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I've been called a witch,a slut, and a murderer.
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I've been hounded by the police
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and slandered in the press.
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Maybe people confuse mewith the characters
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I played in films.
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Like I'm an empty sign
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on to which they projecttheir fantasies
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and their shortcomings.
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But I don't needto settle scores.
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I'm reclaiming my soul.
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I write as a woman
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searching foranother adventure.
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We're nota nostalgic family in any way.
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Yes, we had some great times,
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and some were not that great.
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But we don't reminisceabout those sort of times.
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It just wasn't in our nature.
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My mother, especially,
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is not someonewho'd dwell in the past at all.
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Melancholy.
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Anita never suffered
from that sort of thing
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or at least
never appeared outwardly.
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She was just like, "Yeah, well,
that was that. Let's move on."
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So when she died,me and my children
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started going throughdocuments and drawers
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to try to find legal papers.
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And I was really shockedto find Anita's manuscript
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right there perfectly typedin the box.
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Quite astonishing.
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It was important that
eventually she said something.
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And that's what it is.
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Her intention was notto be a housewife
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or the wife of anyone really.
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Not even Keith's.
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She had bigger ballsthan any of them did, probably,
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in a lot of ways.
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I mean, Anita,she was a unique piece of work.
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I mean, I've never quitefigured it all out.
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Basically, I was tryingto keep up with her
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most of the time.
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And the most of the time,it was fun.
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This isn't reallyan autobiography.
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It's more like memory images.
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A traveler's talethrough a landscape
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of dreams and shadows.
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I don't think the lawyerswill like it very much.
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We had no secretswith each other.
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Anita and I, we hadquite an intense friendship.
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As soon as we saw each other,
you know,
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we rushed to each other
and hugged each other.
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And, for her,
it was so easy and uncomplicated
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because it was kind of
understood from the beginning,
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there's no sex between us.
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So let's find a different
kind of relationship.
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I was looking for an actress
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that wouldn't looklike an actress.
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I asked a fashion photographerwhether he knew anybody.
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And he said, "Yes, I do."
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"I just photographed her
on the highest German mountain,
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the Zugspitze,
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and she's absolutely incredible
and wild."
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Anita had vulnerability.
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Even though she was likea tough cookie,
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there was a really, like,an earnest quality
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in her as well.
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I thought if she remains
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as natural as possible
in front of the camera,
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so much the better.
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I was extremely close friendswith Anita,
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but I always wondered
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whether she had any family.
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I never really knew
what was with her father,
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what was with her mother.
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Did she have a sister
or a brother?
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She would never speak about it.
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I was alwaysa wild child,
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rebellious,
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causing my family problems.
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They said actingwas for prostitutes.
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That I'd dirtiedthe Pallenberg name.
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My fatherwas a classical musician.
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My mother did everythingshe could to please him.
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My great-grandfatherwas the painter Arnold Bocklin.
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Famous for his paintingsof bestial satyrs
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and sleeping nymphs.
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Bohemian aristocracy.
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We lost everythingduring the war.
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My earliest memoriesare hearing airplanes
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dropping bombs.
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I didn't learn to walk,
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I ran.
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We were moved aroundin cattle cars.
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Sliding doors, chaos, heat.
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It affected me deeply.
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The war in Rome,
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it was a terrible period.
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So repressive in all senses.
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And the situationat Anita's home was the same.
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The parents,they were old-fashioned.
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Very conservative.
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No hugging, no kissing,
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no hotness of the heart.
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And I think that Anita
really couldn't stand it.
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It was not for her.
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She was done in a different way.
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She wanted to be hugged,
she wanted to have affection.
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She wanted to feel things.
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She loved to feel things.
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Anita and I were goingin the same school,
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the German school.
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We had nuns.
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German nuns. Can you imagine?
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Of course,
you want to break the rules.
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And in the night,
four, five, six of us going up
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and trying to smoke cigarettes
at 16, you know?
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And they got us.
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We were the devils.
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Anita was my teacherin everything. Always.
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She loved Fats Domino.
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And she taught me
how to do rock and roll
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with that one, two, three, four,
one, two, three, four.
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And showing with the feet.
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Dancing and pullingand pushing.
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♪ She's my boogie woogie baby ♪
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She was my myth.
I wanted to be her.
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I want to be Anita.
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♪ Boogie-woogie, babyBoogie all the time ♪
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She was a sparkle.
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She was sparkling, you know?
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Where she was walking,
it was going tick, tick,
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tick, tick of sparkles
of the eyes she had.
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The way she was looking.
The smile she was having.
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The way she was moving.
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The way she moves.
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This was Anita.
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America, because of the jeans,
the music, the rock and roll,
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America, of course,
it was the dreamland to go.
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We really wanted to go
to America.
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All of us.
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At 19,I escaped to New York.
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I hardly spoke any English,
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but when I got there,I had an awakening.
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It was 1963, the yearPresident Kennedy was shot.
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With a few addressesin my pocket
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and some Italian charm,
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I slid into the downtown scene.
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I washed Jasper Johns' brushes.
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I met Andy Warhol
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and his rabbits.
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At a party, Allen Ginsbergcollected pubic hair
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from famous people.
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He didn't ask me.
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I loved the feelingof culture exploding.
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Being in New York,
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Anita and I were great friends
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and hung out always together.
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We were grooving alongin our own scene.
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And she quickly becamea very close friend.
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I came from thisartistic family as well...
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...so we had that in common.
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Anita had an amazing life force
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an amazing joie de vivre,
you know?
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She had a view about the arts,
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about pop art,about a lot of things.
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And, I mean,who could look like Anita?
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I was nevera serious model.
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I hated the hairdresser,false eyelashes,
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and all that shit.
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But modeling sent meall over the world.
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And it was in Munich
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that I first metThe Rolling Stones.
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It was 1965.
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♪ I wannaTell you something, baby ♪
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Mick wasn't dancingin those days.
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He was still playing maracas.
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Keith was really shy.
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♪ 'Cause it's alright ♪
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♪ Yeah, it's alright ♪
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The concert was wild.
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♪ It's alright ♪
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Police had to pushthe audience back.
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Mick got so scared,he had to hide.
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I loved every minute of it.
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It sounds ridiculous, I know,
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but my friends dared meto kidnap one of them.
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I got backstage
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and noticed Brian Jonesright away.
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He was the most beautiful onein the group.
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And he hadstriking intelligence.
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I offered the band some hashand Brian said yes.
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No need for kidnapping.
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We became inseparable.
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Everybody saidwe looked like twins.
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Yeah, I believe that two people
can fall in love very quickly.
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And I think they can find out
about each other
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very quickly if they're in love.
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My doppelganger.
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My Brian.
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It was time to leave New York.
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When we moved in together,
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our flat in London becamea crash pad for everybody.
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Brian had gotthis apartment
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with his new girlfriend, Anita.
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Anita was, even to us,
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who've been around.She was incredibly intriguing.
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It was difficultto put into words.
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Her knowledge of thingswas just fantastic, you know?
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I found myself going roundto Brian's more and more,
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and not to see Brian,of course, but to see Anita.
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The flatwas an incredible mess.
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They never decorated it.
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I don't know whatwe all found so fascinating.
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I think it must havebeen Anita.
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She really brought somethingto The Stones.
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She was only 23
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but I was only 18.
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♪ He walks along Singing his fairy song ♪
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♪ Picking up magicThat grows at his feet ♪
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I was making music.
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And I was acting.
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And I fell in love with Mick.
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But neither Anita nor Iwanted to be with them
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because we wantedsome of their power.
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We had our own power.
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You know,Anita broke through
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a sort of very sexist time.
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And she demanded that
people follow on her terms
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rather than
on anybody else's terms.
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And her influencewas a tremendous one,
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especially on Brian.
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You know, she got him far moresophisticated than he was.
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By then, I was in London,playing in a pop band.
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I was part of the wholeRolling Stones scene,
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and that's when
the psychedelics come in,
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where suddenly there's this
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whole other dimension
that opened up.
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We started doing acidand I stopped modeling.
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You couldn't do both,and I loved acid.
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But thingsgot a little spooky
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when Brian startedto have bad trips.
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He saw monsters fallingout of the cupboards
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and enemies everywhere.
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He had terrible asthma
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and he startedtaking amphetamines.
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STP, Mandrax,barbiturates, Dexedrine,
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all prescription fucking shit.
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We arein the swimming pool of a motel
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which happened to be
by the roadside and...
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He startedto become aggressive.
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Some typical Georgia idiot,
you know?
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And Georgia is full of idiots.
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Anything that you'd like
to say right now
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- before the camera rolls out?
- Goodbye.
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- Goodbye.
- Goodbye.
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His sudden rages scared me.
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I had to learnto stand my ground.
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He would hit her.
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It was really awful.
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And Anita fought back.
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She would justpunch him straight back
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and really hurt Brian,
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'cause he was quite weedy.
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Brian was very weak, you know?
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That's why he wasso cruel and
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physically violent, I think.
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But she never complained, no.
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She just got on with it.
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When I was sentmy first film script,
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he was so jealoushe ripped it up.
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I did it anyway.
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I'd read in a newspaper
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an article about a prostitute
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who, in a brawl,had killed her pimp...
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...and feltno guilt about it,
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so she hired two guys.
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The three of them drive
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to the countrysideto dispose of the corpse.
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But theyhave such a good time
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in the countryside
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that they forget aboutthe guy in the trunk.
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On the windshield,
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we had writtenon a little paper,
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"Fuck the message."
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Meaning this movie
has no meaning.
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I was very surprisedwhen one day,
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she showed up with Brian Jones
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in the small town of Munich,
a Stone.
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It was obviousthat Brian was very much
289
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depending on her affection.
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He was very insecure.
291
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Anita told me that
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Brian would like to do
the music for the film.
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Of course, I said yes.
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If you are offered
a Rolling Stone
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to score your movie,
in those days,
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I mean, you triple
the value of your film.
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At first, he was very,very serious about it
298
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and he had wonderful ideas.
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But two months later,
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we could hardly get himto the studio.
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He had somehow lost it.
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Keith was there,
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but probably toplay the guitar,
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and he saw how everythingwas going down the drain.
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He started to give a hand
306
00:23:35,249 --> 00:23:38,451
and more and more took over.
307
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Things have been runninga little fray in the band,
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00:23:45,793 --> 00:23:49,964
so I thought I'd sort ofmend fences with Brian.
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And at the same time,I have to admit,
310
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I found Anita fascinating.
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There's that thingacross the room, you know?
312
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The elephant in the room. Hmm.
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At that time, the band,to me, was, uh...
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It was my baby.
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So, you know,it's a very delicate situation.
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When Keith was there,Brian wouldn't hit me.
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So thank God for Keith.
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Looking after Brianbecame so difficult,
319
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I ended up downing vodka and...
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God knows what elseevery night.
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00:24:49,023 --> 00:24:50,524
Trouble was coming.
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Brian swallowed drugsin front of a reporter
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00:24:55,563 --> 00:24:57,565
and set off a wave of busts.
324
00:24:59,867 --> 00:25:02,803
A national newspaperhad tipped off the police
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00:25:02,837 --> 00:25:04,171
that it would beworth their while
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to raid Richards' homefor drugs.
327
00:25:05,439 --> 00:25:09,577
Jones admitted that he'd allowed
his flat in Courtfield Road
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to be used for drug taking.
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00:25:11,012 --> 00:25:12,313
The jury have had to decide
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did Keith Richard knowof the LSD,
331
00:25:14,181 --> 00:25:16,017
which police foundin his jacket pocket.
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00:25:17,718 --> 00:25:20,254
I got busted with Mickin my house.
333
00:25:21,288 --> 00:25:22,757
It was an acid trip.
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I mean, we were alljust coming down.
335
00:25:24,859 --> 00:25:27,028
There's a knock at the door.
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It was the law.
337
00:25:31,932 --> 00:25:35,836
So we've been busted,and now we're out on bail.
338
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And, uh...
339
00:25:37,071 --> 00:25:44,111
run away was our first,you know, manly response.
340
00:25:44,145 --> 00:25:48,249
So that was-- Let's run awayjust for a bit,
341
00:25:48,282 --> 00:25:50,918
until we haveto turn up in court, you know.
342
00:25:52,386 --> 00:25:54,155
So we arranged this trip.
343
00:25:54,688 --> 00:25:56,323
"Let's go to Morocco."
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00:26:01,962 --> 00:26:06,634
I end up in my carwith Anita and Brian.
345
00:26:11,238 --> 00:26:14,375
It has gone from an apartment
346
00:26:14,408 --> 00:26:19,246
to this very intense car ride.
347
00:26:25,786 --> 00:26:27,054
We stopped in Paris.
348
00:26:27,088 --> 00:26:29,757
Got incredibly stonedfor a couple of days.
349
00:26:32,393 --> 00:26:34,829
But our aimis to get to Tangier.
350
00:26:36,764 --> 00:26:37,998
And then one day,
351
00:26:38,499 --> 00:26:42,136
Brian falls incredibly ill.
352
00:26:44,205 --> 00:26:45,973
He was very asthmatic
353
00:26:46,006 --> 00:26:47,842
but I don't think itwas asthma.
354
00:26:48,042 --> 00:26:51,178
Brian, sometimes,he takes so much shit
355
00:26:51,212 --> 00:26:55,349
that he just needed to berevamped a few days
356
00:26:55,382 --> 00:26:56,717
in machinery.
357
00:26:58,119 --> 00:27:01,755
And the decisionwas to leave him there.
358
00:27:05,426 --> 00:27:09,396
I presumed that Anitawould stay with Brian,
359
00:27:12,266 --> 00:27:15,002
so I was very surprisedthe next day
360
00:27:15,035 --> 00:27:17,771
when Anita's going, "Let's go."
361
00:27:22,443 --> 00:27:24,111
And now there were two.
362
00:27:31,285 --> 00:27:33,988
At first, I felt badleaving Brian behind.
363
00:27:35,356 --> 00:27:38,125
But then it was a relief.
364
00:27:41,095 --> 00:27:42,796
I knew my way around Europe.
365
00:27:43,030 --> 00:27:44,665
I felt more in control.
366
00:27:52,373 --> 00:27:56,177
Keith and I smoked hash,big spliffs and poppers.
367
00:27:58,513 --> 00:28:00,447
And we played songs,
368
00:28:00,848 --> 00:28:03,984
a secretive communicationwith records.
369
00:28:12,960 --> 00:28:14,695
I couldn't hide it.
370
00:28:15,396 --> 00:28:20,167
I found him very attractive,very sexy.
