All language subtitles for The Handmaids Tale_S04E04_Milk.en

[June] Previously
on The Handmaid's Tale...

[Janine] Did you find out
anything about Caleb?

[June] His family was
transferred to California.

[Janine] He lives on the beach?

Yeah. He lives on the beach.

- [applause]
- [Moira] Thank you for speaking.

Well, Luke asked me,
so I couldn't say no.

Sure you could.

"Free" means
you're free to say no.

[June] Alma.

We are not free.

[Alma] Maybe this is as free
as we're gonna get.

Maybe we should make
the best of it.

She's been captured.
That's confirmed.

[grunts]

You wicked, wicked girl.

Nichole is not your daughter.

And if you think
I'm gonna let you have her

and walk free,
you are delusional.

I need to separate
my interests from Fred.

- I am done with him.
- We can talk about that later.

No, we can talk about it
right now.

You're pregnant, Serena.

Congratulations.

[Lieutenant Stans]
Please don't lie to me again.

- Now, where are the Handmaids?
- [grunts]

June, don't tell them anything.

[screaming]

[Lieutenant Stans]
Tell me where they are.

June...

- [June gasps]
- [Sienna screams]

You can't save her.

I just...
I want her to stay alive.

Getting June to talk.

It could help you stay in this house.

You have to tell me
where the Handmaids are.

Or they will hurt Hannah.

It's okay, baby.
It's okay, baby.

[Lieutenant Stans]
Where are the Handmaids?

They're at the Murrow farmhouse.

[Aunt Lydia]
Everything that has happened

to Janine and the others,
you're responsible.

Your fault.

- Just kill me.
- Oh! [chuckles]

Not one Handmaid can be spared.

You are all going
to a Magdalene Colony.

- [June grunts]
- [Aunt Lydia gasping]

[Alma] Go!

[railway crossing bells dinging]

[screaming] Stop!

[gunshot]

[train horn blaring]

[June and Janine panting]

- [June whispering] Stop.
- [Janine] Oh.

- [June] Okay, hold still.
- [Janine] We should wait maybe.

- [June] It's gonna work.
- [Janine] June.

[June] Look.

Almost.

[grunts]

Okay, come on.

June, I think that maybe
we should probably go back

- and see what happened to them.
- No, no. We have to go.

- No. Janine...
- They may be okay and just...

- Come on!
- Try to find them.

Janine! They're dead!
They're dead, okay?

- No.
- Yes. They're gone.

[whimpers]

They're gone.

[both crying]

[June] They're gone.

Here's what we're gonna do, okay?

- We're gonna go West.
- Okay.

- We're gonna follow the tracks.
- Mmm-hmm.

And we're gonna be okay.
All right?

Mmm-hmm.

- We're gonna be okay.
- Okay.

Okay.

[both panting]

[Janine whispering]
Which one's going to Boston?

[June] We're not going to Boston.

[Janine] But we know people there.

I told you, we're going West.

Keep fighting and find Mayday.

- What if...
- Quiet. Shh!

[vehicles approaching]

Come on.

[soldier] See this here?

Let's stack it, strap it down.

They need this stuff in Chicago.

That one.

The one with the soldiers?

Yeah. That one's going to the front.

June, why would we go
to the front of a war?

Because that's where
they're still fighting.

Chicago is still Chicago.
They're not giving up.

People die in wars.
They get their arms blown off.

I won't let
anything happen to you.

Okay?

Okay.

- [soldier 1] Give me a hand.
- [soldier 2] Yeah, hang on.

- Ready?
- Yeah.

Go!

[train horn blowing]

Come on.

You first.

[both panting]

Janine, follow me in.

[gasping]

[coughing]

[gasping]

It's milk.

Shit.

June?

It's okay. Come on.
Janine, you have to jump.

Come on, it's okay.

Are you sure?

Come on, hurry!
Come on! [panting]

[Janine yelps]

[gasping]

Fuck, fuck, fuck! It's freezing.

- I know.
- [gasping] June!

I know. It's okay.

[Guardian] Let's go!
Close that up!

[Janine gasping]

He's coming. He's coming.
Shh! Shut up. We have to hide.

Okay? Ready?

[footsteps approaching]

[hatch latches]

[Guardian] All clear.

[both gasp]

[coughing]

[train rumbles]

[breathing heavily]

[June] Shit.

We need something.
We need something.

There has to be a drain.

[gasping]

[both gasp, cough]

June!

[both continue gasping]

I feel something.

- [thuds]
- [Janine] June!

I found it. I found it.

[milk draining]

[breathing heavily]

[train horn blaring]

[children chattering
in distance]

- [Moira] Ah!
- [Rita] There you go.

[Moira] Oh, God,
you shouldn't have bothered.

But, thank you.
This is incredible.

