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insomnia, amnesia

aphasia, disequilibrium

hemiplegia, dementia

schizophrenia

to name a few of the things the surgery may entail

if i m am lucky

i get to live with one of those

Wei Yihang

try to think of something during the operation

to stay awak

like what?

anything

anything

that's a non answer

you might as well tell me not to ask

for people in this operating room

other than the tumor in my brain

anything else

is not wrote mentioning

it's ready

Gauze

Aspirator

HR normal

BP normal

O2 sats normal

A Little Red Flower

the result come back fine

as for the visions you've been seeing

be it memory

or premonition

as long as they don't affect your life now

don't mind them

two years since the surgery

I've heard such words a million times

yet, it won't make the hallucinations go away

nor can it change my life

guess I'm done here

I'll wait outside

what the...

he's just...

it's alright

kids his age

even without the disease

would act rebellious

he should hang out with his friends more often

that's the thing, he has no friends

now that he's suspended

he doesn't even talk to his old classmates

are you in Xiao Wu's group?

yeah

Xiao Wu is such a nice guy

he comes visit us all the time

still, it'd be easier to make a fish climb a tree

than to get that kid to do activities

kid

come here

food's ready

sit straight

here, open your mouth

there you go

good girl

daddy, you have some too

the nurses lady said you don't eat enough

what does she know?

here

actually, I just ate

beef stew with rice

I want beef stew too

tell you what, after the checkup

I'll take you to dinner tonight

how does that sound?

great

ok, now take a bit bite

hi there

receipt, please

five more yuan for the overtime

it's just five minutes, kiddo

and i don't need no receipt

it's still overtime

it's not like I haven't tried

but my car before me was drawing

tell it the computer

now you're just being unreasonable

why should I pay the price for someone else's slacking?

meet my mom

اan accountant who gave up her career to take care of me

and has spent half of her lifetime saving money

i'm not out of cash

see?

pay with your phone then

there's no signal here

no signal

see? it works fine

no why you...

it doesn't

never mind

just go

thank you

how about that for mommy huh?

you've wasted a good 3 minutes and 30 seconds

bravo

thirty days a month

167 hours of worktime

that's 10020 minutes in total

i make 5500 a month

that's 54 cents per minute

for three and half minutes. it's 1.89 yuan

and i just made five

i'm a cancer patient, hello?

how many three and a half minutes do you think i have?

WERE, you were a cancer patient

didn't you hear what the doctor said?

the recurrence rate is extremely low

Yihang,food's ready

-come on -sure

this is my dad

an average office worker in an average company

he picked up sculpting since i got sick

his works, let's just say

swing violently between master pieces and car crash scenes

trying to match the genius of mother nature all by himself

one turnip costs three yuan now you know that?

the turnip may cost just three

but the time and effort i put in it

are worth way more than that

plus the aesthetics and thought

it's called studying the nature of things

and what exactly did you learn?

that carrots contain less water than turnips

and the fibers are too rough to carve with

enough of this nonsense

if only our son were

half as talkative as you are

i'm done

wait

did you hear what the doctor said today?

stop playing on your phone all the time

go out and make some friends

hi

my name's Wei Yihang

that's good

and then?

do you want to see my brain tumor biopsy?

take this for me

Xiao Wu is here

Mrs.Wei, watch out

Wu Xiaomei

he owns a wig shop across the tumor hospital

and a support group for cancer patients

he is the ultimate chicken-soup-for the-soul believer

and a self-claimed friend of mine

and, in secret my mom's number one spy

don't mind me

go make some tea

you didn't reply to my WeChat messages

it's A-Kou's memorial service

you must go

did you wash your hands?

A-Kou

you knew her

the one who

bought that big wavy wig at my shop?

the cosplayer?

we had a deal

she didn't want it to be too serious

so it's going to be a cos party

and a fancy one

i know nothing about cosplay

i'll get you wig

jut put it on

and play along

- alright? - he'll go

absolutely

never mind him

come here and have some tea

Xiao Wu

tell me something

how did it happen with the girl?

it spread

she suffered a lot, that one, didn't she?

she sure did

i thought

it was removed

xiao wu just said, it spread

memories

or fantasies

past

or the future

i can always see the images

they told me it's just hallucination induced by the surgery

but i'm certain that

something important must be waiting for me

there is place i need to be

it's just, before i can prove any of that

i have to try and

be normal

here, this is my card

i'm Wu Xiaomei

xiao as in po xiao, meaninig dawn

and Mei as in you mei, meaning serenity

i was born in the morning

hence the name

you're welcomed to come back anytime

sure

just a second

you go first

i'll catch up with you leter

just open yourself up a little you hear me?

hey

i forgot to tell you

if you meet someone you like

remember to friend them on WeChat

wait a second

you guys keep telling me i'm weird

now take a look at this bunch

you'd see how normal i am

let me play this video

and show you the real freaks

sister A-kou

i still haven't figured out

how much older you are than me

every time i asked you

you said you were eighteen

not a day older

well, i guess you'd be eighteen forever now

i don't know what to say

so i'll just play for you

whold you look at that?

guy has purple hair

and don't even get me started on that costume

see?

sorry, bro i dropped my phone in there

let me just get it just a sec

almost got it

what are you groping for?

hey

son

i find these kids adorable

why are you calling them freaks?

you are so...

mom, why don't you hang up now

hello?

i didn't get that, say again?

i said, mom, why don't you hag up?

