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- ♪ I just feel...

- Ten singles looking for love married complete strangers.

♪

- ♪ Look out, coming in hot

- Last time, while one couple continued

to enjoy being newlyweds...

- There you go.

- Our other couples kept navigating

through their ongoing issues as Decision Day approaches.

Becca and Austin.

- When you do try to, like, make a step forward

in intimacy in any way,

like, I need to trust that it's not because

you feel like you have to do it but because you want to.

- I'm committed to, like, keep trying to work on things.

♪

- Chloe and Michael.

- Paige and Ephram--

they said you were a bit of a people pleaser.

- Mm. - I think we could run a risk

of being so hyper-focused

on trying to make each other happy

that we're not actually focused on our needs.

- I agree with that.

- Clare and Cameron.

- Like, I feel like I've just been

on an emotional roller coaster, like, every single day.

- If she says that she wants to stay together, like,

I'm going to stay together with her on Decision Day.

- Emily and Brennan.

- Like, it just has meant so much to me

that he's been here for me.

And, like, it just kind of felt like we were, like,

back to, like, when everything was,

like, really good between us.

I'm hoping we can, like, keep this moving forward.

- ♪ Let's get it - ♪ Let's go

- Right here.

- And tonight...

one couple continues to discover more

about the stranger they just married.

- I'm looking for [bleep].

I'm looking for another vibrator.

- Cheers to... both: Making it to this point.

- And with Decision Day less than one week away...

- We have to do what's best for ourselves.

- Yeah.

- Our other couples take one last-ditch effort

in order to help them make the biggest decision

of their lives.

- I can't just live a life that isn't real.

Like, I can't keep pretending. - Yeah.

- One of my deal breakers was, was positive, positive person.

- What do you [bleep] mean?

There is no negativity.

[crying] - Okay.

♪

- I just start questioning if what I'm asking for

is too much.

- I've heard through the grapevine

that he wanted to go on a double date with Cameron

and that he is going on dates.

♪

- ♪ It's all or nothing

- This is "Married at First Sight."

- ♪ There's no other way

♪ It's all or nothing

- ♪ This is our time now

♪ Don't you dare look back

[knock at door] - Oh, my God.

- Look at you.

- How we doing? You look unbelievable.

Like, your eye-- - It's getting normal.

- I don't know how you've healed so quick.

- Thank you.

What about you?

I know you saw Cam unexpectedly.

- I know. And it's just, like, so normal.

Like, nothing is ever awkward.

- Did he, like, check in on you?

'Cause I feel like you always talk about him,

and, like, how much you're calling.

And like, did he use that time to, like,

really, like, check in?

- No. Yes. He was totally like, I know it probably feels

lonely because I'm not here.

But I was like, honestly, yes, it has been lonely

because I wish you were here. - Yeah.

- However, I think I've taken this time

to explore myself more.

And he was like, I'm happy to hear that.

And he's doing well. He sounds like his normal self.

And he knows me so well

that he's like, Clare, I know that you're going to get

emotional on Decision Day.

- I mean, we're all going to be, like, sobbing.

- And I was like, what do you mean?

I don't cry ever, Cameron.

And, obviously, I cry all the time.

And he was like, I know that you're going to get emotional.

I just want you to know, like, that's not going to change

the way you feel about our decision,

because we've already made our decision.

You know what I mean?

I think Cameron is just so, like, even.

Like, I obviously came into this process

literally thinking I was going to leave

with, like, a long marriage

or hoping for that. - I think that was the intent.

- No. Exactly.

But I think the fact that it's happening now

is pretty sad that it's ending

in the way that I didn't want, really.

Like, I go from being a married woman

to, like, a separated person to, like, a friend.

- I just am a firm believer everything

happens for a reason. - Totally.

- And I think I have, like, tried to think about putting

myself in your shoes with, like, Brennan being here

and so good with what I've had to deal with.

I can't imagine, like, if he wasn't here, like, if--

I don't know. Like, if I was in your position,

and, like, now going through this, like, I feel...

- It's wild. - Like I can sympathize and...

- Yeah. Well, it seems like Brennan's been very present...

- Yeah. - And very hands on.

But how is that going?

- This I definitely think shifted things.

I don't know what that means, but...

- Mm-hmm. Have you guys talked about it or no?

- No. I was like, I just want all these good days

to keep happening because I think it's only

setting us up for success.

But I made us reservations for dinner to just kind of, like,

lightly start talking about it

without fully talking about it...

- Mm-hmm. D-Day, man. - Just so, like,

we're slowly getting, like, aligned.

I think all I feel right now and probably what I'll tell him

is, like, I definitely have confirmed

that I want you in my life.

I'm going to be curious to know how he reacts.

- Time will tell.

- Your guess is as good as mine.

- Ooh, it's a lot.

♪

- ♪ Baby, I'll be all right

♪ I'll be okay

♪ Living for the moment

♪ Take it day by day

♪ Baby, I'll be all right

♪ I'll be okay

- Hello. - Hi.

How are you? - I'm Becca.

- Hi, Becca. I'm Roxanne.

Good to meet you. - Nice to meet you.

- Hi. - This is such a cute space.

- Thank you. Well, come on in.

- Perfect. Thank you for doing this.

- Absolutely. - We're really excited.

- Decision Day is coming up.

And I think there's so much to still

figure out in our marriage.

- I'm going to give you two pieces of clay.

- There have been moments where, like,

I seriously don't know if he likes me,

like, when we're off camera.

Like, he has definitely said he likes me.

But it's a matter of, like, showing it.

And I think, like, when we're on camera,

he does a really good job of showing it.

And then I think when we're off camera, it's just not as much.

Honestly, at this point, I don't think

I really know who Austin is.

- So, like, now we've been kind of experiencing

some issues lately.

- I think I have had a problem, or, like,

I've had a hard time with, like, feeling--

Like, a lot of the times, like, we're

having deep conversations or connecting, it's on camera.

