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♪ All night, baby ♪

♪ You know you'’ve got
My heart beating...♪

Research suggests
that we start to recognize
our mother'’s voice

from the womb around 31 weeks.

Child, I don'’t know why
you brought me all this way

just to watch you
clean somebody else'’s house.

I could have been home
watching my stories.

This is your new home, Granny.

It is?

- Did I know that?
- We toured a bunch
of places, Granny,

and this is the one you picked.

Remember?
Denise,

did I do that?

♪ You make my heart beat ♪

Do you-- Do you have to go?

I can stay a little longer.

Granny...

I'’ve never seen this.

This is when
you were pregnant with Simone.

As soon as we'’re born,

our language skills
begin to develop.

Okay. True or false.

CSF production rate
is affected by
intracranial pressure.

- False.
- Stop!

Is it true?

N-No, you practically
rolled past that stop sign.

Why can'’t you just
ask the questions
without back seat driving?

Why can'’t you just study
with the other interns?

- Okay.
- From birth to six months,

we mostly coo, cry and murmur
as the vocal cords mature.

How old is this thing again?

Leona is a 1975 Chevy G10.

- We'’ve been through
a lot together.
- And you paid money for this?

Shh. She can hear you.

No, no, no. Come on.

Come on, Leona.

Just a hundred more yards.

Come on, girl,
you can do it. Come on.

- So, you'’re just gonna
leave me here alone.
- You have Leona.

Then we advance to babbling
until words start
around 18 months.

Eventually,
words lead to sentences.

And soon, we forget the time
when we couldn'’t speak at all.

Did you, uh, tell your mom
about Allison'’s playdate?

Yeah. Chloe at 2:00. Yeah.

And that she needs socks
for the--

- Indoor gym? She knows.
- Thanks.

I don'’t show up
for work one day,

it'’s because Adams
totaled my car with me in it.

I'’m gonna head to the cafeteria.

What was that?

Maybe it'’s waffle day.

He'’s just been
kind of distant lately.

I mean, he'’s fine one minute,
and then hardly says
two words the next.

I mean,
he'’s normal around the kids,

but then once they'’re asleep,
he goes to bed.

Have you noticed anything?

- No.
- He said something
to you, didn'’t he?

No. No.

And I have to check my post-ops,

and now I can'’t stop
thinking about waffles.

So weird.

I spent 30 bucks on supplies

to repair the holes
you made on my walls.

Venmo or progress notes.
You pick.

I pick you
getting out of my face.

Okay, listen up.

The ABSITE exam
is one week from today.

If it'’s not in your calendars,
you no longer work for me.

If you are late to the exam,
if you forget to show up,

you also no longer work for me.

- I like standardized tests.
- Said literally no one ever.

Except the one person
who aced it.

So, what other programs
did you get into again?

And if you haven'’t already,
your completed procedure logs

should be submitted
to Schmitt or Helm.

- Mine'’s done.
- Mine'’s almost done.

Well, in the
immortal words of Brandy,
"almost doesn'’t count."

- Griffith. You'’re late.
- I know. I'’m so sorry.

She has eyes
in the back of her head.

I can see your reflection
through the window.

Get it together.
Morning, Dr. Bailey.

- Hey.
- Wow, it'’s everyone.

Are they in trouble or am I?

They'’re interns.
They'’re always in trouble.

Adams.

Dorian Cardenas.
Post-endoscopic clip
for stress ulcer.

H and H is stable.
Tolerating a clear liquid diet.

His labs are normal,
and he is ambulating
and pain-free,

which is why today
we are downgrading him
from the ICU.

- Wait, really?
- We know you'’ll miss
having no privacy

and all of your suite mates
being in critical condition.

That'’s Yasuda's way of saying
congratulations.

And...

Red Cloak Volume 12?
I love this series.

It just came out,
according to my son.

Oh, okay, I have to cut
this celebration short.

I'’m needed in the OR.
I will see you upstairs.

Mmm. [sighs] Mmm.

As much fun as this party is,
you all have work.

Millin, Griffith, Kwan,
take the pit.

Yasuda, Adams,
take Dorian to his new room.

Yeah.

Chest tube, chest tube,
chest tube, chest tube.

I have one left
on my procedure log.

Well, me too.

Want to bet who finishes first?

Loser by drinks at Joe'’s?

You'’re on.

I got this one.
Link, you got the other.

What do we got?

Gillian Mendelson, 46.

Post-MVC. GCS 15.

Brief LOC, small head lac,
complaints of headache.

I'’d think
it'’s a migraine if I wasn't
just in a car accident.

