All language subtitles for Big Love s03e07 Fight or Flight.eng

♪ I may not always
love you ♪

♪ but as long as there are
stars above you ♪

♪ you never need
to doubt it ♪

♪ I'll make you
so sure about it ♪

♪ God only knows
what I'd be without you ♪

♪ if you should ever
leave me ♪

♪ well, life would still
go on, believe me ♪

♪ the world could show
nothing to me ♪

♪ so what good
would living do me? ♪

♪ God only knows
what I'd be without you ♪

♪ God only knows what
I'd be without you ♪

♪ God only knows
what I'd be without you ♪

- ♪ God only knows what I'd be without you ♪
- ♪ God only knows ♪

♪ God only knows
what I'd be without you ♪

- ♪ God only knows what I'd be without you ♪
- ♪ God only knows ♪

♪ God only knows
what I'd be without you ♪

- ♪ God only knows what I'd be without you ♪
- ♪ God only knows ♪

♪ God only knows
what I'd be without you. ♪

we've had a long drive back, and
we've been giving this time to settle,

but we think
that it's important

that we open up and talk
about what's happened.

It's too big for us
to pretend otherwise.

I know.
I'm okay.

Honey, we're not just
talking about the miscarriage.

There's the whole course
of action that led up to it

that needs to be
on the table too.

I know.

I made some mistakes
and I'm sorry.

L... I should have

talked to you
about... more.

I'm... I'm doing better
though, really.

And that's a start,
but it doesn't mean...

I just really... I want
to put it all behind me.

Okay, but conversation
to be continued.

I can't stand
this charade.

I don't like it either, but
we've got to give it time, Barb.

- How much?
- As much as she needs.

Not one thing she says
indicates any sense

that her actions
were entirely wrong.

- I know.
- She takes no responsibility,

she's made herself her own victim
and now she refuses to talk.

I'll follow your lead
on this, Bill,

but I am not comfortable with
the direction this is taking.

She's been through a lot,
honey. We can't push her.

I know that.

All I'm saying is

that there's a right way
to handle this.

Now you've got
to trust me.

Don said you were waiting for me.

We were, but if you'd
taken a few more minutes

- that would have been fine too.
- Joey!

Sorry.
What's up?

We're getting married, Bill...
kathy, Wanda and me.

Boy, that's great news.

Congratulations
to all of you.

After what happened
at Roman's trial

I hurt so much,
I was so angry.

I wasn't sure I could
ever be happy again, but...

we're planning on doing it up
at my place in a couple of days.

We're hoping
you'd perform the sealing.

I'd love to, but you know
I don't have the authority.

Roman is
a false prophet.

For some reason
heavenly father's chosen

to leave us without a shepherd.
In that absence, we choose you.

I'd be honored.

Oh, boy.

Cake?

Thanks.

Happy birthday.

Thank you. I'm flattered
you stuck around.

You've never seemed like the
stick-around- after-work-to-socialize type.

I'm not...
I don't think.

What type is that?

I don't know...
friendly, maybe?

What?

I was just wondering
if my birthday wish

- is going to come true.
- What's your wish?

Go out with me.

Oh.

Just the two of us?

Yeah, I think so.
Yeah.

L... I can't.

I'd like to,

but I don't think so.

I have to go.

Think about it, okay?

I'm sorry.

How come you have
to work so much?

Because that's
what mommy does.

She works
in a very big building

with lots of
important people.

It's brand new
and has 11 floors.

What floor do you work on?

I work in the
middle, on the sixth floor.

Oh, they made us work late. I'll
have the salad done in a sec.

Don't worry about it.

Hey, Raymond's at my house
watching "ratatouille."

- You want to watch it with him, Wayne?
- Yeah.

Thanks, marge.
I owe you one.

What is this?
What's going on?

There's nothing for you to worry
about. Everything's taken care of.

You can stop
cooking, Nicki.

We thought it might be helpful if
we all talked some things through.

- What things?
- The birth control.

Now is really
not a good time.

First we want to say
we all love you very much.

- I love you too.
- That's the most important thing.

And I know you know
how important

bringing new souls into
this family is for all of us.

Of course I know.
I just...

I don't want to talk about
this right now. Is that okay?

This isn't the time. We
should be thinking about Sarah.