And then it emotionally exhausts you,

and then we don't really have those conversations

off camera. - Yeah.

- And so I'm unsure

if, like, you really like me. [scoffs]

- I mean, you know, I'm sorry you feel that way.

Like, I definitely...

do like you and do want to, like,

make things better for us.

And you just need, like, to trust what I say

and, like, when I do say those things.

- I know that I need to trust you.

But also, like, it's the whole believe what people do,

not what they say. - Yeah.

- I just--

I know you like me as a person.

I don't have any doubt of that.

It's just whether you like me in that type of way.

- Well, I do like you in that type of way.

♪

And I'm sorry I'm not...

♪

Good at expressing it to you.

♪

You know, Pastor Cal said when we had that expert meeting--

was that we need to, like, trust in, like,

the little things and that, like, our intentions

in everyday conversation

is for the better for the other one.

And I think that's been going better.

Do you think it's been going better?

- Yeah.

I mean, even today, I said something

about the washer door just being kept open,

so the washer doesn't get moldy,

and you didn't fight back, which was really nice.

- Yeah.

- Because that normally would be a comment

that wouldn't go over well.

- I mean...

like, it hurts me to, like,

hear you say or think that, like, that

wouldn't go over well, but I feel like...

you know, yeah, maybe I, like, might disagree,

but I don't disagree, like, in a poor way.

Like, do you think my disagreements are combative?

- Yeah. Definitely.

Like, you always say that you need a reason why for things.

And sometimes it gets really exhausting

to, like, be giving, like, long-winded answers

when, like, we're rushing out the door and, like, whatever.

And so, like, today, I appreciated

that it was just like, okay, and then, like, move along,

because it's not-- like, to me, I don't

think it's a big thing to ask.

- I kind of feel like in the past,

you've told me that, like, past boyfriends are,

like, kind of like pushovers.

And, like, after what you said,

it makes me kind of feel like you want me

to just not think for myself all the time.

♪

- No, I think you think for yourself 100% of the time.

I'm asking for you to think of us for a small percentage

of that time.

♪

- Okay.

- I'm not asking for you to be passive.

I don't know how to, like, communicate that

in a way that makes sense to you.

Maybe I am asking for too much.

And in that case, that's something

I don't really know what to do with.

♪

- I mean... [sighs]

I don't think it's, like-- Hey.

- No, like, this whole thing has made me question, like...

♪

For you to say that, like, my exes have been passive

and, like, that may be just what I'm looking for, like,

I don't know how to respond to that with you,

'cause then, like, what do you want me to say?

I don't know.

♪

Like, you're valid in bringing those things up to me.

I don't want to be getting emotional to dismiss

your wants and needs.

It's just, like, a matter of-- I just start questioning...

[sighs deeply]

If what I'm asking for is too much.

♪

[object thuds]

♪

I'm so cold.

I'm grabbing yours 'cause it's fleece-lined.

- Oh, thanks. Get mine dirty.

[chuckles] Full of clay.

It's fine. [chuckles]

♪

You can do it.

Just...

I'd appreciate it if you wash your hands before.

♪

- I would be lying if I said that that wasn't hurtful.

And I get why you don't want to get your coat dirty.

But I'm also, like, sitting here shaking.

And, like, if you wanted my coat right now,

if you wanted anything of mine,

I would give you whatever you needed,

no matter how messy it would get.

- So it does feel like it's unfair for me

to ask you to wash your hands to wear it.

Like... - It's not unfair.

It's just like all of the things compounded--

like, just some gesture that, like...

I come first or that, like, you care about me

so deeply, that, like, if the lining of your jacket

gets a little clay on it that we have to dust off later.

♪

- I just feel like...

it makes me look [bleep],

like, just to ask if you could wash your hands

before putting on the jacket.

- I'm sorry. I didn't mean to make you look bad.

♪

- ♪ I will leave with nothing ♪

♪ I'm taking it home

♪ I dearly want to find

[soft music]

- ♪ These days, it just feels right ♪

♪ You sitting by my side

[knock at door] - Hello. Hello.

- Welcome to our zoo.

- Hi. It looks so nice. - [laughs]

- I love the decor.

- Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.

- Got a nice panoramic view here.

I get the sense that Dr. Pia is going to do a nice deep dive

into intimacy.

But I'm actually looking forward

to having this open conversation with her.

I think it would be a great benefit for us to kind of dive

into topics that maybe we haven't explored

as deeply on our own.

- How's it going?

- Kind of reminiscent of my place.

- Really good, I think I'd say.

- Yeah? - Yeah.

You know, having that positive momentum right out the gate,

and I think we've had that, and really kind of two things--

trying to ride it and not take it for granted, you know?

- Yeah. Okay. - Yeah.

- So you all are still presenting your best selves

to one another?

- I would say

we haven't really had that luxury to...

to constantly just have our best foot forward.

- Mm. - I mean, I feel like the depth

of our conversations,

I don't even know that I've breached

with long-term relationships.

- Okay. - So...

there's an intensity here that I think has also given us

the grace to be who we are

authentically, unapologetically,

take-it-or-leave-it kind of situation.

And it just feels like it's just been still really easy.

- Yeah? - Yeah.

- Yeah, and I would clarify that by saying we're still

in a space where we're trying to be our best selves,

but, like, I mean, there have been moments in between--

you know, even in between filming, for example,

where, like, if we have a 30-minute gap, I mean,

I might try to squeeze in a quick nap.

Like, I might power down.

I may not be my best self

in that moment. - Sure.

- But there's still, I believe, like, an active effort

to kind of be our best selves and be fully engaged,

more importantly.

- Well, 'cause you're human, right?

And so you're going to have not-your-best-self moments

and so forth. - Sure.

- Does that, like, prevent you from connecting with Chloe?

- With Chloe, no.

I say that with confidence, because my belief is, like,

when it comes to a relationship,

especially marriage,

if you're going to be truly vulnerable...

- Mm-hmm. - You're essentially empowering

the person you're with to be able to hurt you the most

and trusting that they won't.