371
00:28:35,983 --> 00:28:38,919
My night with Keithwas a revelation,
372
00:28:39,787 --> 00:28:42,790
to have someone lovingand tender.
373
00:28:45,426 --> 00:28:48,996
He'd look at meand I'd melt inside.
374
00:28:57,338 --> 00:29:00,107
The next day, we triedto pretend it didn't happen.
375
00:29:02,042 --> 00:29:03,877
We had to be really careful.
376
00:29:04,311 --> 00:29:07,214
If Brian found out,he would kill us.
377
00:29:22,263 --> 00:29:25,132
Suddenly, Anita,from just being
378
00:29:25,165 --> 00:29:26,867
this... I don't know.
379
00:29:26,900 --> 00:29:30,572
To me, at the time,a very confusing situation,
380
00:29:30,605 --> 00:29:32,106
made everything clear.
381
00:29:35,409 --> 00:29:37,945
I was bursting in lovewith Anita.
382
00:29:41,949 --> 00:29:43,484
Her independence,
383
00:29:43,784 --> 00:29:47,354
her absolute determinationto be
384
00:29:47,589 --> 00:29:49,390
whatever you'd so-call "free."
385
00:29:53,494 --> 00:29:55,929
It bewildered me to start with.
386
00:29:56,897 --> 00:29:58,533
And then I started to realize
387
00:29:58,566 --> 00:30:02,236
that both of uswere these war babies, you see?
388
00:30:04,305 --> 00:30:08,842
The war permeatedyour whole upbringing.
389
00:30:13,113 --> 00:30:16,183
Anita just wantedto fucking kick it all over.
390
00:30:24,659 --> 00:30:27,227
But then by the timewe got to Marrakesh,
391
00:30:27,529 --> 00:30:29,597
Brian has rejoined us.
392
00:30:31,065 --> 00:30:33,233
Now it's getting complicated.
393
00:30:37,071 --> 00:30:39,106
Brian didn't finishhis treatment.
394
00:30:41,942 --> 00:30:43,310
Everyone was on edge.
395
00:30:47,014 --> 00:30:49,049
That night,he picked up two prostitutes
396
00:30:49,083 --> 00:30:50,451
and told me to join in.
397
00:30:52,319 --> 00:30:53,420
I refused.
398
00:30:56,624 --> 00:30:59,527
He ordered room serviceand started throwing it at me.
399
00:31:01,495 --> 00:31:04,398
Silver, cutlery, glasses.
400
00:31:05,399 --> 00:31:06,900
I was terrified.
401
00:31:11,238 --> 00:31:12,940
And that's when Keith arrived.
402
00:31:15,710 --> 00:31:18,613
He said,"We can't go on like this."
403
00:31:20,447 --> 00:31:21,549
"Let's split."
404
00:31:27,221 --> 00:31:29,423
I can rememberour trip back to London.
405
00:31:32,126 --> 00:31:33,661
It wasn't a lover's escape.
406
00:31:38,733 --> 00:31:40,100
I was a wreck.
407
00:31:43,170 --> 00:31:44,672
We just abandoned Brian.
408
00:31:46,173 --> 00:31:47,609
We left without telling him.
409
00:31:49,143 --> 00:31:51,445
But I couldn't take it anymore.
410
00:32:18,238 --> 00:32:20,007
When the picture was finished,
411
00:32:20,407 --> 00:32:23,678
we had the premierat the Cannes Film Festival.
412
00:32:24,344 --> 00:32:27,981
Yeah.
413
00:32:32,687 --> 00:32:36,256
reporter 2:
414
00:32:47,067 --> 00:32:49,604
At first,Anita was camera shy.
415
00:32:50,204 --> 00:32:52,574
And then quite the opposite.
416
00:32:52,774 --> 00:32:54,742
She loved it.
417
00:33:00,180 --> 00:33:02,617
She did all kind of clowning
418
00:33:02,650 --> 00:33:04,351
for the photographers
419
00:33:04,384 --> 00:33:06,721
and enjoyed the whole circus.
420
00:33:12,560 --> 00:33:16,096
To walk down the red carpetand all the glamour,
421
00:33:16,129 --> 00:33:17,599
it was fantastic.
422
00:33:19,132 --> 00:33:21,536
There was all of the entourage.
423
00:33:22,704 --> 00:33:24,404
Keith, Stash,
424
00:33:25,573 --> 00:33:27,241
a whole bunch of people,
425
00:33:27,274 --> 00:33:30,377
all dressedin the most extravagant ways.
426
00:33:30,778 --> 00:33:32,514
Say something.
Say something groovy.
427
00:33:32,547 --> 00:33:35,315
- Say something groovy.
- Wow.
428
00:33:35,349 --> 00:33:37,084
- Oh, wow.
- Oh, wow.
429
00:33:38,051 --> 00:33:43,156
But also, of course,as the composer of the movie,
430
00:33:43,423 --> 00:33:45,192
Brian was there.
431
00:33:48,663 --> 00:33:51,164
I found myselfin this position
432
00:33:51,198 --> 00:33:53,467
of having to go to Cannes
with Brian,
433
00:33:53,500 --> 00:33:55,235
who otherwise wouldn't go.
434
00:33:55,737 --> 00:34:00,040
Brian had an unspoken missionto get Anita back.
435
00:34:01,174 --> 00:34:03,143
He was very contrite.
436
00:34:03,578 --> 00:34:08,181
He realized that he didabsolutely everything wrong
437
00:34:08,215 --> 00:34:10,685
during the Morocco incident.
438
00:34:12,152 --> 00:34:14,656
Anita was very kind.
439
00:34:14,689 --> 00:34:17,090
And, you know,
she could have hardened
440
00:34:17,124 --> 00:34:19,126
and said, "I refuse to see you."
441
00:34:19,694 --> 00:34:22,162
She was very tender.
442
00:34:29,804 --> 00:34:31,371
After the premier,
443
00:34:31,573 --> 00:34:34,609
we had a wild nightof celebration.
444
00:34:36,678 --> 00:34:40,648
Everybody got stone drunkand stoned otherwise
445
00:34:40,682 --> 00:34:43,450
and falling all overeach other.
446
00:34:45,720 --> 00:34:49,122
She was the queen of the group,and that, she enjoyed.
447
00:34:53,027 --> 00:34:55,530
The day after,late in the morning,
448
00:34:55,863 --> 00:34:59,466
I come into Anita's room
in the hotel,
449
00:34:59,734 --> 00:35:02,269
and there was Keith
having breakfast in bed.
450
00:35:03,638 --> 00:35:06,440
All I went was, "Uh-uh."
451
00:35:09,811 --> 00:35:14,481
I never really understoodquite what she saw in me.
452
00:35:18,318 --> 00:35:19,687
For some reason,
453
00:35:19,721 --> 00:35:21,656
she found me as mysterious
454
00:35:21,689 --> 00:35:23,725
and as attractiveas I found her,
455
00:35:26,628 --> 00:35:28,295
which is just incredible.
456
00:35:49,483 --> 00:35:51,251
It was a different kind of love
457
00:35:51,284 --> 00:35:52,687
than I was used to
458
00:35:52,720 --> 00:35:55,322
and it was a good timein my life.
459
00:35:59,694 --> 00:36:01,395
Keith was still shy.
460
00:36:01,428 --> 00:36:02,697
That's just his nature.
461
00:36:05,365 --> 00:36:08,235
I brought him outwith my Italian energy.
462
00:36:12,874 --> 00:36:15,342
Back then,he looked like a lion,
463
00:36:15,576 --> 00:36:18,278
all natural and nevermore cool.
464
00:36:23,551 --> 00:36:25,352
I was considered,for a while,
465
00:36:25,385 --> 00:36:28,488
to be like the best dressed manin the world.
466
00:36:28,523 --> 00:36:31,726
It was because I was wearingAnita's clothes.
467
00:36:32,794 --> 00:36:34,829
She had an amazing eye.
468
00:36:36,463 --> 00:36:38,465
She was the leaderin fashion.
469
00:36:39,167 --> 00:36:42,904
Since Keith went with Anita,he changed the way of dressing.
470
00:36:43,403 --> 00:36:45,873
It really changed. Fantastic.
471
00:36:46,107 --> 00:36:47,942
You see Anita on Keith.
472
00:36:53,648 --> 00:36:56,349
Anita is a charger.
She really charges you.
473
00:37:00,655 --> 00:37:01,889
When I think about it,
474
00:37:01,923 --> 00:37:04,324
in those early days,it was fun.
475
00:37:06,994 --> 00:37:08,763
The Stones would play a town.
476
00:37:08,796 --> 00:37:10,497
Then I'd fly to meet them.
477
00:37:10,898 --> 00:37:12,466
Then I'd fly home again.
478
00:37:17,004 --> 00:37:20,675
You know, Brian alwayscarried a torch for Anita
479
00:37:20,942 --> 00:37:23,010
long after it was
480
00:37:23,044 --> 00:37:25,580
proven that they couldn'tget back together.
481
00:37:28,750 --> 00:37:30,417
But I think by then,
482
00:37:30,818 --> 00:37:34,889
Keith was much more confidentof his relationship with her.
483
00:37:40,393 --> 00:37:44,832
Don't you find respectable
people terribly dull?
484
00:37:44,866 --> 00:37:46,366
You're joking, aren't you?
485
00:37:46,399 --> 00:37:48,770
I've only known
the most respectable people.
486
00:37:49,070 --> 00:37:50,337
Oh.
487
00:37:51,506 --> 00:37:53,373
My career was taking off.
488
00:37:53,841 --> 00:37:57,410
I was consumed byMarlene Dietrich, Fritz Lang,
489
00:37:57,645 --> 00:37:58,846
and all the classics.
490
00:37:59,914 --> 00:38:01,048
This is Krankeit,
491
00:38:01,082 --> 00:38:03,017
I want you now. Come.
492
00:38:05,553 --> 00:38:06,921
He wants me.
493
00:38:07,522 --> 00:38:09,456
I was working a lot.
494
00:38:10,357 --> 00:38:12,359
Mostly in European films.
495
00:38:12,960 --> 00:38:15,328
Pretty avant-gardemovie-making.
496
00:38:15,730 --> 00:38:17,698
The doctor says no touching.
497
00:38:18,498 --> 00:38:19,567
Disappointed?
498
00:38:22,069 --> 00:38:24,772
She was a verytalented actress.
499
00:38:27,008 --> 00:38:29,944
She had a great career
ahead of her.
500
00:38:35,550 --> 00:38:37,718
Hello, pretty, pretty.
501
00:38:40,988 --> 00:38:42,023
Hello.
502
00:38:42,857 --> 00:38:45,693
I played a tyrantin Barbarella.
503
00:38:46,027 --> 00:38:47,929
My idea of a quiet summer.
504
00:38:48,296 --> 00:38:50,531
Do you want to come
and play with me?
505
00:38:51,966 --> 00:38:54,467
For someone like you,
I'd charge nothing.
506
00:38:55,603 --> 00:38:57,805
You're very pretty,
pretty, pretty.
507
00:38:58,506 --> 00:39:01,008
My name isn't Pretty, Pretty.
It's Barbarella.
508
00:39:05,646 --> 00:39:06,747
Start.
509
00:39:07,715 --> 00:39:10,017
I was on the setonce or twice.
510
00:39:11,719 --> 00:39:15,556
Jane Fonda was the exact
opposite of Anita.
511
00:39:16,524 --> 00:39:20,761
Both incredibly good-lookingwith personality
512
00:39:21,461 --> 00:39:26,067
but Jane Fonda,a hard worker, very driven.
513
00:39:26,734 --> 00:39:28,936
And Anita just laid-back,
514
00:39:29,237 --> 00:39:32,640
but since she was intelligent,she got away with it.
515
00:39:33,741 --> 00:39:36,644
Tell me, my fancy, fuzzy freak.
516
00:39:37,345 --> 00:39:40,915
What do think of when
you make love to Barbarella?
517
00:39:44,952 --> 00:39:47,121
Anita, in those costumes,
518
00:39:47,154 --> 00:39:49,824
she completely forgot herself.
519
00:39:50,224 --> 00:39:52,860
So I'm your little
one-eyed wench.
520
00:39:53,995 --> 00:39:56,597
I'm also The Great Tyrant.
521
00:39:57,497 --> 00:39:58,599
That's nice.
522
00:39:58,833 --> 00:40:01,068
So she became very imperious.
523
00:40:01,102 --> 00:40:04,505
I'm not talking about him.
I'm speaking of the angel.
524
00:40:04,939 --> 00:40:07,008
I supposeit was method acting.
525
00:40:07,575 --> 00:40:10,711
She really believedshe was the Black Queen.
526
00:40:12,813 --> 00:40:15,182
I would fear for anybodythat crossed her.
527
00:40:17,818 --> 00:40:19,020
I remember once,
528
00:40:19,353 --> 00:40:22,056
I happened to say,"Oh, that's nice."
529
00:40:22,623 --> 00:40:25,960
And she turned on me, "Nice?"
530
00:40:26,193 --> 00:40:29,163
"Nice? I hate the word nice."
531
00:40:40,808 --> 00:40:46,180
photographer:
532
00:40:50,584 --> 00:40:52,687
People startedtreating me like a star
533
00:40:53,054 --> 00:40:54,655
and I kind of loved it.
534
00:40:56,223 --> 00:40:57,925
But whatever fame I had,
535
00:40:58,225 --> 00:41:00,695
it was nothingcompared to The Stones.
536
00:41:22,817 --> 00:41:24,719
I was producing the film
537
00:41:24,752 --> 00:41:26,053
for Warner Bros
538
00:41:26,253 --> 00:41:27,855
called Performance.
539
00:41:28,823 --> 00:41:30,658
Very unusual movie.
540
00:41:32,126 --> 00:41:33,828
That's how I met Anita.
541
00:41:35,029 --> 00:41:37,264
She was always gonna bein the film.
542
00:41:37,698 --> 00:41:39,967
It was written for her.
543
00:41:40,768 --> 00:41:44,939
She had a very kind of incisiveand biting sense of humor.
544
00:41:45,673 --> 00:41:47,942
She got right to the point,you know?
545
00:41:47,975 --> 00:41:49,977
Who are you? What do you want?
546
00:41:56,283 --> 00:41:59,920
The scriptwas very decadent, very sexy.
547
00:42:01,722 --> 00:42:03,958
When I heard Mickwas going to join the cast,
548
00:42:04,225 --> 00:42:05,559
I was wary.
549
00:42:06,127 --> 00:42:08,863
It all felt a little too close.
550
00:42:15,936 --> 00:42:17,571
Mick's character
551
00:42:17,838 --> 00:42:20,674
is a retiredrock and roll musician.
