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I'm just a girl in an ordinary place with the usual clothes, the usual face,

wishing I was wise to the ways of the world, I'll always be just another ordinary girl.

I've got plans where I'll go, but when the weather's bad, I just stay home.

I wait for something great to happen while I sit around.

Am I trapped or am I faking?

Is this cage of my own making?

I'm not surprised at the ways of the world, I'll always be just another ordinary girl.

If I could only be so fine, there's just one thing I can't define.

It's the kind of thing in magazines I spin around, I spin around.

I'm just a girl in an ordinary place with the usual clothes, the usual face,

I never really had anything that I was really good at.

I envy those people that played basketball all through high school and through college.

They had something that they were really good at, and I just never had that.

I know I'm good at sex.

I can give head really well.

I can go down on women really well.

I fuck great.

I'm very confident about my sexual capability.

I think I was about four to six weeks when I was adopted.

So that's all I know is my mom.

I'm an only child, which I like.

My mom spoiled me, and I got all the attention and all the love.

The first thing that pops up into my mind is getting the spanking of a lifetime.

I believe in punishment and spanking, but not when you're mad, and that's what he did.

I haven't spoken to him since I was 16. I feel very, very fortunate that I got my mother.

She's daddy's girl.

She's got golden curl.

Apple of mommy's eye.

I was raised to be a housewife, because that's the way it is in Oklahoma.

I did end up being married to someone that I'm glad I'm no longer married to.

He was much like my dad.

I was scared of him.

He was very dominant.

Had I not ever met him, I would never be here.

I would never be in the adult entertainment industry.

He introduced me to all of that.

He always had hustlers and penthouse, and we'd be looking through them.

He was telling me how erotic it would be to see me in a magazine and how cool it would be.

He could show his friends, this is my wife.

Finally, I sent a picture that he had taken of me.

I sent it to an amateur contest, and I was the monthly winner.

Next thing I knew, I was going to Mexico to do a layout for Hustler and to do a boy-girl shoot.

I got off the plane.

I was very scared, very nervous.

I was freaking out.

I thought, oh, my God, what if they're not here?

I have no phone number.

But they were there, and they said, well, we've just got to wait for the male model.

And I had no idea what he looked like.

I didn't know any information about him.

And he got off the plane, and, I mean, it was like pow.

I think I'm going to like this business.

I didn't think twice about it.

I didn't think twice about being naked in front of people.

I loved it.

So I go home on the plane, and my husband's picking me up at the airport.

And I remember walking off of the plane and him standing there at the gate like this with his arms.

And he's huge, just like that, and just pissed.

I mean, I could just, as soon as I walked off the plane, I saw him.

All my positive energy, everything just immediately left.

And I was back to, oh, this is my suck-ass life.

I am getting the hell out of Dodge.

Well, you can't leave.

All the tomato plants will die.

You are such a moron.

Just hold on to your ponies there.

You can't go out in this big, bad world without old Billy Bob.

You ain't never been nowhere, and you don't know nothing.

I realized that I didn't want to be a housewife.

I don't want to live in Oklahoma.

I don't want to be a secretary.

And it's like, no, I'm out of here.

I left everything behind.

I left all my clothes, all my furniture, my house to come out to California.

I have the future to look forward to, and it's very bright.

I didn't list any other girls.

Oh, okay, so I can just play by myself?

You could do by yourself.

Oh, okay.

I've been in the adult business since 1976, when I was president of Hustler Magazine for a few years, and then I got into the video business in the early 80s.

I brought Stacey in, and I liked the fact that she was from Oklahoma.

I liked the fact that she was honest, and I liked the fact that she wanted to concentrate on her career.

I have seen and experienced two or three directors and producers say, I'm not using a girl with a tattoo.

Well, it's very easy to cover in love.

Well, in your case it was, but I thought of that right away.

What do you mean with tattoo covers?

Especially like in a bigger movie that's supposed to be classy.

The tattoo in a picture seems to cheapen the girl for the shot.

We had one girl who had a tattoo of Minnie Mouse on one leg and Mickey Mouse on the other.

No, no, no, for copyright purposes.

And down on her ankles, and we had to put socks on her every time we shot a movie.

If they do a regular sex scene, she'd get $1,000 a day.

If she does an anal scene, she'd get an extra $250 to $500 extra.

If she does a double penetration, she might get a total of $1,750 to $2,000 a day.

So it depends on the type of requirements of the sex scene, and whether they're willing to do it, which Stacy is willing to do.

You want me to do all the soft core or do all the hard core?

I'd like to get the hard core out of the way, so we can concentrate on soft core, because she likes the soft core cable.

So I'd like to get hard core out of the way first.

You're going to come in her face.

No, I can hold off on the pop, dude.

I'll get a pop later.

You can?

I get a pop in two minutes with her foot in my mouth.