And so I can say that I have had that confidence

to empower her in that way. - Mm-hmm. Yeah.

- And that's made it easier

for me to be vulnerable with her.

- Mm-hmm. Okay.

So I want to ask-- I got the opportunity

to do both of your home visits, which I love.

So I got to know you all on a little different level.

And I know that you both expressed

that you were very intimate people, very sexual people.

You said that you keep your vibrator

underneath the pillow. - I do.

- Why is that?

- So it's easy access.

- For? - For when I need it.

- So of course I want to ask--

how has it been going in the sexual-intimacy department?

- Sure.

- I mean, I--

So the one thing coming into this

that I asked of Michael

is my need to build an emotional connection.

We're both physical-touch people,

so we're touching all the time, holding hands,

kissing, cuddling,

just really enjoying each other's company.

- Mm-hmm. - And, you know, things are--

things are rapidly moving forward.

- Yes. - Good.

I'm glad to hear that.

I'm glad to hear that. Okay.

- We have been making sure to explore each other.

- Okay.

[electronic music]

♪

- ♪ You can get yours

♪ And I'ma get mine always

- What's the next step?

- Oh, that's going to be bow-chicka-wow-wow.

- Oh, okay.

What does that mean for you-- the bow-chicka-wow-wow?

- I mean, I don't know.

We haven't really identified that yet.

- Well, no time like the present.

That's why I'm here, right?

- I'm getting-- - Getting hot?

Can I get a fan?

- Would you like to take it from here?

- Oh, yeah. No, I think-- like Chloe said, you know,

I think we both feel like we've been able to build

a strong emotional connection.

And so now we're kind of-- having that luxury,

we're kind of putting our focus on making sure

that that's sustained, you know,

before we jump into having sex. - Yeah.

- So you all are comfortable with each other,

being in each other's presence? - Mm-hmm.

- Are you comfortable being naked around each other yet?

- Oh, yeah. - Good.

- I don't sleep with any clothes on.

- Okay.

- We are just totally--

we are totally, totally, totally comfortable.

- So, as free as you all are, as, you know, comfortable

as you are with each other's bodies,

have you all masturbated with each other yet?

- Oh. - [chuckles]

We have not.

But I would not be opposed to this.

- Okay. So can I give you all a homework exercise,

a little activity?

- We love homework. - Sure.

- Okay, so I want you all to take a field trip

to an adult novelty store. - Okay.

- Go find three items that you would like to use together.

- Okay. - Okay?

And then I want you to be able to use those items

to the best of your comfort level.

- Okay.

- So this will be a new experience for me.

- I got ya. I'll navigate.

- Okay, you can be the tour guide.

- I can... [clicking tongue] Take you through.

♪

- ♪ Mixing it up

♪ Making a mess

♪ But that's just half the fun, I guess ♪

- Look at all this wine. Wow.

It's, like, my favorite things really coming together here--

wine, steak.

I'm actually feeling really happy since the accident.

I never thought that we would get to this place

before Decision Day.

Cheers to... both: Making it to this point.

- [chuckles]

Literally surviving. - Mm-hmm.

♪

- We are survivors.

- We sure are.

- Yes. Amazing.

- Wow. You have, like, the best presentation.

- Oh, thank you.

- Thank you. - Beautiful.

Beautiful. - Then your tuna tartare.

- We really did order it up.

- Our wontons, there will be a little bit

of wasabi aioli on there.

So it has a little bit of a kick

but nothing outrageous for you. - Thank you.

- Where do I begin?

[both crunching]

- So you feel good about Decision Day?

- I definitely feel better about it post-accident

than pre-accident. - Yeah.

It definitely brought us closer together.

- I mean, I didn't know I had to hit a tree to, like,

see some amazing things from you.

But if I had to hit a tree to do that, I'm happy I did.

- [chuckles] - And I'm happy that I saw,

like, parts of you that I have not seen before.

I think this gave us the best chance

to, like, expedite a couple gold stars, you know?

- Yeah.

I think there was a big disconnect

for weeks about what a friendship is

versus a relationship. - Mm-hmm.

- And I think that was getting blurred,

and expectations were very high after the accident.

♪

- I'm pretty sure, like, we didn't really establish,

like, this for sure as a friendship.

♪

It's like, maybe you knew that in your head,

but it wasn't really, like, communicated.

- I think... [sighs]

My actions were showing in those settings,

which I thought were enough, but, clearly, they weren't.

So I should have, I guess, told you sooner.

- Mm-hmm, 'cause as you said, you hate mine readers,

and that's why you broke up with your ex.

And I'm not a mind reader, especially in this situation.

I feel like I made it so clear to you, like,

all I wanted was direct answers from the beginning.

So, yeah, I think that is a big deal.

And I think that was very important for you

to have to say to me whether you thought that or not,

especially for being on a show and being married,

like, which is kind of, like, a big deal.

♪

- But you have to understand that I was still trying.

- You believe that. That's your belief.

Like, I don't feel that way,

but it doesn't mean you have to agree with it.

But I just feel like after the honeymoon,

a guard or something went up,

and it just never felt like it was, like, a fair chance.

- Are we talking about what we've learned from it,

or are we just-- you're going to--

- No, I'm just saying, like--

I'm just giving another example.

- Tell me all the things you just--

- No, I'm just saying, like--

- All my effort's just not being acknowledged.

That's what we're going to continue to do, right?

- Like, most girls probably would not have,

like, stuck it out.

- Oh. Okay.

- No, I just want you to know that.

And, like, I'm glad we went through it together.

But, like, I didn't want that for us both

because, like, we got to the point that we're at.

And I wouldn't have stayed if I didn't think there

was more growth to be had.

Again, didn't think it would take hitting a tree.

- [sighs]

♪

- What?

- I'm just...

♪

Was it you staying or convincing me to stay?

I'm just kind of confused.

- Oh, it was definitely me convincing you to stay,

'cause I didn't think it was fair to me

to, like, have you decide.

