Original subtitles

- ♪ We've got each other, and that's a fact ♪

- What's up?

- ♪ We'll stick together

♪ We've made a pact

- Ten weeks ago, the experts matched

five couples to be married at first sight.

One bride decided not to go through with the marriage.

- Another couple cut their journey short...

- I want to follow through with wanting a divorce.

- And asked for a divorce.

- May I? - Yes.

- But Michael's journey continued on

with a new bride and a second chance at love.

♪

But for the remaining couples who married two months ago,

the fateful day is finally here,

to remain married or choose a divorce.

[intense music]

Today's decision will forever change

the course of their lives, for better or for worse.

- She just, like, doesn't trust me

on camera or off camera anymore.

- I really need to, like, take time for myself.

- I'm gonna say it plainly. I [bleep] up the process.

- There have just been times

where you have tried to silence me.

- I was trying to protect you.

I did everything.

- That's just not true.

- To show you that I care, I wanted to be there.

- I was extremely appreciative of what I would call love.

- He also threatened me the other day

and said he had enough to ruin my life

on TV after this all came out.

- You told me you wanted to go to war with me.

So I was just-- - I did not say that.

- OK.

- I do care for her.

- I don't feel centered...

[choking up] To be able to, like, tell.

♪

- The time has come for you to decide.

- Do you want to stay married?

- Or do you want to get a divorce?

♪

[upbeat music]

- ♪ It's all or nothing

- This is "Married at First Sight."

- ♪ There's no other way

♪

♪ It's all or nothing

[dramatic music]

♪

- It is the morning of Decision Day.

And I'm feeling a little anxious, a little nervous.

- Today is Decision Day.

- I haven't really gotten, like, a whole lot of sleep.

It's been hard.

- Since this experience has been

such a roller coaster for most of our couples,

hopefully a night alone has given each individual

an opportunity to reflect and help them

with the clarity they need for their big decision,

because today our couples will have to decide

whether they want to continue a life married

or get a divorce.

- ♪ Everybody has a dream

♪ Something they want to have ♪

♪ Some would give up everything ♪

♪ 'Cause they want it that bad ♪

- I'm about to get dressed.

Austin and I had a pretty emotional conversation.

And then he left the apartment.

And then I haven't really spoken to him since.

[somber pop music]

I have never felt so much guilt and disappointment

and confusion and sadness

about thinking what this is gonna look like for me.

- This decision has been flip-flopping a lot.

And I think Becca has, too.

But this time apart

I think has been needed for both of us.

I think, like, it helped me to, like,

just kind of get back to base level of thinking.

And, like, I think there's always room to course-correct.

- ♪ Go back to when it was easy ♪

- With any marriage, you know, there are ups and downs.

You know, we had a lot of ups.

And it's unfortunate that, like, a lot of our issues

kind of came right before Decision Day.

I don't really know where things will end up.

- I feel like I have fought for this marriage.

But I think where it stands right now,

I don't know how to fight for the marriage anymore.

Like, I don't know how to separate the reality

of Austin's intentions, and if he genuinely cares about me

as much as I love and care about him.

- There is definitely a part of me that wants to say yes.

But I don't know if that's what she wants.

- ♪ To when it was easy

♪

- ♪ Let's go chasing stars this evening ♪

♪ Eyes wide shut, in fast cars dreaming ♪

♪

♪ Thought this could be paradise ♪

- Well, it's Decision Day. - I know.

- And your first Decision Day. - It is.

I am excited for this. - We're excited, too.

It's good to have you. - It's good to be here.

- Yeah.

I mean, it's been a rocky season.

- Yeah. - We have seen--

I think we've seen things this season

that we've never in my time here--

and I'm sure you could say the same.

- Oh, absolutely.

It's unprecedented.

A lot to talk about.

Let's start. - Yeah.

Becca and Austin. - Yeah, I mean,

they started out as our golden couple.

- They really did. - They were both

attracted to each other.

And it seemed like it was gonna be seamless

for a while, no? - Yeah.

- Yeah. - I mean, yeah, look,

they've had some ups and downs, some miscommunication.

I believe that they have so much more in common

than they don't have, you know, in common.

- And I think that, you know--

love Austin to death.

And I think that there's some, like,

maybe lack of emotional awareness that he has,

that maybe she does, right,

that she's really in tune with her emotions.

- Yeah. - And I think that he has

a difficult time expressing himself to her or his needs.

And then that's coming off to her as like,

oh, well, he's not being authentic or he doesn't care.

So I think we need to be an interpreter for them.

You know, there's chemistry there.

- There is.

- You can't just make that up, right?

Like, I think this is beyond them...

- I wish we could. - Just trying to--oh, OK.

Wait. [laughs]

But, you know, I think this is beyond them just trying to,

like, make it to Decision Day.

I think that they truly have feelings for one another.

I think they have a lot of shared interests.

- Absolutely - Right?

I think that there's a great level

of respect that they have for one another.

- I believe that, too.

I believe there's something valuable there.

- Yeah. - Well, let's go see

if they'll fight for the marriage.

- Yes. - Yeah, I hope so.

[soft music]

♪

- The first time I saw Austin,

I felt a deep sense of relief and excitement, all at once.

- ♪ Give it all that I have

[crowd cheers]

♪ No holding me back

- She's a nerd.

- He said the word. - And I'm weird.

So it works. [laughs]

♪

- Austin's smile is enough to not only light up the room,

but the whole dang house.

- Pick flowers on the beach. - [laughs]

- I love liking you.

- ♪ 'Cause I'm a believer

- I appreciate that Austin lives in the moment

because it has helped

the struggles in our marriage become less intimidating.

Like, I just want you to want me.

And that hasn't really happened yet.

[moody pop music]

- ♪ Love me strong

- It has been difficult to feel connected to Austin

due to our different paces in intimacy.

It doesn't feel good to, like, have to beg to be wanted.

- ♪ Learn to play along

♪ It's more than I can take from you ♪

- I just start questioning

if what I'm asking for is too much.

I feel like my authentic self with Austin.

But this process has caused anxiety

around how and what I communicate to him.

[choked up] It often feels like when the cameras go away,

like, he's not asking, like, for that depth

or that intimacy or, like, that connection in the same way

as, like, to-- when we're on camera.

♪

And I am starting to feel worried

that Austin was more concerned about how we were coming across

on camera versus how we were actually doing.

♪

- ♪ Lessons in love

[upbeat music]

♪

- The first time I saw Becca, you know,

I was just, like, overcome with emotion.

- ♪ Ooh-wee, I'm fooling myself ♪

[crowd cheering] - What's up?

- I'm usually the crier. - I know.

- This is nice. - I, like, never cry.

Not only was she beautiful,

with her big, blue eyes and pink hair...

- We're going in.

- But the energy she carried lit up the room.

- ♪ I'm on top

♪ I'm on top of the world

♪

- Get in here. - [chuckles]

- She was a ball of sunshine, and it floored me.

I will always show up for you

and do my best to be there for you.

Aw.

Our initial chemistry was so easy and natural.

Yes.

♪

- ♪ I'm on top of the world

- But Becca struggles with my religious beliefs,

my slower intimacy speed, and my directness.

And this is beginning to affect

all aspects of our marriage.

- What's frustrating is that, like,

all of these fights and all of these things

are, like, days and nights of rejection.

And then it, like, leads into these moments

where, like, I don't know what to do anymore.

- Becca still needs to work on trust

because I think that this process

has made her question everything I do.

I'm feeling more and more disconnected.

And I really care for Becca,

but I'm unsure if we can overcome those hurdles.

I still need time to, like, work through certain things

that could, like, really tear us apart.

- It's really hard.

[dramatic music]

♪

- Good to see you guys again.

- It's good to see you again, absolutely.

- Austin.

- Hey. - What's up?

- Hey, bud. How you doing, man?

Great to see you.

- You, too.

♪

I'm actually gonna take this off.

- Here she is. - Hello.

♪

Hi. - How you doing?

- Good. How are you?