- Our hearts should be
with Sarah.

What are you doing?

Are you blocking me
from leaving the room?

Honey, please
just talk to us.

We need to understand about the birth
control. Why didn't you come to us?

Did the fertility clinic know you
were on the pill when you saw them?

Why didn't you come to us?

I don't appreciate you
ganging up on me like this.

I suppose I have you
to thank for this attack?

Two sociology classes does
not qualify you for a thing.

Don't blame Barb. She just thought
an intervention might be helpful.

An intervention?
An intervention?!

Calm down.
You're overreactin

no, you are
overreacting.

Let go of the carrot
and the grater.

No! This is an ambush.
You don't ambush

the people that you love.
You just... you don't do that.

We're just trying
to understand.

- I already told you.
- You said it was because

I wasn't attracted to you.
You know that's not true.

Don't you dare try to talk to me
about the truth! I won't listen!

Why did you sneak around
behind our backs?

- I'm warning you, don't push me.
- No no no.

Don't any of you push me.
I worked late.

You can't do this!
I'm tired.

Oh my gosh,
she's hyperventilating.

Give her a hard candy. She
needs to suck on a hard candy.

Give her some air.
Give her some room.

Put your head between
your legs, Nicki, okay?

Oh.

Oh, wa...
I think you're only...

supposed to use just a little
bleach in each load, Wanda.

I know exactly how much
bleach to use, thank you.

Maybe you should
wash the windows.

We only have
a couple of days

to make things spic-and-span
for the wedding.

You're right.

- Here?
- Mm-hmm.

I'm no longer
on the schedule?

How dare you
barge in here?

You can't forsake me.

I haven't had a baby in three
years and it's my special time.

If you wish to be in
harmony with our husband,

you would respect his desire
not to have sex with you.

This is your fault...

usurping my rightful place
in father's heart.

Please don't
listen to her.

Don't deprive me of the honor
of having your children, please.

Enough.

You should not
respond with anger

when lura is only trying
to help you do as I wish.

You should now pray
and fast for forgiveness.

I have father's ear now.

You must learn
to respect that.

Oh. Sorry,
I'll just be a minute.

That's okay.
I'm not in any rush.

Well, I am.

I can't wait to get to the
store where it's peaceful.

Grocery shopping's become
the highlight of my day.

- No, don't go.
- Stop it. Aar...

Ben, Pam's here.
We're gonna go now.

Oh!
Hey hey hey hey.

- Don't go.
- Hey, stop it.

No, don't go. No no.

I've got some
great cereal coupons.

No, that's right.
Our circumstances have changed,

so we no longer need
family housing.

Yeah, we submitted the change
for the freshman dorm.

Great.

So we can still be
roommates?

Great.
Thank you so much, raja.

Okay, hopefully we'll see
you at orientation. Okay, bye.

Perkins hall. We're in a
quad with two other girls

but the dorm has a pool. We
can do water aerobics every day.

I can't believe this is
actually happening.

We're going to a.s.u.

We're getting away
from here.

So you're sure
about this?

I mean, you're sure
you still want to go?

Yes.
I can't stay here.

Now that everybody knows,
they keep looking at me

like I'm this huge disappointment
that's broken their hearts.

My mom can't even be
in the same room with me,

she hates me so much.

We're messed up.

My parents
are flipping out

because I'm going to school
in arizona and not b.y.u.

They already booked a hotel
room for homecoming weekend

and my mom comes home every
day with more sunblock.

This is going to work.
I know it will.

We gonna rule the school.

Clam chowder
from a can.

This miserable,
godforsaken place.

Kathy marquart's stirring up
things up at juniper creek,

talking to other
malcontents,

trying to get them
to tell lies about me.

No one's gonna
listen to her.

She's a big fat liar.
It's been proven in court.

But she defies me,

so she's got
to be stopped...

a warning
to the others.

Honey, you have
to be careful.

Are you suggesting I do
nothing to defend myself?

I'll handle it.

What did I tell you
about leaving the hose on?

I don't turn it on. I'm
not the one who leaves...

surprise.

A car?
Whose car?

Is that my car?

Did you get me a car?

I have a car!

As long as you keep
your grades up.

I don't want you getting stranded
at school without a way home.