For the hard core, I want you guys to be nasty.

Okay.

Really down and dirty with each other, okay?

Soft core, you're going to be as beautiful as a Playboy magazine.

I really don't care.

Then you be nasty.

Okay.

Have you done this before?

Never.

I'm a virgin, actually.

Yeah.

Never had sex in my life.

You're wonderful.

Watch your focus there.

Oh, my God.

Here, wait. Oh, my God.

Here, wait.

What's happening?

There's a ton there.

Pause the camera, please.

What happened?

I'm getting attacked by ants.

Get off my towel.

This is, ow.

You sure are a trooper, lady.

I know a thousand actors.

What came here with all these ants?

And they walked away.

Why are you fucking around?

Come on, let's get this done.

She's sweeping ants.

Who's sweeping ants?

She's acting.

That's not her job.

She's the star.

Okay, rolling.

And let's go.

Same intensity, please.

Action.

Go.

Alex, give me one minute, and then, uh...

Going into missionary.

Yeah.

Give me, like, a minute before you do it, though.

All right.

Can you count that high in your head?

Yeah.

That's 16 Mississippis.

One Mississippi, two Mississippi.

No, no, not out loud, Alex.

This is the disgusting part of our movie.

As we spruce sperm all over women's faces, and the feminists say, Why do you do that?

I don't know why we do it.

We just do it.

This, uh, we already started in, uh, 1611, a long time ago.

You wasn't born yet.

But this is prehistoric things, you know?

Men like coming in face, because you're all big slut, okay?

Ooh!

Don't take that shit!

Men are pigs, part two!

In this business, the women are the moneymakers, not the men.

And men don't really like that.

There are very few people that I would advise to get into the business.

I would only advise someone to get into the business if they love sex.

That's the only reason why I think you should get into the business.

I don't think you should get into the business for the money.

I think that that shows on screen um, there's a lot of people that just don't really like sex,

but they just go through the motions for the money.

The whole time they're laying there with the dollar signs in their eyes.

I think that's wrong.

That's because people want to see something real.

They want to see someone really dirty and nasty.

This is their fantasy.

They don't want some dead fuck just laying there.

Do you want me moving?

Yeah, just move it like he's doing it to you.

That little move you were doing before was perfect.

Okay.

And silence!

Halt!

I will never believe another woman again!

I am lonely, but I don't date.

I don't want to go there.

I'm not interested in that.

I'm just going to throw myself into my work.

If I'm horny, I go to work.

If I need affection, I have my cat.

And I make my own money.

Don't look in the books anymore.

You don't need to.

You know what you're doing.

You got it.

I do want to be famous.

I love the attention, and it's so special.

It's like I'm on a pedestal.

Okay, here we go, Tracy.

Put your hands down, get them down there.

There you go, Tracy, put your hands down.

Stacy, okay, Stacy, now look.

Look at ya there.

Zip-bop-bam!

Zip went my heartstring Boop-bang-boom!

When you said hello Snap, zang, zang You're such a cool cat Poetry cocktails I don't want to be a daddy-o Smile, smile, smile Zip-bop-bam!

You know, what other industry are you going to have all these people telling you, oh my God, you're so beautiful, you're so hot, you're so sexy?

I mean, I know I'm only having sex, but still, you know, I'm doing something, and I'm doing something well enough to where people recognize that.

So whether you're a porn star or a maid or something like that, you should, you know, you should have the right to be proud of whatever you do.

How do you feel about moving?

I'm very excited.

This is very cool, because this is just too small now.

I don't know how I got all this stuff in one year.

Everything is new, and I still manage to have so much crap that I need a four-bedroom house now.

What is that all about?

I'm like a pack rat or something.

Ooh, new toy.

This is called a Pony Play.

It's a butt plug, and I can run around.

I don't know what possessed me to get this.

I have no idea.

And then this, my new little thing.

I like it.

I haven't used it yet, but I will.

Batteries.

Can I have batteries?

Fun tongue.

The butt plug.

Turtle.

This isn't very stimulating, but it's my phone.

Over the dirty clothes.

Okay.

Oh, well, good.

Even better for me.

Just don't make it too much like my life where my husband will go, yeah, that bitch.

That's what she did to me.

Dirt me.

Yeah, that would be a really good idea, yeah.

Because when I have the surgery done, I'll be thin,

I'll be thin and just pal and, you know.

That's, there you go.

That'll be me.

That is a director for Metro.

Discussing scripts and all kinds of good stuff.

And that's another movie next month.

So that makes one, two, three, four, five.

Five movies for next month with the girl.

I had this made for me in January, which was three months ago, and to fit my boobs then,

but they've grown even more and settled, and now this doesn't even fit me.

I've always been flat-chested, and I was so insecure about my body.

I've always fantasized about having boobs, any kind of boobs.

After I met David, he encouraged me to go ahead and do it, which I did.

