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♪♪ >> Hope: I know what Im saying

probably doesnt make a lot of sense.

>> Liam: Hey, no, youre trying to express something, and were

listening.

>> Steffy: Yeah, spending time with Phoebe is emotional for

you.

>> Hope: Yeah, but not in the way youd think, or the way I

expected.

You know, when I first held her, I had the same exact feeling

that I do now.

Its just this -- this sense of, um...

of relief.

You know?

And, sure, Im gonna think about Beth every moment of every day,

and Im gonna always miss her, but...

looking at sweet little Phoebes beautiful face...

You know, I -- I cant explain it.

You know, being with that beautiful girl you adopted,

she -- she brings me peace.

>> Zoe: These adoption papers are for real?

>> Yeah.

I told you everything that you wanted to know.

Do you want me to tell you again?

>> Zoe: [ Scoffs ] Okay, well, Im just trying to make sense of

it all, Flo.

Youre the birth mother of Steffys little girl?

>> Yes, I am.

What does it matter to you?

>> Zoe: Well, you told me my father arranged it.

And now I cant even ask Steffy about it?

>> He doesnt want his name involved in the adoption.

>> Zoe: And you dont think that sounds a bit odd.

>> I dont know, Zoe, but I answered all of your questions.

What else can I say?

>> Zoe: You can tell me why this has been such a big secret.

I mean, thats what I want to know.

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>> Brooke: Thank you for coming down here with me.

>> Ridge: I wanted to check on Hope, too.

I keep missing her at the office, and I really want to do

something, do something nice for her.

>> Brooke: You have, and not just by allocating more funds to

her line.

Im really touched that youve been there to support her and

care about her.

>> Ridge: I just want her to get back on her feet.

>> Brooke: [ Sighs ] Yeah.

Thatll happen eventually.

>> Ridge: Yeah.

Im not sure you ever get past losing a kid, but...

Eventually, shell find a way past it.

>> Brooke: I just want to do things for her, you know?

Even if that means making her place pretty, bringing flowers,

I just want to put more joy and beauty back into her life.

>> Hope: It felt so natural, rocking Phoebe, putting her to

sleep in her crib.

And I thought Id be doing that with Beth.

I wanted that more than anything, and Ill never get the

chance to do that.

So youd think that being with Phoebe would make it more

painful, but, for some reason, it doesnt.

>> Steffy: Thats good.

Im glad.

>> Hope: I mean, I admit, when Im holding her, I do think

about Beth, but, I mean, it doesnt hurt.

That constant crushing sense of loss, its -- [ Chuckles ]

Its not there.

[ Baby crying ] >> Steffy: Thats my cue.

Its the girls.

Ill be right back.

>> Hope: You should go.

>> Liam: Um, I mean, I would, but its fine.

>> Hope: No.

No, Liam, Ill be fine. Really.

They need you. This is -- This is your family, too.

>> Liam: You -- You sure?

>> Your dad didnt want his name put on the adoption.

That was his decision.

>> Zoe: Yeah, because he didnt want to make things awkward for

me?

Because Steffys my boss?

>> Yes.

>> Zoe: And Steffys mother knows that he set this up?

>> Yeah.

Taylor, your dad, and I are the only ones who know about his

involvement in the adoption.

Thats how he wants it.

You should probably just respect his wishes.

>> Zoe: [ Scoffs ] >> Okay, now, I would just

really, really like to get dressed now.

And Id also like to have that key back so I can finally have

some privacy.

>> Zoe: [ Scoffs ] Okay, well, my fathers still paying rent on

this flat, and this is his key, so I will be keeping it.

And, if I need to, I will come back.

>> You know, if your dad wanted you to know about all of this,

he would have told you, but he didnt.

Now, I would really, really just like to get changed and get on

with my day.

Can I do that, please?

>> But why is -- >> I have nothing else to tell

you, Zoe!

♪♪ >> Zoe: Aww, well, I should

leave the office more often.

>> Xander: Or maybe next time, you should take me with you.

>> Zoe: But I like the way that you welcome me back.

>> Xander: [ Sighs ] I was serious, Zoe.

Ive been worried about you.

You know, I dont think you should be going back to your

dads flat alone.

>> Zoe: Flo was still there, Xander.

>> Xander: You confronted her again?

>> Zoe: Well, I actually caught her coming out of the bath this

time.

>> Xander: Oh.

I bet she wasnt too happy about that.

>> Zoe: No, she wasnt.

Tried acting all high and mighty about it, you know, as if I was

intruding, like it was her place.

>> Xander: So, did you find out anything new about her and your

dad?

>> Zoe: Did I ever.

>> Brooke: Phoebe is a beautiful baby.

>> Ridge: I think so, but, then, Im biased.

I mean, as a grandfather, I fell in love with her the moment I

saw her.

>> Brooke: [ Chuckles ] She does have that effect on everybody.

Its amazing how connected you can feel to a new baby.

>> Ridge: Well, she picked the right family, didnt she?

