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These are the user uploaded subtitles that are being translated: 1 00:00:07,250 --> 00:00:10,320 2 00:00:22,800 --> 00:00:25,800 me 3 00:00:26,379 --> 00:00:29,460 4 00:00:32,320 --> 00:00:36,000 i was expecting 5 00:00:33,920 --> 00:00:38,239 lightning and angels and trumpets in the 6 00:00:36,000 --> 00:00:40,019 sky and all i got was a bunch of trees 7 00:00:38,238 --> 00:00:41,599 and the geese flying in the air 8 00:00:40,020 --> 00:00:45,840 9 00:00:41,600 --> 00:00:45,840 and i thought how funny is this 10 00:00:46,159 --> 00:00:51,839 it just took me to like a really heavy 11 00:00:49,119 --> 00:00:55,359 place i struggled with that and i knew i 12 00:00:51,840 --> 00:00:57,199 had to either vomit or or cry 13 00:00:55,359 --> 00:01:00,159 and so finally i ended up being able to 14 00:00:57,198 --> 00:01:02,399 cry and really let it go 15 00:01:00,159 --> 00:01:04,399 it was completely overwhelming sense 16 00:01:02,399 --> 00:01:05,599 that there was something much bigger and 17 00:01:04,400 --> 00:01:08,320 that i was 18 00:01:05,599 --> 00:01:10,719 you know a small little ant 19 00:01:08,319 --> 00:01:12,639 in this much bigger divine organization 20 00:01:10,719 --> 00:01:14,959 of the universe and then i needed to pay 21 00:01:12,640 --> 00:01:16,719 attention to that 22 00:01:14,959 --> 00:01:19,679 it's gotten me in touch with my spirit 23 00:01:16,719 --> 00:01:22,319 which i had like no concept of before 24 00:01:19,680 --> 00:01:24,720 it's opened my heart in a way that i 25 00:01:22,319 --> 00:01:25,758 never had it open before ever 26 00:01:24,719 --> 00:01:27,280 i 27 00:01:25,759 --> 00:01:30,560 committed to her that i would she would 28 00:01:27,280 --> 00:01:30,560 be a teacher of mine for my life 29 00:01:31,680 --> 00:01:36,560 the source of the experience of which 30 00:01:33,680 --> 00:01:40,000 these people speak is not a faith a 31 00:01:36,560 --> 00:01:42,560 belief in things unseen 32 00:01:40,000 --> 00:01:44,719 it is simply this 33 00:01:42,560 --> 00:01:48,079 an herbal brew made in the jungles of 34 00:01:44,719 --> 00:01:51,280 peru by native shamans 35 00:01:48,078 --> 00:01:53,199 they call it ayahuasca which means vine 36 00:01:51,280 --> 00:01:56,079 of the soul 37 00:01:53,200 --> 00:01:59,439 it's a tea or or what herbalist would 38 00:01:56,078 --> 00:02:03,039 call a decoction meaning a strong tea 39 00:01:59,438 --> 00:02:06,199 it's always made from two plants 40 00:02:03,040 --> 00:02:09,360 one of which contains the hallucinogen 41 00:02:06,200 --> 00:02:13,920 dimethyltryptamine or dmt 42 00:02:09,360 --> 00:02:17,680 dmt is what i call a true psychedelic 43 00:02:13,919 --> 00:02:19,199 it's one of the class that includes lsd 44 00:02:17,680 --> 00:02:21,270 psilocybin 45 00:02:19,199 --> 00:02:24,989 masculine 46 00:02:21,270 --> 00:02:26,960 47 00:02:24,990 --> 00:02:30,368 [Applause] 48 00:02:26,960 --> 00:02:30,368 49 00:02:33,519 --> 00:02:38,800 in the amazon ayahuasca is a legally 50 00:02:36,080 --> 00:02:40,400 recognized sacred medicine 51 00:02:38,800 --> 00:02:42,239 indigenous people have used it for 52 00:02:40,400 --> 00:02:45,519 centuries to heal physical and 53 00:02:42,239 --> 00:02:45,519 psychospiritual ills 54 00:02:46,560 --> 00:02:53,120 it's an essential part of the culture 55 00:02:49,199 --> 00:02:53,119 woven into the fabric of their lives 56 00:02:54,878 --> 00:03:00,000 beyond the amazon the legality of 57 00:02:56,959 --> 00:03:02,479 ayahuasca is a gray area 58 00:03:00,000 --> 00:03:04,719 the globalization of ayahuasca is a 59 00:03:02,479 --> 00:03:06,399 challenge for modern drug control 60 00:03:04,719 --> 00:03:08,400 authorities 61 00:03:06,400 --> 00:03:11,360 the people who are using it outside of 62 00:03:08,400 --> 00:03:13,280 its traditional context are not the 63 00:03:11,360 --> 00:03:16,239 criminal element that is associated 64 00:03:13,280 --> 00:03:18,400 traditionally with illegal drug use 65 00:03:16,239 --> 00:03:21,360 these are people like my parents my 66 00:03:18,400 --> 00:03:22,640 friends doctors lawyers people in the 67 00:03:21,360 --> 00:03:24,640 health field 68 00:03:22,639 --> 00:03:25,598 who are passing along knowledge word of 69 00:03:24,639 --> 00:03:27,409 mouth 70 00:03:25,598 --> 00:03:29,280 and it seems to be spreading 71 00:03:27,409 --> 00:03:31,280 72 00:03:29,280 --> 00:03:33,840 in the last 10 years thousands have 73 00:03:31,280 --> 00:03:36,719 tried ayahuasca seeking healing and 74 00:03:33,840 --> 00:03:36,719 spiritual growth 75 00:03:37,199 --> 00:03:41,359 the notion that there is a spiritual 76 00:03:39,120 --> 00:03:43,599 component to healing 77 00:03:41,360 --> 00:03:46,239 has been totally excised from 78 00:03:43,598 --> 00:03:47,839 biomedicine spirituality and healing 79 00:03:46,239 --> 00:03:50,319 what does spirituality have to do with 80 00:03:47,840 --> 00:03:50,319 healing 81 00:03:50,639 --> 00:03:54,878 we live in a culture that's spiritually 82 00:03:52,318 --> 00:03:56,158 very deprived very empty 83 00:03:54,878 --> 00:03:58,000 we live in a culture that's very 84 00:03:56,158 --> 00:03:59,280 material based in other words we live in 85 00:03:58,000 --> 00:04:01,039 a culture that does not give human 86 00:03:59,280 --> 00:04:05,199 beings what they really need 87 00:04:01,039 --> 00:04:05,199 that leaves a huge hole in people 88 00:04:05,519 --> 00:04:09,039 most people in north america and the 89 00:04:07,840 --> 00:04:10,959 western world 90 00:04:09,039 --> 00:04:12,798 are not as connected as people who live 91 00:04:10,959 --> 00:04:16,798 in the jungle and live in nature you 92 00:04:12,799 --> 00:04:16,798 know every day 365 days a year 93 00:04:17,519 --> 00:04:22,160 shaman guillermo arevalo believes 94 00:04:19,918 --> 00:04:24,319 everyone can reclaim this connection 95 00:04:22,160 --> 00:04:29,000 through ayahuasca 96 00:04:24,319 --> 00:04:29,000 which he calls a plant teacher 97 00:04:29,199 --> 00:04:34,930 he says the vine of the soul actually 98 00:04:31,360 --> 00:04:38,920 teaches you what you need to know 99 00:04:34,930 --> 00:04:38,920 100 00:04:44,050 --> 00:04:49,139 101 00:04:53,560 --> 00:05:05,038 102 00:05:01,120 --> 00:05:09,439 what is there to share about ayahuasca 103 00:05:05,038 --> 00:05:09,439 can it really heal our minds and spirits 104 00:05:09,759 --> 00:05:14,879 two people are about to journey to the 105 00:05:11,519 --> 00:05:14,879 amazon to find out 106 00:05:16,560 --> 00:05:20,160 rob works as an accountant for a media 107 00:05:18,720 --> 00:05:23,759 company 108 00:05:20,160 --> 00:05:25,600 it's a good job and pays the bills 109 00:05:23,759 --> 00:05:28,400 it's not something you walk away from on 110 00:05:25,600 --> 00:05:31,120 a day-to-day basis feeling satisfied for 111 00:05:28,399 --> 00:05:31,120 the most part 112 00:05:31,600 --> 00:05:34,400 how long is the plate 113 00:05:33,120 --> 00:05:36,399 uh it's around 114 00:05:34,399 --> 00:05:39,519 i think it's eight hours into lima and 115 00:05:36,399 --> 00:05:40,879 then another three hours to quitos 116 00:05:39,519 --> 00:05:42,000 if uh 117 00:05:40,879 --> 00:05:43,279 everything goes well i'll be a 118 00:05:42,000 --> 00:05:44,800 completely different person next 119 00:05:43,279 --> 00:05:46,638 thursday 120 00:05:44,800 --> 00:05:49,360 will we be able to still recognize you 121 00:05:46,639 --> 00:05:50,960 oh yeah i'll just be glowing 122 00:05:49,360 --> 00:05:52,879 i will 123 00:05:50,959 --> 00:05:55,198 going down to peru at this point in my 124 00:05:52,879 --> 00:05:57,120 life makes a lot of sense to me 125 00:05:55,199 --> 00:05:58,478 partially because i'm now entering 126 00:05:57,120 --> 00:06:00,560 middle age 127 00:05:58,478 --> 00:06:02,399 and there's a lot of reevaluating that i 128 00:06:00,560 --> 00:06:04,319 believe should go on i mean if you're 129 00:06:02,399 --> 00:06:06,399 uncertain of what you believe in then 130 00:06:04,319 --> 00:06:08,000 you have to start questioning all things 131 00:06:06,399 --> 00:06:11,839 that are currently in your life and 132 00:06:08,000 --> 00:06:11,839 seeing maybe another path to take 133 00:06:13,199 --> 00:06:16,478 gerste is a doctor of naturopathic 134 00:06:15,199 --> 00:06:18,160 medicine 135 00:06:16,478 --> 00:06:20,719 you have a referred pain pattern up on 136 00:06:18,160 --> 00:06:21,840 your left side in my neck here 137 00:06:20,720 --> 00:06:24,240 yeah 138 00:06:21,839 --> 00:06:26,560 i've just started as a healer myself and 139 00:06:24,240 --> 00:06:29,439 i think it's a good time for me in my 140 00:06:26,560 --> 00:06:31,280 life to go down and experience this 141 00:06:29,439 --> 00:06:33,360 because if it's in in any way shape or 142 00:06:31,279 --> 00:06:36,000 form going to be a part of my life 143 00:06:33,360 --> 00:06:37,840 whether academically or in terms of i'm 144 00:06:36,000 --> 00:06:39,918 able to use it with patients i would 145 00:06:37,839 --> 00:06:42,879 never do that unless i myself have been 146 