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I heard that Maggie broke up with Michael.

No way. He dumped her.

I think he's kind of cute.

Go for it, girl. He's free.

Oh, right.

To Michael Reynolds, I'm invisible,

and he's not my type, anyway.

I heard he likes you.

What?!

Kidding.

You're terrible.

Not your type, huh?

Oh, there's my sister.

Sarah showed me your new car.

It is so cool.

Yeah, totally cool, huh?

My parents gave it to me for a birthday present.

I love it.

Hey, you know Sarah and I

are going to Pete's Pizza tonight.

You want to come with us?

Really? I could come with you?

Of course. Any friend of Sarah's

is a friend of mine.

Maybe Jen will even let you drive.

Tell the world. Man, that's our secret.

You don't want us to get caught do you?

Jen lets me drive sometimes.

Only where it's safe.

You know, parking lots,

back streets. Never in traffic.

You're kidding? You can drive?

Yeah, she's actually pretty good.

She'll know everything before she gets her learner's permit.

Doesn't Matt let you drive sometimes?

No way. He'd never do that.

And even if my sister Mary had her license,

she wouldn't let me do it either.

They don't trust me that much.

They still think I'm a little kid.

Well, maybe I'll give you a little driving lesson some day.

I'd love that.

So we'll pick you up around 7:00?

Actually, I'll have to ask

my Mom and Dad first, but I'm sure it'll be okay.

Well, would it help your cause at all

if we invited Mary? I mean, I don't really know her

or anything, but it could be cool,

two sisters and two sisters

hanging out on a Friday night.

Who knows? Maybe we'll even find two brothers and two brothers.

Oh, that'd be awesome.

Well, I'll give you a call

when I get home.

Okay. See ya. Bye-bye.

What have you been doing?

Matt and I have been looking all over for you.

I was just talking to Sarah and her sister, that's all.

Well, let somebody know next time

so we're not just waiting in the car for you.

Sorry. What would you say about going to pizza

with Sarah and her sister tonight?

I'd say no. I don't know either of them.

They're really nice

and Jen just got her license a few weeks ago.

And you think Mom and Dad

are going to let you go out with them?

Well, I was hoping

if you went with me, they would.

Well, I'm not going, so forget it.

Well, I'm going whether I have permission or not.

Dream on, little rebel.

♪ 7th Heaven ♪

♪ When I see their happy faces ♪

♪ Smiling back at me ♪

♪ 7th Heaven ♪

♪ I know there's no greater feeling ♪

♪ Than the love of family ♪

♪ Where can you go ♪

♪ When the world don't treat you right? ♪

♪ The answer is home ♪

♪ That's the one place that you'll find ♪

♪ 7th Heaven ♪

♪ Mmm, 7th Heaven ♪

♪ 7th Heaven. ♪

Okay, here's...

Daddy... and Mommy.

Here we go.

Matt...

And... Mary.

Lucy, Simon,

Ruthie and Happy.

Please. Come on, Mom.

Luce, no.

I'm sorry. I don't know these girls.

But that's not a reason.

This one is you.

Please. I'll introduce you to them when they get here.

Then you'd know them.

You do have a point.

I could meet Sarah and Jen

and then I'd be more comfortable

with you spending time with them,

but I still wouldn't

be comfortable with you in car with them, okay?

Me and Simon.

But Jen is really, really responsible

and really, really nice.

She's the one who asked me to go, not Sarah.

She says that any friend of Sarah's is a friend of hers.

She's way nicer to Sarah than Mary

is to me.

She is!

They're like twins or something.

They're great.

They always do everything together

and they want to include me.

What did you do to my volcano?

Mom, she threw

my volcano on the floor.

My science project is due Monday.

Do you know how long it takes

to make papier-mâché?

That's right. You helped.

What happened to the volcano?

We knocked it over.

We didn't mean to.

We just needed a place to put our house.

So, you did mean to.

Excuse me, I'm trying to have

an important discussion here.

Can the volcano thing wait five minutes?

No, it can't, because I was ahead on my project

and now I'm behind because I have to start

the whole stupid thing over again.

I'll take a look. It's probably

not as bad as all that.

Oh, it's bad all right.

You come, too, young lady.

Mom!