>> Brooke: Yeah.

This adoption has been a blessing, for Phoebe and for

Kelly and Steffy.

But I cant help but think about Hope and everything shes going

through.

Shes suffered a tragic loss.

But shes still getting up and shes going to work and shes

getting involved with her line.

She even welcome Phoebe into the family.

She just cant get rid of her pain, and the only thing we can

do is be there for her and support her and honor her loss.

And one thing I dont want -- I hate even saying this -- but I

dont want Phoebes arrival to take the place of the memory of

Beth.

>> Liam: Well, that didnt take long, did it?

Miss Kelly needed a quick change.

>> Hope: She looks happy now.

>> Liam: Yeah, she always does, dont you, miss?

>> Hope: So does Phoebe.

>> Liam: Oh! Look!

Theres Mr. Rabbit.

Mr. Rabbit is the best!

>> Steffy: She loves Mr. Bunny.

>> Liam: You love Mr. Rabbit.

[ Laughs ] She loves this bunny so much.

>> Steffy: You love him.

>> Liam: She get to bed at a good time last night?

>> Steffy: Yeah, yeah, pretty early.

>> Liam: Its earlier and earlier, Im telling you.

>> Steffy: I know.

>> Liam: Shes ready for a senior citizen discount, arent

you?

Good girl.

[ Cellphone chimes ] Is that work?

>> Hope: Um, my rides here.

>> Steffy: Oh!

Oh, youre leaving?

>> Liam: Youre what?

Hold on a second.

You dont have to get a ride.

Ill take you home.

>> Hope: No, no, no. You stay.

>> Liam: Hope, I dont -- I dont want you going home alone.

I mean, let me just finish up here with Kelly, and then well

go together.

>> Hope: No, no.

She just woke up.

Spend time with your daughter, Liam.

Ill be fine, really.

Maybe you could pick up food on the way home.

Oh!

Hi! [ Giggles ] Yeah, you have fun with your

daddy, okay?

Okay, Kelly? Yeah, have fun.

You just get more beautiful and grown-up every time I see you.

Um, and, Steffy, thank you for welcoming me and allowing me to

spend time with your daughters.

And especially to gush about this little one.

I mean, Phoebe -- shes just...

Shes so special.

[ Giggles ] Yes, you are.

Youre a little angel, arent you?

Yeah, your Auntie Hope loves you so much.

Hey! [ Giggles ]

>> Xander: You found something.

Were we right?

You know, about Flo and your dad being involved.

>> Zoe: Well, shes definitely into him, but theres something

else going on.

Youre not even gonna believe it, Xander.

Im not even sure I do.

>>Taylor, your dad, and I arethe only ones who know about

his involvement in theadoption.

Thats how he wants it.

You should probably justrespect his wishes.

>> Xander: What?

Tell me.

>> Zoe: Well, I thought I was the only one at the flat when I

got there, so I was going through all the drawers, just

trying to find anything that could tell me what had been

going on with my dad.

And then I found papers.

Adoption papers.

>> Xander: Okay...

>> Zoe: [ Sighs ] I dont have any proof, but just the papers

and what Flo had told me, supposedly she had a baby, and

gave her up for adoption.

>> Brooke: Okay.

Gosh! I cant stop fussing.

[ Sighs ] What was I thinking, bringing these flowers down

here, thinking that any of this would really make a difference.

>> Ridge: Hey, hey, hey, hey.

Were just doing whatever we can to help.

>> Brooke: Yeah.

Yeah, I know, its just -- Its gonna take a little while.

>> Ridge: Okay?

>> Brooke: Yeah. Okay.

>> Ridge: The important thing is that Liam and Hope both know

that we support them in whatever they do.

Okay?

>> Brooke: Okay.

[ Door opens ] Hi, honey.

>> Ridge: Hey.

>> Hope: Hey.

Whats going on?

>> Brooke: Oh, just trying to liven up your place down here.

>> Hope: Theyre beautiful.

Thanks, Mom.

>> Brooke: Well, just trying to bring some joy and beauty back

into your life.

>> Hope: Well, I could certainly use it.

Im sorry.

Im trying, I really am.

I want you to know that.

>> Ridge: We do know that.

>> Brooke: Yeah. Yeah, we do.

We know that.

>> Hope: You know, I told myself that, you know, things will get

easier and the pain will subside, or at least Id learn

to live with it.

[ Chuckles ] But, I dont know, sometimes I

still feel myself slip back into that dark place, and I

appreciate what youre trying to do, all the help and support,

but, really, so far, theres only been one thing thats made

me feel any better.

>> Brooke: Whats that?

>> Hope: Phoebe.

>> Liam: Boy, those girls have more wardrobe changes that a

Forrester model.

>> Steffy: Tell me about it.

Its like a full-time laundromat around here.

>> Liam: Yeah.

Hey, um, do you, uh...

Is it ever too much for you?

Because, I mean, I try to help out wherever I can, but...

