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narrator: These 12 "naked and afraid" veterans

took on an impossible challenge

to endure 40 days and 40 nights...

If that's an anaconda, I'm gonna lose my [bleep]

[ Shouting ]

Narrator: ...Stranded in the badlands nice! Yeah!

...no water... I need something to drink immediately.

Narrator: ...And no clothes.

Chris: I'm getting eaten alive by ants.

Oh, this is hard.

This thing's kicking my ass.

Narrator: The brutal temperatures,

relentless hunger... Shane: I hate being so weak.

Narrator: ...And vicious in-fighting...

[ Voice breaking ] I'm feeling very attacked.

You've been bitching for an hour!

Narrator: ...Forced four survivalists out of the quest.

I just want to go home.

[ Yells ]

Narrator: To make it out alive,

the eight who remain push the limits of human endurance...

Oh, my god.

[ Grunts ]

...finishing the challenge

with a grueling two-day extraction...

Everything you've got.

...across one of the most dangerous rivers in the world.

[ Cheering ]

We're really here.

Congrats.

[ Cheering ]

Narrator: Now, for the first time sin

the 12 survivalists have come together.

Some people think they know what it's gonna be like,

and they have no idea.

Yeah!

Narrator: We'll take an exclusive look

at never-before-seen footage...

Ow. Ooh [bleep] bee stung me.

...get unique insight into their survival strategies...

Jeff: Eva, you actually did teach me a lot.

I was walking different.

It's how you use your feet.

...and confront lingering resentments...

I'm saying we don't need your help.

[ Voice breaking ] I just really hate that everyone

thinks I'm just an ass[Bleep]

You don't need to act like you were trying to help us.

[ Sniffles ]

Don't sit here and tell me that my ideas were bad ideas.

I'm hurting, and I got to carry your weight and mine?

What the [bleep] is wrong with you guys?

Narrator: ...On "naked and afraid: Xl."

Eva: Be prepared to face all of your demons.

Narrator: Now, for the first time

since their adventure in the badlands of Colombia...

Luke: What? Look at these guys.

...12 "naked and afraid" veterans come together...

-Team bromance, what up? -Hey, you.

Narrator: ...To talk about their harrowing experience.

Yeah, so there.

You guys look totally different with clothes on.

Ej: Yeah, I think I've seen enough of Luke's balls.

[ Laughter ]

Luke: But have you? But really?

Is there such a thing?

When I first got back, I don't know about th

but I mean, like, Luke and I were together from day one,

so I'd be, like, looking for him to, like -- and he's not there.

Jeff: Like, I remember getting home,

and I'm, like, texting ej all the time,

like, "dude, like, what's up?

Like, I'm eating breakfast," you know?

You know, not having that, you know,

companionship when we got home was kind of weird, you know?

Those are those little rituals and routines

and things that, like -- I mean, you hang on to those.

Like, those are the things you appreciate.

It's like, "okay, we're gonna go out lizarding.

Okay, we're gonna drink water."

Like, it's those little things

that we do every single day that keep us going.

No one knows misery.

Like, you think you know hunger, you think you know pain,

you think you know bug bites, you don't know [bleep]

Everything that happened was 100% in that moment,

feeling it so intensely.

-And no break. -And no break.

It never stopped.

You go to sleep, you're just feeding the mosquitos.

I feel like you can get by 21 days

with a really strong mental attitude

and a little bit of skill.

40 days is different.

You have to give it everything that you have,

or you're not making it out.

Narrator: The "naked and afraid" veterans

began their 40-day challenge in 4 groups of 3.

Jeff: Got to get some water.

I know, man. I'm feeling you.

Scattered across a blistering Savanna,

each location presented different challenges

for scarce resources.

All right, so, it's dinnertime.

Day two.

There we go. Look how delicious that looks.

It's just -- ah, you don't know what you're missing.

Just picking the spine out.

The ribs you can chew up 'cause they're so little.

Mmm.

Mmm.

I think butter just oozed out of this thing.

It's a little bitter. -Is it?

If you were at home eating lizard, Chris,

what condiment would you put on your lizard?

I would ranch or mayonnaise,

'cause it tastes just like chicken.

It really does.

[ Laughter ]

Shane: I don't think that the fans understand

exactly how difficult it is to be dropped

into an absolutely foreign environment.

We had a brutal winter for us this winter.

Like, when I flew out of Philly, it was negative-20.

We got to Colombia, it was 130.

That's a 150-degree temperature swing.

I had an idea of what I was going into.

