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- What is it?

-It's my squadron.

-Let me do something different with it.

-Different how?

You gonna let me tattoo you?

-It's only fair. This is for life.

-Yeah? Where would you tattoo me?

-Here?

-No way.

No.

-Here?

-Maybe.

-How about here?

-For life?

-Well, I mean... I've been drinking.

-Yeah, I know.

It thins the blood.

12.

-12 what?

-12 fucks.

Not 11?

-Nope. -Not 13?

-No. 12 fucks.

12 excellent, excellent fucks.

But, you know what, we spent eight days together.

You've been on leave twice

when you count it all, and that's not full days.

So that's eight days in six months.

-So what you're saying is we need

a better fuck-to-month ratio.

-I'm just saying, "Get your ass back here more."

You see that? -Yeah, I do.

- There she is again.

My God, she's fierce, this one.

-Yeah, just like her mama.

-Brown bear, brown bear, what do you see?

I see a red bird looking at me.

Red bird, red bird, what do you see?

I see a yellow duck looking at me.

Yellow, um...

Yellow, um...

Yellow duck...

Daddy? -Yes, sunshine.

-Um... -Talk to Daddy, baby.

Don't be shy. -39 days and I'll be...

What will I be? -You'll be home.

-What are you guys making?

-Stew.

-Is it yummy?

-Here, baby. -What's that?

-A carrot. It's good for my eyes.

-That's right, bunny.

-Okay, sweetheart.

Well, Daddy's gotta go. Tell me you love me.

- No.

- Denise.

-Put your mama back on.

-Hi. -Hey, darlin'.

-I just want to crawl into this phone.

Even if it's for a few minutes.

-It'd be pretty tight in my bunk.

We could make it work.

We could snuggle in.

-Yeah, a month and some change,

and I'll be in our bed before you know it.

I miss you.

-I miss you more, darlin'.

No. No good.

Where are you?

-Baby! What -- -Mommy!

- My God, what did you do?

- It hurts! It hurts!

-Put your feet in there, sweetheart.

Shit.

-It hurts. -I know it does, baby.

I know it does.

-911. What's your emergency?

-My daughter, she's burned.

Her leg...

-They've got me on a timed climb to 70,000 feet, nose-up,

35,000 feet, Mach 2.4 heading towards a compressor stall.

No payload. Just me and a clean bird.

Follow a Rutowski profile, I'm pulling back 68, 69,

and then push 2,000 past the test point,

have a near-full stall,

nose down into my dive to the center of the earth

until I got back to my restart altitude.

- 72? - 72.3, actually.

-Fuck.

Highest I've been in a F-15 is 60.

-Well, this was 5,000 beyond my highest.

-So how much of a massive hard-on did you have?

At 72?

-Hey, watch it with the language.

- Hey, Denise, don't draw on the walls, honey.

-Let her be. -Denise, come here.

Come here. We don't do that.

-If she wants to draw, let her draw.

-Yeah, we've got coloring books for that.

Come here.

Here.

Color all you want. Use these.

-I don't -- I don't like those.

-I know, but we don't draw on -- Diane.

What are you doing? Diane.

Sorry.

-Anywhere you want. -Really?

I got tasked domestically flying

just so that I could be home more.

That doesn't make you happy? -We're suffocating here.

-I'm -- "We're suffocating"? No.

You might be. I'm not. Denise isn't.

-She is when you try and stifle her and put her into boxes --

-I'm not putting her into fucking boxes.

She's drawing on the fucking walls in crayon.

It's not crazy for me to ask her --

-You didn't ask her. You ordered her.

-I'm not dismissing -- -Get out of here.

You should listen to what I have to say.

I'm a good mother.

-Yeah, like when you had to take her to the emergency room

'cause she pulled a pot off the stove

when you're not watching her.

You and Mommy are gonna like this much better.

And we're right across from the same river where I grew up.

You can start with one chair and see how it goes.

Look, darlin'. Here's Mommy's new tattoo parlor.

-Whoa.

It's so big.

- Pretty cool?

-Yeah.

-What do you think? -Wow.

-Where's my room?

-Right there.

And guess what.

-What?

-You can draw all over this.

-Go ahead.

-Want to join her? -Yeah.

Can I do it, too?

- Okay.

How's it going over there?

-You know, this is a lot harder than I thought.

-Let's see.

Okay, like this.

Slow and steady.

Good.

-Can I see it?

That's really cool. You design that?

-Well, the banana is from the Velvet Underground album.

It's my mom's favorite.

-The Velvet what? -Are you serious? The ba--

No? -I don't listen to bands.

- My God. Okay, you --

you have to listen to "Some Kind of Love."

It's incredible. -All right, I'll listen to it.

- My God. My dad finding out. - No, you didn't.

-Yeah. -It's not a spur-of-the-moment.

It's deliberate, Diane.

-If I didn't do it, she would've had someone else --

-Yeah, okay, so if she wants a fifth of whiskey,

we just buy her a bottle? -That's totally different.

-It's the same thing! -Wow. He's pissed.

-You're allowed to put your foot down.

- It's her body. - My -- "It's her body."

It is my body. -What do you want me to do?

Control her? -She's right.

- No, I want you to protect her. - Here comes the best part.

-She's 15. -He's still going.

-It's permanent. -"She's 15."

-That's your problem? It's permanent?

If you show up just to drop into my bed at night,

you don't get to fucking decide.

- My God, his face, right there.

-She's a goddamned child.

-And, apparently, I'm a goddamned child.

Wow. -That's crazy.

-...here, in New Orleans,

where Captain Hagerty's wife and daughter

are watching this historic moment

from their second-story home

as he joins the ranks of a very privileged few

who have left their footprints on the lunar surface.

-Pull the drapes.

-This is the first of several EVAs.

Right now, Hagerty is testing

the performance of a space suit.

Let's go right back to him now,

transmitting live, directly from his helmet cam.

-There it is, just out there on the edge of the horizon.

Just starting to rise. Wow.

As astronauts -- when we're on Earth --

I think our heads and our hearts are so often in space

that we -- we distance ourselves from our own world.

Up here, 250,000 miles away,

just seems closer somehow.

Intimate.

-It's incredible.

-...you can see the rim of the Kepler crater.

I'm heading that direction to retrieve some rock samples...

-He sounds different on the TV.

-...impact ejecta extends over 300 kilometers.

As I'm making my...

-Mom?

Mom.

Hey, do you want something to eat?

You should eat.

-It's okay.

You don't need to stay here with me.

-I'll let you know when she's gone.

-This is still pretty new. -I understand.

-We're in progress still.

...at that stage yet.

-Hi. She's still sleeping.

- Well, that's a shame.

Maybe we'll meet next time.

-Yeah. -Yeah, you should look at this.

-Yeah. -Yeah. Are you interested?

-Yeah. I'd love to see it.

-So, this is the MTV, the Mars Transit Vehicle.

And here is the Habitation Module where they'll all live.

-They want me to lead training and crew selection.

-So, you'd go? -Well...

-Well, he'd command the first mission.

-That's a long way down the road.

Six or seven years, at least.

-So this is the rocket build facility

where we'll make the core stage and the boosters.

-Sit.

Come on.

-Did you want something?

- Fuck you.

- Yes.

-Somebody's been plotting.

-Put your hands out. -I like it.

-Yeah?

Yes.

I got you.

Ooh.

You're going nowhere.

- I don't want to go anywhere.

Are you ready for this one?