If Mary goes with me?

Give me a minute.

I'll think about it.

I already told you, no.

Please. I-if you

do this for me, I will do

anything you want me to do for the next week.

Two weeks.

30 days. Ah!

Okay. 30 days.

It's a deal.

It is completely ruined.

It's not completely ruined.

We can, um, put some fresh strips of paper on it

and then repaint it and glue it back on the board.

Is that all?

Now, I have to work all weekend.

It's all her fault!

But we need a place to live.

Ruthie, you should have asked Simon

if he could move his project.

But we did ask him. We did, we did.

Knock off with the crazy puppet voice, okay?

It's driving me nuts.

Did Ruthie ask you if you

could move the volcano?

Sort of, but I don't have

any place to move it.

I think it's time

to talk about Simon moving up to the attic.

Yeah, fine with me.

Fine with us.

You know, it'll be like two sisters

out with two sisters, and maybe we'll even

find two brothers out with two brothers.

Okay, so maybe I shouldn't have said the brother thing,

but that's not gonna happen anyway, and Mary and I

need to make friends, and Dad, you would love these two girls.

They're so nice, they love each other

and they hang out together all the time and...

How old is the sister who drives?

16. She just got her license.

This is not a good idea.

Is this about the car and the sisters?

But, Mom, Mary

is gonna come with us.

You know, believe it or not, I love Mary, too,

and I don't want either of you in a car

with a girl I don't know who just got her license.

Now, if it's all right with your father,

you can meet the girls for pizza,

and either your father,

Matt or I will drive you

and pick you up. How's that?

It's better than nothing.

Hello?

Hey.

How're you doing?

We haven't heard from you for ages.

How are you? How's Billy?

Wilson?

Is that Wilson?

Is it for me?

Uh, well, hold on.

I'll-I'll see if she's here.

Are you... here?

I'll take it in my room.

Uh, I'll go find her, Wilson.

Hang on.

Is this good or bad?

Hello.

Oh, hi, Wilson.

Wilson?

You have plans tonight.

I'm sorry to call you

on such short notice.

That's okay. What's okay?

My parents are out of town.

Oh, really? Where'd they go?

Well, my grandmother's sick

so they had to go to Chicago to stay with her

and the thing is, I'm supposed to go

to this dance at school.

You know, for the senior class, and I was wondering

if we were good enough friends that you

could baby-sit Billy for me. I'd hate to disappoint my date.

I mean, she's spent so much on her dress and everything.

What does he want?

Why can't your date's mother baby-sit?

Well, for one thing,

she doesn't know about Billy yet.

And two, if she did,

Billy doesn't know her.

Okay.

"Okay" as in you'll do it?

Yeah. Okay, I'll do it.

That's great.

I really appreciate it.

I just I didn't know who else to ask.

I mean, there aren't many people I trust my kid with.

Well, what time should I be there?

Around 7:00, if you could.

I should be back by midnight.

Okay. Bye.

You're not canceling on me.

Tell me you're not canceling on me.

I have to. Wilson needs me to baby-sit.

I can't believe this.

I can't believe my own sister would betray me like this.

I will do it another night. I promise.

No, thanks.

You know, Mom and Dad are never gonna

let me go now.

Jen would never do this to Sarah.

Whoa, whoa. Hey. What's the big emergency?

Mary is a jerk.

A total jerk!

She was supposed to go out with me and Sarah

and her sister, but now she's baby-sitting

for Wilson, which means I'm not going to be able

to go out at all, all because of Mary!

What were you going to do?

We were just meeting my friends at Pete's Pizza. That's all.

That's all I wanted,

but no...

Well, uh... I'll take you and pick you up.

It's not that big a deal.

It is a big deal because Mom and Dad

are not going to let me hang out at a pizza place

without my big sister there to chaperone.

Not to worry. I'll...

I'll talk to them.

Really?

You'll do that?

Sure. Leave it up to me.

I really liked Wilson.

Yeah, I liked him, too.

I wouldn't mind seeing them get back together again,

except for the fact that he is

a pretty serious guy and he does have a child.

Yeah, but he's a responsible father. I like that.

You can forget the matchmaking.

Wilson just wants Mary

to baby-sit.

