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- Marrying a stranger is crazy.

- ♪ Am I dreaming, dreaming

- Oh.

Hearing her say that she couldn't marry me

was the biggest failure of my life.

I want to continue to follow through

with wanting a divorce.

- I would like a divorce.

- I would like to get a divorce.

- I'm excited to say I want to stay married.

- I need to be with Austin without the cameras

and without production

and just rebuilding what I hope we can have.

- Are you willing to get married at first sight again?

- I most definitely am, yes.

[laughter]

- ♪ I've got dreams I can follow, follow ♪

- We've really leaned in to accepting each other

for exactly who we are.

- Austin, did you go out last night?

- Yeah. - Any producers there?

- No.

Went out with my friends.

- Just be honest.

- He is going to be the perfect guy for someone.

I don't think it's me.

- ♪ I am free

♪ I am me

♪ I am who I want to be

- And tonight, while most transition

to life after Decision Day--

- It'd be nice to have men to help us with this [bleep].

Too bad they were [bleep]twads.

- Do you want to be more than friends?

- Honestly, I think that would be a huge benefit regardless.

- Yeah.

- One couple has less than three weeks

until it's their time to decide.

- How many foster children are in this dream of yours?

- Probably, you know, maybe five at a time.

- Five at a time?

[dramatic musical sting]

- I really have no intentions of ever speaking to her again.

- Oh, [bleep].

- Do you have any regrets about the whole thing?

- Uh...

- I reached out to Becca, and that was a mistake.

- It's going to be hard for me to move on.

- If Decision Day was tomorrow,

I might be feeling like it's a no.

- I would be feeling like I have insufficient data.

♪

- Happy one monthiversary.

- ♪ It's all or nothing

- This is "Married at First Sight."

- ♪ There's no other way

♪

♪ It's all or nothing

- ♪ Even if we sometimes get our wires crossed ♪

♪ We will always find each other when we get lost ♪

- So with the girls.

We don't--we don't leave each other's sides.

The funny thing that we wanted to document

is that none of our husbands, our now ex-husbands,

have not texted us whatsoever after yesterday,

which it seems like to some extent, while different,

we all deserve some sort of apology.

- Like, if he was willing to lie about that in front

of three people who literally saw him out at a bar,

like, what else has he lied about?

And what else would he be willing to lie about?

- I will say that Cameron leaving,

I feel like I knew he felt guilty--

- Me too.

- He could not look me in the eye.

- And he raised his voice at me.

- The issue is that these men do not know how

to decipher their emotions.

- I do think that what we all know, us girls, is that--

- We got each other.

And we've--we've strengthened our backbones.

- Yes. - Mm-hmm.

- And like-- - And I'm so grateful.

Again--

- Couldn't have done it without us all.

- Very grateful to you-- to you for that.

- So stay tuned.

♪

[upbeat music]

♪

[cow moos]

♪

[goat bleats]

- Right here.

♪

- Hi! - Hi!

- So glad you're here.

- Oh, so happy to be here. I'm Chloe.

- Chloe, I'm Andrea.

I'm the director of Broken Shovels.

- I've always dreamed of having an animal sanctuary

since I was a little girl.

And so I thought bringing Michael today

to get a feel for what it might look like for us

in the future is just the absolute best way

to spend the afternoon.

It's probably not a life he ever envisioned.

But it's something that I would hope that Michael

could really lean into and be open to.

- For you and for you.

- Awesome. - Perfect.

- And then these are your patting gloves.

So if you each wear one of these, as you're going around,

the goats are going to love you so much.

These are like brushes and gloves at the same time.

[upbeat music]

♪

- Let's go pet some babies.

- So first thing we're going to do

is we're going to meet Miss Lila Moo.

- OK.

- Lila Moo is one of two disabled, immobile cows

in the country that is currently living in sanctuary.

- Hmm. - Aww.

- This is her.

She is--oh, you're crying.

You're so sweet.

But she is--

- Does she love carrots?

- She brings on a lot of tears, a lot of happy tears.

She may take a little tip of a carrot.

She likes horn rubs.

So just take that little tip off of that carrot for her.

She's kind of a little surprise angel sent to us.

- Is there any particular area that she speci--

like, really enjoys being pat?

- If you go under her chin, that--

that sort of flappy neck area.

- Like right here?

- Yes, you got it.

You're a pro.

So she has a wheelchair as well

if she needs to get a little adventure, but being out here,

she can see the whole sanctuary.

She stays very engaged.

- I personally haven't ever pictured living on a farm,

you know, for my own future.

But seeing Lila-- this place is providing her

such a high quality of life.

I'm actually emotionally touched.

And so it's really fulfilling

to kind of see and be a part of.

- One of these days, this will be my life.

I can feel it.

OK.

- All right, so we're going to go see all the goats.

- Oh.

Hi, everybody.

Oh, my gosh, this is my dream.

Hi!

- These are all of our old--

old goats.

These guys are doing their golden years.

Arnie's going to stay in here with the old--

with the old goats.

- You stay here, buddy.

- So... - How are ya?

- Your work today, of course, where there's goats,

there's going to be poop.

We want them to have nice--nice places to lay.

- OK.

- So you guys will be raking up piles.

And then later, our bobcat will come through and scoop it up

and take it to our compost. - Great.

Put us to work.

- Million dollar volunteers, so--

- You can be on pet patrol right now.

I'm going to literally start raking this [bleep] up.

- [laughing] Oh.

Oh, this is amazing.

What a dream day.

So my dream, actually, has always been

since I was a little kiddo to have an animal sanctuary,

live and be a part of everything that we're doing,

and feel like they have a sense of love and purpose

and all the good stuff, so this is a big one.

So what do you think about my dream here?

- In your dream, how does it compare size-wise to this?

- This is bigger than I would--

than I would do probably.

- Would you say half the size?

- Yeah, probably about half the size.

Really depends upon the animals

that would need to be brought in.

- Do you envision it kind of 50% farm animals,

50%, like, potentially domesticated animals?

- I'd say anything that wants a permanent home,

probably hospice.

- So more like senior?