Let'’s get you inside
and check you out.

Wait. I want to make sure
Cassandra is okay.

Cassandra Lewis, 45. MVC.
GCS 15. Left knee swelling.

We gave her morphine
for the pain.

- Hi.
- Cass, you okay, babe?

Remember when the kids
were at soccer camp

and we tried those gummies?

- She'’s okay.
- We gotta make sure
you are too. Let'’s go.

Jayden, slow down.
Mommy can'’t handle any more
broken bones today.

Miles Ferguson?
- Ooh. Ooh.

Oh, this is a bad one.
- How far along are you?

Thirty-nine weeks.

I'’m having
irregular contractions.
Just Braxton-Hicks.

Nothing serious.

- How'’s your wrist?
- Wow. This feels like a trap.

Smart man. What happened?

I was moving furniture,
getting the house ready
for a showing,

and you know, new shoes,
marble floors, I slipped.

It'’s his brokerage.
He has people
who do this for him.

They put the desk in
the breakfast nook. It made
no sense. It made no sense.

We'’ll get an X-ray.

Ooh. Oh.

Is that another contraction?

Uh, just indigestion.

It-It started last week.

Uh, my OB says it'’s normal

- this late
in pregnancy.
- Yeah.

Oh, th-- this is a contraction.

X-ray'’s pretty backed up.
It might be a while.

Why don'’t I run you up
to OB in the meantime

just to see
how you'’re progressing.

Yeah, if we'’re stuck here
for a while, it makes sense.

- Okay. Yeah, yeah.
- Also the OB nurses have
a secret stash of cookies...

...and I might know where it is.

Oh, well, that'’s too bad.
Jayden doesn'’t like cookies.

I do like cookies.

Okay. Well, let'’s go.

All right.

Uh, don'’t fall off
anything, please.

Come on.

What do you see, Kwan?
- I see nothing.

X-ray looks normal.

So why is my knee
the size of a softball?

There'’s a lot of blood.
So we'’ll have to insert
a needle and drain it.

Kwan, can you book her
in a procedure room?

- Yep.
- Okay. Gillian'’s
C-spine is clear.

You both are very lucky.

Any idea how fast
the other car was going?

It wasn'’t. It was parked.

It was mine.

We were at Hamilton Viewpoint.

- Isn'’t that where the--
- Teenagers go to make out?

Yeah, we know.

I was going to say
where the trailhead starts,

but I appreciate the tip.

Between work and our kids,
we don'’t get
a lot of alone time,

so I thought it would be nice
to meet for lunch.

And by "lunch," I mean,

not lunch,
if you know what I mean.

Anyway, things heated up.

One of us must have kicked
the parking brake,

and the next thing you know,
the car was rolling
down the hill,

smashed into her minivan,
and my brain felt like
it was gonna explode.

Well, your neuro exam is good,
but we'’re gonna do a CT
just to be safe.

- Okay?
- Great.

Oh. [chuckles] That'’s mine.

There it is.

Shut the curtain.
Please, shut the curtain.

Gill?

Are you okay?

Car app said
there was an accident.

You won'’t answer your phone,
so I called the police.

- They said you were here.
- Yeah. I'’m-- I'm okay.
My head just hurts.

Um, doctors, this is Aaron.

- My husband.
- Huh.

Nice to meet you.

Dr. Bokhari to peds ICU.

Dr. David Bokhari to peds ICU.

- Dr. Ndugu?
- Yeah?

I know that it'’s been
kind of hectic for you

with the understaffing
in your department.

If there'’s ever anything
I can do for you,

please don'’t hesitate
to let me know.

Okay. Appreciate that.

Maybe we could grab a drink

and get to know each other
better sometime.

Um.

My schedule is
a little crazy right now,
but I-- I'’ll keep that in mind.

Okay.
All right.

She seems nice.

Yeah.

Um, yeah, she is.

Did you need something?

Well, looks like

we'’re on Mr. Riley's
hiatal hernia together.

Yeah, looks that way.

Looking forward to it.

Me too.

Peekaboo!

Ooh, Jayden took her sweet time.

I was in labor for 72 hours.

Well, this baby is gonna go
a lot faster than that.

You are already four and a half
centimeters dilated.

So, we'’re gonna
have to admit you.

I-- I can'’t be in labor.
We'’re not ready.
My mom'’s not here.

My husband'’s in
the emergency room
with a broken wrist.

Okay, um, Lauren,
your blood pressure
is going up a little bit.

So just take some deep breaths.

That'’s great.