No, Mary's supposed to go with Lucy

and her friends. I can take Lucy

to meet her friends and pick her up.

I have a paper due on Monday.

I need to go to the library anyway.

I'll work while Lucy eats.

Come on, how much trouble

can she get into eating pizza?

I don't know.

Well, I guess

we have to start easing ourselves

into her independence sometime.

Let yourselves off the hook. If this is

some kind of big risk, I take full responsibility.

Why?

I was 14 once. I know how it is.

Great. Just great.

Now I have to move the same weekend

I have to do a science project.

Too bad.

If you had just let me move last summer

when I wanted to, this never would have happened.

This is just what I get for trying to be nice

and giving you time to adjust.

I'm adjusted.

Knock it off!

Heh-heh.

You're on.

They're letting me go?

Yep.

Oh, Thank you, thank you, thank you,

thank you, thank you, thank you!

You're the best brother ever.

Okay, we'll probably have to take Mary to Wilson's first,

so I can take you at about 7:15

and pick you up about what, 9:00?

Perfect.

Hello.

Hi, Sarah. It's Lucy.

Okay, here's the deal.

I can go, but I'll have to meet you there.

My parents didn't go for the car thing,

so Matt's going to drop me off

and pick me up.

Oh, that's too bad, because we decided not to go for pizza.

We're going to this really cool hamburger drive-in.

It's 30 miles, but Jen said it would be worth the trip.

Kids from a bunch of different high schools

hang out there.

What's going on?

Matt was going to drop Lucy off at Pete's and pick her up.

That's okay, Luce, Not to worry.

We'll just pick you up in front of Pete's Pizza

and then just drop you back off there.

Who's going to know?

Yeah, who's going to know?

Okay, well, I'll see you

around 7:15.

Okay, bye.

Bye.

I'm coming. Hold on.

Hi.

Come in, Mary.

Mary.

You remember Mary.

She's going to play with you tonight

while Daddy goes out for a little while, okay?

It's really great to see you.

It's nice to see you, too.

You don't know how much I appreciate you doing this.

I'm not doing it for you, I'm doing it for Billy.

Hey, Billy. How are you?

Oh... you are getting so big.

You look good holding my kid.

Well, you look good in a tux.

Well, thanks.

All right, I better get going.

All right, be a good boy.

I won't be long.

And, uh, have fun.

All right, bye.

Daddy.

Hey, Billy, we are going to have such a good time, aren't we?

Did we tell Lucy 7:00 or 7:30?

I don't know.

Well, it's 7:15 and we need gas.

I think we said 7:00.

Yeah, well, maybe we should go get gas

and then we'll come back for her.

I mean, it's not like she can go anywhere

if we're late, right?

Besides, it'll take like two minutes.

I guess so.

Hey, let me drive

on the way back.

Not so fast. 9:00.

And make your friends wait out here with you or inside.

I don't want you out here alone.

I'll be fine. Quit worrying.

I'm not a baby.

Didn't I just say I don't want you

out here alone?

Go inside and wait for them.

Get a table ready.

It's hard to get a table in there on Friday night.

You want me to come in with you?

No, I don't.

Thanks for the ride.

Bye.

It'd be great, except for the fact

that I'd have to go all the way downstairs,

in the dark, to go to the bathroom.

Ah.

Well, it's not just me.

I mean, think about Happy.

She always follows me

and it's hard on her with her short legs and everything.

Yeah, well, look at the bright side...

There's a lot of room up here and a lot of privacy.

Yeah, it's a private all right.

I'm completely isolated from the rest of the family.

It's Mary for you.

I'm so far away I can't even hear the phone.

Hi.

What?

Honey, I can't hear you.

Speak louder.

He's probably teething.

Look in the freezer

and see if there are any Popsicles.

Popsicles.

Yes!

Hey, Billy, you want a Popsicle?

Billy?

I got to go.

Billy.

Hi, Billy.

Come here, Billy, come to Mary.

No.

Billy, you want to give that to me please?

No.

Don't cry, please don't cry.

What do you think you're doing up there?

Me and my loyal subjects are moving on up to the top bunk.

What loyal subjects?

All of us.

No, no, no, I haven't gone anywhere.

That's still my bed.

Fine. But when you do go, it's mine.