i can't talk right now

maybe later can you hang up for now?

let me tell you one more time

i don't care if you think others are freaks

you should always be polite

show some passion, and a big smile

remember what the doctor said

what's the most important thing for you now?

socializing

i know

ok, then it's my turn

i'll come pick you up later

didn't your mom tell you to be polite?

thanks

thanks?

and...

i'm sorry

where is the passion? and the big smile?

mama's boy

is this young lady here for the morial service, too?

no, she's not

honey

so your motorcycle broke down, huh?

you do you feel hot in this?

it's alright

i bought it when my dad's shop had this sale

i don't do cosplay so i just wear it as an aoutfit

you dad owns a shop?

a car garage, yes

i see you and my son

are about the same age

eyes on thr road, mom

i know

honey

what's your name?

it's Ma Xiaoyuan

son

introduce yourself

now

son?

alright

hi, my name is Wei Yihang

do you want to see my brain tumor biopsy?

sure

what level?

two

that's nothing to brag about

i was a level two back when i was five

Mrs. Wei

just pull over up there, please

try to play cool with your brain tumor biops?

that's just lame

Thank you, Mrs. Wei

see you mama's boy

my son got schooled

would you stop laughing?

OK, i'll stop

support group

Weibo ID: go_f_urself

ketchup

soda

durian

and most importantly

oldenlandia water

xiao qing's infamous breakup potion

she said it tastes like a bad breakup

there you go

my bad, my bad

my bad

i forgot to knock, my bad

continue

mom

i was just

my son has growm up

no, not like that

it's not what you think

i've been there

just go

sweet yet spicy

bitter and puckery

that's it for today

thank you guys all eight of you online

that's it for today

tomorrow at the group session

Mr. Zhang Hesong will give a lecture

which i begged him to do with a dozen IMs

so please don't be late

boring

i once said

a life

full of different flavors

is what makes us fearless

many people have told me that

look who's here

first activity, i suppose?

let's go

and every time i hear that

i feel awkward

surely i don't deserve such compliment

i just love to come here and share with everyone

my take on the wisdom of life

meanwhile

i'm sure i'll also learn something

from the stories you share

flavor number one

sweet

- i'll go - please do

i'm Yang

and i've been on chemo forever

if there's one thing i've learned

in years of hospitalization

it is my poker skill

which has become awesome

what i got

is a malignant bone tumor

also known as bone cancer

i heard that

out of every hundred breast cencer patients

one is male

and i was the one

the calligraply

anyone interested

in keeping it?

for just one hundred yuan

you'll also get

a book with my autograph

i'll take the calligraphy

there you go

thank you

i love the quote on the back cover

which one?

always hope for a miracle

while learning to live in peace with the cancer

bravo

everything

will defintely

get better

in your life

fantastic

young man, i've been watching you

you have something to say, don't you?

let's give him a round of applause

no one has spoken on "sour" yet

step forward

you guys don't seriously believe in this, do you?

you think he really cares about the "flavors" of your life?

hope for a miracle...

there is no miracle

to me the only miracle would be

to wake up and find that none of this exists

that i never had a tumor

so my family don't have to live a thrifty life

or i don't toss and turn in bed all night because of the pain

son

this is a group for cancer patients

we're supposed to encourage each other

why you had to come and say things like that?

if encouraging each other could kill cancer

i'd be the first to sign up

and where did you even find this guy

who is clearly a fraud

this is outrageous

i just want to look healthier

is that wrong?

i just want to look normal

is that wrong?

pain is private

no need to show it to everybody

let alone pretending to be normal

Wei Yihang

so, for you, cancer

is nothing but an excuse to act crazy?

as little as you care about others' feelings

you certainly made an effort to look normal

why don't you live up to your words

and take off thet outfit?

now you're just trying to picka fight

i dare you to do it

guys, guys

Yihang didn't mean any of that

he's just a kid

Mr. Zhang why don't you carry on?

go

No, No, No

are you done?

should i continue?

welcome home

how was it?

watch the pan

Mrs

hey you, stop pinching it or i might as well give it to you for free

i have to, look how rotten it is

and these should be free

you're selling rotten vegetables

here weight it

- hello? - Wei Yihang?

how come you didn't show up today?

who is this?

it's me, Ma Xiaoyuan

do i know you?

the girl whoasked you to take off your clothes?

what do you want?

the thing is

a friend of mine was at Master Zhang's lecture the other day

he heard your speech and was intrigued

they're making this documentary on cancer

_ he was wondering if you'd do an interview _ not interested

please, do me a favor

don't blow off big opportunities because of our stupid fight

this documentary could really make a difference

hold on

it was not just a fight call it whatever you like

i'll meet you at your place tomorrow at three

i friended you on WeChat accept it

but I haven't told you....

hello?

no one

is an island

the illness

may have kept us further apart

but sharing and mutual help

are what connect us

we must learn to

live in place with the cancer

excuse me

can we stop?

don't be nervous

no pressure

just speak your mind

that's what i did

that's what everyone says

just repeat your speech

at the session the other day

i see

no wonder you came to me

I am a negative example

negative schmegative

different voices should be heard from cancer fighters

I'm not fighter

no voice

ask them to leave

I know you like this

this morning I went to a Troy shop and bought it for you

come on, help me out here

Ma Xiaoyuan

are you freaking kidding me?

now, think of this as a token of our implacable feud

drink it up and I'll help you

you watched my live streaming

not on purpose

and you followed me on Weibo

I ...

that's how you knew i invited Master Zhang

Lao Sun

let's go

Okey

sorry for the trouble, Mrs Wei

it's ok, no trouble

you're done filming?

check out my stream

logged on yet?

yep

ketchup

yogurt

leek flower

white vinegar

vintage vinegar

i did something dumb today

i neglected the feeling of a fellow member

and it's only fair that i get punished

this implacable feud

cheers

I'm gonna go puke a little bye everyone

you alright?

still mad?

uh huh

dinner tomorrow? my treat

hi, may I speak to Ma Xiaoyuan?

excuse me, may i ask

if Ma Xiaoyuan's home?