00:06:39,918 --> 00:06:42,879 through the experience 147 00:06:43,279 --> 00:06:49,918 are you ready to go rob let's do it 148 00:06:46,899 --> 00:06:51,679 149 00:06:49,918 --> 00:06:54,240 in a nutshell what is missing in my life 150 00:06:51,680 --> 00:06:56,160 is spirituality i could say that with 151 00:06:54,240 --> 00:06:57,120 almost complete certainty 152 00:06:56,160 --> 00:06:59,280 we had 153 00:06:57,120 --> 00:07:01,199 very very slight religious upbringing 154 00:06:59,279 --> 00:07:04,959 that just seemed to have no foundation 155 00:07:01,199 --> 00:07:06,478 or no basis for me in my life 156 00:07:04,959 --> 00:07:08,719 it's not that i don't understand that 157 00:07:06,478 --> 00:07:10,560 the best way to live is to be right and 158 00:07:08,720 --> 00:07:13,520 be right with others but i don't have a 159 00:07:10,560 --> 00:07:16,079 guiding light per se 160 00:07:13,519 --> 00:07:18,000 while rob has never been to the amazon 161 00:07:16,079 --> 00:07:20,560 the rainforest has already shaped 162 00:07:18,000 --> 00:07:23,839 kirsty's life 163 00:07:20,560 --> 00:07:26,160 i did a lot of traveling both for work 164 00:07:23,839 --> 00:07:27,519 and in a volunteer capacity and i also 165 00:07:26,160 --> 00:07:30,800 was a guide 166 00:07:27,519 --> 00:07:33,758 in the amazon and was exposed to 167 00:07:30,800 --> 00:07:36,400 an enormous amount of plant medicine 168 00:07:33,759 --> 00:07:38,879 i've read an awful lot about 169 00:07:36,399 --> 00:07:40,399 ayahuasca and i'm just 170 00:07:38,879 --> 00:07:42,399 really interested in its implications 171 00:07:40,399 --> 00:07:45,399 for a lot of people with severe chronic 172 00:07:42,399 --> 00:07:45,399 disease 173 00:07:46,800 --> 00:07:52,000 from what i understand it really can 174 00:07:49,439 --> 00:07:55,038 open up a lot of energetic barriers that 175 00:07:52,000 --> 00:07:59,839 everyone has and if those barriers are 176 00:07:55,038 --> 00:07:59,839 opened up you can live more optimally 177 00:08:04,399 --> 00:08:08,638 in the past rob has used recreational 178 00:08:06,800 --> 00:08:10,840 drugs to search for greater meaning in 179 00:08:08,639 --> 00:08:12,400 his life without 180 00:08:10,839 --> 00:08:15,038 success 181 00:08:12,399 --> 00:08:17,120 i guess my biggest fear is simply just 182 00:08:15,038 --> 00:08:18,878 getting high again for two or three days 183 00:08:17,120 --> 00:08:20,639 and really not having it come to any 184 00:08:18,879 --> 00:08:23,840 fruition 185 00:08:20,639 --> 00:08:26,800 it can't be anything remotely similar to 186 00:08:23,839 --> 00:08:28,399 recreational use that's what i'm sick of 187 00:08:26,800 --> 00:08:30,478 and i certainly don't have to go to peru 188 00:08:28,399 --> 00:08:33,840 to experience it are you actually 189 00:08:30,478 --> 00:08:33,840 holding the theft if you need me 190 00:08:36,320 --> 00:08:41,680 i do feel some trepidation around what i 191 00:08:40,080 --> 00:08:44,080 will experience and what i might 192 00:08:41,679 --> 00:08:46,639 discover about my own energetic 193 00:08:44,080 --> 00:08:48,000 blockages but about ayahuasca i'm not 194 00:08:46,639 --> 00:08:49,439 going through this life and not doing 195 00:08:48,000 --> 00:08:52,399 ayahuasca 196 00:08:49,440 --> 00:08:52,399 there is no way 197 00:08:52,958 --> 00:08:58,000 after a long trip rob and kirsty finally 198 00:08:55,600 --> 00:08:58,920 arrive at the rustic retreat on the edge 199 00:08:58,000 --> 00:09:01,200 of the jungle 200 00:08:58,919 --> 00:09:03,919 201 00:09:01,200 --> 00:09:05,839 guillermo was there to greet them 202 00:09:03,919 --> 00:09:09,240 along with an international group of 203 00:09:05,839 --> 00:09:09,240 fellow travelers 204 00:09:20,080 --> 00:09:23,080 ayahuasca 205 00:09:24,000 --> 00:09:28,720 dave a healer from canada began his 206 00:09:26,639 --> 00:09:31,039 apprenticeship with guillermo five years 207 00:09:28,720 --> 00:09:31,040 ago 208 00:09:32,240 --> 00:09:35,919 as soon as i started i thought this is 209 00:09:33,839 --> 00:09:38,080 exactly what my whole life was about i 210 00:09:35,919 --> 00:09:40,000 knew that this was my life path but i 211 00:09:38,080 --> 00:09:41,440 still had doubt whether i could actually 212 00:09:40,000 --> 00:09:43,360 accomplish it 213 00:09:41,440 --> 00:09:45,680 my first experience with guillermo was 214 00:09:43,360 --> 00:09:47,200 extremely extremely profound very very 215 00:09:45,679 --> 00:09:49,439 deep 216 00:09:47,200 --> 00:09:50,720 i remember him saying to me that i was 217 00:09:49,440 --> 00:09:53,279 david and i was gonna have to face 218 00:09:50,720 --> 00:09:55,759 goliath and goliath being the fear 219 00:09:53,278 --> 00:09:55,759 inside of me 220 00:09:56,399 --> 00:10:00,080 jose 221 00:09:58,240 --> 00:10:02,399 david 222 00:10:00,080 --> 00:10:05,399 espiritu 223 00:10:02,399 --> 00:10:05,399 prender 224 00:10:13,659 --> 00:10:18,679 225 00:10:15,519 --> 00:10:18,679 the land 226 00:10:19,919 --> 00:10:24,799 guillermo has been a shaman to the 227 00:10:21,679 --> 00:10:26,958 shipibo people most of his life 228 00:10:24,799 --> 00:10:29,519 but only recently opened a retreat for 229 00:10:26,958 --> 00:10:29,518 westerners 230 00:10:29,839 --> 00:10:33,800 importante acerlo 231 00:10:35,720 --> 00:10:38,809 232 00:10:56,940 --> 00:11:00,059 233 00:11:20,399 --> 00:11:23,399 is 234 00:11:24,320 --> 00:11:28,139 235 00:11:58,610 --> 00:12:01,678 236 00:12:09,839 --> 00:12:16,240 all organisms on the planet are 237 00:12:12,879 --> 00:12:18,559 parasites on plants because plants 238 00:12:16,240 --> 00:12:20,799 are the only thing that make their own 239 00:12:18,559 --> 00:12:24,159 food and they make their food out of 240 00:12:20,799 --> 00:12:27,120 sunlight water and carbon dioxide 241 00:12:24,159 --> 00:12:29,089 and because of that they are running the 242 00:12:27,120 --> 00:12:40,560 show 243 00:12:29,090 --> 00:12:44,079 244 00:12:40,559 --> 00:12:46,479 i'm extremely excited about tonight 245 00:12:44,078 --> 00:12:48,799 we're at the birthplace where the plants 246 00:12:46,480 --> 00:12:51,278 are from and just being under an 247 00:12:48,799 --> 00:12:53,599 accomplished master like guillermo 248 00:12:51,278 --> 00:12:55,820 has to be just a once in a lifetime 249 00:12:53,600 --> 00:12:58,079 experience 250 00:12:55,820 --> 00:12:59,440 251 00:12:58,078 --> 00:13:00,799 throughout the day i think i went 252 00:12:59,440 --> 00:13:02,800 through a lot of different 253 00:13:00,799 --> 00:13:04,799 emotions and thoughts about it you know 254 00:13:02,799 --> 00:13:06,958 some of which were sort of anxiety am i 255 00:13:04,799 --> 00:13:08,000 a bit too tired to be doing this at the 256 00:13:06,958 --> 00:13:10,239 moment 257 00:13:08,000 --> 00:13:12,639 but i actually feel as i have since i 258 00:13:10,240 --> 00:13:16,399 arrived really pretty peaceful so 259 00:13:12,639 --> 00:13:16,399 hopefully that bodes well for me 260 00:13:17,120 --> 00:13:21,600 as darkness falls all who wish to 261 00:13:19,120 --> 00:13:23,919 partake in the ayahuasca ceremony join 262 00:13:21,600 --> 00:13:26,920 guillermo and his assistant corondero 263 00:13:23,919 --> 00:13:26,919 francoise 264 00:13:37,360 --> 00:13:40,800 when i was asked for my intention i felt 265 00:13:39,519 --> 00:13:42,639 i didn't really had one or maybe i 266 00:13:40,799 --> 00:13:44,399 hadn't given it enough thought and it 267 00:13:42,639 --> 00:13:47,360 kind of concerned me a little bit 268 00:13:44,399 --> 00:13:48,958 thinking that here i was in this great 269 00:13:47,360 --> 00:13:52,320 center for healing and i didn't come 270 00:13:48,958 --> 00:13:52,319 down with a specific problem 271 00:13:53,600 --> 00:13:57,040 my intention was it was a hard decision 272 00:13:55,919 --> 00:13:58,639 because there are a lot of things that i 273 00:13:57,039 --> 00:14:01,759 would like to work on but the thing i 274 00:13:58,639 --> 00:14:02,680 elected to sort of work on was difficult 275 00:14:01,759 --> 00:14:04,879 for me to 276 00:14:02,679 --> 00:14:06,799 277 00:14:04,879 --> 00:14:08,720 see as yet how 278 00:14:06,799 --> 00:14:10,799 i can integrate this 279 00:14:08,720 --> 00:14:13,040 on a professional level 280 00:14:10,799 --> 00:14:15,759 i spoke to guillermo and just said can 281 00:14:13,039 --> 00:14:17,919 you help me to understand because i feel 282 00:14:15,759 --> 00:14:21,078 intuitively that there's a reason that 283 00:14:17,919 --> 00:14:21,078 i'm here 284 00:14:27,649 --> 00:14:35,600 285 00:14:33,519 --> 00:14:37,519 i was aware of many things happening all 286 00:14:35,600 --> 00:14:38,670 the time because all of my senses were 287 00:14:37,519 --> 00:14:41,120 so heightened 288 00:14:38,669 --> 00:14:43,039 289 00:14:41,120 --> 00:14:44,879 you sit there and you wonder whether or 290 00:14:43,039 --> 00:14:47,039 not it's taking effect and then as soon 291 00:14:44,879 --> 00:14:49,759 as you allow the chanting in it pretty 292 00:14:47,039 --> 00:14:49,759 much takes you 293 00:14:50,289 --> 00:14:55,198 