No, it's not.

Mom and Dad are going to take down the bunk beds

and I'm taking this bed with me to the attic.

I don't think so.

Mom's giving you some old stuff.

I can't believe that we've been in this house

as long as we have.

Matt was just a baby when we moved in.

And now he's getting ready

to move out and go off to college.

I hope not.

You hope not?

I hope he'll consider going to a local university

and stay at home.

He may not have a choice.

He may not get in.

I guess I'm just not ready for him to leave.

I'm not ready for Mary to drive.

I'm not ready for Lucy to go out on Friday night

with girls and cars.

Wait till it's boys and cars.

Where's Mom and Dad?

They're in the attic.

Hey, why don't you take the attic

and I'll take your room?

Fine.

Ask and ye shall receive.

What?

I walked into the library

and this guy told me he'd just seen a really bad accident.

He saw Lucy's friend's sister Jen

being put into an ambulance.

Oh, dear God.

The guy didn't see Sarah,

but the car was wrapped around a telephone pole.

Luce.

I tried to get back to the pizza place

to pick up Lucy but the traffic

was backed up all over the place.

I couldn't even get to the street where Pete's is.

I stopped and called Pete's.

They said they'd never seen Lucy.

They paged her, she didn't answer.

Tell me she wasn't in the car.

Oh.

Hey, Eric, I'm glad I caught you.

I need some help.

There's been an accident.

Tell me it's not Luce.

No.

But the girl does go to Lucy's high school.

Their car slammed into a telephone pole.

One girl was killed instantly.

The other one survived,

but she's not in good shape.

She says her sister was just dodging a kid

that walked into the street.

What are the girl's names?

Sarah and Jennifer Foster.

Which one?

Sarah.

Just 14 years old.

This is going to be a tough call to make, Rev.

I was hoping you'd go with me.

Yeah, of course.

Thank you.

Evidently, Jennifer was letting her little sister drive

when the accident happened.

Are you sure Lucy wasn't with them?

Yeah, I'm sure.

You go tell your mom,

all right? I'm going to go with Sergeant Michaels.

Hey, Billy, it's bedtime.

Don't you want to go beddy-bye?

No.

Please?

No.

Hey, guys.

Oh, hey.

I was just about to put Billy to bed.

Yeah, I can see that.

Hi.

Hey, sport, how are you?

How come you're not in bed?

Did you give Mary a hard time?

Did he?

Kind of, but, you know, I got brothers and sisters,

so it wasn't that bad...

Mm-hmm. What are you doing home so early?

Or did you just drop by to check up on me?

Because, you know, I could get Billy to bed.

I could.

I'm not checking up on you.

I just, uh...

I wasn't having a good time.

Oh?

Yeah, I can't deal with a girl

I can't be honest with.

I mean, if I can't tell her parents about Billy,

then she's not the right girl for me.

I just should have figured that out before prom night.

So you took your date home at 9:00 on prom night?

No. She's still there.

It's an all-boys school, remember?

Yeah, she's having a great time.

So you just said it wasn't working and left?

No.

I told her the baby-sitter paged me and I had to leave.

Coward.

Maybe.

A friend promised to get her home safely.

Hold on a second.

Be right back.

Come on, son, time to go to sleep.

I can explain.

It's okay, honey.

I promise I'll never do anything like this again.

Like what?

Sarah and Jen were supposed to pick me up

because they changed their mind about pizza

and were just going to go get a hamburger,

but they never showed up, probably because

they could never get near the place

because there was some type of accident,

and I didn't want to wait in the pizza place

because I didn't want to have to order a whole pizza

and sit by myself,

so I just went across the street.

What?

Luce, the accident...

It wasn't them.

Tell me it wasn't them, Mom. Please.

I'm sorry.

Sarah was killed, Luce,

and Jen is in the hospital in serious condition.

I'm sorry.

I'm so sorry.

Oh, I'm just so glad it wasn't you.

Hey, are you sure about this?

That attic is really inconvenient.

Not to worry.

I'll probably go off to college next fall

so it won't matter.

Why are you being so nice about this?

You never wanted to move up there before.

I didn't want to take the best space in the house

when I probably won't be around much any more.

I thought you wanted to move up there.

No, I just wanted out.