- Yes. - Across the board,

farm animals and-- - Seniors, special needs,

any of the animals that just needs a home.

And in recent years,

that has expanded to an animal sanctuary

where we have our foster kiddos that get to come and just

kind of enjoy unconditional love from animals.

Would be really nice, so--

- Do you imagine foster children like in parallel

with the sanctuary, or pre,

or after the sanctuary is up and running?

- I feel like it's, uh,

definitely going to be a pre-sanctuary thing.

Sanctuary is going to take some time.

But I would love for foster kiddos

to definitely come prior to that.

- How many foster children are in this dream of yours?

- Probably, you know, maybe five at a time.

- Five at a time?

[tense music]

- And the older kids.

I'm not looking for the little kids.

Little kids tend to be pretty easy to place.

I'm looking for the older kiddos that are a little more

challenging because they typically

come with some behavior issues

that might be tough to navigate.

I would love middle school, high school kiddos.

- Middle school, high school? - Yeah.

- OK.

- And we'll see how it all goes.

Got to have the space.

I want each kiddo to have their own bedroom

so they can feel like they have a place of their own.

- OK, that's not a small-ass space.

Can't really--I don't think there's any--

any apartments in the neighboring cities

that would accommodate that.

- I mean, it's a journey, and there's a lot to consider.

- Would we be aligned?

Because my whole thing in the case of foster children,

like that--

that feels like it requires a different type of engagement,

you know?

- It does.

There's a lot to learn, but I think it all starts with

just having a heart that is ready to give the love

that these kiddos deserve.

- Sure.

- Same with these animals, you know?

And nothing worth having is easy.

It's all got to be a little difficult.

- I'm concerned that our passion for fostering children

and having an animal sanctuary

are on significantly different levels.

For me, I'd imagine five would be quite the endeavor.

But in terms of where we're at,

I don't feel like it would be appropriate necessarily

for me to press on that.

Because right now I just want to understand her vision.

You know, and then once we get closer and once

we start marching towards a future,

then we could have the conversations

when they're more appropriate.

Prior to you, I hadn't conceptualized

being on a farm, you know,

pursuing foster children or anything like that.

I just--it had never--

it had never crossed my mind, to be honest with you.

- Well, you know, it's a lot to take in.

But I would love to do that.

You know that I--

I just want to make these dreams a reality.

♪

[laughs]

♪

[pensive pop music]

♪

- ♪ Picking up the pieces

♪ Of my broken heart

♪ Broken heart

♪ You took me for granted

♪ Just admit it

♪

♪ Thought that things would get better ♪

[knocking on door]

- Come in!

♪

Hi, lover! - Hi, honey!

- How we doing? - Good.

You? - You know.

- Did you shower? - I did.

- Wow! - Wow!

- What does that feel like?

- Oh, now you're like, I wouldn't know.

- I have no idea. - Oh, it was--

I needed it.

So refreshing. - Yeah.

Do you have all your stuff packed?

- All of it. It's all in my car.

I literally threw things in trash bags

that were just like-- - I would've helped you.

- Let's go.

- No, literally, it took me like an hour.

- Yeah?

- I didn't have that much.

- It's not the full move out, you know?

- Right. Right.

♪

So have you talked to Austin?

- I talked to him this morning.

But, look, I--I was expecting to hear an apology.

- Of course.

- And it was him saying, like, he doesn't understand

why he can't have our producer as a friend

and me as a wife.

- He doesn't get it. - No.

I don't want anything to do with people like that

because I've worked hard enough.

- Absolutely.

- Like, I have definitely had those toxic traits

in relationships in the past.

Like, I have gaslit people. I have been controlling.

And, like, I did the work to not be that again.

- Absolutely.

- And I can't be in a relationship

with someone who hasn't done that work.

- No. It's just sad, but I'm proud of you.

And it's time that we move on. - Yeah.

And I think it's going to be hard for me to move on.

Like, I still loved Austin

for so many different parts of him.

- Right.

- Maybe in a different lifetime,

maybe we could have worked, but that's not where we're at.

- It's not reality.

♪

- I really did think that Austin and I had a shot.

And less than 24 hours later, that all crumbled.

And it's sad and disappointing.

And yeah, there's always a what could have been.

But now I just have to use this time

to move forward and move on.

- So what are you going to do with the fish?

Do you know?

- If the side of anger were to speak today--

- [laughs] The anger side.

- I would take one of them.

But then the ethical side of me is like,

I don't want to separate the fish.

Like, they need to stay together.

But hot damn, high school Becca would have

been taking that damn fish.

Like "Legally Blonde,"

"going to take the dogs," or whatever the [bleep] she says.

[laughter]

I'm taking the fish.

I don't know what the future holds for me,

but I just know that I need a partner that

is honest with themselves.

Nobody's perfect.

We're humans.

But I think there's a certain level of trust

that you need to have with your partner

to make the relationship work.

And so I'm looking forward to a little change in pace.

And I'm going to take a page out of Austin's book

and just live in the moment.

♪

Let me grab this.

- You better give your fishies a goodbye kissy.

- Aww.

You're going to have a new mom one day.

And it won't be me, but I bet she's going to be great.

And she's going to be Christian.

And she'll pray over you.

And you guys will be best friends.

Bye, honeys. [smooches]

♪

- ♪ Made me believe in

♪

♪ Made me believe in us

♪

♪ Made me believe in

- Ooh, one done.

♪

Damn, I have a lot of [bleep].

[phone rings]

Oh, no!

Hi. What's up?

- Hey, do you want to chat?

- Yeah.

I'm in the midst of moving out.

It is time to go back to Emily party of one and do me.

- How are you feeling about moving out?

- I mean, yeah, I'm excited, bittersweet, sad.

I just hate change.

Like, I'm sad, but, like,

I also think I haven't had time to process anything,

like the accident, this.

So I do know that being alone

is going to be a little tricky for me and not having people.

So I just don't really know what to expect, like,

if I'm going to, like, have a meltdown anytime soon,

you know?

- Yeah, because it's not like you just went on vacation.

It's like you moved into this place.

You created a life with someone.

Like, there's a lot of, like-- it's almost grief, right?

- Yeah.