552
00:42:21,709 --> 00:42:23,010
He is a recluse,
553
00:42:23,344 --> 00:42:27,715
living in a kind of ramshacklehome in Notting Hill.
554
00:42:28,382 --> 00:42:30,851
He's gothis two girlfriends there,
555
00:42:31,052 --> 00:42:33,754
sort of ministeringto his needs.
556
00:42:34,188 --> 00:42:35,923
Do you think
I should wash my hair?
557
00:42:36,857 --> 00:42:38,192
Uh-uh. No.
558
00:42:38,559 --> 00:42:41,829
They're very happytogether as a family.
559
00:42:43,397 --> 00:42:46,734
They don't wantthe outside world to come in.
560
00:42:50,237 --> 00:42:52,139
That is what happens,of course,
561
00:42:52,339 --> 00:42:54,909
when James Foxarrives in the house.
562
00:42:55,510 --> 00:42:57,244
He is the outside world.
563
00:42:57,711 --> 00:42:59,747
Oh, very nice.
564
00:43:01,982 --> 00:43:03,150
And that sets up
565
00:43:03,184 --> 00:43:06,387
this very powerfulstrange relationship
566
00:43:06,420 --> 00:43:08,189
between the charactersin the house.
567
00:43:10,157 --> 00:43:11,392
What's wrong with the lights?
568
00:43:11,425 --> 00:43:14,795
Yeah. Artificial energy.
569
00:43:15,096 --> 00:43:17,164
It's pulsating into the voltage.
570
00:43:17,932 --> 00:43:19,967
Drugs werethe ultimate rebellion.
571
00:43:20,267 --> 00:43:22,103
And they wereeverywhere on set.
572
00:43:22,770 --> 00:43:26,073
Not just the old hippy varietyof hashish and acid.
573
00:43:27,408 --> 00:43:30,044
We were doing cocaineand heroin.
574
00:43:34,181 --> 00:43:36,150
James Foxwas a professional actor
575
00:43:36,183 --> 00:43:38,119
and we were intimidated by him.
576
00:43:40,688 --> 00:43:42,189
You know where I'm going, pal?
577
00:43:45,726 --> 00:43:46,760
I do.
578
00:43:49,697 --> 00:43:51,899
Like children,we teased him.
579
00:43:54,001 --> 00:43:56,070
You never had a female feel.
580
00:43:57,304 --> 00:43:58,772
No. Never.
581
00:43:59,173 --> 00:44:00,341
I feel like a man.
582
00:44:01,175 --> 00:44:02,676
A man all the time.
583
00:44:03,344 --> 00:44:04,778
That's awful.
584
00:44:05,045 --> 00:44:06,380
He almost flipped out.
585
00:44:06,413 --> 00:44:08,082
There's nothing wrong with me.
586
00:44:09,183 --> 00:44:10,417
I'm normal.
587
00:44:11,318 --> 00:44:14,255
That brought Mick and Icloser together.
588
00:44:14,455 --> 00:44:17,224
Uh, can I use
the blower up here?
589
00:44:17,691 --> 00:44:19,393
We ain't got a blower up here.
590
00:44:21,662 --> 00:44:24,765
What in God's name
has he done to his hair?
591
00:44:25,699 --> 00:44:28,836
We've seen it. We caught it
in Hamburg. Your act.
592
00:44:28,869 --> 00:44:30,204
- Oh, yeah.
- It was fascinating.
593
00:44:30,237 --> 00:44:32,306
Mick had never donea movie before
594
00:44:32,339 --> 00:44:34,074
and he liked my confidence.
595
00:44:34,975 --> 00:44:37,178
We were spendingmore time together,
596
00:44:37,478 --> 00:44:38,913
me and Mick.
597
00:44:39,514 --> 00:44:40,781
Yes, no?
598
00:44:41,048 --> 00:44:42,116
Yes, no.
599
00:44:55,930 --> 00:44:57,031
The funny thing is,
600
00:44:57,064 --> 00:44:58,966
I never reallyfancied Mick at all,
601
00:45:00,801 --> 00:45:04,038
but you spend eight dayslying in bed together,
602
00:45:04,071 --> 00:45:07,942
giggling and taking dope justto produce two minutes of film,
603
00:45:08,677 --> 00:45:10,311
and what the helldo you expect?
604
00:45:15,316 --> 00:45:16,984
Performance was replicating
605
00:45:17,017 --> 00:45:18,385
the feeling of that time.
606
00:45:19,554 --> 00:45:22,356
Sex was somethingmuch more casual.
607
00:45:23,190 --> 00:45:26,760
Something that you didwithout any commitment.
608
00:45:30,297 --> 00:45:36,070
All of us could see Mickhad fallen in love with Anita.
609
00:45:38,005 --> 00:45:41,842
He hadn't declared itbut it was so obvious.
610
00:45:46,914 --> 00:45:47,982
Salud.
611
00:45:52,219 --> 00:45:56,924
When Anita and Mickdid Performance,
612
00:45:57,258 --> 00:45:59,860
I knew I had to leave town.
613
00:46:00,060 --> 00:46:02,530
I knew I wouldn't be ableto handle it.
614
00:46:05,165 --> 00:46:07,935
I know Keithhad a very difficult time.
615
00:46:14,074 --> 00:46:16,877
Well, I'm making
this while he's making that.
616
00:46:21,882 --> 00:46:23,551
It upset him terribly.
617
00:46:27,321 --> 00:46:31,358
He filmed himself on the outside
looking in
618
00:46:31,593 --> 00:46:34,529
at the most important people
in his life.
619
00:46:41,168 --> 00:46:43,270
It was very difficult for him.
620
00:46:45,472 --> 00:46:50,010
How Keith responds is he writes"Gimme Shelter."
621
00:46:52,012 --> 00:46:55,215
♪ Ooh, a storm is threatening ♪
622
00:46:55,717 --> 00:46:59,053
♪ My very life today ♪
623
00:46:59,788 --> 00:47:03,390
♪ If I don't get some shelter ♪
624
00:47:04,124 --> 00:47:07,027
♪ Ooh yeah,I'm gonna fade away ♪
625
00:47:08,095 --> 00:47:11,098
♪ War, children ♪
626
00:47:11,700 --> 00:47:13,500
♪ It's just a shot away ♪
627
00:47:13,834 --> 00:47:15,903
♪ It's just a shot away ♪
628
00:47:16,103 --> 00:47:18,972
♪ War, children ♪
629
00:47:19,973 --> 00:47:21,543
♪ It's just a shot away ♪
630
00:47:21,776 --> 00:47:25,245
♪ It's just a shot away ♪
631
00:47:27,948 --> 00:47:29,350
Keith never spoke about it.
632
00:47:30,585 --> 00:47:32,152
He just stayed silent.
633
00:47:33,020 --> 00:47:35,489
The most unnerving reactionof all.
634
00:47:37,525 --> 00:47:39,893
I was relievedwhen the film ended.
635
00:47:40,861 --> 00:47:44,164
I never felt Mick's charmthe way other women did.
636
00:47:45,165 --> 00:47:48,469
In any case, all we ever talkedabout was Keith.
637
00:48:01,982 --> 00:48:04,918
We were never peaceand love kind of people.
638
00:48:06,420 --> 00:48:08,455
But we wantedto reassure each other
639
00:48:08,489 --> 00:48:10,424
that everything was okay.
640
00:48:10,991 --> 00:48:13,528
So we decided to takea trip together.
641
00:48:13,828 --> 00:48:16,463
Mick, Marianne, Keith, and I.
642
00:48:21,969 --> 00:48:23,971
Crossing the Atlanticon a freighter,
643
00:48:24,271 --> 00:48:26,407
we must have seemedpretty eccentric
644
00:48:26,440 --> 00:48:28,008
to the people on the ship.
645
00:48:39,687 --> 00:48:43,090
We had great outfitsfor strolling down the decks.
646
00:48:49,597 --> 00:48:53,635
Beautiful Marianne was alwaysdressed top to toe.
647
00:48:54,334 --> 00:48:59,574
Long gloves, hat, she was likea Tennessee Williams character.
648
00:49:08,449 --> 00:49:10,984
And I was pregnant.
649
00:49:17,458 --> 00:49:20,562
The last thing I expectedfrom this relationship
650
00:49:20,595 --> 00:49:22,463
at that point was
651
00:49:22,496 --> 00:49:25,600
that she actually wantedto have a child.
652
00:49:28,803 --> 00:49:33,474
I was flatteredbut at the same time, I thought
653
00:49:33,741 --> 00:49:37,277
"This is gonna bea whole new chapter, you know?"
654
00:49:39,714 --> 00:49:41,716
And I said,"Are you sure about this?"
655
00:49:42,483 --> 00:49:45,520
And she said,"Absolutely. Absolutely."
656
00:49:45,887 --> 00:49:49,557
"If I'm gonna have a baby,I want you to be the father."
657
00:49:50,692 --> 00:49:54,461
And I said, "Okay. Thenwe're in for it. Let's go."
658
00:50:02,169 --> 00:50:05,038
I knew it was timeto get off the hard drugs.
659
00:50:06,473 --> 00:50:08,743
To help, I got a shotof morphine
660
00:50:08,776 --> 00:50:09,577
from the ship's nurse.
661
00:50:11,713 --> 00:50:14,014
♪ Here I lie ♪
662
00:50:14,849 --> 00:50:19,253
♪ In my hospital bed ♪
663
00:50:22,322 --> 00:50:25,793
♪ Tell me, Sister Morphine ♪
664
00:50:26,594 --> 00:50:31,766
♪ When are youComing round again? ♪
665
00:50:33,367 --> 00:50:34,167
♪ Oh... ♪
666
00:50:34,802 --> 00:50:38,606
I thought of her asSister Morphine for the song.
667
00:50:39,206 --> 00:50:41,609
I made her intoSister Morphine.
668
00:50:41,643 --> 00:50:46,079
I had to visualize itto really write it, you know?
669
00:50:46,113 --> 00:50:47,682
♪ Oh, you see ♪
670
00:50:48,415 --> 00:50:54,354
♪ That my pain is so strong ♪
671
00:50:54,956 --> 00:50:58,458
Between Marianne and I,there was love.
672
00:51:00,895 --> 00:51:03,798
But her relationship with Mickwasn't working anymore.
673
00:51:10,805 --> 00:51:12,607
When we arrivedin Brazil,
674
00:51:12,874 --> 00:51:16,476
Marianne didn't like the heator the mosquitoes.
675
00:51:17,645 --> 00:51:18,813
She decided to go home.
676
00:51:21,916 --> 00:51:24,351
You know,it broke my heart to do that
677
00:51:24,619 --> 00:51:26,219
but I had to leave.
678
00:51:27,655 --> 00:51:29,423
I think it was inevitable.
679
00:51:33,327 --> 00:51:35,128
Although I did love Mick,
680
00:51:35,763 --> 00:51:39,232
we were completely unsuited,I'm afraid.
681
00:51:49,844 --> 00:51:53,113
Mick and Keith and Ipressed on to Peru.
682
00:51:57,819 --> 00:52:00,187
We had a suitcase full of money
683
00:52:00,220 --> 00:52:03,558
and we wanted to be far,far away from everybody.
684
00:52:05,927 --> 00:52:10,430
♪ I saw her todayAt the reception ♪
685
00:52:10,464 --> 00:52:12,934
Mick tried to catch meon my own sometimes...
686
00:52:12,967 --> 00:52:14,102
♪ A glass of wine... ♪
687
00:52:14,134 --> 00:52:16,604
...when Keith was drunkand passed out.
688
00:52:17,038 --> 00:52:19,206
He'd say we shouldrun off together.
689
00:52:20,775 --> 00:52:22,710
But his flirtationswere half-hearted
690
00:52:22,744 --> 00:52:24,444
because he knew I was pregnant.
691
00:52:25,412 --> 00:52:27,280
That's when he started to write
692
00:52:27,649 --> 00:52:29,751
"You Can't Always GetWhat You Want."
693
00:52:29,784 --> 00:52:33,855
♪ You can't always getWhat you want ♪
694
00:52:35,590 --> 00:52:39,861
♪ You can't always getWhat you want ♪
695
00:52:40,995 --> 00:52:46,333
♪ But if you try sometimesWell, you might find ♪
696
00:52:46,668 --> 00:52:48,936
♪ You get what you need ♪
697
00:52:49,137 --> 00:52:51,906
♪ Ah, yeah ♪
698
00:52:52,239 --> 00:52:55,643
Anita is in a lotof those songs. Absolutely.
699
00:52:57,812 --> 00:53:01,281
♪ And I went downTo the demonstration ♪
700
00:53:01,314 --> 00:53:03,450
She's a muse, I'm sure,though not just for me.
701
00:53:03,483 --> 00:53:06,319
I mean, for several othersongwriters
702
00:53:06,353 --> 00:53:07,955
that I can think of.
703
00:53:07,989 --> 00:53:09,624
♪ Sing it to me, honey ♪
704
00:53:09,657 --> 00:53:13,427
♪ You can't always getWhat you want ♪
705
00:53:14,829 --> 00:53:17,932
♪ You can't always getWhat you want ♪
706
00:53:17,965 --> 00:53:20,535
There always has to besome kind of friction
707
00:53:20,568 --> 00:53:21,669
between Keith and Mick.
708
00:53:22,870 --> 00:53:24,438
And they need someonein the middle
709
00:53:24,471 --> 00:53:25,707
to bring it all out.
710
00:53:27,441 --> 00:53:29,209
Brian used to say that too.
711
00:53:30,511 --> 00:53:32,680
♪ You get what you need ♪
712
00:53:32,980 --> 00:53:37,518
♪ Ah baby, yeah ♪
713
00:53:58,039 --> 00:54:01,341
He came close to the edgemany times.
714
00:54:02,577 --> 00:54:04,545
Who didn't in our group?
715
00:54:07,915 --> 00:54:13,554
But the loss of Brian,
it was a dreadful tragedy.
716
00:54:16,657 --> 00:54:19,994
People think of Brianas a sort of ghost,
717
00:54:21,529 --> 00:54:24,565
but he had his own
718
00:54:24,599 --> 00:54:27,400
extraordinary outstandingtalent.
719
00:54:31,606 --> 00:54:33,775
Although,he was a very good swimmer,
720
00:54:34,075 --> 00:54:37,912
he had taken a lot of Mandraxbefore he went in the pool.
721
00:54:39,580 --> 00:54:43,283
And Brian was very weak,physically, anyway.
722
00:54:47,722 --> 00:54:51,526
Poor Brian. I felt very sorry.