That seemed like the only available space.

If I'd known your room was an option,

I would have jumped at that a long time ago?

You sure?

Yeah, I'm sure.

You're really sure?

Yes. Quit asking. I'm sure.

Then why are you so mad at me?

I'm not mad at you.

I'm mad at Lucy.

Why?

Later. Go to bed.

In my room, in the attic or in my new room?

I'm a man with many beds.

In your new room if you want.

You mean in your old room?

Yes. I'll take a sleeping bag up to the attic.

Great. Thanks.

So...

are you dating anyone?

Well, I date, if that's what you're asking.

I guess, I mean, are you dating one guy or lots of guys?

Lots of guys...

Just one at a time.

Same for me.

I mean, lots of girls.

Yeah.

You know, maybe

I should call and get someone

to pick... me up

since you're home early.

You know I'd drive you, but...

I understand, you can't leave Billy.

Oh, I almost forgot.

I owe you some money for this.

Hey, I'm your friend.

I'm not gonna charge you.

I'd pay anyone else.

Yeah, well, I'm not anyone else.

And even though I may not mean anything to you right now,

I'm hoping I did at one time.

Okay, here we go.

You ready?

I'm never ready for a call like this.

Mr. and Mrs. Foster?

Hi. Can I help you?

I'm Sgt. Michaels.

This is Rev. Eric Camden.

I'm afraid I have some bad news.

You okay?

I've been better.

I just wish I could've gotten Lucy

to go to the funeral services.

There were a lot of kids there.

It might've helped.

I was just going to take some lunch up to her.

I feel so helpless.

She just won't talk about it to anybody.

You know, I realize everyone has to grieve in their own way,

but this is just killing me to see Lucy like this.

Any other time in her life

she's full of emotions,

I mean she cries about everything, but not this.

She just can't seem to cry.

I guess she's afraid

that if she starts she won't be able to stop.

How is Jen doing, any word?

She wasn't at the funeral. She's still in the hospital.

Her leg is going to be okay,

but...

she's got a heavy burden to carry.

And, unfortunately, it could take years

to develop the strength for it.

Having to be there for Jen

is keeping the parents going.

They're just so grateful they didn't lose her, too.

What?

I just keep thinking

that Lucy could have been in that car, too.

You guys are bothering Lucy.

So?

So?

What's wrong with you? Her friend died.

Yeah, I know.

You still mad at her?

What are you talking about?

Get out.

This is my room now.

You can't tell me to get out.

You're mad at Lucy?

Mad about what?

I think Lucy was going out with those girls.

They weren't going to get a pizza.

You don't know that. Yeah, I do.

It was written all over her face when I dropped her off,

but I didn't press her on it.

She was trying to trick me.

How do you think I would've felt if she had been in that car?

She could have been killed, too.

You think I don't know that?

You think I don't know that if they hadn't

been on their way to pick me up, Sarah would still be alive

and she wouldn't have died?

Sarah died because she was driving the car

and a kid ran out in front of her.

I know that!

And that's my fault, too. It's all my fault.

Luce. Don't. Stay away from me!

What's going on?

I knew that Jen let Sarah

drive the car, and I didn't tell anyone.

It's my fault. I didn't tell anyone.

Luce...

If I had told someone,

she might still be alive.

If I hadn't

told them to pick me up, she might be alive.

Luce, no, don't blame yourself.

Please. No! Leave me alone!

We can't, we can't leave you alone.

This is not your fault.

It's not your fault!

It is my fault.

It's all my fault.

Nothing will ever be the same again, nothing.

Oh, my baby.

It's okay.

I just wish there was

something I could do for you.

This is helping, really.

Well, you don't look like it's helping.

Are you sure you don't want me to go get Mom and Dad?

No. Please don't.

Dad deals with this stuff all the time, you know.

Yeah, he's a professional.

That's the problem.

I don't feel like

being treated like anyone else who's lost someone.

I'm not like anyone else.

Well, what about Mom?

You know she just went through this, kind of,

when Grandma died.

That's different.

I mean, I know it was hard,

but Grandma lived a long time.

You could at least say that she had a good life.

What can you say about Sarah?

Can I come in?

Not right now, Dad, okay?

How's it going?

Going great.