- Good.

Love the dress.

- Thanks. - Looks great.

- You look cute, too. - Thank you.

♪

- [sighs]

- You know, we saw you last, it was a very emotional evening.

And we've been worried about you

and hoping that things have gotten progressively better.

But I gather there's been a lot of drama

in the last couple days.

So want to fill us in a little bit?

- Yeah, a lot's happened in the past week--

unresolved things and things that will,

like, take time to resolve.

I think it just kind of got away from us.

I think, like, we--

like, ultimately, like, our communication

and conflict resolution just, like, broke down.

And we weren't able to,

like, manage our issues in, like, a healthy way.

And, like, it made us question the relationship,

like, the future of our relationship.

And, like--like, I mean, we just don't know

if it is, like, possible to manage those things.

- So for me, I think I wasn't really being authentic

with how I would feel at times.

Sometimes, by the request of Austin just asking that

things don't be brought up, it impacted me a lot

because it felt like I was living two different lives.

- Yeah.

- And I finally spoke up about it.

It was pretty much after our meeting

with Dr. Pepper and Pastor Cal,

where I finally started to open up about things

that I hadn't talked about on camera yet.

But after that conversation, Austin was worried

what I said was going to paint him in a very bad light.

He was worried about the optics from that conversation

versus how I was feeling,

that, like, I actually felt...

silenced or, like, misunderstood.

Um...

it made me start to see our relationship differently,

like, just made me question what was sincere

and what wasn't and what is really him and what isn't.

- I think it's natural to worry about those things

when you're, like, being filmed.

But for me, they're not, like,

the only thing I'm worried about.

And I'm trying to express that to her that, like, this--

that I do care for her more than that.

I think she doesn't trust--

she just, like, doesn't trust me

on camera or off camera anymore.

- Like, I can't and don't trust

that in this moment it's not about optics,

that it hasn't been about optics

because we haven't really had a lot of those

private, connective, deepening moments for me.

[dramatic music]

- When the optics are done... - Yeah.

- That's when you can find those moments.

- I--and maybe this means that, like,

I wasn't ready for this process, but, like,

I don't feel centered

to be able to, like, tell--

to even start to decipher that.

Like, I feel like I need to reground myself, regroup,

like, re-trust my intuition

because everything just feels shot at this point.

- Well, and I wonder about that

because I feel like every time I saw you, I was like,

you all look so great together; you seem so connected;

you're very affectionate with one another.

And do you feel like that was a lie?

- I think--

I think on camera, Austin is a lot more affectionate

and complimentary and gentle with me.

And I don't think it's something

that he does on purpose.

I don't think it's, like, the cameras leave

and a light switch goes off and he's like,

great, I'm off work for today.

I think it's that he has to be more aware of himself

when the cameras are around, or he feels that way.

- I think, like, her framework on this whole situation

has been skewed, even like, you know,

the things that you have, like, given--

like, the activities you have told us to do.

She doesn't trust that it's coming

from, like, a genuine spot.

And I've said many, many times, like,

I don't do things that I don't want to.

- I don't know. It's just--it's hard

to separate what is real and what isn't.

And again, when the conversation of optics

got brought up, it only, like--

- Amplified? - Yeah.

- You know, we're having this conversation

about, like, authenticity.

And I can't help but notice this--

like, how close y'all are sitting to each other.

And, you know, Austin's had his arm

around you the entire time.

He's rubbing your back, right?

Like, do you feel that this is genuine in this moment?

- I definitely really, really want it to be

because I have felt that.

And that's where my mind just starts to ruminate

and replay incidences in my head.

And it's not a healthy place for me to go to,

which is why I really need to, like, take time for myself.

I want to believe that.

And I see it in times where we are good.

I think it's, like, seeing that in times

where we also maybe aren't good, or maybe I'm not--

I don't know. - That's hard.

- It is hard. - It is hard.

- Yeah. - It's hard for me

to do, too, yeah. - Well, right.

And like we were saying before, like, this is a really,

like, anxiety-producing, you know, eight-week situation,

especially if, you know, you have anxiety to begin with.

And so when you're saying, like, oh, it's--

I'm in my head, and I'm kind of questioning this,

may I challenge you to tell your anxiety

to shut up right now? - Oh, yeah.

Yeah, no, def--I mean--

- Yeah. - Tell her.

- Yeah, you know what I mean?

- I tell her all the time to shut up.

- So, like, tell her right now, right?

And, like, what do you have to lose

by leaning into believing that this is genuine right now?

- Yeah, I think I do see it, and I do trust it.

And I know that it's a hard place for Austin to be in

because if he is acting out of a place of,

you know, genuine feeling and authenticity, like,

how hard would it be to sit there and not be believed?

And, like, I--I'm sorry that that's not where I'm at.

But I want to get there.

And, like, that's what I'm trying to do.

- Yeah.

- I think there's a lot more answers

that you can't know unless you continue outside this process.

- And, you know-- and I know there's gonna be

a lot of trust that's-- that you're having to build.

And the only thing that really can build trust

is commitment and consistency and time

because you've got to show each other

that this thing that you believe in right now,

that it's valuable, and it's gonna take some time.

But I believe firmly that you guys have what it takes,

you know, to make this work.

♪

- So the time has now come

where we have to make a decision.

Do you want to stay married

or get a divorce?

♪

- I want to say no to where this marriage has been.

But I want to say yes to where it could be.

- So am I hearing then that your answer is yes?

♪

- Um...

yes.

- Yeah? - Yes.

[chuckles] - Aww.

[upbeat music]

- Austin?

- I'm excited to say, I want to stay married.

- Well, we totally support this effort.

- And if I may quote my pastor, it works if you work it.

And so part of the working it--

- Was that me? - No.

[laughter] - Oh, OK.

- That means, I want y'all to be

brutally honest with each other.

Be real. Like, no more of this hiding stuff, right?

You don't have to worry about the optics.

The only way you're going to get your needs met

is if you open your mouth and be honest with one another.

And be honest with yourselves. - Mm-hmm.

I think today's decision represents, hopefully,

a much needed cleanse for us.

- Thank you.

- I need to be with Austin

without the cameras and without production

and just rebuilding what I hope we can have.

- Here's to marriage. - Thank you.

- Cheers. - And all that it requires.

- Here's to yes.

♪

[slow pop music]

♪

- I cannot believe it, but Decision Day is finally here.

- You know, last night I slept pretty OK.

You know, feeling a little nervous for today.

Not sure how it's gonna go.

- I am very on edge, since I don't know

exactly what Brennan's gonna say or do.

But today is not just important for us,

but it is really important to me that I get out

everything that I haven't been able to say.

- The only thing I'm nervous about is if, you know,

she comes into the meeting with,

you know, hostility or any aggression.

You know, I'm in a very good head space,

good spirits, and just want to, you know,

move on peacefully and respectfully.

Say her piece, and I say mine, and it's just,

you know, a reflection and a reconciliation.

- Very, very, very anxious.

Honestly, probably gonna be one of, like, the hardest days

maybe ever that I've had to really go through.

[dramatic music]

♪

- Well, we've got a serious illness

to deal with. - Oof.

- I mean--well, not illness,

accident. - A trauma, yeah.

- Really traumatic accident. Oh, my gosh.

- Well, accidents like this, you know,

traumatic situations can either draw you close...

- Mm-hmm. - Or tear you apart, you know?

- Yeah, yeah. - And my hope was

that it would have gone to make them closer.

- Well, there was some evidence of that for a while.

I remember talking to both of them, right?

And she was just extolling what--

- Oh, yeah. - You know, the support

he gave her and... - Absolutely.

- How well taken care of she was.

- Absolutely. - Yeah.

- Yeah, I mean, I thought, whoa,

maybe here is a turning point.

- But somewhere along the line, it fizzled.

They've sort of spiraled out of control here.

- Yeah, it was short-lived.

And I'm wondering what happened.

- Sometimes it's hard to figure out.