Okay. When was the last time
that you saw your OB?

It was, uh, last week.

They ran some blood work,
but I haven'’t heard anything.

- I was scheduled to
go back tomorrow.
- Okay.

Um, we will call to follow up
on her prenatal records.

And, um, send for
blood and urine tests.
Yeah.

- Will someone tell Miles? Okay.
- I'’ll get him up here.

Okay. Do you want us
to take Jayden to day care?

Jayden, do you want to go
up to day care?

There'’s so many fun toys,
and my daughter is there,

and she'’s almost as old as you.

You wanna go, baby? Yeah? Okay.

Ooh!

Can I have a kiss
right here? Mmm.

- All right. I love you.
- Love you.

All right. Thank you.

That little girl

has no idea how much her life'’s
gonna flip upside down.

It'’s always been
just the three of us.

Kids always handle stuff
better than adults
think they will.

Oh.

Dads, not so much.

Fair.

Cassandra'’s in
the procedure room.
You think the husband knows?

I think he knows
they went to Pilates and brunch.

I kind of want to see
how this turns out,

but Lincoln'’s letting me do
a knee aspiration,
and I have a bet to win.

Mmm. Did I mention
I only have suture
one more laceration for my log?

One chest tube,
two IVs, and then
you'’re buying me drinks.

You sound
very sure about that.

- Loser buys drinks and fries.
- It'’s gotten
completely out of hand.

Aaron, please.
She'’s constantly
calling and texting.

Always asking for a ride.
She depends on you too much.

Do you know how many times
Cass has driven Zoe to soccer?

Too many, if this is
the kind of accident
she gets in.

- We should get a lawyer.
- For what?

Our bumper'’s gone,
and you'’re in the hospital.

I know she'’s your friend,
I know she'’s a single mom,
but this should not be on us.

- She rear-ended you, right?
- Okay. CT'’s ready.
We can get you up now.

Great. I mean, okay. Okay.

- Okay, let'’s go.
- Bye, Aaron.

Bye.

Smells of antiseptic,
doesn'’t have a view, but--

It'’s not the ICU.

And--
Surprise!

No way. James? Fiona?

They reached out
and insisted on being here.

I hope that'’s okay.
More than okay.

We'’re in the same
engineering program.

Well, we were.

Don'’t worry. We brought
all your work from last semester
so you can catch up.

No, we didn'’t, jerk.

We did bring
a bunch of cards

from people back
at school though.

- Everybody misses you, D.
- Not entirely sure why.

All right,
let'’s get you settled here.

Wait.
She-- She'’s in labor?

Okay, I-- I need to sit down.
You'’re sitting down.

- You sure?
- You'’re leaning
against the bed--

No, no, no. I mean-- I mean,
are you sure she'’s in labor?

She is four and a half
centimeters dilated.

Okay, I gotta get up there.
And where'’s Jay--

Hey.
Ow.

Jayden is in
the hospital day care.

You are no good to her or Lauren
with that wrist.

Your X-ray shows
a distal radius fracture.

- Is that bad?
- No.

We'’ll take you to the cast room
so someone from ortho
can set the bone,

they'’ll make you a splint,
and then you can go have a baby.

Okay. Um...
how did Lauren seem?

- Was she scared?
- Not at all.

- She'’s doing great.
- Yeah?

- Yeah.
- Okay.

I'’ll have a nurse
get you something for the pain.

- All right. Thank you.
- Mm-hmm.

- How long does this take?
- It should be quick.

Well, I was hoping
it would be longer.

If my head wasn'’t pounding,
I'’d just as soon stay.

Well, relax while you can
and hold still, okay?

You want to know how I got
in this mess, don'’t you?

- You don'’t have to tell us.
- Kind of.

Aaron and I got married
right after law school.

We had our kids,
we did our jobs.

And then the kids were older,
and work was--

Well, I do tax law,
and all of it just got
so boring. Uninspiring.

But then I met Cass at the PTA,
and she made life not boring.

So here I am
with a giant headache.

Literally and figuratively.
Complicated.

Do you think she has
a subarachnoid hemorrhage?

No, her scan'’s clear.
Situation'’s a mess.

- Well, good luck.
- Yeah.

Any updates?

Husbands with broken bones
are forcefully inquiring.

She is five centimeters dilated
and progressing beautifully.

- How'’s Miles doing?
- Small break.
They'’re splinting him now.

He better not use that
as an excuse

to avoid changing diapers

or do preschool drop-offs.

- You have one daughter, or...
- Yeah, Luna.

But my partner, he has a son.
Same age, same chaos.