294 00:14:53,600 --> 00:14:57,120 normally at the beginning the energy is 295 00:14:55,198 --> 00:14:59,759 a little heavy 296 00:14:57,120 --> 00:15:02,799 so you need to clear that 297 00:14:59,759 --> 00:15:04,399 so you start to sing and you bring light 298 00:15:02,799 --> 00:15:07,838 doing this 299 00:15:04,399 --> 00:15:09,919 it pushes out the negative energies 300 00:15:07,839 --> 00:15:13,199 and clears the space 301 00:15:09,919 --> 00:15:15,519 it makes people perch 302 00:15:13,198 --> 00:15:18,958 purging prepares the mind and body for 303 00:15:15,519 --> 00:15:18,959 the inner journey ahead 304 00:15:20,159 --> 00:15:26,799 the chanting then carries people into a 305 00:15:22,559 --> 00:15:28,799 realm beyond the five senses 306 00:15:26,799 --> 00:15:30,559 this person becomes you 307 00:15:28,799 --> 00:15:32,078 you become him 308 00:15:30,559 --> 00:15:34,159 you know you create that relationship 309 00:15:32,078 --> 00:15:36,159 with the chanting there is a link 310 00:15:34,159 --> 00:15:38,240 because you are such in a high state of 311 00:15:36,159 --> 00:15:41,519 consciousness you become super aware of 312 00:15:38,240 --> 00:15:44,480 the other and the author becomes super 313 00:15:41,519 --> 00:15:44,480 aware of your energy 314 00:15:44,958 --> 00:15:49,958 you can see it it manifests in your own 315 00:15:46,720 --> 00:15:49,959 visual state 316 00:15:50,019 --> 00:15:57,198 317 00:15:55,600 --> 00:15:59,440 the chanting was 318 00:15:57,198 --> 00:16:02,879 transformational i actually don't even 319 00:15:59,440 --> 00:16:02,880 have the words to describe that 320 00:16:02,889 --> 00:16:06,480 321 00:16:04,639 --> 00:16:09,198 i could feel plants quivering and i 322 00:16:06,480 --> 00:16:11,360 could feel everything breathing and i 323 00:16:09,198 --> 00:16:14,000 could feel the earth groaning and i 324 00:16:11,360 --> 00:16:16,399 could hear every single bird and just 325 00:16:14,000 --> 00:16:19,039 this blissed out 326 00:16:16,399 --> 00:16:23,198 insanely powerful connection with the 327 00:16:19,039 --> 00:16:24,639 earth and with plants and with animals 328 00:16:23,198 --> 00:16:27,179 i felt 329 00:16:24,639 --> 00:16:29,759 a lot of joy 330 00:16:27,179 --> 00:16:31,519 331 00:16:29,759 --> 00:16:33,120 the feeling is just 332 00:16:31,519 --> 00:16:34,560 sublime i don't know how to explain it 333 00:16:33,120 --> 00:16:37,679 almost every little thing you do with 334 00:16:34,559 --> 00:16:38,638 your body a simple head stretch a deep 335 00:16:37,679 --> 00:16:41,679 breath 336 00:16:38,639 --> 00:16:43,198 just feels so life affirming because you 337 00:16:41,679 --> 00:16:44,559 seem to be in complete harmony with 338 00:16:43,198 --> 00:16:46,000 everything around you 339 00:16:44,559 --> 00:16:49,169 you just know that you're connected to 340 00:16:46,000 --> 00:16:58,000 something larger 341 00:16:49,169 --> 00:17:00,639 342 00:16:58,000 --> 00:17:04,240 most religions make a great deal about 343 00:17:00,639 --> 00:17:07,120 how you must have faith you must believe 344 00:17:04,240 --> 00:17:09,519 in god you must believe in what we tell 345 00:17:07,119 --> 00:17:11,599 you even though there's no evidence to 346 00:17:09,519 --> 00:17:14,400 support it no evidence for what we're 347 00:17:11,599 --> 00:17:16,318 telling you but you must have faith 348 00:17:14,400 --> 00:17:19,120 what's interesting 349 00:17:16,318 --> 00:17:21,599 about ayahuasca is you don't have to 350 00:17:19,119 --> 00:17:25,599 have faith 351 00:17:21,599 --> 00:17:27,359 it's the perfect tool for skeptics 352 00:17:25,599 --> 00:17:29,279 don't believe me don't believe what 353 00:17:27,359 --> 00:17:32,159 anybody tells you take it have the 354 00:17:29,279 --> 00:17:33,480 experience evaluate it for yourself make 355 00:17:32,160 --> 00:17:42,038 of it what you will 356 00:17:33,480 --> 00:17:42,038 357 00:17:43,599 --> 00:17:46,319 last night 358 00:17:44,880 --> 00:17:48,480 because we've been looking forward to it 359 00:17:46,319 --> 00:17:50,558 for quite a few weeks now 360 00:17:48,480 --> 00:17:52,798 i had a lot of expectations built up and 361 00:17:50,558 --> 00:17:55,038 the ceremony itself was very impressive 362 00:17:52,798 --> 00:17:59,279 but i think i didn't have a strong 363 00:17:55,038 --> 00:18:00,400 reaction to the ayahuasca itself 364 00:17:59,279 --> 00:18:02,879 it would be nice if it was a little 365 00:18:00,400 --> 00:18:04,559 stronger and i don't mean to be cocky in 366 00:18:02,880 --> 00:18:07,039 saying that because it's not for 367 00:18:04,558 --> 00:18:08,798 amusement or entertainment 368 00:18:07,038 --> 00:18:10,400 but i'm ready to kind of go a little 369 00:18:08,798 --> 00:18:13,720 deeper into myself to see what else 370 00:18:10,400 --> 00:18:13,720 comes out 371 00:18:14,319 --> 00:18:18,079 i think the big difference between the 372 00:18:15,759 --> 00:18:20,640 use of ayahuasca today and the use of 373 00:18:18,079 --> 00:18:23,678 other substances in the 1960s 374 00:18:20,640 --> 00:18:26,400 is a very strong understanding of the 375 00:18:23,679 --> 00:18:27,440 importance of ritual and a ceremonial 376 00:18:26,400 --> 00:18:31,038 element 377 00:18:27,440 --> 00:18:34,000 in fostering a therapeutic or 378 00:18:31,038 --> 00:18:36,240 spiritual experience 379 00:18:34,000 --> 00:18:39,679 it's not a party drug in the way that 380 00:18:36,240 --> 00:18:42,798 other substances have been used 381 00:18:39,679 --> 00:18:45,519 the wisdom of learning through plants is 382 00:18:42,798 --> 00:18:47,670 a cultural tradition that goes back 383 00:18:45,519 --> 00:18:51,200 hundreds if not thousands of years 384 00:18:47,670 --> 00:18:52,240 385 00:18:51,200 --> 00:18:53,120 for me 386 00:18:52,240 --> 00:18:55,839 my 387 00:18:53,119 --> 00:18:59,279 experience of botanical medicine is very 388 00:18:55,839 --> 00:19:01,519 technical and medical and scientific and 389 00:18:59,279 --> 00:19:04,160 we do learn about the energetics of 390 00:19:01,519 --> 00:19:06,240 plants but it's much more dominated by 391 00:19:04,160 --> 00:19:08,320 the science and so 392 00:19:06,240 --> 00:19:10,720 i've always reached out to have 393 00:19:08,319 --> 00:19:12,159 opportunities to 394 00:19:10,720 --> 00:19:13,440 integrate both 395 00:19:12,160 --> 00:19:16,720 and so that's 396 00:19:13,440 --> 00:19:18,880 that's my goal you see uh the healing 397 00:19:16,720 --> 00:19:20,400 aspect of this medicine 398 00:19:18,880 --> 00:19:22,880 well what can you relate about it in 399 00:19:20,400 --> 00:19:25,360 terms of ayahuasca 400 00:19:22,880 --> 00:19:27,120 i need to do it many more times many 401 00:19:25,359 --> 00:19:29,678 many more times to 402 00:19:27,119 --> 00:19:30,798 be able to speak to that because i'm not 403 00:19:29,679 --> 00:19:32,559 i can't 404 00:19:30,798 --> 00:19:34,720 integrate that or apply that with other 405 00:19:32,558 --> 00:19:36,960 people until i've integrated it with me 406 00:19:34,720 --> 00:19:38,960 i just can't 407 00:19:36,960 --> 00:19:41,038 i think it's not for everybody 408 00:19:38,960 --> 00:19:44,079 you know i think ayahuasca 409 00:19:41,038 --> 00:19:46,319 is a very powerful medicine 410 00:19:44,079 --> 00:19:48,720 but it has to be placed and used in a 411 00:19:46,319 --> 00:19:51,038 proper way but if they don't know how to 412 00:19:48,720 --> 00:19:54,798 do that it can create a psychological 413 00:19:51,038 --> 00:19:54,798 shock that would leave a trauma 414 00:19:55,839 --> 00:20:01,519 at a ceremony 15 years ago francois used 415 00:19:59,200 --> 00:20:03,279 ayahuasca to help kick an addiction to 416 00:20:01,519 --> 00:20:06,000 heroin 417 00:20:03,279 --> 00:20:08,158 i had this particular ceremony where i 418 00:20:06,000 --> 00:20:10,079 could see my veins crying 419 00:20:08,159 --> 00:20:11,280 and my body expressing the pain that he 420 00:20:10,079 --> 00:20:13,199 had received through the use of 421 00:20:11,279 --> 00:20:15,440 addiction and needles 422 00:20:13,200 --> 00:20:17,919 lots of cleaning you know in my head had 423 00:20:15,440 --> 00:20:17,919 to be done 424 00:20:18,880 --> 00:20:22,400 addiction comes from a sense of 425 00:20:20,319 --> 00:20:24,158 deficient emptiness and trying to 426 00:20:22,400 --> 00:20:27,200 complete yourself from the outside is 427 00:20:24,159 --> 00:20:27,200 the essence of addiction 428 00:20:27,279 --> 00:20:32,079 with ayahuasca one is an opportunity to 429 00:20:29,359 --> 00:20:33,359 experience oneself as whole and complete 430 00:20:32,079 --> 00:20:34,798 if you can actually get that you're 431 00:20:33,359 --> 00:20:36,240 holding complete 432 00:20:34,798 --> 00:20:37,519 what is there to be felt from the 433 00:20:36,240 --> 00:20:40,558 outside anymore 434 00:20:37,519 --> 00:20:43,038 there's just no need for it 435 00:20:40,558 --> 00:20:45,200 i ask you can hear people see that 436 00:20:43,038 --> 00:20:46,879 in two or three ceremonies 437 00:20:45,200 --> 00:20:49,200 if it's the appropriate shame and the 438 00:20:46,880 --> 