I mean, I've been definitely grieving.

But, I mean, honestly, like, you know me.

I think like going back to bopping and being a nomad

and just travel, travel, travel, travel is, like,

really actually what I need.

So while it sounds exhausting in this moment,

I think it's going to really help, like,

not get into, like, a very deep, dark place.

- Are you feeling, like, anxious

or, like, have you shed tears?

- I've been crying a lot.

And then I get sad.

And then I get, like, depressed.

And then I get, like, angry.

But I think actually--like, I might actually get

very sad when I'm, like, in my room alone.

- Yeah.

And it might feel weird when you get back to your new spot

for like a week or two.

But I feel like eventually you'll get to the other side,

and it will not feel so painful.

- I'm, like, excited now to grow from this,

but also, like, learn exactly what to avoid with a partner.

But also, I feel like this is just going to make me, like,

better to be a better partner.

I just shifted priorities, and, like, I'm thankful for that.

And no regrets.

Yeah, I would not take any of this back.

And I think it's, like, what I really needed.

And although it was not at all how I expected it,

I think, like, I'm going to be, like,

so much better off and stronger for it.

And so I'm appreciative of that.

It won't be easy, but first up is leaving this space behind.

- It's just going to get better and better.

You just have to, like, have fun.

- Roll with it and keep riding the wave, but it's a new wave.

It's a new ocean.

- It's a new ocean.

- Well, you know, I love you.

Have fun. And I'll talk to you tonight.

- OK. Talk to you later.

- Yep. Bye.

This is the end of Emily and Brennan,

and then kind of, like,

the start of Emily happened here in the past week.

So I think it just has come full circle.

- I don't know.

Because I've been emotional all week.

But yeah, I mean, this has brought

a lot of different perspectives.

- ♪ Stop fighting the fight

♪ I'm sorry you've been waiting ♪

-It's just really time to get my life back in order

and just start, like, the new beginning after this.

♪

- ♪ I see your fear

♪ I know you're freed

- ♪ Only

♪ Only you can lift me up

- There's a lot of stuff in there, Becca.

- I'm ready.

- Remember, I'm crippled.

- [laughs] I'm here to help.

- I don't even know where to begin.

- Oh, Jesus.

- I really committed, dude.

- You really moved in.

- I really did.

- You really did the damn thing.

OK.

♪

It'd be nice to have men to help us with this [bleep].

Too bad they were [bleep]twads.

- We're so strong and independent.

- And just like that--

- Just a lot of work.

- Two single girls back in Denver.

- Becca is literally the most well-articulated,

powerful, feminist, just strong person.

Like, she honestly has been giving me

all the advice from the beginning.

She has always the right words to say.

And she's going to be a lifelong friend after this

and definitely one that I'm going

to be leaning on for sure.

- It's going to feel so good once you get settled in.

- I know.

- It's funny because when I look back on the honeymoon,

I just think of, like, baby us

who were like, we're going to be great.

This is going to work.

Like, we've-- we've got good guys.

Like--and then it just, like, slowly unraveled,

but in a way that it wasn't like one big explosion.

It was just like each of us being like, wait,

this isn't right.

Wait, this isn't right. - Mm-mm.

- That's not right.

And then it started to slowly turn

into anger for both of us.

- I think what we both want is just, like, focus on us again.

- Yeah.

I never liked dating,

but [bleep] no am I going out there.

Because, like, I don't want to go out there

until I work on everything I need to work through.

- Same, and I don't want to go out there--

- And, like, my time and energy for that right now--

- Yeah. - And so many other things.

- I don't want to go on a date

until I know that I can be a better partner

than I was to Austin.

Like, every time-- each relationship,

I want to be the better version of myself

and a better partner.

- They obviously feel like they can treat us

that way for a reason.

So have you gone back to your drawing board of, like,

why you think?

So, yeah, that's really what I'm curious to know.

And that's where I think I have a very pivotal opportunity

because I think,

fortunate, unfortunate first relationship.

But it's the first relationship that I think can steer me away

from, like, literally so many other bad ones,

which I think is, like, a very, very, very positive thing

coming out of this. - Yeah. Yeah.

- Because I just know where this could go.

And I know this track record is most likely.

- It could be a pattern,

but you're not going to let it be a pattern.

And also, you're doing the work to make sure

that anything that you brought toxic into the relationship

won't also be a pattern.

- Like, I think, yeah, I can maybe handle myself better,

but like--

- I think when you learn to put boundaries up

and you know your worth and you know

how you're willing to be treated,

there's going to be an easier way to communicate

that than with rage.

If you feel safe, if you feel seen, if you feel respected,

there's not as much urgency to be reactive like that.

Because you feel like you can take the time

to actually express your emotions

and know that they'll be heard.

- That's where I know, like, I've come a long way because

I used to always just react.

- Mm. You were really reactive.

I could say that for you.

- I know, but I have really realized through this

I've come actually a really long [bleep] way.

- Yeah. And--

- And you're going to keep going further.

- Yeah.

- But I just want you to know what

an amazing partner you're going to be to someone someday.

Because the way that you are accepting

of people's criticism, the way that you just

want to have fun, I imagine you maybe one day as a mom

if you want to do that.

And I just think your partner is going

to be so lucky because you are willing to give

up some of that control.

And I think you learned that.

And I think one day some guy is going

to swoop in and just be like,

what the [bleep] was this guy doing?

- I know. Same.

♪

♪

- I'm kind of finishing up the move from apartment

back into my old spot.

Morning!

- Bag lady over here.

- Definitely going to miss living with Becca,

but I'm just excited to be back in a place

where I can, like, kind of get back to my routines

and, like, normal habits.

- So, Austin, I'm really glad that

you brought back dish towels.

- I know. We got a lot of towels.

We got to get rid of some stuff.

- I mean, you know, we're combining households--

- Yeah.

- But not combining people necessarily.

How are you--

- Not necessarily.

- Feeling about coming back without a wife?

- It sucks, honestly.

- Was it an explosion or was it just,

we don't think this is going to work?

- One of the bigger issues in our relationship

was the process of filming

and how that made me feel inauthentic to her.