-Happy anniversary, space cadet.

-That's it? -Nope.

Wait, wait, wait.

Ha-ha!

A little something to celebrate.

-We don't need that.

Hey, I just thought we'd -- -Just a little toast.

We deserve this. It's been 18 years.

-Diane, no. Come on.

-It's just champagne, Tom.

Just one glass. -All right, come on.

Let's just do what we were doing.

-Here's to 18 more.

-Don't. Knock it off.

-Don't what?

-You're not supposed to have alcohol with your meds.

-Fuck my meds.

Come on, it's just one night. Just one fucking night, please.

-Okay, um, undo me here. Undo this.

-I just wanted to have one fucking night!

Just to feel like we used to.

Just tonight! -And I just want you to think!

-You want me to think? Well, happy anniversary.

-Put it down, Diane. I'm serious.

Diane!

Great. Great!

-Mom?

- Christ.

Will you help me out of this?

This shit?

Mom?

Mom!

Mom!

Mom?!

Mom!

Mom!

Stop!

Mom!

Mom!

Mom!

Mom!

Mom!

Mom!

Mom! Please!

You know, I could stay. I could stay.

-I think it's good for you to go back to school.

-No.

What about you?

Will you be okay, Dad?

-I'll be all right.

I'll be all right.

-I just want to defer a semester.

-You've been dreaming about New York for such a long time.

It's your plan. You should stay with your plan.

Yeah, you should. You should.

There's nothing for you here.

Come on, baby.

- It's the other way. Yeah.

My painting teacher said it was his favorite.

He says I have an eerie talent.

I think he says that shit to everyone.

-No. It's really cool. Where should I hang it?

I don't know, maybe the bathroom.

You can stare at it while you're on the can.

- Thank you. - Yeah.

-No, I want to hang it in here. -No. No, no, no.

I want to make you something much better for in here.

-It's beautiful. Thank you.

I have one finale. But you got to close your eyes.

-Dad, you've already gotten me so much.

-Close your eyes. Close your eyes.

You got 'em closed?

-Yeah.

-You can open them.

My God!

Hi.

My God.

-I know you can't take him to New York,

but he'll be here when you come to visit.

- He's so beautiful.

-He's cool. -Hi, good boy.

-I'm good.

-No pressure.

Fuck.

-Right?

-Denise? Denise!

No, her eyes are open, and she's not waking up!

-Denise? Denise?!

-Please, just get here! Please!

-Denise, wake up! -Denise, wake up.

Please, you have to wake up. -Come on!

-Wake up, please.

-Please wake up.

-Denise! Denise!

Denise! -Wake up!

-Denise? Hi.

Sara Graham, the Director.

Mr. Hagerty.

-Tom Hagerty. Pleasure. -Nice to meet you.

You can leave her bag here. We'll have to take a look at it.

-You have to look through my bag?

-Well, that's our policy.

You can watch if it'd make you feel more comfortable.

Mr. Hagerty, can I have a moment with you, please?

We are going to take care of her.

-How long before she can call out?

-Approximately two weeks, so don't worry about it, okay?

-All done.

-Come on, Graham.

-We have a very high rate of success.

-Hey, that's not yours.

Fucking put that down! It's not yours!

-What the fuck? -Hey. Hey, um...

-Stop. -I swear to God.

-It's not yours. -These? Over here?

- Yeah. All of those. All of those books are mine.

-You have anything in the kitchen?

-Mnh-mnh. -I'm asking her.

Do you have anything in the kitchen?

-I have a coffee maker in the kitchen.

That coffee maker is mine.

-Do you mind?

-Sorry.

-Okay. You know what, why don't you give us a break,

and just go take a walk for a half an hour?

-And leave her here?

I want to make sure she doesn't steal anything. Right?

-I really want you to take a walk.

- Big man.

-Hey, hey, hey. Hey, hey! Hey, hey!

Enough. -Excuse me? What'd you say?

-It's -- It's fine. It's fine. -It's fine. It's fine.

-Shut the fuck -- I will fucking kill you!

Hi. -Hey.

-Hi, you.

You brought him. Hi.

-You look great.

-Thanks. -How do you feel?

-I feel okay.

-Good. This guy's been missing you.

-Hey, mister. You didn't even --

You didn't even give me a kiss.

-I just need another week.

We'll push the JPL trip to April,

start landing SIMS on the 21st.

-We're already two months behind schedule.

-I'm just rearranging things.

This won't put us back any further.

-Bob and I have been talking.

We've put together a contingency plan.

-What contingency?

-Your personal life can't keep having

this sort of impact on the training.

-N-No. Th-- We were just in a bad stretch. We're fine now.

-Well, that's what you said the last time.

And the time before that. -Well, this time is different.

-Well, we need to be prepared in case it isn't.

-Prepared? Prepared how?

-Matthew takes over as commander.

That's one possibility.

-I-Is everything all right?

-Hang on. I got to call you back.

Denise?

Denise?

What are you doing down here?

-I missed her.

-How many times we got to go through this?

-I don't know.

-Come on upstairs.

-No. I'll be up later.

-No. You're gonna come up now.

-What do you want from me?

-I want you to wake the fuck up.

Come on.

-No. -Come on.

-No. Let go!

-I want you to get better.

That's what I want.

-I know you don't understand.

But this is me feeling better.

Do you --

Do you ever think about Mom?

- Of course I do.

-No, I mean, like, really think about her.

-All the time.

-You locked this place up like she was never here.

-Look, you're gonna come with me.

We don't have to do the whole rehab thing again.

-She killed herself! -We can --

No, she didn't. -She killed herself.

-No, she was so fucking medicated...

-I saw it. I was there. -...she couldn't think clearly.

-No, I saw it! I was there.

You can't lock it up.

But, you know, I know why.

I know why you want to lock it up.

-Okay.

Why?

-Because you killed her.

You killed her.

-I-I did the best that I could.

-You're killing me, too.

-No, I'm trying to keep you the fuck alive.

-Well, it didn't work for her, did it?

And it's not gonna work for me, either.

-Come here. You, come on.

-No. Get off me! -Come on.

-No! -Denise! D--

-No! Fuck.

-Is this what you want?

You want to become animals?

You want us like animals? Like animals?!

Like animals?!

You just want to destroy us?

-You're really scaring me.

Denise.

Denise?

Answer.

-Hello, Tom.

We've made a decision.

Don't do this.

-It's done.

And it's final.

The First S01 E06

-Sorry again to get you up so early, Commander.

-Not a problem. -Right this way, Ms. Hagerty.

I owe you one.

Follow me this way, Ms. Hagerty.

-I'm glad you called. Thanks, Jeff.

-Nick, I think if you hold the blanket away with the claw

while you're shoving the cufflink through,

it might settle down that dynamic.

-Copy that. Let's move in 10 centimeters.

-Tom, we're gonna need you to come up.

-We're not finished.

-I'm aborting the sim.

-What's going on?

-I'll fly Matteo out to cover your position.

He could use the hours anyway.

-I hate disrupting training like this.

- We got it covered.

This doesn't have to be a repeat of last time.

Don't let that get into your head.

You just do what you need to do.

- Thanks. - Yeah.

-We'll do photos first? -Fine.

-You can start setting up down here.

Did you enjoy your flight?

-Yeah. -Very good. Glad to hear it.

-She's not in yet. -Is she on her way?

-Mr. Shultz, I'm Jason, Laz's assistant.

Please come with me.