- Nothing like noise, right?
- Right.

You'’ve got this.
I'’ll bring Miles up in a bit.

- Okay. Thank you.
- Can I have a--

- Can I have a tissue?
- Sure.

Lauren, are you okay?
Do you have any headaches?
Blurry vision?

Is something wrong?

Have her blood and urine tests
come back yet?

Okay. Just breathe. Breathe.

Damn it, her blood pressure'’s
skyrocketing.

Oh, oh, she'’s having
an eclamptic seizure.

Let'’s get her on her side.
There you go.

Push six-gram bolus of mag
and page Dr. DeLuca.

We have to take her
for a C-section now.

Okay. You'’re okay, Lauren.
Okay. It'’s okay.

Nice work, Kwan. Keep going.

Guess this is the price you pay
for great sex, huh?

Seems expensive.

Expensive.

That'’s what I thought of Gillian
when we first met.

She'’d show up to school meetings
in her pricey athleisure,

and just when the meeting
was about to end,

she'’d always have
one more question.

Everything about her
should annoy me,

but she mesmerizes me.

Her voice,
her persistence, her body.

And the sex.

Just mind-blowingly good.
Bust-your-knee-
not-even-care good.

And I know
she'’s not gonna leave Aaron
until the kids are in college,

but I can'’t stop.

Don'’t want to.

Especially when
she does this thing--

Okay. It looks like
we'’re all done here.

You need an MRI on that knee.

Dr. Kwan will take you.
One more IV and you'’re done.

Can I get my bra back?

♪ I spent the weekend ♪

♪ Out in the deep end ♪

Um, how are you
gonna pay for that?

Just wanted a bite.

Just like how you wanted to
take a bite out of the stew
I made last night

and then it was gone?

Take as many as you want.

And that is how
roommates share food.

Where were you this morning?

My grandma--

- Got an underwire guy.
- Mm-mmm. It'’s my patient's.

Who is having an affair
with my patient
who is married to a man.

- Juicy.
- I'’m Team Gillian.

I think that marriage is
an antiquated institution.

Well, does her husband
know that?

Oh. Radiology. Gotta go.

That'’s all you.
Thank you.

I love grapes.

So, what time is
dinner at Joe'’s?

Oh, so it'’s dinner now?

- Are you afraid of losing?
- No.

I'’m just trying
to remember what nights
they do wine pairings at Joe'’s.

♪ Can you blame me, oh ♪

Oh, I got tied up
approving some purchase orders.

- Sorry I'’m late.
- Late for...

Surgery. Ndugu asked that
I scrub in with you.

- May I ask why?
- Well, he didn'’t say.

Richard, I appreciate
you looking out for me,
but I am good.

I had three procedures yesterday
and one this morning,

and a hiatal hernia
is nothing for me.

- Don'’t worry.
- Right.

Well, glad you'’re here.

Talk to me.
Thirty years old.

Gravida 2, para 1.

No past medical history.
Rapidly progressed
into eclampsia.

What'’s mom's name?
Lauren.

- Ten blade.
- Okay.

Okay, Lauren.
We'’re gonna get this baby out,
and then you'’re gonna be fine.

Just a few more seconds.

I'’m through the uterine wall.

Get ready, everybody.
Baby coming your way.

Have the NICU team on standby.

Baby looks good.

Clamp.

Scissors.

I know.

Okay.

Ah, she'’s bleeding heavily.

Massaging the uterus.
Give her more Pitocin
and push TXA.

Her blood pressure'’s
rising again.

It'’s uterine atony and DIC.
We got a bleeder. Clamp.

O-chromic.
Watch out for the ureter.

Yeah. Okay.
Bleeding'’s under control.

Okay,
let'’s close the hysterotomy.

The sooner we get her upstairs,
the sooner she meets her baby.

O-PDS.

She'’s hemorrhaging.

Okay, it looks like
the upper abdomen.

It could be
a liver subcapsular hematoma.

Was she complaining
of right upper quadrant pain?

She was in labor.
I thought her pain was that.

I-- [scoffs] Okay. Um...
We'’re gonna convert to
an ex lap.

I need lap pads
and page Dr. Bailey.

What do you mean
her scan is clear?

Aaron.
You'’re clearly in pain.

We'’re gonna keep her in
for observation.
This could be a concussion.

- She did hit
her head pretty hard.
- You did?

Well, that'’s how
she got the cut.

Why didn'’t the airbag inflate?

Oh, uh, it did.
I-- I hit the door.