Xu Dong

you moved

i didn't, boss

you go paint those two car doors later

not me

i really didn't move, boss

everyone saw it

Guangzi did he move?

yes I totally saw it

you're the man, boss

you did you definitely moved

don't take a bit if you can't lose

did you set me up?

you guys

cut it out

all you do is fooling around

go do some work

the olders are not getting handled by themselves

you still smoke?

first one today

Lao Ma

when are you going to grow up?

wait here, I'll go take a shower

go wait in my office

how did you two know each other?

we're both sick

what do you have?

something's wrong with my brain

that's no big deal

are you Ma Xiaoyuan's dad?

what?

do i not look like a dad?

you do

so, what do you think of Xiaoyuan?

I think

she's nice

good

you're a terrible liar

I got nothing to worry then

go

put this up outside

with what?

check your pocket

magic

Wei Yihang

up here

sit wherever you like

your hair's not falling off?

it's been more than ten years

they've grown back

so, you're fine now?

my head hurts a little when it's cloudy

and that's about it

get myself checked on a regular basis, though

actually I don't believe Master Zhang is that great

but could it really be so bad to

give people some hope?

to alleviate the pain

they'd even take morphine shots

what's wrong with getting some spiritual comfort?

the way i see it

whoever talks about the truths of life everyday

must be a liar

Zhang is not what you think he is

he's not a liar

he's miserable man himself

forget it, enough about him

let's go

that's the best one. give me if you're not gonna eat it

sir, two soda here

Okey dokey

well

my mom said these types of food cause cancer

don't you already have it?

nothing in this world

is better than some beer with barbecue

come on

let's fight cancer with cancer

where exactly are we going?

I don't even see any street lamp ahead

you'll know when we're there

inside those walls is the wildlife park

my dad and I came here often

what about your mom?

I hardly remember

she died young

thirty percent of cancer is inherited

don't you know that?

we can't see squat here at this hour

we can listen

they are inside, calm down

I am calm

it's chilly

what is it?

Zebra

this is what zebra sounds like?

no idea, I took a guess

birds

those are monkeys

it's way past monkeys' bedtime now

what about birds?

a husky

dude

that's a wolf

I know

I was just messing with you

sorry

I had too much skewers

can you do this?

like this

and this

you know?

I heard that

after craniotomy

some people can suddenly speak several languages

and all i can do this

what can you do?

i can see the future

come on, seriously?

ever since the craniotomy

I kept dreaming of this lake

and by the lake

there is a girl

I'd like to see her face clearly

but the sun is so bright

that my vision is compromised

what you just described

isn't necessarily the future

it could be...

don't tell me it's hallucinations

maybe it's a parallel universe

do you believe that

somewhere out there

there's a version of you that never got sick?

and then he went to school like a normal kid

he graduated

and became a little adventure

how do you know i like adventures?

climbers' Manual?

outdoor knots?

don't you have those on your table?

i can't go out anyway

I just read it for fun

after I got sick, I figured

now that I'm dying

I might as well experience something different

please, you're not dying

you're such a negative person

always have been

i never study hard

or do the chores

I even get tired of eating

I'm always sleepy while I'm awake

and I never got one of those little red flower

in the kindergarten later in school

I never won any thing, either

what kind of pathetic kid never even won a little red flower?

I don't think that matters

hey

next time it's my treat

keep going and turn right

don't worry I'll text you when I get home

he's here

scram

are you hungry?

can I get you anything to eat?

I'm good

our son

I have a meeting in the morning

we should rest now

right

we should rest now

did you read that article I sent you?

now there's a new top 10 ranking of anti cancer vegetable

I didn't know the vegetables are so competitive

shut your mouth

go print it out and put it on the fridge

so I can cook, accordingly

Ma Xiaoyuan: free this afternoon?

there's something I'd like to meet

I'm going out

want another bet?

fifty kuai

I bet he's going out with that girl again tomorrow

I'll take it

come here

weibo ID: go_f_urself

I'm Ma Xiaoyuan

this is Wei Yihang, the boy I told you about

hi

I'm Wu Xiaoliang

also know as Adventurer_Wu on weibo

he's famous

got hundreds of thousands of followers

I know

i saw his vlogs

this one is so persistent

she sent me dozens of messages

I learned a bit about your situation

so, you love outdoor sports

for how long?

I wouldn't say love

just like checking them out every once in while

where have you been?