If anyone should have decided to be out,

it should have been me. - Okay.

- But I didn't think it was fair for you

to take away

my experience from me.

- Which is why I stayed,

because I put you before me.

I said-- - I know that.

- Do you? - I do.

- Okay. - And what if you didn't?

We would have never been able to even be friends.

- If I didn't listen to you,

you wouldn't have almost died, so...

- What?

- We would have been out, and you wouldn't have almost died.

- Are you serious right now?

- To have it come to that point where I almost lost you?

Yeah.

Do I think back and say, was it worth it?

It was not worth almost losing you to stick this out.

- You can't even put those two things together

'cause we wouldn't be here if the accident didn't happen.

- Like, that's--like, it--

- Yeah. - [sighs deeply]

[groans softly]

- Thank you. - Mm-hmm.

- Is that rare enough for you? - That's good, yes.

Thank you. [silverware clattering]

- I just want to eat this.

- Okay.

♪

I mean, it does kind of hurt my feelings

that you don't want to, like, talk about anything.

- Not what I said.

I just want to eat the steak for five minutes.

Is that okay? - Yeah.

♪

- [sighs]

[ice rattling]

- I don't think it's worth going round and round,

but I've told you I don't think you gave it your all.

I think I've given it my all,

but would love you to speak to that a little more,

even though I know you don't agree, and that's fine.

I don't know if you have any more

to say to elaborate on that.

♪

- In the real world,

you go on one date maybe a week

over the course of a couple months.

And then you figure out if you want to be with that person.

- Mm-hmm. - We were 24-7.

And I felt very comfortable that I saw...

♪

Every side of you that I could.

And I saw

a few red flags here and there.

- Like, what were my red flags? I don't mean to interrupt you.

- The romantic-chemistry aspect wasn't there.

The negativity for me is, like, a huge thing.

That's one of my-- one of my deal breakers was,

was a positive, positive person.

- I'm the most positive [bleep] person there is.

- Okay.

Saying I hate this, I hate that, I hate this,

and then you took the opportunity

when it was Michael and Chloe's vows that were beautiful,

and you just destroyed them.

- I thought their vows were a little, like, vanilla,

to be honest.

Like, nothing stuck out. [laughter]

- I think Emily has something to say.

- No, I just thought Michael was gonna, like, say something.

- He's like, this is my second round of vows.

- I didn't destroy them.

- They were basic.

They were vanilla. They were this.

I couldn't believe you could make that into something

that was negative.

♪

It's too much for me.

- [voice breaking] I am the most positive person.

If you can't [bleep] see that about me,

that is--literally, that is the disconnect.

And, I mean, like, holy [bleep].

- So that's why I just don't-- - Like, this is--

like, this is just groundbreaking.

- So, before the accident, you don't think

you were extremely negative all the time?

- I really don't think that.

- Saying "hate" all the time isn't negative?

- What do you [bleep] mean? There is no negativity.

[cries]

♪

[chair scrapes] I'm gonna take a second.

[crying]

♪

[dramatic music]

- He thinks that I'm negative.

[crying]

♪

Am I overreacting?

Like, is that not like the most [bleep] worst [bleep] dig

anyone could ever [bleep] say?

♪

- It's just not true.

And, like, that's a red flag.

And, like, I'm supposed to [bleep] know that?

♪

He doesn't know who I am.

Like, you wonder why I'm, like, so [bleep] up in the head.

[sobs]

♪

I just can't believe he said that.

I really can't. I am in disbelief.

♪

- [groans]

- And now I want to know all the red flags now,

'cause now I know I had absolutely no [bleep] shot.

♪

Can I have another glass of Malbec, please?

♪

- [exhales deeply]

Yeah, so I would, at this rate now, really like

to know the other red flags.

- I don't know.

I've already-- - Honestly.

That might've been, like, the most hurtful thing

that anyone's ever said to me,

'cause it means, like, you don't know

who the [bleep] I am as a person.

♪

Do you get where I'm coming from?

♪

- Yeah.

♪

It's very hard for me to say those types of things,

because I don't want to hurt your feelings.

- This is hurting my feelings.

- Okay. Like, this accident, I was like,

this is a new side of her that I've never seen before.

- Which I already told you, like, I'm the same person.

I've seen a side of you that's maybe made me more positive

'cause now I'm not like [bleep] in my head all the time,

and, like, you're not making me angry.

So maybe that's what you saw.

But, like, I have been the same positive person,

and that is what people would describe me as,

as, like, a key quality and characteristic.

And that was, like, maybe

the most [bleep] hurtful thing ever.

Like, I don't deserve a lot. I'm like that just was like--

- So, Emily, Emily, I'm just-- I'm just trying to be honest.

- Keep being honest.

- Like, you're asking me to be honest with you.

- I am.

- And I'm telling you how it makes me feel when you

say those words all the time.

- 'Cause it means you don't know who I am as a person.

- Okay.

- And it means you never gave me

the chance to fix something

that clearly bothers you so much.

- Well, I've told you--

- How the [bleep] am I supposed to know that that means

as much as it does to you? - [sighs] Okay.

♪

- Can we just talk about-- - And that's how you reacted?

- Can we please talk about some positives?

- You had every [bleep] opportunity

in this dinner to talk positive, and here we are.

It didn't have to be this way.

- I don't we're making any progress.

- I mean, yeah. No.

I feel the most hurt I did this whole time.

So, yeah, that sucks.

- ♪ You burned it down

♪ You draw me back

♪ You light the match

♪ It only took one spark

♪ To burn it down

- ♪ I'm on my way back home

♪ Back home

♪ I'm on my way

- [crying] This is hard, because I don't want

to, like, hurt Austin.

But I also feel like there's been a level of dismissiveness

and combativeness.

♪

♪

[dramatic music]

- Last night was a really long dinner.

And to make things that much harder for us,

Brennan decided to go to his house.

And then he left,

which was really unfortunate and hurtful.