- Can we not talk about this now?
- But the cut'’s on the right side
of your head--

- Listen, the good thing is--
- If you were driving,
the door would be--

- Oh, my head is really pounding.
- Try to keep the ice pack...

She hit you so hard that it
flipped you in your seat?

That woman should definitely not
be driving our kids around.

She'’s irresponsible and--

We'’re having an affair!

Could we please be
anywhere else?

- What'’d you say?
- An affair!

You know, sex? The thing
you and I never have anymore.

That'’s what Cass and I
were doing in the back seat,

like we'’ve been doing
for two years.

Two years!

Any more questions?

I felt a lot better
yelling at him.

Well, sometimes getting it
all out can be a huge relief.

No, no, I-- I feel awful now,
but when I'’m yelling...

my head doesn'’t hurt!

Lauren is at five centimeters.

What?

I texted your regular OB,
but she hasn'’t responded yet.

Okay. Did, uh--
Did Lauren tell you
how on-brand this is for me?

She may have hinted a little.

We first met in college.
Intro to macroeconomics.

Yeah. She was so beautiful,
I just couldn'’t stop staring.

Didn'’t even notice
there was no chair
where I was trying to sit.

Fell flat on my ass in front of
the girl of my dreams.

That'’s sweet.

Yeah, hurt like hell,
but she'’s worth it though.

Uh, they can take you
to Lauren Ferguson'’s room.

I'’ll check in as soon as
I respond to this page.

- Okay, cool.
- All right.

Dr. Ford to Pediatrics.

Dr. Sue Ellen Ford
to Pediatrics.

You left the box
of your soccer crap
in the garage.

Did you change the password
to the online study prep?

- It kicked me out
mid-session last night.
- Because it'’s my login.

- Not the Benny story.
- Just here to check vitals.

Sure.

So, James is telling Benny
about how Bronk Industries

is a corrupt
government organization.

- He'’s read the reports,
blah, blah, blah.
- Who'’s Benny?

Transfer student. Good guy.

Anyway, James is going on and on
until finally Benny goes,

"You don'’t know
my last name, do you?"

Benny'’s last name is Bronk.

His dad owns the company.

You know who won'’t
be recruiting James
after graduation?

Hey, could you guys
give me a minute?

- Yeah, of course.
- Sure.

It sucks when your friends
move on without you.

No, that'’s not--

I think my ostomy bag
is leaking.

Okay, Gillian,
we took the image.
Just give it a second.

Can I yell?

Uh, sure.

I'’m really sorry, but it feels
so much better when I do this.

Gillian, I'’m going to turn off
the intercom.

So just yell at us
if you need anything.

Mmm.

Hey, so you missed the version
where she was yelling
at her husband.

Uh, oh.
Hey, have you talked to Teddy?

Hmm? Um, oh, Scans are up.

Yeah,
I still don'’t see anything.

She was yelling into a pillow
the entire way up here.

We only got a break
when we did the scan.

Gillian, we are going to
scan you again, and this time
just keep screaming.

No problem!

Millin, what happens
to the venous pressure
in the head when we scream?

- Does it-- Does it shift?
- You are correct.

And so am I. There.

Gillian,
you have something called
an Arnold-Chiari malformation.

It can be triggered by whiplash.

Screaming shifts
your cerebellar tonsils

which relieves some of
the intracranial pressure.

That is why it is
making you feel better.

Can you make it
so I don'’t have to scream

- to feel good?
- Please make it stop. I'’m sorry.

It is a straightforward surgery
to relieve the pressure.

We can do it tonight.

Thank you.

Can I see Cassandra?

God, I miss the OR.

I mean,
the sterility of the room,
the clinking of instruments.

I mean, even the smell
of the cautery.

The left and
right pleura are approximated.

It'’s the place
where my brain completely
turns everything else off.

Um, BokHee,
we'’re gonna need another reload.

Yeah,
I'’m sure Owen is happy that
I'’m out of his hair at home.

He has just been so great,
taking on the lion'’s share
of parenting

on top of his 60-hour work week.

Then taking care of me
I'’m sure was the last thing
that he needed.

No, I bet
he didn'’t mind.

Did I tell you about

the amyloidosis case
I read yesterday?

No, but I'’m guessing
you'’re about to.

Another suture, BokHee.
The appendage
of the man'’s right atrium

was literally green
in the picture.

It'’s not the ostomy bag.

- It'’s fluids.
- So it'’s coming from
the incision?

- Did my incision open up?
- Adams, get a fistula bag.

We need to measure
how much fluid is coming out.

It might be
an enterocutaneous fistula.