You know, as much as we try,

we go through so many vetting techniques,

months, months of vetting,

and still, you just can't figure out sometimes

what it is that makes someone

not attracted to the other person.

And I think that there was a certain type

that he had in mind.

And she just didn't fit into that.

And I don't know if he could recover

from not having those expectations met.

- They never went in deep like some couples do.

OK, let's just put it all out there.

- Right. - Look at the ugly stuff

and see what we can do with it.

- Yeah. - Nah.

I think she would have been willing for that.

I don't think he was.

- So I think that our goal here

is to try to have some civility,

you know, to make sure that they learn and grow

from these experiences and that they are better people,

you know, moving into whatever situation they move into next.

- Yeah.

- ♪ I will show 'em what I'm made of ♪

♪ I feel it, it's in my blood, in my blood ♪

- When I first saw Brennan, I thought, he's attractive.

Like, he's, like, my type.

- I'm your type?

- Well, like, looks-wise. - Yeah.

- We'll see if you pass the personality test.

- That's fair.

Like, I want to just build, like, our legacy,

build something that, like, we're very proud of.

- ♪ I will show 'em what I'm made of ♪

♪ I feel it, it's in my blood, in my blood ♪

- Dang!

This is totally rad. - [laughs]

- ♪ My last stand, to show 'em who I am ♪

- I just need you to tell me if you're physically attracted

to me or not.

- I just can't.

- While I know Brennan says he did protect me,

I wish Brennan spent more time thinking about better ways

to improve our progress forward.

[dramatic pop music]

♪

- But Brennan was at my side during and after

one of the most traumatic experiences I've had.

- The road to recovery.

- Stay tuned. - Stay tuned.

- I thought Brennan had the potential

to be a good partner.

But I think Brennan put a block up

at the very beginning, which allowed nothing

to be able to move forward.

- If that's how you feel after I saved your [bleep] life--

- Are you [bleep] kidding me?

- It's unfathomable to me that you can talk like this.

- If you think in any [bleep] world

that this is gonna come on me, you are wrong.

♪

- ♪ Yeah, come on, girl

♪ Don't be afraid

- When I first saw Emily,

I thought her energy was radiating,

and I thought we'd have a lot of fun together.

- ♪ If I could be, if I could be your man, oh ♪

- Cheers. - Ugh.

- ♪ Perfect for me

- Emily has a lot of admirable qualities,

including, you know, being nice, being sweet,

caring, outgoing.

You're really starting to earn my trust, you know,

which is not easy for me to say.

There's never a dull moment with Emily,

and she always finds a way to be the life of the party.

[glass shatters] Whoa!

[people yelling] - My bad.

[dramatic music]

- One of the things that Emily and I don't

see eye to eye on is our communication.

The negativity, for me, is, like, a huge thing.

One--that's one of, like-- one of--

one of my deal-breakers was a positive, positive person.

- What do you [bleep] mean? There is no negativity.

- OK.

- [sobbing]

- I came into this not thinking

divorce was even an option for me.

But now, I'm wondering if it's the only option for me.

♪

[dramatic music]

♪

- Hello. - Hi, guys.

- Good. Come on in.

- How are you?

Good to see you. - Good to see you, too.

- Hi. - Hi.

- Oof. - Ooh, I'm so sorry.

- Don't knock her out. - Are you OK?

- [laughing] Yeah, I'm fine. - Sorry.

- That's OK. - What's up, buddy?

How you doing, man? - How you doing, man?

Good to see you.

♪

- Look at you. - I'm gonna hug all of you.

Is that OK? - OK.

- Yes. You look amazing.

- That's right. - Hey there, beautiful.

How are you? - Yes.

- Good. How are you?

[whispers] Hello. - Hey.

- Honestly, we were so, as you know, worried.

And it's just great to see you being you

and I guess having healed or--

- Yeah. Like, visibly, yeah.

I feel like just with what we're going through,

it's kind of, like, a hard time to, like, fully recover.

- Yeah. We know you're not in a good place right now.

And what we want are happy marriages.

But we'll take also personal growth,

accountability, and feeling like

we've left you better to have a great relationship

with someone else if it couldn't be here.

- Yeah, um, you know,

I grew to be a lot more resilient than I thought.

You know, before I would run at the slightest red flag.

And, you know-- or slightest inconvenience,

right, and never really giving it my all

or giving it the full chance of the relationship.

And I see now the value of-- of that.

- While I think you say you haven't ran,

everything you just said that you grew from

is exactly what you did.

And so I hope you can grow from noticing that

and what you're telling yourself you want to hear

because you ran in, I think,

the hardest way you've ever ran before.

- So when you were there--

when you needed someone the most, who was there for you?

- And again, like, going and pulling my accident

and saying you saved my life... - I'm not pulling anything.

- And being there for me-- - You're saying that

I ran from everything. It's like--

- You did. - I did not.

I was with you every step. - You checked the boxes.

That's not-- - I was--

- Brennan, do you see that you're being

defensive in this moment?

- Yeah, do you see the attack?

- No, I don't see an attack. - OK.

- Can you put into words why you're feeling attacked

in this moment?

- Because it's all the things that I didn't do.

I really feel like I did everything, you know?

- When you're saying you did everything,

that's just not true,

because there's homework that you were given--

I can at least speak for myself,

I don't know about for the others--

that you just simply did not do.

- Oh, I'm happy to take accountability

if you feel like that exercise is what caused this whole--

- That's definitely not what I'm saying, the one exercise.

I just feel like accountability in general has not been taken.

And instead, you like to tell me that I need to take

accountability when I feel like I have done everything

and even have ignored signs to see the best in you.

But I think it was always on your terms.

- So you deny that every time

I asked you to come up with a solution,

and you pinned it on me to come up with the solution,

that that's what happened?

And then we agreed on the solution together.

- I mean, I don't think you necessarily--

- Just say yes or no. - No, it's not black and white.

There have just been times where you have tried

to silence me, tried to take control

of the control-ables for you, for us, for me.

And that is through telling me to delete diary cams

and me feeling at times that I couldn't fully

stick up for myself because of two reasons.

One, I was trying to, like, fix whatever was already broken.

And two, the repercussions that you know happened

after every single conversation

if I was to say anything negative about you at all.

And you know that's what you focused on.

- You know, I know we've had our exchanges.

And in those arguments, you acted out of character;

I acted out of character.

But we just didn't click in that regard.

And, like, it's just constant negativity and all the time.

And then hearing you criticize our friends

over their vows and all these things,

it's just like a culmination of what I saw.

- That was probably the most hurtful thing you said

because I am the most positive person.

I believe I am like a light in the room, life of the party.

And I think that you chose to never see the best qualities

in me on purpose because I don't think

you have them in yourself, and you took that out on me.

- I don't think it defines you.

I just think from what I've seen

and the effect it had on me, that's where it's come from,

of where I just felt drained and pushed away

and that I didn't have any effort left to give

after a certain point.

- To me, it's pretty fixable.

And if I knew the severity of my negative vibes in settings,

I could have fixed that.

But as much as you broke up with your exes

for communication and mind-reading,

that's what you're doing to me.

How was I supposed to know that,

when you're saying that's a red flag

and we're right going into Decision Day?

- I was trying to protect you the whole time by saying--

- That's another thing. - No, it's, like--the words--

- Can you clarify what you feel like

you were protecting her from?

- The harsh words that could have had a impact on her

in a way that was detrimental

because I care a lot about her, and I wanted to be very mindful

of how the words I was using would affect her.

And I wanted to be constructive

in a way that she could still grow from it.

But to her point, my efforts weren't enough, and I--

- I think you keep going back to the effort.

- It is, though. - It's not--

- My intention and my effort was there.

I was trying to protect you. And I didn't--

- I think-- - Looking back on it--

- You saying you protect me is effort.

- Knowing--see-- - You have not protected me.

- This is what I was trying to avoid the whole time.

But now, knowing what the outcome would have been,

regardless whether I tried to protect her or not,

I shouldn't have.

- How do you know what the outcome would have been?