723
00:54:53,561 --> 00:54:55,897
Although it was a shock
when it actually happened,
724
00:54:56,396 --> 00:54:58,933
nobody was really
that surprised too.
725
00:54:59,267 --> 00:55:01,769
There are people...
I'm sure that everybody's got
726
00:55:01,803 --> 00:55:03,070
those things
about certain people.
727
00:55:03,104 --> 00:55:05,472
- Everybody knows people that...
- Mm-hmm.
728
00:55:05,506 --> 00:55:06,641
...you just have that feeling
729
00:55:06,674 --> 00:55:09,877
that they're not gonna be
70 years old ever, you know?
730
00:55:09,911 --> 00:55:12,680
That not everybody makes it,
you know?
731
00:55:17,118 --> 00:55:20,555
I was shockedand I felt guilty.
732
00:55:22,023 --> 00:55:25,560
He just kind of flickered outlike a light, you know?
733
00:55:29,630 --> 00:55:30,965
The last time I'd seen Brian
734
00:55:30,998 --> 00:55:33,366
was when we were allsinging together on the demo
735
00:55:33,400 --> 00:55:34,635
for "Sympathy for the Devil."
736
00:55:36,771 --> 00:55:38,840
♪ When the blitzkrieg ragedAnd the bodies stank ♪
737
00:55:39,173 --> 00:55:41,408
But I hadn't reallyspoken to him since.
738
00:55:41,676 --> 00:55:43,376
♪ Pleased to meet you all ♪
739
00:55:43,778 --> 00:55:47,982
♪ Hope you guess my nameOh yeah ♪
740
00:55:48,916 --> 00:55:52,687
After he died,she went kind of mad
741
00:55:53,120 --> 00:55:57,825
and she spent all her timeputting pictures up of Brian
742
00:55:58,059 --> 00:56:00,561
in the houseshe shared with Keith
743
00:56:00,595 --> 00:56:02,597
and then taking themall down again
744
00:56:02,797 --> 00:56:04,866
and then putting themall up again.
745
00:56:06,567 --> 00:56:08,669
♪ I shouted outWho killed the Kennedys? ♪
746
00:56:09,469 --> 00:56:11,772
I was seven monthspregnant when he died.
747
00:56:15,676 --> 00:56:17,011
I started to have visions
748
00:56:17,044 --> 00:56:20,081
that Brian would reincarnatehimself as my baby.
749
00:56:25,653 --> 00:56:27,054
It was very scary.
750
00:56:33,594 --> 00:56:37,031
My son was born in August 1969.
751
00:56:38,966 --> 00:56:43,403
He was a perfecteight-pound baby. Healthy.
752
00:56:44,705 --> 00:56:46,874
We didn't have a nameand Keith said,
753
00:56:46,908 --> 00:56:48,910
"Marlon Brandocalled up today."
754
00:56:49,110 --> 00:56:52,046
And I thought, "Marlon.That's a good name."
755
00:56:52,346 --> 00:56:53,848
"We'll call him Marlon."
756
00:56:58,286 --> 00:57:03,423
♪ Hey, babeWhat's in your eyes? ♪
757
00:57:03,991 --> 00:57:08,996
♪ I saw them flashingLike airplane lights ♪
758
00:57:09,496 --> 00:57:13,801
♪ You fill my cup, babeThat's for sure ♪
759
00:57:13,834 --> 00:57:15,169
Somewhere around there,
760
00:57:15,435 --> 00:57:20,541
Keith wrote on the spot"You Got the Silver"
761
00:57:20,908 --> 00:57:22,543
and then sang it to her.
762
00:57:22,743 --> 00:57:24,512
And it was so beautiful.
763
00:57:25,646 --> 00:57:27,181
They really didlove each other.
764
00:57:27,214 --> 00:57:31,619
♪ You got my heartYou got my soul ♪
765
00:57:32,086 --> 00:57:36,724
♪ You got the silverYou got the gold ♪
766
00:57:37,625 --> 00:57:41,963
♪ You got the diamondsFrom the mine ♪
767
00:57:42,330 --> 00:57:43,764
♪ Well, that's all right... ♪
768
00:57:43,965 --> 00:57:45,967
Keith was very tenderwith Marlon.
769
00:57:46,233 --> 00:57:49,203
He would change him,take him for walks,
770
00:57:49,502 --> 00:57:52,707
things that fathersdidn't always do in those days.
771
00:58:01,182 --> 00:58:04,118
Things were pretty rosyfor about three months,
772
00:58:04,819 --> 00:58:06,821
then Keith went back on tour.
773
00:58:09,290 --> 00:58:13,828
Marlon was too tiny to travel,so we stayed behind.
774
00:58:15,930 --> 00:58:17,598
By this point,Keith didn't care
775
00:58:17,631 --> 00:58:18,899
for me acting at all.
776
00:58:19,433 --> 00:58:22,036
He offered me moneyto stop working.
777
00:58:22,770 --> 00:58:25,606
He didn't understandit wasn't about the money.
778
00:58:26,140 --> 00:58:28,242
It was just somethingI wanted to do.
779
00:58:30,044 --> 00:58:33,280
Keith, in his own way,
is very possessive
780
00:58:33,714 --> 00:58:35,683
of friends and lovers.
781
00:58:36,250 --> 00:58:40,755
He resented anything that would
take her away from him.
782
00:58:43,057 --> 00:58:45,993
He didn't wanthis woman to work at all.
783
00:58:46,027 --> 00:58:49,163
It wasn't acting, particularly,it would have been anything.
784
00:58:51,098 --> 00:58:53,267
And I thinkit was difficult for Anita.
785
00:58:53,534 --> 00:58:56,270
She was so talentedin her own right
786
00:58:56,737 --> 00:59:00,174
and sort of kept down in a way,you know?
787
00:59:07,048 --> 00:59:11,986
Honestly, I was confused.I felt betrayed.
788
00:59:13,921 --> 00:59:17,958
But the rule with the boyswas "never show emotion."
789
00:59:22,630 --> 00:59:26,100
Heroin makes you feel warm,like you belong.
790
00:59:27,101 --> 00:59:28,836
It seemed like a solution.
791
00:59:35,910 --> 00:59:38,879
I was on my ownwith Marlon for months.
792
00:59:39,548 --> 00:59:42,983
I stopped breastfeedingand I gave him bottles.
793
00:59:44,351 --> 00:59:47,154
When Keith came back,I was very stoned.
794
00:59:52,693 --> 00:59:56,263
I went to dry out at a clinicwhere they do a sleeping cure.
795
00:59:58,999 --> 01:00:02,703
You talk to a therapistand then they knock you out.
796
01:00:02,937 --> 01:00:04,238
You sleep it off.
797
01:00:07,174 --> 01:00:09,643
I wanted so much to get better.
798
01:00:10,344 --> 01:00:12,113
I wanted to be a good mother.
799
01:00:13,881 --> 01:00:15,116
But it didn't work.
800
01:00:18,319 --> 01:00:22,256
I spent a week banging my headagainst the walls.
801
01:00:25,292 --> 01:00:27,695
Eventually,I climbed out the window.
802
01:00:29,163 --> 01:00:30,698
The great escape.
803
01:00:36,137 --> 01:00:37,838
While I was trying to get well,
804
01:00:37,872 --> 01:00:40,174
Marlon and Keithhad gone to France.
805
01:00:41,909 --> 01:00:44,345
The Rolling Stoneshad tax problems,
806
01:00:45,012 --> 01:00:47,414
and we all became exiles.
807
01:00:48,949 --> 01:00:51,685
Our new house was righton the Mediterranean
808
01:00:52,052 --> 01:00:54,188
and the thought of startinga new life together
809
01:00:54,221 --> 01:00:56,824
was very appealing.
810
01:00:58,726 --> 01:01:01,428
Then Keith decided to makea record in our home.
811
01:01:08,369 --> 01:01:10,871
♪ I wanna tell you'Bout a dance ♪
812
01:01:11,105 --> 01:01:13,107
♪ That's goin' around ♪
813
01:01:13,841 --> 01:01:16,310
Everyone wantedto come and visit.
814
01:01:16,844 --> 01:01:19,113
We were inundatedwith people arriving
815
01:01:19,146 --> 01:01:21,048
to start work on the new album.
816
01:01:21,415 --> 01:01:23,884
♪ Don't move your hands ♪
817
01:01:24,151 --> 01:01:26,153
♪ Don't move your lips ♪
818
01:01:26,687 --> 01:01:29,023
♪ Just shake your hips ♪
819
01:01:29,390 --> 01:01:31,058
♪ Do the hip shake, babe ♪
820
01:01:31,091 --> 01:01:34,094
First timeI saw Anita with Marlon
821
01:01:34,128 --> 01:01:36,463
was in the south of France
822
01:01:36,665 --> 01:01:39,733
when they were doing
Exile on Main St.
823
01:01:39,767 --> 01:01:41,468
♪ Well, if you don't know ♪
824
01:01:41,502 --> 01:01:43,404
Anita adored Marlon.
825
01:01:43,771 --> 01:01:45,973
Such a sweet child.
826
01:01:46,874 --> 01:01:50,945
Keith had set up a studioin the basement,
827
01:01:50,978 --> 01:01:52,846
and it was a zoo.
828
01:01:55,849 --> 01:01:59,119
There were dozens of peoplehanging around,
829
01:01:59,486 --> 01:02:02,723
taking drugs, doing whatever.
830
01:02:05,459 --> 01:02:07,529
You had no ideawho would be there
831
01:02:07,562 --> 01:02:10,130
and what state of mindthey'd be in.
832
01:02:12,567 --> 01:02:14,902
It's just a crazy atmosphere.
833
01:02:19,240 --> 01:02:21,842
I was the only onewho could speak French
834
01:02:22,109 --> 01:02:25,045
and I was over-responsiblefor everything.
835
01:02:25,580 --> 01:02:27,381
It was like running a hotel.
836
01:02:28,148 --> 01:02:31,785
There were 20 to 30 peopleto feed every day.
837
01:02:32,286 --> 01:02:34,221
Mommy, Daddy.
838
01:02:34,255 --> 01:02:36,924
Mommy.
839
01:02:37,191 --> 01:02:40,027
Follow me. Come with me.
840
01:02:41,929 --> 01:02:44,298
Marlon had all the toyshe wanted,
841
01:02:46,400 --> 01:02:48,902
but there was notthat much time for him.
842
01:02:52,039 --> 01:02:55,309
He had to be part of the music,and he was.
843
01:02:59,046 --> 01:03:02,449
He'd be up all night sometimeslistening to people playing,
844
01:03:02,651 --> 01:03:04,184
and he'd be screaming.
845
01:03:07,988 --> 01:03:11,559
It took me a long timebut I think by then,
846
01:03:12,026 --> 01:03:14,795
I realizedthat Keith's music came first.
847
01:03:15,329 --> 01:03:17,231
Everything else came second.
848
01:03:23,304 --> 01:03:26,473
We showed up at Nellcôtein the summer of '71,
849
01:03:27,509 --> 01:03:29,076
I was eight and a half.
850
01:03:31,145 --> 01:03:32,514
My father was a drug smuggler
851
01:03:32,547 --> 01:03:35,115
and he was tasked
with bringing cocaine
852
01:03:35,149 --> 01:03:37,151
to Mick Jagger's weddingto Bianca.
853
01:03:41,255 --> 01:03:43,324
My old man and Keith
854
01:03:43,357 --> 01:03:45,225
were all in the samekind of scene,
855
01:03:45,259 --> 01:03:46,927
and my mother wasin that scene.
856
01:03:48,896 --> 01:03:50,497
Ultimately,my mother didn't come
857
01:03:50,532 --> 01:03:52,333
because she was...
858
01:03:53,434 --> 01:03:57,304
recovering from a stint
in an asylum.
859
01:04:01,075 --> 01:04:03,010
I recognized, even as a kid,
860
01:04:03,043 --> 01:04:05,412
that Anitawas a force of nature,
861
01:04:06,413 --> 01:04:08,315
striking and charismatic.
862
01:04:09,950 --> 01:04:14,988
She was the alpha in the room
until Keith came along
863
01:04:15,022 --> 01:04:17,625
and then they were bothsort of co-alphas.
864
01:04:21,028 --> 01:04:22,664
Can you turnthe piano up just a bit?
865
01:04:22,697 --> 01:04:24,465
You know, just like the off...
866
01:04:24,865 --> 01:04:29,103
Charlie, did you get that?We're gonna try that...
867
01:04:29,136 --> 01:04:31,171
Everything sort ofbecame nocturnal
868
01:04:31,205 --> 01:04:32,640
'cause Keith was nocturnal.
869
01:04:32,674 --> 01:04:35,075
Yeah, which ampsare you coming out of, Keith?
870
01:04:35,342 --> 01:04:38,178
My brother and Iwould sit down there and watch.
871
01:04:38,212 --> 01:04:39,581
So we listen to it.
872
01:04:40,782 --> 01:04:43,484
There's a broken stringon that one there, it has to...
873
01:04:43,518 --> 01:04:45,919
Everyone was justsitting around a lot
874
01:04:46,120 --> 01:04:49,022
waiting for Keith to,you know, come to.
875
01:04:51,526 --> 01:04:55,162
All right.We're about to sing here.
876
01:04:59,299 --> 01:05:02,236
By now,Keith had a heroin habit too.
877
01:05:02,837 --> 01:05:04,672
And he was secretive about it.
878
01:05:04,706 --> 01:05:06,574
It should bedown in there.
879
01:05:07,241 --> 01:05:09,209
He would gointo the bathroom
880
01:05:09,243 --> 01:05:10,310
and shut the door,
881
01:05:10,545 --> 01:05:12,680
so you never knewhow much he was taking.
882
01:05:17,050 --> 01:05:18,952
Keith would invite people over,
883
01:05:18,986 --> 01:05:20,421
and they'd stay all hours.
884
01:05:21,556 --> 01:05:24,024
And it was her job
to kick them out,
885
01:05:24,425 --> 01:05:26,561
throw them out violently.
886
01:05:26,594 --> 01:05:28,530
Generally,
she'd kind of storm in
887
01:05:28,563 --> 01:05:30,964
and throw her Germanness around
888
01:05:30,998 --> 01:05:32,433
and they'd leave pretty quickly
889
01:05:32,466 --> 01:05:34,168
'cause that was something
he couldn't do.
890
01:05:34,201 --> 01:05:35,603
He could not get rid
of the hangers-on.
891
01:05:37,505 --> 01:05:39,940
They were happy to sit thereand just sort of stare at him
892
01:05:41,408 --> 01:05:42,644
while he basically snored.