I've been to nowhere

I'm sick

can't travel

xiao Wu has been to everywhere

he crossed the no man zone of lake Baikal alone

he claimed Mount Everest without supplemental oxygen

- also - yeah,people on the internet made those up

but I have been to some pretty cool places

what would you like to know

or find interesting?

just ask

I would love to share with you

he may be a little shy

I'm not

he just needs some time

you should like you know me so well

we've only met a few days ago

I actually know people like you

always longing to see the world

but can't go anywhere

if i were you

i don't think I can survive a day

come on, I'll friend you on WeChat

sure

show me your QR code

do you work out every day?

cardio and strength

just trying to say in good shape

ah

can I have a go at that?

be my guest I'll take some weight off for you

no need, keep it

what are you doing?

what do you mean?

maybe I should take some of

stop

it's okay

what are you trying to prove?

i could ask you the same thing

you keep hooking me up with all these strangers

do you enjoy that?

you're too negative

i just want you to be happy

really?

are you sure you're not doing this for yourself?

xiao Wu has been to so many places

climbed the Everest without supplemental oxygen

your smile was so big

i could literally see that hole behind your teeth

Wei Yihang do you know how many...

message I sent him in the middle of the night

to get him to meet you in person?

if only I knew how ungrateful you'd be

right

thanks for reminding me

do you like hitting on guys via instant messaging?

i see

what was that supposed to mean?

what do you see?

i just do

finish that sentence

don't keep me hanging

you're jealous

is that so obvious?

still nothing at this hour?

it's not gonna happen today

I'm going out don't wait up

what scheme are you cooking up this time?

I was thinking

maybe we can't leave the city

but we can still experience something different

this is from an online travel blog

we can follow their exact route

well, not exactly

first stop today

the Gansbaai Beach in South Africa

dude

this is stupid

stupid is for grownup

we kid only care for fun

quit pitying yourself

and try to fell it

at night, Gansbaai

looks no different than other beautiful beaches

Gentle breeze mixed with salty scent of the ocean

seagulls soaring in circles up above

waves crashing against the reef

bits of water hitting you in the face

while immersed in this gorgeous scenery

please don't forget

you're now sharing this beach with the great white sharks

this time it's the North Pole

nope

it's the Antarctica

what's the difference

really

behold

you're floating in the belly button of the earth

the Dead Sea

the familiar scene of sunset

now seems to have an exotic vibe

within its fading light

your weary soul shall find comfort

hurry up

inside a karst cave underneath the Himalayas

on a stalactites formed tens of millennium ago

the crispy sounds of dripping water

it never snows there

nor is there wind

the place has stayed the same for eons of time

strolling on a footpath in the Grand Canyon of Colorado

the Canyon Effect would make you feel like

a kid that can take off at any moment

now, if you scream into the wind

it was send your voice all the way to outer space

those who have never come to the Sahara Desert

may not understand how sweet water can be

don't you think sand here in the Sahara

smell like sewage water?

what's your problem, man?

yeah? and I guess...

the wind in the canyon smells like Yu Shiang Shredded Pork

if we are doing this then

the glacier cave last time

smelled like urine

didn't you smell it?

that's enough

your turn to narrate

what am I supposed to say?

the carbon dioxide and particles

in the Martian atmosphere absorb red light

that's why when seen from Mars the sun isn't red...

if we keep going like this

we're about to leave the solar system

...but blue

now we're at the highest waterfall of the world

is Salto Angel in Venezuela

in the thundering noise, you fell secluded

away from civilization

a rainbow occurs over the mist

it's as if you were that old man from up

do you ever wonder what you'll look like old?

no

not sure if I'd live long enough to grow old

here we go again

come on

what?

let me show you what being old is like

hurry

dancing in the crowd

I feel the joy of being normal for the first time

growing old like everyone else

no longer seems a distant dream

you have to try some of this tofu jelly

I've been coming here since I was little

it's the lake

the one you saw in in the future is this?

do you know where this lake is?

no idea

had this made at the Xerox place

can we keep it?

I'll get you a new one

no need

I'm quitting when the lease expires anyway

it'd be useless then

how come you're quitting?

I'm going back to my home town

my kids have been at home for a couple years now

I need to look after them

Wei Yihang

the natural of this gray spot here

is yet to be determined

we'll wait till the results come back

before drawing any conclusions

I thought it was stabilized

how on earth...

when will the results come back??

reoccurrence is an inevitable phase

in cancer treatment

but you mustn't worry too much

even if there's a problem, it won't be..

mom

can I have some money?

how much?

about ten grand

what are you gonna use it for?

what will you do?

I want to go hiking

and I need some gear for that

going hiking in your current condition?

it'll be suicide

forget I said anything then

I didn't say no, did I?

what I meant was

with you situation now save it

I don't want to hear it

kind madam, please have mercy

is your kid sick?

is he sick?

at least you're not sick or disabled

why don't you get a real job so you can support your child?

can't you do that?

what the hell is this?

life always finds a way to me that

besides pain and pity

I deserve nothing

that neither adventures nor hope

are within my reach

happy birthday to you

happy birthday granny wish you all the best

look how sweet Chenchen is

the big one is for Yihang

it's enough for everyone

he can help himself

I'll cut it

great

I want to go pee pee

- take him - it's OK, Yihang

take Chenchen to the bathroom

hurry

follow your cousin

come on, let's eat

brother

you need to take care of yourself

I'm fine it's the same old thing

maybe I'll ask Lao Huang to arrange something

a gastroscopy

no need, it's only gastric ulcer

I'm fine, mom

sister in law

when will the result come back?

in a few days

cousin

son

you just make sure he gets all the treatments to needs

if you need more money

I can always sell my house

and move a nursing home

it'll be great

I get to live with my girls

from the old neighborhood

what are you thinking about, mom?

if someone had to sell a house it'd be us

it's not your problem...