- No, that's what I'm saying. - I told you, don't protect me.

- If I would have known the outcome, what would it be

with me trying to protect you versus not,

that it would still be the same that it is today,

I would have not tried to protect you.

- OK, but here's the deal.

You're saying that you were trying to protect her,

but I tell people all the time,

marriage doesn't work; you work.

That means I'm willing to be vulnerable.

That means I'm willing to go against my preconceived ideas

of what I think and be open to instruction, be malleable.

It's what you did not do.

One thing that's really important

is personal accountability.

- No, it's--like, I was trying to protect her

and just use the words that I thought were constructive,

yet respectful.

I take accountability for that because that--

I mean, like, what--like, I--

- Look, I see--

and I'm being as respectful as possible--

I see BS.

♪

I'm sorry, I do. - Thank you.

- I'm gonna be straight with you.

I'm gonna be straight with you.

I see complete BS.

Is that OK to say? - It's real.

- That I was trying to use less harsh words?

- No, because here's-- let me explain.

Here's what I see.

Look, it was obvious in my first meeting with you guys,

I could tell you were suppressing your emotions.

I could tell you were placating.

Is there anything about her that you were not attracted to?

- We're not doing that.

- We're not doing that?

But it was so early in the relationship--

from that first meeting, were you planning to stay married?

- Yeah, I was-- I had no intention of leaving.

- OK, so you were invested in this from day one?

- Yeah, absolutely.

- Do you believe that?

- No, I believe actually it was after the honeymoon

where he was not.

- There's some serious crossing of wires here, man,

because you're saying, "I was in this.

"Look, I'm trying to protect you.

I'm not--" and you're saying,

"I never felt protected. I never felt loved."

So what we're seeing here is a serious misfiring.

- I don't think I've heard from you, Brennan, ownership

to any sort of emotional disrespect toward Emily.

And I want t-- I truly do want to give you

the opportunity to redeem yourself.

- Like, I didn't realize what I was doing.

But looking back, if it appeared that way, I am sorry.

[somber music]

- Do you know what you did though,

that you were saying sorry to?

- Um...

♪

- You want to tell him?

- OK. I felt disrespected

from the day I came over after the honeymoon

because I knew in that setting that you friend-zoned me.

You knew we were gonna get a divorce

and that you were not gonna give this your all.

And you didn't respect me enough as a person

to allow that chance on behalf of me and us both.

Also for how you treat

and speak to me disrespectfully off camera.

But what he's also said through this is, like, he pities me,

that you don't want yourself to be the reason

why I don't date ever again.

Just respecting me and, like, asking me to delete diary cams,

and trying to control the narrative,

whether you say it's for us, and at times it felt for you,

that was disrespectful.

♪

- And I see that now.

So I'm sorry that I tried to protect you.

And I shouldn't have because you didn't--

♪

I thought I was trying to do right by you

and what was best for you, but in turn, it didn't.

So I'm sorry about that.

- Do you think that the things you would want to say

would be devastating to her?

- Yes.

- I mean, he also threatened me the other day and said

he had enough to ruin my life on TV after this all came out.

So, like, no, I don't believe that.

And again, I'm a strong person, and I've told him that

nothing he can say can really hurt me at this point.

That would actually be progress versus saying nothing at all.

- You told me you wanted to go to war with me.

So I was just-- - I did not say that.

- OK. - Brennan, I want you to have

the opportunity to respond to that

because that's a strong allegation.

She's saying that you said you have enough to ruin her on TV.

- She told me she wanted to go to war with me.

I was trying my hardest... - I did not say that.

- To prevent any of this from happening.

And maybe I said that. I don't know.

But it was a very hostile exchange, so--

- But you made it hostile afterward.

We talked about it-- - You told me

everyone hates me; everyone's against me.

- I did not say that.

- Oh, my God. - When did I say that?

It's on a FaceTime. - Emily, I really...

- It's recorded. - Don't know what reality

you're in. - I don't know what reality

you're living in. That's the scary part.

- Well, I think it's safe to say that there is--

that you guys are irretrievably broken.

I'm not going to fight for you to stay married.

- So I think the time has come to make your decisions

about whether you want to stay married

or you want to get a divorce.

♪

- I came into this knowing who I was and what I wanted.

And I can't necessarily say the same case for you.

Given that I know I deserve better than you

and better than this, and both from a romantic relationship

and a friendship standpoint,

and most importantly, I deserve respect,

which I don't think I received through this relationship,

and what I know I will now need more than ever moving forward.

And therefore, I would like a divorce.

- Yeah, I've done my best

through and through this entire relationship.

And I am sorry if you ever felt like I tried to silence you.

That was never my intention.

But the reality is, we just don't click

from a physical or emotional perspective.

And, you know, it's not a blame thing.

It's not you did anything wrong.

It's not I did anything wrong.

We tried, and it just didn't work.

So with that, I would like to get a divorce.

- [sighs] I want to offer you hope,

because a failed marriage does not mean a failed person, OK?

So I'm hoping that what you've learned,

you, Emily, your accident, you know, your growth,

your finding your voice, your speaking up

and standing for yourself, and knowing who you are,

going forward, you're gonna have so much more depth

as you enter new relationships.

And that--and I'm happy about that.

And for you, Brennan, you know, the self-awareness,

you know, the accountability, understanding,

hey, look, you know, I need to maybe even look deeper,

you know, in my next relationship.

I'm really hoping that you all have learned that.

And do not carry this baggage forward, OK?

But with that being said, thank you guys so much.

- Thank you.

- And we wish you the absolute best.

- We do. - Yeah, we do.

- Appreciate it. - Thank you.

- Thank you. - [sighs]

- Ugh.

- Man, that was a tough journey.

It was tough. It was tough.

It was tough. It was tough.

You're gonna be all right. - Thank you.

- You're gonna be all right. - I'm so proud of you.

I'm so proud of you.

- Thank you.

- You're welcome. Take care.

- All right, kiddo. - All right.

- If you need any support on this, let me know.

- Thank you. - [whispers] You OK, sweetie?

- [sniffles] - Don't ever let anyone

make you feel bad about yourself.

- Mm-hmm.

- OK? - Yeah.

- Come here, come here.

- I am very sad to be divorced.

But I am also very relieved

to start working through what this has done to me

from both a positive and a negative lens.

And I'm also ready to, like, refocus on myself

because I haven't been able to work through

a lot of stuff that came with this.

- You are a phenomenal woman.

And I want you to walk away knowing that.

It's beaming from you, your character.

So I wanted to leave you with that.

- Thank you.

So I'm really just actually excited

to just go back to being Emily, party of one,

and not stopping and, like, continuing to start therapy

and work through this, and just continue to be me

and learn as much as I can from this.

♪

- ♪ I'll be all right

♪ Ooh, ooh, ooh

♪ Yeah, I'll be all right

[acoustic guitar music]

♪

- I think, like, we're gonna have, like,

a lot to figure out in the next couple days.

- Yeah. - It's OK.

It's good.

- Yeah.

And I think I just really, like,

want to refocus on myself because I feel like

I've lost myself in a lot of this.

And I think--

- Yeah, I think that's healthy.

I think that's-- - Yeah.

- Smart.

- Yeah, and like I said, just, like,

trying to clear off the lens that I've been,

like, viewing all of this in--

- Yeah.

- Because it's definitely gotten

blurred by a few things.

- Yeah.

- I think I would be...

misleading if I said that I wasn't anxious about it.

- Are you? - Yeah.

- I'm sorry. - It's OK.

I just--

- I am happy.

- [chuckles]

- I hope you are, too.

- I'm--

- I'm not sure I get that vibe from you, if I'm being honest.

- I'm--I just--

I haven't--like, these last three weeks,

I, like, haven't been happy, you know?

- Yeah.

- And the decision that I made today

is in hopes that I can find that again.

And hopefully, it's with you.

- Yeah, I get it.

Feel the same.

- Yeah.

OK.

- I think the process of the production element

is very hard and stressful and challenging.