I knew it was gonna be really difficult

and everything was gonna suck,

but until you're actually doing it,

there's so many things that you don't even think of.

I mean, anybody can make a fire in their backyard,

but, you know, after three weeks of starving

and 120 degrees and mosquito bites out the wazoo,

you know, then the struggle becomes real.

There's a vulnerability that comes with being naked,

where I remember just waking up sometimes at night,

and I'm, like, reaching for this

phantom blanket that's at my feet.

It's not there, you know, but it just feels --

you don't realize it, you know, in everyday life.

It's that little bit of psychological protection.

Exactly, it's just like I have a layer

between me and the elements,

and that may not do anything.

Plus, when you're naked, the bugs have no boundaries.

Like, they can bite you anywhere.

They're all up in it.

-Personal space. -That's terrible.

Tell me about it -- remember that night

I got bit on the [bleep] by a spider?

You remember what that looked like?

Why do you keep reminding me?

Who was on poison detail for that one?

I was worried, man.

Not gonna happen, bro.

Ej looked at it. He shook his head.

He says, "dude, you need a medic," and he walked away.

[ Laughter ]

[ Buzzing ]

The bugs in this spot are hell.

I got consumed last night.

Covered -- seriously covered in bug bites.

And they're just sitting there, like, chewing on me.

Ow! Ooh, right on the balls.

Luke: You all right?

[Bleep] Bee stung me.

That's what it was.

That's my first bee sting on my nuts,

so Chris -- zero, bee -- one.

[ Laughter ]

The difference in surviving nude and surviving

with clothes is astronomical, I think.

I would give up tools for a pair of shoes

on any one of these challenges.

-Oh, yeah. -I really don't like shoes.

I feel like it's how you walk.

It's not the toughness of your feet.

It's, like, how you walk.

Eva, you actually did teach me a lot in Madagascar,

because I was walking different.

When you're walking, you know, when we have big shoes on,

we tend to, like, clomp around

with our feet all over the ground,

but it's just so much better if you take your foot

and you take that, like, split second

to feel the ground in front of your foot

and then transfer your weight onto it.

When you feel the ground, I'm not putting any weight on it.

I'm standing on my back foot.

We would walk these long stretches,

and if you're just plodding along,

one foot after the next,

you're just tearing up your feet.

If I could've, you know, protected my feet

or, you know, toughened up my feet more,

I would have had a much better time.

So I had to build a box in my apartment,

and I filled it with seashells and crushed bluestone.

All right, so, this is what I've been walking around in.

It's a box full of shells and stones.

And I literally walked around barefoot in it

for like 15 minutes 4 times a day until --

I started out like 2 minutes at a time,

and then by the time I left, I could walk around

inside of it for like 15 minutes.

It was cutting and ripping up the bottom of my feet

the first couple days, and I was like,

"no, I'm gonna get through this,

'cause I am not crying and suffering for 40 days."

I'm like, "I'm gonna make sure

my feet are good before I get out there."

Do you think a vegetarian could survive out here?

Shane: Not a chance in hell.

Are you a vegetarian? You are?

Yep.

Wow.

How do you feel about that?

I don't know.

Like, what are you gonna eat?

I hope that doesn't, like, worry you.

Not a chance at all. Nope.

I'm not worried about it.

I was a vegetarian for 10 years.

-Oh, really? -Yep.

I missed barbecue ribs too much.

[ Laughs ]

Being a vegetarian going into this,

I did not expect to maintain my vegetarian beliefs,

just because that's a long time -- 40 days.

So, this time around, I was really trying

to mentally prepare myself

to hunt, kill, and consume an animal.

Luckily, I basically lived like a squirrel

and harvest nuts and fruits.

You see what happens to squirrels out there.

[ Laughter ]

Jeff: You know, if there's people out there

thinking that they're gonna go do this

[chuckles] They probably shouldn't, you know?

Ej: Yeah, yeah.

We were the best-prepared 12 people on the planet,

and we were shocked and surprised daily

on the crap we faced.

Damn, it is hot.

Hakim: It sure is.

[ Exhales sharply ]

-Hold up for a second, ej. -Yeah.

Whew.

You doing all right?

[ Sighs ]

Yeah, I just need a breather.

Hakim: Colombia's a beast.

The heat is killer out here, you know?

It will suck the life right out of you.

I mean, I am beyond dehydrated right now.

The way this thing is going on,

these cramps are so insane.

The best thing that I could do for you guys

was to step away from that thing.

You know, not to have you guys just sitting around

trying to do what you can to help me,

but really -- this was such a big challenge.