893
01:05:45,245 --> 01:05:47,481
Anita became a bitof a bodyguard.
894
01:05:51,318 --> 01:05:53,521
I have no ideawhat it felt like
895
01:05:53,555 --> 01:05:59,359
to be the queen in this castle
of, you know, dissolute men.
896
01:06:00,027 --> 01:06:02,396
But there weren'ta lot of women in the house.
897
01:06:04,465 --> 01:06:06,133
She couldn't stand it.
898
01:06:06,166 --> 01:06:07,769
She had to hold
the whole situation
899
01:06:07,802 --> 01:06:09,236
in her hands.
900
01:06:09,269 --> 01:06:11,506
And there were really
people around, I think,
901
01:06:11,539 --> 01:06:14,041
that must have been
very annoying for her.
902
01:06:14,074 --> 01:06:17,277
But that's the part
of being famous, no?
903
01:06:20,347 --> 01:06:22,517
She was fierce,
904
01:06:22,917 --> 01:06:25,753
and, you know, she would snap.
905
01:06:27,087 --> 01:06:28,322
But not at the kids.
906
01:06:29,289 --> 01:06:32,527
She was generous and funnyto the kids.
907
01:06:36,831 --> 01:06:40,467
And then we were therefor a month and a half or so,
908
01:06:40,501 --> 01:06:42,202
and my mother passed away.
909
01:06:45,439 --> 01:06:47,474
My dad sort of wenton a bender.
910
01:06:50,210 --> 01:06:51,646
I remember her navigating it,
911
01:06:52,079 --> 01:06:55,415
trying to figure out
what she could do
912
01:06:56,250 --> 01:06:57,719
and, um...
913
01:06:58,786 --> 01:07:00,320
Fuck. I'm sorry.
914
01:07:03,323 --> 01:07:07,427
She filled the vacuum ofa surrogate parent, you know?
915
01:07:10,097 --> 01:07:11,566
And she was lovely like that.
916
01:07:13,768 --> 01:07:17,304
Her thingwas trying to give us joy.
917
01:07:22,944 --> 01:07:24,812
Anita used to dancewith the kids.
918
01:07:28,115 --> 01:07:30,050
We'd Jumpin' Jack Flash it.
919
01:07:32,152 --> 01:07:34,121
There was a lot ofboogie-woogie piano playing,
920
01:07:34,154 --> 01:07:35,523
which the kids loved.
921
01:07:37,124 --> 01:07:39,727
There were no bedtimes.
There was no structure.
922
01:07:45,232 --> 01:07:47,769
One night, she cut a line
923
01:07:49,503 --> 01:07:50,838
and I said, "Can I have some?"
924
01:07:52,339 --> 01:07:54,776
And I could see her
trying to compute.
925
01:07:55,275 --> 01:07:57,679
She said, "Okay.
Well, just this little bit."
926
01:07:58,078 --> 01:08:00,848
So I had my first little bump
with Anita.
927
01:08:03,483 --> 01:08:05,520
Uh, it never happened again.
928
01:08:06,554 --> 01:08:08,188
She knew she made a mistake.
929
01:08:11,425 --> 01:08:12,827
In Nice, France, today,
930
01:08:12,860 --> 01:08:14,829
police disclosedthat Mick Jagger
931
01:08:14,862 --> 01:08:17,765
and the four other members ofThe Rolling Stones rock group
932
01:08:17,799 --> 01:08:20,668
have been chargedwith illegal use of heroin.
933
01:08:22,670 --> 01:08:23,571
A warrant was issued
934
01:08:23,972 --> 01:08:26,574
for the arrest of guitaristKeith Richards and his wife
935
01:08:26,608 --> 01:08:27,875
who failed to appear.
936
01:08:30,812 --> 01:08:32,479
My parents,they were quite blatant
937
01:08:32,513 --> 01:08:33,781
about their drug use.
938
01:08:34,616 --> 01:08:37,585
So eventually the policewere called for some incident.
939
01:08:37,885 --> 01:08:38,886
It was very dramatic.
940
01:08:38,920 --> 01:08:41,455
Policemen outside,all that sort of thing.
941
01:08:41,889 --> 01:08:44,559
There was a warrant outfor both of them,
942
01:08:46,828 --> 01:08:49,631
and we had to leave Francepretty quickly.
943
01:08:53,635 --> 01:08:56,403
We split before the copsraided the house.
944
01:08:58,706 --> 01:09:02,342
My motto was"forward, forward, forward."
945
01:09:02,376 --> 01:09:03,511
"Never look back."
946
01:09:06,380 --> 01:09:09,216
I remember havingto leave a lot of my toys
947
01:09:09,449 --> 01:09:11,686
that were sent away,packed up, and put in storage
948
01:09:11,719 --> 01:09:13,320
and never sent on.
949
01:09:14,722 --> 01:09:15,556
That's how it was.
950
01:09:15,990 --> 01:09:18,893
Living such a shambolicand hectic sort of lifestyle,
951
01:09:19,093 --> 01:09:20,595
you'd lose things anyway.
952
01:09:20,628 --> 01:09:21,663
I mean, just lose things.
953
01:09:23,363 --> 01:09:25,700
In like three years,we probably moved house
954
01:09:25,733 --> 01:09:27,501
about 20 times, at least.
955
01:09:30,605 --> 01:09:32,439
And possessionsyou leave behind,
956
01:09:32,472 --> 01:09:33,473
you never see again.
957
01:09:50,958 --> 01:09:52,660
We couldn't go back to England.
958
01:09:56,296 --> 01:09:58,666
The police in England,they're always watching,
959
01:09:58,700 --> 01:10:00,500
watching the houses...
960
01:10:03,503 --> 01:10:06,473
I remember being very fearful
when we were living in London.
961
01:10:06,507 --> 01:10:08,308
We'd go back to our house
in Cheney Walk
962
01:10:08,341 --> 01:10:10,011
and they'd immediately
draw the curtains
963
01:10:10,044 --> 01:10:11,979
and start staring out the window
all the time
964
01:10:12,013 --> 01:10:13,213
looking for the cops.
965
01:10:17,518 --> 01:10:18,351
There was this sort of
966
01:10:18,385 --> 01:10:20,454
Bonnie and Clydething about it.
967
01:10:22,657 --> 01:10:26,594
I mean, we actually, literally,were running out of houses.
968
01:10:28,462 --> 01:10:31,431
One suitcase and a kidzooming off
969
01:10:31,465 --> 01:10:33,601
with cops in the trees.
970
01:10:37,337 --> 01:10:38,606
The reasonwe're in Switzerland,
971
01:10:38,639 --> 01:10:41,308
is it's the only country inthe world that would have us.
972
01:10:43,077 --> 01:10:46,581
We're fucking junkies,for Christ's sake.
973
01:10:50,051 --> 01:10:52,285
We got a nice placein Villars.
974
01:10:52,653 --> 01:10:54,589
A simple little cottage.
975
01:10:55,089 --> 01:10:58,526
A ski chalet with meadowsand a stream.
976
01:11:04,699 --> 01:11:06,701
One of the earliestmemories I have
977
01:11:06,901 --> 01:11:10,872
was my sister being bornin Switzerland.
978
01:11:13,541 --> 01:11:15,977
It was a beautiful
Sound of Music sort of day.
979
01:11:16,811 --> 01:11:18,846
Alps, trees, sunlight.
980
01:11:21,516 --> 01:11:23,584
The hospital was downthe mountainside
981
01:11:23,618 --> 01:11:25,019
from where we lived.
982
01:11:26,988 --> 01:11:29,757
I rememberrunning down this hill,
983
01:11:29,791 --> 01:11:31,993
ran up to thisplate glass window
984
01:11:32,527 --> 01:11:36,496
and in the plate glass windowwas a nurse holding my sister.
985
01:11:38,866 --> 01:11:40,400
It was just amazing.
986
01:11:41,202 --> 01:11:42,937
It was wonderful
to have a sister.
987
01:11:45,940 --> 01:11:48,408
My daughterhad a square smile
988
01:11:48,810 --> 01:11:49,811
just like mine.
989
01:11:51,612 --> 01:11:54,447
But her birth was traumatic.
990
01:11:56,050 --> 01:11:57,852
She was two months early
991
01:11:58,186 --> 01:12:00,555
and I was still tryingto get clean.
992
01:12:01,856 --> 01:12:03,791
We laid low in Switzerland.
993
01:12:04,091 --> 01:12:06,426
The cops couldn't get us here.
994
01:12:07,394 --> 01:12:10,865
I was given the nameDandelion when I was born.
995
01:12:10,898 --> 01:12:13,366
I completely blame my brotherfor that one.
996
01:12:13,701 --> 01:12:17,071
Some evil vendetta.
997
01:12:17,104 --> 01:12:19,574
Having a baby sister,
maybe he was like,
998
01:12:19,607 --> 01:12:24,045
"Yes, you shall be
named Dandelion."
999
01:12:24,477 --> 01:12:26,714
Maybe Marlon will tell you
his middle name.
1000
01:12:26,747 --> 01:12:27,882
Oh, for fuck's sake.
1001
01:12:28,249 --> 01:12:32,019
Marlon Leon Sundeep Richards.
1002
01:12:32,220 --> 01:12:36,456
Leon Sundeep spells LSD.
1003
01:12:38,659 --> 01:12:41,428
So I went to my father
and I told him.
1004
01:12:41,461 --> 01:12:45,566
I said, "Is this coincidence
or is this intentional?"
1005
01:12:45,600 --> 01:12:47,001
And he chuckled and he said,
1006
01:12:47,034 --> 01:12:49,070
"Your mother had
a sense of humor, didn't she?"
1007
01:13:01,816 --> 01:13:05,119
In Switzerland,we are a normal family
1008
01:13:05,152 --> 01:13:06,486
with growing children.
1009
01:13:06,687 --> 01:13:08,089
And we are outside a lot.
1010
01:13:09,757 --> 01:13:10,691
We play
1011
01:13:10,892 --> 01:13:13,961
and we do all of the thingsthat families do.
1012
01:13:18,766 --> 01:13:22,435
In the winter, we are skiingand tobogganing
1013
01:13:22,469 --> 01:13:24,105
almost every single day.
1014
01:13:26,641 --> 01:13:28,910
Switzerland actuallywas quite happy,
1015
01:13:30,177 --> 01:13:32,013
and it felt likea skiing holiday.
1016
01:13:32,613 --> 01:13:35,016
Everyone wearing snow suitsand all that sort of stuff.
1017
01:13:36,984 --> 01:13:39,620
The ski run was down the road.
1018
01:13:41,222 --> 01:13:43,925
Literally, just walk outthe door, get up on a ski lift,
1019
01:13:43,958 --> 01:13:46,227
go up to the top, and thenyou'd ski down the mountain.
1020
01:13:46,260 --> 01:13:47,795
You'd ski right to your house.
1021
01:13:49,897 --> 01:13:52,566
It was a very domestic time.It was a very settled time.
1022
01:13:55,870 --> 01:13:57,972
Keith and Anita were reallygood skiers by this point.
1023
01:13:58,639 --> 01:14:00,174
To learn to skiwhen you're like
1024
01:14:00,207 --> 01:14:02,510
in the deepest depthsof addiction
1025
01:14:02,944 --> 01:14:04,645
is just unbelievable.
1026
01:14:04,679 --> 01:14:06,747
I mean, it's nothingyou'd generally take up.
1027
01:14:06,781 --> 01:14:08,616
It's not the idea of like,"Oh, I'm gonna, you know,
1028
01:14:08,649 --> 01:14:10,151
go down a mountain every day,
1029
01:14:10,184 --> 01:14:11,852
do massive shot of heroin
1030
01:14:12,320 --> 01:14:14,555
and gonna go on the black run."
1031
01:14:33,040 --> 01:14:36,177
We met thesewonderful rich boys in Geneva.
1032
01:14:40,114 --> 01:14:42,482
They turned out to bevery loyal.
1033
01:14:44,819 --> 01:14:47,054
The best friends we ever had.
1034
01:14:50,992 --> 01:14:52,927
When I meet Anita,
1035
01:14:52,960 --> 01:14:55,162
she was a veryunpredictable person,
1036
01:14:55,196 --> 01:14:56,797
which is something I liked.
1037
01:14:57,465 --> 01:14:59,800
You know, in Switzerland,
in social dates,
1038
01:15:00,134 --> 01:15:02,970
to meet somebody unpredictable
1039
01:15:03,004 --> 01:15:06,907
is like putting
a bit adventure in your life.
1040
01:15:09,643 --> 01:15:10,444
She had values
1041
01:15:10,945 --> 01:15:13,748
and then she would throw them
out of the window in one second.
1042
01:15:14,215 --> 01:15:16,917
You know, to us, she was
somebody like dangerous.
1043
01:15:17,184 --> 01:15:18,853
You know, we loved her.
1044
01:15:18,886 --> 01:15:21,555
She created this anarchy
that we needed.
1045
01:15:25,059 --> 01:15:27,228
I was surprised to see them
1046
01:15:27,261 --> 01:15:30,131
move into that tiny chaletlost in Villars.
1047
01:15:30,898 --> 01:15:34,001
You know, I mean, what the hell
were they doing there?
1048
01:15:34,035 --> 01:15:35,903
And enjoying themselves,
it seemed.
1049
01:15:38,005 --> 01:15:39,974
But there was a lot of dramas.
1050
01:15:42,910 --> 01:15:46,547
Anita was sometimes furious
and screaming
1051
01:15:46,814 --> 01:15:50,184
and terrorizing everybody,
you know,
1052
01:15:50,217 --> 01:15:51,986
and throwing things around.
1053
01:15:52,019 --> 01:15:55,756
And then an hour later,
she would appear.
1054
01:15:56,624 --> 01:15:57,992
She would serve you tea.
1055
01:15:58,759 --> 01:16:01,929
She was creatingthis constant chaos.
1056
01:16:05,332 --> 01:16:07,902
If anything was bothering her,
1057
01:16:07,935 --> 01:16:09,937
she wouldn't wannatalk about it.
1058
01:16:10,838 --> 01:16:14,341
And I'd say, "Oh, we have tosit down and talk about this."
1059
01:16:14,375 --> 01:16:16,644
It was not an optionwith Anita.
1060
01:16:16,677 --> 01:16:19,046
You know, it was, you know,
1061
01:16:19,080 --> 01:16:22,349
a plate come flyingthrough the room.
1062
01:16:23,851 --> 01:16:28,823
I think junk, for her,was almost necessary
1063
01:16:28,856 --> 01:16:30,724
just to suppress the energy.