These are my second implants.

These are silicone.

They're just too big.

So I can't wear that.

These are E's, so they will be going down to, hopefully, D or a double D.

If I'm lucky, a D.

That's what I'd really like.

And then he'll suck out all this fat, so it'll go in, and all this fat, because I don't like my thighs touching each other,

and then he'll get this outer spot, and did I already point to that?

Yeah, I did.

And then the flanks up here, because then there's fat that comes from here that will trail around.

So he's just going to suck it all out.

That's the great thing about plastic surgery.

If there's something you don't like about yourself, and you have a hard time working on it and getting rid of it, then go to Dr. Fisher, and he'll take care of it.

Now, the complications that can occur are infection, bleeding, hematoma.

Infection is the worst one, because you may have to have your implants taken out.

Excess or obvious scar, changes in nipple sensation, rippling, pain, asymmetry, disappointment.

Now, for liposuction, we've explained the reasonable expectations.

What will be held by liposuction is disproportionate localized accumulations of fat.

What won't be held by liposuction is obesity, excess or loose skin, body contour irregularities due to structures other than fat, like weakness of the muscles and tumors.

Temporarily, you'll have discoloration and swelling, discomfort, numbness.

You may have lumps or irregularities.

You may be more swollen on one side than the other.

It's all part of the process, isn't it?

Good morning.

I just woke up from surgery.

You woke up.

How are you feeling?

Um, I'm feeling fine.

Hello.

New place.

This is Julian.

This is my boyfriend.

We are living together.

He's contracted with Metro and he's really cute.

A little scrubby today.

Just a little.

A little bit.

Yes.

How did you guys meet?

On a set, a movie set.

Listen honey, don't let him get you down.

You're a very talented actress.

And is there anything else I can look forward to seeing you in, like my shower?

I don't know.

Can't wait to watch myself on a movie, real big.

Boobs, my boobs will look about the size they really are.

Your boobs don't need no help.

Okay, it's been six weeks after surgery.

Everything seems to be going really well.

Everything feels good.

There's no pain.

And God, my boobs, it's so much nicer to have them smaller.

I like boobs.

I mean, I liked them before, but I could understand how they could be a problem.

Cause even with these, they're not a problem for me, but for her, I can understand how they can be a problem.

I like them now.

I mean, I like fake boobs, period.

And hers are really nice.

I'm happy.

A lot of groceries.

That's the six pack.

This is a four pack, but this is the hypo.

Well, what the hell is hypo?

What does that have to do with your butt?

Your butt gonna break out if you wipe it too much?

Could, certainly could.

Shut up.

Yeah, I want a chocolate mousse.

Hey, Stacy.

Oh, stop that.

My trust level is really low, but I'm going to trust him until something happens to cause me not to trust him.

Normally I go into something not trusting them and they have to prove it to me.

But I think we'll just see what happens with this.

I have a good feeling and I'm gonna make sure everyone knows he's mine.

Nice breath.

This is my AIDS test showing that I do not have AIDS.

That's why there's not a lot of instances of AIDS.

It's because we are very safe.

We are tested every 30 days or less.

This is going to be an interesting scene.

It all takes place in a pool.

A lot of water.

Aquasex.

So we're gonna have to see.

Stacy, of course, has enormous water weight.

There's no chance she can drown.

Hopefully the guy knows how to swim.

Wait a minute.

Are you serious?

I wonder if Jamie knows that.

Wait a minute.

What happened?

Did that guy cruise?

The guy that I'm supposed to be in my scene with?

Did he what?

Did he cruise?

Leave?

Yes.

I can't find him.

Have you seen my guy?

My guy that I'm supposed to work with?

Oh, yeah, yeah.

Where?

Well, I haven't seen him right now.

I've seen him today.

Did he leave my coat line the guy I was supposed to be in my scene with?

He's nowhere.

It just absolutely cannot happen.

He left.

So he just left.

Unbelievable.

What a dope.

The interesting thing about it is I was prepared for his dick not to work.

We did have backup with JJ, who was very disappointed that he's not working with Stacy.

But I never in my wildest dreams thought we'd lose the whole body.

We figured we could go ahead and shoot the soft at least with him.

He's got quite a gorgeous body.

But I never thought that we'd lose the whole body completely.

The dick, yes.

The body, no.

I'm just bummed because I wanted to work with Stacy.

I was hoping because see I was promised that if his dick didn't get hard I got to stunt dick.

This is what happens when you use new talent though.

You know their dicks don't always work and they're not reliable.

So that's why I like working with people, you know, dependable, stable, experienced people.

No, your pee-pee's too big.

Too big?

Yeah.

For what?

It's anal.

Things you won't hear too often.

The reason girls like to do anal with me?

Because it's not.

So if you want to try it, I mean, I'm here.

Well, give me a couple seconds.

Okay.

And let me see something.