And just, like, sad and just, again,

like, how everything got handled.

Yeah, we ended up not even getting

to focus on the tons of positives

in the past two weeks or just in general, really.

I'm kind of in my head.

Just, like, right when I think, like, it just can't get worse,

it, like, does somehow.

♪

[funky music]

♪

- ♪ Can you feel the heat rising up, up, up? ♪

♪ Can you feel the beat?

♪ No, no, never stop

- Ooh.

Oh. [chuckles]

- That's my kind of outfit right here.

- Yeah? Is that what you have in mind?

Is that one of your three?

- You do this so I can't talk, huh?

- [laughing] Okay.

- ♪ La, la, la, la, la

♪ La, la, la, la, la

♪ Feel the heat is coming

♪ La, la, la, la, la

♪ La, la, la, la, la

- Hey, you all. Welcome. - Hi.

- Hi. How's it going? both: Good.

- How are you? - Pretty good.

Welcome to Vanilla.

Have you been here before? - Thanks for having us. No.

- For the most part, we have clothing, lingerie.

We also have mostly kink items on this side,

different impact play, different sensual items.

- We need to find three things that just speak to us

that we can then use a little later.

- On a scale of one to ten, if ten would be ultra freak

and number one would be, like, a vanilla wafer,

I would say I'm probably 6.3.

You know, I have some spiciness to me,

but not to the max.

You know, I would say my natural tendency in bed

is probably more vanilla, to be honest,

but I am more than happy to partake in freaky activity.

I may need someone to help inspire that.

So any of these things that she wants to play around with

to kind of just continue to mold our intimacy,

I'm all for it.

- These are pretty cool, the tasty holdings.

They're body scrubs

that will, like, actually be edible as well.

And they'll make you taste really good as well.

- Okay. [laughs]

- So I would taste like a glazed doughnut?

- Yes, precisely.

- Do you have maple bar, by chance?

- [laughs] There is a peach and a cherry flavor.

- Maple bar? - Yeah.

- That was so specific.

- Why was that so specific?

- I feel like if I was a doughnut,

I would be a maple bar. - Go off. Go off.

- Maple bar, if given a choice,

glazed doughnut hole based on what's available.

- My God. So specific.

What is happening?

I'm having a lot of fun watching him explore.

And I think the more positive experiences

Michael and I have together,

the more inclined we are

to create a really strong relationship and partnership.

And it's been so important for me

that we build an emotional connection

before we take any sort of really intimate step together.

And we get to have fun in these moments

as we're doing that.

All of that eventually leads to consummating the marriage.

[chuckles]

That's to beat your ass.

- [smacks leg] Oh, [bleep].

That hurt. [bleep]. - [chuckles] It hurts.

- Break the stones. [smacks leg]

You hear the bass there?

- Check them out--just a little fingerless latex glove.

It does have a little ring finger.

You might want some lube.

- I just need to equip this real quick.

- Maybe some grippers on the outside, you know?

- [chuckles]

Hi, baby. [laughter]

This doesn't do it for you?

How dare you? I'm trying, all right?

- [laughing] I don't think so.

- This doesn't work?

- He looked like he had a fin.

And...

[laughs] Just, ah, that's one of my favorite moments

of all time.

Well, God dang it. I don't know what to do.

- No, I feel like you do.

- We're going to have to buy this.

- I may never be able to take this off again.

I'm just letting you know. - Let's go home with this.

I'll be laughing about this for four days.

What is happening?

I'm looking for [bleep] [bleep].

I'm looking for another vibrator.

- Hey, I'm not stopping you.

- And I was really looking for something that was a glove...

- I know you wanted this Swiss army knife right here.

- With some feely things on it.

- It has a little... [imitates suction]

And a little... [imitates suction]

all together, mm. - [laughs]

How was that again?

- A little... [exhales sharply]

and... [imitates suction] And mm.

I think it said it did all three.

- Okay. Where are vibrators?

- So this one is going to be a vibrating masturbator.

Pretty much a vibrating stroker.

- That is amazing.

- And then this one is the big dog.

- Oh, my God. - The luxury.

- This is the Range Rover. - [chuckles]

- I think I'll start with the simple one,

or else I may never leave the bedroom.

- I'ma need you to need me at some point.

- Yes, I do say yes to Chloe. - [laughing] Oh, my God.

[upbeat music]

♪

- Water? - [sighs] Oh, yeah.

I would actually love that.

- So things did not go as planned last night at dinner.

He threw out this negativity thing

that I'm a negative person, and I left the dinner crying.

Sad, but maybe it's best for us.

I don't know. Who knows?

- Yeah.

I just think that, you know, we have been through a lot.

I think that I've tried to protect you as best as I can.

But I think, you know, there are things

that are worth telling you that you need to know.

[crying] I just don't feel like Brennan is giving you

the same respect that you give to him.

And I didn't want to tell you this.

At the same time, I had to be realistic about what's going on

and let you know what's happening.

I've heard through the grapevine

that he wanted to go on a double date with Cameron

and that he is going on dates.

Like, he's not a good guy.

And I'm just upset that you even thought

for a second that he had your best interest,

because he doesn't. - [sobbing]

♪

- Like, I appreciate it so much.

And...

it just confirms a lot of what I've been feeling.

And I've tried to, like, look past,

and, like, make-- see the best in him,

and, like, believe that this wasn't the case.

But it's like, I truly believe the way he talks to me,

he just doesn't respect me.

This just shows that.

It's, like, very, very sad...

- Yeah. - No matter what.

- And you deserve to be loved and to be heard,

and to be seen and not diminished

and not dismissed to make himself feel better.

And that's not something you deserve.

- Like, I don't think there was, honestly,

a better time than now.

[sniffles] I would have been devastated

to know this after, knowing that I had no control--

- He's just not ready for a commitment.

♪

- It just [bleep] sucks,

but it also validates

where I am now and, like, where I've been, like...

- I'm just sad that he's not realizing how amazing you are.

