic Depression.

And I researched that and
I looked it up just to see.

WTF.

[chuckles]

Is that, sounds
pretty psychotic.

I don't feel psychotic.

But it's deep.

Sorry I have not
been showing up.

It's because I
don't wanna record

depressing videos like this.

You know what I'm saying?

I've been talking to this
group I'm in, so that's good.

But...

I have a feeling
the group I'm in

is for people who
are on the edge

of suicide or have just been on

the edge and dove
over, I'm not sure.

It's interesting,
there are people that

I've grown to love
in just one week.

Isn't that weird?

I'll hang in there
for you guys, I will.

I wanna give you my word,
I will not commit suicide.

I will look you in
the eye right now

and tell you if for
some reason I don't

show up, I wanna keep
showing up consistent so

I'm not crying wolf,
I'm not on that edge.

I don't think about ways
and means to do that.

But I'm having a little trouble

living in this
existence right now.

Why, I don't have a clue.

It's good to know
that you're there.

But when you're in
this state, it doesn't

matter if there's a
million people there.

It's so weird.

What state am I
in, I don't know.

I don't wanna turn the
camera off because who

wants to watch somebody
who's in this state, right?

I don't.

You don't.

It's real, I mean it's really

where I'm at, you
guys, right now.

[chuckles]

You hear people
say well you quit

drinking your pee,
no, no that is not it.

It's not, I'm missing
because, you know, whatever.

Thanks for watching,
I mean I'm sure

this is getting a
little too long.

All right, okay,
it's time to turn

it off and I'm just checking in.

Thanks for your
love and support.

I'll keep talking to
you, I gotta keep talking

to you guys, I just have
to keep talking to you.

Don't forget you have my word,

sorry I'm wiping
my snot on my hand.

I just won't do it, okay?

And I hope you don't either.

Let's just hang
in here together.

I love you guys.

- [Reporter] It's an
emotional meeting.

These people from
all over the country

all suffer from a baffling
disease, including the

youngest patient, this
little three year old.

- Everything about this is not

normal, it's gonna
be really hard.

- I'm just scared.

Very scared.

- [Reporter] Using
magnifying devices

they comb their
bodies, examining what

they say are outbreaks
of the disease.

- I've had 17 visits
with doctors over
the past three years.

All of them except one have
basically laughed at me.

- I don't think these
patients are crazy.

- [Reporter] At Oklahoma
State University

in Tulsa, Dr. Ronda
Casey believes

Morgellons is a genuine illness.

Dr. Casey says all her patients

exhibit the same types
of lesions and scars.

She says they are definitely
not self-inflicted.

- They all appear
to be eruptions more

than scratched
areas on their skin.

- [Reporter] Dr. Casey
has taken numerous

fiber samples and says they're

unlike anything she's ever seen.

- They are not textile, they
are not any known substance.

- [Reporter] Doctor
Casey and her colleague

Dr. Randy Wymore take the
samples to Tulsa's crime lab.

- Morgellons fibers are
not any known textile.

Cotton or rayon or
nylon, not any of those.

- [Reporter] What's
more, the fibers

don't burn when
exposed to high heat.

- Have you ever done a
fiber that didn't vaporize

completely other than
the Morgellons fiber?

- No.

- [Reporter] Many in
the medical community

are nonetheless
skeptical, but people

who say they have
Morgellons are desperate.

- Look at the evidence,
that's all we ask.

Look at the evidence.

- Hey guys, so it's kinda
big day, big moment.

I have been losing my hair.

It started out down
here, it's been

getting shorter and
shorter and shorter

and shorter as the
Morgellons come out.

The moving hairs, I
think my whole head

is Morgellons
affected, I think I'm

gonna be losing all
of my hair, and I

can't really do
much with it because

it's too short to do a
ponytail or whatever.

I talked with a friend
who has Morgellons

and he agreed with
me that it would

be probably a good thing
to go ahead and take

it off and then be
done with it, and then

I will grow new hair,
but this is all infected.

It's gonna happen.

A little nervous, so here we go.

Got my husband's
thing, oh you should

know I have shaved
my hair a few times

in the past, so it's
not new to me, but I've

never done it while I've
had a YouTube channel.

All at once here.

[razor buzzes]

No turning back.

Oh gosh, I'm scared.

Oh my gosh.

Oh my gosh!

I might need a wig.