The ego in me says "I just want to push through

and stay here until I die."

My problem is I never quit.

This is the same issue that I always have.

I never give up, you know?

Well, man, you'll be a friend for life, you know?

You guys, too.

The greatest lesson I learned out there is love is sacrifice.

This was such a big challenge,

and I mean, I love you guys for that.

Luke: Oh, man.

[Bleep] This [bleep] bitch.

I don't feel sorry one bit,

because Chris is a chauvinistic pig.

What the [bleep] is wrong with you guys?

I'm saying we don't need your help.

I don't see anything other than a [bleep] you moment.

Alana: Just got about one minute of battery left.

I thought it was really exciting to see y'all roll up.

Narrator: "Naked and afraid" has a strict policy

that survivalists cannot interact with the crew,

and it was no different on the "xl" challenge.

However, as this unseen footage shows,

on rare occasions, it's unavoidable.

Ironically, it was the crew

that needed help from the survivalists.

Now you guys get to come. I want to see that.

Yeah, who's got the camera now?

You want a hand?

Laura: Oh, the suspense.

It's funny that Luke's naked right now.

Da-na-na-na da-nanana Dan-Dan-Dan

-thank you so much. -You're welcome.

He's going in. He's going in.

Ohh!

Yep.

Yep, Chris fischer dive and salvage.

That was exciting.

Oh [bleep] is that a snake?

There's a snake, snake, snake, snake, snake.

Shall we make this quick and painless?

-Yeah. -Thank you, snake.

We were definitely in a state of pure survival.

And as much as you want to take care of everyone's needs,

there's also a part of you that has to self-preserve.

You think I ought to share some of this with Shane?

Guess it's your call.

At this point, salvaging a relationship

with him is not my priority.

Feeding myself is a priority.

Shane: Right now, I'm just trying

to get some body heat and walk in place.

Your brain is atrophying,

and you're under a tremendous amount of stress

that most people could never comprehend.

And some people do snap and lose their cool,

and you do worry about that.

Luke: She's walking around pissed off

with a machete in her hand -- what could be better?

We talk about all these hard skills

that we've kind of reconnected with as humans --

so making fire and learning how to build shelter

and reconnecting with these hard skills,

but we neglect those soft skills a lot of the time,

which is that interaction.

'Cause we should work as a tribe,

you know, speaking of humans.

But we often aren't good at that,

'cause we haven't lived in a community,

let alone a community in the wilderness

looking for your own food with all these, you know,

factors on it, so it definitely makes it hard.

So, when I first realized that I was gonna be

out there with more than one person, I mean,

I'm not gonna lie, like, I wasn't happy about it.

[ Laughs ] You know?

Because I can survive the wild,

but surviving the people is a whole nother challenge.

I was scared. I was terrified.

I'm like, "I hope I don't see a single person."

I was hoping I was gonna be alone on day one.

I just don't want that every time I kill something,

people expect me to share between 10 people.

I mean, it was hard enough sharing a lizard with ej

or sharing a snake with Eva in Madagascar.

That was tough enough, but when we have to split it,

you know, 10 ways or something, that's a whole different story.

But at the end of the day, I would have rather split

everything up six ways than to not have my group out there

at the end who had my back, who --

you know, we were there for each other.

And even if it meant divvying up resources,

for me, it was awesome to have you guys there.

You know, this challenge was so much different

than our, you know, 21-day challenge

because of that social dynamic, and, you know,

I think the social dynamic was the best of times,

you know, and it was the worst of times.

Narrator: At cao verde,

Chris, Luke, and honora's relationship began to unravel.

Honora: If someone was really daring,

they could climb up this tree

and get to that big branch up there.

Chris: You got to weigh the risk-reward thing.

The risk outweighs the reward by a lot.

After days of battling hunger and fatigue,

honora felt marginalized and disrespected.

I went across the river

and found two trees that were a little bit lower,

and I climbed, like, a 30-foot sapling

to grab a piece of fruit.

Eh.

It's just...

[ Sighs ]

Kind of bitter.

[ Honora laughs ]

Like, I understand if you don't want to eat it,

but I had even, like, said that I had climbed

30 feet up a sapling to grab this

hanging from another branch.

And knowing that I did that, you still, like,

chucked half the fruit into the dirt.

And what does that mean?

It's like I literally don't exist.

It wasn't ripe.

It didn't taste good, so I chucked it.

I didn't realize that just because you get something

that's not ripe that it warrants a pat on the back.

It didn't to me.