Got it.

We're just gonna have to wait in this conference room here,

if you don't mind. -Okay.

-Jason told you? -You threw your back out.

-It's terrible luck. I haven't put it out like this

for a while.

-I can come to you.

perhaps we could postpone till tomorrow.

Jason could give you a full tour,

we could put you up for the night.

-I have to be in Washington tomorrow.

Senator Mills, Thibodeaux, NASA. It's a tight schedule.

-It's just I don't think I can make it today, and I --

I don't want you to have to see me in bed.

-How about we can start on the phone,

and if you feel better, maybe we meet later?

-Perfect. I may have to hop off for a few minutes

once the painkillers kick in.

-Mind if I start recording? -Go ahead.

-All right. We are on the record now.

-Well, let's start with the MAV malfunction straightaway --

what we think happened, and how we plan to tackle it.

Um, there have always b-- -We'll get to the MAV.

I prefer to ask some questions first.

Let's start with the beginning, before VISTA.

You made your seed money through Purifair.

-Terrible name.

-Was that Spano or you?

-His team did some data analytics et voil�.

And no, I walked away without a dime from Spano.

Although I did have some personal savings,

but...peanuts compared to what we needed for VISTA.

-In the Economist interview, you said that y--

-Which one? 2026 or '30?

-The most recent.

-I said I walked away with the seeds, not the seed money.

-You remember your exact quote?

-Photographic memory.

It's a curse as much as a blessing.

- So, by seeds, you meant -- - People, some staff,

important connections.

- Political connections.

-The beginning of my career has been written about ad nauseam.

Should we do something different?

-I've been told that you hate doing press.

-There are those in my field who nurture the cult of personality.

That doesn't interest me.

But things like this...

Well, they're part of the job, so we do what we must do.

-And I'm just trying to do my job.

-Then ask me something I haven't been asked

a hundred times before.

- Are you happy?

-Got my first laugh.

-No, I'm not happy.

-Why not?

-Happiness is death by complacency.

-That's what you tell your children?

-I will leave them to draw their own conclusions.

-How would your children describe you?

-Aaron, can I call you back in a few minutes?

-Those painkillers are quick. -They are.

-And convenient.

-I have another call I need to take.

-I'll be here. -Thanks. End call.

-Answer. This is Laz. Are we on a secure line?

-Yes, I'll connect you to Commander Hagerty now.

Denise?

Come on. You should eat something.

I'm not hungry.

- Eat anyway.

-Is there anything in here I should worry about?

-Does my dad know?

-Yeah. He's on a plane home now.

I wish I could draw like that.

-I'm finished.

-I'll leave it there in case you want some more.

I'll leave the door open.

-You were telling me your thoughts on happiness.

-Right.

-It's a clever quote, but I think there's more to it.

-I don't think your readers are interested

in whether I'm happy or not.

-Are you on the spectrum?

Which one? There are so many.

-It's been speculated in other articles.

-Standing on the shoulders of dwarves again.

-I'm not speculating. I'm asking.

-Diagnosed, no.

And a-anyway, what does it matter?

-Self-awareness.

-I am quite self-aware.

I mean, sometimes I wish I wasn't.

-How do you mean?

-Do you ever feel imprisoned?

-By what? -You-- Your own thoughts.

Y-Your thoughts. I-Imprisoned is maybe not the right word.

Um...

Um...overwhelmed.

-Sometimes...but probably not in the same way.

I don't have the mind you do.

-Well, you're lucky. -I think a lot of people

would kill to have your mind.

-Flattery won't soften me. Let's skip that.

-You softened already.

-Did I? -Show me another article

where you've talked about being overwhelmed.

Why did you request me?

-Your editor told you.

-She showed me the e-mail.

-Curiosity, I suppose.

-I don't buy that. Here's what I think.

That my reporting has been critical of the Mars program,

and you haven't given a major interview

since the explosion, and the clicks will go through the roof.

And if you can convince me, a skeptic,

then you will have public opinion on your side

in case the MAV fix fails.

I also don't buy your back gave out.

-Why would I lie about that? -You tell me.

-Yes, I wanted to discuss the MAV.

That is why I raised it at the beginning.

In terms of the press,

I didn't give an interview since the launch

because I thought it was my job to focus on the work,

not to draw attention to the things that --

-You can retreat to your talking points,

but that's not how you win me over.

-Some people prefer to speak on the phone

where they can't be seen, where they can be less...

self-aware, less self-conscious.

-Where they can be more in control.

-We have one more shot at this mission,

and it's important that we show the world it's in good hands.

-Your hands. -Thousands of people's hands

working day and night to make sure that it's a success.

-You could've said the same about the first launch,

and now you have a major asset on Mars that isn't working.

-I'm confident the MAV will be fully functioning

by the time we launch.

-Confidence is an attitude, not a fact.

-You want me to prove it. -That would be nice.

-Sleep? -Normal.

-Appetite? -Normal.

-Dreams? -None.

-You're not being entirely honest.

-Sorry.

-I don't remember my dreams.

-You're not being entirely honest.

-It's so weird. -It's just a beta version.

-How does he know you're lying?

- He uses facial cues, pulse, body temperature.

- Want to give it a try? . I don't know.

-Yeah. Come on. Go ahead. Yeah.

-Okay.

-Matteo, new subject. Begin.

-I'm Matteo. What's your name?

- Feels like our first date.

-Just tell him your name. -I'm Camila Rodriguez.

- Hello, Camila.

-What do you want to talk about?

-So, this is, like, if something happened to you, right?

-Or I'm not in the Hab or I'm asleep.

People respond better when they have a face to look at.

-But isn't that messed up? Like, if you're...

If...

you're dead, then they're just staring at your ghost.

-All right, let's depressurize.

-Roger.

Go for depress.

-I think it's a mistake to show him.

-Laz wants to roll the dice.

-Did she tell him we've only got a 40% success rate?

-It's 42.8%.

And who's got to do the song and dance?

-The Head Engineer.

-You're an engineer and an astronaut.

-Okay, rock, paper, scissors.

- God, no.

-You've got a statistically better chance at winning

than getting this test to work.

-It's 33%. Isn't that six different options --

-Okay, well, you've got a 67% chance of not losing.

-But, actually, the draw's an automatic redo.

Statistically, it would be --

-Okay, let's just do it. Come on.

-All right, fine. -All right.

One, two -- -Wait.

It's after three, correct?

-On. -On?

-Yeah. -All right, fine.

- One, two, three. Damn it.

-Okay, two out of three.

-No way. Enjoy.

-The rover should arrive at base camp in approximately 10 weeks.

We'll use its drill to get into the insulation on the cord

to the mobile power plant.

Zoom in to the reactor.

The drill closes the circuit, the MAV loses power.

That triggers an automatic reboot of the CPU.

-I'm not a tech guy. -Let's say you have

a coffee maker that isn't working,

and you don't know if it's making coffee or not,

no matter how many voice commands you give it.

-The coffee is fuel. -Yes, liquid oxygen.

-Okay. -But if you pull the plug

and plug it back in, maybe it starts talking to you again.

-The coffee here is shit, by the way.

- Budget cuts.

-Can you get closer on the power cord?

So, that is our plug.

But instead of unplugging it, we're shorting it.

Now pull up the simulation.

-You said "maybe." You're not certain it'll work.

-We're still running tests. You'll see one today.

The key is to have the drill bit vaporize

the instant it shorts the circuit.

