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>> Zoe: Tell me whats going on

now.

>> Flo: Okay.

Well, a possibly unstable woman

keeps breaking into my

apartment, and this time, she

asked me to strip down to my

underwear, which is absolu--

>> Zoe: This is my fathers

place, so I have every right

to be here.

And why wont you answer me?

Whats going on, and how is

Steffys baby involved?

>> Flo: I already told you.

I had a baby, and I gave her up

for adoption.

>> Zoe: You dont even know the

name of your doctor or the

birth date of your baby,

and you look like that.

So whats really going on,

and what does it

have to do with my father?

>> Liam: Do you want me

to turn these back on?

>> Steffy: No, no. Its fine.

>> Liam: Okay.

Cause I kind of felt like we

were intruding.

>> Steffy: You think you should

be in there with her?

>> Liam: I-I dont think so.

This could be good for her.

You know, time alone with a

newborn.

Time that -- that she didnt

get to have with Beth.

Nothing is gonna replace

the child we lost.

And spending time with Phoebe

may not erase the pain, but

it could soothe it.

Maybe... Maybe thats

what Hope needs right now.

>> Hope: Thats all right.

[ Shushing ]

You should try to go to sleep

now, though, okay?

Although I dont really want to

put you back in your crib.

Are you comfortable here

in my arms?

Huh?

You know, your mommy is so

lucky.

So lucky.

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>> Sally: Feels good.

>> Wyatt: Hmm?

>> Sally: Wrapped in your

arms like this.

>> Wyatt: Uh, it feels good,

but you -- you kind of sound

depressed.

>> Sally: Do I?

>> Wyatt: Mm-hmm.

>> Sally: [ Sighs ]

I guess I just feel guilty.

>> Wyatt: Why?

>> Sally: Being happy

knowing what Hope and

Liam are going through.

>> Steffy: Is it healthy,

though?

When you talk about Hope

bonding with Phoebe?

>> Liam: I get how

that came off.

I didnt mean anything weird.

Like, obviously Hope knows

shes your baby.

>> Steffy: Its just...

Hopes mind knows that Beth is

gone, but her body doesnt.

>> Liam: Yeah.

These hormones are raging

through her...

as shes holding my daughter.

[ Door opens ]

>> Steffy: Hey.

How is she?

>> Hope: Heh...

She fell right back asleep

in my arms.

She was so peaceful.

Its just like how I imagined

it would be with --

with Beth.

[ Sighs ]

Heh.

Honestly, I-I --

I was kind of shocked

when I heard you adopted.

I didnt know how you could

handle having another baby in

the home with Kelly still so

young, but, oh, my gosh,

I get it now.

I mean, holding her, spending

time with her, breathing her in,

I would have done

the exact same thing.

I would have done almost

anything to make that baby girl

my own.

>> Flo: Do I need to do a little

twirl for you or can I go back

into the bedroom and get changed

into some real clothes?

>> Zoe: I suppose I was

a bit rude.

>> Flo: A little bit.

>> Zoe: I apologize, okay?

I didnt mean to embarrass you.

But I just need to figure out

whats going on.

>> Flo: Okay, well, let me give

you a little bit of help here.

I exercise a lot.

Couple that with great genetics,

and, voilà, my body just really

bounced right back.

Its really not that hard

to understand.

>> Zoe: So, you just gave birth,

and then beelined right for my

father?

Yeah, that makes me wonder...

>> Flo: Wonder what?

>> Zoe: Youre still living in

his apartment.

>> Flo: Yeah.

>> Zoe: Even though hes gone

back to London.

>> Flo: What are you

getting at?

>> Zoe: Well, I dont know,

because I havent seen Steffys

baby yet, so I dont know what

she looks like --

>> Flo: No, no. Zoe --

[ Sighs ] Your dad is --

is not the father of the baby,

if thats what youre asking.

>> Zoe: Then why is he involved?

What has he done?

>> Wyatt: Idea.

>> Sally: What?

>> Wyatt: Sketch.

>> Sally: Sketch?

>> Wyatt: Yeah.

to get your mind off of Hope and

Beth and just all the sadness.

>> Sally: Okay.

Well, what am I sketching?

>> Wyatt: Athletic wear.

Huh? Right?

This. You know what Im saying?

>> Sally: Ooh, okay.

Well, yes. Muscles.

>> Wyatt: Get some

of those in there.

>> Sally: Oh, yes. Pump it.

>> Wyatt: I think I pulled

something.

Im okay, though.

Every great designer needs a

muse.

>> Sally: Well, you

definitely are mine.

>> Wyatt: Yeah?

>> Sally: Mm-hmm.

And thank you.

Thank you for saying that.

>> Wyatt: What?

>> Sally: That I am a great

designer.

>> Wyatt: Well, you are.

>> Sally: And thank you for

this.

For keeping me focused.

On my dreams and

my passion.

>> Wyatt: Well, it is kind of

selfish in a way.

Cause when youre focused on

your passion, I mean,

I typically benefit.

[ Monitor crackles ]

>> Liam: We, um,

started to feel like we were

eavesdropping, so...

>> Hope: Please tell me

you turned it off before I

started singing.