And, then, as far as your freak-out,

that had nothing to do with the fruit.

It's because you kept putting words

in my mouth and Luke's mouth,

and you freaked out because...

I don't even know why -- you're bipolar.

Whatever the [bleep] I don't know.

I didn't even get to finish the fruit

that I climbed 30 feet to grab.

I'll cut the [bleep] tree down.

Then you can have 100 of them.

Stop [bleep] bitching.

-I'm over it. I don't care. -I'm not bitching.

You've been bitching for an hour!

[Bleep] You.

She's got your knife.

Shane: Oh!

[Bleep] Both of you.

What the [bleep] man?

This is what I get for trying to talk to my partners.

They tell me I need to tap out.

Luke: That's a sabotage if I've ever seen one.

This [bleep] bitch.

Why it went in the river, machete went in the river,

those guys can go [bleep] themselves.

Honora: I felt very bullied.

And yes, that was very childish, but I was pulling my weight.

It's just that you refused to acknowledge it.

You put yourself in that situation.

We didn't pick on you.

We didn't blame you for anything.

You got mad because Luke said, "you know what?

We have an agenda. We need to work,"

and you wanted to sleep in.

Jeff: This is the one thing I wanted to avoid.

We knew it was inevitable, right?

I mean, when we heard that there were 11 other people coming,

did we not know that [bleep] was gonna hit the fan?

Yeah, from what I remember, we had a conversation.

You said, "can I sit another 30 minutes?"

I said, "yeah, that's totally fine."

But I think if we kind of zoom out

and look at the big picture, what it really felt like to me

was [bleep] going to go wrong in our situations,

whether that be socially,

whether that be survival wise -- whatever.

You get rained on, you don't have food.

What you, to me,

demonstrated every single time when things went wrong is

that you went to a place of victimhood,

and it was always someone else's fault,

and I never saw any ownership on your side.

What are you -- honora, what are you doing right now?

I'm trying to help you.

You're not trying to help me.

I'm trying to have a conversation with you guys,

and you guys are just like tap out.

[Bleep] You're a bitch.

Did I say that? Did I say that?

That was uncalled for. I agree.

I never said any of those things, honora.

I have tried to hard to be -- so hard.

[Bleep] Supportive. I have been trying to be

how is this helping the problem, though?

Um, it's gonna make me feel better

knowing that Chris doesn't get out of here in 40 days.

I was really pissed,

and I don't mean to sound like a victim,

but I'm being completely [bleep] honest.

I felt judged right off the bat,

and to keep me in a survival situation with an [bleep]

Who treats me with absolutely no respect,

I had absolutely no regrets.

Again, you're just gonna make excuses

and point fingers like it was a witch hunt.

It wasn't.

Like I said, you had a bad idea, we shot it down,

and if you're a survivalist,

you don't need permission to do anything.

Don't sit here and tell me that my ideas were bad ideas

from a survivalist point of view.

No, they were bad ideas 'cause I am a woman

and I had those ideas -- straight up.

Five other female partners had never had a problem.

I value my time and energy,

and I'm not gonna waste it on this chauvinistic pig.

I can't believe she called you a chauvinistic pig, Luke.

That's [bleep] up.

[ Laughter ]

Yeah!

Me and ej -- we're here on day 40!

Yes!

[ Grunts ]

Narrator: Jeff and ej showed what happens

when a team works well together,

like-minded in attitude and in survival techniques.

Victory!

-Victory, baby! -Yeah!

Narrator: However, when the whole group

came together at piranha lake,

Jeff and ej chose not to join the others,

and tensions flared over scarce resources.

[ Grunting ]

Ej: You need help?

No, man.

I got this one, buddy.

Cool. Congrats.

Thanks, man.

[ Grunts ]

Yeah, baby!

[ Grunts ]

I speared it, and I was super happy.

You know how I get when I kill something, you know?

And I'm just so jacked up on adrenaline

and, like, being a man and everything.

That's the first real moment of the challenge

when I was a complete jerk, you know?

Before Chris showed up, I was thinking in my head,

"okay, I can sneak this through the jungle,

back to me and ej, and we could eat it.

And nobody would ever know, right?"

It was like, you know, the devil sitting on this shoulder,

you know, god sitting on this one.

And, so, I had to make the decision.

Eva: I feel like we have such a close bond

from our time in Madagascar together,

and to think, like, "wow, Jeff would sit there

and eat that whole eel to himself

and not share it, not, like, with me,

but, like, with anyone."

Because that's not you.

If I had not shared the eel, it would have been

the worst decision of the whole challenge for me.