your house

you mean the one Yihang's grandpa left you?

it's company property

how are you gonna sell it?

then I'll sell mine

you can't go live in a nursing home

if they still need more money...

then sis you should ship in too

we're a family

we'll makes sure the kid get treated

even if it means we go broke

that's right

here

brother

brother

what are you doing?

he'll see

it's OK

brother

no worries, we got you

please don't do this

Wei Yihang

you're not answering your phone

or replying to my WeChat messages

I figured you must've been sick as hell

I'm alright

what's going on?

nothing

what's with the attitude?

would it kill you to say more than two words?

thanks for coming

so long

I know

waiting for the result can be excruciating

you're under a lot of pressure

you know what? I'll introduce you to to my friend

he's a therapist

stop

you're hooking me up with people again

I'm a nutcase I know that

but your obsessive need to control others' life

is not exactly normal behavior

maybe both of us

need some kind of therapy

we can catch up when we're cured

who says I want catch up?

I'll sing a song for Lingling

hope she recovers soon

great

🎶farewell comrade

as you embark on this journey

not a word but tears falling down my face

and the sound of camel bells byvmy ears 🎶

what are you thinking?

Ma Xiaoyuan isn't here?

she hasn't been around much lately

actually

I've never had cancer

it was my wife

we can here seeking treatment

and we opened this wig shop to get by

my wife was an optimist

and she had helped many

that's how this group came to be

then she passed

and I took it over

all these years dealing with

people who were barely surviving

had taught me one thing

anyone with cancer or no cancer

guts or no guts

you have got to at least try

this negative attitude just won't cut it

sorry, the subscriber you've dialed can not be contacted right now

Ma Xiaoyuan

Ma Xiaoyuan

Ma Xiaoyuan

Ma Xiao...

what are you doing at this hour?

have you been drinking?

come on, don't stand in the rain

you...

why did you back me?

I thought we agreed to see each other only after we're both cured

- and that's not gonna happen for me - stop

not another word

best let me speak first before the alcohol wears off

Ma Xiaoyuan

you know...

I always keep to the side of the road as I walk

and sit the back end

every time I take a bus

and i always choose the corner table in a restaurant

because I hate making contact with people

I'm afraid of being noticed

you wanna know why?

because...

I'm afraid that I'd die right after

I open myself up to someone

I fear letting her go

and vice versa

then you showed up

and my so called principles

like all my pain in the ass negative energies

just got blown away

now, every morning I open my eyes

your face is the first image that pops into my head

Every night

lying on my bed

I can't help but listening to all your voice message again

before falling asleep

I amplified every selfie you posted on WeChat

till each pixel is visible

and printed in my mind

it's like

reciting a paragraph from textbook

I memorize everything you ever said to me so well

That I know them backwards

till one day

I suddenly realized that

I've forgotten something really important

but I couldn't remember what it was

and then that day

when I fainted

I remembered it

that I am a cancer patient

me

a cancer patient

I'm constantly reminded that

I may die anytime

so, what right do I have to play normal

God hates me so much that

every time I start to feel something nice

my life immediately gets switched to head mode

whom do you reckon God likes then?

see that old lady ever there?

she used to love bragging to everyone about how her grandson grew fast

and just when he's old enough to go to kindergarten

the boy was kidnapped

for three years she never stopped looking for him

she taught herself to use the internet and make videos

every time it rains she waits by the side of the road

so she can replace the missing person posters on the poles

with new ones

and that's Xiao Zhang

he's just three years older than you

and he delivers food to half the people on the street

he was born deaf and mute

so he can only communicate with customers

using a voice message someone recommend for him

still, he gets bad reviews all the time

and has been assaulted by drunkards

you think God likes them?

yet they never gave up

and you?

you keep saying

how fate doesn't treat you fairly

and how it's hard for others to let you go?

who the heck do you think you are?

I've been taking handfuls of meds every day since I was five

and i already knew back then

that even being alive

wasn't something you can take for granted

you think that cynical attitude of yours is badass?

let me tell you

you're not a badass you're a coward

-Ma Xiaoyuan -what, you're gonna disprove me again?

I like you

I mean...

what I'm trying to say is... I've learned how to do this

this

and this, too

you're Xiaoyuan's father

and you're Yihang's mom? you must be Mr. Ma

we're so sorry for everything that's okay

here's the thing

so, I broke my arm, and when I got back from the hospital

I saw from distance in the pouring rain that

there were two people

hugging each other

I took a good look

and they turned out to be our kids

it's not that oppose to young love or anything

it's just, why couldn't they talk inside?

they both had their heads cut once

it's so easy to catch cold

getting soaked like that was it worth it?

what are you looking at?

no more complaining about headache during rainy days are we?

I heard you drank alcohol?

could you at least give us a heads up next time?

next time? there's not gonna be a next time

of course there won't be a next time you should know better than that

sorry for the trouble we do apologize

well then...

here, you smoke?

you two, stay here

and think about what you did

man

this is a huge garage you got here

it's not that huge this is all we got

we fix cars here

and she sleeps up there

I'll deal with you when we get home

why don't I give you guys a tour in the office?

such a huge place

what is this?

a little red flower

for taking the initiative for the first time

hey

I think I know where the lake is

I'm telling you, I'm totally a genius

so I asked the guy at the restaurant

where he had the menus printed

then, at the Xerox place

I found the original picture of that backdrop

and it has a digital watermark left by the photographer

then you found his Weibo account

and sent him messages

exactly

the lake

is in Qinghai

did you IM him too?