00:20:51,280 leader and if it's the right environment 439 00:20:49,200 --> 00:20:53,840 well that is a potential to heal 440 00:20:51,279 --> 00:20:53,839 addictions 441 00:20:54,159 --> 00:20:59,039 i think ayahuasca has 442 00:20:56,159 --> 00:21:01,280 to function with self-discovery and 443 00:20:59,038 --> 00:21:03,519 trying to understand better who you are 444 00:21:01,279 --> 00:21:05,119 and also it helps you to connect with 445 00:21:03,519 --> 00:21:07,119 the invisible world with the spirit 446 00:21:05,119 --> 00:21:09,519 world it could be related to nature you 447 00:21:07,119 --> 00:21:12,000 know the meaning of god 448 00:21:09,519 --> 00:21:14,400 having a clearer sense of what it means 449 00:21:12,000 --> 00:21:17,200 for you in your life so it helps you to 450 00:21:14,400 --> 00:21:19,519 redefine yourself in relationship to 451 00:21:17,200 --> 00:21:19,519 that 452 00:21:19,679 --> 00:21:26,559 ayahuasca is used for many reasons 453 00:21:23,599 --> 00:21:30,480 for a corondero like dave ayahuasca is a 454 00:21:26,558 --> 00:21:31,759 teacher of the healing powers of plants 455 00:21:30,480 --> 00:21:32,880 my home 456 00:21:31,759 --> 00:21:35,599 please take off your shoes before you 457 00:21:32,880 --> 00:21:35,600 come to my home please 458 00:21:35,679 --> 00:21:39,360 ayahuasca is in many ways like the key 459 00:21:37,759 --> 00:21:41,279 to the door that allows you to plant 460 00:21:39,359 --> 00:21:43,599 teacher world ayahuasca allows you to 461 00:21:41,279 --> 00:21:46,480 access the other plant teachers in in in 462 00:21:43,599 --> 00:21:48,240 a more profound way 463 00:21:46,480 --> 00:21:50,240 a planned teacher is i mean the best way 464 00:21:48,240 --> 00:21:53,519 to look at it is you look at a plant as 465 00:21:50,240 --> 00:21:55,839 a being as you would as a friend 466 00:21:53,519 --> 00:21:57,440 each plant has a personality as each 467 00:21:55,839 --> 00:21:59,279 human does 468 00:21:57,440 --> 00:22:01,840 you take on the traits of a plant you 469 00:21:59,279 --> 00:22:03,359 know and plants are very sensitive and 470 00:22:01,839 --> 00:22:04,798 very intuitive 471 00:22:03,359 --> 00:22:06,479 and you know 472 00:22:04,798 --> 00:22:08,960 in healing you need to be very sensitive 473 00:22:06,480 --> 00:22:11,440 and very intuitive 474 00:22:08,960 --> 00:22:15,600 so we take these plants yeah to learn 475 00:22:11,440 --> 00:22:15,600 from them and in a way to become them 476 00:22:16,319 --> 00:22:19,359 i came here with the intention of 477 00:22:18,480 --> 00:22:21,519 you know 478 00:22:19,359 --> 00:22:23,479 gaining more strength in my work so i'm 479 00:22:21,519 --> 00:22:26,558 on a diet now with 480 00:22:23,480 --> 00:22:30,240 a bunch of different plants and trees to 481 00:22:26,558 --> 00:22:30,240 give me more strength more protection 482 00:22:30,558 --> 00:22:35,918 it's a mix of 25 30 different plants 483 00:22:33,038 --> 00:22:37,919 that i drink it every day 484 00:22:35,919 --> 00:22:39,600 you know it really breaks down the body 485 00:22:37,919 --> 00:22:42,240 at the beginning to 486 00:22:39,599 --> 00:22:44,240 open up i feel a little bit uh my body 487 00:22:42,240 --> 00:22:46,798 feels a little bit you know out of 488 00:22:44,240 --> 00:22:48,079 balance and a little bit weak but 489 00:22:46,798 --> 00:22:51,240 the most important thing is i feel good 490 00:22:48,079 --> 00:22:51,240 in my mind 491 00:22:51,710 --> 00:22:55,430 492 00:22:56,798 --> 00:23:01,289 after a day of reflection rob and kirsty 493 00:22:59,279 --> 00:23:05,678 returned for their second ceremony 494 00:23:01,289 --> 00:23:08,000 495 00:23:05,679 --> 00:23:10,480 again it was just wanting to experience 496 00:23:08,000 --> 00:23:13,279 so much so quickly it was probably 497 00:23:10,480 --> 00:23:15,839 overestimating my level what ayahuasca 498 00:23:13,279 --> 00:23:17,599 wanted to show me at that time 499 00:23:15,839 --> 00:23:19,519 in a way i kind of wanted to take more 500 00:23:17,599 --> 00:23:21,599 but in in a way i didn't you have to 501 00:23:19,519 --> 00:23:22,839 respect ayahuasca she was she was 502 00:23:21,599 --> 00:23:25,359 telling me something 503 00:23:22,839 --> 00:23:27,759 504 00:23:25,359 --> 00:23:31,918 it was totally different from the night 505 00:23:27,759 --> 00:23:33,279 prior i was restless and sort of 506 00:23:31,919 --> 00:23:35,440 agitated 507 00:23:33,279 --> 00:23:36,399 a part of ayahuasca is the purging 508 00:23:35,440 --> 00:23:38,159 aspect 509 00:23:36,400 --> 00:23:40,159 i you know sort of had always just 510 00:23:38,159 --> 00:23:42,159 thought that meant vomiting but it can 511 00:23:40,159 --> 00:23:43,440 it's just can be a lot of different 512 00:23:42,159 --> 00:23:46,159 bodily 513 00:23:43,440 --> 00:23:47,759 things going on in noises and belching 514 00:23:46,159 --> 00:23:49,278 and like 515 00:23:47,759 --> 00:23:51,440 it was 516 00:23:49,278 --> 00:23:53,679 unbelievable 517 00:23:51,440 --> 00:23:55,679 i got cagey kind of and i tried to leave 518 00:23:53,679 --> 00:23:57,919 the room entirely actually at one point 519 00:23:55,679 --> 00:23:59,200 but i sort of got stuck 520 00:23:57,919 --> 00:24:02,240 standing there 521 00:23:59,200 --> 00:24:04,400 it was just it was frustrating kind of 522 00:24:02,240 --> 00:24:06,000 when i did go outside 523 00:24:04,400 --> 00:24:09,120 i found rob 524 00:24:06,000 --> 00:24:11,440 i left all of that 525 00:24:09,119 --> 00:24:15,519 insane cacophony 526 00:24:11,440 --> 00:24:19,400 i've always heard the folks 527 00:24:15,519 --> 00:24:19,400 i would i would say 528 00:24:26,140 --> 00:24:29,288 529 00:24:31,200 --> 00:24:34,240 in it 530 00:24:32,400 --> 00:24:36,000 okay 531 00:24:34,240 --> 00:24:39,599 oh my god 532 00:24:36,000 --> 00:24:41,839 we saw the sky and it was just 533 00:24:39,599 --> 00:24:43,519 staggering it was just 534 00:24:41,839 --> 00:24:47,199 astonishing how beautiful it was and i 535 00:24:43,519 --> 00:24:49,918 saw a huge shooting star which 536 00:24:47,200 --> 00:24:49,919 blew my mind 537 00:24:51,759 --> 00:24:55,599 and then we left and when i came back to 538 00:24:54,240 --> 00:24:59,038 my cabin 539 00:24:55,599 --> 00:25:00,079 i kind of laid down and i closed my eyes 540 00:24:59,038 --> 00:25:01,278 and 541 00:25:00,079 --> 00:25:03,599 like a lot of times when you close your 542 00:25:01,278 --> 00:25:05,759 eyes you see some light imagery and then 543 00:25:03,599 --> 00:25:07,519 it began to swirl together and it 544 00:25:05,759 --> 00:25:09,359 created this little eddy right in front 545 00:25:07,519 --> 00:25:11,440 of my field of vision and then bit by 546 00:25:09,359 --> 00:25:14,558 bit little images would appear out of 547 00:25:11,440 --> 00:25:17,038 this eddy come out and go back in come 548 00:25:14,558 --> 00:25:18,480 out and go back in 549 00:25:17,038 --> 00:25:21,440 when i was ready to write off the 550 00:25:18,480 --> 00:25:24,960 evening as somewhat of a a rejection or 551 00:25:21,440 --> 00:25:27,940 uh a negative she pulled me right back 552 00:25:24,960 --> 00:25:33,519 and then put me to sleep 553 00:25:27,940 --> 00:25:35,840 554 00:25:33,519 --> 00:25:36,798 it's really a therapy you have one 555 00:25:35,839 --> 00:25:40,158 ceremony it's like going to 556 00:25:36,798 --> 00:25:42,558 psychotherapy for two years 557 00:25:40,159 --> 00:25:44,640 colin from vancouver attended ayahuasca 558 00:25:42,558 --> 00:25:46,798 ceremonies for a year before coming to 559 00:25:44,640 --> 00:25:50,320 peru 560 00:25:46,798 --> 00:25:52,079 he's hoping to heal a troubled marriage 561 00:25:50,319 --> 00:25:53,839 for me i'm just want to be the father 562 00:25:52,079 --> 00:25:56,079 that i know i can be and the husband i 563 00:25:53,839 --> 00:25:58,079 can be and support my wife as family 564 00:25:56,079 --> 00:25:59,678 comes first right 565 00:25:58,079 --> 00:26:01,439 we had been on and off and are 566 00:25:59,679 --> 00:26:03,200 continuing in kind of a power struggle 567 00:26:01,440 --> 00:26:05,278 stage we have done couples therapy 568 00:26:03,200 --> 00:26:06,798 counseling but it doesn't quite 569 00:26:05,278 --> 00:26:09,038 i mean it works for a little bit but 570 00:26:06,798 --> 00:26:11,839 there's a deeper issue 571 00:26:09,038 --> 00:26:13,278 when i came here i knew i wanted to go a 572 00:26:11,839 --> 00:26:15,439 little deeper 573 00:26:13,278 --> 00:26:17,759 for me the one word that came up was 574 00:26:15,440 --> 00:26:20,240 acceptance acceptance of myself 575 00:26:17,759 --> 00:26:22,480 acceptance of my past and acceptance of 576 00:26:20,240 --> 00:26:25,519 my wife was probably the 577 00:26:22,480 --> 00:26:28,319 the number one thing to her that was 578 00:26:25,519 --> 00:26:30,079 the big blockage in our relationship 579 00:26:28,319 --> 00:26:31,918 there is something that's obviously 580 00:26:30,079 --> 00:26:33,519 keeping us together 581 00:26:31,919 --> 00:26:37,278 but there is some kind of 582 00:26:33,519 --> 00:26:37,278 something we keep