And I think some people can handle it better than others.

And I'm not sure--and I think that has been

a challenge for me as well.

And, you know, I think there's a lot of work to do

and a lot more to figure out.

But, you know, I'm gonna try my best.

And I'm choosing Becca right now.

I'm choosing to continue to do what I can

to make this marriage work.

- ♪ Better love, a better you ♪

♪ A better me

♪ A better two

- I do love this jacket.

- ♪ Finally found forever

♪

- ♪ Break out into the spotlight ♪

♪ One chance the victory is you ♪

- Who's up?

- Cameron and Clare.

- Cameron and Clare--

wow.

- Ooh.

- You know, between their separating

because they felt it was toxic,

and then him getting a serious scare

as well as real physical challenge,

I mean-- - It's just been so much.

- I know.

And, you know, we don't really know what's really been going

on in his head very well. And--

- Mm-hmm.

- We want to make sure that they have

truly exhausted all options.

- Yeah. - Yeah.

- Yeah. - Should we go?

- Yeah, let's go. - Let's go meet with them.

[pop music]

♪

- ♪ My heart skipped a beat when I saw you ♪

♪ Yeah, I saw the sparkle inside your eyes ♪

- The first time I saw Cameron,

I thought, he's very handsome.

He's a very good-looking man.

- Meet for the very first time Cameron--

- Cameron. - Your husband-to-be.

- I love it.

He's very tall.

Were you like, I don't want a short girl?

- No, I didn't say that.

- [laughs]

- Cameron has a lot of amazing qualities,

like being very smart, hard-working.

- How we look?

- You look very official.

- [vocalizing]

♪ When you're by my side

- Whenever Cameron and I are together,

it's very easy to laugh--

[laughing] Are you kidding me?

To be ourselves and just learn from each other.

And that's such an important thing for me.

- Even with the limited romance we have,

I am getting attached to you.

- But Cameron also lacks some of the things

I need in a husband.

[melancholy music]

Just, like, the desire to be, like, wanted--

I sometimes don't feel that with Cameron.

I'm not sure if we've, like, hit a wall.

There is zero romance.

- ♪ No easy way to find

- So how is your relationship with your father?

Does he know you're on this?

- No. - [gasps]

- Really?

- ♪ I'm so sorry for the words I've spoken ♪

- Cameron does struggle with opening up emotionally.

And it does make me feel like he's pushing me away.

[softly] I'm so sorry.

[sniffles]

I feel sad because of the hope that I had for my marriage.

But I'm also feeling really grateful.

I couldn't do this process with anyone else, truly.

And so I am incredibly grateful for him.

- ♪ I'm sorry

[uplifting music]

- The first time I saw Clare, I thought, wow.

- You look nice. - Thank you.

You are--I mean, you are breathtaking.

- [laughs]

- You are truly such an amazing person.

- Aw.

- And it doesn't help that you're easy on the eyes.

I mean, it helps.

It helps that you're easy on the eyes.

- [giggles]

- ♪ And while the skies are blue ♪

- I respect him so much.

- The best person, maybe ever, I've met.

Like-- - Oh.

- I am--truly, truly.

- That's so nice.

- But because we don't have that baseline connection

to fall back on, we do tend to fall apart.

One, two, three.

I want a divorce. - Separated.

- Same thing, same answer. Yeah.

I only speak to our experience.

But it's been very difficult for Clare and I.

There are some big things that we just simply don't align on.

It can be hard to connect with Clare

because sometimes she hears what she wants to hear.

- It's not like you can just naturally

just come over and give me a kiss.

Like, that's not natural for you to do that to me, right?

- Well, I would.

- Hmm, that's interesting. OK.

- ♪ Yeah, I see you

- I think Clare could have done better

focusing on building a stronger connection.

I'd say the most painful thing about all this

is Clare and I, I think, are extremely compatible.

Just the more time I spend around her,

the more and more I'm getting attached.

I'm here to try.

And I'm happy to try.

However, I would be doing myself a great disservice

if we really thought there was no future because the--

it's literally just pain at that point.

♪

But if there is a potential future,

then the pain is worth it.

- ♪ Fire, so close

- So if she--if she says that she wants to stay together,

I'm going to stay together with her on Decision Day.

- ♪ Like a fire

♪ So hold on

♪

- [vocalizing]

♪

♪ Let the walls come down

♪

- Hi, Cameron. Come on in.

- Hello. - Hello.

- Nice to see you.

- You as well.

- I don't remember you as being this tall.

[both chuckling]

♪

- All right, how are you feeling health-wise, Cameron?

- A lot better.

But stupidly, I upped the medication,

thinking I needed to.

- Do you need a snack or something?

- What medication are they giving you?

- So I'm on beta blockers, blood thinners--

- Oh, just-- - Blood thinners?

- So you've got to be careful standing up and getting down.

- Yeah. - Yeah.

- Yeah, yeah. But it's fine.

We'll get through it, yeah.

- All right, please let us know.

Don't push yourself. - Yeah, it'll be fine.

- OK, here comes Clare.

[gentle music]

- Come on down. - Here she is.

- Hey.

- You look nice.

- You look great, by the way.

- Miss you. - You, too.

- Oh, where do I sit?

- Here, I think, yeah?

- OK.

- Hi, guys. - Hi.

- It's good to have you here together.

- Yeah.

- You know, because you've already separated,

I want to ask you about the moment when Cameron got ill

and had to face some scary things about his heart.

So tell me a little bit about that period.

- From my perspective,

my experience of my condition came after we separated.

And I wanted Clare to know that she had no commitment

to me to take care of me.

And I also wanted her to know that it would be easier for me

to kind of work through the situation more on my own.

I've faced other health challenges in my life.

And I--I'm just gonna say, selfishly,

usually, the more people that get involved,

the harder it is as an individual

to actually accomplish

your goal of focusing on your health.

- Hmm.

- You know, if I were ill, I would have--

I would want just people around me.

And so I have to recognize that you wanted to be alone.

And that was really hard for me because

I felt like we were already at a pretty

tough spot in our relationship.

But at that point, it wasn't about me.

It was just like, how can I support you?

But I think there was a massively large wall

that was put in between us.

And we just distanced--

I feel like what I was feeling was that

you were distancing me further and further away.

And for me, it's like I still want to be somewhere.

As someone who is, like, empathetic and nurturing,

to show you that I care-- I wanted to be there.

And it just felt like you didn't want me there.

But again, I had to--

your health is the number one thing.

And that's not my place to tell you what's best for you.

- And--

- It just--it felt like we were growing

further and further apart.

- But you are such an empathetic, caring person

that I felt your emotion towards me in that moment.

And I will put my hand up and say,

I was too weak to take it.

I was too weak to accept it.

But, you know, I was extremely appreciative

of what I would call love, right?

- Yeah.

- And you are someone who I've really

not come across in my life in any capacity.

And to know that there are people like you out there

that I really think, in just very slightly

different circumstances, that we could have had, you know,

a successful relationship,

and we could have had a successful marriage.

- Yeah.

But also, like, reflecting on our whole marriage,

I feel like it--there was many, many misunderstandings

and many ways that you viewed a situation

that I viewed differently.

And I feel like we just couldn't get on the same page

about a lot of things.

- We just have just somehow,

like, 100/100 record of just

remembering the same conversation differently.

- What got in the way of having this conversation with us?

- I don't know.

- I don't know why I didn't bring up these issues before.

I think we were just so busy protecting each other

and trying not to make each other be

looked in a negative light that it literally--

we weren't opening up to you guys like we should have been.

- Yeah.

- Maybe we shot ourselves in the foot.

But we did talk about, like, what did we ask for?

And in hindsight, it was too early for that conversation.

And she took issue with the word "slender."

And she basically said that she felt that she was not.

And I said, well, from my perspective,

you absolutely are.

Like, it wasn't just, like, a discussion

about what I was trying-- like, I was literally arguing

with her that how she saw her body

was very different than how I saw her body.

- Like, I have had a history with, like,

you know, body image issues.