1064
01:16:32,426 --> 01:16:34,795
There was a maelstrom
in her head.
1065
01:16:35,162 --> 01:16:37,698
She was agitated by voices
1066
01:16:37,731 --> 01:16:40,301
that she couldn't control
sometimes.
1067
01:16:43,337 --> 01:16:45,840
Keith said that he was takinga lot of drugs
1068
01:16:45,873 --> 01:16:48,843
because of the pressureof being a Rolling Stone.
1069
01:16:53,814 --> 01:16:57,017
We were always waitingfor the drugs to arrive.
1070
01:16:58,219 --> 01:17:02,056
I would try to stop Keithand he would try to stop me,
1071
01:17:03,757 --> 01:17:05,759
but we never stopped ourselves.
1072
01:17:07,995 --> 01:17:10,030
The straight roadhad been lost.
1073
01:17:12,399 --> 01:17:13,968
They never went to bed
1074
01:17:14,001 --> 01:17:16,403
before six or eight o'clockin the morning.
1075
01:17:18,939 --> 01:17:22,042
They are not in a state oftaking care really of the kids.
1076
01:17:26,046 --> 01:17:28,349
Marlon was considered an adult.
1077
01:17:32,453 --> 01:17:33,354
One night,
1078
01:17:33,387 --> 01:17:36,090
we're all goingto see Dr. Feelgood.
1079
01:17:39,360 --> 01:17:42,263
And Anita ramblesabout something.
1080
01:17:43,130 --> 01:17:46,967
And Marlon, you know,
he leans in front of the camera.
1081
01:17:47,001 --> 01:17:49,837
He says, "Mama, don't talk.
Don't talk."
1082
01:17:51,372 --> 01:17:53,841
- Mama, don't talk.
- All right.
1083
01:17:56,010 --> 01:17:58,112
Marlon wasa commanding force.
1084
01:18:00,381 --> 01:18:02,850
And he had a loton his shoulders.
1085
01:18:03,484 --> 01:18:06,253
A lot on his shoulders,'cause he was sometimes
1086
01:18:06,287 --> 01:18:08,222
the man in the house.
1087
01:18:21,368 --> 01:18:24,071
We were constantlybeing left alone
1088
01:18:24,104 --> 01:18:26,006
while Keith went off on tour.
1089
01:18:27,441 --> 01:18:29,176
I think after
the first tour we did,
1090
01:18:29,210 --> 01:18:30,411
my mother found it
too exhausting
1091
01:18:30,444 --> 01:18:32,213
having a small child on tour.
1092
01:18:39,554 --> 01:18:41,021
Being a mother,
1093
01:18:41,255 --> 01:18:43,357
she found a verychauvinistic environment.
1094
01:18:43,558 --> 01:18:44,925
Very ugly.
1095
01:18:50,965 --> 01:18:52,132
It's a veryunhealthy environment,
1096
01:18:52,166 --> 01:18:56,036
psychologically, physically,and definitely mentally.
1097
01:19:01,308 --> 01:19:04,044
It was only therefor the four or five people
1098
01:19:04,078 --> 01:19:06,046
who were on stage every night.
1099
01:19:08,583 --> 01:19:10,851
There was no interest
in anyone else, really.
1100
01:19:16,323 --> 01:19:18,959
The Stones had becomea corporation.
1101
01:19:21,128 --> 01:19:22,830
The guys in suits.
1102
01:19:24,231 --> 01:19:26,000
The nebula of yes men.
1103
01:19:27,434 --> 01:19:29,103
The wheel was set in motion.
1104
01:19:31,238 --> 01:19:33,140
It was a totallydifferent scene.
1105
01:19:34,509 --> 01:19:36,844
The band was likean organism,
1106
01:19:36,877 --> 01:19:38,479
a multifaceted one.
1107
01:19:38,946 --> 01:19:40,948
Jade Jagger calls it the Org,
1108
01:19:41,382 --> 01:19:43,585
or the Bus is another good word
she calls it.
1109
01:19:43,618 --> 01:19:45,119
The Bus comes first.
1110
01:19:49,490 --> 01:19:51,859
You can get off the bus,you can get on the bus,
1111
01:19:51,892 --> 01:19:53,294
but the busis always going somewhere
1112
01:19:53,327 --> 01:19:54,862
and it's always on the move.
1113
01:20:04,938 --> 01:20:08,008
The Bus isn't healthy
and you have to get off it.
1114
01:20:23,591 --> 01:20:27,161
When he came home,Keith got stoned a lot.
1115
01:20:31,432 --> 01:20:34,101
He also spenta lot of time sleeping.
1116
01:20:39,340 --> 01:20:41,576
But one night, we got romantic
1117
01:20:46,480 --> 01:20:48,215
and I fell pregnant again.
1118
01:20:53,087 --> 01:20:55,322
My parents told mewe're gonna have another baby.
1119
01:20:56,290 --> 01:20:57,592
They were very excited.
1120
01:21:00,160 --> 01:21:02,062
I remember Anita thinkingit was a
1121
01:21:02,096 --> 01:21:03,397
sort of new lease on life.
1122
01:21:06,166 --> 01:21:08,168
It brought them together more,
obviously,
1123
01:21:08,202 --> 01:21:10,003
for a short period of time
at least.
1124
01:21:12,339 --> 01:21:14,642
For him, you know,the more, the merrier really.
1125
01:21:15,442 --> 01:21:18,445
But then he didn't reallyhave to deal with, you know,
1126
01:21:18,479 --> 01:21:22,684
for, A, childbirth and,you know, B, child-rearing.
1127
01:21:28,122 --> 01:21:30,324
Tara was a beautiful baby.
1128
01:21:30,891 --> 01:21:32,393
I was over the moon.
1129
01:21:33,961 --> 01:21:36,463
I was constantlywith him in my arms.
1130
01:21:45,507 --> 01:21:47,642
Tara was born prematurely.
1131
01:21:49,977 --> 01:21:52,012
And I do remember him
coming home and seeing him
1132
01:21:52,045 --> 01:21:54,582
and then him having to go back
to the hospital quite a lot.
1133
01:21:55,015 --> 01:21:56,984
Back and forth, back and forth.
1134
01:22:01,355 --> 01:22:02,657
There were complications.
1135
01:22:02,956 --> 01:22:05,292
My parentswere very concerned about that.
1136
01:22:08,395 --> 01:22:11,331
I rememberbeing at the hospital,
1137
01:22:12,366 --> 01:22:13,934
helping her out.
1138
01:22:16,470 --> 01:22:18,071
Keith wasn't around
1139
01:22:18,272 --> 01:22:20,107
and Anita was, at that time,
1140
01:22:20,441 --> 01:22:22,042
I guess a bit alone.
1141
01:22:26,548 --> 01:22:29,183
She was supposed to havepeople looking after her.
1142
01:22:29,818 --> 01:22:31,452
They just weren't,at some point,
1143
01:22:31,485 --> 01:22:32,720
and left her on her own.
1144
01:22:34,622 --> 01:22:37,424
And I think Anita feltabandoned by everyone.
1145
01:22:48,168 --> 01:22:51,639
On that fatal night,I was at a party.
1146
01:22:54,174 --> 01:22:55,743
Suddenly the phone rang
1147
01:22:56,143 --> 01:22:58,245
and I don't know
how she found me.
1148
01:22:58,278 --> 01:22:59,514
I don't know who found me.
1149
01:23:02,149 --> 01:23:04,218
She was screamingand she was...
1150
01:23:04,519 --> 01:23:06,153
She was in a state.
1151
01:23:08,656 --> 01:23:10,257
I went to the house.
1152
01:23:13,193 --> 01:23:17,331
This housewas just like chaos itself.
1153
01:23:18,800 --> 01:23:20,768
I tried to make Tara breathe
1154
01:23:20,802 --> 01:23:25,507
but the kid was cold and stiff.
1155
01:23:30,310 --> 01:23:32,647
I think I fainted at one point.
1156
01:23:33,013 --> 01:23:35,182
It was so difficult.
1157
01:23:36,483 --> 01:23:40,153
Anita was completelyout of control.
1158
01:23:41,355 --> 01:23:43,223
She cried. She screamed.
1159
01:23:43,257 --> 01:23:46,426
She was... She was...
it was terrible.
1160
01:23:46,828 --> 01:23:50,532
She had this animal thing
that came out, you know?
1161
01:23:50,565 --> 01:23:54,334
Like she wanted to...
She wanted him to be alive.
1162
01:23:57,371 --> 01:24:00,474
And it was an extremely
sad moment.
1163
01:24:09,416 --> 01:24:12,820
Keith was in Paristhe night I believe he heard.
1164
01:24:14,454 --> 01:24:16,791
There's a bit of footagefrom the concert.
1165
01:24:18,593 --> 01:24:21,161
He insisted on goingon stage that night.
1166
01:24:21,529 --> 01:24:23,631
The band, from what I gather,was saying,
1167
01:24:23,665 --> 01:24:25,633
"No, you can't.Your son's just died."
1168
01:24:25,900 --> 01:24:28,402
But he insisted
the show must go on.
1169
01:24:28,870 --> 01:24:31,539
I supposed he played very well.
Very, very well.
1170
01:25:00,167 --> 01:25:01,201
Yeah!
1171
01:25:07,842 --> 01:25:09,711
Tara had dieda crib death.
1172
01:25:11,546 --> 01:25:13,413
He was only 10 weeks old.
1173
01:25:17,250 --> 01:25:18,553
I was heartbroken.
1174
01:25:22,189 --> 01:25:24,759
The Swiss doctors told meit wasn't my fault.
1175
01:25:26,861 --> 01:25:30,497
But if I'd been more together,could I have done something?
1176
01:25:39,373 --> 01:25:40,808
Keith never blamed me.
1177
01:25:41,308 --> 01:25:42,677
He's not like that.
1178
01:25:45,278 --> 01:25:46,581
But I blame myself.
1179
01:25:48,683 --> 01:25:50,384
I had a nervous breakdown.
1180
01:25:57,391 --> 01:26:00,728
Tara, he's never...
he's never really been
1181
01:26:00,762 --> 01:26:02,295
talked about, to be honest,
1182
01:26:03,865 --> 01:26:05,499
but his memory's there.
1183
01:26:06,233 --> 01:26:09,469
But Marlon and I find it hard,
and my mom never talked about it
1184
01:26:09,503 --> 01:26:11,238
and my dad never talks about it.
1185
01:26:11,739 --> 01:26:14,976
And I think maybe now,
as we're getting older,
1186
01:26:15,009 --> 01:26:16,376
we probably should have...
1187
01:26:16,944 --> 01:26:19,781
probably could've talked to Mom
about it a bit more, but...
1188
01:26:20,313 --> 01:26:22,950
It wasn't really much
of a topic, shall we say.
1189
01:26:23,518 --> 01:26:25,687
It was never really brought up
much again.
1190
01:26:25,920 --> 01:26:27,187
It was too painful.
1191
01:26:27,755 --> 01:26:30,424
I think they just couldn't cope,
either of them.
1192
01:26:35,697 --> 01:26:38,633
I had to take Angelaand put her with my mother,
1193
01:26:40,434 --> 01:26:42,770
'cause it wasincredibly sad for us.
1194
01:26:45,305 --> 01:26:49,242
But given the circumstances,it was the only decision.
1195
01:26:54,481 --> 01:26:55,983
I think we were in a hotel.
1196
01:26:57,919 --> 01:26:59,453
I don't know
what hotel we were in
1197
01:26:59,486 --> 01:27:01,589
but my nan and Bill
came and picked me up.
1198
01:27:02,156 --> 01:27:04,391
And my mom was just...
She was just in bed.
1199
01:27:04,424 --> 01:27:06,493
She didn't really know
that I was leaving.
1200
01:27:06,527 --> 01:27:07,695
She didn't say goodbye.
1201
01:27:07,995 --> 01:27:11,331
She was pretty much out of it,
I would say, probably.
1202
01:27:11,699 --> 01:27:14,401
And my nan and Bill came
and got my little suitcase,
1203
01:27:14,434 --> 01:27:15,970
and that was it, I just went.
1204
01:27:19,607 --> 01:27:22,476
I don't knowwhat I was told at the time.
1205
01:27:22,510 --> 01:27:24,478
I think I was just going there
for a little while
1206
01:27:24,512 --> 01:27:27,314
while my mom was just
sorting herself out,
1207
01:27:27,347 --> 01:27:28,516
and my dad was as well.
1208
01:27:31,519 --> 01:27:33,621
Angela would have beenfour years old.
1209
01:27:33,988 --> 01:27:35,890
Just went on permanentlyfrom then.
1210
01:27:38,726 --> 01:27:40,260
We were split up.
1211
01:27:41,963 --> 01:27:43,765
She stayed in England
1212
01:27:44,065 --> 01:27:46,266
and we went to livein the States.
1213
01:27:51,471 --> 01:27:53,406
Maybe it was just a new start.
1214
01:27:53,440 --> 01:27:54,675
Maybe that sort of thing.
1215
01:27:54,709 --> 01:27:56,376
I mean,
it's somewhere different.
1216
01:27:56,409 --> 01:27:57,444
Yeah.
1217
01:28:00,114 --> 01:28:01,649
It was like a new life.
1218
01:28:04,018 --> 01:28:05,920
My idea of Americawas The Brady Bunch.
1219
01:28:06,286 --> 01:28:09,322
But we were in the middleof nowhere. Upstate New York.
1220
01:28:11,959 --> 01:28:14,629
My parents weren't getting onvery well at that point.
1221
01:28:16,764 --> 01:28:18,866
Keith was, I think,just doing his sort of shit,
1222
01:28:18,900 --> 01:28:20,902
fucking off and disappearingfor weeks on end.
1223
01:28:23,538 --> 01:28:24,939
It was basically
a lawyered decision
1224
01:28:24,972 --> 01:28:27,407
to some degree that
they should...
1225
01:28:27,775 --> 01:28:29,677
He was either told
to like, you know,
1226
01:28:29,710 --> 01:28:32,079
choose The Rolling Stones
or choose her.
1227
01:28:32,445 --> 01:28:33,247
You can't have both
1228
01:28:33,614 --> 01:28:36,584
because you're self-destructing
if you stay with her.
1229
01:28:38,653 --> 01:28:40,755
And I'm sureshe told the lawyers
1230
01:28:41,022 --> 01:28:42,455
to go fuck themselves.
1231
01:28:43,658 --> 01:28:45,392
And she probably threwsomething at them.
1232
01:28:55,468 --> 01:28:57,705
I moved inwith Anita and Marlon
1233
01:28:57,939 --> 01:29:00,908
in July of '78.