It'’s when your skin
becomes attached to part of
your digestive tract.

We need to get you
to CT to make sure.

Will you
tell my friends where I went?

- I don'’t want them to worry.
- Of course. I got you.

There you go.

Hey, I was
finishing up a lap chole.

Came as soon as I could.
What do we have?

We did a crash section
and had uncontrollable bleeding.

I think it'’s
a ruptured liver hematoma
from HELLP syndrome.

We think or we know?
The labs
still aren'’t back.

Damn it, she'’s bleeding
from the uterus again.

- Should we take a VIR?
- No, she'’s lost too much blood.

We need to do a hysterectomy.
Heaney clamp.

Okay.
How many units so far?

Four units of blood,
two units of FFP.

She'’s gonna need more.

Ligating the round ligament.

All right, page IR.

Have them on standby
for an emergent embolization

if we can'’t get control in here.

Okay, uterus is coming out.

- Dr. Bailey, did you--
- We'’re gonna need blood now.

- More lap sponges.
- Okay, suction.

Oh, my God, what happened?

Uh, Griffith,

call the blood bank
and activate MTP.

Griffith, now!

Yasuda, what do you see?

An enterocutaneous fistula.
Recommended treatment?

We'’ll need to surgically remove
the connection that was formed

between Dorian'’s
small bowel and skin.

- Damn it.
- For now, no food or drinks
by mouth for him.

He was just starting
to not be absolutely miserable.

If we don'’t restrict his diet,
it will only get worse.

Get a CBC,
and we should think about
taking him back to the ICU.

News keeps getting better.

We already started
IV antibiotics.

That should help soon,

but might be a few days
until we can operate.

You wanna tell him or should I?

Property returned.

Man, you find a bra
that you love, and they'’ll
just stop making it.

It'’s a whole thing.

Didn'’t ask.

Uh, just checking with Lincoln

on booking Cassandra'’s
meniscus repair.

Mm-hmm.

Are you thinking about
backing out of our bet?

No, I love free dinners.

I hope you get one sometime.

Your smugness
just makes me more motivated.

Well, it'’s not smug
if it'’s true.

In fact, if I lose,

steak and lobster
at Nicoletti'’s.

You confident enough
to up the ante?

Okay.

Then if I lose,

we have sex in a car.

That'’s how confident I am.

Or how much you wanna have
sex in a car with me.

Dr. Beckett to the ER.
Dr. James Beckett to the ER...

- Is D okay? Can we see him?
- We figured he'’d be hungry,
but it'’s probably cold by now.

Well, he can'’t eat it anyway.

He loves chicken Parm.
It'’s from his favorite place.

Can we leave it for him
to eat tomorrow?

He can'’t eat it tomorrow,
or the day after.

He might never eat again.

Really? Why?

Because he was shot.

Three bullets
went into his body.

He'’s been hanging on
by a thread for weeks.

And he'’s already feeling
disconnected enough not knowing
how long he'’ll be here.

He doesn'’t need to listen
to stories about people
he doesn'’t know

or graduations he won'’t attend.

He just needs to know that
you'’re actually here for him.

Hey, Adams, let'’s take a walk.

Maybe it'’s for the better
that you weren'’t here.

You obviously have no idea
what he'’s been through.

Adams! Take a walk!

I am so sorry about that.
I will be right back, okay?

- Are you out of your mind?
- Dorian'’s been here for 51 days,

and they waited till now
to visit him?

Maybe he didn'’t want them here.
What is your problem?

Come on, Lauren,

you'’ve got two beautiful babies
waiting for you.

BP is still dropping.

Um, doing a Pringle.

Uh, she'’s coding!

Damn it.

Okay, starting CPR.

Okay, Wilson,
keep packing.
Yeah.

- Griffith, gown and glove.
- I haven'’t completed
my procedure log.

- I don'’t know if I should--
- I don'’t care about
the damn log right now.

I care about this woman
dying on the table.
I need more hands.

Okay, remember when you
and Adams did the Pringle
maneuver in the rig

and you clamped
with your fingers?
Yes.

Okay,
you'’re gonna do that again.

Come on.

All right,
find the paraduodenal ligament
and squeeze.

♪ Always live your life ♪

Got it.
Good.

Okay. All right,
hold your fingers still.

♪ Prove yourself ♪

♪ You are the move you make ♪

♪ Take your chances
Win or loser ♪

- Mr. Ferguson?
- Yes. Yeah.

Your wife is in surgery...