Okay.

Well, I mean, not see something.

I'm going to see something.

I've already seen it.

That's why I'm scared.

So who's coming?

Uh, John Decker.

So that's why you have lights and everything?

It's going well, but not great.

I think it's going to turn out looking really good.

I didn't have a problem with the anal at all.

I was very impressed with myself, with my butt.

It would hurt me more to see him holding hands with someone, just holding hands.

I'd rather see him banging a girl because that's...

It's physical.

Yeah.

When you're like holding hands, that's a little more like emotional and, you know, personal.

Yeah.

Or kissing.

If someone else has his heart or, you know, that's his heart, that's what I'm concerned about.

I'm just afraid he's going to find someone he likes better than me.

I mean, that's what it...

That's the very bottom line.

But if you keep like thinking that, then that's what's going to end up eventually destroying the relationship because you're never going to trust me.

You're always going to think that.

And I don't want you to think that.

Well, I don't want to think that either.

Then stop.

All right.

Thank you.

All righty then.

I feel much better.

Excuse me, precious.

I'm sorry to kiss you again.

Man, you are so fine.

My name is Damone.

D-A-M-O-N-E.

You know, I've always been a butt guy, but you've got me thinking differently.

Get the boob in front.

Oh, one more.

I was talking.

And I totally blinked.

Okay, here we go.

Well, I saw her in a couple of videos, so it's kind of exciting when I turned the corner and saw her sitting here.

So we had to stand this huge line to get in to see her.

She fantasizes about Stacy all the time.

We talk during sex and he tells me, tell me what you want to do to her.

Yeah.

You're actually in the first porno I ever saw in my whole life.

Really?

Which one was it?

You know, I don't even remember because my father gave it to me because I'd asked him if I could have a porno because I wanted to masturbate.

And he gave me a porno, and you were in the first porno I ever saw in my whole life.

She could be the girl next door, somebody you meet at a supermarket, yet she's a drop-dead gorgeous and talented.

Some of these guys, I mean, they don't care about the girls.

These guys with their hands are all trying to touch a boob or an ass.

But if you did it to like their girlfriend or wife or something, they'd freak out.

Julian and I have started to get on each other's nerves a little bit, I think.

And I know why I get pissy.

It's because I'm used to being alone.

I'm used to having everything a certain way or else I can become edgy.

Let's say edgy, not bitchy.

And I wouldn't put up with me for two seconds.

No, thank you.

I want to find outfits that are sexy but classy.

I don't want to look like a, you know, I don't want to look like a streetwalker, hooker or something.

I don't want to look trashy, but you fucker, nice signal.

Cut right in front of me.

How long do you want me to strip and what do you want me to take off first?

I've never danced as a pig before.

I would go with the gloves first.

Okay.

And you want me to just goof around for a little bit?

Just dance and then strip out of the thing.

Oh, can I do it real fast?

Oh, sure.

Okay.

Here it comes.

Yeah, here it comes.

It's hot being a pig.

Saturday, September 27th at 4.25 p.m.

Hey there, it's me.

Come on over and see how you're doing.

See how you've been.

Here we go.

Okay.

Talk to you later.

Bye.

That was a couple of days ago.

I never really trusted him.

And probably from my experience or I don't know what, but I just didn't, just never really trusted him.

And I know he cares about me, but.

I think it's an easy out for her.

And, you know, instead of dealing with the emotions of a relationship, having to divide time,

you know, she may love me, but I think she loves her career more.

Stacey, is that a new tattoo?

Brand new.

Oh, okay.

He just asked.

Oh, baby.

Crouch on top of us.

Slide your knee into waiting.

Oh God, I would love to be there.

But you are here.

Okay, they'd like to see a 69 now.

And his wife says that you're great.

His wife just came in and caught him with you.

Well, 69 is so high.

I'd really rather just have a girlfriend and just push men out altogether.

At this point.

You can tell the guy that we love our job.

We love our job.

And it's the coolest.

It's got little batteries in it.

I can take it with me wherever I need to go.

I was thinking, I think I might take it to the show tomorrow.

So anytime I like sit down, I can go.

I'm nominated for five awards.

And one of them, the one that I feel that I deserve is performer of the year.

Now I've worked my ass off.

I've worked really hard.

I've tried really hard.

I've done everything I possibly can.

I've worn myself out.

I don't know what else I can do.

So I feel I deserve it.

But I'm sure the other 12 nominations, yes, 12, there's 13 in the category.

There's like 10,000 adult movies produced a year.

So they're narrowing it down really small to get it to 13.

I love this see-through because, you know, I'm all paranoid about my stomach and this is covering it up.

I've got the long sleeves to cover up my paranoid part there.

Got the cleavage.

Life is good.

For the most part.

I hate my sheets being tucked in.

Makes me feel trapped.

So what did you do last night?