1234
01:29:02,610 --> 01:29:04,078
Anita hired me
1235
01:29:04,377 --> 01:29:06,848
to be the governessor nanny for Marlon.
1236
01:29:07,982 --> 01:29:10,084
My masters was in Special Ed.
1237
01:29:10,117 --> 01:29:12,520
And it was my understanding
from Anita
1238
01:29:12,553 --> 01:29:14,155
that he was "home-schooled."
1239
01:29:14,188 --> 01:29:15,790
He had never been to school.
1240
01:29:15,990 --> 01:29:17,058
And he was eight.
1241
01:29:18,559 --> 01:29:20,460
But Marlon was amazing.
1242
01:29:20,761 --> 01:29:22,495
He was a brilliant little boy.
1243
01:29:23,931 --> 01:29:27,500
And I just tried
to normalize suburban living,
1244
01:29:27,535 --> 01:29:28,435
going to school,
1245
01:29:28,468 --> 01:29:30,671
being an eight-year-old kid
having fun.
1246
01:29:36,244 --> 01:29:40,848
Anita was justin this very small...
1247
01:29:42,516 --> 01:29:44,952
closed provincial community,
1248
01:29:45,519 --> 01:29:47,387
bored out of her mind,
1249
01:29:48,356 --> 01:29:51,491
just getting offof the loss of a child,
1250
01:29:51,726 --> 01:29:54,494
and she was dependenton the record company
1251
01:29:54,528 --> 01:29:55,930
for just about everything.
1252
01:29:56,564 --> 01:30:00,968
They had quite a bit
of control over her life.
1253
01:30:01,736 --> 01:30:05,606
She did not have possession
of her own passport,
1254
01:30:06,107 --> 01:30:10,111
so she was pretty much
at their mercy
1255
01:30:10,144 --> 01:30:13,781
and needed to ask permission
to travel.
1256
01:30:15,983 --> 01:30:17,885
She was a caged animal.
1257
01:30:21,555 --> 01:30:23,758
I think she was really angry,
yeah.
1258
01:30:25,526 --> 01:30:28,930
I think the whole situationwore her down after a bit.
1259
01:30:31,999 --> 01:30:33,500
She was very lonely up there.
1260
01:30:33,801 --> 01:30:36,203
And she befriendedthis young guy.
1261
01:30:37,071 --> 01:30:39,472
He was 17, 18-ish.
1262
01:30:41,042 --> 01:30:43,077
Scott and his cousin
1263
01:30:43,377 --> 01:30:46,147
did a lot of odd jobsaround the community.
1264
01:30:48,516 --> 01:30:51,619
They seemed tokind of be knockabouts.
1265
01:30:53,854 --> 01:30:56,991
Anita was very lenient,very laid-back,
1266
01:30:57,024 --> 01:30:59,694
and, you know, "Help yourself."
1267
01:31:00,361 --> 01:31:03,130
They were just friends until...
1268
01:31:04,999 --> 01:31:06,200
until they weren't.
1269
01:31:06,968 --> 01:31:12,573
You know, he might not
have been a minor,
1270
01:31:12,974 --> 01:31:16,010
but, in my mind, he was just...
1271
01:31:16,277 --> 01:31:17,878
he was just too...
1272
01:31:17,912 --> 01:31:19,013
He was a kid.
1273
01:31:21,315 --> 01:31:24,852
My grandmotherkept me very sheltered
1274
01:31:24,885 --> 01:31:28,556
about my momand my father's lifestyles.
1275
01:31:29,090 --> 01:31:31,158
But I'd go out therein the summer holidays
1276
01:31:31,192 --> 01:31:32,259
and see them.
1277
01:31:32,593 --> 01:31:35,129
The relationship
was definitely a bit stifled.
1278
01:31:35,429 --> 01:31:37,064
Old-fashioned, my nan would say.
1279
01:31:37,098 --> 01:31:39,767
She just didn't really see
what was, you know,
1280
01:31:39,800 --> 01:31:42,737
what was going on
or understand it.
1281
01:31:42,770 --> 01:31:44,538
And, you know, she was...
1282
01:31:44,572 --> 01:31:46,574
She was bad mom
in my nan's eyes.
1283
01:31:50,945 --> 01:31:54,015
When Keith's momcame to visit with Angela,
1284
01:31:54,682 --> 01:31:58,019
Anita treated herlike she was made of glass.
1285
01:31:58,486 --> 01:32:00,721
She just would sit
and look at her
1286
01:32:00,755 --> 01:32:02,990
and, you know,
talk about her dress,
1287
01:32:03,024 --> 01:32:05,726
and admire her.
1288
01:32:05,760 --> 01:32:06,961
Admire her.
1289
01:32:06,994 --> 01:32:08,329
And I think she was longing
1290
01:32:08,362 --> 01:32:09,830
but she didn't wanna
get too close
1291
01:32:09,864 --> 01:32:11,098
'cause she knew
they were leaving.
1292
01:32:12,800 --> 01:32:15,169
She held a lot against Doris,
1293
01:32:15,870 --> 01:32:19,173
the reason why she didn't haveAngela with her.
1294
01:32:28,282 --> 01:32:31,919
It was the last dayof school, July 28th, 1979.
1295
01:32:32,420 --> 01:32:33,754
I was like ten.
1296
01:32:35,289 --> 01:32:37,558
I'd just finishedsummer school.
1297
01:32:40,161 --> 01:32:41,595
Got off the bus.
1298
01:32:43,731 --> 01:32:46,901
No one was home really.
At least, I didn't think so.
1299
01:32:48,537 --> 01:32:50,304
So I walked in,made a sandwich.
1300
01:32:50,805 --> 01:32:52,740
Sat down, turned the TV on.
1301
01:32:52,773 --> 01:32:55,810
It was an exciting timeten years ago today.
1302
01:32:56,277 --> 01:32:59,046
Watched this ABC Specialon the moon landings.
1303
01:32:59,580 --> 01:33:02,583
Houston,the Eagle has landed.
1304
01:33:04,852 --> 01:33:07,254
I didn't realizeAnita was even in the house.
1305
01:33:07,755 --> 01:33:10,024
And then I hear a loud bang.
1306
01:33:11,358 --> 01:33:12,860
And then a scream.
1307
01:33:13,761 --> 01:33:18,199
Anita came down in a night gown,
just covered in blood.
1308
01:33:18,399 --> 01:33:21,235
Screaming, saying, "Oh, my God.
Scott's blown his head off,"
1309
01:33:21,268 --> 01:33:23,070
or shot himself
or something like that
1310
01:33:23,104 --> 01:33:24,171
and freaking out.
1311
01:33:24,472 --> 01:33:26,674
She was losing her shit.
Losing her shit.
1312
01:33:28,175 --> 01:33:30,244
I remember running upstairsrather morbidly.
1313
01:33:32,346 --> 01:33:33,714
The TV was on.
1314
01:33:34,348 --> 01:33:36,150
They'd been watching
Deer Hunter.
1315
01:33:39,887 --> 01:33:41,822
And the Russian roulette scene
came up
1316
01:33:41,856 --> 01:33:43,124
and he decided to emulate it.
1317
01:33:43,724 --> 01:33:45,159
And, unfortunately, he lost.
1318
01:33:53,267 --> 01:33:55,002
I remembergoing around the room
1319
01:33:55,202 --> 01:33:58,272
because I was always taughtas a child to clean up.
1320
01:33:58,973 --> 01:34:01,876
If there's anything
dodgy around, get rid of it.
1321
01:34:03,144 --> 01:34:04,845
There was likedrug paraphernalia around,
1322
01:34:04,879 --> 01:34:07,081
so I kind of scooped itinto a bag or something
1323
01:34:07,114 --> 01:34:08,315
and threw it in the rubbish.
1324
01:34:09,016 --> 01:34:11,118
And then I remembered,"Oh, shit, the pistols."
1325
01:34:12,453 --> 01:34:14,855
The guns in the housewere Keith's.
1326
01:34:16,257 --> 01:34:18,893
So I kind of took those
and put those away too
1327
01:34:18,926 --> 01:34:20,361
'cause I knew the cops
were coming.
1328
01:34:22,930 --> 01:34:24,899
And there was25 cop cars around.
1329
01:34:24,932 --> 01:34:27,201
They hauled her off to jail,I think, for a bit.
1330
01:34:28,769 --> 01:34:31,372
Searched the housefor dirty bits, all that.
1331
01:34:33,274 --> 01:34:35,042
It was very, very dark.
1332
01:34:36,944 --> 01:34:41,048
We were driftinga little anyway.
1333
01:34:43,384 --> 01:34:47,121
It was at that point,I had to actually say to Anita,
1334
01:34:47,154 --> 01:34:49,089
"I'm not living
with you anymore."
1335
01:34:51,492 --> 01:34:55,462
I really had to say, you know,"Look, I have to leave."
1336
01:34:59,967 --> 01:35:01,468
It wasn't safeto stay there.
1337
01:35:02,203 --> 01:35:04,004
We pretty much
moved out that night.
1338
01:35:04,038 --> 01:35:05,806
That was it.
We were out of that house.
1339
01:35:07,975 --> 01:35:10,978
She had to go offand be coached by lawyers.
1340
01:35:14,248 --> 01:35:17,785
I was whisked off to Paristo stay with my father.
1341
01:35:19,787 --> 01:35:22,223
The next time I saw her
was like four months later.
1342
01:35:22,256 --> 01:35:24,058
She was living in a hotel
in New York.
1343
01:35:29,029 --> 01:35:31,232
All I heardwas the click of a gun.
1344
01:35:35,803 --> 01:35:40,007
It was someone's lifeand I'd had my back turned.
1345
01:35:44,912 --> 01:35:46,780
I felt like some nasty person
1346
01:35:46,814 --> 01:35:49,016
who caused deathand destruction around her.
1347
01:35:56,357 --> 01:35:59,426
I slid further into the depthsof heroin addiction,
1348
01:36:03,264 --> 01:36:05,899
scoring on the streetsof Alphabet City.
1349
01:36:06,867 --> 01:36:09,436
I started stealing drugsfrom my friends.
1350
01:36:15,610 --> 01:36:16,977
I sat in the Mudd Club
1351
01:36:17,011 --> 01:36:19,179
and watched my former selfon video.
1352
01:36:23,384 --> 01:36:26,387
I felt totally at the mercyof dark powers,
1353
01:36:29,890 --> 01:36:31,191
the living dead.
1354
01:36:40,868 --> 01:36:43,971
She just descended.Descended pretty badly.
1355
01:36:47,374 --> 01:36:49,843
She painted herselfinto a corner pretty much.
1356
01:36:52,046 --> 01:36:53,548
She was such a nightmarethat I think
1357
01:36:53,581 --> 01:36:55,349
basically she washer own worst enemy.
1358
01:37:06,894 --> 01:37:07,961
In the end,
1359
01:37:08,563 --> 01:37:10,931
it was the alcoholthat brought me down.
1360
01:37:13,434 --> 01:37:16,538
I was so drunk,I'd fallen off the bed.
1361
01:37:20,140 --> 01:37:22,176
And that's where they found me.
1362
01:37:27,515 --> 01:37:28,916
But I survived.
1363
01:37:31,318 --> 01:37:33,120
I wasn't sure that I would.
1364
01:37:36,591 --> 01:37:38,125
By that point,especially,
1365
01:37:38,158 --> 01:37:39,860
she'd seenenough people dying off.
1366
01:37:40,094 --> 01:37:42,363
She knewthat if she didn't clean up,
1367
01:37:42,396 --> 01:37:43,497
it would be her.
1368
01:37:44,064 --> 01:37:45,065
Yeah.
1369
01:37:49,403 --> 01:37:52,272
She went off anddid some rehab.
1370
01:37:53,675 --> 01:37:55,209
She went to one place
1371
01:37:55,242 --> 01:37:56,578
in the middle of nowherepretty much.
1372
01:37:58,813 --> 01:38:02,282
All the counselors were thesehuge ex, like, military types.
1373
01:38:03,317 --> 01:38:06,487
She had to sit in the middle
of this room with her sponsor,
1374
01:38:06,521 --> 01:38:08,989
and me and my sister
and her sister.
1375
01:38:09,356 --> 01:38:12,426
And she had to read out
like a massive essay
1376
01:38:12,459 --> 01:38:15,095
she wrote to each of us with
what she'd done wrong to us
1377
01:38:15,429 --> 01:38:17,331
over the years
and apologize to us.
1378
01:38:17,364 --> 01:38:19,166
And it was heartbreaking.
It really was.
1379
01:38:21,669 --> 01:38:24,104
I thought I'd brokenall the bridges.
1380
01:38:25,105 --> 01:38:28,008
I thought the childrenwouldn't wanna know me anymore.
1381
01:38:31,078 --> 01:38:33,380
It's been a verydifficult journey
1382
01:38:33,414 --> 01:38:34,915
for me and Marlon.
1383
01:38:36,083 --> 01:38:39,687
Sometimes we had... my dad.
1384
01:38:39,721 --> 01:38:43,525
He sat down with me one day
and he explained it all
1385
01:38:45,325 --> 01:38:46,427
and broke down.
1386
01:38:48,663 --> 01:38:50,230
Yeah, it's hard.
1387
01:38:55,302 --> 01:38:58,706
Just, you know,
they weren't in a good place.
1388
01:39:03,143 --> 01:39:06,346
But I've never wantedan apology.
1389
01:39:08,482 --> 01:39:11,018
I just thinkif you're proving yourself
1390
01:39:11,051 --> 01:39:13,521
and changing your lifeand wanting to do better,
1391
01:39:13,721 --> 01:39:16,490
I'll take that as an apology.
1392
01:39:23,163 --> 01:39:26,500
In NA,when you're in recovery,
1393
01:39:27,702 --> 01:39:29,537
we look back at our past,
1394
01:39:30,170 --> 01:39:33,006
we look at everythingthat we've done,
1395
01:39:33,307 --> 01:39:35,042
and assess it.
1396
01:39:35,075 --> 01:39:37,177
We don't judge it
but we assess it,
1397
01:39:37,211 --> 01:39:40,715
and we don't leave anything
behind closed doors.
1398
01:39:45,419 --> 01:39:47,120
When Tara died,
1399
01:39:47,988 --> 01:39:51,158
it must have beenextremely difficult for Anita.
1400
01:39:53,427 --> 01:39:56,230
Keith certainly wasn'ta father in the...
1401
01:39:56,764 --> 01:39:59,801
in the normal sense of the word.
1402
01:40:05,573 --> 01:40:08,075
To me, she was oneof The Rolling Stones.