♪ Owner of a lonely heart ♪

♪ Much better than a ♪

♪ Owner of a broken heart ♪

♪ See yourself ♪

♪ You are the steps you take ♪

♪ You and you
And that'’s the only way ♪

♪ Shake, shake yourself ♪

♪ You'’re every move you make ♪

♪ So the story goes ♪

♪ Owner of a lonely heart ♪

♪ Owner of a lonely heart ♪

♪ Much better than a ♪

♪ Owner of a broken heart ♪

♪ Owner of a lonely heart ♪

Lauren, is she...

She lost...
...a lot of blood.

But she is stable,
and we are taking her
to the ICU.

Turns out her indigestion
wasn'’t indigestion.

Her pain
was worsening preeclampsia.
It caused her liver to fail.

But your baby is healthy,
and we are doing everything
we can for Lauren.

Preeclampsia?
I don'’t understand.

Shouldn'’t someone
have seen this?

I mean, we were just at our OB.

We were here for two hours
before she went into labor.

Mr. Ferguson--

All we'’ve done is plan,

you know, since the day
that we found out
we were having another baby.

I mean, we read all the books,
the online discussions.

We just settled on a doula
and a lactation consultant,
just in case.

You know, Lauren was not
gonna be another statistic.

This was not in our plan.

This was not in our plan.

I'’m sorry.

Okay.

- When can I see her?
- I'’ll go check.

Thank you. Okay.

If--

If Lauren had...

- I-I don'’t know
if I could do this.
- You could.

Have you picked out a name?

We have.

It'’s Simone.

It means "faith."

Excuse me?

Emani. It means "faith."

♪ I know it feels
Like you lost your mind ♪

Aaron.

I wasn'’t sure
you'’d still be here.

Gillian'’s the mother
of my children. I wanted
to make sure she was okay.

Yeah. Well, Dr. Shepherd
repaired the malformation.

Gillian is recovering
in the ICU. She'’s okay.

Not exactly sure
what had happened.

There was never
any big fight or anything.

We just stopped talking.

And I told myself that maybe
that'’s what happens when you've
been married for 20 years.

You know what
the other person is thinking,
you don'’t have to talk.

But I think...

I was just scared of losing her,

so I didn'’t ask.

But now I'’ve lost her anyway.

I am sorry.

All right, let'’s start
Miss Amelia on pressors,

and keep checking on her
every 15 minutes.

- All right?
- Absolutely, Doctor.

Dr. Crosley
to cardiothoracic surgery.

Dr. Bill Crosley
to cardiothoracic surgery.

I missed you in surgery.

Yeah. Sorry about that.

It'’s just been
one of those days.

Um, I know you and Maggie
have been discussing divorce.

I just want you to know
you have my full support.

Okay.

I'’ve come to care for you
like a son. I--

I don'’t want that to change.

So if you want to know
that nurse better, be my guest.

You'’re an attractive man
with quite a few years left.

You deserve to have
a little fun.

Just you don'’t have to avoid me
like you did today.

It'’s only weird
if you make it weird.

Actually,
my bypass graft ran long.

That'’s why I didn't make
the hiatal hernia repair.

So, I just made it weird.

Yeah.

But, uh...

it'’s good to know
I have your full support.

Yeah.

♪ It'’s early in the morning ♪

- Hey.
- Hey, what can I get you?

- Two shots of tequila, please.
- You got it.

♪ So much more than
Seeing the sunrise ♪

Thank you.

♪ The bright blue sky ♪

You meeting someone?

Nope. I don'’t wanna talk.

Thank you.

- Refill.
- Yeah.

♪ When you go outside ♪

♪ Barefoot on the pavement ♪

♪ And the whole night knows... ♪

Dr. Wilson?
Lauren Ferguson'’s labs
just came back.

I was about to head home.
Everything okay?

My patient'’s labs just came back
positive for HELLP syndrome

hours after
she went through hell.

She won'’t recover for months.

Her four-year-old daughter
and her newborn baby girl

almost lost their mom today.

I'’m sorry.

If--
If I'’d just put a rush
on these labs then...

all this could'’ve been avoided.

I read about these
awful outcomes all the time.

I'’m just part of the problem.

Don'’t you think you're being
a little hard on yourself?

My patient was sick,
and I didn'’t know it.

I don'’t know if I didn't ask
the right questions

or if I wasn'’t listening,
but either way, it'’s a problem.

I think-- I think I need
to quit general surgery

and...
...focus all my time on OB.

Okay.

Okay.

Did you go apologize
to Dorian'’s friends?

After you called me out
in front of them,
maybe you should apologize.