Otherwise, too much current loops back on the reactor.

Bad news bears.

-How bad?

- That's worst-case.

But we do have a manual-fix option as a backup.

-Fix it up there? -And we have MAV2

going with us. There it is.

-But that means you're launching with one broken MAV

on the surface, and the one you're sending,

if that malfunctions or crashes or...

-The chances of coming back

are greatly reduced. -Greatly.

-Yes. -What are the odds?

-It's tough to put exact numbers on it.

-Coin flip? Better? Worse?

-They wouldn't let us launch if it was worse,

but it's not much on the side of better.

How does that make you feel?

Putting your lives at that much risk?

-We don't spend a lot of time thinking about it.

-What about your family?

-All our families know what we signed up for.

-Hey.

-She in her room? -Yeah.

She had a bite to eat, and then she went back to sleep.

-Thank you for this.

Flaring up? - It just started. It's fine.

We need a plan.

It's on me, I took the risk,

but I can't have you leaving. Not again.

-I told you it wouldn't be predictable.

-I know.

But if the last facility didn't work,

then let's try a new one, or home care.

Do you think she'd be open to that?

-I haven't even spoken to her yet.

-Tom.

-I appreciate you looking out for her,

but I think you should go.

-I need to be part of this discussion.

-No, actually, you don't need to be part of this discussion.

This is between my daughter and I.

This is family business. -Now it's my business, too,

because you're our commander.

Hey.

You okay?

-Yeah, just...gonna go take a shower.

-This is Laz.

-We're ready. Want me to sync you now?

-Do it without me and then call me after. End call.

-That's the drill test...

...for the Times piece.

-You need a heat pack? -No.

I got some meds in my bag.

I could've sworn...

-Were you only in the kitchen and out here with your bag?

-Yeah.

And Denise's room, but...

-What kind of meds? Painkillers?

-Yeah.

- Denise?!

Denise, open the door, baby! -What?!

-Open the door. Open it! Come on! Open the door for me!

You have that purse in there with you?!

-Tom! I found it.

-Okay, let's lower it.

-We've made contact.

-What am I looking for?

-A flash when the bit vaporizes.

-Okay, power down.

-It didn't work.

-No. -Is that a fluke or...

-We haven't achieved consistency yet.

-How inconsistent are you? -This is early stages.

There's plenty of room for improvement.

-Yeah.

-Are you ready to talk?

I can just listen if you want.

-I don't know what to say.

-What happened?

-I don't really know how I ended up there.

I wasn't even high yet. I just...

It was the painting.

I finished the one of Mom, and I just...

- My God.

-Everybody, out!

Let's go! Everybody out of there.

Are you okay?

Can you tell me what you took?

We need an EMT over here.

-No! No!

No! No! No!

I fought him when he tried to pull me out.

Then...

Then I was in the hospital and then jail.

And why did you call Laz instead of me?

-You were out of town. She wasn't.

And...

I was afraid.

-Of what?

- Of fucking everything up again.

-When...

you OD'd back in New York --

-I didn't OD this time.

-But you could've.

You could've.

That's all I think about.

I remember you...

hooked up to all those machines,

your skin so pale,

your heartbeat s--

skipping.

Any m-- moment, it could stop.

And that's what scares me.

That I'm gonna get that call

that you're gone.

-Mom and I felt that.

When you were up there.

-What do we do?

How do we fix this?

-We're working on our success rate.

-You said you were confident. -I am confident.

We've still got time. -What I saw is a failed test.

The engineers tell me you're not anywhere close to consistency,

and if you fail, you're putting lives at increased risk.

That's your version of confidence?

-I'm confident in what we're capable of achieving.

No one thought...

we'd raise the venture capital. We did.

No one thought we'd get NASA on board. We did.

No one thought we'd have a transit vehicle

prototype by 2026. We did.

Or that we'd get it built within two years. We did.

Every asset, every satellite, dozens of launches.

I had the confidence we could. And I was right.

-70 years, NASA's had, what, a 4% fatality rate?

-You can't hold Mars to the same standard.

-When it's people lives I sure as hell can.

-You keep focusing on the explosion

rather than all the success before it.

-And you keep deflecting. -Quite the opposite.

Yes. People died.

And people will die.

Any time people venture into the unknown, there is a cost.

Space has never been safe. No frontier is safe.

Quote me --

When it comes to Mars, we must get used to death.

I believe it's worth the lives we lose.

-The five astronauts you lost -- doesn't that eat at you?

Doesn't that give you pause?

-Y-You're asking me to weigh my entire life's work

against the loss of life.

It's an impossible question.

-But it's the question.

It's the question that never goes away.

It's their lives, not yours.

-You don't understand.

Not finishing what I was meant to do...

that's worse than death.

I can't explain it. -If you can't explain it to me,

good luck with the rest of the world.

-I want you to watch another test.

I'll get Eitan to double the voltage.

I'll rig it so that you can see how it's supposed to work.

-That doesn't prove anything.

-All the people who have doubted me --

professors, investors, politicians, journalists --

they all said the same thing -- "I'll believe it when I see it."

But that's backwards. Belief comes first.

Only then can you see it. -I don't report fictions.

-I'm asking you to use your imagination.

-So, I'll quit.

-No. I don't want to hold you back.

-You're more important. -I'm not.

-I know you think that your mom, that I --

-Look, I didn't mean that.

- You might be right. I just can't change it.

And I don't want to lose you, too.

-I don't want to lose you, either.

-So, I'll stay.

-You'd hate me.

And I'd hate myself.

-Denise?

We need a plan.

I'm not trying to be insensitive, but we do.

-Yeah.

I'll go to Myk's.

-Um, that's not a very good idea.

-She's my sponsor. -And she's an addict.

-I can't stay here anymore.

-All right, then we'll just

find something else, we'll rent something.

We'll get out of here for a while,

do whatever we have to do. -No.

No, no, no, no. I want to go to Myk's.

-Denise, what was it about the last program?

What didn't you like about it? -No, no, no.

I-I'm not going to rehab again.

-Maybe it was just the wrong fit.

-You guys are not going to ship me out!

-No, don't you -- Don't!

No. No. I'm going.

-You're not in a position

to make very good decisions right now.

-I'll jump off the fucking balcony if I have to!

-No, that you won't do. Sit down!

-Tom.

-This is -- This is my daughter.

-Why won't you just let me go?

You know, it would be so much easier

for both of you, for everybody --

-I can't do -- I can't do that! Okay?

-Then I never should've come back.

-And what -- what were you gonna do?

Just be out on the street? -There's nothing for me here!

-There's me! There's me!

-No, we tried that, and it doesn't work!

-You know, I can't help it, but I hate your mother.

I hate your mother for putting us in this. I --

-Don't you dare blame her!

-She left! I haven't! I'm still here!

-You know what? She was there for me more

than you will ever be! Ever!

-All right, you know what? All right, fine. Fine.

Walk out the door in your bare feet.

Go drown yourself in the same goddamn river she did. Go.

-That's enough! -No, no, I didn't mean it.

-No! Get off! -I didn't mean it. I'm sorry.

Fuck. Fuck!

I'm sorry.

-Denise.

Denise, this is what I want.

I want you to come home with me. I have a guesthouse.

You'll have your own space, okay?

Just for a few days. Just breathe.

We don't have to figure everything out right now.

Will you do that? Okay, get your stuff.

-Drill at speed.

-Okay, lower the arm.

-We've made contact.