I used an image recognition app, duh?

how come you aren't more excited than?

don't you wanna go?

of course I do

but what if my mom won't give me money?

we should get the money on our own

better earring some than begging for it

100 percent handmade novelty watch for children

buy now price, 80

there's no way this thing's worth 80

i wove this myself, hello?

in that case, my dad's sculpture

the ugly ass postmodernism rooster

will be worth no less than

three hundred

this?

350 at least

you're so greedy

I'm not forcing anyone to buy, am I?

just waiting for them to take the bait

what day is today?

Sunday, what?

nothing

you mom's asleep? she is

dad

what?

I thought you didn't have to work today

there was a meeting type of thing

a wrap up

that lasted for the entire afternoon

not even a dinner break

I'm starving

it so happens that

i just made some noodles

with two eggs

it's okay, you can have that

I'll make one myself later

I don't fell like eating

lost my appetite soon as i cooked it

it's all yours

I'll go get you some pickles

ok, then

if you wanna eat later

I'll cook for you

give me that

let me put this on you

nice and tight

- it's so pretty now - isn't that pretty?

wait, here's

an extra strand of hair

let me just cut it real quick

almost done

all right

does it took good or what?

does it took good

it certainly does

Gorgeous come on

thank you, uncle

you're welcome

thanks man

let's go

what are you doing here?

for a recheck?

no just passing through

by the way, I want to ask you something

is that so?

what is it?

that thing you posted on WeChat

the medicine trial volunteer program how do I sign up?

actually

it was posted by a friend who is a pharmaceutical sales representative

i just forwarded it as a favor

why are you interested?

I'm just asking for a friend

a friend

actually i wouldn't call him a friend

just some dude i met in this online game

will the volunteers get paid?

sure, every time

however there's screening process

i think the trial is for some kind of psychoactive drug

my guy is a perfect candidate then

I've always suspected there's something wrong with him

he never takes the buffs while jungling

all he does is running around ganking

that's why he's so useless in late game

i didn't understand a word you said you know what?

I'll get a business card for you

no, they're testing side effects of psychoactive drugs

- no looking for actual mental patients - i know

how about

i take a picture and send it to him then he can go ask himself

sure

thanks

Goji berry and broccoli

can be a hot couple

do you have something you wanna tell us?

i was going to

but maybe i should wait till later

i eh

found the lake

i saw during my surgery

and I going there with Ma Xiaoyuan

how are you gonna afford that?

i sold some of my

limited edition toys on a website

Ma Xiaoyuan managed to get some money, too

it should be enough

that's bullshit

who gave you the right to go through my stuff?

if i hadn't found this

you'd have turned yourself into a lunatic

wu Xiaomei told you, didn't he?

good

just perfect

you don't have to stare at me like that

I'm an adult now

I can responsible for my behavior

I know what I'm doing

if you need money

you could've just asked

you can't abuse yourself like that

I've been a burden to you long enough

this time I just want to do something

for myself in my way

can't i?

what way?

Wei Yihang

let me tell you something

your body doesn't just belong to you

it belongs to us, too

dad, take a look around

ever since i got sick

have we even bought one new thing?

the table can barely stand

and your phone

the cracks on the screen are beyond fixing

when you both get off work

one goes pinching leaves off vegetables in the market

and the other works as a Uber driver secretly

this family hasn't always been this way

and I don't want to see you like this

no need to worry about us

- we are happy with the way things are - well, I'm not

I don't want you to lose sleep over stomach ache

and still wouldn't do a gastroscopy

and mom, she goes on and on with people

so she can save a few more nickels

and there's grandma, at her age

she has to sell her house

so I'd have treatment for God knows how long?

the things you did to save me

only make me feel like a burden

and I'm not grateful at all

I would kill myself

if I don't get out of this life soon

now that you've let it of your system

its time to go home

I'll crash here tonight

then you'd better go downstairs and tell you dad

no way

then you can't stay

move

get up

you think i wanna stay here with you?

if you didn't tell them

none of this would have happened

and you don't get why i told them?

have you ever thought of me as a real friend?

we're not even friends

what are you blaming me for?

ha?

sure

we're not even friends

but it never stops you from interfering with my life

only because I'm friends with your parents

you think I go to your house for you?

I feel sorry for them

long before you joined the group

they've come many times

they were afraid people might treat you badly

so they went around talking to everyone

telling them what a great kid you are

wherever you offended someone there

they were the ones who had to go apologize

and it was only out of sympathy for them

that we tolerated your behavior

I know what it feels like

to see your loved ones get sick

it's hard for you, true

but it's even harder for the people around you

son, you can stay here tonight

if you want

i bought your pills

the small one

and the one with the red cap

remember to take them together

two capsules at a time

wait for 30 minutes

then the big one

this is new, you might forget

dad

i eh...

never laid a finger on you since you were little

now that I'm old

i figured why not

ever since you got sick

I just

couldn't bear to hear that word

death

I made about ten thousand

driving uber on the side

it should be enough for your trip

I'm not going

you should get this stomach thing treated

we have a checkup coming up next week employee benefit

I've made appointment for a gastroscopy

so, you don't have to worry

you...

should do something kids your age do

go out and see the world

however

when you can leave

is up to the doctor

deal?

the result have shown

no obvious sign of reoccurrence

keep taking medication

and he can travel as long as

it's not too tiring

thank you, doctor Liu

you heard that, son?