You bought me a car.

The mileage
is pretty high,

but it's got new brakes
and new tires.

Iook at all
the cup holders.

Thank you, daddy.
Thank you so much.

Let's go for a drive.

After we go through a few
safety features first.

Are you sure
we can afford this?

It's not exactly
a Cadillac.

I know I pretty much sprung
going out of state on you.

Sarah, I don't care
about that.

I care about you.

In my book, there's no
mistake that can't be undone

and no plan
that can't be rethought.

If your choices have put you
on the wrong path,

sometimes it can feel easier
just to stay there.

But you can get back
on the right path anytime

if you just give yourself
permission to change your mind.

This car can take you
to a.s.u.

Or anywhere else
your dreams might lead you.

Now fasten
your seat belt.

So I spent...
oh, thank you...

the entire summer
before law school

in nova scotia
planting trees

in the canadian
reforestation program.

I used to climb trees.

I had a lot
of brothers and sisters

always running around
yelling.

So I'd climb this big tree
behind the house

and just sit there
by myself and daydream.

What did you
daydream about?

Just nonsense.

I wanted to be a nurse
or something.

It doesn't matter.
It didn't work out.

Why did you
change your mind...

about coming tonight?

I just felt like it,
that's all.

So I had nothing
to do with it?

Of course you did.

You're so uncomplicated.

Ouch.

I don't have a lot of
uncomplicated in my life.

It's nice.

I got you a present.

I noticed you drank a
lot of water at the office

and you didn't have
a water bottle, so...

glory?

What is it?

Your brother should know
he was used.

"The northern lights
have seen queer sights,

but the queerest
they ever did see

was that night on the marge
of lake lebarge

I cremated Sam mcgee."

- Tell us another.
- Well, I don't know if I know another.

Yes, you do.

Yes, maybe I do.

Okay, boys, grandma's gotta go
home. I'm gonna give her a ride.

- Oh.
- Yeah.

Is everything
all right around here?

Barbara seemed tense.

We've never been better.

You sure you're not coming
to the wedding?

The last thing anyone needs
is a sideshow...

your father
chasing me around,

trying to kill me
for trying to kill him.

I could watch the children
for you if you like.

Gee, that would be great.

So long, little suckers.

Not now, Barb.
This is quick-dry caulk.

I realize the intervention
didn't work out

and I'm sorry
about that, but...

please go practice your
student psychology on marge.

Stop. You had your chance
to speak. Now it's my turn.

You don't get to decide
when I speak.

Yes, I do.

All right. You have
exhausted our good graces.

For years you've been taking birth
control pills behind our backs.

That's... that's a betrayal of
the deepest trust and you know it.

I already
told you, Barb-

no. I'm not here
to ask you why.

I don't want to hear
any more excuses

because I realize
that there is no "why."

There is no excuse
that will satisfy me,

that will fix it.

Only you can do that,
Nicki.

So I'm here telling you
to fix it!

How?

I don't know.

Figure it out.

When you joined
this family

we talked about having
babies, of growing our family,

and I felt
so close to you,

kindred in a way
I hadn't expected...

by our purpose
as a family.

It's still my purpose.

You need to figure out
if it's still yours.

Barb.

Raymond!
Pass it to me!

- Marge, I'm leaving now.
- Okay.

Oh, and I'll take care of
the grocery shopping today.

Enjoy your day!

Mommy,
Raymond is hitting me.

Wayne started it!

I want mommy.

Margie?

L... I saw you...

hi. I'm really sorry.

Why?

I can't go shopping.

Barb's taking care
of it.

Oh, Margie.

Oh, don't.
It's okay.

No, it's not.

Do you know

I deliberately forget
things at the store

so I can go back
the next day?

I'm so sad.

Why am I so sad?

I don't know, sweetie.

Zoloft... you should get
your own prescription.

These will get you
started, though.

They take a couple
of days to kick in.

Oh, I'm not depressed.

Oh, I know.
Neither am I.

It's hard.

We're supposed
to be perfect,

and it is really hard
to be perfect.

But we have to be,
right?

Oh, sweetie.

It's not our business if Alby wants
to sell some useless church documents.

But this is a copy of the letter

from church president
woodruff, dated august, 1890.