Did you get into any trouble with that big cock of yours?

Yeah.

He did get in trouble with that big cock of his.

What did you do?

Anna Malle.

She's super yummy.

Very yummy.

I've been up since 4.45 in the morning.

So I'm trying to keep it together and trying to play it cool.

I walk in Anna Malle, which, you know, she's a cool person, but her and her husband are swingers.

I am not.

I don't.

I'm not that way.

And I walked in and she said, oh, I've got a secret to tell you.

And I said, what is it?

And she said, I fucked your man the other night.

And I went

Come with me.

Where?

I'll go give you a blowjob.

Porno star gets shy.

Right here.

Jesus.

You know, and I don't.

Why does everyone tell me about Julian fucking all these girls?

I don't want to know.

I guess when I get up on stage tonight, I need to say, and by the way,

nobody tell me who Julian fucks because I don't want to know.

Somebody I like.

Oh, good.

Sweetheart, are you nominated tonight?

Yes, I am.

And how many times?

Five.

Her cup is running over.

So I like Stacey Baker.

I'm in love with Stacey Baker, not Stacey Valentine.

I could care less about Stacey Valentine.

And I think she was thinking, I'm Stacey Valentine.

I can just keep him over here on hold as long as I need.

And when I'm ready for something, then, you know, he's going to be there waiting for me.

And I'm just, I'm not that type of person.

You know, there's no chance of anything ever between us again.

And I said that to you before, but I was really reconsidering,

you know, because she still had a big piece of my heart.

Now the piece of my heart she has now is pretty small.

And I never thought that she would be in this business, but we're still very, we're very proud of her.

Love her very much, behind her 100%.

Good evening, ladies and gentlemen.

It's the 1998 Adult Video News Award.

Some of the nominees for the Best Actress in a Film are

Melissa Hill "Sweet Revenge" (Wave Film),

Heather Hunter "Heat" (Wave Film),

Jenna Jameson "Satyr" (Wicked Pictures),

Diana Loren "Bad Wives" (Vivid Film),

and Stacy Valentine "Red Vibe Diaries" (Cal Vista Films Metro)

And the winner is

Diana Loren for Bad Wives, Vivid Films

And the winner is Melissa Hill for Bad Wives

And the winner is

Let's see what we've got here, guys.

The winner is Miss Stephanie Swift!

Okay, I gotta go.

Make it go away or make it better

Isn't that what love's supposed to do

Make it go away or make it better

'Cause I would do either one for you

This is not the way you should see me

This is not the face I recognize

Could I lay my head down here for a moment

Would you sing to me like I'm your child

Cause I'm not angry I'm not crying

I'm just in over my head

You could be the angel that stayed on my shoulder

When all of the other angels left

Let's slow down.

Let's purr a little bit first.

You're enjoying it too much.

Huh?

Just working with the vibrator.

I got her head in the fucking shot and I can't see anything.

So move your head back and let me see the dildo, please.

Thank you.

Fucking sucks.

I'm ready to go home.

I'm totally, my sex drive right now is zero.

Okay, here we go.

We're making sure that the viewing public who pays their dollar gets their money's worth.

From the beginning.

And the public is fooled once again.

Still really soft, right?

That's about all the DP I need to do.

A pretty thick wall is coming up around me.

I want someone that will touch me not to have sex with me.

There's the touch where you know that they want to have sex and that's all I ever feel.

I don't have people like put their hand on my arm, you know, just because they want to be near me.

They just want to have sex with me, you know.

There's more to me than just having sex with me.

I mean there's a lot more.

Now how did you choose Japanese?

Because that's what I've got here.

So.

How did the guy know Japanese?

He has the same one on his wrist.

So when I started telling him how I was feeling and what I was wanting,

he was like, oh, wait a minute, wait a minute.

And he flipped his wrist over and he goes, you mean something like that?

And he had it then really tiny.

And I said, well, what is that saying?

It says, trust no one.

I said, oh, my God, that's exactly what I want.

Close my mouth.

Actually, I'd like it a little bit open.

That's perfect.

Come a little closer.

Let me see the side view or three-quarter view.

What don't you like about your lips?

They're too thin.

I think lips look really sexy when they're big and pouty, you know, like Pamela Anderson.

They just kind of curl in and it gives me a softer look when they're fuller.

How are you doing?

Good.

All right.

How do you feel?

Good.

All right.

You're going to help me get a dress?

Yep.

Why don't you sit here?

Yeah.

Right here, the swelling needs to go down a little.

And right there.

But other than that, this stuff, this is cool.

I hope it stays like that.

And now we're going to the hypnotherapist.

And she's helping me work on my self-image and motivate me for exercise and make me feel good about myself.

Hi, Stacey.

Hi.

How are you doing this week?

Very good.

Great.

Yeah, I'm feeling really good.

You know, I'm still remembering everything, and I'm not being hard on myself at all.