Well, you've been very kind.

There's no record of your sister

or your nephew in any
of the refugee camp databases.

I'm sorry I don't have
more concrete news.

It's all right.

I appreciate you checking.

I'll keep looking.

The Catholics were really good
at forging passports.

They could've entered
under assumed names.

May His light guide their souls.

Is there something else?

[Moira] I heard from the court.

And, um, there's been
a request from Serena Joy.

She wants to know
if you'll see her.

Why?

I do not know.

She must know
that I've been deposed.

I told them everything.

I'm sure she's furious.

Let her be furious.

She's in a cell
where she belongs.

She's only there because
she wanted to be with Nichole.

I don't know.

Being able to say your piece
to her face?

Lotta girls I know would kill
for that kinda closure.

Or you could let her
fucking rot.

[door clanging in distance]

[keypad beeps, door unlocks]

[Serena] Rita.

Praise be His blessed mercy.

Ma'am.

Thank you for coming.

Please, sit down.

- [door closes]
- I try not to be

on my feet for too long.

I'm sure you're wondering
why I asked you here.

Yes, ma'am, I am.

I don't understand.

[chuckles] God is truly great.

I didn't believe it either.

It's a miracle.

[both laugh]

I didn't think
the Commander could.

Well, Gilead's clean water
and clean air and God's grace.

It's what we always wanted.
What we always prayed for.

He must be beside himself.

I haven't told him.

And I don't intend to.

There is a reason
why God chose this moment,

when Fred and I are separated and...

But now you're here.

To help me care for this little boy.

It's a boy?

- It's a boy?
- It's a boy.

- Can you imagine?
- No.

- Toy trucks and scraped knees.
- No.

Catching frogs. [laughs]

Oh.

Praise be.

I have missed you.

My lovely Rita.

You were always such a blessing.

- Thank you.
- No, that's for you.

So you can look at him
whenever you want.

It's nice to have a friend.

Would you pray with me?

Yes.

[Serena] God, we thank you
for your true and purest gift.

[train rumbling]

[train horn blaring]

Janine. Wake up.

You can't fall asleep
when it's this cold.

Okay? You'll get hypothermia.

No. That's concussions.

You can't sleep with one of them.

No, it's both.

I think it's both.

- Janine, wake up.
- [murmurs]

[voice shaking] I hate it.
I hate it in here!

[June] I know. Me too.

We're okay.
We're gonna be okay, so...

How is this okay?

Because we can get there
and we're gonna...

we're gonna find them.

And we're gonna find Mayday.
They're gonna help us.

You keep saying that,
but you don't know.

Do you have some secret, brilliant plan?

What is it?

What's the plan?

Well...

- Well...
- I'm not a mushroom. I'm not!

Okay.

So you can't keep me in the dark
and feed me lies and shit

and expect me
to just be okay with it!

- I don't do that.
- Yes, you do.

You don't know where we're going,

you don't know
if we're gonna be okay.

I'm keeping us alive.

They were the nicest.

Alma and Brianna.

Maybe that's why.

What?

Why God wanted them.

And not us.

At least not you.

No.

Hmm. That's not how God works.

Well, I think he does!

When we were at the farm?

When we were hiding?

Alma said,
"We have to wait for June."

She made sure we waited for you.

'Cause she loves you.

Loved you.

They all loved you.

Like a real, real love.

I know that.

Did you tell the Eyes
where to find us?

We didn't tell anyone where we
were going, just like you said.

They had her.

They had Hannah.

Okay?

You saw her?

And I didn't know what
they were gonna do to her.

And I didn't know
if they were gonna hurt her.

'Cause she was really scared.

So, yes...

I told them where you were. Okay?

Okay.

You would have done
the same thing.

You don't know
what I would have done.

[scoffs]

All right.

Maybe I would've done
something better.

- Something smarter.
- Like what, huh?

Like what, Janine?

Something stupid and dangerous,

and then I would've
had to save your ass again.

This is stupid and dangerous!

We're going to the front
of a war in a refrigerator!

I wouldn't have told them
where we were.

You know that's why they're dead.

I should've left you a long time ago.

[train horn blowing]

[Abby on phone]
I need you here.

You're supposed
to work the double.

Uh, yeah.
I can't, I texted you.

Um, I got Linda to pick up my shift.

Fucking Linda?

Sam won't let me change the schedule
once I've posted it.

You know how he gets.
He's a douchebag.

Yeah, I know. I'm sorry.

How soon can you get back?

Um, I... I can't, um...

You know, I'm gonna pick up
a shift tomorrow.

I just...
I really need the time off.

It's a doctor's appointment,
right?

Just reschedule it.

Um, it's time sensitive.

Okay.

Sorry.

Fuck it. I'll deal with Sam.

Seriously?