And after Decision Day, I, like, went out with a producer.

I didn't think it was a big deal at the time,

but Becca found out.

And I...lied to her.

♪

And it was a mistake.

I've had [bleep], like,

worst day I've experienced in like 10 years.

Like, it was--yeah.

Anyway, after the group meet-up,

I reached out to Becca.

And I was like, hey, can we talk

about what happened again?

And that was also probably a mistake.

- Why was that a mistake? What do you mean?

- So--

- It sounds like what you should be doing.

- She felt like I should have taken that time to, like,

think about everything and think about all the events

and my actions and all this stuff.

- I mean, do you feel like you were doing that?

I feel like that's exactly what you were doing.

- I wasn't.

I just disconnected. - Oh.

- And I guess she came into our conversation

basically expecting, like, an apology, like, immediately.

And when it didn't start out that way--

- And I've--yeah. - It didn't.

- Like-- - Yeah.

- Like, that wall-- - It didn't go anywhere.

- Wall dropped, totally.

- Yeah.

- Like, yeah, I mean, as a girl,

I probably would have assumed the same thing, I think.

So I-- - Yeah.

- Have you seen her since?

- Nope.

- Oh, my god.

- She told me that she wanted to...

disconnect from me completely,

unfollow each other on Instagram,

no talking, none of this.

Just like-- [clicks tongue]

- How do you feel?

- This has been the hardest time--

♪

Like, the hardest times of my life.

What's even harder is, like, she now doesn't, like, trust

or have faith in, like, our relationship.

You know, she told me that she was excited to hear my friends

talk about my loyalty

and, like, trust and honesty and communication

and all that.

And now all of that is, like, tainted.

- Yeah.

- And it's, like, hard to, like, have someone who you,

like, deeply care about, like, think those things.

♪

- I'm sorry.

- It's OK.

- Aww.

♪

- Yeah. - Yeah.

So--

- So what--where do you go from here?

♪

- I don't know.

- ♪ We're fading out

♪ Fading out

- ♪ You want to go high

♪ I want to go low

♪ You want to spend days

♪ Watching videos

♪ You wanted to fly

♪ I wanted to fall

- Can you do two of the crown refreshers?

- Yeah.

- Sweet. That's perfect.

- Enjoy.

- Thank you.

All right, should we go play? - Yeah.

Yeah.

Might as well.

- That bartender was actually really cute.

- Yeah, she was.

- Damn, bro, I'm a single man.

- Someone is single.

♪

Man, so how has it been, the transition from going--

going from 0 to 60 from 100 to 0?

Because I remember you--you saying that,

like--like, divorce was not going to be an option.

- Yeah.

But when, you know, I was miserable,

I had to kind of put my pride aside and say,

this isn't working for me.

This is not what I signed up for.

- Yeah.

- And I had to come to terms with that.

- I hope this doesn't poison the idea of marriage for you.

Do you think this whole experience has done that or--

- No.

I mean, obviously, I'm going to take a lot of time to myself

and, like, not try to rush into anything.

- Right, right.

- But it was cool, you know, having

someone to do a bunch of [bleep] with,

tackle tasks with.

- Yeah.

Well, now you just need to find the person

that has the same wavelength.

- Right, right.

- So, I mean, I guess going forward, what are you--

what are you going to be, like, more on the lookout for

than you were before this whole thing?

- You know, this really did teach me

how to ask more questions, you know?

- OK.

- Because I would just ask the questions,

but then that would be it, you know?

Here it's--they taught you how to ask questions

to help you get a little bit deeper and, like,

to think of [bleep] you never really thought of.

So I'm going to take some of that

and apply that into my next one so I can, you know,

get to know someone a little bit better.

- Get deeper, uncover the good things and the bad.

♪

I mean, do you have any regrets about the whole thing?

- No, you know, dude--

- Like, any of the way that you handled anything or like--

- Obviously, I made some mistakes, you know?

- Because I wanted it for you.

I wanted you to be happy.

- I did care about Emily, but there's moments like--

one day I was just, like, looking through, you know,

our diary cams for memories, right?

Because we do that a lot.

- Yeah.

- And I saw one that was just, like,

her just unloading on me and just talking

a whole bunch of [bleep] about me.

And I was just like, um,

is it possible you could delete this?

Because it's kind of [bleep] up.

- Yeah, yeah, yeah.

- She was--accused me of being, like, controlling

and, like, all this [bleep].

If you're going to come at me with these baseless

accusations, then, you know,

we're really just not meant to be in each other's lives.

So that's that, you know?

- So you feel like you got hurt a little bit, though,

from all this?

- Yeah.

♪

- I mean, do you think you're ever going to see her again?

Do you want to?

- I don't really feel the need to kind of open up

those doors again and those wounds.

- Does that mean there's things that

you think require closure?

- I don't have anything I need to say or--

I'm just trying to heal for myself.

And that includes just taking time away from her.

- I just don't want you to regret it.

- Regret what?

- Just leaving things unsaid or--you know?

I love Brennan.

And I don't think he's had the closure from this experience

that he was looking for.

He seems like there's more to be said.

But if he doesn't want to do it and he sees no reason to,

I can't tell him otherwise.

- There's nothing left to say.

I mean, I'm just going to do what's best for me

and walk away from this with my head up and--

- As long as you think that's what's best for you,

that's what I want for you.

- Hell yeah, bro.

- That's all--that's all I care about.

♪

- ♪ Pretty blue eyes

♪ Hollywood smile

♪ Yeah, yeah, yeah

- [sighs]

♪

Love it.

Beautiful.

- [vocalizing]

♪

- Oh, I have to go for-- OK, fine.

- You have to come to me. - Go.

Go. Come here.

- [laughs]

♪

[both laughing]

♪

- Right now that's like-- that's tentacle action.

That chemistry with Chloe and I,

like, I would say that's in an extremely positive place.

And, you know, after the sex store,

no pun intended, but slid right into having sex.

And sex with Chloe is great.

I knew we were going to have great physical chemistry,

and sex was just kind of the culmination of all that.

So now that we've kind of crossed this bridge

of foster children and an animal sanctuary,

let's talk about what the immediate future

would look like.