coming up against 583 00:26:37,599 --> 00:26:41,599 i realized that i've had this sense of 584 00:26:39,119 --> 00:26:43,359 sadness within me affecting multiple 585 00:26:41,599 --> 00:26:45,678 things from past relationships people 586 00:26:43,359 --> 00:26:47,359 that have passed in my life to sadness 587 00:26:45,679 --> 00:26:49,519 around things around my childhood and 588 00:26:47,359 --> 00:26:53,839 being unhappy with my sort of place in 589 00:26:49,519 --> 00:26:53,839 the world so i'm sad about it at times 590 00:26:55,038 --> 00:26:59,278 after each ceremony guillermo encourages 591 00:26:57,519 --> 00:27:01,278 participants to talk about their 592 00:26:59,278 --> 00:27:03,440 experiences 593 00:27:01,278 --> 00:27:05,119 i feel myself attached with the with a 594 00:27:03,440 --> 00:27:06,880 bit of a dark spirit which came to me 595 00:27:05,119 --> 00:27:09,278 last night and it's all 596 00:27:06,880 --> 00:27:12,559 linked to an ex-girlfriend 597 00:27:09,278 --> 00:27:13,519 who has died she's since died but she's 598 00:27:12,558 --> 00:27:15,038 still 599 00:27:13,519 --> 00:27:17,038 there's lots of there's lots of love 600 00:27:15,038 --> 00:27:18,879 there there's a lot of lightness but her 601 00:27:17,038 --> 00:27:20,558 dark side is sort of still hanging onto 602 00:27:18,880 --> 00:27:25,080 me she was a very manipulative woman and 603 00:27:20,558 --> 00:27:25,079 it was almost the first woman in my life 604 00:27:56,480 --> 00:28:01,120 i woke up this morning you know very 605 00:27:58,319 --> 00:28:02,798 early and very still very high with the 606 00:28:01,119 --> 00:28:04,719 ayahuasca and 607 00:28:02,798 --> 00:28:05,759 and he had some nightmares a lot of 608 00:28:04,720 --> 00:28:07,278 sweating 609 00:28:05,759 --> 00:28:08,798 during the night almost like my body's 610 00:28:07,278 --> 00:28:10,809 trying to 611 00:28:08,798 --> 00:28:13,858 to uh to move it through 612 00:28:10,809 --> 00:28:13,858 613 00:28:14,880 --> 00:28:17,840 jose 614 00:28:28,798 --> 00:28:31,798 is 615 00:28:56,079 --> 00:28:59,519 m 616 00:28:58,069 --> 00:29:01,839 617 00:28:59,519 --> 00:29:04,000 professionally in terms of work as a 618 00:29:01,839 --> 00:29:06,158 naturopathic doctor i sort of feel 619 00:29:04,000 --> 00:29:07,200 confused 620 00:29:06,159 --> 00:29:09,760 to 621 00:29:07,200 --> 00:29:12,080 employ this medicine even in a limited 622 00:29:09,759 --> 00:29:14,398 capacity probably takes a lot of 623 00:29:12,079 --> 00:29:17,359 personal journeying 624 00:29:14,398 --> 00:29:17,359 period for me 625 00:29:24,000 --> 00:29:28,319 i need to talk it through with dave 626 00:29:26,960 --> 00:29:30,798 how he 627 00:29:28,319 --> 00:29:32,000 operates because the ceremony is crucial 628 00:29:30,798 --> 00:29:35,200 and 629 00:29:32,000 --> 00:29:36,240 the training is crucial ayahuasca 630 00:29:35,200 --> 00:29:37,519 and powder 631 00:29:36,240 --> 00:29:40,519 ah yeah 632 00:29:37,519 --> 00:29:40,519 ayahuasca 633 00:29:45,278 --> 00:29:48,880 it's important for people to know that 634 00:29:47,038 --> 00:29:51,119 the ayahuasca acts as a teacher and it 635 00:29:48,880 --> 00:29:52,640 allows you to discover yourself through 636 00:29:51,119 --> 00:29:54,239 your own knowledge through your own 637 00:29:52,640 --> 00:29:56,000 experience 638 00:29:54,240 --> 00:29:57,759 these are all the plants we use for uh 639 00:29:56,000 --> 00:29:59,599 bathing here bring love attract love 640 00:29:57,759 --> 00:30:02,158 good luck yeah and all these medicines 641 00:29:59,599 --> 00:30:04,558 up here are all for uh for men to get a 642 00:30:02,159 --> 00:30:05,200 little extra energy oh 643 00:30:04,558 --> 00:30:06,839 yeah 644 00:30:05,200 --> 00:30:11,120 it means seven 645 00:30:06,839 --> 00:30:11,119 times seven seven times per night 646 00:30:11,200 --> 00:30:15,440 the other thing 647 00:30:12,558 --> 00:30:16,639 that dave says was that ayahuasca is 648 00:30:15,440 --> 00:30:18,159 going to meet you where you're at in 649 00:30:16,640 --> 00:30:20,320 terms of what needs to happen and 650 00:30:18,159 --> 00:30:23,200 potentially to go very 651 00:30:20,319 --> 00:30:25,200 deep into your own fears and 652 00:30:23,200 --> 00:30:28,319 challenges and personal growth 653 00:30:25,200 --> 00:30:31,120 i think next time i'm ready to go 654 00:30:28,319 --> 00:30:33,599 even if it's challenging i'm ready to 655 00:30:31,119 --> 00:30:34,479 sort of have a bit more and go deeper 656 00:30:33,599 --> 00:30:37,839 and 657 00:30:34,480 --> 00:30:37,839 just face what i find 658 00:30:39,359 --> 00:30:45,199 what kirstie and rob will face on this 659 00:30:41,919 --> 00:30:47,360 their third ceremony is unknown and 660 00:30:45,200 --> 00:30:50,159 unknowable 661 00:30:47,359 --> 00:30:53,359 the mysterium tremendous is as you can 662 00:30:50,159 --> 00:30:54,399 tell from the term a tremendous mystery 663 00:30:53,359 --> 00:30:56,240 it is 664 00:30:54,398 --> 00:30:59,599 at the core 665 00:30:56,240 --> 00:31:02,558 of all true religious or mystical 666 00:30:59,599 --> 00:31:04,480 experience the feeling of being at one 667 00:31:02,558 --> 00:31:07,519 with the universe 668 00:31:04,480 --> 00:31:11,278 and yet it's the experience that most 669 00:31:07,519 --> 00:31:14,159 religions are frantic to deny 670 00:31:11,278 --> 00:31:16,000 it's not for the ordinary person it's 671 00:31:14,159 --> 00:31:17,760 something you know the interpretation 672 00:31:16,000 --> 00:31:20,640 has to come through the church through 673 00:31:17,759 --> 00:31:22,798 the priesthood through the hierarchy or 674 00:31:20,640 --> 00:31:23,919 whatever and we'll tell you what this 675 00:31:22,798 --> 00:31:25,359 means 676 00:31:23,919 --> 00:31:28,159 and i think that's one of the 677 00:31:25,359 --> 00:31:29,759 interesting things about ayahuasca it 678 00:31:28,159 --> 00:31:30,720 gives you a 679 00:31:29,759 --> 00:31:34,119 tool 680 00:31:30,720 --> 00:31:36,640 to actually approach this phenomenon 681 00:31:34,119 --> 00:31:39,199 experimentally and some people wait all 682 00:31:36,640 --> 00:31:41,519 their lives and spend years in 683 00:31:39,200 --> 00:31:44,319 meditation and all sorts of aesthetic 684 00:31:41,519 --> 00:31:46,480 experiences and never have a mystical 685 00:31:44,319 --> 00:31:49,278 experience 686 00:31:46,480 --> 00:31:50,319 you can be just a kind of an ordinary 687 00:31:49,278 --> 00:31:52,558 schmuck 688 00:31:50,319 --> 00:31:56,480 and under the right 689 00:31:52,558 --> 00:32:00,519 circumstances psychedelics can trigger 690 00:31:56,480 --> 00:32:00,519 this kind of experience 691 00:32:03,038 --> 00:32:07,359 just experiencing everything possible 692 00:32:05,839 --> 00:32:09,599 that's in life 693 00:32:07,359 --> 00:32:11,038 at any given moment and you're just 694 00:32:09,599 --> 00:32:15,278 taking it all in 695 00:32:11,038 --> 00:32:15,278 without trying to state how you feel 696 00:32:23,599 --> 00:32:28,398 last night was just the culmination of 697 00:32:25,440 --> 00:32:29,519 finally being at home down here good 698 00:32:28,398 --> 00:32:30,879 medicine 699 00:32:29,519 --> 00:32:32,640 and just listening to guillermo and 700 00:32:30,880 --> 00:32:34,159 everyone chant 701 00:32:32,640 --> 00:32:36,000 it was everything 702 00:32:34,159 --> 00:32:38,720 that it could possibly be i think it was 703 00:32:36,000 --> 00:32:38,720 just perfect 704 00:32:39,278 --> 00:32:42,960 it's my strongest visions at the very 705 00:32:40,960 --> 00:32:45,519 beginning were 706 00:32:42,960 --> 00:32:46,640 like a multi-level 707 00:32:45,519 --> 00:32:49,440 dimension 708 00:32:46,640 --> 00:32:51,440 and it's like a door being open to this 709 00:32:49,440 --> 00:32:53,759 but it's constantly being opened it's 710 00:32:51,440 --> 00:32:56,159 constantly being open and it never goes 711 00:32:53,759 --> 00:32:59,440 away because it's new again and so it's 712 00:32:56,159 --> 00:32:59,440 nature just showing you 713 00:32:59,919 --> 00:33:03,600 at times i feel like 714 00:33:01,679 --> 00:33:05,759 she could actually control my head and 715 00:33:03,599 --> 00:33:08,558 tilt it different ways and look around 716 00:33:05,759 --> 00:33:08,558 and so i would look 717 00:33:09,519 --> 00:33:13,599 that guillermo it's just 718 00:33:12,319 --> 00:33:16,319 oh 719 00:33:13,599 --> 00:33:16,319 i don't know how 720 00:33:17,038 --> 00:33:20,960 but it was so nice and it was maternal 721 00:33:18,798 --> 00:33:23,119 even when looking at guillermo suddenly 722 00:33:20,960 --> 00:33:25,440 i wasn't a younger person in guillermo i 723 00:33:23,119 --> 00:33:27,359 was older looking at him 724 00:33:25,440 --> 00:33:29,360 like he was a child and you're so proud 725 00:33:27,359 --> 00:33:31,038 of this child look at what he's doing 726 00:33:29,359 --> 00:33:33,359 she was saying that as she looked at 727 00:33:31,038 --> 00:33:35,519 guillermo look at all he can do 728 00:33:33,359 --> 00:33:38,639 and it was just a sense of awe and 729 00:33:35,519 --> 00:33:40,319 renewed