- Yeah.
- Oh, my... thank you so much.

This... it just... It won't happen again.
Believe me.

Better not, Janine.

[Darla] I started volunteering
here at the clinic

about a year ago.

With all the insanity
surrounding the birth rate,

I figured pregnant women
need all the help

- they can get, right?
- [chuckles softly]

Yeah, thanks.

Um, is the doctor gonna be a while?

Depends. But first I just want
to talk through all your options.

That's for you to keep.

There's some really good
information in there.

So, Janine. You're considering
abortion as your first option?

Yeah. Yeah, that's why
I made the appointment.

[Darla] Why is that?

It just wasn't exactly planned.

Sure. I get it. Does the father know?

Um, no, I haven't told anyone.

Is he your boyfriend?

Sometimes.

You know, fatherhood

can be transformational
for young guys.

Maybe he'd want to raise
the baby with you.

Um, yeah, no. I don't think
that's a good idea.

Are you religious?

Um...

What does that have to do with anything?

Just trying to understand
your life a little,

so I can help you make
the best choice.

Um, okay. Well, my mom,
I think she's Methodist.

Um, but we didn't really
go to church or anything.

Well, what I think is someone
up there chose you for this.

Uh, yeah, the condom fell off.
That's what happened.

That doesn't mean
you can't have this baby.

Abortion is dangerous.

I don't want you to go through
with it if you don't have to.

Uh, well, I want to go through with it.
That's why I'm here.

Well, we don't do them here.

What?

Well, why the fuck would you
have me come in here?

What is this place?

Somewhere we can help you
understand what happens

when you choose abortion.

[sighs]

They insert a tube into you
and use it to tear the baby apart.

Jesus Christ.

They pull it out piece by piece.

And if a tiny piece is left inside,
like a toe or a finger,

the infection
makes you infertile.

Your body was made to keep
that baby, not get rid of it.

All women regret doing this, Janine.

You think you'll be fine.

But no one's fine
after killing their baby.

[gulps]

[sighs]
You don't know shit about me.

I know you're used
to being underestimated.

You think you can't do this,

but you're strong, you're smart
and you'd be a great mom.

You have no idea how much
you would love this baby.

You don't have to rush.

You have plenty of time to think,
to make the right decision, okay?

Okay.

[knocking at door]

[Rita] Mr. Tuello.

I hope I'm not disturbing you.

No, not at all.

Uh... Please, come in.

[Mark] Thank you.

[door closes]

- Is everything okay?
- Oh, yes.

I just came to drop this off
and answer any questions you might have.

And what is this?

Interview prep materials
from Mrs. Waterford's defense attorney.

You weren't expecting this?

No.

I...

What is this?

Um... Mrs. Waterford's attorneys
claim you can corroborate

that any action she took
regarding June Osborn's pregnancy

was a result of extreme duress
inflicted upon her by her husband.

She wants me
to blame the Commander.

That seems to be their strategy.

[Rita] Mmm.

Apparently she was
very moved by your visit.

She believes the two of you
share a strong bond.

Did you know in Gilead I was
officially considered property...

of the Waterford family?

I did, yes.

Hmm.

Registered and everything.

Like my old Nissan Altima.

[door beeps, opens]

[Rita] Hello, sir.

[Commander Fred gasps softly]

[Commander Fred] Rita.

I hardly recognized you.

How are you?

Are you with your family?

With respect, sir, I...

I'd rather not say.

Of course.

You're free to do as you please.

Yes, I am.

It's nice to see a friendly face.

We aren't friends.

No.

I suppose we're not.

Why have you come?

You deal with your family.
It's not my job anymore.

And I thank God for that every day.

I was never cruel to you.

I'll pray for your son.

[train engine chugging]

[train horn blowing]

- [loud thud]
- [brakes screech]

[Janine] What's that?
What the hell was that?

- I don't know.
- [metallic thud]

- [gunshots]
- [man] They're armed!

Shit.

[man screams]

[June] We should get out.

What? Fuck that.

No. If they're attacking a Gilead train,
then it's not Gilead.

So what?

So that's what we want.

- What...
- [man 2] Let's go fast!

- Come on, give me a leg up.
- Um...

- Janine.
- Okay.

[June] Okay?

Okay.

[grunts]

[woman] Take it off!

[grunts]

[man] Take the weapons first!

[man 2] Let's go,
let's go, let's go!

[woman]
Two minutes, two minutes!

- [woman 2] Hey!
- [gun cocks]

Who the fuck are you?

My name is June.

- Please, we're not armed.
- [woman 2] We?

[softly] Come on.

[Janine grunting]

Hi.

It's just us.

- Down.
- [woman] Come on, let's go!

[indistinct chatter]

- It's okay.
- [Janine] Okay.

[June] Let's go.

[man] Come on, come on, come on.