>> Steffy: Its okay.

Its exhausting, yeah, but...

Its also a nice bonding experience.

And, plus, I have -- I have a lot of people helping me.

I have family, I have Amelia when she gets back into town,

and I have you.

I really appreciate you being here for the girls, Liam.

I really do.

But you need to be there for Hope.

Shes your priority right now.

Hey, Im up the challenge of raising two girls.

But its nice to know that youre around.

I have support I can count on.

Especially from you.

>> Xander: Flo had a baby and gave her up?

>> Zoe: Thats not even the weirdest part.

>> Xander: Is it your dads baby?

>> Zoe: See, I wondered that, too.

>> Xander: I mean, that would explain why hes letting her

stay at his apartment.

>> Zoe: Flo says no, baby isnt his, but...

>> Xander: You dont think you can trust her.

>> Zoe: I mean, I think shes actually telling the truth about

that.

I just think that shes hiding something else.

>> Xander: Zoe.

>> Zoe: Okay.

Flos name wasnt the only name on those papers.

I know its gonna sound crazy because I didnt even really

know what I was looking.

You know, I just saw all this legal stuff about the parental

rights and the minor child, and then when I was trying to figure

it out, I saw the signature at the bottom of the page.

And below that was a name.

And I couldnt even believe it.

I -- Honestly, it still doesnt make sense.

>> Xander: What do you mean?

>> Zoe: Phoebe.

The baby is Phoebe.

>> Xander: Steffys Phoebe?

>> Zoe: Yes.

Steffy signed those adoption papers, okay?

Somehow Flo, the woman living in my fathers apartment,

is Phoebes biological mother.

>> Brooke: Phoebe makes you feel better?

>> Hope: Yeah, holding her.

Holding her makes me feel better.

You know, I was just over at Steffys house with Liam.

He wanted to go see the babies, and I asked if I could tag

along.

>> Brooke: Well, honey, if you feel lonely here, you can always

come up to our house and hang out with us.

>> Hope: No, Im -- I wanted to see Phoebe.

>> Brooke: Okay, but do you think thats a smart idea?

I mean, you just said that you might be slipping...

>> Hope: Not when Im with her.

I mean, when Im holding her in my arms, all I feel is this --

this light and this wonder, and I dont know if its because

I lost Beth, because of the hormones and my body still

thinks that I had a baby, but I can so clearly see how my life

was supposed to be.

Being a mom, at peace, getting to take care of my little girl,

and...

You know, when I -- I feel all that when I look into

Phoebes eyes.

>> Steffy: I guess things with Hope are still pretty intense.

>> Liam: Yeah.

>> Steffy: Are you worried that she left?

>> Liam: Um...

No.

No, I think shell be all right.

>> Steffy: I cant believe she came back here.

>> Liam: I -- Neither can I.

>> Steffy: And the way she was talking about Phoebe...

She almost said "Beth," Liam.

>> Liam: I know, I know.

But she caught herself.

She didnt.

[ Sighs ] Honestly, I -- I kind of thought that going

back to work would be the thing that helps her, you know,

something positive to focus on, but I should have known it

wouldnt be that simple.

Really, it wasnt until today, you know, helping out with

Phoebe that she started to seem...

stronger.

>> Steffy: Well, I meant what I said.

I want her to heal.

I want her to be part of Phoebe and Kellys lives.

>> Liam: I know.

I want that, too.

>> Steffy: I just think its a little soon.

>> Liam: Well, you know, she got emotional, but once she calmed

down, it was -- it was all right.

>> Steffy: You think so?

>> Liam: [ Sighs ] I dont know.

I dont know what Im thinking.

Were both grieving right now.

I mean, nothing -- nothing is the way that it was before,

and is Hope, you know, psychologically coping by --

Like, is she transferring her feelings for Beth onto Phoebe?

Maybe.

Maybe she is doing that, but I dont think its anything

weird.

Its not like she thinks that shes actually Phoebes mother.

But theres really complex emotions going on in her head

right now...

>> Steffy: I get it. Thats -- Thats what concerns me.

You know, Im a mom now, and I know what its like to lose a

child.

I feel for her, I really do.

I want to help.

>> Liam: Well, you have been.

I mean, you letting this happen, its -- its a really big deal,

and I know Hope is really grateful for it.

>> Steffy: I just think that this attachment to Phoebe...

It isnt good long-term.

She talks about being stuck, not being able to move forward,

and the only way to do that is to deal with her loss.

>> Liam: I -- >> Steffy: She cant --

Come on, she cant use Phoebe as a replacement for Beth.

>> Liam: I totally agree with that, I do, but...

I mean, right now, in the immediate, it is actually

helping her cope.

So...

Thank you.

You know Phoebe and Kelly are really lucky to have you in

their lives, right?

I mean, as a role model, as a mentor, as a mother...

Phoebe didnt start out yours, but, God, her life is gonna be

so different because she has you for a mother.

>> Steffy: [ Laughs ]

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