>> Liam: [ Laughs ]

>> Steffy: You have a beautiful

voice.

>> Hope: Well, Phoebe didnt

seem to mind.

It was almost magical, you know?

Sitting there, holding her,

rocking her to sleep.

>> Liam: I was, um...

I was pretty worried that it

would be...too much for you.

>> Hope: You know, I was, too.

I was terrified, actually,

that the grief might get in the

way, and I might not be able to

comfort her, but I was wrong.

It was almost instinctual.

I knew exactly how to hold her,

and -- and how to soothe her.

You know, I didnt know if I

could connect with a baby, but

it feels like that with her.

I -- its something about her,

you know?

I just -- I want to open up.

I want to talk. I --

>> Liam: We heard you

telling her about --

about Beth.

>> Hope: Phoebes a good

listener.

>> Liam: Youre okay, though,

right?

I mean, youre really okay?

You dont have to pretend that

that was easy.

>> Hope: But it was.

Thats what Im saying.

All that pain that I thought

would be there, it wasnt.

It was...

I felt happy.

So, you know,

being able to just pretend

for a second, I just --

I needed that.

So thank you for allowing me the

time to hold her and --

and to, just for a minute,

be able to close my eyes and

pretend like I was holding Beth

and rocking her to sleep.

>> Flo: Reese is a good friend.

He was heading back to London.

He knew I needed a place to

stay, so he offered it.

>> Zoe: Theres more to it.

Theres got to be.

>> Flo: He helped

me out a little bit.

>> Zoe: How?

Please, Flo. Im concerned.

Okay? I dont know what youve

dragged my father into, but --

>> Flo: Just the opposite,

actually.

>> Zoe: Excuse me?

>> Flo: Dont worry

about your dad, okay?

Its -- its all --

Its all done.

>> Zoe: Whats done?

The adoption, you mean?

[ Stammers ]

What does he have to do

with that?

>> Flo: He arranged it.

>> Zoe: What?

>> Flo: He introduced me

to Steffy and her mother

and arranged it.

>> Zoe: Youre serious.

>> Flo: Yeah.

Hes responsible for this?

And Steffys able to adopt a

baby because of my father?

>> Wyatt: So...

Have I been...

[Exhales] immensely inspiring?

>> Sally: Yes. Mm-hmm. Yeah.

If there actually were an

athletic line.

>> Wyatt: Come on. Itll happen.

>> Sally: Right.

>> Wyatt: You can do anything.

I-Im pretty sure of that.

>> Sally: You believe in this

that much?

>> Wyatt: I believe in you.

>> Hope: I-I dont

know if you overheard this or

not, but I called myself

Auntie Hope, and I remember you

saying that when you introduced

me, and is that okay?

>> Steffy: Of course thats

okay.

>> Hope: Cause, I mean, thats

what I want to be to her,

especially now that I lost

the chance at being a mother.

>> Steffy: Hey, we said wed

come together for the sake of

our children.

That doesnt have to change.

I want Phoebe to have smart,

strong women to look up to,

to call family.

Auntie Hope is definitely

one of those women.

>> Hope: Thanks.

>> Steffy: You say you -- you

lost your chance to be a mother,

but...

Hope, thats not true.

>> Hope: No, I-I --

I couldnt even imagine --

I-I cant go through that again.

>> Liam: Hey. Well --

Listen. Hey.

Thankfully, we dont have to

decide that any time soon.

>> Hope: I couldnt put myself

in that position, to -- to go

through that kind of loss again.

I, um...

But none of that matters,

because we have these girls,

and they can fill up our hearts,

and thats enough.

I mean, theyre enough.

And they have to be. And...

You know, this adoption

changes things.

You brought this beautiful,

amazing girl into our lives,

and...

Yeah, you know, I have some

emptiness inside that Im not

sure I will ever...

really be able to get over.

But theres her.

And theres Kelly.

Getting to watch them grow up,

and to help in any way I can,

I mean, that -- that brings me

so much comfort, knowing that I

can be a part of their lives.

You know, as a stepmother or

Auntie Hope or whatever they

want to call me.

You know, I may not

have been meant to have children

of my own in this life,

but I do know that I was meant

to have them in my life

to nurture and support and care

for, and thanks to you, Steffy,

I can have that.

>> Zoe: Im just trying to

understand how this is even

possible.

My dad, arranging an adoption?

Because hes a doctor, not a --

>> Flo: Why does this

bother you so much?

>> Zoe: My dad isnt typically

the type to do things out of the

goodness of his heart.

So whats in it for him?

>> Flo: Nothing.

>> Zoe: Right.

So he just matched a baby

to a home out of pure kindness?

>> Flo: Zoe, I dont know what

his motivations were,

but Im glad that he did it.

Cause that baby has an amazing

family now, and shes gonna have

a better life than I could have

ever have given her.

>> Zoe: And you guys didnt need

an agency to do this?

>> Flo: No, not with a

private adoption.

>> Zoe: So its really just that

easy to sign over your baby?

>> Flo: No, of -- of cour--

There was paperwork, of course,

and lawyers and everything.

Are we done now

with all the questions?