i did

no problem

no that

the siren

the train is around to set off for the distance

look why are the sheep marked?

sheep are gregarious animal

if they don't mark them

they wouldn't know which ones are theirs when they are all together

i haven't asked you yet

the girl you saw by the lake

was it me?

yeah

are you sure?

if I hadn't met you

i wouldn't even know where is the lake

now that you know

you could go with anyone you want

unlikely

I'm tired

let me nap for a bit

Ma Xiaoyuan fainted a abruptly

and our trip to Qinghai ended in the same fashion

after going through countless places

the train finally stopped at a strange platform

it was til Xiaoyuan was put in an ambulance did i suddenly realized

that could the closest we ever got to the future

as for what the future holds

i do not know

and I don't want to, either

you stay with her

I'll manage here by myself

Mr. Ma, the guys who's always joking around

who's always acting like a child

Seems to have

turned into a tortured father overnight

there's a hard drive on the desk

that has all my pictures growing up

have them developed when you get a chance

so my dad would have something to remember me by

we took a short trip

and you came back more negative than I am

all you need is some treatment

together

we're gonna kick cancer's ass

I'm tired

you should leave

look at you

where was all that cockiness from when you were trying to lecture me?

why are you such a wuss now?

Wei Yihang

come visit me no more

I'm getting my head shaved in a couple of days

it'll b hideous

others may not get it but you do, right?

this spot

is inoperable

did it spread?

insufficient intracranial space

- Doctor. lin - not now

cancer can grow really fast on young patients

then what happened?

still too soon to tell

there are other treatments to consider

she has been fine all these years

how come you didn't find it earlier?

didn't she get checked on a regular basis

yeah, result from last time didn't come back so well

did she not tell you?

Doctor Lin my mom's result just came back,

could you take look first?

what is the fucking rush?

can't wait to go to hell?

what's wrong?

ran out of ink again?

let me take a look

it's working

the doctor told me that

kids in your condition

are always good looking

don't know why

when you were this little

everything scared you

a woman wearing lipstick

a hallway with dim light

even flying catkins from willow trees made you cry

got that from dad, i guess

I used to be scared too

I was afraid to the dark

and cold

and bugs

but since I had you

i became fearless, nothing scares me

well, not exactly

after I had you

I was scared of more things

that you would get sick

or get bullied

or get yourself into trouble

and I did all those things

nonsense

no one has a perfect life

giving birth to a child and watching him

grow into a man with his own thoughts

is a feeling that's so... how do I put it?

like what you kids always say after beating a video game

dope

what are you afraid of now?

losing you

how did we even get here?

that's enough talk for today

I'm fine

what are you afraid of then, son?

me...

I'm afraid of being called mama's boy

no

you're afraid of losing her

mom

hypothetically speaking

what would you and dad do

if I'm gone?

I'll go take a look at the laundry

I used to believe

I'd be the one to go first

it never occurred to me that

one day I'd be so afraid of losing someone

how's Xiaoyuan going?

frustrated

extremely

i tried to visit her but she wouldn't even see me

remember what I told you?

this support group

was my wife's idea

she had helped so many

but nobody knew that

she took her own life

she did, in that storage room downstairs

when I found her

it was too late

she had suffered so much

pain and miseries

yet every single day she'd lead the chant

" I'm not afraid of this illness "

" I can defeat it "

then she of all people gave up

i was a fool

i got so busy running business

to make the money for her treatment

that i left the diagnosis at home

and she saw it

people assumed i took ever the group

out of compassion in general

only i know that

it's because of the guilt

what I'm trying to tell you is this

even the most optimistic ones

can lose their senses

stay with her

otherwise you'll regret it

alright, let's eat, I'll shut up

while I got everyone here

I have an announcement to make

this dinner today is actually

my way of saying goodbye

I've been out for years

it's time for me to go home and be with my parents

wait you mean

today is a going away party?

the group will still be here when I'm not

why can't your parents come live with you?

that's right

just bring them here

it's been so long since Xiao Wu's wife passed

he should start a new life now

that's enough guys, quiet down, please

we've had so much time through the years

together we're the fire

and apart we are the stars

remember what we had and keep up the good work

come on

let's have one last go

I'm not afraid of the illness

I can defeat it

I'm not afraid of the illness

I'm not afraid of the illness

i can defeat it

I'm not afraid of the illness

i can defeat it

I'm not afraid of the illness

i can defeat it

I'm not afraid of the illness

i can defeat it

I'm not afraid of the illness

I can defeat it

are we really not afraid?

can we really defeat it?

despite the doubts deep down

i had to chant with them

for Ma Xiaoyuan

and for myself

sir, hi your food

but I didn't order anything

the order says

one stewed beef with rice delivered to the dad who sits at the curb

in front of the tumor hospital

looks like your daughter ordered it for you you take a look

son

remember what you asked me the other day?

I've discussed it many times with your dad

but we couldn't bring ourselves to

say it your face

so we figured why don't we make a video?

it was actually my idea

don't change the subject

so, hypothetically speaking

if you're gone

knock on wood

Okey

if hypothetically you're gone...

and it happens to be weekend

your mom and I

have filmed our activities of the day

please enjoy

10 A.M

after we had breakfast

you dad got me iced coffee

now we're at a movie

let me show you

it's a horror flick look how scared your dad is

I'll show you

what you mom reads everyday

the Ultimate Way to Health

useful Tips for Recovering Cancer Patients

i think she's one article away to becoming a Healthcare expert

even the movies she saw are about fighting cancer

see?