-Rub two sticks together long enough...

fast enough...

your palms will blister.

You'll rub the skin right off.

Your jaw will clench from the pain.

You'll fail, and you'll fail again.

But then...

...where there was darkness...

...there's light.

Where there was cold...

...there's warmth.

You can see every corner of the cave.

You can walk into the night

even without the moon or stars to guide you.

But to get there, you had to believe.

You had to believe there was fire within the dead wood

that made your fingers bleed.

No, it wasn't God that lit the way.

It was your own two hands.

-It's beautiful.

-Why don't you come up to the house?

-I'll get Jason to make the arrangements.

End call.

You may want to stay put in the guesthouse

when the reporter comes.

If that's all right with you.

-Okay.

-The fridge should be fully stocked,

um, but if you want anything else,

make a list, and we can get it for you.

And if you don't feel like cooking,

the chef will be here from 2:00 till 10:00 p.m. every day.

There's a housekeeper at midday to do a tidy and take laundry.

Okay?

I'll let you get settled in.

-What are you most afraid of?

-I'm supposed to say "losing another crew."

-What are you not supposed to say?

-"Being willing to lose another crew."

Why don't you just transcribe the recording?

-Writing it longhand helps bake things into my brain.

-How 20th century of you.

-Not all innovation is progress.

-I suppose if you write down everything I've said today,

I won't come off very well.

-Better than if you'd kept your guard up.

People respond to honesty. But you know that.

-Do I? -It's a strategy, too.

-You must think I'm very calculated.

-I think you have to be.

- Could I have a tissue?

-I suppose you think this is a case in point.

She wiped all her makeup off

so she doesn't look glamorous for the photo shoot.

- No, I've only got 3,000 words.

-We're ready when you are, Ms. Ingram.

-Okay.

Could you give me a hand? -Yeah. Here.

-I promise to make this quick.

-Well, you take the time you need. You have a job to do.

- Okay. We're just gonna run some, test shots,

so you might want to close your eyes while we run the flash.

-Aaron. -Yeah?

-You know at the beginning when you asked me

about the seed money? -Yes.

-It was my sister.

-The model? -Yes. Not for VISTA,

but for my first prototype in grad school --

the CO2 scrubber.

That's how Spano found me.

But I needed 200 grand, and Elena gave it to me.

-Would you rather sit in the photo?

-I'd rather stand. -Okay. We're almost done.

-It disgusted me having to ask her.

There she was, earning all this money

for doing absolutely nothing, just standing there,

and I was trying to build something.

I resented her.

-Okay, you can open your eyes.

-Over time, I've come to admire her.

I mean, it can't have been easy just...standing there

doing nothing.

Um, being...

-Exposed.

-Exposed.

-Scan.

New skin. New subject.

Whenever you're ready to begin, just say "Begin."

I'll leave you to it.

-Begin. -Hello, Tom Hagerty.

What do you want to talk about?

-My daughter.

Her name's Denise.

She's my only child...

...and I'm frightened for her.

-What are you frightened of?

-I don't know if I can give her what she needs.

-What does she need?

-I don't know.

The mission -- I know what that is.

I know what that requires. I'm trained for it.

But with her...

I don't understand anything.

I would give it all up again, the mission.

I'd give it up...

if I knew that that would make her okay.

-You're not being entirely honest.

The First S01 E07

-I hear it.

How bad you want this.

How bad you need this.

How close it is.

How far away it is.

Dear Madam President...

we the undersigned, the crew of Providence 2,

remain fully committed in body and spirit

to carry out our mission despite the formidable risks we face.

During our years of training, our families

and the American people have placed their faith in us.

We humbly ask that you place your faith in us, as well

Allow us to fulfill the destiny of all humankind...

...as we pave our way to the future.

Thoughts? Objections?

-You want us to sign now? -No.

We can wait and see how it goes tomorrow.

-Anything else?

Okay. O nine hundred, work room.

-We'll need to keep this confidential.

-Of course.

All right.

Enlarge times two.

Cam off.

-Okay.

All right.

-I've been having some sinus issues.

And I thought it was just me trying to equalize in the tank,

but it was the rupture.

- Um, treatment?

-0.14 mils of Ciprodex, twice a day.

-The retrofitting cost to resume service launches --

just for the sake of making pennies --

that's not something that we've --

-I'll take pennies over nothing,

unless you want to start talking outright sale.

We need some ideas about alternative access.

-I will pull together some financials

and see what a scale-back looks like.

-How soon can you have that for us?

-I could probably have a rough draft ready by tomorrow

if absolutely necessary.

-All right. I'll let everyone know.

- Okay, thanks. End call.

Is everyone willing to sign?

-Everyone has spoken to their loved ones.

-Good. Hopefully, we won't have to use it.

Come on. I'll walk you out.

- Trouble with the board? - Yeah.

Tell Rosen to pull up the full asset portfolio.

I-I'll -- I'll see him in a minute.

Um, I had to fight off a mutiny after the first mission,

and I can feel another one brewing.

How about you? Have you spoken to who you need to?

-I've written her several times, but she hasn't responded.

Has she said anything to you?

-No. She keeps to herself.

-Well, if she's wearing out her welcome, you know...

-Of course not. You know I'd say if she was.

Maybe you should do more than write.

Come and visit. It's an open invitation.

-Thank you. I appreciate it.

-Yeah. N-No. We don't need to rush anything.

If it is just two hours, then that's fine.

But if it's any more, then I really think

we should consider -- No. Okay.

Is that a three-three-two?

- Yeah. I'm doing additive meters.

-That's very good.

Jason, are you on? Not on the table.

No, no, it's just my son.

Um, so, yeah, we should get Samantha onto this.

Tell the press there'll be a two-hour delay

for a minor course correction on the rover.

Eitan, you give her the language, okay?

I'll be out of pocket for half an hour,

and, then I'll check back in.

Okay. End call. Phone off.

Hello. Nicole. This is lovely. Thank you.

Um, I hope you haven't stopped playing the piano.

I haven't heard you practice.

-Your piano's out of tune. -I-Is it?

Well, I'll get the piano tuner to come tomorrow, then.

Amanda?! -She's not here.

-Where is she?

- Thank you.

-Hey. It's dinner.

-Look. Denise is teaching me.

-That's really good.

-Can she eat with us?

-No. No, no, no. I'm not hungry.

-You don't have to eat, then. You can just sit with us.

-Amanda, it's your family time. -So?

- Let her be. She said she's not hungry.

Come on. Dinner will get cold otherwise.

I know you have good intentions, but I'd prefer if --

-I know, I know. I'm really -- I'm sorry.

-No need to apologize. Just some boundaries.

I don't get much time with them when they're here, so...

-Yeah. I get it.

-Thank you. -Yeah.

Hey, I don't -- I don't know if she wants this, but here.

She's got a great hand.

-D., your dad mentioned that he'd been trying to reach out.

Um...

You might want to consider writing back.

Have a good night.

-Where'd you go?! -I'll be right back.

Hey.

-Hey.

-Are you worried about tomorrow?

- Can't worry about things that you can't control.

Do you think it'll work?

-It's a fix that's never been tried before,

but if it doesn't work, our odds are not so good

about getting back.

-How much?

-One in five that we get stuck there.

-Jesus. -Yeah.

Would you have let Mattie go with those odds?

-Mattie would've made up his own mind regardless.

-But what would you have said to him?

-We're friends, Tom. Good friends.

But I'm not your wife.

And I'm not your daughter.