- This isn't how it had to end it,

and it's gonna end the way that it needs to end.

- Period.

♪

[dramatic music]

♪

- Hey.

- So, basically, I found out that you tried to go

on a double date with Cam.

And so the fact that, like, I feel like you've cared

so much about yourself and reputation in this

and did something that stupid,

honestly, I just don't understand, like,

why you would do something so dumb.

But, yeah, I can hear your reasoning, at least.

♪

- Yeah. That's not true.

- What do you mean it's not true?

- I don't even know what you're talking about.

- I don't--

- Me and Cam joke about [bleep] all the time.

Like... - It definitely wasn't a joke

if he felt the need to call Clare

and say how [bleep] up he thought it was.

- You have [bleep] against me?

- I do have [bleep] against you, Brennan.

- Why can't you just take ownership

to anything you [bleep] do

or even--I don't know-- say sorry?

Yes, it does.

Yeah, I am.

Remember when I say accountability?

You don't think I have accountability?

You think I'm so negative. You think you tried everything.

You think you didn't-- like, when I say there was

never a chance of anything.

- The negativity

caused there to be no [bleep] chance of us being ever--

- All right, once again, blaming it on me, once again--

- I am blaming it on you.

- You never told me anything about negativity.

- You're the most negative person I've ever met.

That's the [bleep] that pulled our relationship

to go nowhere.

- That's also-- I'm not negative.

- And I'm not looking for that.

- And you literally think you've done nothing,

even right now.

That's how I can feel like you're taking this--

is that you've done nothing wrong.

And, somehow, I've been negative

when I call you out for, like, needing to,

yeah, change some [bleep].

- You think I have to take accountability for that?

- Uh, yeah.

- I've been loyal to you this whole time.

- No, you have not.

And you have tried to come out of this unscathed.

And by doing so, you have been so [bleep] stupid.

And you've discredited me,

thinking that I'm not smart enough

and I'm going to be your little puppet

and stay positive the whole time,

when you've been doing this [bleep]

when I've already given you way more

of the benefit of the doubt, and like, tried to,

like, see the positive in you in this situation.

And I'm [bleep] done.

This isn't just me. This is not me starting anything.

You did this to yourself.

And you cannot say that it's because we--

we're friends and you apparently were single.

That's--we were very much married, and its two months,

and you can [bleep] pull it together.

- If that's how you feel after I saved your [bleep] life,

then--

- Are you [bleep] kidding me? You have--

- Like, it's unfathomable to me

that you can talk like this.

- You're manipulative. You have no accountability.

You have no awareness of anything.

And if you think in any [bleep] world

that this is going to come on me, you are wrong.

♪

- And you're going to try to destroy me?

- You did not save my life.

Anyone would have done the same thing if--

- No one else did, did they?

- No one else is there for a chance.

And granted, yeah, if I got to see the real you

in that two weeks and that's what I got out of this,

knowing, like, you do exist somewhere down there--

hopefully that is really you, that's great.

But, like, you can also not throw in you saved my life.

- All right. All right.

There's no reasoning with you, and you're going to say

whatever the [bleep] you want to say, so...

yeah, I'll be at the apartment [bleep].

And then I will see you on Decision Day.

- Okay.

- Peace.

- [bleep].

♪

- ♪ It's not love

♪ It's not love

♪ So come on

♪ Let it be

- Hi. - Hello.

- You brought tissues. - I brought tissues.

I brought a blankie.

- She's ready to go. - She's ready.

- To that, I thought we'd have, like, circle time on the floor.

So everyone pick your spot on the rug.

We're just going to let it all out.

- I'm here--food, tears.

- Okay.

♪

- The circle of trust.

This is what it looks like. This is what it looks like.

- Please talk to me and fill me in.

I'm just curious how it's all going.

- Um, yeah.

[voice breaking] I'm probably just going to cry

because I found out that...

Brennan was asking Cam

to go on double dates with other people.

And it just kind of went to show,

after, especially, like, our dinner the other night

that we had, like, that I've just always felt like he

just doesn't respect me. - Can you believe?

- And so, after we had dinner the other night,

that ended up going like--

I guess, I went off a little bit

just because he wants me to be positive

and sit there and just shut up.

And so, no matter what I say or do,

he will always come back and say I made it negative.

Like, why can't I stay positive?

And, like, this just isn't life.

And, like, I get the repercussions every day after.

He said this didn't work because of me two weeks in

because I was negative.

- Honey, one of my biggest issues with you

is that you are too positive. - You're too positive.

- Like, what pisses me off is that the worst sides

of Brennan are not on camera.

Like, Brennan makes Emily delete diary cams

if they don't reflect well upon him.

- He keeps being like, this isn't part of our story.

I'm like, I don't know what story

you already planned out for us,

but, like, this is part of my story.

- Like, these are the conversations

that she's had with me off camera.

- And then he tried to tell me today that, basically,

like, everything should be dismissed

because he saved my life, and I'm like--

- Yeah, the savior complex, no.

- Again, you appreciated me when I hit a tree.

Granted, I appreciate all you did.

And I'm happy of all of this.

I saw I think who you are for a hot sec.

- Yeah. - But, like, that is also not

your saving grace, and, like--

- I don't think we say that's who he is.

I think we say that's who he was in that moment.

- Mm-hmm. - And who he is is who he is.

- And we can be grateful for him in that moment.

But we can also reflect back and say, you know what?

That was great that he was like that in that moment,

but that's not how he is all the time.

- That's not how he is.

- The issue is, is that these men have been so concerned

with the optics and the story of everything,

rather than our feelings and our relationships.

- So sad. - And with Austin,

what he has an issue with is that I called him combative

and dismissive on camera.

And I said on camera, too, many times--

I was like, I can be combative and dismissive.

Like, I can also be those things.

- We all can be. - Right.

We're all human beings. - Yes. Yes.

And me saying that about you isn't

me saying that, like, you are this horrible, horrible person.

- Right. - Like, it's me telling you

that in this time, I experienced this part of you.