But we had already found ourselves

in two different groups, and I was trying

to avoid the drama that was building,

and I wanted no part of it. -Right.

I just think, because there was two distinct groups

at that point, that it was harder.

I think that was part of my frustration

was I felt like you're a very caring person,

and you are a natural leader, and it was something

that was surprising for me after going through

the experience in the Amazon with you.

And we had each other's backs that entire time.

You know, if you're someone who views yourself

as, like, a strong person and a strong leader,

like, you want to be pulling everyone along with you

so that you're all strong.

And you bring up a great point for me personally.

As I reflected back on this thing here,

my personal regret through this whole process

was that I feel I missed an opportunity --

that I should have been the uniter

and the bonder of everybody.

And I'm sorry, and I apologize

to the group for not being that guy.

That's not me.

So, you know how I am, so I'm sorry.

Luke: Everyone's gonna make mistakes

when you're under those situations,

and I think we all did in one way or another.

Wrong, I'm gonna say I'm wrong, and I'm sorry.

His mental state, he's better off isolated.

That does hurt me to hear you say that, Dani.

And I'm saying we don't need your help.

Everyone thinks I'm just an ass[Bleep]

I had no idea it was that taxing on you.

Honora: We're still getting just as much U.V.

It's the heat what [bleep] gives you the headache.

You're put in one of the harshest climates

and environments in the world, but it's just

what you go through mentally and emotionally --

you really find what you're truly made of.

[Bleep] Flies. I'm tired of feeding these

Luke: Everything's eating except us.

In a lot of ways, I think it is inevitable.

You put strangers together in a hard situation,

conflict is gonna arise one way or another, no question.

It's just a matter of, you know, how do we get through it?

How do we handle it?

You guys clicked, and I was really hurt by that,

to be honest with you, that, you know,

once you guys had clicked and we established

that our survival styles were not gonna mesh very well,

I was really hurt, 'cause I was the outsider.

There's a definite rift here, man.

The wall between us is making me want to not be here anymore.

Eva: I think a lot of us spent time

mentally preparing for that, you know, group dynamic.

That's as uncharted as what happens after day 21.

For me, surviving every day, waking up seemed kind of easier

than having to try to mentally --

after being depleted of food and tired,

how was I gonna relate to somebody?

And if you get upset with somebody out there,

that's magnified tenfold, I found.

It was very difficult for me.

To try to understand what each other's idiosyncrasies

are and try to work and build each other up

through those idiosyncrasies when I just met them

under this pressure cooker, it's difficult.

It was difficult for me, anyway.

Narrator: In the dense jungle of Colombia,

Alana, Danielle, and Shane quickly learned

how clashing survival strategies

could drive tensions to the boiling point

and ultimately shatter the group.

I think you're lazy.

Survival has to be lazy.

You don't go the first week

climbing trees and chopping down every other tree you see.

That's expending your energy.

Agreed. We have different views on survival.

I'm lazy, but I work. I work smart.

That's fine. Well, you know, now you can earn it.

[ Chuckles ]

Dani b.: The worst thing to do in a survival situation

is to separate.

Shane: I'm gonna make the 40 days -- no doubt in mind.

I would bet my [bleep] life on that fact.

[ Exhales sharply ]

Shane: Yeah, I mean, obviously, I didn't make the 40 days,

so, you know, it was probably a poor choice --

a decision that I made.

I am gonna stick by what I said, that I felt

that the tension level was beyond the point

that I was willing to hash out the details of it.

I know my personality is incredibly raw

and difficult to deal with

in that I have these ebbs and flows,

and if I'm not explaining them,

then it is difficult to deal with me.

But honestly, I didn't think that any amount of conversation

was gonna alleviate that pressure.

So I was like, "you know what?

I'm gonna leave them on their own.

They're gonna have a great time together.

I'm not in this group, and I don't see anything

other than a [bleep] you moment,

and I never wanted that with you.

I never wanted that unbelievable,

cataclysmic moment again.

So, that's how I handled the situation.

And how you feel is how you feel.

I mean, there's no necessarily, you know, right or wrong.

I mean, your perception is your reality.

If you were feeling that, you know,

we were having a great time and leaving you out,

then in your perception,

that is exactly what was happening.

Maybe for us, we were trying to make the best

of a struggling situation, and you didn't want to join us.

I mean, there's so many different ways to look at it.

Shane: Danielle, can I borrow the fire starter, please?

-Sure. -Thanks.

Narrator: But after splitting off on his own,

Shane soon realized he would need help to survive.