innocence all the time but that 730 00:33:38,640 --> 00:33:42,080 was partly from her and 731 00:33:40,319 --> 00:33:42,960 it's the most spiritual thing i've ever 732 00:33:42,079 --> 00:33:45,759 felt 733 00:33:42,960 --> 00:33:45,759 in my whole life 734 00:33:49,200 --> 00:33:55,840 well i could tell kirsty wasn't quite 735 00:33:51,839 --> 00:33:55,839 having as great a time as i was 736 00:34:00,798 --> 00:34:06,440 the ceremony 737 00:34:02,640 --> 00:34:06,440 last night was um 738 00:34:06,558 --> 00:34:09,840 exceptionally hard 739 00:34:11,440 --> 00:34:17,760 i just couldn't get a nice peaceful 740 00:34:14,398 --> 00:34:19,519 vision or experience 741 00:34:17,760 --> 00:34:22,399 there were just moments where i just 742 00:34:19,519 --> 00:34:22,398 couldn't even 743 00:34:23,440 --> 00:34:28,639 bear it like it was just unbelievably 744 00:34:26,639 --> 00:34:30,960 hard 745 00:34:28,639 --> 00:34:33,519 i felt a lot of dark 746 00:34:30,960 --> 00:34:35,918 things and 747 00:34:33,519 --> 00:34:37,280 it was it's this sounds very dramatic 748 00:34:35,918 --> 00:34:38,878 but 749 00:34:37,280 --> 00:34:40,399 it was pretty demonic like there were 750 00:34:38,878 --> 00:34:41,838 some pretty like 751 00:34:40,398 --> 00:34:44,078 terrifying 752 00:34:41,838 --> 00:34:45,759 moments where like i thought i was gonna 753 00:34:44,079 --> 00:34:47,280 die 754 00:34:45,760 --> 00:34:49,200 i thought i was gonna shut like shut 755 00:34:47,280 --> 00:34:51,280 down as a self-protection mechanism 756 00:34:49,199 --> 00:34:54,078 because it was i was way way beyond 757 00:34:51,280 --> 00:34:54,079 dealing with it 758 00:34:54,320 --> 00:34:57,680 and then 759 00:34:55,358 --> 00:34:59,900 it literally was like a miracle because 760 00:34:57,679 --> 00:35:02,480 dave appeared 761 00:34:59,900 --> 00:35:04,160 762 00:35:02,480 --> 00:35:06,000 what happens in a strong experience with 763 00:35:04,159 --> 00:35:08,480 ayahuasca like that is that you lose 764 00:35:06,000 --> 00:35:11,119 control an ego is about having control 765 00:35:08,480 --> 00:35:12,960 you can't control ayahuasca you know you 766 00:35:11,119 --> 00:35:15,119 can work with it but if you try to 767 00:35:12,960 --> 00:35:17,039 control it and get into a powerful start 768 00:35:15,119 --> 00:35:19,838 with ayahuasca that's where she's going 769 00:35:17,039 --> 00:35:23,769 to come on stronger to try to 770 00:35:19,838 --> 00:35:26,920 have that egoic death or spiritual death 771 00:35:23,769 --> 00:35:26,920 772 00:35:29,440 --> 00:35:32,960 there were 773 00:35:30,480 --> 00:35:35,519 emotional sort of components to it to do 774 00:35:32,960 --> 00:35:37,760 with my family 775 00:35:35,519 --> 00:35:40,079 people would come to me different people 776 00:35:37,760 --> 00:35:41,920 in my life whom i love which come to me 777 00:35:40,079 --> 00:35:43,920 and try to communicate to me and then 778 00:35:41,920 --> 00:35:45,838 would be sucked away and i would try to 779 00:35:43,920 --> 00:35:48,800 communicate with them and and then it 780 00:35:45,838 --> 00:35:48,799 would be sucked away 781 00:35:48,880 --> 00:35:55,559 it was truly truly 782 00:35:51,199 --> 00:35:55,559 indescribable the horror 783 00:36:00,869 --> 00:36:08,388 784 00:36:10,880 --> 00:36:13,838 i 785 00:36:16,239 --> 00:36:21,838 i was so terrified of losing him because 786 00:36:19,599 --> 00:36:23,920 it was like a lifeline 787 00:36:21,838 --> 00:36:26,480 and i was like 788 00:36:23,920 --> 00:36:28,720 i will i will drag myself 789 00:36:26,480 --> 00:36:29,838 i don't care what it takes 790 00:36:28,719 --> 00:36:32,959 and he 791 00:36:29,838 --> 00:36:35,279 helped me get over there and then 792 00:36:32,960 --> 00:36:39,079 he just he did 793 00:36:35,280 --> 00:36:40,720 chanting he was doing reiki 794 00:36:39,079 --> 00:36:43,119 795 00:36:40,719 --> 00:36:45,358 she's lost in this like 796 00:36:43,119 --> 00:36:46,960 great big vast sea so i'm there to throw 797 00:36:45,358 --> 00:36:49,358 her a line in a way 798 00:36:46,960 --> 00:36:51,119 because she was getting drowned in her 799 00:36:49,358 --> 00:36:53,119 you know her experience 800 00:36:51,119 --> 00:36:55,599 i'm there to find her path 801 00:36:53,119 --> 00:36:58,480 and find the way that she got there and 802 00:36:55,599 --> 00:37:00,640 so i do the chanting find her and then 803 00:36:58,480 --> 00:37:02,400 bring her back in her body and back and 804 00:37:00,639 --> 00:37:03,759 with her connection and then the healing 805 00:37:02,400 --> 00:37:06,760 will start to happen under its own 806 00:37:03,760 --> 00:37:06,760 process 807 00:37:08,079 --> 00:37:13,039 if that isn't the most humbling thing i 808 00:37:10,079 --> 00:37:13,039 have ever done 809 00:37:15,199 --> 00:37:19,279 i hope my ego just stays away and leaves 810 00:37:17,280 --> 00:37:22,960 me alone i just 811 00:37:19,280 --> 00:37:26,000 piss off i won't do that 812 00:37:22,960 --> 00:37:26,000 i don't want to deal with it 813 00:37:29,039 --> 00:37:33,279 and dave said okay you're going to go to 814 00:37:31,039 --> 00:37:36,320 cairo go to guillermo and i was like can 815 00:37:33,280 --> 00:37:39,680 i crawl 816 00:37:36,320 --> 00:37:39,680 so i dragged myself 817 00:37:45,519 --> 00:37:47,679 he 818 00:37:46,400 --> 00:37:51,760 addressed 819 00:37:47,679 --> 00:37:55,358 my issues at multiple different levels 820 00:37:51,760 --> 00:37:55,359 through the ecosystem chanting 821 00:37:57,570 --> 00:38:00,838 822 00:38:02,800 --> 00:38:07,119 oh i just i was so grateful because they 823 00:38:04,719 --> 00:38:09,358 didn't let me go until i was able to go 824 00:38:07,119 --> 00:38:11,599 like they passed me down the chain 825 00:38:09,358 --> 00:38:15,598 and i just cried and cried because i 826 00:38:11,599 --> 00:38:17,519 felt its insane level of gratitude 827 00:38:15,599 --> 00:38:20,960 like 828 00:38:17,519 --> 00:38:20,960 i don't even have words for it 829 00:38:22,079 --> 00:38:26,560 i felt this 830 00:38:24,639 --> 00:38:30,559 a kind of love that i that i don't think 831 00:38:26,559 --> 00:38:30,559 i've ever felt in my life 832 00:38:30,639 --> 00:38:36,239 it was not from here 833 00:38:33,300 --> 00:38:37,920 834 00:38:36,239 --> 00:38:39,679 i would turn slightly 835 00:38:37,920 --> 00:38:42,000 and just kind of let her know i was 836 00:38:39,679 --> 00:38:42,000 there 837 00:38:44,079 --> 00:38:48,079 but that's all you can do i mean you 838 00:38:46,000 --> 00:38:49,599 can't verbalize that sort of thing i let 839 00:38:48,079 --> 00:38:50,590 her know that i was aware of what she 840 00:38:49,599 --> 00:38:53,039 was going through 841 00:38:50,590 --> 00:38:55,519 842 00:38:53,039 --> 00:38:57,838 because we were we really sort of bonded 843 00:38:55,519 --> 00:38:58,639 he was quite close to me sometimes so 844 00:38:57,838 --> 00:39:00,799 his 845 00:38:58,639 --> 00:39:02,078 bald head was like 846 00:39:00,800 --> 00:39:03,119 so if i didn't know him i would have 847 00:39:02,079 --> 00:39:05,440 been like 848 00:39:03,119 --> 00:39:07,440 dude 849 00:39:05,440 --> 00:39:09,760 go have your party like three feet to 850 00:39:07,440 --> 00:39:12,000 the side like what are you doing but i 851 00:39:09,760 --> 00:39:13,440 was like i could i was comforted by 852 00:39:12,000 --> 00:39:16,800 rob's presence 853 00:39:13,440 --> 00:39:20,079 he just was awesome he just was like 854 00:39:16,800 --> 00:39:20,079 he was there the whole time 855 00:39:20,480 --> 00:39:25,519 we went outside and it was dawn so it 856 00:39:22,719 --> 00:39:27,079 was that magic time when everything's 857 00:39:25,519 --> 00:39:28,960 blue 858 00:39:27,079 --> 00:39:31,440 859 00:39:28,960 --> 00:39:33,119 and we kind of trotted around because we 860 00:39:31,440 --> 00:39:35,519 were we were just sort of used to being 861 00:39:33,119 --> 00:39:39,680 together 862 00:39:35,519 --> 00:39:43,199 i really am so still so foamal 863 00:39:39,679 --> 00:39:44,559 slow motion it takes so much out of you 864 00:39:43,199 --> 00:39:46,239 it's crazy 865 00:39:44,559 --> 00:39:49,279 oh my god 866 00:39:46,239 --> 00:39:52,479 i was so glad rob that you were there 867 00:39:49,280 --> 00:39:54,000 that literally broke me open 868 00:39:52,480 --> 00:39:57,119 like that literally 869 00:39:54,000 --> 00:39:59,440 annihilated me i don't yet know what it 870 00:39:57,119 --> 00:39:59,440 means 871 00:39:59,480 --> 00:40:05,440 872 00:40:03,838 --> 00:40:07,119 when you when you think you're gonna die 873 00:40:05,440 --> 00:40:09,280 the part of that is part of the healing 874 00:40:07,119 --> 00:40:10,480 is that when you when you do 875 00:40:09,280 --> 00:40:11,839 come out of the experience you're just 876 00:40:10,480 --> 00:40:13,199 happy to be alive 877 00:40:11,838 --> 00:40:15,358 and that's the way we need to live every 878 00:40:13,199 --> 00:40:16,960 day of our life 879 00:40:15,358 --> 00:40:21,019 part of the enjoyment of living life is 880 00:40:16,960 --> 00:40:24,119 just be grateful for your life 881 00:40:21,019 --> 00:40:24,119 882 00:40:24,159 --> 00:40:28,078 is there a key insight that you 883 00:40:27,280 --> 00:40:32,160 get 884 00:40:28,079 --> 00:40:32,160 after you've taken lots of ayahuasca 885 00:40:32,480 --> 00:40:37,199 well it sounds trivial but the inside is 886 00:40:36,400 --> 00:40:40,400 you 887 00:40:37,199 --> 00:40:40,399 don't know 888 00:40:40,719 --> 00:40:43,919 we know very little 889 00:40:42,719 --> 00:40:46,239 about 890 00:40:43,920 --> 00:40:48,960 the way the world is put together about 891 00:40:46,239 --> 00:40:50,799 how the universe really is about our 892 00:40:48,960 --> 00:40:53,358 role in it 893 00:40:50,800 --> 00:40:55,119 and what's really going on you know you 894 00:40:53,358 --> 00:40:57,679 monkeys only think you're running the 895 00:40:55,119 --> 00:40:59,519 show you know you don't and not only are 896 00:40:57,679 --> 00:41:01,679 you not running the show you don't even 897 00:40:59,519 --> 00:41:03,039 know what the show is 898 00:41:01,679 --> 00:41:04,399 so 899 00:41:03,039 --> 00:41:07,838 be humble 900 00:41:04,400 --> 00:41:07,838 remember that you don't know much 901 00:41:11,920 --> 00:41:18,240 integrating the insights learned from 902 00:41:13,920 --> 00:41:18,240 ayahuasca can be a difficult task 903 00:41:19,280 --> 00:41:23,440 colin is still working to heal the 904 00:41:21,039 --> 00:41:25,199 relationship with his wife nina 905 00:41:23,440 --> 00:41:27,440 hi 906 00:41:25,199 --> 00:41:27,439 hi 907 00:41:28,000 --> 00:41:33,358 my wife is my soul mate and i really do 908 00:41:30,719 --> 00:41:35,598 want to see that relationship reaches 909 00:41:33,358 --> 00:41:37,519 full potential and it can be a rocky 910 00:41:35,599 --> 00:41:40,000 road you know it's got its ups and downs 911 00:41:37,519 --> 00:41:41,759 it's not all bliss it's a process and 912 00:41:40,000 --> 00:41:44,000 you've been part of that process a big 913 00:41:41,760 --> 00:41:49,160 part of that process but i finally 914 00:41:44,000 --> 00:41:49,159 accepted things on a level that 915 00:41:56,960 --> 00:42:01,760 what he gets from ceremony is he really 916 00:41:58,880 --> 00:42:03,680 gets in touch with himself of 917 00:42:01,760 --> 00:42:06,640 a place of acceptance of himself 918 00:42:03,679 --> 00:42:08,639 acceptance of me just letting go and not 919 00:42:06,639 --> 00:42:11,199 needing to control 920 00:42:08,639 --> 00:42:14,639 and then it will last a month and then 921 00:42:11,199 --> 00:42:16,639 it explodes into of not being happy and 922 00:42:14,639 --> 00:42:18,639 unhappy in this relationship and 923 00:42:16,639 --> 00:42:20,639 complete opposite i'm trying to just be 924 00:42:18,639 --> 00:42:23,279 accepting of it but 925 00:42:20,639 --> 00:42:23,279 it's hard to 926 00:42:23,358 --> 00:42:27,279 completely 927 00:42:25,358 --> 00:42:28,719 accept it i'll call in because i've put 928 00:42:27,280 --> 00:42:30,720 a lot of 929 00:42:28,719 --> 00:42:33,439 the same kind of stuff before 930 00:42:30,719 --> 00:42:35,598 just gonna take some time till i 931 00:42:33,440 --> 00:42:39,119 i see some 932 00:42:35,599 --> 00:42:41,440 i actually see it as opposed to words 933 00:42:39,119 --> 00:42:44,000 i think colin sometimes feels that he 934 00:42:41,440 --> 00:42:46,318 just needs to live ayahuasca ayahuasca 935 00:42:44,000 --> 00:42:49,358 ceremony ceremony but you can't just 936 00:42:46,318 --> 00:42:51,039 live in that world your world is 937 00:42:49,358 --> 00:42:52,078 family or 938 00:42:51,039 --> 00:42:54,880 job 939 00:42:52,079 --> 00:42:54,880 whatever it may be 940 00:42:55,599 --> 00:42:59,119 well the most important part of 941 00:42:56,800 --> 00:43:00,160 ayahuasca is the actual integration into 942 00:42:59,119 --> 00:43:01,680 your life 943 00:43:00,159 --> 00:43:06,000 if you're not integrating that there's 944 00:43:01,679 --> 00:43:06,000 no point in it this is a spiritual path 945 00:43:06,079 --> 00:43:08,870 unless we're doing it we're wasting our 946 00:43:07,519 --> 00:43:12,030 time 947 00:43:08,869 --> 00:43:12,029 948 00:43:14,880 --> 00:43:19,519 it was staggering the extent to which i 949 00:43:17,599 --> 00:43:20,940 needed to process 950 00:43:19,519 --> 00:43:22,639 what happened in peru 951 00:43:20,940 --> 00:43:25,358 952 00:43:22,639 --> 00:43:28,159 it wasn't until halfway through it 953 00:43:25,358 --> 00:43:30,078 that i realized 954 00:43:28,159 --> 00:43:32,559 with incredible certainty like a 955 00:43:30,079 --> 00:43:34,640 lightning bolt that 956 00:43:32,559 --> 00:43:37,119 i had almost missed the point entirely 957 00:43:34,639 --> 00:43:39,759 which was that i wasn't there for work 958 00:43:37,119 --> 00:43:41,200 i mean the true purpose in terms of why 959 00:43:39,760 --> 00:43:42,800 i was there had nothing to do with any 960 00:43:41,199 --> 00:43:45,838 of those things 961 00:43:42,800 --> 00:43:48,800 it was only for me 962 00:43:45,838 --> 00:43:50,639 it was really hard for me to articulate 963 00:43:48,800 --> 00:43:52,880 what had happened and 964 00:43:50,639 --> 00:43:55,358 how i felt about it 965 00:43:52,880 --> 00:43:57,599 i became defensive of it because i think 966 00:43:55,358 --> 00:43:59,119 the go-to thought for people is oh 967 00:43:57,599 --> 00:44:01,599 you're going getting high 968 00:43:59,119 --> 00:44:03,200 psychotropic plants in the jungle and it 969 00:44:01,599 --> 00:44:05,680 almost is a bit offensive if you have 970 00:44:03,199 --> 00:44:07,279 any experience with ayahuasca to 971 00:44:05,679 --> 00:44:09,598 think of it that way or refer to it in 972 00:44:07,280 --> 00:44:11,690 that way so i would find it frustrating 973 00:44:09,599 --> 00:44:15,200 to sort of try to explain it to people 974 00:44:11,690 --> 00:44:16,079 975 00:44:15,199 --> 00:44:18,159 so 976 00:44:16,079 --> 00:44:20,640 what do you think the ayahuasca did for 977 00:44:18,159 --> 00:44:22,480 you how did it change your perception of 978 00:44:20,639 --> 00:44:24,239 the world it just makes you realize that 979 00:44:22,480 --> 00:44:27,039 you're part of a much larger hole all 980 00:44:24,239 --> 00:44:28,719 the time whether it's nature or 981 00:44:27,039 --> 00:44:30,239 the other people in your life you know 982 00:44:28,719 --> 00:44:33,519 i'm kind of conflicted because it sounds 983 00:44:30,239 --> 00:44:36,559 like it's a shortcut to meditation or to 984 00:44:33,519 --> 00:44:38,559 spiritual awakening i'm not sure if if 985 00:44:36,559 --> 00:44:41,199 that shortcut then has the long-term 986 00:44:38,559 --> 00:44:43,679 effects that say discipline and 987 00:44:41,199 --> 00:44:45,859 meditation would have you know i'd have 988 00:44:43,679 --> 00:44:48,879 to think about that some more 989 00:44:45,860 --> 00:44:50,720 990 00:44:48,880 --> 00:44:52,880 i live alone 991 00:44:50,719 --> 00:44:54,318 everything i do is solitary for the most 992 00:44:52,880 --> 00:44:56,880 part 993 00:44:54,318 --> 00:44:58,960 when i came back it was on the tip of my 994 00:44:56,880 --> 00:45:01,280 tongue that i should be in closer 995 00:44:58,960 --> 00:45:02,400 contact with my family hey how's it 996 00:45:01,280 --> 00:45:04,400 going 997 00:45:02,400 --> 00:45:07,200 excellent i mean you can't pretend to 998 00:45:04,400 --> 00:45:09,200 understand the bosom of ayahuasca 999 00:45:07,199 --> 00:45:11,679 cradling you unless you realize that you 1000 00:45:09,199 --> 00:45:13,439 also have friends and family that mean a 1001 00:45:11,679 --> 00:45:15,759 great deal to you and you have to take 1002 00:45:13,440 --> 00:45:17,519 the love that she shows you there and 1003 00:45:15,760 --> 00:45:19,040 spread that around to your family and 1004 00:45:17,519 --> 00:45:20,480 friends 1005 00:45:19,039 --> 00:45:22,159 have a safe trip in tomorrow and i'll 1006 00:45:20,480 --> 00:45:25,039 see you in the morning cheers we'll see 1007 00:45:22,159 --> 00:45:25,039 you there take care 1008 00:45:25,599 --> 00:45:29,200 even my brother i mean we're cut from 1009 00:45:27,199 --> 00:45:31,519 the same cloth we've always been kind of 1010 00:45:29,199 --> 00:45:33,118 guarded distant people and just to see 1011 00:45:31,519 --> 00:45:36,000 him almost gushed this morning it was 1012 00:45:33,119 --> 00:45:36,000 just really nice 1013 00:45:37,199 --> 00:45:41,279 1014 00:45:39,440 --> 00:45:43,679 over the weeks and months following i 1015 00:45:41,280 --> 00:45:45,200 realized that i had never in my life 1016 00:45:43,679 --> 00:45:47,440 felt 1017 00:45:45,199 --> 00:45:49,598 vulnerable the way that i did in that in 1018 00:45:47,440 --> 00:45:49,980 that moment because i had never allowed 1019 00:45:49,599 --> 00:45:52,559 it 1020 00:45:49,980 --> 00:45:55,280 1021 00:45:52,559 --> 00:45:57,199 and ultimately what i've realized is 1022 00:45:55,280 --> 00:45:58,720 that to really receive love you have to 1023 00:45:57,199 --> 00:46:01,089 be able 1024 00:45:58,719 --> 00:46:02,559 to be vulnerable 1025 00:46:01,090 --> 00:46:05,280 1026 00:46:02,559 --> 00:46:05,920 ayahuasca gave me a different 1027 