- That's literally what life and marriage

and any relationship is.

It's like, these people thought they could come on,

and, like, everything would be rainbows and butterflies.

And I think, like, we all had our rose-colored glasses on.

Mine might have been on for longer.

- [laughs] - True.

- But you should have never felt insecure.

That's not who you are.

I never have had so much second-guessing myself.

That's not what a healthy relationship is.

- It's still really hard

for me to, like, separate the two realities

of, like, on camera versus off camera

because he would say these things to me

and be emotionally intelligent, and I'm trusting that.

- Yeah. - And then that stuff

doesn't happen off camera.

I see the way that Austin just, like,

walks past me when I'm changing clothes.

Like, I see when I'm, like, putting on my makeup,

like, he's looking at himself, he's not looking at me.

Like, I just want to be told

that, like, I'm pretty every now and then.

- Isn't that sad?

Isn't that sad that you don't feel that?

With Decision Day coming up, we have to do

what's best for ourselves. - Yeah.

My reality is, like, newer,

and it came on a little bit faster,

so, like, I'm still processing what has happened.

I want to say yes on Decision Day

because he is telling me that what's actually [bleep] us up

is the cameras and I do love Austin.

Like, I think he is making our world a better place.

♪

I know that, like, when Austin and I are together,

we can have so much fun.

There are times when we just lay in bed and just laugh.

And I know that he is a good person.

I know that he has good intentions.

I know that this process was hard for him.

I know that it was emotionally exhausting.

And I know that he gave it his all.

And I know that I gave it my all.

And I know that at the end of the day,

he can see that, like, I have lifted him up

and that, like, I love him-- I truly do.

I cannot wait for this just to be easier.

- ♪ Don't

♪ Let me go

- ♪ We about to catch fire

♪ Just to burn it down, the time is now ♪

♪ About to catch fire, about to catch fire ♪

♪ We about to catch fire - ♪ Fire

- ♪ We about to light it up - ♪ Light it up

- Hi, guys. - Hi. Hello.

- Welcome to Ironton.

- Thank you.

- Yay.

Thank you so much. - I'll go grab your tea.

- How are you doing?

Talk to me.

- [sighs, clicks tongue]

That's a good question. [chuckles]

- We had a really interesting discussion,

where Austin wanted to talk about...

how he's hurt by the fact that...

'Cause it's only recently that I've started to, like,

actually discuss ways that I'm...

♪

Having a difficult time.

- I feel like sometimes the way she, like, expresses

her, like, thoughts and feelings about me

are more harsh

than, like, deserving.

So I think...

the words that she uses to describe me

aren't actual depictions of who I am.

And that hurts, and I don't know how to get over that.

- The conversation was confusing to me.

And, like, he didn't like that I called him combative.

And I think he was more concerned

about how he's being portrayed

than, like, how it's affecting me.

- Yeah.

I finally have just been 100% honest on camera.

- Yeah. - And he's having a hard time

with that because--

- And how truthful your relationship is.

- Yeah, and now when it isn't given back to me,

especially off camera,

I have now started to, like, regress

in how much, like, I...

- Give to him. - Yeah.

- I think you're trying to just have an authentic relationship.

- Yeah.

- And that means to, like, figure it out, talk about it

so then you can move forward.

- Yeah. It just stinks that now I'm hurting him.

- Yeah. - And I don't want to be.

But I also, like, couldn't keep,

like, pretending that these things weren't happening.

- We all strive to be good people,

and we want other people to understand

that we're good people.

And if that comes into question,

I think that's the number-one thing

that you can get defensive about--

is, like, I am not a harsh, cruel person.

♪

- We're each triggering each other

in certain ways. - Yeah.

- And I think the two of us together,

when we have a disagreement,

neither of us feels heard by the end of it.

- When things were going better,

before that chasm, I guess, started to open up

between you two, like, was that feeling there?

- Yeah.

There are a lot of things that we...

are very compatible on, very compatible with,

and, like, we agree upon.

I think there's a lot of, like, good in our relationship.

Unfortunately, that hasn't been the focus

for the past couple of weeks.

It's been mostly the bad,

which, like, it's kind of hard

to, like, see through the bad to see the good.

But, like, that's what I want. That's what I'm trying to do.

- I mean, obviously, either way,

I'm going to support your decision.

But, like, throughout the entire process,

I don't feel like you've felt desired,

pursued, appreciated, cherished.

Like, those are, like, very cornerstone things

that really should be on fire

in the beginning. - Yeah.

- And, like, I don't see that catching fire.

And I'm like, these are red flags that are, like,

a hard stop, in my opinion,

that I feel like you would say that to me.

If I was in this situation and I told you these things,

you'd be like, Lindsey, this isn't your person.

- I'm doing, like, all of these things, and, like...

- I know. You're tired.

[somber music]

♪

- Yeah, but I don't want to be hard on him.

And I don't want him to feel like...

♪

Yeah, like he's a bad person.

But I can't just...

live a life that isn't real.

Like, I can't keep pretending. - Yeah.

♪

- I need to change if, like, I want to be with her.

And, like, I'm willing to put in the work

to see, like, how it goes.

And I really want to [bleep] try.

But, like, where's the limit?

- You have to take care of yourself.

- Yep. - And, you know,

it's a silly cliché, but, like,

you can't light yourself on fire to keep someone else warm.

You shouldn't just roll over

and be someone that you're not just to make it work.

♪

[chill pop music]

- ♪ All the youngest promises ♪

♪ All the youngest promises

♪ All the youngest promises

♪ Say their goodbyes

- How's it going? - Oh, hello.

- I'm just going to grab my stuff.

[soft music]

♪

All right. Want to talk for a sec?

- Not really.

- All right.

I wish you the best.

- ♪ You know how to hurt me

♪ Mmm

♪ How to hurt me

♪

- I never thought in a million years, it would end this way.

I never wanted it to end this way.

I never thought he would do the things he did.

I never thought he would lie about it.