1403
01:40:09,343 --> 01:40:12,012
She certainlywas one of the boys.
1404
01:40:14,381 --> 01:40:17,384
But nobody was thereto help her.
1405
01:40:19,453 --> 01:40:21,388
She had a lot of strength and...
1406
01:40:21,421 --> 01:40:23,558
I mean, I don't know
how she survived so long.
1407
01:40:32,332 --> 01:40:35,369
I would like to bringTara's ashes to Rome,
1408
01:40:35,770 --> 01:40:37,304
to the family grave.
1409
01:40:42,710 --> 01:40:44,679
Can I lay to rest the ghosts
1410
01:40:44,979 --> 01:40:47,481
that have haunted mefor so many years?
1411
01:40:53,821 --> 01:40:55,355
I still feel young,
1412
01:40:55,723 --> 01:40:59,694
but I look in the mirrorand I realize that I'm not.
1413
01:41:04,532 --> 01:41:06,066
I started writing.
1414
01:41:08,402 --> 01:41:10,203
It was difficult at first
1415
01:41:11,405 --> 01:41:13,841
but the memoriescame flooding back.
1416
01:41:18,178 --> 01:41:20,480
I knew I hadto understand myself
1417
01:41:20,515 --> 01:41:22,282
and the people I grew up with,
1418
01:41:22,717 --> 01:41:24,886
and not be dauntedthat everyone else
1419
01:41:24,919 --> 01:41:26,788
thinks of them as giants.
1420
01:41:32,392 --> 01:41:34,428
I don't regret anything.
1421
01:41:38,533 --> 01:41:40,167
All the fires I hadbeen through
1422
01:41:40,200 --> 01:41:42,436
had been like a cleansing,
1423
01:41:43,838 --> 01:41:46,473
and fires are extraordinary.
1424
01:41:50,812 --> 01:41:53,681
But I've gotta get my own thinggoing again.
1425
01:41:57,417 --> 01:42:00,153
She really had two acts
in her life,
1426
01:42:00,187 --> 01:42:03,858
and the first act was
very different from the second.
1427
01:42:04,291 --> 01:42:06,561
To her credit,
she got herself together.
1428
01:42:06,861 --> 01:42:10,364
I mean, not many people did.
My old man certainly didn't.
1429
01:42:10,965 --> 01:42:13,768
She got herself together.
She got sober, you know?
1430
01:42:13,801 --> 01:42:15,402
She got the wake-up call.
1431
01:42:22,977 --> 01:42:26,246
I think the desireto not be a victim saved her.
1432
01:42:28,850 --> 01:42:30,384
She wanted to achieve things.
1433
01:42:33,955 --> 01:42:36,658
By the time I wasat secondary school,
1434
01:42:37,125 --> 01:42:39,694
she was just much moreinvolved in my life.
1435
01:42:41,896 --> 01:42:44,264
And that's when she startedto go to college.
1436
01:42:44,999 --> 01:42:46,934
So we were both students.It was quite funny.
1437
01:42:47,902 --> 01:42:51,706
She said it wasn't easy
being that person in there.
1438
01:42:51,739 --> 01:42:54,742
But she said it was great,
and she worked really hard.
1439
01:42:55,442 --> 01:42:57,512
I think that gave her
a great deal of confidence.
1440
01:42:57,545 --> 01:42:58,680
A great deal of confidence.
1441
01:42:58,713 --> 01:42:59,914
She was so proud of herself,
1442
01:42:59,947 --> 01:43:01,448
and we were all very
proud of her.
1443
01:43:02,315 --> 01:43:04,786
I have this picture of herwith her hat
1444
01:43:04,986 --> 01:43:06,654
and her certificate,
1445
01:43:06,688 --> 01:43:09,524
grinning, when she graduated.
1446
01:43:13,427 --> 01:43:16,296
Yeah, she talked a lotabout going to art school.
1447
01:43:17,464 --> 01:43:19,734
I think she probably
found herself,
1448
01:43:19,767 --> 01:43:21,401
like her true self,
1449
01:43:21,969 --> 01:43:23,370
'cause there was nothing,
1450
01:43:23,705 --> 01:43:25,439
you know,
none of that Stones thing.
1451
01:43:25,472 --> 01:43:28,643
She was a student.
She was with other students.
1452
01:43:28,676 --> 01:43:30,310
And she was just like Anita.
1453
01:43:30,945 --> 01:43:34,615
I didn't know her when
she took drugs, so... But...
1454
01:43:36,918 --> 01:43:39,453
she was so interesting
without them.
1455
01:43:41,989 --> 01:43:43,791
Anita loved Kate.
1456
01:43:45,059 --> 01:43:47,394
She, you know,
took a lot of inspiration
1457
01:43:47,427 --> 01:43:48,696
from the young people
she was with.
1458
01:43:48,730 --> 01:43:50,631
She loved hanging out
with young people.
1459
01:43:51,231 --> 01:43:54,501
And Kate sort of credited herwith her style.
1460
01:43:58,305 --> 01:43:59,941
And that's when she gotthis reputation
1461
01:43:59,974 --> 01:44:01,475
as a fashion icon.
1462
01:44:08,583 --> 01:44:11,619
I knew about Anita,like, as an icon.
1463
01:44:12,352 --> 01:44:16,256
She was one of my heroes
before I met her.
1464
01:44:18,593 --> 01:44:20,327
She is a historical figure.
1465
01:44:21,596 --> 01:44:22,462
She's Anita Pallenberg
1466
01:44:22,764 --> 01:44:26,567
and this is a womanwho has lived a very intense
1467
01:44:26,601 --> 01:44:27,769
and dangerous life.
1468
01:44:31,706 --> 01:44:33,440
She had the best style.
1469
01:44:33,941 --> 01:44:37,578
I mean, I still try to
recreate that stuff.
1470
01:44:38,946 --> 01:44:42,482
It was the originalbohemian rock chick
1471
01:44:44,417 --> 01:44:47,287
that peoplestill aspire to today.
1472
01:44:50,057 --> 01:44:52,727
Anita did not agree
with plastic surgery.
1473
01:44:52,760 --> 01:44:56,429
She thought it was naff,
very unchic.
1474
01:44:58,966 --> 01:45:01,468
She just had sucha strong personality.
1475
01:45:01,869 --> 01:45:03,303
She didn't give a fuck.
1476
01:45:05,072 --> 01:45:07,575
And she was everything
you want a rock star to be.
1477
01:45:07,608 --> 01:45:10,645
Or like just the...
1478
01:45:10,678 --> 01:45:13,047
For me, everything you want
a woman to be.
1479
01:45:16,383 --> 01:45:19,486
You know, we are talkingabout a one-off here.
1480
01:45:22,123 --> 01:45:23,958
What I loved about Anita was...
1481
01:45:23,991 --> 01:45:28,495
Well, there's a naturalnessabout how she operated
1482
01:45:29,096 --> 01:45:31,766
and a sort of... almostan innocence about it,
1483
01:45:31,799 --> 01:45:35,636
even in its mostMachiavellian form.
1484
01:45:40,107 --> 01:45:42,342
She was my woman.
1485
01:45:42,810 --> 01:45:45,112
We stuck togetherthrough a lot.
1486
01:45:47,615 --> 01:45:50,685
But it wasa total experiment really,
1487
01:45:51,986 --> 01:45:54,989
and it was a hellof an experience,
1488
01:45:55,022 --> 01:45:57,658
but she made a manout of me, and...
1489
01:46:03,564 --> 01:46:06,499
My dad's always said that,
"I've always loved your mom
1490
01:46:06,534 --> 01:46:08,035
but I just couldn't
live with her,"
1491
01:46:08,069 --> 01:46:10,538
which, I'm sure, she probably
would say the same
1492
01:46:10,571 --> 01:46:12,573
about him at the time as well.
1493
01:46:18,012 --> 01:46:19,747
Keith's a decent guy.
1494
01:46:24,051 --> 01:46:27,054
He's no angel,but neither am I.
1495
01:46:30,191 --> 01:46:32,793
We've been through too muchtogether to fight.
1496
01:46:38,799 --> 01:46:41,602
He says he's probablygonna die on stage.
1497
01:46:47,808 --> 01:46:51,212
His truth is differentto my truth.
1498
01:47:00,554 --> 01:47:02,790
It's funny how lifecomes around.
1499
01:47:06,861 --> 01:47:08,696
I started acting again.
1500
01:47:10,131 --> 01:47:11,498
Where's my change?
1501
01:47:11,532 --> 01:47:12,633
What, it's $50 a piece?
1502
01:47:12,667 --> 01:47:14,467
Change?
Take your change in coconuts
1503
01:47:14,501 --> 01:47:16,203
I used to wipe your ass,
for Christ's sake.
1504
01:47:16,237 --> 01:47:17,672
Well, we're even then.
1505
01:47:27,048 --> 01:47:29,050
Get off home,
back to your mommy.
1506
01:47:29,350 --> 01:47:31,786
The moment, yeah. Oh, my God.
1507
01:47:35,156 --> 01:47:36,857
Well, it's pretty heavy.
1508
01:47:38,793 --> 01:47:42,697
I never thought I could look
even remotely like the Queen.
1509
01:47:42,730 --> 01:47:44,131
But they managed to...
1510
01:47:44,165 --> 01:47:45,099
Even now, the other day,
1511
01:47:45,333 --> 01:47:49,170
I saw it on TV and I said,
"My God, I look like her."
1512
01:47:54,842 --> 01:47:58,779
Like, I don't know, I felt part
of a social structure and such.
1513
01:47:59,113 --> 01:48:00,948
Having lunch
at the Queen's house
1514
01:48:00,982 --> 01:48:03,150
at Buckingham Palace
and all of that,
1515
01:48:03,184 --> 01:48:05,686
it's just, for me,
it's not where I come from.
1516
01:48:07,054 --> 01:48:09,523
And James Foxfrom Performance...
1517
01:48:10,725 --> 01:48:12,059
Do you like my physique?
1518
01:48:12,693 --> 01:48:14,962
...he and I end upin bed again.
1519
01:48:16,163 --> 01:48:17,898
You think people will come?
1520
01:48:19,633 --> 01:48:20,835
Of course, they will.
1521
01:48:23,270 --> 01:48:26,207
They will come to see
the greatest show on Earth.
1522
01:48:28,609 --> 01:48:30,678
The scene in bed with James Fox,
1523
01:48:30,711 --> 01:48:33,014
we kind of did that
very kind of quietly,
1524
01:48:33,047 --> 01:48:36,317
because we both kind of
were traumatized
1525
01:48:36,350 --> 01:48:37,985
by the way we look.
1526
01:48:39,687 --> 01:48:42,089
Obviously,we've both grown older,
1527
01:48:42,123 --> 01:48:43,958
so we gotta play it allvery down
1528
01:48:43,991 --> 01:48:46,694
and didn't do any kind of
crazy things in it.
1529
01:48:46,727 --> 01:48:48,129
And so, that's fine.
1530
01:48:48,162 --> 01:48:49,530
It's just fine.
1531
01:48:51,999 --> 01:48:55,002
I hope I haven't cleanedmy dirty laundry in public,
1532
01:48:58,706 --> 01:49:02,209
but writing this has helped meemerge in my own eyes.
1533
01:49:06,647 --> 01:49:11,052
Reading over what I've written,I get a lump in my throat.
1534
01:49:16,757 --> 01:49:20,928
But it doesn't need to bea doom and gloom kind of story.
1535
01:50:21,455 --> 01:50:22,723
♪ Crawling ♪
1536
01:50:24,725 --> 01:50:28,162
♪ Over your windowYou think I'm confused ♪
1537
01:50:29,130 --> 01:50:32,099
♪ I'm waitingFor the divergent wasp ♪
1538
01:50:33,134 --> 01:50:35,336
♪ To complete my current ruse ♪
1539
01:50:37,338 --> 01:50:39,640
♪ You use a plate-glassscreen ♪
1540
01:50:41,175 --> 01:50:43,777
♪ To protect my chosen target ♪
1541
01:50:45,045 --> 01:50:47,281
♪ But there'sAn air-pellet hole ♪
1542
01:50:47,982 --> 01:50:50,851
♪ I can crawl through to you ♪
1543
01:50:53,821 --> 01:50:56,757
♪ I am the fly inthe ointment ♪
1544
01:50:56,790 --> 01:50:59,827
♪ I can spread more diseaseThan the fleas ♪
1545
01:50:59,860 --> 01:51:04,098
♪ Which nibble awayAt your window display ♪
1546
01:51:07,168 --> 01:51:10,271
♪ Yes, I am the flyIn the ointment ♪
1547
01:51:10,304 --> 01:51:13,340
♪ I shake you downTo say please as you ♪
1548
01:51:13,374 --> 01:51:16,710
♪ Accept the next doseOf disease ♪
1549
01:51:19,480 --> 01:51:22,483
♪ I am the fly, I am the fly ♪
1550
01:51:22,517 --> 01:51:25,486
♪ I am the fly, I am the fly ♪
1551
01:51:25,520 --> 01:51:29,056
♪ Fly in the,Fly in the ointment ♪
1552
01:51:31,892 --> 01:51:34,762
♪ I am the fly, I am the fly ♪
1553
01:51:34,795 --> 01:51:37,898
♪ I am the fly, I am the fly ♪
1554
01:51:37,932 --> 01:51:41,135
♪ Fly in the,Fly in the ointment ♪
1555
01:52:02,089 --> 01:52:05,059
♪ I am the fly, I am the fly ♪
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01:52:05,092 --> 01:52:07,962
♪ I am the fly, I am the fly ♪
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01:52:08,162 --> 01:52:11,765
♪ Fly in the,Fly in the ointment ♪
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01:52:14,168 --> 01:52:17,238
♪ Yes, I am the fly,I am the fly ♪
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01:52:17,271 --> 01:52:20,174
♪ I am the fly, I am the fly ♪
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01:52:20,207 --> 01:52:23,511
♪ Fly in the,Fly in the ointment ♪
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01:52:26,447 --> 01:52:29,283
♪ I am the fly, I am the fly ♪
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01:52:29,316 --> 01:52:32,353
♪ I am the fly, I am the fly ♪
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01:52:32,386 --> 01:52:36,156
♪ Fly in the,Fly in the ointment ♪
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01:52:38,392 --> 01:52:41,428
♪ Yes, I am the fly,I am the fly ♪
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01:52:41,462 --> 01:52:44,398
♪ I am the fly, I am the fly ♪
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01:52:44,431 --> 01:52:48,102
♪ Fly in the,Fly in the ointment ♪
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01:52:50,871 --> 01:52:52,540
♪ I am the fly ♪
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