I can't do it alone.

Shane: I do think that we can be successful,

the three of us, and I would like to work together.

I want to know what these tasks are at hand

that you think we should all be doing.

Well, I mean, I think it's gonna take

more than one of us to get fish at the other hole.

That's a task that I would like help with.

Again, I'm offering to help you

for whatever you need, because I do need the fire starter.

Have we asked for help once since you left?

No, I wanted to offer my help.

I'm not sure how many times I have to say that to you.

And I'm saying we don't need your help.

Okay, then this conversation is over.

All right.

[ Thunder crashes ]

I just really hate that everyone thinks I'm just an ass[Bleep]

I give everything I have all the time.

I had no idea it was that taxing on you.

You see, you put up a pretty strong front.

You know, the impression that I was getting

was that you were trying to kind of show

how nice of a guy you were by coming to help us.

And, you know, it got me defensive,

and it was like, "no, we don't need your help.

You don't need to act like you're trying to help us."

I had no idea it affected you that deeply at that moment.

For me to leave you,

that was a really hard moment for me.

And for me to humble myself and come back and say,

"yeah, I do need your help,

but I'm not here to take from you

without offering anything back."

And that was what I was trying to get at.

It didn't go over well, and so I was like, "all right.

She's heated, I'm heated, and this is not going well."

So I'm like, "this conversation is over,"

rather than sit there and scream at each other.

I think his personality, his mental state,

he's better off isolated, like he said.

But as far as his survival skills go,

he really doesn't have any.

That does hurt me,

to hear you say that on the diary camera, Dani.

Well, I'd said that because you had specifically told me

that you did not have survival skills.

I don't have the best of them.

It's not like if you put me out there, I can't do it.

'Cause there are things I don't know, of course.

And that's why I love working with you guys

and doing these shows, because I like learning.

Oh, look. Hey!

Narrator: On day 20,

Shane joined forces with ej and Jeff.

Oh, damn.

Dude!

Jeff: He dug us a freaking well.

That's awesome, dude.

-I love you guys. -Good job.

But you at piranha lake really showed

some solid survivability skills.

So don't sell yourself short.

I know you.

You're as good a survivalist as anybody sitting here.

[ Voice breaking ] I was so thankful that you guys

were willing to bring me into your group.

I didn't know what else to do.

I didn't know how to say thank you

because I knew you guys, you know, would help me hunt.

And, you know, I'm a big boy, man.

I'm 6'5" for a reason, you know. I need protein.

In that moment, with the kind of energy

that I'm exerting, I need more than that.

And I didn't know what else to do to say

that I was really appreciative of everything that you guys did.

You know, helping me catch the fish

when we first got there and, you know,

trying to take care of all of that stuff.

And then, just your friendship was just amazing.

It just -- it -- it was so amazing

to spend 12 days with you guys.

[ Sniffles ]

Right now, I just want to give Shane a hug, honestly.

Can I give you a hug? -Yeah, sure. It's all good.

Thank you.

[ Applause ]

Eva: You know, she likes to lie about things.

Yeah, she's probably one of those pathologicals.

Little bit of sociopath in there.

[ Voice breaking ] You guys said

some really [bleep] hurtful things.

[ Sighs ]

Eva: I can't write off the fact

that we've had a really solid water source

to get us started on this challenge.

But if we're gonna continue, it can't continue like this.

It can't be this constant struggle

every day for these small meals.

Luke and Chris have a lot more resources.

We can go down that way and just stop in

and see what kind of resources they really have around them.

Narrator: During the "xl" experience,

it's what the environment did not provide

that often created tension within the groups,

and even caused doubt in the most confident survivalists.

There's no way we're gonna make it in time.

It's so [bleep] hot out today.

[ Sighs ]

Dani j.: In survival,

I am at the very beginning stages.

I have not been practicing

for nearly as long as either of you.

So I am still in the beginning of all that and learning,

like, "oh, I can do this" or, you know, "could work on that."

I'm still figuring all that out.

So, Dani, I just got to -- I just got to say.

I feel like your mood's been really heavy lately,

and I just got to let you know

it's been pretty much weighing on me.

Dani j.: I think played a large role

in my self-doubt and my confidence levels.

I was by myself for the first four days,

and that actually took a lot out of me.

Eva: You know, out there,

if it's not shelter, water, fire, and food,

and if not everybody is on that same page,

we're just all chemical -- it's hormones, it's pheromones.

And we're not, like, above and beyond

the animal kingdom in anyway.