And so that was, like--it made me feel like I'm not his type.

The sad thing is I feel like I had

to hear from people around me.

- But I did make a lot of compliments to you.

- You did.

And I'm sorry I wasn't able to take it because of how I felt.

And again, that's where we're disconnected there.

And we tried really hard.

- So can you help me understand,

how did we not have, like,

further conversation about this?

Because it sounds like there's a misunderstanding.

- I said--right.

I mean, to be honest with you, after the honeymoon,

we're only living together for, like, I mean, how long?

And then he moves out.

So how am I supposed to even--

I was alone more than I was with Cameron in this process.

- We lived together for four weeks,

just to throw that out there.

- And then after that, it was-- OK.

- Yeah, and then after that, I was in hospital.

- Yeah. - But here's my question.

- So in that four weeks, there was, I feel like,

a lot of growth that we did.

And I was seeing beyond that.

And some of my guards were coming down.

- But now, it--

by that point, it was becoming too late for me.

- Yeah. - Right.

♪

- I mean, I definitely feel that our marriage

has had a lot of challenges.

- Right.

- I mean, when I think of the whole experience

of our marriage, like, to me, I felt like

even though we had our differences--

- Yeah.

- I really felt like I built, like, a sense of, like,

camaraderie with you.

Like, I really--like, I think we've used the word,

like, "teammate."

Like, I really--as much as we struggled,

I feel like we still showed up.

- Yeah. Yeah.

- You know?

And every time we showed up,

or most of the times we showed up, it wasn't easy.

- Right. - But we did show up.

And I think that was showing something

that was quite important.

- Yeah.

- You know, it's kind of interesting

because you both are--

seem to be very compassionate,

very understanding of each other.

You give each other so much grace.

And you're so dedicated to not casting your spouse

in a negative light.

And it just seems... [exhales]

Just unfortunate that, you know, you were these ships

crossing in the night that never managed to connect,

you know, which is an unfortunate thing

because had that been mediated--

- Yeah.

- There could have been some serious compatibility here.

- Yeah.

- I'm not sure why we miss each other so much.

- Yeah.

- I want to take my share of that blame.

And is that because I--

I'm not communicating clearly enough

that you're just hearing what I'm not intending?

Or am I communicating so poorly,

I'm not remembering what I'm communicating?

Wherever that blame lies, I'm a part of that, absolutely, yes.

- I mean, it takes two.

And I think ultimately the reason that was happening

is because I was, I'll be honest,

confused at many points of this journey.

I was very unaware of my feelings.

And I think, you know, like, as a therapist,

people expect you to know your feelings all the time.

And it's like-- - Mm-hmm.

- [whispering] Yeah. - Let me be real.

Like, I don't know at all what I'm experiencing.

And it felt very scary to me.

I was like, this is not a good place for me to be in.

And I'm sorry. [sniffles]

- You're a therapist, but you're still human, Clare.

- [tearfully] Right.

And I'm sorry that I took you on that journey of, like,

where in the hell is she right now?

[crying] And, like,

that didn't feel good for me either.

And I knew that that was hurting you.

And I'm sorry for that.

Like, I was all over the place.

[crying]

So I'm sorry that I hurt you.

I definitely felt that in the moment, too.

- I accept your apology, OK?

- Thank you.

- I am sorry that I, you know--

I'm gonna say it plainly. I [bleep] up the process.

Like, I...

through maybe wanting to take control,

through wanting to maybe, you know,

try and defend myself against what

I thought was an impending rejection, you know--

like, I can't tell you the exact reason.

I obviously felt a reason to do it.

And I'm sorry for that.

- I appreciate that. It means a lot.

- Wow. - I forgive you.

- Thank you.

- That's--that's all we ask for.

That's beautiful, actually.

- Mm-hmm.

- And we've opened up a door here.

- Mm-hmm.

- But we're here for Decision Day.

- Mm-hmm. - And the time has come--

[intense music]

- For you to decide

whether to remain separated and get a divorce...

♪

Or get to know each other after the documentation

and maybe reset to give it another shot.

♪

- I-- [clears throat]

♪

♪

- Um-- [clears throat]

♪

I--I'm really proud of us.

Getting to know you has taught me so much

about what is important in relationships,

what is important when it comes to attraction.

And I can look at the other side of the coin.

- Mm-hmm.

- I'm just gonna say it very simply.

Whatever attraction I had for you is gone in that capacity.

And when I look at you, like--

and please don't take offense to this.

But, like, I see a family member.

I see a--I see a sister.

I see someone that I have an amazing bond with,

someone I care about deeply.

And for me, for that reason, I can't stay married to you.

And I would want a divorce.

- Mm-hmm. - [softly] OK.

♪

[sighs]

♪

- Cameron, you have been amazing to me

during this process.

I think I'm so grateful for what you've given me,

which is I literally couldn't imagine doing this

with anyone else, truly.

I learned a lot about myself.

I learned a lot about growing and what that looks like.

And there were so many beautiful parts

of our marriage.

However, you know, I want a love

where I can just express my feelings

and not have to explain myself.

But all that to say, I respect you so much.

I care about you so deeply.

But I would like to get a divorce.

♪

- OK. [exhales]

- Well, it's...

it's impressive to see you both take accountability

for what went wrong.

It's impressive to see the growth that each of you

recognizes and the gifts that you've given each other.

I do feel a lot of friendship and admiration between you

and hope that bond goes on.

And we wish you both very well.

- Thank you. - I certainly do.

I know my colleagues are feeling touched by the kinds

of self-recognition and conversations

you've just had with each other.

And thank you for that, for your honesty

and for your feelings.

- Thank you so much--

- Thank you.

- For your time and everything you've done for us.

I'm sorry we didn't take more advantage.

Now that I'm getting a divorce, it feels strange.

Like, the word "divorce," I still--it's--

I'm having a hard time applying it to myself.

And I think that will just take time

to really be able to identify myself as a divorced woman.

But at the same time, I feel powerful in the way

that I am standing up for the things that I need

and the things that are really important to me.

- Take care of yourself. - Yeah, well, thank you.

- I mean, all around. - Thank you.

- Yes. - Thank you.

- OK. - I appreciate it.

Thank you. - OK.

- Getting married at first sight

is a very unique experience.

And, you know, playing the blame game is not useful

because you just can't know... [chuckles]

How this is going to happen.

And I'm just really glad that Clare and I are leaving

on relatively good terms.

And I think that just speaks to our maturity

and the chances of success in our future marriages.

- ♪ Too much for us to face the storm together ♪

♪

[upbeat music]

♪

- I don't even know where to begin.

All I thought Austin and I wanted

was to be done with the cameras,

to be done with production.

And I am at home, and the girls are out.

Clare and Emily are out.

And I just got a text from Clare

and said that they just saw Austin and Brennan out

with Austin and I's producer, which is funny

because he's so worried about optics.

And I don't think he understands that the optics

do not look good for him.

And to have it by choice, by Austin's choice at this point,

is hurtful.

And I don't really know where to go from here.

So...

we have a get-together with everyone tomorrow, and...

♪

Oh, my God.

[energetic rock music]

♪

- Ah, first to the party.

Let's go.

I'm excited to see everyone today.

You know, Decision Day is done and over with.

Hopefully, we all have, like, the closure

we need and, like, are all OK with, like, the outcome of it.

Hey. How you doing?

- Doing well.

- You know, I think Becca and I are in a good spot.

And I'm hoping this is the point in which we're like,

we know what we want.

We know what we need.

We know where we're going.

And we're kind of, like, riding off into the sunset.

We're missing--where's Becca?

- There she is.

- Look at all you guys.

- Hi.

[pop music]

- Oh. - Hi.

- Oh, hey.

- Aw, look it.

- I'm a little nervous, actually, to hear about

how everyone's Decision Day went.

Like, I'm pretty certain that outside of Becca and Austin,

everyone just reaffirmed that they're getting a divorce.

So really, for me, it's really just comes down to,

are Becca and Austin staying married?