Because I am in a high rise. - Mm-hmm.

- You are in a cutesy flat.

- Yes.

- So what would be the three things

that would be most important?

- So we will have five animals.

- Yes.

- I think size.

- Size.

- I think access ease.

- OK. - And I think, um,

probably parking.

- OK. - Yeah.

- Sure.

- Yeah, it's all the things we can think about.

Oh, my gosh. - Thank you.

- Oh, my gosh, no.

That looks amazing.

So how do you feel about maybe

pivoting from an apartment altogether

and looking at an actual freestanding house?

- Oh, I'd be fine with a house.

But I would also add--

because you said your lease is up in June?

- December. - December?

- Yours is June.

- So we could just ride your lease out

to not have to deal with that headache.

♪

- Do you foresee us living together

in that time or just kind of--

- Well, I would say this.

We would commit to at least

four to five days

of spending with each other, two days recharge.

That would be our transition to, like, full-on cohabitation

when your lease is up.

- Do you think it'll still feel like we're actually married?

Or do you think this is an opportunity

for us to fizzle out if we don't move in together

right away?

- I do think it's something to consider.

- Yeah.

- It's not something I'm worried about.

I would--for a frame of reference,

I would use, like, when you took time off.

For most people, they would be like, what the [bleep]?

For me, that was like, no, that is--that is what we need

to stay as engaged as we want to be

when we're in each other's presence.

So though I think it's a--it's a question worth considering,

it's not a concern that I have.

- Is there anything that gives you pause?

Because I know, at the end of the day,

the thought of an animal sanctuary is a lot.

- Sure.

- The thought of fostering children is a lot.

So I think I just want to hear from you,

and safe space-- now is the time to say,

yeah, this stuff scares me a little bit.

And I'm not quite sure how I feel about it.

- An animal sanctuary doesn't scare me.

An animal sanctuary of 500 animals scares me.

Fostering children doesn't scare me.

Fostering five of them scares me.

So what scares me is intensity and scope, not the idea of it.

- Mm.

- Like, I am great with two children.

You put four around me, like,

that's going to be a lot on your boy.

♪

[upbeat music]

♪

- Here?

- Yeah, I like it.

[line rings]

- Hi.

- Hi.

- You look pretty.

- So do you.

- Glad you guys can join me today.

- Yeah, likewise.

♪

- So yeah, there's a Venmo payment waiting for you

that I need to send to you.

[laughs] Do you remember when I was a good business owner?

- I never thought I would see this day.

- I just prioritized Austin way too--

way too much, which isn't healthy for any relationship.

- To be honest, I just never thought

that you would be in a relationship

that would require so much of your time and energy.

I just never saw that happening.

- Yeah.

- I also feel for you because

having put so much time and energy into something that

didn't turn out the way you wanted to is, like,

also kind of a hard pill to swallow,

knowing that time and energy was taken away

from something that you really do care about.

- I know.

- You also thought that you were

going to have somebody that was going to be on your team.

- I know.

- But knowing what we know now, that's not the case.

- Yeah.

- How are you, dude? What's up?

How's life?

What's new?

How's this been?

- [laughs]

A lot of questions.

It's been a bit of a roller coaster.

It's had, like, a lot of ups and downs

and kind of ending it on-- on a down note, unfortunately.

So it's been tough.

So yeah, tough.

- What'd you do?

- Yeah.

[laughter]

- That's a very fair question.

Yeah, no, I definitely [bleep] up.

- If you had a partner that was on your team

and that was lifting you up and supporting you

in all the right ways, this will be so hard.

- Yeah.

- That's why I just don't want you

to be too hard on yourself.

- I'm trying not to be, but it's, like,

you know that I can be critical at times of people.

And I have high expectations.

And I can be demanding.

And I don't know if I

maybe did too many of those things with him.

- From my perspective, I don't think that

if you would have been less of that,

that that would have changed the course

of your relationship.

- I know.

But then I play the game in my head where I'm like,

oh, well, he was working on x, and he was working on Y,

and he was working on Z.

And, you know, like, I--

yeah, I do that whole thing.

- The way that you grow, like, you specifically,

is you talk about things.

And the fact that when you did that in your marriage,

you got shut down over and over again

shows you that he wasn't ready to grow with you.

- Yeah.

- Hindsight being 20/20, would you have done anything--

have done anything differently?

- Yeah, absolutely.

There's, like, a lot I would have done differently.

But, you know, we talked after--

after the argument and kind of, like, talked about

what happened and what we wanted for our future.

And basically the vibe was like,

there's no salvaging this.

- Did you want to?

- Yeah, for sure.

I wanted to make it work.

Like--

- I know you did. - I liked her.

- You said that. - Mm-hmm.

- There was, like, a lot of good

that we had in our relationship and a lot of similarities

that I loved.

And even some of the differences, like,

I did like between us.

♪

- You have done everything in your power

to try to make this work.

- I have no doubt that Austin will grow from this.

And it sucks to not, like,

reap those benefits in a certain way.

- Just as long as you know in the back of your head

that the solution isn't to run back to him, you know?

♪

- Maybe with time, I'll come to realize that, you know.

- Yeah.

- Yeah.

- So you're pretty certain at this point,

like, there's not really any recovery?

♪

- I don't know.

♪

[upbeat music]

♪

- How's it going, guys? - Hi!

- You ready to go?

- Yes.

Ooh, I'm really excited for this.

The last time I talked to Orion,

I said that I wasn't going to be the first to reach out.

But I do want to give him his credit

and say that Orion invited me out

to have a little fun playing, like, dodgeball,

but with bow and arrows.

I feel like this is a really fun way

to take out some past aggression

and get a couple shots off of my ex-husband.

- On my whistle, you can run in, grab some arrows,

and we're ready to go.

All right. 3, 2, 1.

[whistle blows]

♪

- Oh.

- Oh, nice first shot.

- Oh!

♪

Oh, man!

- Coming for blood.

- You almost broke my glasses.

♪

Ooh!

Let me try that.

- Oh, there's a hit.

- Ooh, I think that's a second hit.

♪

- Oh, he got me.