Narrator: After starting the challenge alone,

surviving in a group was tough for Dani.

Dani j.: I'm gonna walk on the Savanna.

Her reclusive nature ostracized her from the group

and made her a target.

I tried to understand her and give her a chance,

but...just she's such a roller coaster.

You know, she likes to lie about things.

Yeah, she's probably one of those pathologicals.

Little bit of sociopath in there.

So, maybe she should just tap out.

I'm just [bleep] over her.

I don't even want to, like, talk to her.

[ Exhales sharply ]

Hakim: It's okay. Say what you got to say.

I don't want to say anything.

Dani, this is just my opinion,

but I do think that it's, like, human nature,

even though we need these group dynamics,

to almost kind of cannibalize your partners.

Luke: I talked to her last night about -- she was asking

if there's anything she could do, you know.

She felt like she wasn't doing much.

Chris: 'Cause she ain't.

I'm not a wheelbarrow

to carry somebody through this challenge.

I got to carry [bleep] the 160 pounds left of me still.

Chris: Bottom line is

we were trying to live as a community,

where she basically shunned herself

and was having a parasite-host relationship.

She brought nothing to the table. No offense.

And that's why it made it easy for us to turn our back.

It wasn't nothing personal. I'm sorry if you felt that way.

But I was just the one that said it.

I think it was most unfortunate that it wasn't said to me.

There was so much going on,

and I had no idea that you guys

were so upset about little things

that could have easily been fixed.

Dani j.: I feel like

this entire group is working against me.

And it is hard enough to be in this position as it is.

But to have teammates that hate you

makes it so much [bleep] harder.

It's really been nothing but you focusing on yourself.

It all just seems to come from a place

that isn't really genuine and caring

and committed to the team.

It comes from a place of, like,

showboating and, like, self-indulgence.

And it becomes nothing but the Dani pity party.

Ej: I know, from my vision,

I wasn't at the conversations to know the whole story.

So, you develop a certain perception

about what you're seeing, and I felt helpless

'cause I didn't feel I could help, right,

'cause I didn't know all the facts.

There wasn't an easy fix.

There wasn't, like, a band-aid you could put on the situation.

I think that was a problem that it didn't happen

in one instant and it couldn't be fixed in one instant.

And at that point in the game, when you're that far in

and you're that deep, how do you come out of that and say,

"okay, like, we're gonna, like, have --"

[ voice breaking ] You guys said some really [bleep] hurtful things.

[ Sniffles ]

What the [bleep] is wrong with you guys?

Are you [bleep] kidding me?

Like, what is wrong with you?

I'm obviously really hurt.

Obviously I'm really hurt by the whole thing.

[ Sniffles ]

Luke: It's a rough [bleep] situation we're in, you know.

You can't hide from it.

We strip all of these layers of comfort away

out in this wilderness, and our raw self comes out.

And if those -- that raw, you know, surface is rough.

This is a scary, vulnerable thing we're doing right now.

And, so, it's like, how do we handle that situation?

Do we shy away from it? Do we run away from it?

Or do we embrace it and say, "yeah, guess what?

I did some [bleep] stuff to Dani,

you know, and I'm gonna own it."

And that's all we can do, and say, you know, I'm sorry.

Thank you.

[ Eva sighs ]

I didn't realize this until just now,

but what I owe you is an apology.

And I'm really sorry for anything

that I did to hurt you, and -- unequivocally.

-Thanks, mama. -Yeah.

Aww.

[ Voice breaking ] Thank you.

He just said he's sorry makes the world of difference.

We all did [bleep] stuff, and it's just --

I know, and I'm so sorry for the [bleep] stuff that I did,

and I'm sorry I didn't pull my weight.

I wasn't gonna impose it on you.

I'm so sorry for -- I'm just sorry.

[ Sniffles ]

And I appreciate the apology.

I really do.

So, I appreciate it.

[ Sniffles ]

[ Sighs ]

For every one of those 40 days, you are immersed in it.

You are in the thick of it.

And then, all of a sudden, on day 40, it's over.

Together: Colombia!

Yeah, baby!

Yeah!

Yeah!

When I think back to my experience in Colombia,

a lot of it is laughing at ej and Jeff

yelling about everything.

Yeah!

Yeah!

Yeah!

Take that, Colombia!

Yeah!

It was like watching two little kids play in the woods.

Yeah!

-Yeah! -Whoo!

'Cause we're coming for you!

Dani b.: Jeff and ej are all about hunting

and pounding their chests and screaming.

They brought a lot of happiness and positivity.

We're eating tonight, baby!