>> Zoe: No. I-I have a lot more.

But Ill be taking them

directly to Steffy.

Thank you.

>> Flo: No, you -- you cant.

>> Zoe: Cant what?

>> Flo: Talk to Steffy.

>> Zoe: And why not?

>> Flo: Be-because I-I told you

everything that you need

to know already.

Just leave it alone.

>> Zoe: All that I

"need" to know?

So theres more?

What arent you telling me?

>> Zoe: Why cant I go to

Steffy?

>> Flo: [ Sighs ] Okay.

There is something

I didnt tell you.

>> Zoe: What?

>> Flo: The whole thing was done

kind of on the down-low.

>> Zoe: The adoption?

>> Flo: Well, your -- your dads

involvement in it.

We, uh -- Were --

Were keeping it quiet.

>> Zoe: Whos "we"?

>> Flo: Your dad, me, and

Steffys mom.

Were the only ones who know.

>> Zoe: Steffy doesnt?

>> Flo: No.

>> Zoe: Why keep that a secret?

>> Flo: Well, I dont know.

Your -- your dad didnt want his

name involved in the whole

adoption process, and

we agreed to keep it a secret.

And he said that the main reason

was you, actually.

>> Zoe: Me?

>> Flo: Yeah.

I mean, from what Ive heard,

Steffy Forrester is your boss,

right?

>> Zoe: Yeah.

>> Flo: I guess he didnt want

to put you in an uncomfortable

position, and Dr. Hayes agreed.

>> Zoe: So thats why hes been

being so secretive lately?

>> Flo: I guess.

Look, Zoe, what --

what your dad did, it was --

it was good.

Im -- Im happy.

Steffys happy.

And that little baby will

never know the difference.

>> Zoe: No regrets?

>> Flo: Everybody benefits.

What could I possibly regret?

>> Liam: Hey, Hope.

I think its --

its a really positive thing

that youre able to bond with

Phoebe like you are.

I-I do. Uh...

I dont think you should assume

that you were never meant to

have children of your own.

And I-I -- I get what

youre doing.

Youre protecting yourself

from more pain.

I totally understand that.

But...

But, hey, you dont know

what the future holds.

>> Hope: Well, I know I wont be

missing Beth any less.

And I know the thought of having

a child feels like a betrayal to

her memory.

But for some reason,

when I spend time with Phoebe,

I dont feel that.

And, you know, maybe its

because it isnt mine.

You know, I can hold her and

comfort her and sing to her and

rock her to sleep, and then

give her back to you.

Knowing that its your job

and your responsibility to look

after her life, because I dont

want that responsibility ever

again.

Ive already failed twice.

>> Liam: Failed?

You havent failed anything.

You got to stop thinking

about it that way.

>> Hope: I lost two babies.

Two children that didnt even

take a breath.

Yes, Liam. I failed.

And setting myself up

to be put in that position

where I have to constantly fear

that failure again, I cant.

I cant do it.

It would push me over the edge.

I mean, theres already this

darkness thats all around me

all the time -- inside of me,

when I close my eyes.

>> Liam: Whoa, whoa. Hey.

Whoa. What? What --

What are you saying right now?

>> Hope: I get why youd be

worried.

But Im telling you not to be.

Because theres something

pushing that darkness away,

and thats Phoebe.

You know, getting to spend time

with her and hold her, its

almost like I get a glimpse of

what life with Beth would have

been like.

And maybe she can help bring me

that closure, if --

if thats even possible.

>> Steffy: Hope, it --

it takes time.

It takes lots of time.

I wasnt as far along

when I lost my first child,

so of course I cant know,

but...

I do know what its like to lose

part of yourself.

Phoebe and I, we, uh...

We grew at the same time,

you know, in the same womb.

We lived parallel lives.

So I know exactly what you mean

when you say closure isnt

possible.

That darkness...

Yeah, it -- it doesnt go away.

But, uh...

time somehow lets you

see through it.

>> Hope: Did you still...

feel your sister,

even after her death?

Because I do.

You know, I feel Beth.

I hear her.

And I dont mean like her voice

or her crying, I just mean this

feeling that keeps pulling at

me, this...emptiness,

like somethings missing

or incomplete, and I...

Im sorry. Im sorry.

I dont mean to lay this

on either of you.

Im sorry.

>> Liam: You get to say

anything you want to me.

>> Steffy: To me, too.

Were both here for you.

Im just worried that this might

not be as helpful as you think.

Spending time with Phoebe,

it might make it harder

for you to heal.

>> Hope: No, no, no, no.

Cause, see, thats the thing.

I wasnt healing.

I wasnt healing at all.

But then, getting to hold your

little daughter, and to

look in her eyes and feel her

fingers on mine, I --

It makes me feel like --

Like Im gonna be okay.

Like things are gonna be okay.

And that --

So, you know, I really, um...

I really appreciate you allowing

me to spend time with her,

and to come over here, and...

I promise you, loving her

wont hold me back.

You know, if anything,

it just might help me get

through this.

It might help me get through...

the impossible.

So, just -- I just want you to

know how lucky you are.

To have her.

That you get to be mother

to this --

this amazing little girl.

♪♪

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