♪

- 3, 2, 1.

[whistle blows]

- I'm so out of breath right now.

- I think I counted three hits on you and only one on her.

I think she might have you beat at some archery.

- Good game. There was one.

I think it was over here.

Like, zoom, just right past my head.

- Yeah, I was aiming for your head.

- Yeah. [laughs]

- All right, guys. Hopefully, you had some fun.

If you want to hang out, feel free.

I'll bring you guys some drinks.

- All right. Thank you so much.

- No problem.

- But this was fun.

Yeah, I really enjoyed this.

I'm not going to lie.

I did enjoy shooting you. [laughs]

- You got me right in the heart.

Yeah, that was in the chest.

- Perfect aim.

[both laugh]

- So how are you doing?

- I want you to know I'm doing really well.

Like, better than before I came into this process,

I think, just because it's like, yeah,

it didn't work out.

But let's look at the growth that came from it.

So--

- It's kind of like the blessing or a lesson?

- Yeah. - Yeah.

- Yeah.

I thought it was a blessing and a lesson.

- Yeah? - I feel blessed.

- I would agree. I would agree.

It was definitely-- I definitely felt blessed.

But, you know, I got a hard lesson through it, so--

but, you know, I mean, you know,

with that, you know, I am doing really good.

- Are you going to start dating soon?

Or have you been dating?

- I don't know.

I feel like I'm not quite done in this process with you.

♪

- So I'm a little confused.

Like, what--because I know we left off on,

yeah, let's--like, friendship is on the table.

But do you want to be more than friends?

- I have been thinking about that.

- OK, so that means yes.

- I'm kind of on board

to have the uncomfortable conversation.

Because I don't want to leave things unresolved.

I think that would--

honestly, I think that would be a huge benefit,

just to talk about all of it.

And so there's not anything either one of us

is hanging on to.

- I don't really think I'm hanging onto anything.

But I guess we can discuss having that discussion.

- OK. Yeah.

I mean, I'm open for it.

♪

- OK.

♪

I don't know. I don't know.

I just got to see where I'm at with everything

and, like I said, how much effort

I want to expel to this dynamic at this point in my life--

- Sure, sure.

- just because I feel like my effort

might be used elsewhere

and used better elsewhere right now.

I just don't know if it's going to be good.

♪

[upbeat music]

♪

[line ringing]

- Yeah?

- Hey, what's up, guy?

Last time we were together, I would say

that was pretty much like a shootout.

So how are you feeling after that conversation?

I know you kind of bounced early and everything, so...

- I would have preferred a standoff.

But you're right, it was more of a shootout.

I mean, there were a few things that, you know, that

kicked me off to begin with, where, you know, the whole--

thing of saying there's a theme of the men silencing

the women, which definitely,

for lack of a better description, triggered me.

Because throughout my marriage,

there was literally never once ever said to Clare,

you can't say this, you can't do that,

you can't anything, right?

It's always been, please, make sure you express yourself.

And watching Clare kind of be Emily's puppet master--

- Mm-hmm.

- Where everything Emily was doing

was being coordinated by Clare.

And it all clicked for me that

that could've been my entire marriage.

And every step of the way,

Clare had lied to me to try and get

some type of reaction out of me.

I'm now very glad that I'm divorcing Clare.

And frankly, I really have no intentions

of ever speaking to her again.

- Oh, [bleep]. - Anyway, sorry.

That's--

- Hey, I'm here for you to vent.

I'm here for you to vent.

So please feel free.

- Gotta get some of my questions.

I got to get some questions in too.

- What's on your mind there?

- All I've heard through the grapevine

is, like, you guys are doing better

than some of the other couples, right?

- I will validate what the grapevine has whispered

to you, that throughout this journey,

things have been primarily really good.

- That's awesome.

- I think for me, what I'm trying to sort through

in terms of, you know, figuring out where I'm going to land

on Decision Day is just how I feel

about my own emotional growth.

How do I feel about my readiness,

willingness, and ability to continue in a marriage?

Which I'm just in a space right now where I'm, you know,

navigating those emotions so that I can come

into Decision Day with a very clear answer

and a clear understanding of how I feel.

- Yeah.

I mean, you have to understand that that's--

that begs a lot of questions.

One thing I might be thinking about

if I was in your position, like, how do we actually

fit into each other's, like, long-term lives

and lifestyles?

- I think for me, it's specifically how I'm feeling.

Do I feel like I'm coming out the other end,

you know, in an emotional place to continue to foster

not just a marriage, but this marriage?

- You might consider saying, hey, you know,

let's maybe, you know,

be less serious about the marriage

after this experience to kind of make sure that

the seriousness of the marriage

is organic and comes back naturally.

- For me, kind of the mindset is, you know, it's not asking,

do you want to continue to date?

It's asking, do you want to still continue

to work on this marriage,

which means a lot to me.

- You want to focus on,

are we over the goal line,

or have we come up a yard short?

- Exactly. Exactly.

- You know, if I was in your position and I was with

someone--if I was with someone who, you know,

we got along well, like, I liked them,

you know, there's more of each other that we can explore,

I'm the kind of person who's going to be like,

well, I'm going to say yes no matter what.

- Look, man, I want to go into Decision Day.

Leading up to it, I want to have

all the tools I can to make the best decision possible.

So I really do appreciate your thoughts there.

- Yeah, of course.

And any time before or any time after, you know,

you want to chat, you know, hit me up.

I definitely don't envy you, honestly.

- [laughs]

- Because the fact that you guys are still trying to, like,

work it out, that actually makes it really, really hard.

♪

[upbeat music]

♪

- Oh. [laughs]

- It's a cute setup, right? - Oh.

That is so sweet.

- I wanted to bring Chloe here to the beer spa

for our one-month anniversary, because this past week

we've really had to envision what our future looks like,

which can, you know, be a little stressful.

So what I was thinking is like, oh,

it's really nice to kind of just take a moment.

Just relax and reflect.

I'm going to get naked. - Oh.

- I need to get naked. - Are you?

- Yes.

Even if it's only going to reduce

my temperature by a fraction.

- [laughs] - [grunts]

- Oh, oh, oh, wring those out.