Woodruff?
About mountain meadows?

No, Bill, it's about
the principle.

It's woodruff
instructing four apostles

to keep plural marriage
secretly alive

while the chch
publicly denounces it.

"...until such time
as the church may uphold

its essential foundational doctrine
in a full and open embrace."

Let me see that.

It's the smoking gun
that says

the church never intended
to outlaw polygamy.

Glory says that you
were a Patsy, Bill.

Are you involved
in this?

No, of course not.

Then what's going on?

I don't know. Glory's
always had a screw loose.

This doesn't feel right.

How would Alby even get his
hands on something like this?

I don't know,
but he's gone too far...

the curfews, God squads
and now this.

We've got to get
this letter out there...

newspapers, TV,
the world wide web.

Hold on. Alby could be
setting us up.

If we go off on this
before we figure it all out,

people could think
we're crackpots,

or worse... it could
blow up in our faces.

Alby, pick up the phone.
I know you can hear me.

Alby, what the heck
is going on?

I'm holding a copy
of the letter you sold

and it's not about
mountain meadows.

If you involved me, if you
sold this letter and it's true,

your days on planet earth
are over. Do you hear me?

Someone has betrayed us.

I hate Bill Henrickson.

When you are at a.s.u.

Try not to let
your laundry pile up.

It's much easier
if you stay on top of it.

At least
trust me on that.

I just don't want to spend
parents' weekend doing laundry.

Mom, I decided
that I'm not gonna go.

- Not going where?
- Not going to a.s.u.

Really?
What... I don't...

when did you decide?

It was a huge mistake.

Sorry, I just
really don't feel

like talking about it
right now.

Right right.

Um, the university of Utah
is a good school.

I'm not going
to the "u" either.

So you're not going
to college.

Not this semester.

Sarah, I don't understand
what's happening here.

From my point of view
you're just careening.

I am your mother, but I feel as
if you are actively blocking me

from every important
decision in your life,

and for the life of me
I don't understand why.

Please don't make this
about you.

That is not fair.
I only want to help,

but I can't
if you won't talk to me.

I'm sorry,
but the fact is

I've had to make my own decisions
for a really long time now.

And yeah, I've made some
really crummy decisions.

All right.
Ney, honey,

all right,
they haven't been crummy,

but you can't do whatever you
feel like with your own body.

Oh, wow. Please don't
lecture me on chastity.

This isn't about
abstinence, Sarah.

It's about being right with
God, with your inner spirit.

Could you please
give me some space?

No, I will not
give you space.

You don't always get
to have space.

You live in relation to
others. That's what family is.

All right, no, you do not
get to dismiss me.

I am your mother.

Nobody loves you
more than me.

And I'm here
in your life

and that is never
gonna change...

ever.

What are you making?

A schedule.

With two of us wives,

we'll need a schedule
to keep organized.

We need to be
on top of our game.

And schedules don't
just make themselves.

That's a very nice
schedule, Wanda.

Thank you.

Is it fixed?

Yeah, for now.

Joey,

I'm afraid
that all this change...

the wedding...
is upsetting Wanda.

It's not right
that you've taken on

the added burden
of Wanda because of me.

No, because of you
I wake up joyful.

I never dreamed
that I could have that.

We agreed that we would
share in Wanda's care,

if it comes to that.
And it wouldn't be right

to focus only on our happiness
if Wanda is suffering.

I love you so much.

Joey Jr. Wants to ride
in the truck.

- Come on.
- All right.

You can continue talking.
Don't mind us.

Wanna ride
in the truck, huh?

- What is it?
- Surprise!

Sarah said she'd watch
the kids this afternoon

so you and I can
go out to lunch.

I can't today.
I'm very busy.

Please. Nicki.

You don't know
how desperate I am

to get out of the house
and have some fun.

With a job comes
responsibilities.

They depend on me.

I can't just up and leave
in the middle of my work.

Oh, darn. What am I
supposed to do?

Get an oil change.

You don't take proper care
of that car.

Well,

wave so I can see
where you work.

What are you
talking about?

"Sixth floor,
county services building."

What are you doing here?
You're not supposed to be here.

Well, I am allowed out
once in a while.

Introduce me
to your co-workers.

I changed my mind.
Let's go to lunch.