Good news.

Great.

To begin, you want to recline in the chair.

All right, let's just begin by closing your eyes and focusing inward on your breath.

As you inhale, you take in all the peace around you.

And with every exhale, your muscles let go more and more.

I would like for her to plant something in my mind saying, you crave broccoli.

You only want to eat broccoli.

You're obsessed with broccoli.

And you're very thirsty.

You want to drink a bunch of water.

You're very, very thirsty.

You're in a desert.

You've been running.

Mm, doesn't water sound good?

Exercising is an activity you enjoy.

Hear yourself thinking, I look and feel healthier than I ever have.

You know, I'm trying to make myself unrealistic.

And most girls in the business are that way.

Their bodies are unrealistic.

And I just can't keep up with that.

It's really wearing me down.

It's just really weird to look in the mirror, and you kind of see a stranger almost.

And that's kind of the feeling that I have.

I don't really know how to express it right.

But I just hope I'm not hurting myself.

Amazing grace, amazing grace, how sweet the sound, how sweet the sound.

She had a very normal life, probably up until 10. And then a lot of people's homes burned down, I guess.

You know?

I don't know how many, but they don't become porn stars.

You know, a lot of people have divorced parents.

A lot of people are adopted.

A lot of people have failed marriages.

Was it his idea?

Mm-hmm.

I hadn't looked at those kind of magazines before I met him.

See, that's what I couldn't understand.

I never...

He yelled at me until I did, because I kept putting it off and putting it off.

Well, you should have just got out then.

I mean, but now you say that's what you like.

Yeah, well, it ended up saving my life, because I would have been stuck with him.

No, you wouldn't have been stuck with him.

I had nothing.

You could have always come home to me.

You don't have to put up with anything from anybody.

I know that now.

I was very happy when her mother and her father split up.

He frightened me.

He frightened me a lot, and I saw him one time at a slumber party

get very upset with a girl who was very petite, and we were small children to begin with.

And he jerked her up by the arm, and he had a belt, and he slapped her once with the belt on the rear end.

There's this idea that women who work in the industry have been molested,

like when they were kids, had early sexual experiences.

Do you have any memories of anything like that?

No.

No, I was not sexually molested.

There was no sexual problems in my childhood.

I had my first sexual experience at 15, but I had no problems with sex.

Nothing like that has anything to do with why I'm in the business.

Absolutely not.

When I was in high school, I had sex because I wanted people to like me.

That was a big mistake.

There were a group of, I guess, about eight girls that were really hateful and really nasty and mean,

and they would yell at me, yell, you know, slut, bitch, crab queen,

yelling those names until I got into my car.

And I just remember that long walk, and, you know, I never turned around.

I'd just cry the whole way out to my car.

Oh, my gosh.

It didn't go too far down.

Wow.

Did it hurt?

No, it tickled.

And then that one, that one really tickled.

That really did.

Okay, wait.

Turn back around.

What is it?

Did it say something in some...

It's Japanese.

Trust no one.

Really?

Yeah.

That's, like, cynical.

Well, that's L.A.

August would be perfect for you.

When Stacy started in the business, she called me one time out of the blue

and was all excited, and I was like, oh, it sounds like you're doing really well.

And, yes, I am.

Guess what?

I did my first DP today.

She was all excited.

Isn't that great?

I have no idea what a DP is.

So once I asked her, and she told me DP stood for double penetration, how do I respond to that?

I had no idea how to react to her exciting news that she had done her first DP.

The worst thing that she's doing is having sex.

How bad is sex?

We have sex.

Well, we used to.

I mean, if people would stop and think, how bad...

Sex is what makes the world go round.

How much mistreatment is there in having sex?

Well, it depends on what type you get into.

I mean, there's leather straps and spikes.

I don't know if she does that.

We haven't ever seen her movies, so...

I don't want to until she says, son, if you don't see this movie.

But, you know, I don't watch them.

I wouldn't want you to see them.

They're like incest.

She's happy what she does.

Well, most people like sex.

I used to.

These movies are not making love.

They're not making love.

It's just sex.

It's just raw sex.

Because they don't love each other.

They don't go home with each other.

They don't go home and sleep together.

It's not love.

Well, do you know what?

When you see a movie where they're killing each other, they're not really killing each other either.

But that doesn't mean...

I mean, you don't have to really kill each other to make a movie.

Men are the ones that are H-O-R-N-Y.

Okay, good.

Well, women get horny too, dear.

You may not.

But women get horny too.

Well...

The men are always the bastards in your case.

I don't think so.

Yes, you do.

You always did.

It's just the nature of humans.

The man is the aggressor.

There's female and there's male.

They both get horny.

I think men are more.

I think women...

How do you feel about it?