Search them.

[June] Hey, I told you,
we don't have anything.

[woman] Hustle! Come on!
I need this! Someone!

We need your help.
We're trying to get to Chicago.

You have owners, right?
Are they looking for you?

No one knows where we are.

We're just trying to get somewhere safe.

[man] I got them. Looks good.

Steven.

Jesus Christ.

[man] Get in the truck. Let's go.

They wanna come with us,
but they're walking targets.

Hey. We've gotten this far
without anyone finding us.

You can trust us.

And I should believe you?

[man] Drop that bullshit.
We don't need it.

We'll do anything you say.

We need you.

- Get them in the truck.
- [woman 2] Steven, how can...

[Steven] Everyone, right now!
We've been here too long.

[man] Let's go. Come on. Go.

- Hey. Are they Mayday?
- I don't know.

They're mean.

They're on our side, and you're coming.

- [man] Ride over with him.
- [woman] Okay.

- Where else am I going to go?
- Okay.

[jet engine roaring]

[car door opens, closes]

Get them inside.

[indistinct chatter]

[helicopter hovering]

[chatter continues indistinctly]

[Steven] How did you escape?

I heard they kept you in chains.

Not exactly.

Actual fucking sex slaves in America.

We weren't in America.

[Steven] Yeah, I guess not.

Well, welcome back.
It's a fucking disaster.

- Hey.
- It's okay. I'm okay.

- You okay?
- Mmm-hmm.

She hasn't eaten anything.

[woman 2] Get used to it.

We need a place to stay.

Come on, we need some food.

[Steven] This isn't a charity.

Whatever we pulled off that train
is all we've gotten in weeks.

[June] We're not asking for charity.

You have no idea what we've done.

We can be useful.

Theresa will get you
some clothes and some food.

Thank you.

- Okay? Okay.
- Okay.

[Steven] Which one of you
is staying with me?

What?

Either one of you is fine.

That's not what I meant.

It's what you've got.

Nothing's free here.

Not her.

Go on. Go with her. I'll be fine.

- [Janine] Are you sure?
- Yeah.

Please get her something warm.
It's fine. We'll see you soon. Go on.

[Steven] Guess you're used to this.

[breathing shakily]

Hey.

I'm not gonna force you.

You guys can just go.

[sighs]

You're not Mayday, are you?

What's Mayday?

[jet flying over]

[Janine] Hey.

Theresa said clothes are
what they have a lot of,

- since the stores were full...
- We can't stay here.

What happened? Did he hurt you?

No.

We'll go someplace else, okay?

Okay.

We're gonna find someplace safe.

- I promise. We'll be okay.
- Okay.

It'll be okay.

Um, well, you should change first.

Okay.

It's okay.

[muffled upbeat music
playing in distance]

[footsteps approaching]

[Janine] Caleb!

- [chortles]
- Hey, you. Come here.

I got you. [chuckles]

Oh, you.
You're supposed to be in bed.

You silly.

Okay, here we go.

Let's go, squirmy.

[Janine humming]

[music box playing quietly]

[singing]
Singing sweet songs

Of melodies pure and true

Saying

"This is my message to you
Whoo-hoo"

Don't worry

About a thing

'Cause every little thing

Is gonna be all right

- [knock on door]
- [doctor] Janine.

Hi. I'm Dr. Thomas.

It's nice to meet you.

You too.

So how are you doing?
You feeling okay?

Yeah.

I know that it's not easy to be here.

Did the nurse get a chance to go
over all your options with you?

Um, yeah.

Yeah, she did, and look,

I know I could probably
keep the kid.

I know that I just...

I already have a son
and it's just me,

and I have a job,

but it's barely enough
for the both of us,

and I was thinking about enrolling

in school next semester because
he's finally old enough...

Hang on. Do you wanna
be pregnant right now?

No.

And you're comfortable with your choice?

You're making this decision yourself?

Yes.

Then the rest is none of my business.

I am required by law to tell you
that an abortion procedure

can lead to an increased risk
of breast cancer,

infertility and depression.

And not by law,

I'm also gonna say that
that's a bunch of crap.

The other place made it sound like
something really horrible would happen.

Did you search abortion clinics online
and end up there?

They're called
"crisis pregnancy centers,"

and they lie to women to convince them
to keep unwanted pregnancies.

I'm sorry you had to go through that.

You take one now,
and four tomorrow morning.

You'll have some cramping and bleeding.

Maybe some fatigue and nausea.

But if your symptoms last
more than two days,

I want you to call me.

That's it?

You already did the hard part.

Thank you.

You're welcome.

Amen.

Here. We can stay.

It wasn't so bad.

He thinks my eye patch is cool.

[chuckles softly]

[helicopter blades whirring]

I'm sorry.

It's okay.

Eat.