She's the one you should be asking, not me.

-I've written her. -And?

-Nothing.

-Still? -Yeah.

-Rover primary systems nominal.

We can expect a brief signal drop-off

as we switch to rover and HAB camera feeds.

-Good morning.

Morning.

-Standing by for rover guidance initiation.

-The Mars Ascent Vehicle, known as the MAV,

has been on the Martian surface for nearly four years.

Its purpose is to return the astronauts

to their orbiting transit vehicle...

-Hi. -Hey.

Aren't you supposed to be in school?

-I told Mom I was sick.

-...fix the malfunction

by using a survey rover to short-circuit --

-Are you watching? -Yeah.

-...and reboot its computer system.

-You should come watch at our house.

The screen is way bigger.

-We can see the power line and the...

-Yeah, your mom doesn't really want us spending --

-She's not here.

-The footage you're seeing is a....

-Screen on!

-The command would have reached the rover several minutes ago.

We're just moments away

from seeing the footage of the result.

Kathy, what's the feeling like there in Mission Control?

-Everyone's eyes are glued to the big screens up front here.

You can feel the anxiousness

and anticipation in the viewing area.

There's a lot riding on this -- months of work and testing,

hundreds of engineers and support staff

working around the clock because the future

of the Providence 2 mission is on the line.

-Drill spin initiated.

-Drill at speed.

Drill lowering in three, two, one.

-Stand by for intermediate contact.

-Contact with the cord.

Penetration in three, two, one.

-Drill-bit vaporization confirmed.

Stand by for MAV systems reboot.

-We have a signal. Reboot initiating.

-That's the magic.

-The same.

Stop! Stop!

Show me all the sensor data. -W-What's going on?

-It's the same as before. LOX levels and sensors.

Clear the room, please. -Essential personnel only.

Everyone else please exit the control room.

- Boy.

All right. Let's let them have the room. Come on.

Come on. Let's go.

-...briefly came back online before they lost contact again.

Kathy, any new developments on your end?

-They've asked all the media and invited guests

to exit Mission Control.

No one from VISTA or NASA had officially briefed us yet,

but a few people I've spoken to have...

-That was the worst-case scenario.

I could have cooked the numbers to make it more palatable,

but I wanted to be straight with you.

-It's more than three times the approved parameters.

-Internal NASA guidelines,

not required by the funding legislation.

Bob is willing to override with your approval.

-What if a doctor told you there was a one-in-five chance

you'd die during elective surgery?

-The astronauts are electing to risk their lives.

I have a letter here confirming their commitment to do so.

-Well, maybe they're prepared to take that gamble. I'm not.

-Imagine the responsibility the astronauts shoulder --

the years of training, the toll it takes on their families,

the personal sacrifices that they've endured.

And then they strap themselves to a rocket,

and they risk their lives in an attempt to accomplish...

...the greatest pioneering feat in human history.

That's five people fulfilling the destiny of eight billion.

I'm asking you, as the most powerful person on this planet,

to help us get to another one.

One in five.

Yesterday, that was theoretical,

and today it's a reality.

So, before you sign this letter,

I want you to take one more night to reconsider --

one more night to talk to your loved ones

and to make sure that your name belongs on this piece of paper.

I've promised the President unwavering commitment,

and I need to know that I'm telling her the truth.

-Well, in either case, no later than tomorrow at noon.

We'd like to give you more time,

but the momentum can shift in D.C.,

and we got to beat that.

-And you come on your own.

If you choose not to, no judgment, no questions.

-The board's holding an emergency meeting --

contingency plan if the President doesn't approve.

-Scale-down? -Yeah.

I mean, we didn't set out to make

a boutique sat-launch service grinding for volume, did we?

-No. No, we did not.

-So, you should be thinking about a plan,

your next step, if you haven't already.

- No. I'm dusting off my guitar.

- This again? You don't even play the guitar.

- You should hear my cover of "Kashmir."

- No, I shouldn't. Anything but Zeppelin.

-Jimmy Page is a god to me.

-You sound like my dad. He used to play "Zeppelin IV"

around the clock, my entire childhood.

-Good man.

-I got to say, you, um, you seem remarkably poised,

given that your life's dream might be going down the toilet.

-Steady stream of painkillers. -Which ones?

What's the alternative, running around like a headless chicken?

It doesn't accomplish anything.

It's up to the crew now. It's in their hands, not ours.

-You have always been so supportive of me,

and you've never put up a fight.

It's okay, though.

This is different.

So now is the time.

Sweetie.

-That handle.

There. You see it?

-No.

-The grub screw is loose. Or the tumbler's not aligned.

It's not level.

We'll have to fix that before it drives me nuts.

Well, sometimes I look around,

and I think there isn't one inch of this house

that we didn't build together.

Yeah, mostly you.

-It's both of us.

Okay, yeah, mostly me.

It's gonna be pretty empty around here.

- It's a small price for changing the world?

-I love you. You know that?

So much.

I'll help you fix it.

The handle. You were gonna fix the handle.

-Right. The handle.

-Come on.

- It's, flat-head. - Okay.

-Flat-head and a-a -- and an Allen wrench.

-Okay.

Well, you always end up asking for something else.

Here. It's for you.

-Fuck.

-This isn't an unfair thing to ask.

-It doesn't feel like you are asking.

-I'm gonna be a single father for two and a half years.

Maybe forever. -Don't talk that way.

-I have to talk this way,

'cause I have to wrap my brain around it...

which is hard enough.

I can't take care of your mom and the boys.

It's...way too much.

She's becoming a full-time job.

-I'm just -- I'm scared for her, all right,

being in a place full of strangers?

-And I'm scared shitless I'm gonna lose my wife...

that the boys will lose their mother.

She's lived her life.

Theirs is just beginning.

-Could you keep it down? She is going to hear you.

-She's in her own world right now.

-Look, if you don't want me

to sign, then you say that you don't want me --

-I'm not asking for that.

I'm asking that you let her go.

If we have to let you go...

...I have to give all my energy to the boys.

-Mom.

Hey, Mom, can I talk to you?

-I'll make friends.

-If it weren't you -- Okay, if it was

one of the others, wouldn't you say something?

Wouldn't you take action? -It's just a second opinion.

-One that you're completely ignoring!

-That is not true.

-Matteo, you wouldn't even have told me

if I didn't ask you like 20 times.

-I know what I'm doing. -Okay.

I think you're being foolish.

You're being reckless and dishonest!

-Lay the fuck off me!

I am making a judgment call. I went to school for this.

I trained half my life for this, and that is why

they are putting it on me to make these evaluations!

-Yeah. Except you're giving yourself special treatment.

- Special -- You know what? Just --

You don't know what you're talking about.

-I get it. You think that

I'm just using this to keep you here.

-I don't know. Are you?

-Maybe that's part of it.

I don't know.

-Well, I don't expect you to wait for me,

so if you need to move on, if we need to end this now --

-Asshole.

-I'm just saying this isn't fair to you,

to ask that.

-Matteo.

I...love you.

Okay? I -- I'd wait.

And would I rather you stay? Yes.

-I'm going.

- My God. What are we doing? - I don't know.

-How are your boys handling it?

- Well, it won't easy, but, they have Todd.

-Your mom? -Not as great.

-I'm sorry to hear that.

-What about you?

-My mom's a prick.

-And my dad's a bigger prick.

Got no girl. No time for friends.

So you guys are pretty much my family.