Dang.

- Oh, god, I feel so much better.

- It feels like you would.

- Wide open right now.

- Me next. Just kidding. Just kidding.

I feel happy and peaceful

and, like, this is probably

the healthiest relationship I've ever been in

in my entire life.

- I feel very fond of the person in front of me.

And, like, I've had a taste of what it's like

to have someone who will perpetually and unequivocally

have your back.

- That's beautiful.

Is there anything that you wanted

and you feel like you didn't get?

Or is there anything that you got

that you didn't really want?

- If you would have asked me, hey,

we want to set you up with a woman that wants to start up

a sanctuary, I probably wouldn't have been like,

you know what? - That's what I want to do.

- That's what I want.

But I didn't actively call out, hey,

no animal sanctuaries, [bleep] damn it.

And at the very least, I do love animals.

So yeah.

- OK.

That makes sense. - How about you?

Was there anything you asked for and did not receive

and something that you received that you were like, ah,

if you would have told me, I probably would have said,

I don't want that.

- You know, the thing with me is

I came into this process asking for an empathetic man

who wanted to love me harder

than he's ever loved anyone before.

- What'd he look like?

- Ironically enough, I asked specifically

for a 6'3" man bun with yoga muscles

that I met in the Whole Foods produce section.

- OK.

- You're coming in at a hot 5'11".

- Sure.

- You got that hair tied up in a bun.

- I do.

- We have a Whole Foods beneath us.

I feel like we can work out this fantasy.

- Yoga muscles?

- Yoga muscles, boxing muscles.

I'll meet you in the squash, baby.

- Mm. - [laughs]

Do you feel like we are on the trajectory where we're going

to start feeling like we are each other's person

and throwing around that L word?

- Oh, do I think we're in a trajectory to be in love?

Is that what you're asking me? - That's what I'm asking.

- Yeah, I think we can grow at it at our own pace

and still be at it in a place we're saying,

no, we're on a trajectory of where

we could one day be in love.

- Cool. OK.

I want to make sure that we are aligned.

So if Decision Day was tomorrow--

- What would I say? - What would you say?

- Aw.

Well, I would say that I feel that we're trending

in the positive direction towards a yes.

What I would need to say yes

is just feel like that we've not only solidified

and created an emotional connection,

which I think we did, but we've sustained it and progressed it

to a degree not just where I would say like,

I want to continue dating you, because it's not dating,

you know, but that I want to continue in this marriage,

which I think is, like, a significant level up.

That's what I would say I need.

- Oh.

I think I might be kind of hearing a little bit

that if Decision Day was tomorrow,

you might be feeling like it's a no.

- I would be feeling like I have insufficient data.

- Thank you for being honest about that.

♪

Happy one monthiversary.

♪

- ♪ New levels

♪ New heights

♪ Yeah, I'm flying high

♪ Push the pedal to the metal ♪

♪ Yeah, it's time to shine

♪

- Hello.

- Hi.

- I'm Becca. - Nice to meet you.

I'm Monica. - Emily.

Nice to meet you.

- Nice to meet you, Emily.

Have you gotten your aura photos done before?

- Never.

- No, I have actually never-- which is really exciting

because I'm very much into, like,

the supernatural stuff.

- Awesome.

This will be a really great and fun experience for you both.

- We wanted to get an aura reading today

because me and Emily are dealing with

the end of our marriages.

- We're about to embark on a personal growth

discovery journey.

- That's an underestimation. - Yeah.

- Energetically, I've had a difficult time

finding my grounding during this entire process

and doubting myself.

And I think being aware of what your energy is

and where you are in the world spiritually is important.

I think Emily feels the same.

- Are we ready for our aura photos?

- Yes. - Great.

So as a psychic medium,

what can happen is your guides come in.

I connect with your guides. I also connect with my guides.

And so I'll pull in their energy.

I'll start with Becca, since we took your photo first.

So that one's ready to go.

- Pretty.

- So yeah, super cool energy,

really deep red auric field right here.

And so this is the energy that you feel inside

but also how people kind of feel around you as well.

So a lot of people feel very safe with you.

And it is a very nurturing type of energy.

You're so thoughtful and so empathetic

that it would be good for you to see how much you give

and how much you receive in the relationship.

So try not to overcompensate

by overgiving too much

and allowing yourself to receive.

And don't feel like you can't ask for help.

- Yeah.

- And speaking your truth is very important to you.

So does that make sense?

- Yeah.

Wow.

I feel like that's spot on.

- All right.

- I'm excited to see yours.

- Yours is pretty cool too.

- [gasps] Oh, my gosh.

- You guys are so similar.

- I know.

- Even though you share very similar energy,

there's a different message with yours, which is cool.

So you can see how deep your red auric field is around

your aura of protection.

So this to me is saying that you know who you are.

You're not apologetic for who you are.

You live life the way you want to live it,

and you embrace that.

And that's a really beautiful thing.

There's something about this because

it feels to me very hot and heavy energy

when you all got together.

- When who got together?

- You and your person.

Like it was all like, you know, when you have

like a grade school crush, you're just like...

[squeals] You know?

Like, it's very infatuating.

And then whenever you all actually, like,

cohabitate together, it was, like,

this huge energy shift.

It was like, what happened?

- I think she was very spot on about my relationship

with Brennan.

Like, it was kind of intense in the beginning,

hot and heavy, whatever you want to call it.

It just felt, like, too good to be true.

And then when we moved in together,

stuff immediately went to [bleep].

But I think that's a pretty powerful

validating statement to hear.

And I do feel, like, motivated coming out of this.

Yep, that was me. [laughter]

That was me to a T.

- And that's OK, you know?

You are very powerful, magnetic,

caring, loving people.

And so you deserve the same.

- That's good. - That's helpful.

- Yeah. - [sighs]

[laughter]

It's hard.

We don't always know if we made the right--

I mean, you know if you--

I know you made the right decision.

I'm not really sure if I made the right decision.

- I think yours was very spot on, though.

- Yeah. Yeah.

Yeah.

I don't--yeah. - Mm-hmm.