[laughs]

Oh my gosh, what am I doing?

Think I'll be wearing a
hat to church this week.

Oh my gosh.

Oh my gosh.

I should give myself a mohawk,
I've never had one before.

So I cam maybe still
hide it at this point.

[chuckles]

So there's me with a mohawk.

Oh golly.

I don't wanna be doing this,
I wanna have long hair.

I can tell you what,
I'm looking down at

these hairs all over
my body going ha ha!

I beat you, Morgellons.

[laughs]

I'm throwing you
in the trash can.

Looks like I have cancer right?

Well I do kinda, you know?

Got these tumors and lumps.

These parasites
are causing which

grows into cancer,
we probably all have

things that could grow
into cancer in our bodies.

All right.

Better get some
sunshine on that thing.

Oh wait, the sunshine is
covered up by chemtrails.

[laughs]

All right.

Oh my goodness.

See ya!

- We are literally
separating society

into two different
segments, and those

two segments are
like those that are

awake and those that
are still asleep.

You can't be any other way.

So what is happening is you are

literally getting two
different realities.

You have the reality
of those that are awake

and you have the reality
of those that are asleep.

I don't know how
many of you have

watched videos by
the Tool Tech Knowhow

by the name of Almine,
but she describes

the Earth as
separating like an egg.

You have the yolk,
you have the white,

and then you know
in the bible it

talks about the
end times and how

the weed will be
separated from the chaff.

So I think that's what's
happening right now.

I don't even really feel like
I am in this society anymore.

When I go downtown I
look at all the people,

I hate to say it, but
they look semi-retarded.

They do.

They're all drooling or
they're, I don't know,

it really is starting
to freak me out because

they literally look like they're

mentally disabled, all of them.

It's kinda scary, and so I don't

interact very much with anybody

out there because, first of all,

I don't even feel like
I'm in this world anymore.

I literally feel
sorta like I'm...

Becoming ethereal.

Becoming less
connected, less solid,

less, yeah I have to say that.

I just don't feel like I'm
any part of that world,

the ones who are
asleep, at all anymore.

It doesn't bother me at
all, but I wanna get to

the new place where all
the awake people are.

So anyhow...

It's just how I feel, I
hope people aren't insulted.

It's just enlightening.

Thanks for watching,
mfromcanada1 [mumbles].

- Wow, wow guys, you know?

Some absolutely amazing
things going on.

We're all just lighting up like

little lotus flowers everywhere.

10,000 subscribers.

What does that mean, all of a
sudden, I mean just like that.

10,000 of us understand
that original sin,

the one that Jesus
died for, one sin,

one God, one meaning to
our story as human beings.

We're not humans doing all
that Tree of Knowledge garbage.

System goes so so deep,
but 10,000 people,

and I'm not saying I'm
one of them, I'm not.

But let's look and
see what happens

because all kinds
of things come clear

at about six months
of gulping those

glasses all day
long, all day long.

Six months is not that
long guys, it's gonna pass.

It's gonna pass either way.

'Cause y'all are counting time.

I'm counting time
too, I got 1,032 days.

I'm reading quite
a bit of different

scripture about counting days.

Being blessed, when
you wait and you

sit quiet and you don't
expect anything and you

don't try and make
things happens, you just.

[gibberish]

Like that, you know?

The nose knows.

10,000 subscribers.

Wow.

I was amazed, guys it's a lie.

It's a big fat lie
and I'm not trying

to blame anybody because
all of us have been

lied to, we lie to our kids,
we lie to our kids' kids.

I did too.

For years.

Change their diapers
and tell them

that's gross shit,
to throw that away.

Pee is nontoxic
guys, been drinking

it all for almost three years.

It's just wow.

And we're all putting
pieces together.

Very, very rapidly.

Just hang on with your
arms up and it's okay

'cause we're on the
ride, we're in the river,

we're all flowing, it's
all flowing as one.

One solid unit.

A very intelligent, very loving.

Very loving kindness
from the God heart,

the bottom of God's
heart, and who am I?

I'm not to say.

I can't say what's in
God's heart, only you know.

Really, it's a you
thing with God.

One and one make one.

We are all one.

Just one, there's no other
number that's important.

Nope.

Just one, just you.

Just...

10,000 subscribers.

I love you, I love
love love you.

And that matters
absolutely none.

I'm just speaking for you.

I'll love you 'till you can
love yourself like I love you.

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