So I didn't lose a lot of sleep last night.

Fuck it. Let's go to Mars! - Okay.

-How long have you known about this?

-It happened when you flew me out to Houston,

the day Tom had to leave early --

the pressure in the tank.

-So, um, why didn't you say anything then?

-I didn't think it was a big deal.

It should have healed on its own after a few weeks.

Problem is, it keeps getting infected,

probably because it's happened before.

The scar tissue slows the healing process.

The messed-up part is I probably wouldn't be here

if it hadn't been for the...

Syria. It was my second tour.

We were ambushed.

I'm lying there.

All I can hear is this ringing, like a drill going into my head.

I knew right away it was my eardrum.

I see the tracers.

Then I see the stars.

They're perfect.

They're filling up the sky like they're protecting me,

like they're telling me that I'll be okay.

The pain went away.

I wasn't afraid of dying.

And that's when I knew -- where I wanted to be,

what I wanted to do with the rest of my life.

I guess this is the flip side.

-We have a decision to make.

-I've already made it.

I have to hold myself to the same standard

as any other crew member.

You have to cut me.

-I was practically on my knees to the President,

and we have a crew issue?

-He thought it would work itself through.

-A-And what happens if there's a medical emergency?

-Well, Matteo's confident in our triage training.

Between that and the on-board tech,

we have enough redundancies in place.

-Okay, so, what next, we just fast-track another doctor?

-No.

-Sadie. -Tom and I discussed this.

If we introduce a brand-new element so close to the launch,

there's no telling how it could have an impact on the team dynamic.

-We need to inform the crew of this.

It may change their decision.

-It won't. -How do you know?

-Trust me.

Trust me on this.

You've got that thing.

You'll make it.

I promise you.

-They need to show something to the President sooner later than later.

-So sign it.

-We can talk about it more.

-With her sitting out there? -I'll tell her to go.

-I can't do this right now.

I feel whipsawed.

It took so long to get used to you going,

and then you weren't, and now --

-But you knew I was an alternate.

-So why are you even asking?

-Because you're my husband, and I --

-How am I even supposed to process this?

How do you expect me to -- -Ollie.

-No. I can't do this.

We can talk tomorrow. Or not.

You can do whatever the fuck you're gonna do, but I can't --

I can't just put a brave face on it

and say to you, "Go. You have my blessing."

Not that it really matters, does it?

Does it matter, truly, what I think?

-I'll never have the opportunity to do work this important.

I can't pass that up.

I need this.

That hasn't changed.

-Yeah.

-Ollie.

Ollie.

- Hey.

I'll -- I'll go get her.

Mom!

-Hey, Tom.

- Nice.

-Does she know that I'm here? -Yeah.

She's -- She's out there, to the left.

-Denise? It's Dad!

If you can hear me, I'm just gonna wait out here.

I don't know if you've been following the news.

-Yeah. Yeah, I saw.

-So, I drafted a letter

for the crew to sign and send to the President.

-She told me.

-Yeah.

They've all signed it.

I haven't signed it yet.

-We can make it work.

No, that's what you told me.

Remember that night you got back from D.C.?

You'd already decided.

-I thought that we could.

- Yeah, so did I. We were wrong?

Did you read any of my e-mails?

-Yeah.

There's so many times I wrote back to you in my head,

but I just -- I-I kept coming up

with the same thing --

"I need you here. I don't want you to go."

- Well, if you need me h-- - God, no. I --

I just needed to say that. So I can stop needing you.

-I don't think you do need me, Denise.

They do. The mission does.

-Okay, so go!

No one's stopping you. I'm not stopping you.

But once you go, you're gone.

You're gone.

No texts, no e-mails.

Nothing.

-Please don't punish me.

-No. I'm not punishing you.

I'm protecting myself.

Do you remember what you told me about Mom?

We have to move on to survive?

Now I have to move past you, too.

I need distance.

-This is who I am.

This is who I've always been.

-Yeah.

You are the choices you make, and you've made yours.

And I'm making mine.

-Well, if that's what you need. -Yeah, it is.

-I respect that...

as much as it breaks my heart.

-Yeah.

Hearts get broken, right?

-Can we just... Will you please sit, so we can

just sit together a little while before I leave?

-No, Dad, we can't. No.

If you don't walk away, I will.

The First S01 E08

-Pressure, pressure.

-Cleared the tower!

-Steady at... -Forward 104.

-...32. Systems A.

-Systems A, go.

-Systems B. -Systems B, go.

-Systems backup. -Backup, go.

-We're at 72.

-Disregard.

-Dial up to 104.

Standby for stage.

-There is confusion in the grandstands

here at the liftoff of Providence 1.

I'm being told that Mission Control

will be reviewing what --

-...and watching, as the crew of Providence II

make their attempt to be the first humans

to set foot on Mars.

Just over two years ago,

five astronauts were killed

during a catastrophic explosion...

-And now 64 years since then,

we're going to another planet.

-...have completed their pad debris inspection

and close-out.

Mission Control reports

that the weather and engineering briefing

were in good shape.

-The moon may have been a giant leap for humankind.

Going to Mars,

it's a leap that stretches the imagination.

Today, we begin our journey

to the rest of the solar system and beyond.

-Today is a day without foreigners,

without nations.

-For millennia, we have stared up at the heavens

and wondered what majesty and splendor

awaited us there in God's kingdom.

He has invited us to come see for ourselves,

not just in this afterlife, but in this...

-The burning question we need to ask is,

will we find evidence of life?

We have certainly seen the signs.

They may have existed beyond, capable of existing,

but until we have proof...

-Today is the day we unite as one people.

-...we remain alone in the universe.

-And in less than a year,

we will be the people of a second planet.

-Pretty remarkable achievement

that they were able to get back to the starting point.

But I think the biggest thing however, from a thought is that

if something goes wrong with this launch

that it will be the end of any Mars program

for quite a long time.

-For the safety and success of those brave souls

that venture into God's arms this afternoon,

let us pray.

Let us pray.

Let us pray.

Let us pray.

-About 5,000 more to go.

- The kids want a lot. . Here.

-This... -Ooh.

Let me get out of your way. -Wow.

-That is beautiful.

-That's gorgeous. Thank you.

-Anybody else besides me want a slice of this?

-You're gonna regret it.

-I'll have some. -Don't do it.

-Hey, I did not puke my first flight.

-Yeah. -This is a mistake.

-It's too much. -For the historical record.

-Go get it.

-Good boy.

-Good boy, Apollo. Come on. Here, Apollo.

Good boy.

- Time to go.

Are you sure?

-Yeah.

-Call me if you change your mind.

-Okay.

- Come on.

Hey... Come on.

Come on.

Hey! Hey!

Wait!

-Sadie, go, go, go.

What's that?

-Come on. -Ooh, ooh, ooh.

-Set that old man up.

- Foul. - What?

No foul.

-No foul. No foul. -All right.

You got to be kidding me. No foul?

-I'm the ref. I said no foul.

-Let them play dirty. -Continue.

-Let them play dirty. -Here. No, give it --

no, go ahead.

It's ours.

-Okay, here we go.

-All right, guys, um, let's take it easy.

No injuries on launch day.

-How you feeling, boss?

-Um, I've got butterflies.

Despite the rumors, I am, in fact, human.

But only on rare occasions like this one.

How are you?

-We're all good. We're ready.

-I-I know this should be speech time,

but there's nothing I can say that you don't already know.

So I'm going to spare you.