I think I would stop worrying

If she were happily married And I could trust her when she said she was happily married

Then I wouldn't worry

So you'd worry even if I was like

Say, for example, when I'm 35 And I've got loads of money

But I'm still single You're still going to worry?

I have to be married?

See, this is where we really differ

Because I don't like for you being alone I want you to have When something happens to me

I want somebody to be there to take care of you

That would be me

No

If something happens to you Who's going to take care of you?

You

I won't be there

This, this is a problem

I don't know if anyone else can make me feel secure

It just seems like

The only secure thing Like mom

We're not supposed to talk about you not being around

Yeah

You've got to think about it

Sometime

That's why I want you to have somebody

I took him out on a date

And then I dropped him off at the end of the night

No sex

I was a good girl I wanted to treat it like a first date

And I wanted to protect your body.

She didn't want to just use me like a piece of meat.

Like so many girls do.

Before.

Oh my god.

I am doing a DP.

So a douche and a anal.

And I always bring my own douches because I don't like the kinds they have.

They have like vinegar and water douches.

It's gross.

Now why do you douche?

Um, to clean everything out and to make sure everything's like sanitary.

It's going to be so cold.

Okay, I'm not going to think about that.

Okay.

Over here.

Thank you.

Smoke.

Hold the smoke.

She's allergic to the smoke.

Bottom smoke, hold it.

Okay.

You feeling better now?

Yeah, I'm trying to get some deep breaths to get that stuff out of my lungs.

Well, whatever you need.

Okay.

Well, you know what?

This isn't going to go away, so just fuck it.

I'll just deal with it.

Okay, we want to try and keep the smoke about this thin.

Half of what you were doing.

I mean, it's presently very early in the morning.

It is 38 degrees.

And most of the cast is naked.

Oh, yeah, it will happen.

We're getting up to it as we speak.

These people are trained professionals.

I've been in this business for two years now.

It's about time for me to get out.

I am going to go to school to become a makeup artist.

This is a weird, you know, little twist for me to take.

But I never in a million years thought I'd be a porn star.

She's my new wife.

Just one photo for one person, yes?

People are going insane.

This is crazy.

Oh, my God, I'm getting claustrophobic now.

How long do you shoot for, let me say, a 60-minute movie?

How long does it take to fix that?

About three days to a week to shoot a movie.

What is sex and love for you?

Sex is something just really hot and nasty and dirty.

And love is a totally separate thing.

Love is a really powerful thing.

Oh, okay, very good.

When I saw her down there, I kind of wanted to be down there with her, but then I just wanted to let her have her time.

It's for her, and she knows how to enjoy it.

She looked like she was having a really good time, and I was proud of her.

This is my girl.

Oh, okay.

Okay, I'll see you in a little bit.

I have something that men want, and rich men have something that I want.

If he wants to have sex with me, he can pay me for it, because I'm not going to have sex with him for free, that's for sure.

I've got all the sex I want.

I don't need any more sex.

I remember a time where I would go out with a guy, and I would put out.

I mean, I was that person that went out to dinner and put out and then never heard from them again.

Watch on, start the count down.

I'm going to tell them I've got to be out of there by six.

And they're all new ones, too.

I'm just really, you know, torn, because we need the money.

But, you know, I don't know, I feel really bad.

I mean, cheating, basically, that's what I did.

I mean, even though it wasn't, because I wouldn't give this guy the time of day.

I wouldn't give anyone the time of day.

But for that, I was so freaking nervous.

And I was just trying to be.

And, plus, I had an aid in two days.

I was still nauseous from puking, didn't feel that great.

I got the sweats big time, but I just, because I didn't feel good.

And so I just turned that into, oh, you turn me on so much.

I get up sweating and, you know, and he's, oh, my gosh.

So I guess I can act.

Marina, how are you doing, baby?

Where am I?

I'm on top of a mountain looking over the French Riviera, and I'm kissing a wonderful woman's hand.

Let me get this woman.

Yes, I am.

After a short pause in the Lido of Paris last year,

here we are back again in the heart of the Cannes Festival.

Best American New Starlet.

Avalon

Dahlia Gray

Pierre

Gina Lamarca

Rylan

Rocky Roads

Stacy Valentine

Sasha Winnie

And the winner is

This is for you.

Stacy Valentine

I'm very sorry.

I'm very nervous.

I have stage fright.

Merci.

I would like to thank the Hot Video for sending me over here and making all my dreams come true.

Thank you so much.

And thank you, Janet, for the inspiration.

And thank you, Julian, for sticking by me.

I love you.

I love you.

Thank you.

Congratulations.

Thank you.

Yeah?

Who else says mom?

What are you doing?

Huh?

You got other kids?

You not telling me something?

I'm in France.

Would you like to hear something?

You are talking to the best American starlet.

I won the award.

Yes.

I had to go to France to win it.

Yes, I did.

I know.

Isn't that cool?

I finally got recognized.

Yeah.