Just great.

No, really it is.

I love this room.

I just don't want to act too happy about it.

You know, with Lucy and everything.

Why?

I just feel bad that I'm doing something fun

when Lucy's friend died.

It's a terrible thing that happened

and we all feel for Sarah's family,

but it's okay for you

to be happy about your own stuff.

Really, it is.

I'm happy.

Come and see my room.

So...

what do you think?

First of all, Happy is not wearing a tutu.

Second of all,

why did you do this?

This is more me.

You always cramped my style.

I'm going to be an inferior decorator.

You can't change everything.

Yes, I can. It's my room.

I'm leaving Matt's room the way it was,

just with my stuff added to it.

So, I like a change.

We're getting out of here.

I'll be back.

Looks great, doesn't it?

It looks... wonderful.

It's you.

What got you so upset?

That was my room.

I've lived in that room

for ten years,

and now she's moved in, taken over,

and it's like I never existed.

Matt's probably going to feel the same way about this room.

But I didn't do anything to this room.

I didn't wreck it like Ruthie wrecked our room.

Yeah, but still, Matt's been in this room

practically his whole life.

We put him in here when we brought him home from the hospital.

Back then, it had wallpaper,

little blue and yellow rabbits.

Rabbits were big back then.

We painted over them when Matt went to kindergarten.

I don't remember this room any way but this way.

Yeah, well, it's been like this for a long time.

But, I think that you should think about

putting your own mark on the room,

something that would make it uniquely yours

like maybe a superhero mural or something.

I don't know about that.

As much as I'm into them,

I'm kind of getting more interested in other things,

you know, like girls.

You want me to help you fix up that volcano?

We haven't done homework together in ages.

Do you know how to papier-mâché?

No.

Oh, I forgot we had that old thing.

Wow. Oh, it needs some serious work.

I like it.

The leather's torn.

It doesn't matter. It looks good like that;

Worn in.

Besides it's not like I'm going to

be up here as long as I was in my room

downstairs.

Mom, you know if I get accepted out of state,

I'm going to want to go,

no matter what I have to do to pay for it.

I know, but at least you'll have a nice room to come home to.

Nice?

This is the best space in the house.

Yeah, it does look pretty good doesn't it?

You know, I was thinking

we could put a small bathroom in, over there.

You can't entice me to stay here by building me my own bathroom.

I know, but I can try.

Are you sure, Matt?

I'm gonna have to leave sometime, Mom.

I know, but I was kind of hoping

that it would be after college,

or even after a couple of years of college.

We're talking about nothing.

I haven't even gotten accepted anywhere yet.

No, but it's only a month or so

before you have to make the decision.

I just want you to know

that you have the option of staying home.

I know.

I'm gonna get some tape and fix this chair.

I tried to give it to Lucy, but she didn't want it.

Or maybe she just didn't want to let me in

'cause she's so afraid

I'm going to push her into talking to me, which I'm not,

but I wish she'd talk to someone.

She's talking to Mary.

Actually, she's not.

She's reading with Mary

and she needs to talk to someone who...

I should have thought of this before.

What?

Jen's getting out of the hospital

in a couple of days

and maybe then she'll feel like having some company.

If you're hinting as to whether or not I want to go over

and visit her,

I don't.

I wouldn't know what to say to her.

Well, I...

Please, Dad, don't.

Hi.

Hi.

I didn't know you were coming over.

Actually, I came over to see Lucy.

Well, Lucy's not exactly talking to anyone.

I'd like to give it a shot.

Okay. Well, come on in, but I don't think it will work.

If you could, I'd like you to tell Lucy

that I'm waiting in the living room and I need a friend

to talk to right now.

Well, why can't you talk to me?

No offense, but you're just not a member of the club.

Hey, what's up?

Nothing's up. I'm just cleaning.

You know I like to clean, too, when I'm having a hard time.

I'm just cleaning to be cleaning.

But I feel like I'm never gonna be able to clean again

without someone thinking I'm having a hard time.

Hey, Wilson would like to see you in the living room.

What?

Yeah, he said he needed a friend to talk to.

Why me?

I asked the very same thing.

Why not you?

He said I wasn't a member of the club.

Oh. Okay.

Did you know that...?

I know.