Don't you have
to tell someone?

Margene, hi.
Off to lunch?

Yeah.

I'm sorry,
do I know you?

I don't think so.

Ray Henry.
I'm a friend of marge's.

- I'm...
- Barb.

This is my friend Barb.

Pleasure, Barb. Nice to finally
meet a friend of marge's.

We're crazy about her
around here.

Marge, when you get back
I have those reports

for the judicial conference
to go out.

- Nice to meet you, Barb.
- Let's go.

- Who was that? What just happened?
- My boss.

He just kept calling you Margie.
Why would he do that, Nicki?

Keep your voice down.

It's no big deal. I had to use
your name on the job application.

They wouldn't have hired me
if they knew who I was.

Who wouldn't have?

This isn't
the county clerk's office?

No, it's the district
attorney's, you ninny.

Are you crazy?

My mother got me a job
so I could pass

inside information
on my father's trial.

Oh my gosh,
you need help.

You stole my identity
and you're spying,

or tampering or
whatever it's called?

It was satan.
Satan got ahold of me.

You have to quit...
today...

or I show that man my driver's
license. Do you understand?

Do you?

Sorry, wrong office.

Hey.

What do you want,
Adaleen?

Roman knows
that kathy marquart

is continuing
to sow unrest here.

You're mistaken.

As far as we're concerned,
the trial is over.

Maybe you don't know what's
going on right under your nose.

I know kathy's busy preparing
for our wedding tomorrow.

I'm trying
to do you a favor.

Roman may be
under scrutiny,

but provoke him at your
peril. He's still the prophet.

Roman is the prophet
of the holiday inn.

And if he tries
a thing, Adaleen,

I will defend my family.

You're as big a fool
as your brother

if you underestimate
my husband.

He is a lion.

You brokered a sale
between Ted and Alby?

What were you thinking?

I acted as a go-between and they
killed the antigambling legislation.

But I was told the letter
was about mountain meadows.

But now
you're not sure?

I don't know.
I don't know.

There's been rumors
of a letter like this

in polygamist ciles
for ages.

What if I'm responsible
for handing it over to Ted?

When did Ted become
a collector?

It's not for him.

He was acting as an agent
for someone else.

And you didn't read it?

I never even touched
the thing.

But why would Ted lie?

Because he knows I wouldn't
have done it otherwise.

Iook, there's just
this photocopy from Joey,

and we don't even know it's
that's the letter Alby gave Ted.

We need
to find out more.

- Cindy would know.
- Cindy?

Oh, no, Bill. No, I
really don't want to.

So you know
about the letter?

Of course.

Ted would hardly spend
$50,000 without consulting me.

Wow, that's a lot
of money.

Don't get me started.

Plus what the labs at the "u"
charged to authenticate it.

Why are you so interested in an
old mountain meadows letter anyway?

Uh, well, like I said,

when Bill told me
he was helping Ted,

I was thrilled maybe that
they were burying the hatchet.

But Bill hadn't read the letter
himself, so we were curious.

So the letter is in good
condition? Being so old, I...

I'd certainly
assume so.

I haven't seen
the thing myself.

Huh.

Uh, that's odd.

I mean, like I said,

you know, to spend
that much money

and never even
look at it.

Did Ted not want you
to see it for some reason?

Just what
is this about?

I don't know what
you're driving at, barbie,

- but I trust
my husband.

Oh, there goes the cat.
I gotta go.

Okay.
All right, bye.

Our guests might enjoy
a cold drink.

Lemonade?

Adaleen,

we have all put aside
our squabbles

so that we may focus on
more important endeavors.

Selma, come join me.

Now it's time for you
to do your part

so that
we may all benefit.

I don't want Hollis
to take a new wife.

You will give Hollis
your consent

and you will perform
your marital duty

unambiguously.

You brought such joy
to our mother and father.

The last child is often
the most precious,

so stop being such
a rebel and behave.

Do you understand?

It's not right that he should
get away with what he's done.

I understand. I haven't
had a decent night's sleep

since the trial started.
But, kathy, Roman is rattled

and that's when
he's the most dangerous.

Maura is willing
to go to the authorities

about Roman,
but she is afraid.

We know. Hon, no one's asking
you to forget what happened.