Go Away Mr. Tumor

Jiang

it's three o'clock in the afternoon

and you mom has dragged me to this

support group for families of cancer patients

see your mom there?

chatting with people

all these families

are in the similar situations as ours

you mom told them how we should

stick together for comfort

the thing is I'm totally fine

what do I need comfort for?

Wei Jiang

coming

son, you see him?

look at your dad

he thinks I'm clumsy

so he went and find himself a new dance partner

leaving me all alone

like I'd enjoy dancing with him in the first place

right, keep dancing with her

listen don't film us at first

point the camera at that light

wait till it's green then turn around and film us

no problem

it's green

did you get it? yeah

thank you

your mom insisted we ate this

is it even edible?

this is like torture

mild spicy, mild

it'd have been medium if Yihang was here

could yourself lucky

waiter

get me a plate of ice

not ice, vinegar

it can neutralize the spiciness bring us some vinegar, please

everyone in life

experiences losses

which we're all afraid of

yet when it happens

the most powerful weapon we have against it

is to live each movement to the fullest

every second counts

that's how it is with me and your dad

and that's how it should be

with you and Xiaoyuan

this is our last stop

a perfect end to a perfect day

did you not wash your feet?

go wash them already like i told you

you don't think Yihang you got smell feet?

Harry up

mom, you guys totally SLAY

why did you shave your head?

are you insane?

from the Breakup Potion

to the implacable feud

from the barbecue stand

to the Qinghai trip

here are everything we've ever drunk

i call this one the Potion of No Return

i drink it up

and you'll be mine forever

what are you doing?

from now on

I'll sleep by your side every night

what tuity fruity soap opera is this?

whatever works for ya

get out of my face now

you're such a baby

I'm staying

good night

did you not feel well before we left?

felt dizzy a few times

why didn't you say something then?

you signed up for that drug trial thing without telling me, either

I was afraid that if I did

you wouldn't have come with me

and I was afraid that if I did

you wouldn't have taken me with you

i wanted so much

to be the person with you by the lake

too bad...

i can't

there is no me in your future

you're already in it

we would walk across that beach with the great white sharks

we would float together on the Dead Sea

and we would visit penguins in the Antarctica

we'd go to school together

then graduate

get married

and have children

then, when we were old

we'd dance in the square

I've seen all these things

i just didn't tell you

liar

those were the stupid things we did

it's not the future

stupid is for grownups

we kids only care if we can make them come true

just wait

soon

I'll travel around the world with you

what if we get separated?

in that case

you'll raise your arm

standing in the crowd

that way when i see this little red flower

I'll come find your in no time

this is some ugly drawing

take me to somewhere now

what are you doing?

are you scared?

why would I b scared?

i I heard that when you die you'll see something so bright

and so warm

I think it'd be kind of like what you saw

during your surgery

this part of the railway is abandoned

so, we just lie like this forever?

you shouldn't said it earlier

now we're trying to get ourselves killed on a abandoned railway

can I ask you something?

do you believe in parallel universes?

i have some doubts

I believe it

somewhere there must be a different version of you

and one of me

living a different version of life

I don't think you get to decide what parallel universes are like

cut it

I'm serious

alright, keep going

from that day on

I had never left Ma Xiaoyuan's side

until

she disappeared from my future

and ever since she was gone

that lake in my vision

has been running almost dry

uncle

look

magic

I heard this trick

to make my daughter happy

it'd be great if there really were

magic in this world

I'm handging the house over tomorrow

why don't you go take a look upstairs

keep anything you want

something that reminds you of her

one year later

throughout Kafka's life

he had been trying to explore

the value and meaning of existence

but even till the day he died

he hadn't been able to come up

with a satisfying conclusion to his quest

that's it for today

class dismissed

Wei Yihang

have you signed up for the summer camp?

the deadline is this afternoon

I'm not going I've made my own plans

thanks

the lake is over there

- Thanks - be safe out there

- take care - see you

Wei Yihang

I've finally solved the mystery

like you said

those images I saw for a million times

were not the future

it was us in a parallel universe

a world without pain and sadness

over there

Tao Hui and Wei Jiang

have a perfectly healthy son

and they don't have a worry in the world

they could care less

about the mundane world

i told you,you can't let customers put things on the cuff

and yet you let Lao Li do it again

he's my buddy

Mr. and Mrs. Ma

also have a perfectly healthy daughter

they fight almost everyday

so their daughter wears her headset all the time

the father siting in the front of the hospital

didn't lose her daughter

they went and tried every delicious treat to the world has to offer

and the old lady waiting in the rain

never lost her grandson

it is her happiest moment of the day

when she goes picking him up from school

Hangu Tanggu

to Tianjin in the southeast corner

Dong Men Gong Yin Hao

and there's Wu Xiaomei

he's a stand up comedian

everyday after practice

his wife will make him

a big bowl of

white fungus soup with lotus seeds

which is good for his throat

there never was a support group for cancer patients, either

everyone is living a life of their dreams

simple

and be beautiful

one early morn

my sun did shine

with all triumphant splendor on my brow

as for you and me

we are running through the infinity of time

from now

to eternity

we cherish every instant

we barely talk to each other

but we are always smiling

we jog

and we leap

living our lives care free

and we're never be apart

with no fear

or disturbance

FOREVER

AND EVER.

A Little Red Flower 2020

Subtittle By: Mary11am