I called him.

Of course.

I heard about your friend, Sarah.

Yeah.

You said a member of the club...

I meant the club that nobody wants to be in,

the one where you lose someone you loved

and become an unwilling member.

You're in it whether you want to be or not.

I kind of thought that's what you meant,

because that's how I feel;

like I'm not like other people anymore.

They want to help, they say they know,

but they don't, not really.

Look, Lucy,

I've been having a hard timely lately.

On prom night,

I realized how much I missed Mary,

but I don't want to tell her.

Why?

Because I guess I'm afraid of getting too close.

You mean that you'll- accidentally-have-sex thing?

Mary told you that?

Oh.

Well, now I realize it's not that.

I'm afraid I'll get close to her and...

she'll die.

That's so weird.

I feel the same way.

Like, everyone I know is one second away

from leaving the planet, me included.

And you know, for the first time I realize

that I want to do something while I'm here.

I mean, I must have been left for some reason.

God must have some purpose for me to be living

or why wouldn't I have been in that car?

Right after my wife died, I felt the same way.

Why didn't I die?

Why her?

Why did she have to suffer through a difficult pregnancy

and then die in the end?

It was so unfair.

But because I was left, I wanted to do something great.

You know, join the Peace Corps,

become a missionary,

a doctor who discovers a cure for cancer, something.

And?

I finally realized

that just being a good father was a great purpose.

I don't have anything like that.

Sure you do.

You can be a great sister, a great daughter,

a great friend.

So how did you get to be so smart about all this?

You got any plans for the next hour and a half?

Come on. I'll show you.

Who has something they want to talk about today?

Today my mother will have been dead for three years,

and last year when my stepmother forgot

and I got really angry with her, she bought me this wooden heart

that was painted red

and she told me that

whenever I was feeling bad and thinking about my mom

that I should put it on the door of my room

so that she would know.

But today, when I got up, she had already taken it

and put it on the door for me.

I thought it was really nice that she remembered.

Yes, it was.

It shows she respects your feelings.

My girlfriend dragged me here

the first time I came.

My brother got shot in a drive-by.

I went to the funeral

and I couldn't say anything.

I didn't want to say what I was thinking.

My friend was killed in a car accident.

Her sister was with her,

she was injured.

And I don't know what to say to my friend's sister.

What did people say to you that was comforting?

Actually,

we talk a lot about what people say

that doesn't comfort you at all.

"You'll see her again when you die."

"He's resting now."

I was seven.

I thought it meant that when my Dad rested enough,

you know, he'd come back.

It totally spooked me.

"It was meant to be."

That's my favorite.

"Meant to be."

What is that?

My brother was meant to get shot?

Is there anything anyone can say?

Maybe the truth.

Things like, "This totally sucks."

That's what I wanted to say out loud at the funeral,

but I couldn't because nobody would have understood.

That, and... and I'm glad it wasn't me.

It sounds selfish, but I'm glad to be alive.

There are a lot of things I want to do with my life.

Yeah, that's the hard part though,

moving on, doing the everyday things again.

But sooner or later, you find that you do,

whether you mean to or not, it happens.

I don't think I can.

You will.

It'll be okay.

Want some help with that?

It looks so cool up here.

Yeah, it does.

I just need a couple blankets and I'm set.

I'll get them.

Thanks.

Call Wilson.

Why?

Because he really likes you, so call him.

It'll make him feel good.

Okay. I'll call him.

I hope you're not going to get all weepy on me

with the "don't go away to school" bit.

No, I was just thinking

that if you do go away to school,

this could all be mine.

I wonder why we never kept the door open

when Matt was living here.

Maybe Matt kept the door closed on purpose.

Maybe he was hiding E.T. in his closet

or a big alien under his bed,

and now it's going to get you

because it doesn't know who you are.

Oh, no.

You're not going to scare me

into moving back in like you did the last time.

I'm going to leave the door open

for a few nights until you get used to this.

Thank you, Simon. We love you.

What are you looking for?

Matt needs a blanket.

I was trying to find the old army one

the Colonel gave him,

the one he used to take to camp each summer.

I thought it'd be great in his room.

Here it is.

Thanks.

It'll take a while.

I know.

I'm just glad she has the while to take.