Joey, she needs my help. She
doesn't trust anyone else.

And we'll get her help.
You've done enough.

None of us believe that justice
was served at that trial.

We're just saying you have to
be more careful, that's all.

You can't meet with
any of these women alone.

You only go if one
of us is with you.

Nice morning.

- You changed your hair.
- Mmm.

But it was so pretty.

Your turn
to watch the kids.

I can't.

You didn't quit,
did you?

I can't just up and quit
without notice.

I have to be careful not
to raise any red flags.

I could get thrown
in jail.

I could throw you in jail.
You stole my identity.

What was I supposed to do? It's not
like I can be myself out in the world.

I gave up everything. I gave
up my career, so you could work.

I don't even get to go
shopping anymore.

Do you have any maple syrup? We're out.

It's on the door.

Oh, Margene.

It's so good
to have you back.

Thanks, Barb.

Today is
Nicki's last day.

Really? I thought
you decided to stay.

Oh, you know these temp jobs...
here today, gone tomorrow.

Are you going to try for another
assignment through the agency?

Actually, Nicki was
just telling me

she isn't crazy about office
work. Isn't that right, Nicki?

I guess not.

And we were thinking maybe
I should go back to work

since I showed a real
aptitude for sales

and Nicki should
stay home with the kids

since she tried working and
didn't really take to it.

That way
everyone wins.

Oh, well, it's certainly
something we should discuss.

Bill wants us to leave for
the wedding around 3:00.

He wants to get there early
to help set up.

You're being mean to me.

Hi, Barb.

Wanda, what are you
doing here?

I just wanted to talk
to you. Is that okay?

Of course. I'm...

I'm just a little surprised
to see you on your wedding day.

There isn't anything wrong, is there?

No.

I was hoping you could
tell me exactly what you do.

Excuse me?

Well, you're a first wife,

I'm gonna be
a first wife

and I need to know what a
first wife does, exactly.

Well, you don't have to
do exactly what I do.

Yes, I do.

You have to believe me,
Barb, I do.

And I can't go to any of
the women on the compound.

I don't want them to know
that I don't know.

Okay.

Well, I guess the first
thing to remember

is that you represent
all the wives,

- and that's why poise...
- do you ever get nervous?

Sure. Sometimes.

Have you ever had
an accident?

An accident?

You know,
during the night.

Oh, honey,

you need to calm down
and just relax,

and you'll get through
all the nerves.

I don't think

I can be a first wife.

Sure you can.

Have you talked
to Joey and kathy?

I know
they'll help you.

No, it's my
responsibility.

They have too much
on their minds right now.

I need to take care
of them.

Okay.

Then...

from one first wife
to another,

I'll let you in
on all my tricks.

Okay.

So where was I?

Poise.

Poise and carriage...
they mean so much.

And you should be prepared
for anything because, trust me,

you will be the one on the
front lines dealing with it all.

And don't be afraid
to be a leader...

I mean, your sister-wives
will appreciate it.

And you know what they say
about the woman behind the man?

Absolutely true.

You set me up, Ted.

Bill, you're all worked up
over notng.

I asked you to broker a
deal and that's what you did.

You've nothing
to complain about.

Thanks to my calls, you're
getting your casino loan

and the anti-gaming
legislation's killed.

- I want to see the letter.
- How dare you make demands?

Cindy, it's all right.

It has nothing to do with
mountain meadows, does it?

It's the woodruff letter, proof that the
church never intended to abandon polygamy.

Are you insane?

What is this, some kind
of nut conspiracy?

There is no such letter
except in the minds

of desperate
wishful thinkers.

But how can you be sure if
you haven't even seen it?

What's your problem
with just showing it to us?

You're all crazy.

Fine. Ted, show them
the letter.

Cindy, please.
I can handle this.

I'll buy it from you.

- Bill...
- what are you doing?

$50,000. it means
that much to me... to us.

I'll borrow against
my houses if I have to.

I'm sorry, Bill.
It's too late.

I handed it over to
the church this morning.

I think it's best
for everyone

that we just put this
whole thing behind us.

Best for you
and the church.

This isn't over.
Come on, let's go.

Nothing about this life I've been
called to lead has been easy, Ted.