Maybe I should apol--

You'’re lucky
it was me that saw you

and not Schmitt or Bailey.

Otherwise, you'’d be stuck
on night call,

pulling objects
out of drunk people'’s butts
like me most of the time lately.

So, you'’re welcome.

Would you have done
the same thing for Kwan?

You moved out!

And I didn'’t even
ask Kwan to move in.
That was all Griffith.

So I am sorry that you two
didn'’t work out, but I--

It'’s not about Simone.

You said you were done.

Yeah, because I was mad
that you stole the procedure.

I didn'’t think that
you would just, like, disappear
into the middle of the night

like my camp girlfriend
after I wrote her a poem.

Are you laughing at me?

No, I just--

Yeah, I'’m remembering
what it was like to fight
with you, and it'’s--

I mean, it'’s the most normal
I'’ve felt in a while.

That is pathetic...

Skywalker.

There it is.

Mmm. I'’m almost done.

Oh, your mom texted.
The kids are down, shockingly.

I'’m afraid of losing you, Teddy.

I had an EKG two days ago.
Ndugu said everything is good.

It'’s not, Teddy.

It feels like--

It feels like
we'’re on autopilot.

The kids, their schedule,
our schedule.

It made sense
when you were recovering,

but now that you'’re better,
it feels like
we'’re still far apart.

We don'’t talk anymore.

I am struggling
in my work right now,

and I'’m talking
to Amelia about it
when I should be talking to you.

Owen, I want you to talk to me.

But I can'’t
because I don'’t wanna--

- I don'’t wanna put
more stress on you--
- I'’m fine.

You flatlined in front of me.

Owen, I-- I don'’t know what else
to do to convince you

that you are not
going to break me.

Please, talk to me.

I mean,
if there is anything that
I have been able to count on

in the last 20 years,
it'’s-- it's you, it'’s us.

I miss you.

I miss us.

What? Wait. What are you doing?

Children are less afraid
to say what they'’re feeling
than adults.

♪ Fell asleep
To the sound of the radio ♪

♪ I dreamt
I was surrounded and I...♪

I miss us too.

It'’s only as we get older,

that we learn
to censor ourselves.

Maybe we do it
because we'’re simply
afraid to rock the boat.

Ah. Another shot, Darren.

You got it.

John?

- Does it even start with a J?
- No.

Oh, sorry.

♪ I still love you ♪

Griffith?

- Oh, no.
- Picking up?

Let'’s go. Thank you.

I'’m not at work right now,
so, technically,
you can'’t tell--

If you like your job,
you will not finish
that sentence. Get up.

Or maybe we'’re terrified
that by saying what we feel,

or asking for what we need--

that it will cause more drama
than there is to begin with.

- That doesn'’t look good.
- Uh, she wanted space.

But I'’ll check on her
at home later.

So do milkshakes count
as a dessert or a drink?

Because we only bet drinks.

I'’d say either.

I can cover them if you want.

No, no, I settle my bets.

So, I guess all that'’s left
is sex in a car.

Guess so.

Hey, you ate without me?

You have to sit here
till I'’m done.

Hi...

So we choose,
over and over again,

to tamp down our voices.

...and a milkshake. Thank you.

To stuff it so far down,

it can make us sick.

Until we can'’t anymore,
and we have to let it out.

How do you know
where everything is?

I'’ve been here more times
than I'’d like.

Atypical abdominal pain. That'’s
what I should'’ve been thinking.

You'’re not an OB-GYN.

I know, but I should'’ve
said something to Dr. Wilson.

My mother died at Grey-Sloan...

while giving birth to me.

Oh, I-- I didn'’t know that.
Simone, I'’m so sorry.

I don'’t know all the details,
but I know someone
missed something.

I always wondered
who those doctors were.

Now I know they'’re me.

Look at me.

Look at me.

You did everything
you were taught today.

Everything that we were taught.

This is why we need to be here.

Why patients like Lauren

need surgeons like us
to care for them.

It is our job to make sure that
no one falls through the cracks.

To make sure that no one
overlooks their pain.

And-- And it'’s not fair.

No, it shouldn'’t be this way.

Lauren should be awake and
holding her baby right now. Yes.

But that doesn'’t mean
it'’s your fault that she's not.

Yeah, here.

- Come on.
- ♪ Fell asleep to
The sound of the radio ♪

♪ I dreamt I was surrounded ♪

♪ And I knocked '’em down
Like dominoes ♪

You get some rest.

♪ When I woke up
I opened my eyes ♪

♪ I was alone... ♪

Even if it'’s the hardest thing
in the world.