There's not many more words to say at all

from my perspective at this point.

♪

Like, this is the end of Brennan and Emily.

- ♪ You know how to hurt me, how to hurt me ♪

♪ Got me at your mercy

♪ I'm at your mercy

♪ I won't let you drive me away ♪

♪

- ♪ If you want me to be the one ♪

♪ It shouldn't be so complicated ♪

- I'm hurt and upset.

Austin left the apartment.

[somber music]

♪

I'm just trying to, like, sort through...

♪

Actions and reality and, like, what has happened.

I think Austin and I were, like, in an okay place

before...

I went to go talk with Lindsey.

We hugged and kissed each other goodbye.

We, like, were laughing together, like, just--

just, yeah, good.

So, when I came back and in the apartment,

something had shifted.

And I could tell that...

he was no longer really happy.

And we sat down,

and we got into another discussion

about how he is worried

about the optics of him on the show,

how I don't realize that, like, I'm painting him

to look like a really awful person

and not the way that he actually is.

Him being so concerned about the optics makes me question

the reality of our relationship,

because if what he's so focused on now

is the optics of our relationship, like,

how do I not know that how he's been acting this entire time

has been to make the optics look good?

Because now they're finally not looking good,

and he's not concerned with how we're doing.

I mean, he is,

but his main concern is the optics and not us.

♪

His main concern is him.

♪

Like, I think that there's a lack of trust there,

no matter what,

because if Austin trusted me and knew that I always

have his best interest at heart,

he would know that I was not painting

his name red across the town.

I know I still never will.

It feels sad because I really do love Austin

and I really did want to make this work.

♪

And from the get-go, I had a crush on him,

and I still have a crush on him.

♪

But I just think...

♪

I don't think he would be as...

combative or dismissive with his person.

- ♪ I was alone

[vocalizing]

♪

[dramatic music]

♪

- Decision Day is tomorrow.

And I've been taking into consideration

the magnitude that this decision has on my life,

you know?

Never thought I'd be getting divorced,

but I wouldn't want to have done it with anyone else.

♪

Oh, that's not true anymore, unfortunately.

♪

I wish you didn't have to make it this hard.

I wish we weren't at this point.

I wish we could have...

had smooth sailing from our reset

and just walked away as friends.

And I just feel like it's really unfortunate

that we are where we are.

- I am feeling a lit--

not a little, very uneasy, actually, about...

less of the day, just more around seeing Brennan

and kind of what is going to transpire.

I want to make sure that I'm saying

everything I need to say, even if that hurts me,

makes it sad, like,

for me to have to say that is hurtful to him.

I just want to make sure that I'm...

saying all that I need and leaving with no regrets.

But I have just a bad feeling about...

what Brennan is coming

and what is in store for us tomorrow.

♪

[mellow music]

♪

- The sex shop was really fun.

I enjoyed having that experience.

It was a good one. - Mm-hmm.

It was really fun. - Yeah, apparently.

Professional over here, huh?

- Can we open it? - Go ahead.

- Yeah, I just want to--

I just want to open it. - See?

- Full transparency--

I've never had a run-in with one of these.

- Mm-hmm. - [laughs]

- I would find it quite odd if you had one of these on hand.

You just kept them in stock.

♪

- Okay. Rechargeable. - No, no, these are earbuds.

- Oh, those are earb--Wait. - Please, put them on.

Apparently there is a sound element to this.

- [laughs]

- Oh, it has a condom on.

Hold this for me, please. - [laughing]

- It's like a jellyfish. - [continues laughing]

[object squeaking] - You hear the sound?

- [continues laughing]

- You're ruining the mood for me with all this laughter.

Hey, hey, hey, hey, be gentle with it.

- Let me see it. - Smell it?

What? What are you doing?

- I just wanted to see what it smelled like.

- Oh. No, please. Go ahead.

- I'm so--can I just touch it for a second?

- Sure.

It looks like [bleep] hole, by the way.

- No. - This looks like a penis hole.

- That's a vagina.

- No, I know what it's supposed to be.

But what vagina do you know has a helmet like that?

- [laughing] - Huh?

- I think sex toys are an amazing addition

for just a little more adventure and exploration

and doing something that might be a little out of the norm.

And Michael seems super receptive and fun with them,

so I'm excited that he's as open as I am.

We're going to give it five more minutes,

and then you're going to give it a go.

Just going to give it a whirl. - Sure. I'll try.

I can't do it if you're laughing the entire time.

- I promise not to be.

I'm just fascinated. I just want--

I want to hear the moans.

[laughing]

- Can I name her Penelope?

- Penelope? - Yeah.

It's a cute name.

- Penelope? - Yeah.

- Dear--Kill the lights. - Mm-hmm.

- Five more minutes. Set your alarm.

And then you're getting to work.

[sighs] It feels like this needs a place in the bed now.

So now we've got five animals.

- Calling Penelope an animal? How dare you?

Mm-hmm.

- I'm so excited.

I don't even-- I feel like a kid on Christmas.

- Yeah? - Mm-hmm. I do.

- And what exactly are you excited for?

What's exciting you?

- I just I want to watch Penelope in action.

- I can't wait to try.

- Ooh, nasty.

♪

- Ready? - Ah.

♪

[moaning, smooching]

- Next time...

while Chloe and Michael continue

to grow their marriage,

Decision Day arrives for the rest of the couples,

as they make the biggest decision of their lives.

- I was very unaware of my feelings.

- I felt your emotion of what I would call love.

- She just, like, doesn't trust me on camera

or off camera anymore.

- He also threatened me the other day

and said he had enough to ruin my life on TV

after this all came out.

- I'm going to say it plainly. I [bleep] up the process.

- [sniffles]

- You told me you wanted to go to war with me, so I just--

- I did not say that. - Okay.

- I do care for her.

- [voice breaking] I don't feel centered

to be able to, like, tell.

- Do you want to stay married?

[suspenseful music]

- Or you want to get a divorce?

♪