And it was kind of cute and endearing,

and also slightly annoying sometimes.

-Yeah! -Yes!

-Yeah! Yeah! -Yeah!

[ Echoing ] Yeah! Ej:

Alana: I'm concerned about my team.

[ Sighs ]

Danielle's obviously not in good shape right now,

so I'm really concerned about her.

It's really important to find something

of actual sustenance for Danielle.

[ Breathing heavily ]

Got a piece of fruit if you want to try to eat it.

It's right here, whenever you're ready for it.

Dani b.: It was very difficult,

and I don't even know how I got through that...

...because every single day,

I could get an infection or something.

I was always trying to be aware of that.

I think some people think they know

what it's gonna be like, and they have no idea.

Yeah, yeah.

I've heard, and I'm sure you guys all heard --

the people come up to you, and they say how,

like, awesome it is and how they just want to do it.

And you're like, "no, you don't."

[ Laughter ]

These cramps are so insane.

Eva: Oh, my god.

Stitches without anesthesia -- pretty hardcore.

Shane: Oh, this is hard.

Whatever is making this paw print, man,

is what's stalking us at night.

You know, if somebody was at home thinking

that they're gonna go out and do the 40-day challenge,

I think -- I think you better have some skills.

My one piece of advice would be, uh...

Kind of stay humble.

Better bring your "a" game, 'cause this is real,

and it's not for the faint of heart.

I would say, be prepared to face all of your demons,

whether you know they exist or not.

Be prepared for demons that you had no idea were there.

And [ Laughs ] um, yeah.

Just be ready to see a side of yourself

that you didn't know existed.

I'm not fulfilling my potential right now,

and it's really frustrating.

I don't have enough food.

I've been looking everywhere.

I'm frustrated with myself.

[ Voice breaking ] I just feel like I'm failing right now.

Congratulations, you guys that made it the full 40.

That is such a huge accomplishment,

and I'm so proud of all of you.

Like, I -- seriously, it's amazing.

Ej: Dude, there's our boats.

-Come on! -They're coming this way!

[ Cheering ]

I felt like an NFL running back when I seen those boats coming.

I've never seen a man this size run that fast.

Hey! Holy [bleep]

-Hey! Hey! -Hey!

Boat! Boat!

Alana: When I saw the extraction boat, my jaw dropped.

Oh, my god, when I got on that boat,

it was like the most amazing feeling,

knowing that all the suck was over.

It was just a mind-blowing, like, life-changing moment.

[ All cheering ]

Shane: Oh, my god, there's so many!

Look at those fruit.

Do you realize what we all just did?

You -- holy hell, man.

The amazing rush of emotion of completing the challenge,

I didn't want it to go away.

And so, like, the night, you know, like, of 41 --

stayed up all night, didn't go to bed.

Just eating oreos and peanut butter.

Jeff: This is one of the greatest days of my life.

And I do not want it to end, so I am not going to bed.

[ Laughs ]

I absolutely miss it.

I mean, if somebody came to me now and said,

"hey, would you like to go back," I would love to go.

Like, I wish we could all hop on a plane right now

and go back and, you know, like -- have fun.

[ Laughter ]

Just landed in salt lake city.

About to see my girl.

I haven't seen her in over 50 days.

This might be a little shocking for her.

[ Voice breaking ] Oh, my god.

[ Speaking indistinctly ]

Ah, it's scratchy.

[ Smooching ]

Oh, oh!

It doesn't really sink in until you leave

and you can look back and you can reflect on what happened.

Oh, oh!

There she is.

My baby!

[ Voice breaking ] I missed you!

Nothing else matters except for the fact

that we can look around and look at each other

and say "we did that." -Totally.

The one thing that I've gained from this --

besides life-long friendships -- was a sense of family.

You know, I wasn't sitting there with six other survivalists.

I was sitting there with, you know,

another brother and a couple more sisters.

And that, for me, was just, you know, truly epic,

to have shared and, you know,

gained friends and family for life.

For every one of those 40 days, you are immersed in it,

and you are in the thick of it.

And then, all of a sudden, on day 40, it's over,

and it's done, and you're looking back on it.

And that's a metaphor for life, because all of a sudden,

you're laying there at your end of your days,

and you better look back and think that you

gave it your all and you worked 100%,

and that you left it all on the field.

-Whoo! -All right.

1, 2, 3. Together: Colombia!

[ Cheering ]

Jeff: Nice job, nice job.

Who wants a cheeseburger?

[ Cheering ]

-Whoo! -Yeah!

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