-No, no, you don't get to skip it.

-Speech! Speech! -Speech!

-Come on. -Speech.

-Speech! -Speech!

-I admire your courage.

And I want to thank you for your dedication.

And whatever you do...

...don't fuck it up.

-Here, Tom, let me see that.

Here we go.

- What's this?

- Take a shot. - No.

I d-- I won't -- I won't.

-No, no, no, no. You don't understand.

We can't go until you make a shot.

-I-I-I've not heard of this tradition before.

-I just made that shit up. Go on. Shoot.

-Right here. -Shoot.

-Here's the line.

You just take, that red planet

and put it through that hoop.

-It looks more orange to me.

-You're stalling.

-Come on, Laz. -Okay.

-Take your time. Take your time.

-Um, that was beginner's luck. Definitely.

- We'll take all the luck you got.

-Hey, guys, can we get a picture?

-Right here? -Yeah, right here is great.

-Laz, get in the middle.

Get next to -- Okay.

-Okay. -Okay.

-"Motherfucker" on 3, 2...

-Motherfucker.

- Great. Thank you.

--"Motherfucker"?

- All right.

I think we should start thinking about

getting suited up.

-Tom, I-I wondered if we might have a quick word.

-Sure.

-Yeah. -Yep?

- Ho! - All right, y'all, let's go.

Come on.

Let's suit up.

-She's here.

On her own.

I didn't pressure her.

-I'm gonna take good care of her.

-I called you a coward, and that wasn't right.

You're really taking on something here.

-Not necessary.

-I'm the coward. -No, you're not.

-I'm abandoning her. I am. -No.

Well, then, you'll be the first coward on Mars.

-Commander?

I'm gonna go suit up.

-Yeah.

-...for the countdown?

-All stations, go, no go for terminal count.

Beginning with CC.

-CC is go for terminal count.

-Guidance? -Guidance is go.

-FIDO? -FIDO go.

-Prop? -Prop is go.

-GNC? -GNC, go.

-Max? -Go for Max.

-Eagle? -Eagle, go.

-ECOM. -Go.

-GPS? -Go.

-FAO? -FAO is go.

-INCO? -INCO is a go.

-Surgeon? -Go.

-Booster. -Booster, go.

-We have two go topsides and a go from the room.

We're good to enable the terminal count auto sequence.

-Vitals are looking good.

Sadie, your heart rate's

a little higher than steady state.

-Can you blame me?

-I'd be worried if it wasn't.

-Five out, Providence.

-Speech time, Tom.

-You first, young man.

-On behalf of everyone on the ground,

VISTA, NASA,

and in memory of the five brave souls aboard Providence 1

who made the ultimate sacrifice,

we wish you good luck and Godspeed.

And speaking for myself,

know that I'm there with you in spirit.

-Thanks, brother.

We feel you with us.

And we hope that, seven months from now,

when you and the rest of the world

are looking up at the night sky

at that pale red dot,

you know we're up there, looking back at ya.

It'll feel a little bit closer.

Hey, folks, everybody cozy?

- Yes, sir.

- Yes, sir.

-VISTA, the crew of Providence

is ready for launch.

-LOX and hydrogen-filling valves are closed.

-T-minus 30 seconds.

-Range green. Stable at step three.

Providence, status check.

-Providence is a go.

-Activate main engine hydrogen burnoff system.

T-minus 10.

9, 8, 7.

6, 5, 4.

3, 2, 1.

-We are in auto.

- Four at one-four.

-Copy that.

-VISTA, roll program.

-Roger roll, Providence.

-Where's Denise?

- I don't know.

-Hey.

You okay?

Want to listen?

-Throttle down.

Four at seventy-two.

-Copy, in the bucket.

-Four at 67%.

Dynamic pressure limit currently below 3 G.

We are past max Q

and carrying maximum load on vehicle.

-Providence, VISTA.

You are go at throttle up.

-Copy.

Four at one-four.

-Standby for staging.

-So far, so good.

-Here we go.

-We have separation.

-Boosters have separated.

-Dp/Dt look good there?

-Yeah, it looks good.

-Cabin pressure -- 15 PSI. Looks great.

-1-4-7-9 down here.

-All right, thanks.

-Providence, negative mode one abort.

-Negative abort.

-Main engine cutoff is the next stage.

Okay.

-Do you want me to carry on?

-You sure? -Yeah.

-Coming up on MECO.

-MECO in 3, 2, 1.

-MECO confirmed.

Here comes first stage separation.

-Standby for fairing separation.

-Fairing sep confirmed.

That's a hell of a view.

- Sure is.

-There's just one more step.

-Okay.

You should go up and be with the others.

-No, I'm here with you.

-Standby for second stage cutoff.

-Last hoop, everybody.

SECO in 3, 2, 1.

-SECO confirmed.

Providence, you are in orbit.

-Did they make it? They make it?

-Excuse me, sorry.

-How about that?

-I think I left my wallet at home.

-Cape of Good Hope down there.

-It's beautiful.

-Cabin pressure looking good?

-Yes, holding on at 15.30.

-Thank you.

-Com.

-Go, ECOM.

-Fuel cells are set up exactly how we like.

-Roger. Copy.

-We have LADAR lock.

-I show us on step 9.6 of rendezvous ops.

A little ahead of the timeline.

VISTA, we see the data onboard for the next burn.

-Guidance is giving us a Delta V of four meters per second.

-Downstairs agrees.

-Initiating breaking burn in 3, 2, 1.

-Temperatures and pressures looking good.

-Breaking burn complete right on the numbers.

Transitioning to prox ops.

-Range rate 0.13.

-All data looks nominal, no issues.

-Looking good on our end, too.

-Providence, standby for fly-around.

-Roger, VISTA.

Standing by.

-Fly-around initiate in 3, 2, 1.

-We have alignment.

-Slowing to 0.2 meters per second,

0.17 degrees of angle, guidance making adjustments.

-Copy, Providence.

We're monitoring.

-Rolling to starboard.

-Rotation slowing.

Rotation stopped.

-We copy your corrections, Providence.

-There it is.

-VISTA, we're in the crosshairs on course at speed.

-Roger that.

-Six meters.

Closure is negative 0.1.

Arming the PCT.

Contact and capture.

Capture confirmed.

-Capture confirmed downstairs.

-EAV in free drift.

-Copy. MTV in free drift.

-Pressure?

-Holding at 15.42 PSI.

-Systems? -No alerts.

-Providence, you are good to pop helmets and gloves.

-Home, sweet home.

-Message confirmed.

Capture confirmed.

-VISTA, NDS vestibule leak check complete,

and we're ready for the APAS hatch opening.

-Copy, Tom.

-Just removing some condensation first.

-VISTA ready.

-EAV side open.

-You have a go and you're cleared for ingress.

-VISTA, ECLSS is operating nominally.

-In position to start activation sequence.

-VISTA ready.

-Go for activation.

Let's wake this lady up.

-Full power on.

-The stars...

...and the dirt...

...are the same dust.

The wind.

...it moves through everything.

It feeds the torch.

And I've been everywhere.

Seen all there is to be seen.

Breathed all of it in and held my breath.

I want to see it all again.

See it for the first time.

I'm there.

I'm on my way.

-Where are we with that spanner wrench?

-Got it right here.

Fletcher.

-Coming your way, Tom.

-Light off.

Record.

End record.

-Standby for OMS burn for trans-Mars injection.

OMS burn in 3, 2, 1.