- I have had a lot of self-doubt

as to what my responsibility has been

in the ending of our relationship.

Maybe in six months, I finally will feel healed and move on.

But for right now, like,

I don't know if I made the right decision.

♪

- ♪ Just pull me out of this deep water ♪

- ♪ Pressure is a paradise

♪ Pressure is a paradise

- Come on, sweetheart. Hi, darling.

Are you ready?

See what Dr. Pia has to say this time around?

- Are you?

- A little nervous to see what happens today.

- You scared of her?

- Not scared. Just on edge.

- Ah. - On edge.

- I think it'll be all right.

- I have no idea where Michael and I are at,

if you want the truth.

I thought we were doing great.

- Hello. - Hey.

- Hi. How are you?

- Good. How are you?

- You know, we are at our one monthiversary.

And pose the question, if tomorrow's Decision Day,

how would you feel?

And Michael said, I don't know.

And so all the things that I thought were going well

and now I'm like, well, I don't even know.

I really don't.

- All right. So fill me in.

How have things been since we last met?

- I think our general consensus,

at least at the moment, is, you know,

we've been very fortunate that there hasn't been

a lot of misalignment when it comes

to values and perspectives. - Yeah.

- So we really haven't had to invest too much time, like,

working through any of that.

Like, for example, like, things like what would budgeting

look like or what would a potential living situation

look like, you know, those conversations,

we're pretty aligned on.

- How is family situation?

Have you all thought about, like, how you might

merge your families together?

- I was fortunate enough, like, at our wedding,

to meet her mother.

So I was very intentional of like getting to spend

a little bit of time with her.

You know, unfortunately for me, like, my mom wasn't there.

But, you know, we've had conversations

about, you know, when I think that that might be

a good time to introduce her to my mom and, like,

what that dynamic-- - Wait. Pause.

Did you say introduce, as in you have not met his mom yet?

- No. - Oh.

Does she know you're married?

- No, she doesn't know I'm married.

- OK. - She doesn't know I'm married.

She hasn't been included to this point

because, for me, I want to include her

after Decision Day, if that makes sense.

- It doesn't. Help me. Help me make it make sense.

Because if you want to include her,

but she hasn't been included.

- I also want to say that I've encouraged this mindset.

Because there's just no reason to elevate

feelings of anxiety and frustration and confusion--

- OK. - If we don't have to.

- I am respecting that this is a decision that the two of you

have made, especially, you.

This is your mom. - Right.

- So I'm curious if there are any doubts that either of you

or both of you are having that, for instance,

might impact your decision to, you know, introduce mom

or might impact your decision to, like,

think about the future and planning future?

- So for me, my doubt or concern is,

how is this going to progress?

Like, we're now starting to broach the topic

of, like, after Decision Day.

- Tell me a little bit more about what those conversations

have been like.

- Yeah, so we were talking at a high level of like, OK, well,

how soon should we be moving in together?

Like, our leases end, like, six months apart.

So kind of understanding, OK, well, in that meantime,

like, are we still just-- are we just going

to have our own space until the respective leases are over?

You know, those kind of conversations.

- I don't think it's going to be a good idea

to be living separately.

That's where I'm like, OK, let's challenge here.

Because if y'all are married,

this isn't dating anymore, right?

And so if we're talking about, like,

how do we have things be successful?

Help me understand why there's a conversation of,

When will it be right for us to move in,

versus, OK, whose place are we moving into,

or are we getting a new place?

- Well, number one, I've never been married before.

So, you know, I'm trying to just better

understand how this all feels.

And really, I'm just trying to hone in on my emotions.

And so there's so many levels to it.

Like, the first part I established,

like, do I like Chloe?

Yes.

I do like Chloe.

We have that covered, you know?

Do I like spending time with her?

I go through--it's this categorical checklist.

And then as you get closer to like,

OK, do I want to be with her?

Yes, I want to be with her.

Do I want to stay married?

Like, those are those areas where it's like,

I know what I want to feel.

And I'm trusting that I will, or as best as I can,

when that day comes.

♪

- And I know that as a married couple,

we should be living together.

But if after Decision Day we have come to this place

where we want to see this through

and we still have a story to tell,

where we're living is not going to impact that.

What I want him to feel confident about

is our way forward without bringing

this extra layer of stress.

So this is where I'm saying,

don't worry about telling your mother.

This is where I'm saying,

I don't want you to even ask about the things

that I feel are irrelevant.

Like, I feel like this is the most mature relationship

I've ever been in.

This is the most fulfilling and satisfying relationship

I've ever been in.

So we are just trying to take every moment for what it is

and hope that we can make a really informed decision

on Decision Day.

- I hear that.

And my concern is the authenticity here.

Because your responses almost seem curated.

It's coming off to me as like, OK,

what's being withheld here?

Like, what is this wall that's up, right?

And if that's just for me or for the cameras

or for production, OK, so long as that's not happening

between the two of you.

- I didn't come into this

giving a damn what anybody thought.

I came into this saying, I'm going to be raw,

I'm going to be vulnerable, and I'm going to hopefully

leave this entire process with my person.

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I could not be more authentically myself.

- I just--you know,

I really want you all to be more honest with each other

after I leave.

Because that's what my concern is, is like, oh, [bleep],

are they kind of, like, faking the funk?

Or is Chloe people pleasing?

And then once cameras are gone,

and then real life hits, like, oh, [bleep],

here's all this stuff both of you

all have been holding back.

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- ♪ Coming out, gotta hit the beat ♪

♪ Like a match, want to bring the heat ♪

- Next time on "Married at First Sight"...

- I want to be very clear.

If we are going to stay married,

we need to move in together.

- It was, like, 2:00 a.m. in the morning,

and he stayed with me the whole time.

- Trying to talk to Lauren as much as I can.

- It made me feel very safe in the moment.

- We are not going to go and try to buy a house

right after this.

- I'm still missing Austin really badly.

Like, he really did the best that he could.

And I'm just, like, having second thoughts

and feeling like I gave up too quick.

- What would you do if he said no on Decision Day?

- Um... [dramatic music]

- I don't know.

- Now that I've really started to evaluate,

I'm really questioning this marriage.

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