And for all
these years

you and Cindy have
damned me for my choice.

And now you're
burying the truth.

Damn you.

Oh, hey, I didn't know
you were working today.

I'm not.
I need to talk to you.

Did you get that text message
from our new quad mate?

She seems really cool.

I think she's from
Massachusetts or something.

I'm sorry, I...
I can't go to a.s.u.

What?

What happened? Did your
parents freak out or something?

It's not them.
It's me.

I finally
let myself think

about what it is
that I'm really doing,

and I can't, Heather.

I lost my baby

and nothing is
the same.

I'm... I'm so so sorry

that I dragged you
into this whole mess.

No. No, don't.

Please, I'm sorry.
Don't cry.

You made
the most amazing,

generous offer
when I needed it most,

and I will always
love you for that.

But I know
that in my heart...

no no.

You can't just acquire and
manipulate lives to suit you.

- Heather, I didn't...
- you used me.

You imposed
on my feelings

without even
giving it a thought...

what this might mean
for my life.

No,
I didn't mean to.

I was so scared, Heather,
and you offered.

You know, I've never judged
you for your loss of chastity

and I've never judged you
for getting pregnant.

In fact, nobody has, and
maybe that's the problem.

I've had to struggle
with my innermost beliefs

to be your friend, Sarah.

What have you ever had
to struggle with?

Just what?

Oh, you look like...

an angel.

Thank you, Wanda.
I'm so happy.

I'm happy too, kathy.

And you don't have to
worry anymore,

because I figured it
all out.

Figured what out?

You'll be first wife
and I'll be second wife.

No no, Wanda, I can't.
It's not right.

I will always
respect your authority

and defer
to your experience.

I thought
and thought about it.

It's the only way
it will work.

Please trust me.

Then that's the way
we'll do it.

Where did you get
these flowers?

On the side
of the hill.

Let me pick some
for your hair too, please.

You'll look
so beautiful.

Okay.

Okay.

- ♪ this little light
of mine ♪

♪ I'm gonna
let it shine ♪

♪ this little light
of mine ♪

♪ I'm gonna
let it shine ♪

♪ this little light
of mine ♪

♪ I'm gonna
let it shine... ♪

hey.
Hey hey hey.

Marge, wait.
Wait a second, wait.

You're not quitting again,
are you?

I am.

I'm sorry.
I have to.

Why? I know
you don't want to.

Heather hates me.

- You hate me.
- No. No.

I don't hate you, honey.

I'm a terrible person.

No, that's not true.

I wanted my baby, mom.

I really loved my baby.

I know you did.

God took him away
from me to punish me

for being bad.

Oh, no no no.

No, sweetie.

I don't believe heavenly
father works that way.

I was glad I lost him.

I was relieved.

I was too.

What a beautiful day.
I love weddings.

Oh, the carrot salad
tipped over.

There's some paper towels
in the back somewhere.

Nicki, just grab
the coconut squares.

Sure.

There's a problem.

Did we forget
something?

I have to
figure some things out.

I think it's best if I'm
taken off the schedule.

Nicki, what are
you saying?

You don't want to be
with Bill anymore,

or with us?

Kathy's missing.

Wanda thinks she's getting
flowers or something,

but she's been gone
too long... over an hour.

I've looked
everywhere.

I'm sure she's okay.
Have you talked to jodean?

- Maybe she went over to her sister's.
- Yeah, I called.

Bring the girl in now.
The prophet is ready.

People will know I'm missing.
I'm getting married today.

We are expediting
that very matter,

but we have a need
for a substitution

vis-a-vis the groom.

You are to be sealed to our
husband and prophet Hollis Greene.

No.

Please let me go. I'm to
be sealed to Joey and Wanda.

Why are you are
doing this?

You have become an irritant
to my esteemed brother-in-law.

Kathy, you were warned,

yet you persisted in
spreading vicious falsehoods.

You have maligned me,

so you must go where your
lies can do no more harm.

After I seal you
to Hollis,

you'll be taken
to Mexico

where with heavenly father's
blessing

you will bear him
many children.

No!

No! No, Hollis.

Hollis, no!

♪ holy holy holy ♪

♪ lord God almighty ♪

♪ early in the morning ♪

♪ our song
shall rise to thee. ♪

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