- So how was everyone's day?

- Good. - Today was a good day.

- Yeah. - I know.

- What did you guys do last night?

- We got dinner, some good Italian.

- Nice. - Yeah, we got dinner.

- And then we went to the bar.

- Had some fun.

- Austin, did you go out last night?

Yeah?

- Yeah.

It was fun. - Yeah.

- Yeah.

- Did you go out with anybody else?

- Just like, yeah, a whole group.

- Yeah. - Yeah.

- Any producers there?

- No. [intense music]

- No?

- I don't know.

♪

- Do you remember?

- [chuckles] Are you mad at me for some reason?

- Did you come into this experience

for a friendship with a producer

or for a marriage with me?

- Oh, wow, OK.

Definitely came in to it for a marriage with you.

♪

- And so you thought that going out with a producer

the night after Decision Day--

- I didn't go out with a producer.

- No? - No, I did not.

- So who were you out with? - OK.

I'm sorry. Hold on.

- You can't just sit there and lie like that.

- This is where I chime in.

That's not factual at all.

- I-- - Let's just be honest.

- Just be honest. Let's just be honest.

- We all ran into each other last night.

- And then, what, you just, like,

saw her for a little bit and then left?

- I don't know, Becca.

- You do know.

- You're putting me in a tough position.

- Oh, I'm putting you in a tough position?

I'm not the one in a tough position when literally

yesterday I said that a large reason why I was saying

maybe no to our marriage was because I cannot tell

what is reality and what is fake with you.

- Nothing is fake with me.

- So then why haven't you been honest with me?

- When have I ever said anything

defamatory or, like, bad,

or anything that would insult you in any way?

- What about the dignity-- - I always have your back.

- Of our marriage?

What about, literally, you and I,

the sanctity of our marriage and honesty?

- What does that have to do with a producer?

- Because that has been the rift in our relationship,

on top of religion, on top of intimacy,

on top of everything else.

And I made that clear to you.

And you decided that the path forward

and the path to healing was to go spend time with her.

- I told you, ran into them. Just happened.

- You didn't run into them, Austin.

I'm not a [bleep] dumb bitch.

Did you think when you were out--

- Why?

- Did you think about how it would impact me?

- [sighs] I didn't think that it would be a problem.

- Then that is-- that says everything.

- That is the problem. That is the problem.

- By the way, I've been calm, cool, and collected

this entire [bleep] season.

So the fact that I'm riled up is really saying something.

I feel like--

- [softly] That's not even true.

- That's not true? - It's not true.

- OK.

- Becca, you have admitted to being

a very sensitive and emotional person.

This-- - But that's not a bad thing.

[overlapping arguing] - Whoa, I'm not saying it's--

- Hold on, hold on, hold on.

- Maybe you should be more sensitive.

- I'm trying.

But that doesn't mean you have been

calm, cool, and collected.

Every time there is an argument,

you go to this fight-or-flight mode.

- Do you know what's funny about that is that in therapy

I've realized that my fight or flight is triggered

when I'm not in a secure, safe space.

- Exactly.

- And what I figured out is that my secure,

safe space is not with you.

[intense music]

Because of so many trust issues and last night--the fact that

you even were lying about it right here with me right now,

and you are continuing to lie

about different aspects of it, tell me that I was--

my intuition was correct.

You have always been more concerned about optics

than our marriage. - That's not true.

- All of the men here have been more concerned--

sorry, Michael, I don't know about you.

- That's all right. That's all right.

- Everyone care about how they come off

when they are on camera.

- And the one thing that was missing from our relationship,

and why I was going to say no on Decision Day,

was because of trust, because I couldn't trust

the authenticity between us.

And this has now officially shot it to hell.

♪

- My priority was misplaced.

And it wasn't, like, an intentional thing. But--

- And that has been a pattern in our relationship,

where I am not the priority.

- OK. - Your own being,

whoever you are, is the priority.

And here's the thing.

I never want you to lose that.

Like, I think that you will find someone who truly is

even more independent than me,

which I didn't even know existed,

not as emotional, not as sensitive.

I am all of those things,

and that has not worked in your favor.

But, like, at this point now, I have given you

so many chances to make me the priority.

And time and time again, I am not.

♪

- So what are you saying, Becca?

♪

- I'm saying a lot of heated things

because I'm really angry.

It's been really hard to, like, sparse reality from fiction.

And all I wanted in Austin was, like,

that one person who will be true with you

throughout all of this.

And that's not what I've gotten.

[gentle music]

- I have--

I'm not saying I have successfully done so.

But I have really tried to be that person

for you in every capacity.

And it hurts.

It sucks to hear you say that,

like, I haven't been that person because I thought

I was doing a good job.

And I thought the things that I was struggling with,

I was improving on.

But you don't feel that way.

And I don't know what to do.

♪

Our relationship has gone to an unhealthy place.

And I don't know if it can be--

I don't know. Like, I don't know what to do.

- What I heard you just say is that you

no longer think we should try working on this because--

- I don't--no, I said, I don't know if we can get over this.

I don't know if we can get through it.

♪

- I think, Becca, this is an important time for you

because I feel like you went in very maybe strong

on how you felt, so do you-- - You did.

- Feel like after today, like,

does it feel like the right time to, like,

take your voice, to change your decision after how today went?

Or do you feel-- still feel the same?

- I feel more confused than ever.

If I was concerned about the trust between us before,

I'm more concerned about it now.

- And I will say, I don't want to interfere

with what's going on here.

But I do feel like there is this theme of being silenced.

Like, there are many moments in our marriages where, like,

at different times, we were silenced.

So for example, like, with the Brennan and Emily stuff,

when I brought that up,

I felt like you were mad at me for speaking up.

And I felt like-- [overlapping speech]

And I'm not gonna stay silent about things that I--

I am--are hurting other people.

- I would like to address the topic of you being silenced,

Clare, that you just said.

In our marriage, who was the one being silenced?

[intense music]

- What do you mean?

Who was the one being silenced?

- Yeah. - What--what do you mean?

There are conversations that we have

in secrecy that say-- that are not important

for everybody else to hear.

That's a different thing here, though.

- No, it's not.

- That wasn't-- it is a different thing.

- I'm not going to stand for you saying that

I silenced you in any way.

- I think in their-- in this situation--

- I supported everything you've ever said.

- And I agree.

Up until that point is when I felt silenced.

And I'm just telling you my feelings,

which I feel like you're not always receptive to hearing.

And on that comment,

is there something you want to say to Emily?

- I said that I didn't feel it was appropriate

to get involved

in Emily and Brennan's relationship.

Now, to clear the air,

I was the instigator, not Brennan.

I was the one that said, after all this, let's go out.

Let's have a good time. Let's go on a double date.

Let's have--let's enjoy-- - But it wasn't after all this.

He asked you in the moment.

And he said, do you want to go on a double date?

- That's-- - And that's me twisting?

That's not true. - No, no, no, no, no, no.

That is clearly a potential misunderstanding between who--

- It's not a misunderstanding.

- However--it could have been between me and Brennan.

- I'm sorry, Cameron. Every time--

every time you say something that really hurts my feelings,

you just say, it was a misunderstanding.

- Let's agree.

On more than 20 occasions, at least--

- We have misunderstood each other, yes.

- We have come together and repeated the same conversation

to each other, in private, on camera, wherever the [bleep].

And they're different--and they're different stories.

And it's like a genuine experience between you and me.

- It is. That is a genuine experience.

However, you know that you are lying right now.

Our whole experience doesn't--does not--

- [scoffs]

- That is not a indicator of that conversation.

- I can never win this. I'm always the bad guy.

- That's the same response he has.

He can never win. - That's the same one for him.

He's tried everything. - You can never win, OK?

- So let's--it's the same thing.

- Like, I'm literally-- - Please.

Please stop. Please stop.

- I've literally lied every single day

of this [bleep] marriage to protect her.

Do not get on a [bleep] high horse with me.

- Oh, really?