00:46:05,280 --> 00:46:07,119 way of 1028 00:46:05,920 --> 00:46:10,000 1029 00:46:07,119 --> 00:46:12,160 feeling in my body a different way of 1030 00:46:10,000 --> 00:46:13,519 being a different way of viewing myself 1031 00:46:12,159 --> 00:46:14,799 in the world 1032 00:46:13,519 --> 00:46:16,719 that it 1033 00:46:14,800 --> 00:46:18,400 is staggering in that it allows you to 1034 00:46:16,719 --> 00:46:20,719 sort of 1035 00:46:18,400 --> 00:46:23,920 have a second chance 1036 00:46:20,719 --> 00:46:23,919 at being yourself 1037 00:46:24,719 --> 00:46:28,639 there's been a trend i think in western 1038 00:46:26,559 --> 00:46:30,639 medicine to recognize that alternative 1039 00:46:28,639 --> 00:46:34,719 healing practices can be a useful 1040 00:46:30,639 --> 00:46:36,639 adjunct to modern western approaches 1041 00:46:34,719 --> 00:46:39,118 so i think ayahuasca can be a valuable 1042 00:46:36,639 --> 00:46:41,838 component of treating such things as 1043 00:46:39,119 --> 00:46:43,920 psychiatric conditions depression 1044 00:46:41,838 --> 00:46:46,000 anxiety addictions 1045 00:46:43,920 --> 00:46:47,680 things that modern western medicine i 1046 00:46:46,000 --> 00:46:49,760 think hasn't really done a good job of 1047 00:46:47,679 --> 00:46:51,679 addressing 1048 00:46:49,760 --> 00:46:54,400 i don't have a whole lot of optimism 1049 00:46:51,679 --> 00:46:56,639 that within my lifetime some like 1050 00:46:54,400 --> 00:46:58,960 ayahuasca will be seriously unemployed 1051 00:46:56,639 --> 00:47:00,960 if it runs counter to people's 1052 00:46:58,960 --> 00:47:02,720 innate prejudices 1053 00:47:00,960 --> 00:47:04,720 it's not incorporated 1054 00:47:02,719 --> 00:47:05,838 heretical it is to say it in a medical 1055 00:47:04,719 --> 00:47:08,719 context 1056 00:47:05,838 --> 00:47:10,719 and i don't need decades of research to 1057 00:47:08,719 --> 00:47:13,679 tell me that something is good 1058 00:47:10,719 --> 00:47:13,679 but i know that it is 1059 00:47:14,829 --> 00:47:21,358 1060 00:47:19,119 --> 00:47:22,720 how's it going bro 1061 00:47:21,358 --> 00:47:24,799 i've seen you 1062 00:47:22,719 --> 00:47:26,000 how you 1063 00:47:24,800 --> 00:47:27,920 thank you 1064 00:47:26,000 --> 00:47:30,159 good to see you 1065 00:47:27,920 --> 00:47:32,400 this medicine is giving me my life my 1066 00:47:30,159 --> 00:47:33,759 life path 1067 00:47:32,400 --> 00:47:36,400 i'll be doing this until i'm old and 1068 00:47:33,760 --> 00:47:38,000 gray that's that's never been a doubt in 1069 00:47:36,400 --> 00:47:40,720 my mind it's always been whether or not 1070 00:47:38,000 --> 00:47:43,920 i could actually accomplish it 1071 00:47:40,719 --> 00:47:46,558 just thank creator for nourishment and 1072 00:47:43,920 --> 00:47:48,880 nourish our body our spirit their mind 1073 00:47:46,559 --> 00:47:50,480 help us be strong and work in a good way 1074 00:47:48,880 --> 00:47:51,920 with the medicine tonight 1075 00:47:50,480 --> 00:47:52,800 it's given me a whole community of 1076 00:47:51,920 --> 00:47:55,039 people 1077 00:47:52,800 --> 00:47:56,559 it's given me dear friends it's given me 1078 00:47:55,039 --> 00:47:57,920 a purpose 1079 00:47:56,559 --> 00:47:59,760 it's given me 1080 00:47:57,920 --> 00:48:01,680 confidence you know just to be able to 1081 00:47:59,760 --> 00:48:03,440 acknowledge that like i 1082 00:48:01,679 --> 00:48:06,919 i can do something you know for people 1083 00:48:03,440 --> 00:48:06,920 and helping people 1084 00:48:07,599 --> 00:48:12,240 at dave's northern wilderness retreat 1085 00:48:10,079 --> 00:48:13,620 rob and kirsty meet for the first time 1086 00:48:12,239 --> 00:48:15,759 since their trip to peru 1087 00:48:13,619 --> 00:48:18,078 1088 00:48:15,760 --> 00:48:22,240 i didn't know rob before this but i now 1089 00:48:18,079 --> 00:48:22,240 know rob and rather an intimate way 1090 00:48:31,679 --> 00:48:36,719 it was just like some kind of crazy 1091 00:48:34,400 --> 00:48:38,720 natural wedding where we just 1092 00:48:36,719 --> 00:48:40,558 a union of our souls and she was a 1093 00:48:38,719 --> 00:48:42,639 little on the downside i was a little on 1094 00:48:40,559 --> 00:48:46,160 the up but by the end of the evening 1095 00:48:42,639 --> 00:48:46,159 we're exactly the same place 1096 00:48:46,639 --> 00:48:49,519 so we're all going to be drinking 1097 00:48:47,679 --> 00:48:50,879 ayahuasca tonight 1098 00:48:49,519 --> 00:48:52,480 trust yourself 1099 00:48:50,880 --> 00:48:53,680 you've heard the call you felt the call 1100 00:48:52,480 --> 00:48:55,440 to be here 1101 00:48:53,679 --> 00:48:57,118 some people talk about 1102 00:48:55,440 --> 00:49:01,159 you know the chemical it's not a 1103 00:48:57,119 --> 00:49:01,160 chemical i was a spirit 1104 00:49:03,358 --> 00:49:07,039 so approach ayahuasca with you know 1105 00:49:05,440 --> 00:49:08,639 obviously respect 1106 00:49:07,039 --> 00:49:11,679 with reverence 1107 00:49:08,639 --> 00:49:11,679 and also with gratitude 1108 00:49:12,239 --> 00:49:16,799 i'm always checking in with my intention 1109 00:49:14,960 --> 00:49:18,240 what is my intention for carrying this 1110 00:49:16,800 --> 00:49:20,160 work 1111 00:49:18,239 --> 00:49:22,078 has to be to share and to have that 1112 00:49:20,159 --> 00:49:23,679 experience that you can get in the 1113 00:49:22,079 --> 00:49:26,230 amazon with traditional healers but have 1114 00:49:23,679 --> 00:49:30,399 it here 1115 00:49:26,230 --> 00:49:32,000 1116 00:49:30,400 --> 00:49:33,519 when we drink ayahuasca outside of the 1117 00:49:32,000 --> 00:49:35,119 amazon we're not surrounded by the 1118 00:49:33,519 --> 00:49:36,880 plants so it's also a different 1119 00:49:35,119 --> 00:49:40,000 experience but you can still take the 1120 00:49:36,880 --> 00:49:40,000 spirit of the plant with you 1121 00:49:40,159 --> 00:49:43,440 i have the spirit of the plants inside 1122 00:49:42,079 --> 00:49:46,559 me and the spirit of the jungle and i 1123 00:49:43,440 --> 00:49:46,559 tried to share that with the people 1124 00:49:47,280 --> 00:49:51,359 dave and others like him are spreading 1125 00:49:49,440 --> 00:49:54,960 the gospel of ayahuasca through 1126 00:49:51,358 --> 00:49:56,960 ceremonies around the world 1127 00:49:54,960 --> 00:49:58,880 my intention is is to help people in 1128 00:49:56,960 --> 00:50:00,159 their healing the healing of our 1129 00:49:58,880 --> 00:50:02,240 communities here 1130 00:50:00,159 --> 00:50:04,159 the healing of the planet 1131 00:50:02,239 --> 00:50:07,589 this is why i think 1132 00:50:04,159 --> 00:50:09,358 ayahuasca has left the amazon 1133 00:50:07,590 --> 00:50:12,000 1134 00:50:09,358 --> 00:50:15,039 we're impacting the planet in certain 1135 00:50:12,000 --> 00:50:15,920 areas like the amazon is a good example 1136 00:50:15,039 --> 00:50:18,480 we're 1137 00:50:15,920 --> 00:50:22,000 basically raping the amazon but maybe 1138 00:50:18,480 --> 00:50:23,838 this is sending you know waves of alarm 1139 00:50:22,000 --> 00:50:25,920 in some sense through the rest of the 1140 00:50:23,838 --> 00:50:27,838 biosphere and then no sense am i 1141 00:50:25,920 --> 00:50:31,358 invoking consciousness here but it's a 1142 00:50:27,838 --> 00:50:34,480 defensive strategy for self-preservation 1143 00:50:31,358 --> 00:50:37,119 on the heart of not only ayahuasca but 1144 00:50:34,480 --> 00:50:40,240 in you know in some ways almost 1145 00:50:37,119 --> 00:50:42,160 on behalf of everything that's living on 1146 00:50:40,239 --> 00:50:44,078 the planet 1147 00:50:42,159 --> 00:50:47,598 maybe this is the last 1148 00:50:44,079 --> 00:50:50,079 desperate ploy of gaia to 1149 00:50:47,599 --> 00:50:52,240 sort of hit us upside the head 1150 00:50:50,079 --> 00:50:56,240 and say you know wake up you monkeys 1151 00:50:52,239 --> 00:50:56,239 you're really screwing things up 1152 00:50:57,760 --> 00:51:02,000 i mean if ayahuasca was to be described 1153 00:51:00,000 --> 00:51:03,440 as a religion or a faith it's 1154 00:51:02,000 --> 00:51:06,159 it's all about 1155 00:51:03,440 --> 00:51:08,880 the earth and all of the beings all of 1156 00:51:06,159 --> 00:51:11,759 the beings in it 1157 00:51:08,880 --> 00:51:13,119 but in an experiential way 1158 00:51:11,760 --> 00:51:14,400 it's one thing to intellectualize 1159 00:51:13,119 --> 00:51:15,760 something and it's another thing 1160 00:51:14,400 --> 00:51:19,519 entirely 1161 00:51:15,760 --> 00:51:19,520 to touch it and to experience 1162 00:51:20,719 --> 00:51:22,799 other 1163 00:51:21,760 --> 00:51:23,920 bigger 1164 00:51:22,800 --> 00:51:27,119 energies 1165 00:51:23,920 --> 00:51:29,838 that are intelligent it's very much like 1166 00:51:27,119 --> 00:51:32,480 being held to uh 1167 00:51:29,838 --> 00:51:34,799 the bosom of the mother of everything 1168 00:51:32,480 --> 00:51:36,780 and it's very much about love 1169 00:51:34,800 --> 00:51:40,019 period 1170 00:51:36,780 --> 00:51:40,019 1171 00:51:43,590 --> 00:51:46,719 1172 00:51:50,920 --> 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