For the first few months we were together, really close to up to when we broke up.

You were pretty much Stacy Valentine all the time, even around me.

It's like you couldn't.

You didn't know when to stop being Stacy Valentine, you know, to be Stacy Baker.

She was more dominant.

And you, I mean, her personality was in you a lot.

She had, I mean, I'm not trying to explain it, but she had a place where she wanted to go.

And she really didn't think of anything else.

And then I started pushing through.

Was that Stacy Baker on stage or Stacy Valentine?

Both.

I think we shared the limelight on that.

Yeah.

Definitely both because if it was Stacy Valentine, she wouldn't have mentioned me.

There's plenty of people in this industry that go way beyond their prime.

And, you know, then the gossip and everything starts to talk about them, you know, you shouldn't be doing this.

And she knows, and that's why she gave herself a two-year time limit.

I still haven't changed my mind about makeup school.

I still want to go.

And, yeah.

Yeah, it didn't change it at all.

Time to get the blood done.

Blood test.

DNA.

In the last five months, there's been five HIV-positive cases with people in the industry.

Two of the people who are now positive, I had a scene with them, like,

probably nine months ago, at least nine months ago.

So far, I've had a history of all clean tests up to this point.

My tests have come up negative.

I have safe sex.

I don't use drugs.

I'm not with very many different people.

My window is so small of chances.

People that go to bars, their window is so much greater.

Stephanie, and she will take your blood.

I think she did it last time, too.

Stephanie has had many years of qualifications.

Oh, yeah?

Yes.

Oh, yeah.

She's thousands of years.

She's a certified phlebotomist and a recovering addict.

So if she can't find a vein, there's not one to be had.

We have experienced people.

It is a high-risk industry now.

There's no doubt about it.

Let's remember that once you start doing something

as ego-gratifying as getting paid massive amounts of money to have sex with really good-looking people,

what the hell else appeals to you?

By the time we're both 30, we don't want to do this anymore.

Oh, that's it?

Because we want to get married, and we're not going to get married until

we're done in this business, because once we're married

That's it.

we don't want to be having sex with other people, you know, even if it's work.

Private Lacey?

Yes, Captain?

Don't let me down.

I'll do my best, ma'am.

Hey!

Hey, come back here!

I'll fuck all of you!

But you're starting with me.

I'll let him be with me in one scene.

Maybe two.

I'll show her a bang.

I'll test her out.

See what she's got to offer.

Is it going to be weird to live with another guy there?

I don't know.

Looking forward to working with Stacy today.

First time with Stacy.

Keep my pistol.

Knock him out.

Well, just give headlight.

Yeah, I know, but it's still the strain.

If I'm in a weird position, I'm going to strain that.

Well, you want to do regular cowgirl then?

So you don't have to stretch your neck back?

I'm not really totally excited about working with Julian

because I don't feel like I'm in as good a shape as he would like me to be.

Can we run through this?

Am I stepping on somebody?

No.

Thank you.

Julian, start getting undressed.

Start getting undressed.

The camera's still rolling.

Don't settle.

Got it.

Still got it.

Stand up for a second.

That will take longer than it's about to be.

How about a...

Yes.

At least he...

I'm not going to be able to work with him.

He's already mad at me.

He already said that he was going to have a talk with me later.

Probably because I did that guy first.

But, as you see, he's very intimidated and he's having some problems.

And he gets all pissed.

What's he pissed about?

Is he being jealous?

I don't know.

I have no idea.

And then I could see Michael out of the corner of my eye, trying to get him to get in the scene,

and I turn over and look, and he's just sitting there with the pillow on his lap.

I'm taking you out.

I think we're back to the biz.

Are we back to the biz?

Yes.

We're back.

What is that?

The day after my birthday, I was looking at the apartment guide, looking for somewhere for us to move.

And he came into the office and he said, I thought I could do this, but I can't.

We have nothing in common.

Basically, just giving me reasons and why we don't have anything in common,

why we're not meant to be, that he shouldn't have drug it out so long,

and just dumped me.

When he left and moved his stuff out, he was just, he was really happy.

I guess, I guess, well, I did, I did.

I just, I really loved him and I really thought, you know, easy come, easy go.

BCA has always stressed all these years, quality, a good storyline.

You do get more bang for your buck.

Most films out there and videos have four scenes, five scenes.

We put a minimum of seven scenes in our Platinum Plus line.

Our basic contract is, you do a minimum of three scenes per film or video,

and you do three or four a year, and you get paid rather well at it.

I think all my, all five girls that I have are top ten, but Stacy's right up there, right up there.

She's my best.

As long as she wants to make movies for me, she'll always be my number one girl.

I think she's, I think she's awesome.

Great personality, works hard, super girl.

My soul feels very hungry.

And I don't know what my purpose is yet in life, but I know it hasn't been fulfilled yet.

But I'm still searching.