Because it seems like every male has seemed

to have to protect us, when you thought

you protected us, you have hurt us round and round,

round and round, and look at where we're at.

We don't need [bleep] protecting, OK?

We don't.

And so what you think is--

- I was asked for protection.

I was asked to give protection.

- You--we were asked to just-- - To protect the marriage.

- To protect the marriage, to protect the marriage.

- To protect you.

- Right, and that's what we did for each other.

- Are you protecting her right now by lying?

- He's not lying.

- I'm not lying. I'm not lying right now.

- OK, I'm gonna let you guys sit there in bliss and--

- Like, why can't there just be a version of this--

- Because all your versions are incorrect.

They've changed that many times.

- But why can't we just, like, agree to disagree and say,

maybe there was a miscommunication.

- Cameron--

- And we don't put blame on each other and just, like,

say, OK, it's OK.

- I wasn't lied to.

- As opposed to us just sitting here fighting

and getting nowhere.

- Oh, you don't think we've gotten anywhere?

- Right now-- - By being heard?

- No. Whoa, I'm saying, right now, where as she's saying,

you're lying, you're lying, you're lying.

Is that us getting somewhere? - Well, you are.

- Well, because we're not gonna agree because--

If you're gonna lie, you're gonna lie.

- I mean, I've heard seven different versions of this.

So I know it's just not the truth.

- And lying seems to be just a common thread.

- Yes.

♪

- To be accused of silencing Clare,

when all of our off-camera conversations

are her telling me what I can and cannot say

per these secrets that she has revealed to me

is so hypocritical.

And by the way, the fact that she's not attracted to me,

that's one of those things that she told me

that I couldn't say out loud.

Nope. Oh, there we go. I just broke a promise.

I mean, I literally just walked away from the group.

And I'm getting text messages right now

of her trying to make sure that I don't let her secrets out.

- Did he text you back? - No.

- Clare has been manipulating me from day one.

And I just--I couldn't take one more second of Clare

yet again accusing me of wrongdoing,

when, like, if we were in--

if we were in, like, the public courts system,

I'd be in jail for stealing a candy bar.

And she'd be in jail for murder.

♪

[slow pop music]

♪

- Where is Cameron? - I don't know.

I don't--I don't-- I think he left.

I don't--

- I imagine... - Anyway.

- Stress and the heart probably don't--

- Yes. Yeah.

- Mix well together. - Yeah, no, yeah.

- Heart condition.

- Yeah.

- Well, all you guys had your Decision Days.

So now that that has concluded, like,

what's next for you guys?

- That's the question. Yeah, what's next?

- So for me, I'm gonna take a lot of time to self-reflect

and, you know, really dig deep and find the things

that I need to work on and grow from and be better off with.

And I don't know how much time that's gonna take.

But it's gonna be quite the journey.

So gonna be going on it, for sure.

[gentle music]

- I'm gonna come over here because I really want to

make sure you hear me on this.

♪

Because of what happened, like, I know I have accountability.

And I made mistakes. I was not perfect through this.

Like, you also need to know that.

And you know that I know that

because I know how this ended for us is very, very, very,

very sad.

[tearfully] It's very delicate.

And it impacts us both differently.

But, like, it's gonna hurt us both a lot.

- Yeah.

- And I really want you to know that, like,

I know I was not perfect in this,

in lot of different ways.

[sniffles] And I need you to know that.

Like, it's not all on you.

It's really not.

- I appreciate that.

And I hope, like, we can just be civil

and, like, just appreciate each other for this.

It was--there was a lot of good, a lot of good.

- And I think we have a decision to make

of just how we take what was pretty traumatic

and, like, really--

we have a chance to, like, really

be better people from it.

♪

- Shall we squash it? - No.

Not-- - Come on.

- This is not squashed. - OK.

- This is not squashed.

- All right. - That was a great speech.

- But--

- All right, that's a start.

It's a start. - It's a start.

- And to piggyback off of y'all,

this has been a beautiful experience.

And I am looking forward to the growth that comes after this.

And I've expressed this to Orion via text a lot.

I mean, I think you know I care about you.

I wanted to-- - Yeah.

- Reach out to check on you.

And I just feel like we did miss the mark.

And it could have been something beautiful.

And you say you want a friendship.

If you want it, you can have it.

It's there.

It's on the table, as we have said.

- Has everybody heard that?

I'm gonna take you up on that.

- It's on--it's back on the table.

However, you got to pick up the knife and cut the cake.

- All right. - Cut the cake, baby.

[chuckling] That's us.

How is--can I-- can I ask a question?

- For sure. Fire away.

- How is the relationship progressing between you all?

- You know what?

We are just--we are just in a really positive place.

Like, I feel like we've really leaned in

to accepting each other for exactly who we are.

And we are excited to see what's ahead

and all of the things that might come with that.

So--

- I mean, you just might as well soak it up now.

I've said it on-- I've said it before.

You know, I think I shine.

But I'm a candle in a sun compared to her.

- Aw.

- I will not back away from the idea.

Like, I do believe-- - [chuckles]

- Honestly, I do believe you're a much better human than I am

in terms of what your-- the impact you're gonna make

on this world versus me,

you are a much better human than I am.

But that's part of what I celebrate.

You know, I celebrate the fact that you're a better human.

You continue to teach me how to be selfless.

And I will continue to show my doctorate in selfishness--

- OK.

- And teach you how to be selfish.

- Yeah.

- God, you guys are disgustingly cute.

- I was about to say, like, you're gonna make me cry again.

- [chuckles] - [sighs]

- It is extremely refreshing to see your emotional awareness,

your emotional integrity.

And I think this process has

put a spotlight on a lot of my weak spots

that I need to work on.

But it's also made me realize the way that those weak spots

can be triggered in situations

that aren't filling me or serving me.

- Are you looking to build a bridge?

- I think that for me...

♪

Many issues were built upon each other.

And it's now compounding to a point where, like,

if I can't trust him, I already have issues with intimacy.

We have differences in religion.

We have a lot going on.

And if I now have proof that he has lied to me...

♪

There might be a bridge in the future.

But, like, I need to heal

and learn to trust myself and my intuition again.

I think he is going to be the perfect guy for someone.

I don't think it's me.

[Nik Ammar's "Come To An End"]

- ♪ The fire is out

♪ It's just a dying ember

♪ I thought we were gonna last forever ♪

♪ Then you said, well, all good things ♪

♪ Must come to an end

- Blindsided--I feel, yeah, very blindsided.

- [vocalizing]

- I--

♪

- ♪ Now I see you were scared ♪

- I don't know what to do.

- ♪ Of losing everything

♪ Our love turned to rust

♪ Broken hearts to dust

- [tearfully] I love Austin as a person,

as a human who's walking on this planet.

I think he makes this world a better place.

But I just have to, like, know when,

like, I'm not it for him.

And I feel like the responsibility

is on me to see that.

- ♪ All good things

♪ All good things

♪ All good things must come to an end ♪

♪

- ♪ I'ma take you down

- Next time on "Married at First Sight"...

- Do you want to be more than friends?

- Honestly, I think that would be a huge benefit--

- Yeah. - Regardless.

- For three of our couples,

the story continues beyond Decision Day.

- How are you feeling about moving out?

- Like, I just don't really know

what to expect, like, if I'm gonna, like,

have a meltdown anytime soon.

- I really have no intentions of ever speaking to her again.

- Oh, [bleep].

- Do you have any regrets about the whole thing?

- Uh...

- I reached out to Becca, and that was a mistake.

- ♪ They won't see me coming - Oh. [laughs]

- But the journey continues for one final couple

as their Decision Day approaches.

- Oh, I have to go-- OK.

- You have to come to me.

[chuckles]

- You know, after the sex store,

slid right into having sex.

How many foster children are in this dream of yours?

- You know, probably, you know, maybe five at a time.

- Five at a time. [dramatic sting]

- If Decision Day was tomorrow--

- I would be feeling like I have insufficient data.

- Hmm.

Happy One Month-iversary.

[dramatic music]

♪